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Why?
My lungs are heavy and so is my heart as if their made of steal. I can’t see my eyes are becoming an ocean stuck in a storm. I can’t breathe as if all the oxygen in the world has gone. The tears pour out of my sucken eyes, a scream rips out of my chest leaving my throat raspy and dry.
Why?
The thought doesn’t go compute. Because why should it? Why should I believe such a stupid thing? It’s not true. I could never be true, no. not for him. I just can’t. My mind turning into a mess, its tangled, the thoughts are racing through. I feel my heart sink. The think and crack of my heart.
Why?
The simple idea of waking up with out the warmth beside your side is enough to send another sob and screech out of you. There would no longer be kisses on your cheeks and forehead in the morning. No more hitting each other’s head when stretching in bed. No more love.
Why?
Its almost cruel. No, it is cruel. How could I not be? The love of my life being torn away from me. Who would I become? Without him I’m useless. Where would my inspiration for the day? Who would keep me going through the long shifts just by thinking of him when I would get home? Who’s going to hold me in my time of need?
Why?
I won’t be able to hold him in his time of need and want, I can no longer his away the salty tears from his cheeks and kiss his face with love. I would no longer be able to see his beautiful eyes so full of love.
Why?
My heart shakes and breaks along with my mind running even quicker thinking of everything we will miss. The things that haven’t even happened yet, maybe our future wedding? Maybe we would’ve had children? Lived in a white picket fenced house with acres of land to see them running around on. The first times we had which are now to last times.
Why?
my heart is heavy and full of sorrow and pain. He is gone and so have i. the wind blows through my hair and the sun setting rests upon my face. The bridge is peaceful and quite. For my love I jump. To see his smile. To see his eyes. To feel his warmth once more.