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Kuragari, Youhai, and Cuòwù. 3 names have 3 different meanings. Kuragari meaning darkness. Youhai means destructive. Cuowu means mistake. Oh and how can I forget Anzhong…the name given to me by the present and former Electro Archon. Anzhong my name doesn’t have any meaning. They said it was me who decided what my name means. Youhai was the name he used…Belios the name of our old master. I still remember the days when it was just me and Xiao back then. I would go interact with humans and Xiao would follow me like a lost child. It was funny how he’d hide every time I looked back at him. The two of us would always sleep in a cave in Dragonspine. I'm not sure why but we both liked it. We’d also eat that bitter snow and at times some humans would give us food. Me and Xiao were resting under a tree and that's where Belios and his wife found us.
Was God here to help? Yes! Finally we wouldn't have to suffer anymore! Oh how wrong was I. They took us to their place. I'm not sure how he found out our names, hell I don’t even know how he found us under that tree if it was well hidden. I still remember what they did to us, mainly what Ecipsa did to me. I remember everything and every small detail. It’s a curse to remember I get sick just by remembering a small part. On the first day they made us clean the entire mansion with just one single dust particle and we’d be hit. He’d make us train until we puke and consume dreams. We'd be forced to kill humans and if we didn’t then we’d get beat. There would also be times where he would starve us. We also had to cook and clean for them. We had to be their little maid. Once we had to cook for some guests and surprise surprise it was our current lord Morax. While Xiao was cooking I had to show him around the mansion. Then I heard a slap. I’m a fast runner so he couldn’t catch up to me. I ran away from him and went straight to the kitchen and I saw Xiao on the floor crying she was going to hit him again but this time it looked harsh. I quickly ran to protect him and took the slap. For months I was protecting Xiao and made sure he was okay. Then came that day. The day I was sent away from Xiao.
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Belios sent me away from Xiao. He was tired of me protecting Xiao so he sent me to Eclipsa chambers. In there I was… She brought men over while I was tied up. I didn’t know how many but they unclothed me and put a gag on me so I could shut up. I feel them touching me in places that shouldn’t be touched by other people. Next thing you know I feel something enter my insides…no matter how much i cried and begged them to stop they wouldn't listen to me. They would yell at me to shut up. Everyday was the same thing. Same time everyday without stopping they’d shove their dicks inside of me and call me names. I hated it so much that I tried to kill my self but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Who would protect Xiao? And who would take care of him if he freed himself? I didn't tell Xiao about that. I didn't want him to know I was scared of what his reaction was.. then a few days later I overheard the maids talking about what Belios did to Xiao while Eclipsa was beating me with her whip. I was beyond pissed. I somehow managed to stand up and make a run for it. It hurt but I had to run to protect him. After all that is what family does right? That was the time I received my vision. Pyro..a never ending passion. Belios was about to burn Xiao and I quickly pushed Xiao out of the way and took it.
