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"Yah. We haven't seen each other in years and you act like you're decent now?" Jihoon asks and Chan lowers his head and hopes he's pink enough from drinking so they won't see how flustered he actually is.
"Hyung. It's not like that." Chan says and Jihoon taps Vernon's shoulder twice and Vernon gives Chan an apologetic glance before getting up and letting Jihoon take his seat as he heads for Jihoon's seat next to Jun.
"What? You used to say I was your favorite back then now you can't look at me without flinching." Jihoon says and he smiles that cocky and gorgeous smile Chan missed so much.
"Jihoon-ah. Stop tormenting Chan. If he doesn't come back then we're all blaming you. And we all really want Chan to come back next year." Seungcheol says in his big bad alpha voice which probably would've worked better if he wasn't draped over Seokmin, red from his neck up to his ears.
"Nah, he'll come back. Channie always does whatever hyung asks for, right?" Chan tenses in his seat. Hands in his lap as he forces himself to calm down and all of that seems to entertain Jihoon even more. He grins, leans in enough for Chan to smell him. Like, really smell him. And he holds his breath just to keep himself from embarrassing himself more. Not that that matters given what Jihoon says afterwards.
"What? Is hyung not good enough for you now that you're an alpha?" Jihoon asks and Chan's fingers dig into his thighs. He blacks out for a second and the next thing he noticed is a loud banging sound of a metal tin right next to his ear and Jihoon flinches back, grabbing onto his shoulder and turning around with a hand on his head.
"Leave Chan alone, asshole. He's one second away from smelling like he's in his rut if you don't quit it." Soonyoung says, holding the little metal bowl their rice came in from and Chan figured that's what he hit Jihoon with.
"You're just mad because you've always wanted Chan to say you're his favorite." Jihoon answers back and Soonyoung scoffs.
"Yah. I raise Chan like he was my son." Soonyoung argues and Jeonghan argues back that he really didn't. Soonyoung looked genuinely hurt that his boyfriend didn't back him up and Jeonghan kisses his cheek as an apology.
"If anything, Wonwoo raised Chan. But he was feeding him Mingyu's food so maybe Mingyu and Wonwoo did? This is all based on technicality, of course. Because if it's wisdom and life lessons I think I've taught him a lot." Jeonghan adds and Jihoon scoffs.
"I can count in two hands the number of times you two have met, hyung." Jihoon adds and Jeonghan smiles.
"And he's already learned so much. Imagine if he'd let hyung take care of him properly." Joenghan says and Jihoon rolls his eyes.
"I think we can all agree that even if Jihoon was the one who found Chan, it was Wonwoo who kind of raised him." Jun adds and now someone on the other side of the table lets out a frustrated groan.
"No, Vernon and I did." Seungkwan interrupts all of them and now everyone is in on the conversation.
"If it weren't for us he'd have quit the club because you all keep ganging up on him." Seungkwan adds from the other side of the table.
"No we don't." Soonyoung adds and Jeonghan laughs.
"Yeah? What are you doing now, then?" Seungkwan fires back and now the discussion is on how everyone is a good person and how they all took care of Chan and they all take turns defending themselves. Even the three who weren't even in high school anymore when Chan was a freshman. Chan's glad though because their attention isn't just on him and he's not really sure how he can defend how turned on he is just by Jihoon's hand going from his shoulder to the side of his neck. Petting his skin gently as he keeps the conversation going like it's nothing. Like Chan isn't about to explode.
You see, the thing about Chan is that he's been in love with Jihoon since high school.
Yeah, that seems pretty cliché. Like, an alpha who knew all along that this omega is their ride or die or whatever. But honestly, Chan knew he was in love with Jihoon before he even knew he could like boys.
Jihoon was a senior when Chan was on his first year and he found Chan just as a few third year students were cornering him by the stairwell. "Don't you idiots have anything better to do than antagonize freshmen? Are you actually this pathetic?" He said by the top of the stairs, standing with his hands in his pocket and the front of his hair tied up.
Chan didn't think that was all it would take for his brain to see Jihoon as his knight in shining armor.
After that, Jihoon asked why he was alone at lunch in the first place and Chan admits that he doesn't have friends yet and that he didn't really want to participate in any club.
"That's why you're an easy target for those idiots. Wanna come with? To my club? Hyung will look after you." He asks and Chan nods. Jihoon walks down the stairs and pats his shoulder once before walking on ahead.
"We didn’t have any freshmen so maybe you'd wanna join?" Jihoon asks without turning around and Chan swallows.
"What club is it?"
"Specialized Video Technology. Basically just a bunch of idiots who does tech stuff. Like filming, photography, movies, that kind of stuff. The school lets us handle recordings of events and stuff sometimes and it's good excuse to be excluded from academic activities." Jihoon says and he smiles at Chan over his shoulder, turning his head without stopping. And Chan stares.
He has really pretty eyes.
"I'm not really that good with tech stuff." Chan offers and he laughs.
"Same here. I just joined because three of my friends did. And one of them joined because they liked someone from the club. He was a senior last year though so we'll introduce you to them later on." Jihoon says and Chan stops walking.
"What?"
"What?" Jihoon stopped and turned.
"This is an all boys school." Chan says and Jihoon smiles.
"Yeah. And?" Jihoon asks and Chan can feel himself blushing. Jihoon smiles. He smiles so softly because of his round cheeks and his pretty eyes look even prettier like this. But his smile was devious and playful. Mischievous. Chan feels a little breathless just staring.
"Oh, you're going to be so much fun. What's your name?"
"Chan. Lee Chan."
"Channie. Well I'm Lee Jihoon. Nice to meet you." Jihoon says and Chan's life has never been the same since.
He did find some peace though. Around five years of it. Well, it's not really that peaceful given that they were his college years but, still. A few years away from their little group was peace enough. He loves them, he really does. He can't think of a group of idiots he'd love more than them and even after five years in college he didn't meet a friend who feels right for him the same way that they are. He kept in contact with all of them though. Vernon and Wonwoo attending the same university as him and Wonwoo was even in the same course. He meets them one at a time, sometimes a couple at a time, but through all those years, they never really met as a whole group of thirteen again. Random late night bar hopping with Seokmin, Seungcheol, Mingyu, Wonwoo, Minghao, and Vernon. Spontaneous brunch dates with Soonyoung and Jeonghan and sometimes Chan can force Vernon with them too. Jun would sometimes be in town for some reason and he always forces Wonwoo to go out with him so Wonwoo forces Mingyu and Chan to go with him and in turn, Chan forces Vernon to go with them, too. He pretty much never really separated from them but he can handle them like that compared to being with all twelve of them together.
But as much as everyone teases him for being the only person in the group, outside of Wonwoo, Jun, and Soonyoung, to have kept in contact with him, he honestly never really even met Jihoon again after his graduation. Not physically. He would call Chan at the most random times and sometimes even video call him just because he wants to. They've basically been messaging each other at least once a week and Chan feels a little too proud to know which of the Marvel movies he loved and which ones are the ones he never watched again after the premier. But even after all that, he can't find it in himself to meet him in person.
Chan doesn't want to admit it but he knows he's being weird knowing that his Jihoon presented as an omega. And that Jihoon knows that he presented as an alpha.
Because he was assuming Jihoon would be an alpha. He figured everyone was. From the way he walks and talks and the way he carries himself. Even from the way he took care of the younger members of their club made Chan think he'd be a great alpha. Or maybe he was just silently hoping Jihoon was an alpha because he was pretty sure he'd present as an omega.
Yeah. Chan was pretty much preparing to 'seduce' Jihoon the moment he knew how mating worked and when he fully understood what heats and ruts were, Jihoon had already presented as an omega.
But that didn't stop eighteen year old Chan from making up a back up plan. Besides, the worlds progressed a lot. No one actually thinks that omegas should only mate with alphas. It's cool. Chan thinks Jihoon would be into it.
And yet again, his plan alters when he presented as an alpha a couple of years back.
And here he is now.
"I thought you were over this little crush on Hoonie hyung." Vernon says as they step out of the bus and Chan hits his arm. They're a little tipsy but it's nothing new. Chan actually thought he'd end up blacking out because as sweet and caring Jeonghan is, he always makes Chan drink with him and Chan could never keep up with him.
"Shut up." Chan answers back and Vernon laughs.
"You're adorable. I thought you'd grow some balls and actually flirt back but you were just shaking in your seat."
"I wasn't- Jihoon hyung wasn’t flirting." Chan says. Because it's true.
"Really? 'My little Channie always does whatever I ask for.' You stink, by the way. I'm pretty sure you need stronger scent blockers if you're gonna keep hiding that boner you have for hyung." Vernon says and Chan slaps the back of his neck and Vernon hisses at the sting.
"I don't use scent blockers. And if I do need them I'd call you or Wonwoo hyung. I'm sure you both are very experienced in using them." Chan adds and Vernon snorts.
"Then you better tell him when he drives us to the city the day after tomorrow because you are in dire need of some and I'm not giving you any with that fucking attitude." Vernon says, smiling, and Chan walks on ahead. Vernon laughs as he calls for him to wait up and Chan just kept walking.
The only reason they finally managed to come together as a group this year is because it's the first time Chan went back home after college. And the first time Jun and Minghao were in South Korea at the same time and also the very first time everyone had a somewhat free schedule. Wonwoo offered to drive the three of them home and back to the city afterwards so it makes things a little easier. Since Vernon's family moved in to the city when they went to college, Chan offered to let him sleep with him in his parent's house. Wonwoo offered to let Vernon room with him but Chan told him it's fine. His mom and his younger brother were specially happy to have Vernon in the house that they almost wouldn't let them leave when the time came. His mom even asked if Jihoon was gonna be there and Chan drags Vernon to the door as Vernon answers for him and says he'll make sure Chan won't embarrass himself in front of Jihoon. Most places are packed because it's a Friday and its actually sort of a blessing in disguise because they end up walking around town until they eventually pass by the old barbeque place they used to go to during their graduations. They had to drink at Friday night because some of them have work to finish by Sunday and Chan actually prefers having two days to process meeting them again. Meeting him again. In person.
But apparently, Jihoon doesn't want to give him even eight hours because at nine in the morning, with Vernon still passed out on the floor next to Chan's bed, his phone is ringing and Jihoon's name is flashing on his phone.
Which is how he ended up here. In a diner they all grew up in.
Chan is fidgeting in his seat, hoping, praying, that Vernon was just exaggerating and he isn't actually stinking up the place. He had called Wonwoo and just spilled everything and the fucker laughed at him. Wonwoo told him to just calm down and enjoy their breakfast date. "Chan, you two have been dancing around each other for years with all your long distance yearning. Put yourself, and everyone around you, out of our collective miseries and just talk. Yeah? Now stop calling me or Mingyu's going to wake up before I finish breakfast." "Hyung, you can't cook." "You can't either, dipshit." "That's cause I made the mistake of thinking you could teach me." "Yah. You want me to make sure Jihoon never talks to you again? Do you want to walk back to the city?" "No hyung. Good bye, hyung. Thank you for your time. I hope your breakfast goes well."
Chan likes messing with him because he likes messing with Chan. It's not unprovoked. If it was another alpha Chan wouldn't be so crass but it's Wonwoo. The worst he'll do is pout and make Mingyu call Chan.
He's glad Vernon was still passed out when he left because Chan wore his best coat that he's never worn after his graduation and he even took ten minutes just styling his hair. Mostly because he doesn't know how to and partly because he wants to make it look good but not too good that it looks like he put effort into it. He hopes he doesn't look too desperate, too, at least. He can take looking a little like he wants to impress Jihoon because he wants Jihoon to know that he is trying to impress him but not to the point where-
"You're going to break the table if your leg won't stop shaking."
Jihoon's voice spooks him and his knee hits the table and his glass of water topples over. He gets up, tries to grab it before it completely falls over, and he ends up pushing the glass faster and spreading the water further, ruining the entire table. Chan picks up the glass and reached for the tissues in the middle of the table only to tip the empty glass over again and this time it hits the edge of his plate and it makes such a loud clinking sound that he can feel everyone watching him as he tries to wipe the table dry. Very pathetically. He couldn't even look at Jihoon anymore but he apparently didn't even need to because Jihoon's hand wraps around his, making him drop the soggy tissues, and Chan sighs.
"Excuse me. Yeah, sorry. Can we get a little help here, please? Thank you." Jihoon says and he pulls Chan out of the booth and forces him to face him.
"Yah." Jihoon whispers at him, leaning closer. Close enough for Chan to feel the warmth of his breath on his chin as he talks.
"I just asked you out for breakfast. Why are you so… shake-y?" Jihoon asks, leaning in even closer to whisper under his breath, and Chan sighs, managing a half smile. Hoping that it's apologetic enough because he can't really do much of anything else.
"Sorry hyung." Chan offers and Jihoon pulls him behind him as he thanks the staff who fixed up their table again and then he sits and scoots inside the booth, pulling Chan after him.
After that Chan was actually a lot better. Jihoon orders for both of them, argues that he'd pay because he's the hyung and he's the one who asked Chan out for food, and Chan's never really been good at winning arguments with Jihoon so he just sat there, nods, and thanked him.
