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I miss you Lex. I mean I don't miss all of it, we were never going to work out. But I miss you.
I miss the first time we kissed. I was so worried about making sure you were ready I asked you like 5 times if you were sure but you just pulled me in and kissed me. I miss that.
I miss movie nights. Sitting on your bed just cuddling for hours. Lying on your chest and feeling your heart beat. Not paying attention to the movie. Or paying way too much attention and yelling at the screen, laughing together at how terrible it was.
I miss the bad days. Knowing I had someone to go to when everything was just way too much. The relief of seeing you when I was on the verge of crying.
I miss walking with you. Just talking and talking about such random and useless shit. Seeing you laugh. Making you smile.
I miss you saying you loved me. Me off on some tangent about music and you looking at me with that expression on your face and saying "I love you, dork"
I miss comforting you. Being the person you could turn to when you were bawling your eyes out or shaking with rage. I miss stroking your hair when you were ill.
I miss being intimate with you. Knowing your body and how you like things. Being the person you shared that with. A secret between us.
I miss teasing each other. Sharing inside jokes only we get. Sharing knowing looks in public.
I miss the feeling of belonging to something or someone. Knowing they care about you no matter what you do or don't do.
We were never going to last. We both had dreams too big for each other. Cali was a long time ago. I've accepted things now. But I miss you.