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When he saw me took it he was enraged at me and Xiao was crying while checking up on me he thought I had died hah I’ve been through so many life threatening situations it’s a blessing that I’m still alive but anyways Belios got an iron rod and set it on fire with “錯誤” meaning mistake and but it on my lower back. Xiao..my dear little brother oh how I wish you didn’t see me in that state. Then it was the time of the Archon War Belios put me and Xiao in front. Usually for other people it would mean good you’d die to protect your beloved contrary but to us it ment “you can die for all I care” 7 seats opened in celestia for 7 gods. Belios and his wife were participating in it since they'd go kill weaker gods and if one of them were to get hurt they’d call for us to attack while they ran away. They didn’t care if we got injured, they just cared about themselves. One day they sent me out to go behead some weaker gods. Since I wasn't classified as a god I didn't participate. I didn't wanna leave Xiao but I had no choice and unfortunately I don't know what happened to him. I know that it was the day …it was the day that a little bird lost its wings to freedom. I’m not entirely sure what happened but Eclipsa had found out that Xiao is a Vermillion bird so she ripped them out in anger, perhaps it reminded her of her wings that she used to have. I also have but thankfully I managed to hide them from her when I got back since she wanted to
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know if I also had. Then came the day we managed to escape. Everything went according to plan. It was cold in Liyue, snow was everywhere and Xiao was bleeding and couldn’t walk a lot so I had to carry him to a cave and we stayed there for a few days. I managed to heal Xiao just a bit though but it was something. Some weeks had passed by and Belios had found us along with Morax when Belios saw me he had grabbed me by the throat and electrocuted me harshly…Xiao woke up from the yell i let out while I was lying on the floor unconscious he begged Morax to help us but Belios had already ordered him to attack him. Thankfully one of his Yaksha was with him and healed me a bit and Belios did with Xiao he also ordered me to attack Morax. Morax didn't want to hurt us so he knocked us out and Bosacius carried us while Belios and Morax were fighting. Morax was Enraged and took out all of anger while Bosacius watched, covering us so we wouldn't get hurt Morax didn’t want to kill him cause if he did then he’d participate in the war but after what he saw what Belios did to us he beheaded him. They took us to Guli plains where we met Lady Guizhong and Cloud Retainer. I don't remember much from what had happened. I was too tired and Xiao was checking up on me. But I remember that Xiao was in-front of me protecting me since he didn’t want anyone to touch me. He was scared that they’d harm me and treat us like they did. Haha In the end they did manage to examine my injuries at the cost of Xiao hugging me tightly and yelling at them everytime I would hiss.
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Yes it did hurt when he was hugging me but I didn’t mind after all he was worried and I would’ve done the same thing when they finished taking care of my injuries. It was Xiao's turn and surprisingly he let them touch him. Lady Guizhong gave me some medicine to make me sleep so my injuries could heal faster. I took them and Instantly fell asleep. I heard that Xiao bit Lady Guizhong harshly because he thought that she killed me. He stayed right next to me hugging me, not letting go of me, not even Morax or Bosacius could take him off me. I woke up in a few weeks to see Xiao fast asleep. It was the first time I’ve ever seen him sleep in peace so I fell asleep next to him peacefully. Then it was the next day the two of us woke up and Xiao cried a lot. It woke up Lady Guizhong and Morax so they both walked inside our room to see what was going on and they saw Xiao crying while hugging me. He was such a cry baby back then and he still is but he only cries when he's with me. Then they gave us some time to be together. Lady Guizhong and Morax wanted to know what happened to us. They first came to me since I
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was the oldest and asked me a few questions along with giving me food once we had finished. Luckily they managed to understand me since I couldn't speak well. I asked them not to go to Xiao and question him since I was scared that it would trigger him. Thankfully they didn't ask him anything. Lady Guizhong went to check up on Xiao and took some food to give him and Morax stayed with me, giving me more food and also introduced themselves to us. Lady Guizhong would teach us how to read and write while Morax would be behind her braiding her hair or would be busy with his Adepti. Weeks went by and me and Xiao discussed wanting to serve Morax since we looked up to him. So we went to go look for him and try our best to speak to him since we couldn’t really speak that much and were still kind of learning plus we were kind of scared of him since Lady Guizhong would tell us stories about him. Morax was a bit surprised and agreed but he first wanted to introduce us to his other Yakshas. Bosacius saw us behind Morax and came up to us asking us questions while the others were a bit confused. Moarx told them who we were and asked them if they could take care of us while he and Lady Guizhong went to go see some other gods in the area. Indarias and Bonanus came up to us and introduced themselves to us. Menogias went to get us some food since he heard Xiao's stomach rumble. Once they introduced themselves they showed us around the place. A few months pass by and we had already grown up Bosacius, Indarias, Bonanus, Menogias grew on us and would always protect us. Like this one time Xiao tripped and fell down.