Jihoon asks him questions in between bites. How his job is right now. How long he's staying in town before leaving and going back to ignoring everyone. Chan argues that he's not ignoring anyone and he's just busy. But Jihoon brings up Vernon's instagram on his phone and shows photos of Chan in his feed of them trying out different restaurants together whenever Vernon feels like going out. "I live in the same building as Vernon hyung. You know I can't actually ignore him even if I wanted to." "It just feels like I've been replaced as your favorite, is all." Jihoon adds and Chan swallows and musters up the balls to answer back. "Not really. You're still my favorite. I swear." Chan offers and Jihoon locks his phone, leaves it on the table, and smiles at Chan. "Good." Jihoon says and Chan freezes when Jihoon leans in and scents him. Right there. Out in the open.
"Hyung… Oh my god-" Chan places a hand on Jihoon's shoulder but freezes when Jihoon hums against his skin.
"I was right."
"What?" Chan whispers and Jihoon had the nerve to laugh at him.
"Out of all the alphas, I knew you'd smell the best. The rest are kind of overwhelming. Mingyu's okay but he's too minty. Not to mention that he's dating another alpha." Jihoon says and Chan feels like passing out. He pushes Jihoon back a bit but stops when Jihoon grabs his waist and takes another sniff before pulling back himself. Chan's brain is melting and Jihoon smile is not helping.
"Please don't do that again. We're in public." Chan says because he feels like he has to. Not because he really wants him to stop but he figured there's only so much people will tolerate at a diner during breakfast.
"Oh? Can I do it again if we were alone?" Jihoon asks and-
God. Chan's so hard and it's not even half past ten in the morning.
"Sorry. You're still so fun to tease." Jihoon says and he pours water in Chan's glass and watches him as he drinks. Chan didn't even notice how dry his throat was until he was downing the glass in one go.
"Hyung."
"I promise I'll stop. I… Hyung just missed you a lot Channie." God. Chan can feel sweat all over his back as a chill run down his spine.
"Do you wanna hang out today? Just go around town while you're here." Jihoon offers and Chan clears his throat.
"Do you want to?" Chan asks and Jihoon smiles, nodding.
"Yeah. I told you. I missed my little Channie." Jihoon says and Chan doesn't even bother hiding his smile.
"Yeah. Yeah, I'd love to."
"Okay. Then you can treat hyung to lunch later."
"Yes, hyung." Chan says and he watches Jihoon's smile grow wider as he turns away from Chan and looks down on his food.
Jihoon was no stranger in dragging Chan around town but this time, Chan likes the feeling of being a little taller than him. Likes that he can hang out with Jihoon out in the open and have the balls to glare at anyone who openly shows interest in him. Chan doesn't… He didn't want to play into the stereotypical aggressive-possessive alpha narrative that's been an overused trope in novels and dramas ever since he can remember but he can't help it. Can't help but pull Jihoon by the hand when they're crossing the street with some assholes where were openly talking about Jihoon and he can't help but put his arm around his waist at the convenience store they used to always go to after class when he feels someone eyeing them.
"You're really playing into this alpha bit, aren't you?" Jihoon says, biting his ice cream, and Chan sighs.
"Sorry." Chan can't say he can't help it because he doesn't want Jihoon to think of him that way.
"It's fine. It's kind of adorable. I probably should've seen it coming given how you were back then." Jihoon says and Chan laughs.
"Don't worry. I can't really hold it against you given how no one expected me to present as an alpha. Even I didn't." Chan offers and Jihoon hums.
"Well... I had my suspicions."
"Hyung. You're the last person who would have thought I'd be an alpha." Chan says and Jihoon laughs.
"Nah. You showed some signs here and there. You were also a little bit of a brat. A very common trait in all the alphas I know." Jihoon says and Chan huffs.
"No I wasn’t." Chan says, actually offended Jihoon would think he's a brat. After everything he's done.
"Not to me, yeah. But do I need to remind you the one time you made Seungkwan cry? In your freshman year, too."
"I didn't mean to! I was… I was very moody that day and he kept annoying me."
"I know. But you always were kind of hard-headed. And that mouth of yours, too."
"Hyung. You said you like my mouth." Chan says and he realizes how badly he worded that out when Jihoon chuckles and hides it by clearing his throat.
"I didn't mean it like that." Chan says, looking away, and Jihoon hums.
"I know. I didn't have much experience with your mouth to assume you meant it that way anyways." Jihoon teases and Chan steels himself and swallows.
"But you were the only one who had experience with my mouth." Chan says and Jihoon stops walking and turns to smile at him with a raised eyebrow.
"Was I?"
"Yeah. You were. You… You are." Chan says and Jihoon's smile breaks a little and Chan sees a bit of surprise in his face before he brings his smile back.
"You can't expect me to believe you have no other experience than that, Channie. It's flattering, yeah, but very hard to believe." Jihoon offers and Chan smiles.
"But it's true. You can ask Vernon hyung if you want. Or Wonwoo hyung. He has a long list of virgin alpha jokes in his brain just for me that are not as funny as he thinks." Chan says and Jihoon barks out a laugh.
"I was already a little bit… I honestly felt a little bad for that. Well, not bad, exactly, but kind of guilty. Kind of felt like I took that away from you." Jihoon says with a bit of his smile still there but his voice had gone serious.
"You didn't. Hyung, I… I wanted you to do it. I thought it was obvious that I really wanted you to do it." Chan says and Jihoon reaches for his hand and drags him to the benches by the park. Before Jihoon could say what he wanted to, Chan takes a deep breath and speaks up.
"Did you mean what you said back then? Before you kissed me?" Chan ask and Jihoon's smile turns a little somber.
Back when Mingyu, Minghao, and Seokmin graduated high school, their unofficial pack of thirteen met up again because Wonwoo and Seungcheol wanted to surprise their boyfriends and they just had to drag their friends with them. Jihoon included. Chan had met Seungcheol, Joshua, and Jeonghan the year before, when Jihoon and their year graduated, and let's just say Chan's glad he didn't get to be in the club when they were still there. If Soonyoung and Jun were always coddling him, Chan knew that the other three would've been worse given how they treated Chan that one night. Seungcheol had sat him in between himself and Jeonghan and Chan couldn't really say no so he just sat there and let them fill his plate over and over even when Joshua had told them to stop.
That's when Jihoon came in and rescued him once again.
"Sorry about them. Are you okay?" Jihoon says, dragging him out of the table and Jihoon heads towards the ice cream fridge the restaurant has and asking Chan to pick one and he buys it for him.
"It's fine, hyung. I'm fine." Chan says as they head outside.
"Okay. Just tell me if you feel uncomfortable, yeah? They seem stupid but they're nice. I swear. Seokmin wouldn't have dated Cheol hyung if he wasn't." Jihoon says and Chan nods.
"I didn't… I didn't know he was dating Seokmin hyung." Chan adds and Jihoon hums.
"He is. They were a lot more gross than Mingyu and Wonwoo to be honest. Be glad you never have to see them like that. I'm pretty sure we could've had them expelled for making out in the club room almost everyday but we were scared they'd close down the club itself if we had reported them." Jihoon says and Chan must've looked as flustered as he felt because Jihoon takes one look at him and laughs.
"Sorry." Jihoon says and Chan shakes his head.
"No, it's- I caught Mingyu and Wonwoo hyung once, too. Before. I left my book in the club room one day and I went to grab it during lunch the next day and found them there." Chan says and Jihoon laughs.
"You should've told me. I would've let Junhui scold them. We had a rule on no more defiling the club room after Seungcheol hyung graduated." Jihoon says and Chan laughs.
They were quiet for some time, eating ice cream in front of the barbeque place with no one out in the street. Chan thought it was fine. Time alone with Jihoon was always more than fine with Chan. Like when they're left alone in the club room and Jihoon's studying while Chan's pretending to study while he watches him or on some rare occasions that Chan really did want to study and Jihoon drags him to sit on the couch so he can rest his head on Chan's lap while he sleeps for the entire afternoon. He likes the silence between them because it proves that they don't need more than that. More than just them being together.
But college Jihoon is a little different. There's coldness in the way he's holding himself up. It's like you can feel him hold himself up. His words and actions were guarded since he came and Chan watches him from afar as Wonwoo and Soonyoung never left his side the entire time. And that's enough to get the attention of everyone there because Wonwoo's almost always by Mingyu's side given the chance. Chan doesn't want to think too much over it but he can't help but feel like he's seeing some sort of cover over the only person he's ever loved. He can't help but wonder why someone as strong as Jihoon would hide behind an armor as fragile as a cold front.
Omega or not, Jihoon didn't need it. And Chan will fight whoever thinks otherwise.
"Does it make you uncomfortable?" Jihoon asks and Chan blinks.
"Does what make me uncomfortable?"
"Boys kissing boys." Jihoon asks and he's staring out into the street as he asks. Chan can feel himself flush and he clears his throat.
"Not really. I-" "Have you kissed anyone before?" Jihoon asks and Chan knows he's red from the neck up.
"Hyung. You know I haven't, come on." Chan says and Jihoon laughs a little. He bumps his shoulder with Chan and Chan notices how their shoulders are the same height now.
"Sorry. Hyung's not teasing Channe. Just curious." Jihoon says and Chan forces a smile. Because Jihoon's voice doesn't have the same bounce that is used to have before.
"Have you? Kissed anyone." Chan fires back and Jihoon smiles. A hollow smile that makes Chan feel worse. Because Jihoon never used to lie to him before. Not like this.
"Yeah. But not like them." Jihoon says and Chan thinks for a moment.
"Not… Not boys?" Chan blurts out before he could think about what he's asking and Jihoon laughs. A real one.
"No, Channie. I did kiss a boy. I meant… I meant I didn't have what they do." Jihoon says and he looks over his shoulder, watches their friends through the glass doors, and he smiles.
"I wasn't kissed by someone who loved me." Jihoon says and Chan tries to understand what that means. He tried so hard to analyze what he means and what he's trying to tell Chan but his brain stops when Jihoon turns to him with the saddest, most beautiful smile he's even shown Chan, and he blinks back the tears threatening to fall from his eyes.
"Then just… Just don't count that one." Chan says and Jihoon's smile drops slowly. He stares at Chan with his big round teary eyes and Chan felt like he has to tell him what he meant.
"I mean… Does anyone else know?" Chan asks and Jihoon stares for a second before he shakes his head.
"Then we can just say it never happened. We can pretend like it never happened and you can wait for someone who loves you to kiss you and call that your first kiss." Chan says and Jihoon smile comes back.
"Yeah? Then what about you? You already know about it." There. That’s the cadence his voice has when he teases Chan. The little bounce in the melody of his voice that Chan's heart always danced to.
"I can keep it a secret. I can. I will. Let's call it a- Let's say it's a favor." Chan says and Jihoon smiles at him for a while, not saying anything and then he finishes his ice cream. Chan does as well and they stand there, outside, in the cold, until Seungkwan comes out of the door yelling at them to come back or Seungcheol and Soonyoung are going to eat all the meat.
That night, Jihoon offers to walk him home, like he always does. Chan obviously said yes and he glares at Vernon and Seungkwan who gave him knowing looks. Wonwoo pulls Jihoon aside to talk and when Chan asked, Jihoon said it's just Wonwoo asking where he's gonna pick him up because he's driving them back into the city in the morning.
Chan knew it was a lie but he lets it go.
He knew pushing it would only make Jihoon lie more. And he doesn't want that. He can't take that. They were quiet for a while and Jihoon takes his hand in his, out of nowhere, and pulls Chan closer to him as they kept walking.
"Do you wanna sleep over, hyung?" Chan finds himself asking and Jihoon seems just as surprised as he was.
"Really?"
"Yeah. Just like before, right? Only if you want to. I just… I won't get another chance to ask again after this." Chan says and Jihoon smiles and nods.
Jihoon is no stranger in their house. The first time he had introduced Jihoon to his family, his dad had joked about marrying too young. Chan obviously didn't like the joke but Jihoon laughed along with his family as Chan groans and complains to his mom about stopping his dad from making stupid jokes. Chan didn't really announce or explicitly do anything to claim that Jihoon was his favorite but given the amount of times Jihoon had walked him home only to be invited to dinner and then invited to just spend the night there, Chan knows he's obvious.
Bringing him back after a year of not seeing Jihoon had his family acting as crazy as his inner self. His parents kept asking Jihoon questions about college and how it's like living alone, specially after presenting, and Chan sighs and pulls Jihoon up to his room so they'd stop bothering him. He gives Jihoon a change of clothes and offers his bathroom to Jihoon while he takes a shower downstairs. When he comes back to his room, Jihoon is standing in the middle of his room, in his clothes, holding up Chan's stuff as he turns and smiles at him.
They talked a lot that night. They're pressed up against each other in Chan's bed with his laptop on his lap and Jihoon's cheek pressed on his shoulder. Something about the way Jihoon was clinging onto him tells Chan that there's something more there. Some words he's saying through action, by holding onto Chan's arm in a way that he never had before. They watched random videos in the internet and random movies he has downloaded in his laptop and just when Chan was about to slip into sleep, Jihoon wakes him up in the most awkward way.
