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Shadow sat beside your bed in the hospital room, observing the iv droplets drip inside the plastic bag.
He stood up and knelt beside you, your hands intertwined as let out a sigh - a sigh full of the feeling of emptiness.
A month ago, had found you passed out in your shared apartment, it had looked like a crime scene. Scars littered your arms, thighs, and stomach as fresh blood pooled around you on the bathroom floor - he felt sick.
He didn't know what to do, out of panic - he had called Sonic. Sonic had never even heard him sound so... desperate for help. Sonic immediately contacted the property people to. handle the situation, even accompanying Shadow to the hospital.
It's been a month, Sonic and the rest of the gang along with Rouge try their best to visit Shadow daily. They always bring food, because Shadow often forgets to take care of himself due to worry. Shadow insist on paying them back one day, an out of character act for him - but since your life was on the line he was willing to do anything.
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"Goddamnit. Wake up, please." he had never been this vulnerable - well not since the incident with Maria.
"Please, you're all I have, don't go with Maria just yet, I-I still need you, for fucks sake.." His voice trembled at the end, he didn't know what to do if the worst case scenario happened.
Oh God. He didn't want the past to repeat itself. He felt tears stream down his face as his anxiety grows.
Suddenly, he felt your fingers move, softly gripping his own. His eyes widenein shock but at the same time felt relief, he immediately contacted a nurse.
After the doctors had given you a few tips and an estimated time of departure, he had you all to your.
"Hey." you said weakly, smiling at him in the same manner.
"Am I..alive?"
"Yes, you are." Shadow replied tiredly, as he hadn't gotten any sleep recently.
"I'm sorry I didn't die." You said casually, giggling afterwards. He knew you joked about dark topics but seriously? at a time like this? He snapped.
"For fucks sake, (Y/N) You've been unconscious for over a month! Do you have any idea how worried I was?!"
"Y-you were bleeding, s-so much when I found you in the bathroom.. I froze, I-I didn't know what to do.."
"What the hell were you thinking?! You could've died you idiot! God I don't fucking know what'll do without yo-"
He stopped when he saw your tears stream down your face, staining the white hospital blanket.
"I-I just, yknow. I felt like a burden to you, to everyone. God, I'm a waste of space, I don't deserve you, you and your friends are such nice people, I'm an awful person, my past isn't something I'm proud off and I deserve to suffer from it."
"You probably think I'm a freak now huh? You can leave me if you want, that's how everyone reacts once they discover what I do to myself."
You hugged yourself, your knees now in front of you as you sobbed quietly.
"...I may not know how to comfort you or what to say at times, but please, tell me if somethings wrong - or if you ever feel this way again. We can deal with it, together. Just please, promise me that you'll never do something like this again? "
For the first time in a while, he let's out a genuine smile. He then climbes up the bed aswell, right next to you.
He held you, it felt so safe, so secure. Regret immediately flooded your mind," I'm sorry, I love you so much. "
You were only given a forehead kiss in reply, and you wouldn't have had it any other way.