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They started to fix the floor so that he wouldn’t fall down again oh! And that time I got sick they canceled training just to be with me. Ah then Lady Guizhong and Morax came up to all of us offering a new contact. A contract that would make us family but I didn't think there was a need to make a contract for it since we already saw each other as family but oh well. Lady Guizhong and Morax would be our parents and Bosacius and Menogias would be our older brothers Indarias, Bonanus are our older sisters and me and Xiao are the youngest. Then a month later mom came to us to talk about Karma…and how people can die from it. Lady Guizhong was the first one to lose to Karma while Morax was with her. She knew she was going to lose to it from the very beginning. She attacked him with a sword Morax had given her the Primordial Jade Cutter. In the end Morax did kill her and mom gave him the Memory of Dust all of her wisdom is hidden in there. He came back with a jar of dust and explained what happened to her; he didn't
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tell us that he killed her, he told us that she killed herself. Few weeks later we were in charge of getting rid of Chi, a dragon that Morax had to fight. His leftover Karma was slowly moving to Guli plains so we had to seal him away. That’s where we lost our sister Indarias. Our mask speaks to us when we put it on telling us that they want more death. They told her it was Morax who killed Lady Guizhong so she attacked us. Morax knew something went wrong so he came to check up on us and when she saw him she went crazy and hit him with no hesitation. Morax let her hit him, he didn't want to hurt her then she disappeared and Xiao went to go look for her. We all looked at him wondering if he was okay and if what she said was true. He stayed quiet the entire time. The only time he spoke was when he told us to go rest up so we did. Weeks went by and Xiao didn’t come back. I was worried so I went to go look for him. I found them….but Indarias has set herself on fire and killed herself..her final words where “For what it’s worth…I was happy so please don’t make that face stay strong gege…I wish you all a happy life” she saw me and she smiled then she was gone leaving only her mask behind. To Morax who showed up seconds before her death she said to him “And my dear beloved lord…I’m sorry for leaving..so early….and thank you..”. Bonanus and Menogias were the second ones to leave us. We were training and all of a sudden Mengogias attacked Bonanus while Bosacius stood in front of us to protect us. In the end they both ended up killing each other right in front of us they told us “Xiōngdìs…we’re sorry you have to see us like this…please live a life that’s worth living…and take care of yourself…live with no regrets'' like Indarias they also left their mask behind. Bosacius…Morax told us he was at the Chasm taking care of something with Azhdaha. One day Morax came to us and told us what had happened to Azhdaha. Erosion got to him and made him go crazy. He broke his part of the contract and Morax had sealed him away since Azhdaha would cause the ground to shake which has disturbed humans. He didn't mention anything about Bosacius. When I lost control a person from khaenri'ah sealed me away in the pyro regisvine for 500 years which was kind of weird since i didnt think 500 was necessary. Which was odd but I suppose that was the only option that was available. When Xiao lost control I wasn’t there. I wish he told me though.
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While I was in the regisvine I was asleep having the same dream over and over again. At times I could hear voices. There was a voice that I heard that sounded like a female. I still remember what she said “When the time is right you too shall join the abyss.” Odd right? As the years went by it was time to be free. The regisvine exploded and i was standing there so confused. I first went to look for Xiao since he's always been my first priority. It was hard looking for him but I saw a flash of Anemo and black at the camp so I went to check it out. And I saw him. Xiao, my little brother, how long has it been since I've seen you. Being the amazing brother that I am, I helped him clear out the camp. Which was a bad idea since I ended up burning everything and I was kind of dizzy from when I got out. Opps hehe. But at least we got the job done so that was good. Xiao looked at me surprised and ready to cry. He didn't move, he just dropped his weapon and fell to his knees. So I hugged him and cried. The two of us stayed like that for a while just crying and hugging nothing else. I calmed down first and smiled at him, wiping his tears away. Once Xiao had calmed down he hugged and didn't let go. He asked me all sorts of questions, some of them i didnt answer since I didn't know the answer to them. He took me to Wangshu inn and told me everything that has happened ever since I was sealed away. It was a bit hard to process the information but I managed. The death of our lord shocked me a lot. He gave me time to process the information and we soon went to visit Morax now known as Zhongli. Once we had arrived there we saw Zhongli and Ganyu talking. They both turned to look at me and they were shocked. Ganyu looked like she was about to pass out and Zhongli started to tear up. Xiao told them what happened and the two of them listened. Ganyu led me to the table to sit down and Zhongli went to get some tea for us. Once the tea was done he came to sit down with us and we all started talking. Telling me all that had happened. Like with Xiao it took me some time. That's all I can say.