"Channie. Have you ever thought about kissing boys?" Jihoon asks and Chan tensed up so bad that Jihoon laughs at him.
"Hyung, stop teasing."
"I'm not. I'm…" Jihoon trails off. He sits up on the bed and Chan does too. He shuts his laptop and turns to Jihoon.
"You said you'd keep my secret as a favor, right?"
"Of course. You know I would."
"Then I want to do you one favor, too. To make it even."
"A favor? For me?"
"Yeah."
"What kind of favor?"
"I want to make sure that your first kiss is from someone who cares about you. Someone who loves you."
Jihoon's eyes were on him, shining brightly from the faint moonlight passing through his curtains and the tears threatening to spill out, and Chan had thought that would make him tense up again. But feeling Jihoon's hand over his on the bed left him feeling warm and soft all over that he almost forgets to speak up.
"Then… That makes us even, right?" Chan asks and Jihoon nods.
"Is that okay? Do you want me to? You can say no, Channie."
"No! No, no I- I do. I want to. I swear." Chan says and Jihoon smiles at him.
"Really?"
"Yeah. This way I can be sure." Chan adds.
"Sure..?"
"That you get to know what it's like. To be kissed by someone who loves you, too." Chan says and before he can process the way Jihoon had started tearing up, he felt lips on his. Soft and warm and such a gentle weight against his own lips. He didn't even notice that he had closed his eyes until he stopped feeling the lips and he forces himself to open his eyes.
"Thank you." Jihoon says and Chan…
Okay. He's not proud at how hard and fast he pulled Jihoon back for another kiss but given how Jihoon had pushed him back on his bed, settling on top of him as he kissed back, Chan's pretty sure he didn't need to ask for permission that time.
They didn't do anything more than making out. Chan wakes up with his head on Jihoon's chest and nothing felt out of place. Chan asks Jihoon more about college. How is life living on your own, if he's made a lot of new friends, everything he can ask. He even asks what's the difference between college and high school and Jihoon just said the biggest change would be the girls. Chan feels a sour taste at the back of his mouth and his mom called for them to come down for breakfast. Chan tells Jihoon that he'll walk him home after and Jihoon stares at him for a second before nodding and thanking him. "You don’t have to think about it too much, you know? I'm not that into them." Jihoon adds as they walk towards the kitchen. "Into what?" Chan asks and Jihoon smiles. "Girls." Jihoon says and he walks on ahead, leaving Chan in the hallway with a faint blush on his cheeks.
Jihoon stares back at him, smiling a little but his eyes are heavy on Chan.
"What about you? Did you mean what you said? Before I kissed you?" Jihoon asks and Chan sighs.
"I asked you first." Chan argues and Jihoon just shrugs.
"And I won't answer unless you answer first."
"Hyung. You already know that I meant what I said. I know you do."
"Yeah. I just wanted to make you say it out loud." Jihoon says and Chan groans.
"And just for the record, I did. I meant every word." Jihoon adds and Chan can feel himself vibrating in his seat as Jihoon places a hand over his on the bench and leans forward to kiss him on the cheek.
Chan is so, so glad Vernon is such a great and fantastic friend. A cool and understanding best friend who would take his whole family out to lunch just so Chan can take Jihoon home and press him against his childhood bedroom's door and kiss him hard enough to make him moan.
"Fuck, Channie. Go easy on hyung." Jihoon whispers under his breath as Chan takes his shirt off for him before he grabs onto his thighs, giving him a second to jump a bit so Chan can carry him without breaking the kiss, and making his way to his bed and gently setting him down on his sheets.
"You have no idea how many times I've dreamt about doing this." Chan says, nosing at Jihoons throat and failing at holding back his growl because of the way Jihoon whines.
"Then stop talking and take off your clothes, alpha." Jihoon has always been good at teasing Chan but using that against him is low. Even for him. He can feel Jihoon's fingers in his hair and Chan bites at the skin on his shoulder to keep himself sane.
"Hyung, don't. I-" "What? Are you gonna lose control? Gonna show me how a real alpha treats his omega?" Jihoon whispers and Chan bites his tongue hard enough that he tastes his own blood as another growl leaves him.
"Stop it." Chan says and Jihoon hums. Jihoon tugs on his hair, forces him up and Jihoon kisses him.
"It's okay Channie. I know you can never hurt hyung." Jihoon says in between kisses and Chan grabs onto Jihoon's waist and digs his fingertips on his skin as he feels Jihoon's tongue licking the inside of his mouth.
"You're a good alpha, right?" Jihoon says and Chan shivers, shakes in Jihoon's hands, and he pushes himself off so fast. He stares at Jihoon's surprised face from the end of the bed and he can hear himself breathing heavily.
"Shit. Sorry. I-" Chan says and Jihoon shakes his head and crawls up to him slowly. Like he's approaching a scared, feral animal that Chan can kind of agree to feeling very much alike.
"It's okay. Did I take it too far?" Jihoon asks and Chan manages a breathless laugh.
"No hyung. It's perfect. You're perfect, I just…" Chan looks up at him, at Jihoon's beautiful eyes, and he feels his body relax instantly that he catches his breath and sags in Jihoon's arms.
"I wanna do this right. I wanna do right by you. Not just… start here. I want to treat you the way I know you deserve to be treated." Chan says and he stares at Jihoon as he starts tearing up. He's still smiling as he does and Chan's fucked up, dumb, alpha brain is thinking about how many times he wanna see him like that. On a very different situation. In various, different positions.
"Oh, Channie." Jihoon says and Chan shakes those thoughts away.
"Please, hyung."
"Of course. I'd love that." Jihoon says and Chan hums.
"Do you… Do you wanna grab lunch with my family? I think we can catch them if we leave right away."
"I think I'll pass. You kind of… Well, we both smell a little, uh, inappropriate for a meal with your family, don't you think so?" Jihoon says and Chan finds himself scenting Jihoon. Jihoon tenses for a second and then the smell of him getting turned on floods Chan's sense. Its sweet and a little deep and Chan couldn't help but take one more sniff before exhaling with his mouth right over Jihoon's scent glands.
"What happened to taking this slow?" Jihoon says and Chan takes a deep breath against Jihoon's skin and apologizes.
"Channie. You're gonna get hyung all worked up." Chan feels something in him grow the more he takes in Jihoon's scent. It's incredibly addicting and it's making Chan more hungry than horny.
"Sorry. Sorry. I- You smell so…" Chan takes in his scent more and there's a hint of something sweet and something else that has Chan drooling over Jihoon's skin. He immediately puts a hand over his mouth and nose and Jihoon laughs at him as he pulls back.
"Do- uh… Do you wanna take a bath?" Chan offers, pushing back a bit more, and Jihoon smiles at him.
"Very great technique for subtly telling me I smell. But I respect the effort, Channie." Jihoon teases and Chan kisses him to shut him up because now he can.
By the time his family and Vernon had come back, Chan and Jihoon were in the living room eating ramyun, fried rice, and sunny side up eggs that are crispy enough in the bottom that you can stab and lift it with just a fork. "I can't believe we haven't seen Jihoon in so long and that's what you're feeding him." His mom had said, already putting on her apron, and Jihoon gets up and starts trying to stop her. "This is what he asked for!" Chan argues, mouth still half full, and he does have a feeling Jihoon asked for this because he knows Chan can't cook for shit but still. "Hyung, sit down. It's not like you can stop her anyways." Vernon says, sitting next to Chan's brother who is so great at hiding his favoritism, and Chan sighs. If Chan is that obvious to Jihoon he hopes Jihoon is as blind to it as Vernon. Maybe it really does run in the family?
In all the twenty-three years Chan has spent living, around nineteen of which he spent aware that he's alive, he has never met anyone who lived their life to spite literally everything as much as they can as much as Jihoon does.
Even before presenting as an omega, Jihoon's been pretty spiteful already. He doesn't take shit from anybody and the moment anyone thinks they can hold something over Jihoon's head, he grabs them by the balls, kicks their shin, and smiles as they crumble to the floor.
This is all metaphorical, of course, but Chan can kind of see it happening in real life. He still kind of really wanna see this happen.
Chan likes this side of him. Likes watching from the side as Jihoon lets his mouth run because it’s the perfect vantage point to see the terrified faces of the receiving end of Jihoon's wrath. Also it's a factor that Chan's never been on the receiving end of said wrath.
It makes him feel special, okay? Fuck off.
But right now, he kind of feels like he's on the receiving end of another way Jihoon likes to spite the world.
Like, honestly. Chan never knew anyone could weaponize their omega status as much as Jihoon has in the past three days.
"You reek of desperation and-" Wonwoo takes a deep breath and frowns from the door, "and painful virginity." Wonwoo says and Vernon laughs so loud he almost chokes.
"Stop coming by unannounced." Chan says from the floor of his living room and Wonwoo lets out an affronted scoff. Like Chan offended him somehow for calling him out.
"I messaged you. Also what's the point of giving me your passcode in the first place?"
"I didn't!" Chan argues and Wonwoo acts like he's thinking and smiles.
"Oh, right. You didn't. Anyways, I brought lunch for everyone. I bought thai food but I got you a tonkatsu because I'm pretty sure every thai food has peanuts somehow." Wonwoo says and Vernon gets up and takes th efood from Wonwoo before going back to the dining table.
"So? Anything fun we doing today?" Wonwoo asks and Chan grunts. Not really that jazzed to share with Wonwoo.
"I'm helping Chan look for scent blockers because Jihoon hyung kept giving him boners during their dates." Vernon says and Chan gets up, takes a pillow from the couch, and throws it at the back of Vernon's head from where he's sitting in the dining table.
"Oh I know the perfect brand for Channie." Wonwoo adds and Chan takes another pillow and aims for Wonwoo's head.
Vernon's not lying though. God, he's not even exaggerating. If anything, its an oversimplification of how miserable Chan is. They've had a couple of dates before, one of which is before they all left town to go back to their daily lives. And by the end of the date, Jihoon had asked Chan if he was really still a virgin.
Which, of course, almost killed Chan right on the spot because he's having a heart attack, a migraine, and a very confused boner all at once. Jihoon had at least looked actually apologetic so Chan accepts the apology and answered truthfully. Which once again has Chan dying from just one sentence.
"I've never had a virgin alpha before."
"That's kind of hot." Wonwoo says and Chan can't even feel embarrassed at the way he growled.
"Oh, shut up. I'm being very objective here. I would never touch Jihoon, by the way. Not that way. Also he kind of has a point. Virgin alphas are actually really good. They're messy and a little too eager." Wonwoo says with this disgustingly dopey smile on his face and Chan scoffs. Vernon makes a disgusted sound, though.
"You know, you make it seem like you've had so many alpha's before but whenever you talk about having sex, you know that we automatically know it's just Mingyu hyung, right?" Vernon says and Wonwoo smiles and nods.
"I know. Just sharing what I know about alphas, is all. Not that Chan's been much of one before." Wonwoo adds and Vernon laughs.
"Chan's finally acting like an alpha, though." Vernon offers and Wonwoo nods.
"A very textbook definition of an alpha, too. I'm sure Jihoon's having the time of his life."
"What does that mean?" Chan asks and Wonwoo shrugs.
"He likes how you kept following him like a lost puppy all throughout your freshman year and you kept answering his calls even at ass o'clock in the morning. Now, he has an obsessive alpha humping his leg. I bet you'd make a great guard dog, Channie. " Wonwoo says and Chan sighs at the smile Wonwoo offers him. Wonwoo knows that that nickname is for Jihoon only and he knows that Chan knows that he knows. It's obviously a bait to get Chan worked up and Chan won't play into his little trick.
"All I'm saying is, I'm honestly happy for you. For both of you." Wonwoo adds and Chan feels genuinely touched.
"Also you two were obvious since like, our graduation. Even my brother asked about it." Wonwoo says and Vernon laughs.
"Chan was acting like Jihoon's going to war in another country. And then we find out Jihoon's only kept in contact with him." Vernon adds and Chan rolls his eyes.
"How is any of this helping me?" Chan asks them and they both stop.
"Oh right. What did you need help in, again?"
"I uh… I wanted to do something special for Jihoon hyung."
"Oh? What's the occasion?"
"Nothing. Just a date." Chan says and Wonwoo gives him an unamused look before turning to Vernon who's obviously holding in his laughter.
"They're finally gonna bone." Vernon adds and Chan gets up and leaves the table with the two still laughing. And in his own home too. The nerve of these assholes.
Chan knows he doesn't need to do anything special. He's pretty sure about it because Jihoon said so himself. Plenty of times. He even kept repeating himself when Chan had picked him up from the subway and had driven him to his own place where everything has already been set.
"Okay. I have to admit I feel very special right now." Jihoon says and Chan takes his coat for him and leads him to his seat before running to the kitchen and pulling everything out of the oven and letting the food cool on the kitchen counter and going back to the table to light up the candles around the table.
"Channie. This is really great but you really didn't have to bother. I would've been fine if we went out for chicken and beer." Jihoon says and Chan frowns.
"Hyung."
"What?"
"Shut up. We're going to eat food I bought and pretended to make by myself and I asked Wonwoo hyung about wine that I will have to pretend to like as well but if you don't like the wine I also have beer in the fridge. Okay?" Chan says and smiles and rolls his eyes.
"Let me do this for you, hyung." Chan says and he pulls the seat closest to Jihoon and sits next to him, taking his hand in his.
"It's your fault if I get used to this, you know?" Jihoon says, teases, but Chan is taking all of this very seriosuly. So he smiles.
"You should. Because I'm gonna keep this up. You deserve nothing but the best." Chan says and Jihoon reaches to hold Chan's face and he kisses him so softly that he kind of wants to forget about dinner all together.
Dinner played out better than Chan had hoped it would and Jihoon took it upon himself to stop Chan from uncorking the wine, not that he knew how to do it properly, and had asked Chan to "go get that beer you told me about." Chan puts the wine back in the fridge and admits that he doesn't really like the hint of sourness in wine. Jihoon admits that he isn't much of a fan as well and adds that beer goes very well with the dark chocolate cake for their dessert.
"I have to say… I am very impressed." Jihoon says. They moved from the table and onto the couch, sharing a huge slice of cake in one plate, and Chan lets himself enjoy the fact that Jihoon alternates in feeding himself then Chan. The T.V. was playing some movie that Chan honestly just put on as background noise as they huddle at the end of the couch.
"Thanks. I was planning this since I was eighteen." Chan jokes and Jihoon hums. Jihoon pulls up his knees and places them over Chan's lap, making himself sit sideways with his back on the arm rest of the couch while Chan sits back on the couch.
"Pretty sure eighteen year old you would never have chosen a quiet dinner in your apartment. He seems a little more like the type to think it's more romantic to have dinner in a five star restaurant that he had rented out just for ourselves.
"I completely agree with that. But this is the version of that that I can afford." Chan offers and Jihoon's smile tunes down a little and Chan smiles.
"I know. I know." Chan says and Jihoon puts down the fork and scoots closer to Chan. He finds himself with his arms around Jihoon's waist and Jihoon stares at him with his little amused smile on his face.
"What?"
"Nothing. I just… You're really something Lee Chan. Every time I think I have you all figured out you sweep me off my feet and make me feel all… sentimental." Jihoon says and Chan feels like he can take that as a compliment.
For the next hour, Jihoon alternates between feeding them cake and letting his arm rest over Chan's shoulder with his fingers playing with his hair. Jihoon answers some of Chan's questions about his life. What it's like to be a producer and how it's like listening to his own songs playing everywhere. Chan doesn't wanna seem like a psycho but he does keep himself updated with Jihoon's latest projects.
They both never got past one bottle of beer each but after they've finished the cake, Chan finds himself with his nose pressed up on Jihoon's neck. He's taking deep breaths and letting Jihoon's scent numb his brain but not enough for him to not notice Jihoon's hand in his hair, keeping him where he is as Chan's hands slip ever so slowly under Jihoon's clothes. "Hyung." Chan says and Jihoon hums. Jihoon pulls him back enough to kiss him and Chan couldn't help the growl he let out when he tastes chocolate in Jihoon's mouth. Chan tightens his grip on Jihoon's waist and moves away from kissing his lips and starts to kiss lower and lower until he's mouthing at the soft skin of Jihoon's neck. He nips at it gently, letting his teeth graze his skin without putting much pressure on it.
And the moment after he'd done it, he immediately flinches back because he can smell Jihoon's scent getting stronger and stronger every second.
"That was hot." Jihoon mutters and Chan bites at his lip, hard, and he tries to calm himself down. "Sorry. I-" "It's fine. I… I liked it. Were you thinking about it?" Jihoon asks and Chan flushes. "Were you thinking about sinking your teeth in me? Thinking about claiming hyung as your omega?" Jihoon asks and Chan stops breathing.
"Yes." Chan hears himself say and before he can even feel embarrassed, Jihoon lets out a high pitched whine and Chan smells something else. Something sweeter and… and a lot stronger.
"Channie."
"Yes, hyung?"
"I think you should take hyung to your bed before he starts soaking through his jeans and onto your lovely couch." Jihoon says and Chan feels his throat dry up instantly.
He can't remember the last time Chan's exerted as much energy as he did in carrying Jihoon to his room and it didn't help that Jihoon actually starts soaking through his jeans and onto Chan's hands by the time they reached his bedroom and he hopes he didn't put Jihoon down the bed too hard. "Channie?" "Yes, hyung?" "Take my clothes off. Now." Jihoon says and Chan nods frantically and he's torn between holding back on ripping Jihoon's clothes off and pushing himself use his hands properly and not just shake pathetically as he tries to unbutton Jihoon's pants.
"Chan." Jihoon calls out to him gently and Chan looks up and sees him smiling.
"You remember how pants work, yeah?" Jihoon asks and his fingers tangle with Chan's before he pops the button off himself.
"You told me I don't make you nervous anymore." Jihoon says and he pulls at Chan's left hand and brings it up to his face.
"Because you don't. I just… This is different. I don't want to fuck this up." Chan admits and Jihoon smiles.
"You won't."
"What if I hurt you?"
"Well… I kind of like it when it hurts a little." Jihoon teases and Chan growls. Jihoon smiles at him and hums.
"Channie. You won't hurt hyung. I know you won't." Jihoon says and Chan can feel himself shiver when Jihoon tugs on the bottom of his shirt and drags him down to crawl over him.
"Now take our clothes off so you can fuck hyung in your bed." Jihoon says and he kisses him again.
Chan doesn't really remember how, but in the middle of savoring Jihoon's little whines and moans in between kisses, Chan had managed to strip Jihoon off of all of his clothes. He pulls away from the kiss to stare and he ends up sitting on his knees, Jihoon's legs in between his knees, and he smiles up at Chan. Jihoon reminds him of his own clothes and Chan unbuttons the top of his shirt before tugging it off over his head and throwing it over his shoulder. He moves back out of the bed to easily take off his pants and Jihoon sat up and pulls up his knees as he waits for Chan. Once he's fully naked, he crawls back on bed and tries his best to focus on just one thing because his brain is registering the ridiculously sweet smell of Jihoon's slick seeping into his sheets along with the image of Jihoon's pale skin stretching over the ridges of the muscles on his stomach. "If you're just gonna stare I could've just sent you a picture." Jihoon says, knocking him out of his thoughts, and Chan feels his throat drying up again even when he's obviously drooling.
"How… What do i-" "Do you want to go ahead with it? Fuck me on my back?"
"Fuck. Yes. Please. Wait- Wait, don't I need to like, do something else? Prep you? Or like, foreplay?" Chan asks because his brain is working too fast for him to filter his thoughts before his mouth says them. Jihoon laughs at him but Chan's far too gone to feel embarrassed and just simply enjoys the feeling of being the reason he's hearing his laugh.
"Did you research how to have sex, Channie?"
"I didn't want to be completely clueless, hyung."
"It's okay. It's sweet. But I think you should just go ahead and fuck hyung. Yeah?"
"But it said we have to like, prep you and- uh. Condoms. They're in my bathroom. Let me just-" "Chan." Jihoon cuts him off.
"Yes hyung?"
"Hyung can take it. Just trust your instincts." Jihoon says and Jihoon takes his hand. Chan stares, frozen, as Jihoon spreads his legs and directs Chan's fingers to his ass, using his own fingers to press Chan's fingers over his very wet rim. "I think I'm wet enough to take you." Jihoon says and Chan feels his own dick twitch.
Chan never knew Jihoon was flexible. He can probably tell you every artist he's worked with and what song he did for them and which song charted where for how long. He can tell you which celebrities have talked about Jihoon and he can tell you how he likes his coffee and what specific brand he loved since they were in high school.
But right now, with him lying on his back and his legs are hooked on Chan's shoulders, Chan adds yet another thing to his list of things he loves about Jihoon. Chan wants to try and impress Jihoon by making him feel good too, by trying to not focus on his own pleasure and make sure Jihoon enjoys this as much as he does. But as soon as he slipped in Jihoon's rim, even with just the head in, Chan has to take several deep breaths to keep himself from losing control and just fucking this very willing and very open omega under him as fast and as rough as he can.
"You're gonna pass out if you keep breathing like that." Jihoon says and Chan groans.
"It's okay. Slowly." Jihoon says and Chan does as he's told. He pushes in slowly and slowly and he keeps pushing until Jihoon lets out a choked out moan.
"No, it's fine, I just- You're bigger than I thought." Jihoon says and something warm blooms in Chan's chest and he leans down to bare his teeth on Jihoon's neck as he fucks himself inside completely in one go.
Chan soaks up every sound and every finger digging into his shoulder as he fucks his Jihoon the way he had always wanted to. He take's Jihoon by the back of his knees and lets his legs drop around his waist as he uses one had to hold his jaw for a kiss and he uses his other to hold his waist. Chan's a little too turned on by the sound Jihoon's hole makes and Chan's mind registers it as Jihoon's slick dripping too much on his dick because it's Jihoon's body welcoming him in. It's biology. It's a fact. This is Jihoon's body's response to being fucked open. How an omega welcomes their alpha.
Jihoon pushes Chan back enough to separate their lips but not enough for Chan's face to move and he screams right in front of Chan's face as he cums. Jihoon clenches around him, over and over in varying intensity that it almost feels like he's shaking. It's enough to push Chan off the edge and he cums inside of Jihoon. His head takes a second to realize what he's doing and suddenly his head clears and he pushes himself off of Jihoon only for Jihoon to grab him by the waist and the action drives Chan's cock back inside, as deep as it can, as Chan keeps cumming and cumming and cumming. "No mating bites yet baby. But feel free to bite hyung anywhere else." Jihoon whispers, eyes closed with a soft and satisfied smile on his face like being filled by Chan is that good. Chan nods, kisses around his throat, and Chan teases him by baring his teeth there. Jihoon moans and he slips his fingers through Chan's hair again.
"You're gonna want a second round, aren't you?" Jihoon asks, pulling Chan off his neck and he nods.
"Do you wanna rest for a bit?" Jihoon asks and Chan bites his lip.
"Do you?" Chan asks and Jihoon's smile shifts into a grin.
"Go ahead baby. Show me how good my little alpha is." Jihoon says and Chan reels at the way he worded it out. Like Chan being an alpha doesn't change the fact that Jihoon's still in charge.
"I will. Gonna breed you full, hyung." Chan says and he holds Jihoon by the waist and lets out a deep breath at how perfect Jihoon feels around his cock.
Chan's not really sure if he's still a little sensitive from having just orgasmed or if Jihoon's cum filled ass is just as warm and as perfect around his dick that he's closing in on his second orgasm not even ten minutes later. Chan voices this out and the way Jihoon laughed at him probably should've made him feel embarrassed and not make him feel warm all over. "Can you keep fucking me until I finish?" Jihoon asks and Chan nods. "Yes. Yes, anything for hyung." Chan answer and Jihoon hums and moans because Chan couldn't help but fuck him a little harder just to put emphasis on his point. Jihoon didn't say much after that. He keeps mumbling short phrases, praises, telling Chan how good he is, how he's happy he gets to keep him all to himself.
He keeps calling Chan as his and it makes Chan cum even faster.
"Oh, god. Channie. That's… You're cumming so much." Jihoon says in a high pitched voice and Chan can't really answer as he tries to keep his rhythm going to push Jihoon to his own orgasm regardless of how sensitive his dick is.
"Close. Close. Bite me again, baby. Come on. Leave a mark for hyung to remember this by." Jihoon says and Chan bites his lip, unsure if Jihoon means it or if he's just being driven by the moment.
"Hyung…" Chan noses up Jihoon's throat and he feels Jihoon's hand on his cheek, pushing him to kiss down his neck and on to his shoulder.
"Be a good alpha and bite me." Jihoon says and Chan lets go and does as he's told.
Jihoon's orgasm hits them both a little too hard because Jihoon tightens up so much that Chan tears up from feeling too sensitive and Jihoon keeps spilling over himself, cum settling on the ridges of his abs and Chan's hand gets wet as he holds Jihoon's hips still with his teeth still digging into Jihoon's skin. Chan didn't bite hard enough to break the skin but it's hard enough to leave a second ugly mark on his otherwise pristine skin.
"I wanna bite you properly hyung. Want you to be my omega. Just mine. Only mine." Chan mumbles to himself, pressing his face on Jihoon's chest and trying to take in his scent as much as he can, but realizes belatedly that he's not as quiet as he thought.
"You will soon, alpha." Jihoon mumbles into Chan's hair and he can't help but moan just by the thought of it all.
When Chan was fresh out of college, he had a little obsession with dramas where the main couple are gay. It's not exactly that new but the fact that they're getting to be considered as mainstream media these days is definitely a very progressive feat to Chan. And in the dozens and dozens of shows he's seen, his favorite is the one where the alpha looks like a stereotypical alpha, tall, broad, basically just big, and the omega is the shorter one, the cuter one, the very obvious stereotypical omega. But the thing that Chan loved about the drama is that they break literally every other stereotype aside from physical characteristics. The alpha is very soft spoken and is very moody when they have their fights while the omega is the one who's always speaking up for the alpha, yelling at people bumping into him in the streets and even arguing for him over the stupidest things.
And on the final episode of the series, the alpha wakes up in bed and instead of having the omega in his arms, he wakes up with his head on the omega's chest. And that scene, that one stupid scene, had kept haunting Chan for a good year. Because during all the times Jihoon's slept over their house, all those times they'd pretend to fix up a spot on the floor for Jihoon to sleep in, Chan would pull the covers up and let Jihoon crawl next to him. And every time Chan wakes up, it's with his head on Jihoon's chest and Jihoon's hand around Chan's shoulder.
It's the exact same way he wakes up to today.
Well, minus the clothes and plus the very sweet smell of Jihoon filling his head.
Chan couldn't help but scoot further up, pressing his nose where the smell is strongest, and letting his instinct get the best of him and licking at the spot once.
"Good morning to you, too." Jihoon mumbles and before Chan could apologize, Jihoon cranes his neck and his hand goes to the back of Chan's neck. Chan sucks on it as gently as he could and the smell of Jihoon's arousal doubles every other second.
"I hope you're this insatiable just because you have recently just graduated from being a virgin and not because you're this much of a perv." Jihoon says and Chan whines.
"That's mean, hyung." Chan mumbles against his skin and Jihoon laughs.
"How was your first omega?"
"Perfect. More than perfect. You're so good. So… so sweet." Jihoon bites down on his lips. Chan slips his hand over his waist and keeps sucking on the side of his neck.
"Like, literally sweet. You smell like," Chan takes a deep breath, "you smell a little like chocolate. I never… God. I never thought this was real."
"What? Didn't think omegas were real?" Chan knows Jihoon's teasing so he thinks he can at least try and tease back.
"No. I didn't think omegas could be this perfect. So… so perfect that it's unreal." Chan says, half joking, and Jihoon hums.
"You should know better than to rile up an exhausted omega, Channie."
"What do you want hyung?"
"Hm?"
"Wanna… Wanna do something for you. Something you want me to do. As thanks for taking care of me last night. Please, hyung. I can be good. I'll do all the work." Chan says and Jihoon lets out a breathy laugh.
"You've gotten pretty good with that mouth of yours, Channie. Hanging around Wonwoo has its perks, I guess." Jihoon says and he does the thing again. He holds Chan's face by cupping his jaw with one hand and he smiles at him so beautifully.
"Why don't you show hyung what else that mouth can do?" Jihoon says and Chan gets stiff instantly.
The thing about omegas is that they do smell different. I mean, I guess people smell different regardless of status but what Chan meant was that their natural scent that attracts alphas are always unique. A researcher, that Chan's forgotten the name of, way back in his middle school biology class said that it is actually not as weird as you think. Even betas have the same kind of biology. Did you know that natural odor has a lot to do with sexual attraction? It's because our body odor is heavily affected by our immune system. And the way that works is that you are attracted to someone who's immune system is completely different from yours. This way, your immune system and theirs can combine and your offspring has both of your immunities and therefor ensuring a better chance of survival as they grow up.
Omegas are no different. But the way they smell is different, stronger than just natural body odor, because their bodies are the perfect bodies to, you know… host a baby.
This is all biology, okay? Chan agrees that just because they are omegas doesn't mean all they're good for are getting pregnant. And if an omega does want that then that's good for them, too. Chan's just trying to explain this so you'll understand why he couldn't help but suck and bite at Jihoon's puffy and sensitive rim to the point where Jihoon has tears streaming down his face as he screams Chan's name.
In Chan's defense, again, it's all biology. Being obsessed with Jihoon and everything that makes him Jihoon plays a very tiny part in it but mostly, it's biology. Science.
"You taste so fucking good, hyung." Chan says, lapping at Jihoon's still dripping hole, and Jihoon's grip on his hair tightens and tightens as he pulls and all that pain does is push Chan to suck harder.
"Channie. Baby, please i- you're gonna break hyung."
"Sorry. Sorry, I just… you actually taste a bit like chocolate, hyung. So good." Chan says and he licks one long stripe from his hole to under his balls and Jihoon whimpers and shakes and Chan watches as a bit of cum leaks from his hard cock.
"Fuck. I'm sorry, hyung. I'm sorry." Chan crawls up and Jihoon shakes his head, lets go of Chan's hair to hold his face, and Chan gets a little crazy when Jihoon kisses him and licks his own slick from Chan's mouth down to his jaw.
"It's okay baby. You were good. Just… do it a little slowly. Gently. You can do that for your hyung, right?" Jihoon's so fucking pretty like this. Ruined and panting and tearing up. Something dark settles at the back of Chan's mind and it gets overshadowed by the way whimpers as he held onto the back of Chan's neck.
"Oh. Okay." Chan says, stupidly, and he remember Jihoon's request.
"Don't rush it. Think of it like… like you're savoring hyung in your mouth." Jihoon says and Chan nods. He moves back down and this time he lets Jihoon's legs over his shoulders and he adjust the pillow under his lower back to raise his hips a little.
"Tell me how to do it properly. Teach me." Chan says and Jihoon hums. His hand is back in Chan's hair but this time it's just fingers slotted through his hair.
"Do the same as when we're making out. Be gentle. Hyung's still a little sore from taking your cock last night, remember?" Jihoon says and Chan leans down and licks a slow stripe over his hole.
"There. Just… everything is sensitive so just-" Jihoon chokes up a high pitched whine as Chan tries pressing his tongue inside and he's surprised to find that his tongue meets no resistance at all from his rim. Jihoon said to just do the same as when they're making out so he does just that. He presses his tongue inside again, tries his best to press it up as he sucks gently and he moans when Jihoon's slick just keeps on flowing in his mouth.
In this position, with his face between Jihoon's ass, head in-between his legs, his nose pressed up in the skin between his balls and his ass, Chan feels a little light headed. He never knew he'd find a place that's just Jihoon and nothing else.
Chan can't even feel ashamed at how he couldn't help but stroke his aching cock and cum embarrassingly fast as he sucks a little and slick drips right onto his tongue the bit that he cant swallow drips down his chin.
"Fucking- Channie~" Jihoon keeps whining his name over and over, using a voice that’s very different from his usual deep voice, and Chan can't help but keep doing what he's doing just so he doesn't stop.
"Wait, Channie, no. Wait! I'm gonna-" Jihoon pushes him away and as soon as Chan moves back, Jihoon cums all over his face. He watches as Jihoon's thighs quiver because his knees are still hooked on Chan's shoulder and he just… he watches. Watches him paint his face with his release. Watches as more slick drip from his hole, drenching his bed so much that he wishes the smell would stick for as long as it can. And he watches as Jihoon's hand in his hair tightens and the other hand goes up to his face, hiding away, as he finally stops cumming but doesn't stop shaking.
"Hyung…" Chan says, hands coming to soothe Jihoon's thighs as he spreads them enough to get them off his shoulders. He pushes himself up and crawls over Jihoon, wondering if he had taken it too far. Jihoon is tearing up from behind his hands and Chan feels a heavy weight settle on his chest.
"I don't think anyone's ever… God, baby." Jihoon says and Chan blinks.
"What?"
"Sorry i-" Jihoon clears his throat and Chan holds his face gently, wiping his tears and spit away from his face.
"Hyung you're crying. You're still shaking, I'm sor-" Chan says and he stops himself from apologizing when Jihoon all but smiles up at him. Satisfied. Content. Like he… like he enjoyed it. Like this is what he had wanted from Chan.
"I know. It's not- I'm okay baby. You were good. Hyung just felt too good that it hurt a little bit. But you were perfect, I promise. Such a good alpha for me. Gave me exactly what I wanted. " Jihoon says and Chan melts at the way Jihoon smiles at him through his tears.
"Just hold me for a while, yeah? I think you broke hyung's legs." Jihoon says and Chan nods. He settles himself next to Jihoon and slips his hand under him and pulls him close. The sheets are… beyond ruined so Chan drapes himself over Jihoon's back and pulled the pillow to make Jihoon hug it. Then he places his arm over him and the pillow and he lets Jihoon catch his breath like that. He kisses the back of his neck, telling him that he's here, reassuring him that he's here and he's staying here for however long Jihoon wants, and Jihoon lets go of the pillow and squirms until he's facing Chan's chest and has his head pillowed on Chan's bicep.
Their lunch was basically just heated up left overs from their date last night. It's not as romantic, yeah, but Chan didn't want to leave to get lunch when Jihoon fell back to sleep. Actually, he didn't even want to move at all, much less leave the bed. The moment Jihoon woke up again, he gave Chan probably the best, sweetest, and most sincere kiss he's ever gotten in all of his pathetic life. He follows it up with a soft "Thank you." and Chan honestly deserves a prize just for not breaking down then and there. He offers to clean Jihoon up and he gets plain out rejected so he offers to just shower together and Jihoon nods. He gets to clean Jihoon up himself in the shower anyways but Jihoon said it's okay when he asked if he can so Chan enjoys washing him up.
Oh, and Chan definetely enjoys watching Jihoon wearing his shirt and his boxer and he enjoys the fact that he knows he's not wearing anything else.
"I can smell you all the way from here, you know?" Jihoon says and Chan tenses. He's fixing up a plate for the two of them and he asked Jihoon to just stay in the couch and look for something they can watch on Netflix.
"Sorry." Chan says and he takes a deep breath and goes to the fridge to get them water and coke.
"If it's such a problem, I can just take them off." Jihoon says, smiling at him. Chan shivers.
"You're so mean." Chan says and Jihoon laughs. Jihoon gets up to help Chan with the drink and Chan grabs their food and heads for the couch. Just as he's set the plate on the table, he hears the familiar beeping sound of his door code being inputted and it took him half a second to realize what's going on and he sprints for the door. He gets to it as soon as it opens and Chan groans because he can't close the door completely with a hand pushing it open.
"Yah, what gives?"
"Get out!" Chan says, still pushing, and Wonwoo easily pushes him back enough to hold out his other hand and show him a plastic bag that's probably for lunch.
"I have food!" Wonwoo says and before Chan could answer, Jihoon's by his side, taking the plastic bag from Wonwoo and Chan senses the minute Wonwoo smells Jihoon.
"Thanks. But we already have food." Jihoon says, checking what's inside and handing the plastic back to Wonwoo. Wonwoo stood there, frozen, staring at Jihoon with one hand still holding the door.
"We'd invite you in but we're a little busy. And I know you're not really into the whole, you know, omega thing. Say hi to Mingyu for us, though." Jihoon says as he takes Wonwoo's hand from the door.
"Everything's fine Wonwoo." Jihoon says and closes the door.
Chan hopes Wonwoo can't smell him. God, he knows he physically can't take Wonwoo in a fight so if Wonwoo caught onto how Chan smells right now he is as good as dead.
Chan takes Jihoon by his arm and pushes him back inside, away from the door.
"Really?" Jihoon says and Chan lets out a huff.
"Why would you do that?" Chan asks and Jihoon sighs.
"What? 'Present' myself to another alpha?" Jihoon asks and Chan takes a deep breath.
"That's not… Hyung, you know that's not what I mean."
"I'm not gonna give you the whole speech because I know you're not like that. But that was just Wonwoo, Channie. He wouldn't hurt me. He couldn't even if he tried."
"I know that." Chan says because he does know that. Chan knows.
"So?" Jihoon crosses his arms over his chest and Chan groans.
"I just… I didn't want him to see you like this."
"He's seen me naked, Chan. Since high school."
"That's not what I meant. And that's really not helping."
"Not helping? What? You don't want him to see…" Jihoon's face was enough to show that he had finally caught on to Chan's dumb alpha brain and Chan sighs.
"Oh." Jihoon says and Chan can feel himself blushing.
"Wonwoo's right. You're such a typical dumb alpha." Jihoon says and he pulls Chan in and kisses his cheek.
"Hyung…" Chan starts and Jihoon hums.
"Channie… Do you really think it's such a big deal that someone else has seen me like this? Even after all the things you've done to hyung? In your own bed?" Jihoon asks with a smile and Chan still doesn't like that he's not taking this seriously.
"Yes." Chan answers honestly and Jihoon's smile went from teasing to something a little… softer.
"You're adorable. Really." Jihoon says and Chan frowns.
"Don't make fun of me or this, hyung." Chan says and Jihoon shakes his head.
"No, I swear I'm not. Okay? But like… Think about it, though." Jihoon tugs on Chan's arm, pulling them behind him so Chan's arms are around his waist and then he wraps his arms around Chan's shoulders.
"Another alpha has seen me wearing your clothes." Jihoon says and he does make a pretty solid point. Chan lets his chin rest on Jihoon's shoulder and he sighs.
"And I'm pretty sure I still smell like you. Right? Just a little bit?" Jihoon says and this time Chan crumbles. Because he doesn't just smell a little like Chan. He still smells like Chan and nothing else. He smells so much like Chan that Chan had wondered if this is what he would smell like if he claims him.
"One day, you're not gonna be able to just talk your way out of me being upset, you know?" Chan says, mumbles against Jihoon's shoulder, and Jihoon laughs.
"Then I'll let you use my mouth some other way until my sweet and lovely alpha feels better." Jihoon says and Chan groans.
"Come on. The food's gonna get cold again if we don't eat." Jihoon says and he kisses Chan one last time before pulling him back towards the couch.
Life with Jihoon is everything Chan had ever dreamed of and more.
Chan's job requires eight hours of him on the office and at least three more hours of him working on his home P.C. just to catch up on their schedules. It's all very exhausting but he worked his ass off just to get the credentials to apply for this firm so he's gonna suck it up and be a big boy and have dinner in front of the 3D model he's editing so the lead architect of their project can take the credit for it and everyone in their team gets to be happy.
Well, that was his life before.
Now, Jihoon had made it his life's mission to pour himself in every single bit of Chan's life down to the hour.
Chan honestly didn't even notice it at first. Their weekly dates had turned into getting random visits with Jihoon at night, sharing take out while they both work on Chan's couch and Chan drives Jihoon home and kisses him before he gets out of the car. Then Chan takes it one step further and asks Jihoon to stay the night. He would drive Jihoon home the following day after they get dinner and that ends about the same as before. A kiss before Jihoon gets out only this time he's wearing Chan's clothes. After that it's just… Chan waking up with his head on Jihoon's chest and Chan having breakfast with Jihoon wearing just a shirt, underwear, and an apron just like in some of his wildest fantasies, and Chan coming home to find Jihoon on his laptop on the couch, welcoming him home with a smile and asking how his day went. After that it's either they work quietly besides each other until dinner or Jihoon takes advantage of Chan's nature and asks where in his apartment Chan would like to take him apart.
Which is not at all beneficial to either of their productivity but Chan's really starting to love the taste of chocolate again.
But, god… Chan is never going to get tired of waking up to that smell.
It was already roughly six months after their first time and Chan wakes up with the kind of tiredness he only gets when Jihoon feels like Chan deserves a treat and asks him to fuck him against a wall. Everything is aching a little. Chan's legs and his knees and his waist and his lower back… Basically just his whole lower half is just tired from exerting too much the night before. Chan thinks Jihoon was a little out of it for some time in the middle but he gets whines and complaints when he stops and tries to check is Jihoon is okay so Chan fucked a couple of orgasms out of him before filling him up and washing him up before he sets him down on the bed and holds him until they both fell asleep.
"You could at least open your eyes before you start groping me." Jihoon says and Chan smiles as he pushes himself up, caging Jihoon under him, and that's when he opens his eyes.
"Good morning." Chan says and he leans down and kisses him. Jihoon's arms wrap around his shoulders and Chan hums as Jihoon starts to smell… different.
"Hyung, why do you smell…" Chan moves down and scents Jihoon and he squirms in his hand.
"What? Smell different? Like I'm in heat?" Jihoon asks and Chan can feel himself shake as Jihoon moves his hands to his jaw and pulls him back up to kiss him.
"Because I am." Jihoon says and Chan completely shuts down.
Everything is suddenly a little too loud. Chan can feel Jihoon's breath fanning over his cheek and the heat from his fingers feel a little too hot on his chin. "I've always wanted to see you do that." Jihoon's voice seems so distant and loud at the same time and Chan flinches when his fingers move to the back of his head. "Reel it back in alpha. Come on." Jihoon says and Chan takes a deep breath because it seems like the right thing to do to calm himself down but all it does is flood his brain with more of Jihoon's scent. He smells good. Perfect. He can feel him shake a little as Chan places a hand on his hip and tries to balance himself with just one hand pushing his whole weight up. He can smell how close he is to his heat. He smells… Chan's brain lacks the proper word for it because 'ripe' seems a little too much like he's objectifying his boyfriend and using the word fertile is not beneficial for either of them because Chan's alpha brain gets triggered by th emere mention of the word. But he does smell like it. Like his body is ready for it. Chan can tell from how he smell. It's inviting and loud. Smell like he's ready for an alpha to take him. He's basically presenting himself to Chan and who is he to not give an omega what an omega wants. What every omega needs.
"Channie."
Chan stops. His jaw hurts, aches from how opens his mouth is over the side of Jihoon's neck, and he slowly pulls back and closes his mouth. He can feel Jihoon's hands on his shoulders and he can feel the moment they stopped pushing him back. Chan crawls backwards, away from Jihoon, but the hands that were pushing his shoulders pulls him back enough to keep him in place.
"There you are." Jihoon says and Chan feels likes throwing up.
"God. I'm… I'm sorry, hyung. I didn't-" "Don’t. It's fine." Jihoon argues and Chan can feel the sourness at the back of his throat.
"Don't say that. I didn't- I lost control. It's no excuse but-" "But it's my fault for teasing you in the first place." Jihoon argues again and Chan lets out a frustrated sigh.
"Remember what I told you on our first time?" Jihoon asks and Chan hums.
"You won't hurt me. I didn't mean that as you can't, I know that you can. But what I meant was that I know that you won't. Because I know you. Alpha or not, you'll always be my little Channie." Jihoon says and Chan tries to hold back because it's probably not the best time to cry.
"I'm still sorry. I didn't mean to."
"I know baby. I shouldn't have teased you too much." Jihoon says and Chan scoots a little closer and he wraps his arms around Jihoon.
"But uh… I know I probably shouldn't have dropped this on you like that so if you want, you can just drop me off at my place for now." Jihoon says and Chan really has more reasons to do just that than not.
"You want me to leave you during your heat?" Chan asks, absolutely offended at the thought that Jihoon might not want him to help him and Jihoon laughs.
"I can handle myself. I've handled it perfectly fine on my own for months now even when I know you can help because you don't have to help me. I just don't want to push it if you're still a little unsure. Because later on, I will push you harder. I'll beg and will ask you to fuck me until I'm full and I won't be all there to pull you back when you go full on alpha again." Jihoon says and Chan sighs.
"I… okay. I think I can handle it."
"You think?"
"Yeah. No. I'm sure I can. For you."
"So you won't go dumb alpha again when I ask you to knot me and knock me up?" Jihoon asks and-
Yeah. Omegas' heats are really something else.
"You won't… You're not gonna get pregnant, though. Right? I won't- Like… you're… uh… like not, you know?"
"You're making it so hard not to tease you, baby." Jihoon says and he pulls Chan in for a kiss.
"No. I won't get pregnant no matter how many times you fill me up. My concern is more on what comes after. We haven't talked about it a lot. Actually, we haven't talked about it at all outside of you muttering to yourself after your orgasms but… uh… I do want you. Want us to be mates. Officially. But I think we should talk more about it before we actually do it. Also we should talk about it more when I'm not thinking about actually wanting you to get me knocked up." Jihoon says in a serious voice and Chan sighs.
"You said you wouldn't tease me."
"Oh, I'm not teasing." Jihoon adds and Chan looks him in the eyes and shivers.
"So please. If you can't trust yourself to hold back on marking me I suggest you drive me home right now because I will not be as coherent in the next hour." Jihoon says and Chan swallows.
"Okay. I promise. I won't."
"Good. I trust you, Channie. I don't have anything else to add because you know how to fuck hyung properly, right?" Chan nods. God. Heat brain Jihoon talking dirty is like regular Jihoon dirty talking but on steroids.
"But no mating bites. You can bite hyung wherever, though. I know that's better than not biting at all." Jihoon says and Chan notices that he's getting a little hotter to the touch every passing minute.
"Hyung."
"You don't have work today right?"
"it's a Saturday so no work today and tomorrow. I can call in and say I won't be able to work on Monday too if you need me to."
"Yes. Please." Jihoon says and Chan nods.
"Can you do it later?" Jihoon asks, hand gripping on Chan's shirt. Chan nods and Jihoon smiles.
"Good. Uhm. Can you sit back on the bed and let me ride you?" Jihoon asks and Chan blinks.
"Now." Jihoon adds and Chan nods and moves.
Jihoon smiles at him and pulls him back to make him sit on the middle of the bed with his back to the head board as he straddles him. Chan gets hard the moment he realizes how wet Jihoon already was and he bites his lip as Jihoon takes off his shirt and tugs on Chan's.
"No, wait." Chan stops. He was about to throw his shirt on the floor when Jihoon stopped him and takes it from his hands. He takes off his underwear, grabs Chan's hands to place them on his hips, and he puts on Chan's shirt and bunches up the front over his mouth and inhales.
"You smell so good. Like, fruity. Zesty but still a bit sweet. Like… like oranges." Jihoon says and Chan stares as Jihoon blushes.
Jihoon's blushing.
"Do you like how I smell?" Chan asks and Jihoon hums.
"Yes. Its… comforting. Makes me think of home." Jihoon says and Chan feels like he won't be able to hold up his promise in controlling himself.
"I didn't know you liked oranges. I don’t think you've ever talked about oranges before, actually."
"Because I didn't."
"You said they remind you of home."
"Yes. They remind me of you." Jihoon says and this time he leans in, presses himself against Chan's front as he pressed his nose under Chan's jaw and takes a deep breath.
"You always remind me of home." Jihoon says and something in Chan's chest melts away.
Chan had talked about who Jihoon was to him. Who he is to his life now. How he was so cool to him then and even cooler to him now. How he took care of the younger members of the club and acted like it wasn't a big deal. How Jihoon was what comfort would look like to Chan if it were to have a body and a face.
I guess Chan had always thought of Jihoon as his home without ever thinking that Jihoon might think the same of him.
"Why did you stop touching me?" Jihoon asks, nose still pressed against Chan's throat, and Chan smiles.
"Sorry. Sorry." Chan says and he slips his hands under his shirt and digs his fingertips on Jihoon's waist. It gets him a lovely open mouthed moan and Chan leans in for a kiss, swallowing it to see if he tastes as sweet as he sounds.
"Still wanna ride me, hyung?" Jihoon moans at the question and nods. "Do you need help prepping or do you want to feel the stretch?" Chan asks and Jihoon melts in his hands.
"Wanna feel you open me up with your dick. Please Channie. 'M wet enough. Hyung's so wet for you already." Jihoon mumbles and Chan hums.
"Go ahead. You can use me however you want." Chan says and Jihoon nips at his throat, spit dripping on Chan's skin, and he bites him a little.
"I can?"
"Yeah. You can use your alpha however you want." Chan offers and Jihoon leaves his throat to pull him in for a hungry kiss. And Chan lets him. Chan reciprocates the kiss and he moans when he feels Jihoon's slick dripping on his lap.
"My alpha. Just mine." Jihoon says and his hands start tugging at Chan's underwear and Chan watches as Jihoon looks him right in the eye as he holds Chan's dick below him and he lowers himself on it.
Chan admits that he's been a sucker for Jihoon's tricks since the beginning. Well, its not that he falls for it but rather he lets himself play into Jihoon's little plans knowing what he wants to happen. He likes it. Likes the little smile Jihoon does when things goes his way and likes the feeling that Jihoon likes him enough to go out of his way to torture him with tricks. Like moaning in the middle of sex out of nowhere only to stop himself so Chan would double up his efforts, touch him more, kiss him more, bite him more, just to hear it again. Or coming out of Chan's room in the middle of pulling his shirt down so Chan would see a glimpse of his abs and then leave him wanting to see more as he pretends like he didn't just do anything. Everything was subtle and sneaky and Chan loves it. Loves how it feels like a game they can keep playing at random times of the day and they both win by the end of it.
But this time there's not subtlety to it. No sneaking or planning and no little knowing smiles.
Jihoon is just openly basking in Chan's attention and as if being watched while he rides his boyfriend's dick wasn't enough, Jihoon takes Chan's left hand, holds his wrist with two hands, and slips Chan's middle and ring fingers in his mouth and starts licking and sucking at them. He stares down at Chan as he does like it's a powerplay and nothing else. Like he's showing Chan that he's allowed to do this because he wants to. Like he can use Chan however he wants to because he says so.
Chan takes a deep breath, tightens his hold on Jihoon's waist and presses his fingers down on Jihoon's tongue just to get some reaction from him. Jihoon moans and he sits on Chan's lap, taking Chan whole, and he smiles even with the fingers in his mouth. Chan watches as Jihoon pulls out his fingers, sucking hard as he does, and he maneuvers his Chan's hand and presses his thumb against his own lips. "Watch." Jihoon says and he puts Chan's thumb in his mouth as he lifts himself up and bites down on it as he pushes himself down and cums all over Chan's chest and stomach.
Jihoon whines and shivers and moans and laughs all at the same time and Chan falls in love a lot more than he already was before. "Can you knot Hoonie?" Jihoon asks and he kisses Chan's knuckles. Chan pushes himself up and kisses Jihoon's shoulder. "Turn around. You need to be comfortable for when you take it." Chan says and Jihoon whines. "I can take it like this." Jihoon moves and Chan lets a little growl escape his throat as he holds Jihoon's waist down. "Please. Your alpha can hold you better if you're facing the other way." Chan offers and Jihoon hums. "Okay. Okay. Don't take your hands off." Jihoon asks and Chan smiles and nods. "I won't. Would never." Chan says and he lets up on his grip on his waist and just lets his finger ghost over his skin as Jihoon pulls off of his dick and turns to show his back to him.
"Can you put it in for me?" Jihoon asks, leaning his upper body forward to push his ass out to Chan and Chan has to bite his lips hard to keep himself from pushing Jihoon down on the bed and using him the way he really wants to.
"Channie." Chan lifts Jihoon's ass and presses the head of his cock right under his slick rim and he lets Jihoon take care of the rest.
Chan was close. Has been close for a while now. As embarrassing as it sounds he's been close to cumming since Jihoon had started. He lets his hands roam, moving from his hyung's waist to his straining thighs and over the muscles on his stomach. "Think you can cum again hyung?" Chan asks, leaning forward and kissing the sweat from Jihoon's shoulder. "Wanna show me how a good omega cums as he takes an alpha's knot, Hoonie?" Chan lets his tongue run free and it seems to be the right thing to say because Jihoon starts whining louder. "Yes. Hoonie can take it. Gonna cum on your knot. Gonna be a good omega for my Channie." Jihoon says and Chan feels his chest doubling in size as Jihoon starts riding him faster and faster and Chan goes a little crazier when he feels slick dripping even more, as if showing him that he's ready, egging him to knot him already. Chan wraps his arms around Jihoon's torso, hugging him from behind, and he hooks his chin over his shoulder and holds Jihoon down as his knot starts to flare. "Gonna fill you up so good." Chan whispers against the shell of Jihoon's ear and he tenses as the base of Chan's dick starts to swell, stretching his rim little by little as Chan thrusts it in and out until he can't pull out anymore.
True to his words, Jihoon cums on his knot like a good omega. He makes a mess on Chan's bed and Chan bites barely an inch away from where he shouldn't and Jihoon screams his name so loud that it makes Chan cum even more. "Gonna fill you up. Knock you up and keep fucking you 'til you're full of me." Chan says more to himself but Jihoon moans and shakes and his knees press together as if trying to hide. "Oh no. Open." Chan taps on Jihoon's thighs and Jihoon whines. "I said open." Jihoon whimpers and he spreads his legs. Chan reaches for his dick and finds it still hard, leaking, and Jihoon lets out a painful whine as he wraps his hand around his dick. "Shh. It's fine. Gonna make you cum one more time before I finish filling you up." Chan starts stroking Jihoon and he trashes a little in Chan's arms. "Cha- Alpha please. 'S too much. I'm- Hoonie can't-" "You can take it. Just one more and then you can rest." Chan says, kissing his neck, and Jihoon nods. Jihoon was crying silently as he grabs for Chan's other hand holding him up and puts fingers in his mouth again.
Chan can't remember the last time he came this much. And he's still going as Jihoon's teeth dig into the skin of his fingers. Like he's muffling his own cries as Chan keep tugging on his cock. Jihoon's teeth clamp down hard on Chan's fingers and he hisses at the pain. "Close?" Chan asks and Jihoon lets out the best high pitched moan he's ever heard. "Good. Let go. Cum for alpha. Come on. Cum like a good omega." Chan says and Jihoon's whole body tenses, tightens up like he's flexing his entire body, and Chan wraps his hand around the head of his dick and lets him cum on his hand.
Jihoon lies back on Chan's chest and his hands drop to his sides. Chan would've assumed he had fainted if it weren't for the little heavy breaths he's letting out. Chan pulls his fingers out of his mouth as he finally stops cumming and Jihoon whines and reaches for his hand. "Shh. Hoonie." Jihoon whines and keeps tugging on Chan's hand. "Need something in your mouth that bad?" Chan asks and Jihoon whines. "Alpha." Jihoon says weakly and Chan's blaming it on Jihoon's heat as an idea pops in his head. "Here. Clean up your mess." Chan lifts his cum covered hand over Jihoon's mouth and Jihoon lets go of Chan's other hand and held onto his other wrist. He licks at Chan's palm as a start and when he's done, he starts sucking on Chan's fingers one by one. "Shit. Hoonie. You're so filthy." Chan moans as Jihoon keeps sucking on his fingers even after he's cleaned it of his own cum. "You're such a good omega, aren't you. So hungry for it. So perfect." Jihoon keens at the praise and he moans on Chan's fingers. Chan wraps his arm around him again and holds him as he leans back.
Ten minutes later, Chan finally pulls his hand back from Jihoon's mouth and he wraps an arm around his chest, wrapping the covers around them. Jihoon's head lolled back on Chan's shoulder and Chan had to put a pillow on his lower back to lean back and let Jihoon lie on top of him. Jihoon's still a little hot to the touch but he doesn't smell as strong as he did when he woke up. Chan has one hand around his chest but uses his other hand to run his fingers over Jihoon's skin. Over the lower part of his stomach.
It's perfectly natural for Chan to imagine what Jihoon would be like with a little bump on his abdomen. It's normal.
Jihoon smells… good. So good. Chan's never really thought about how omegas were during their heats because then he'd imagine the omega to be Jihoon and he's seen enough porn to know he won't be able to hold back his imagination if he kept going so he just avoids the topic all together. But Jihoon's different. He's open and vulnerable and Chan feels a little dizzy at the amount of trust Jihoon puts on him that he'd let himself sleep with Chan's knot still in him.
Personally, Chan would never trust himself to be with Jihoon in this state. Actually, Chan would never trust himself with anything regarding Jihoon.
"Channie?" Jihoon speaks up and Chan hums.
"Feeling better, hyung?"
"You're so big. So deep this way." Jihoon says and he places a hand over the hand Chan has on his stomach.
"How long until your knot eases up?" Jihoon asks and Chan clears his throat.
"I uh… I don't really know…"
"What? How long do you usually last on your ruts?" Jihoon asks and Chan is pretty glad Jihoon's can't look him straight in the eyes.
"Hyung."
"This isn't the first time you've actually knotted, is it?" Jihoon asks and Chan kisses his shoulder blades, hoping that not answering would be answer enough.
"Channie."
"It's not a big deal, hyung."
"It is to me. I've already taken so much form you." Jihoon says and Chan hums.
"You know I hate it when you say that."
"I know. I'm sorry but… Baby."
"I never… I never experienced a rut before because nothing ever triggered it. No one ever triggered it because there was only one who could've… there was only one who had that affect on me. Only one." Jihoon intertwines their fingers over his stomach and Chan hears him take a deep breath.
"God, baby… I know this is a very special moment but all I can think of is how strong your cum is given it's your first time and if it's enough to knock me up." Jihoon says and Chan laughs.
"We can keep trying. I'll take responsibility. I'm sure my mom would celebrate if I do get you pregnant. I'll take care of you." Chan says and Jihoon moans.
"Channie. God, don't put ideas in my head. That's not fair." Jihoon moans.
"Please try to see if you can pull out because I need you to keep fucking hyung until he's crying again."
"Yes, hyung. Whatever you want." Chan says and Jihoon screams his name when Chan's knot tugs on his rim as it slips out and Chan fucks it back in then pulls out and he keeps doing it over and over until Jihoon is hard again.
"I want you to cum in Hoonie again and knot me and when it goes down I wanna ride your face." Jihoon says and Chan shivers.
God, he's so in love it's honestly so fucking ridiculous.
Jihoon was insatiable to begin with but now, on his heat, it's like he's actually only seeing Chan as an alpha who's there to breed him and kiss him and hold him. After he had fucked Jihoon as his knot swells down, Jihoon asked to be press down on the bed on his stomach and be knotted again like that. Chan lets him hold a pillow on his chest and fucked him down as gently as he can.
Which was obviously a mistake.
"Harder. I can take it." Jihoon growls and Chan tightens his hold on Jihoon's pretty, tiny waist and growls back.
"I don't want to be too rough, Hoonie."
"Come on alpha. You know I can take it."
"Hoonie." Chan warns him and Jihoon whines.
"Please-" Chan interrupts Jihoon and lets out a full growl and Jihoon shakes under him.
"Be a good omega and take what you're given." Chan says and Jihoon whimpers.
"I'm sorry alpha. I just wanted more. I need more." Jihoon mutters on his pillows and Chan can't help but smile.
"And I'll give it to you. So be good, yeah? Your alpha's gonna give you everything you want, I promise." Chan says, bites his neck hard enough for Jihoon to choke a little but Chan can feel him getting wetter already.
"You're dripping so much already Hoonie." Chan asks and Jihoon nods. Jihoon bites down on the pillow as Chan slows down even more. Jihoon shakes so much Chan almost feels bad for teasing him. But Chan thinks Jihoon's lovely screams are enough of a tell that going slow was the right thing to do before going all out and fucking him down on the bed hard that Jihoon cums untouched all over his sheets.
An hour later, Chan has to hold Jihoon down from moving because his knot still hasn't fully gone down but he won't stop fidgeting either. They've gone about five rounds in total and Chan's not really sure if Jihoon's still clouded by his heat brain or if he's already conscious enough but is just actually really insatiable. Chan warns him by growling on his throat and that does the trick.
"Few more minutes." Chan says and Jihoon whines.
"We're going to eat lunch and I'm going to clean you up before we keep going. Is there anything you want to eat?" Chan asks and Jihoon blinks at him and Chan watches as he stares blankly at him.
"I want oranges." Jihoon says, and Chan smiles. As if to make a point, Jihoon tilts Chan's chin up slowly and pressed his nose against his throat. "Oranges."
Chan is such a little bitch for anything Jihoon does it's actually starting to become a problem.
"I'm talking about lunch, Hoonie. Rice." Chan offers and Jihoon's eyes clear up a little.
"Hoonie wants rice."
"I know. What else?" Chan adds and Jihoon looks as if he's actually thinking.
"Uhm. Hoonie wants fried eggs." Chan tried to hold back but he just couldn't help but laugh.
"Rice, egg, and ramyun? Yeah?" Chan asks and Jihoon smiles and nods.
"Okay." Chan kisses him.
Jihoon was uncharacteristically quiet the whole time he cleaned him up in the showers and he asked if he could wait for Chan in his bed as he makes their lunch. Chan was about to tug the covers off to change them but Jihoon stops him and tells him to leave it. Chan watches as Jihoon moves to the middle of the bed, lying over the now dried up mess they left behind, and pressing his face on Chan's pillows. "Do you need anything else?" Chan asks, leaning over to kiss him just because he can, and Jihoon hums. "Can I… go through your clothes?" Jihoon asks and Chan nods. "Take anything you want in the closet." "No, i-" Jihoon moves closer and sniffs Chan's shirt. "Not there…" Chan takes a second to realize what he meant and Chan hums. "You wanna wear my dirty clothes" Chan asks and Jihoon looks away. "Don't call them dirty." Jihoon says and he tugs on Chan's fingers. "They smell better. Please. They help calm me down while I wait for you." Jihoon adds and Chan sighs. "Okay, fine. Just take the ones from the top of the laundry basket so they're not that old, okay? And don't get up until I call for you, understand?" Chan asks and Jihoon nods. "Okay alpha." Jihoon says, like its nothing, and Chan's reminded that they are still very much in the middle of Jihoon's heat.
Chan is going to hell for this.
"Hoonie, wanna give alpha a little something? Before he makes food" Chan says and Jihoon's eyes grew wider as he nods.
"What do you want?" Jihoon asks, already blushing a little as he smiles up at Chan.
"Let me scent you properly." Chan says and Jihoon instantly gets brighter. But his response was not the one Chan was thinking he'd get from teasing.
"Yes. Please." Jihoon held onto the front of Chan's shirt, gripping tightly as he tilts his neck, and Chan just leans in.
Jihoon shakes, pulls Chan in hard enough to know Chan's shirt is ruined now, stretched out from his grip. Chan teases one last time and kisses on the skin before scraping his teeth over them lightly but hard enough to have Jihoon gasping. Chan presses his nose over his scent gland and tightens his hands on Jihoon's waist as he takes in a deep breath. He can smell Jihoon getting turned on as it happens and Chan smiles as he takes a couple more deep breaths before pushing Jihoon back until the back of his knees hit the bed and gently lowering him back without removing his nose on his skin until he's sitting on the bed. Chan kisses his jaw and his cheek and he kisses him properly as he tries to untangle Jihoon's fingers on his shirt.
"Thank you." Chan says and Jihoon whines.
"More." Jihoon whines and Chan want to take more. More than Jihoon could ever think to offer.
"Later. I promise. Be a good omega and wait for alpha here, yeah?" Chan asks and Jihoon whines before nodding.
Lunch was at least manageable for Chan because as much as he tries to act like he knows what he's doing, he has no fucking clue what he's supposed to be doing. Which is why he tried to call in for help as he cooks.
Well, he's not really sure if he can call this help…
"Chan, back up for sec." Wonwoo says and he hears him audibly sighs on the other end of the call.
"So what you're saying is that Jihoon went into heat in your apartment, asked you to help him through it, you've knotted for the first time which is cool, congrats, and uh, you're asking us what to do?"
"Yes. What's so hard to understand about this?"
"Let's see, maybe the part that you're asking a pathetically single alpha-" "Hey!" Vernon argues, "Shush! You're asking a pathetically single alpha who's so awkward he cant even look at an omega in public and an alpha who's in a relationship but has only been with another alpha his whole adult life, about what to do with an omega in heat?" Wonwoo finishes and Chan thinks for a second.
"Fuck."
"Yeah, exactly my point."
"Who the fuck do I call then?"
"Soonyoung?" Wonwoo offers and Chan frowns.
"No thanks. He's… I don't want to talk to him about how to treat an omega knowing that he knows it's his bestfriend."
"Yah. Then why are you asking me? I'm Jihoon's bestfriend too, asshole." Wonwoo counters and Chan smiles.
"I don't know."
Truth is, Chan knows. Chan is still a little… wary of Jihoon's relationship with Soonyoung. They're too close to be just friends. They all kind of are? Chan's not proud to say he crossed Junhui off because he's not an alpha and although the other one is an alpha, he's seen Wonwoo drunkenly gush about how perfect Mingyu is to know that he's already too in love with him to even think about anyone else. So in love that Vernon has to stop him from over sharing because they don't need to know how perfectly Mingyu fits on… specific things. In very specific positions.
"What about Cheol hyung? From what I know he's the one with the most knowledge about taking care of an omega in heat." Vernon adds and Wonwoo sighs, again.
"I don't even wanna ask."
"Seungkwan. You all may not be talking to him like, a lot, but he's updated on everyone."
"Everyone?"
"Yes, Chan. Everyone. He's the one updating everyone else about you and Ji hyung. He's got eyes everywhere." Vernon adds and Chan sighs.
"Okay, I'm not getting anything useful from this conversation so I'm hanging up now."
"Hey. I know were all buddy buddy here and all and I honestly don't want to ruin your mood, but I'm telling you right now to treat Jihoon better. No matter how good you are right now, I want you know that he deserves more."
"Hyung, I think I know what Jihoon hyung needs. I don't need help there."
"Yah. The fuck did you just say to me? Do you want me to check that attitude of yours for you?" Wonwoo's never really done anything wrong but Chan just can't take that. He wouldn't have said anything if it was anything else but to imply that Chan isn't doing everything for Jihoon is something Chan won't take lightly.
"Both of you stop. Right now." Vernon says and Chan sighs.
"Maybe I have been too nice with you kids."
"Hyung, stop it. Look, you two are literally saying the same things and are arguing about it like idiots. We're all talking about how to help Jihoon hyung through his heat so I'm gonna message Cheol hyung and ask him if he can call you. Message him too, yeah?"
"I will." Chan says
"Alright, Chan just hang up. Hyung, let it go." Vernon says and before any of them could say anything else, Chan does just that. He hangs up and sends a message to Seungcheol, asking if he's free and if he can talk.
Chan leaves the rice cooker and went to the stove and prepares everything he needs. Just as he finished frying eggs and the last spam in his cupboards, he hears his phone ringing.
And that conversation is probably the longest five minute call he's ever gotten. Also in the number of times he's met Seungcheol, he always thought of him as a little dorky and extremely childish.
But, god, starting the call with "Chan-ah. Do you have any idea what you're supposed to be doing?" in his deep voice definitely shook Chan to his core.
Chan has very little experiences with alphas who act all big and strong. Maybe it's because he's an alpha, maybe it's just mere chances, but he's never really seen the whole power-trip-move older alphas would use on younger ones. The whole alpha-beta-omega hierarchy thing definitely adds another layer to the already existing hierarchy koreans have when it comes to seniority and age. The most he's seen of this is Wonwoo getting in between one of them and a stranger who's about to start talking shit. And although Seungcheol has never been anything but sweet and lovely towards them and their friends, he definitely feels that he's an alpha Chan should respect and look up to.
"Do you understand?"
"Yes, hyung. Thank you, really." Chan says and he turns off the stove and leaves the ramyun to cook a little more.
"Next time don't hesitate to call hyung, okay? Whatever it is, I'll try to help. And take care of Jihoon, yeah?" Seungcheol says and Chan blushes. He never really mentioned who the omega he's with is because he's not sure how Jihoon would feel about him announcing it to literally everyone.
"It's not-" "Oh come on. We already know about you two. We've been waiting for it, really. He's really fond of you. But that's something we can talk about some other time. Go and tend to your alpha duties Chan-ah." Seungcheol says and Chan laughs. He says goodbye, thanks him again, and just as he was about to end the call, Seungcheol adds one last thing.
"Remember, this is about being there for him. Even if you don't do everything we talked about, as long as your omega is okay and is asking for it, then that’s usually a good lead to follow." Seungcheol says and Chan takes a mental note.
It seemed like a good idea at the time but Chan can't just actually say yes to this.
"You don't wanna?" Jihoon asks, uncharacteristically weaponizing his cuteness and Chan silently thanks Jihoon for never doing this at all. Ever.
"We- We'll just eat first, yeah?" Chan asks and Jihoon tugs on his hand and frowns.
"Hyung, I can't-" Chan takes a deep breath, "You won't be able to eat properly if you have my dick inside you."
"Yes I can."
"Hyung."
"But I feel empty." Jihoon drags Chan's hand over his stomach and looks up at him like Chan's supposed to feel the emptiness he's talking about. In hindsight, this may be Chan's fault for teasing him before.
"Based from my experience, they hardly make any sense at all. Or they do but in a totally random way, I guess. If he keeps insisting on doing something then just compromise. Make him think of something else."
Chan thinks of a plan but he starts by kissing Jihoon's neck and scenting him again. He pushes him back on the table and puts his arms on either sides of his legs and he lifts him up to make him sit on the table before kissing up his jaw and kissing his open mouth.
"You know I wanna fill you up, too, right?" Chan starts and Jihoon whimpers and nods.
"You know how much I love it when hyung's on top of me, sitting prettily on my cock, dripping on it, drooling on my fingers." Chan gets a smile from Jihoon and he thinks this is good enough leverage.
"Then lets eat first. And then," Chan runs his hand up Jihoon's knee, slipping up his thigh and under his shirt, "then you can use your alpha again. For as long as you want. That's what we want, right?" Chan offers and Jihoon whines.
"But I-" Chan clicks his tongue once and Jihoon stops. He swallows and then he looks down on Chan's hand on his skin. It worked perfectly.
"When they're in heat think of it as them reverting back to just primal urges. They'll be more sensitive and more reliant on touch and smell and you know… Taste." Seungcheol says with a little hint of shyness there.
"After we eat, you're gonna fuck me for as long as I want?" Jihoon asks and Chan smiles.
"Yeah. Gonna knot you and fill you up as many times as my pretty little omega wants. Gonna fuck you however you like, on your back, on top of me, standing up by the window," Jihoon shivers at the last one, "I can even fuck you against the wall, holding you up and fucking you like that because I know you like feeling used, right?" Chan asks and Jihoon nods with his eyes closed and his lips parted a little.
"And as much as I know you don't want to admit it, you have a great deal of influence on him right now. As long as you play nice and don't take advantage of that, I can assure you that your omega would be very happy."
"So? Do we have a deal, hyung?" Chan asks and Jihoon opens his pretty brown eyes and smiles so sweetly at him.
"Alpha…" Jihoon mutters, his eyes were a little dazed and Chan can't help but smile wider as Jihoon leans in try and kiss him. Chan holds him back and Jihoon whines.
"I said, do we have a deal?" Chan reaches to hold Jihoon's face, the way he always does to Chan, and he finds him leaning into the touch.
"Yes, alpha." Jihoon answers, his voice was a lot more quiet and soft and Chan hums.
"Okay. Come on. Sit down on the chair and let your alpha take care of you for a change." Chan says and Jihoon does as he was asked and patiently waits by Chan's side as he feeds them both.
Jihoon was surprisingly tame after that. Seungcheol said meal breaks are okay but not make them eat too much because it'll upset their stomach. So after they ate, Chan lets Jihoon drink as much as he wants and he smiles as Jihoon waits for him to say when they can go back to bed. He tails Chan as he cleans the table and even as he was washing the dishes. "You can go and wait for me on bed, hyung. I'll come as soon as I'm done." Chan offers but Jihoon stood his ground and just waited. Chan breaks a little and he leaves the dishes for later and leads Jihoon back into the bedroom.
This time, Chan takes it slow.
He sits Jihoon down on the edge of the bed and tilts his head up for a kiss. Jihoon takes it, melts into it as he kisses back. Chan pushes him back slowly without breaking the kiss until Jihoon's lying on the bed.
"What do you want hyung?" Jihoon moans and he hikes up his legs and lets Chan crawl between them.
"Want me here, hyung? Want me to eat you out?" Jihoon hums and he tugs on his boxers and lets Chan pull it down completely. Chan tugs on his shirt too but Jihoon pulls it down.
"Can I take it off?" Chan asks and Jihoon shakes his head.
"You know, with this on, it's almost like you smell like you're mine."
"I am." Jihoon says right after, like it's such an obvious fact and Chan nuzzles his noes along Jihoon's throat.
"That's right. You are, aren't you? All mine." Chan leans up and kisses him one last time before taking in his sweet, sweet scent and letting his instincts take over. "Just mine."
"Now spread those legs for your alpha. Gonna make you cum with just my tongue." Chan says and as soon as he was in position, Jihoon hooks his legs over Chan's shoulders and smiles at him.
"What do you to if it feels too much?"
"Ask alpha to stop."
"Good. How do you ask me to stop?"
"Tug on your ears." Jihoon answers and Chan smiles.
"You can scream and pretend like you want me to stop if you like. But I'll only stop if you do our signal, okay?" Jihoon nods.
"I wouldn't ask alpha to stop." Jihoon adds and Chan raises and eyebrow at that.
"Really? Even when it hurts?"
"Hoonie likes it when it hurts a little. You said I look pretty when I cried." Chan definitely should watch what he says to heat-stupid Jihoon.
"You're pretty all the time hyung."
"But I… I like it. Like it whne it hurts a little because I like it when you take care of me after. I love it when alpha takes charge and leaves me a little helpless… when he tells me what to do."
Oh.
"Hyung… Do you mean that now or all the time."
"I don't know… But I think I want it all the time?"
"So you like it when alpha takes care of you?" Jihoon nods.
"Like when I tell you what you need and what to do?" Jihoon nods again.
"Why didn't you tell me before?" Chan asks and Jihoon looks away.
"Because some alphas don't like that. Calls Hoonie… needy. I don't like how it feels when they call me names." Chan is processing around eight things from just that one whole sentence and he moves from where his head is between Jihoon's legs and hovers over his face.
"We can talk about that later but right now, I want you to hear me say this and I want you to remember, okay?" Jihoon nods. His eyes are so beautiful like this. So round and bright.
"I'm not like them. I like it when you tell me what you need because then I can be a good alpha and give them to you. Yeah? Then I can help you more. Make you feel good a lot more." Jihoon blinks at him and Chan feels his heart double in size when Jihoon's eyes start to tear up as he nods.
"I want you to do that from now on, okay? Ask me what you need. What you want. I'm your alpha, remember? Just yours. And I need to know those things so I can be a good alpha for you." Jihoon nods and Chan kisses him as gently as he can.
"Thank you." Jihoon mumbles and Chan kisses him again.
"Now what do you want alpha to do?"
"Uh.. Want you to eat me out, please. Make me scream and cum like earlier. Make Hoonie feel good and I'll be a good omega and take your knot after. Let you use me because I'm good." Jihoon says and Chan nods.
Making Jihoon reach his orgasm from just being eaten out was a lot easier than Chan thought it would be so he takes his underwear off and fucks Jihoon like that. Jihoon has spit going down the sides of his mouth and his hand are just thrown over his head as he takes Chan's knot again and cries at the feeling of being bred full. Jihoon's eyes clears for a second and he thanks Chan with a kiss. Their position was a little uncomfortable for Chan but his knot goes down ten minutes later and Jihoon asks to be fucked by the window.
Chan did say to ask for whatever he wants.
Jihoon came twice by being fucked by the window. It didn't matter that the curtains were drawn because Chan paints a mental picture to Jihoon. He whispers a scenario to him where there were no curtains and Jihoon was drooling and begging to be knocked up in front of the window for everyone to see. Chan slips in two fingers into Jihoon's mouth and he hums and shakes from the feeling of them pressing down on his tongue. "I think you'd love having our friends over, watching all around us as I knock you up." Chan whispers and Jihoon's teeth dig down on his fingers and he tightens up around Chan's cock, cumming all over the floor.
Jihoon pulls out Chan's fingers and he starts shaking his head. He sags and Chan is using what strength he has left to keep them both up while Jihoon pants. "No, please. Alpha… alpha, don't want them to see." Jihoon mumbles and Chan soothes him as he pulls out and turns him around to face him. Jihoon wraps his arms around Chan's shoulder and he keeps letting out these heavy breaths. "It's okay, it's okay. They won't see, I promise. I'd never share you to them. To anyone." Chan says and Jihoon moans. "Promise?" "I promise, hyung. Come on, let's get back to bed." Chan says and Jihoon hums and lets Chan carry him back to bed.
Jihoon wrapped himself around Chan and eventually passed out. It was around nine in the evening now and Chan is honestly a little spent. No amount of obsession to Jihoon's body is going to help him when he feels like his balls are empty and the only thing keeping him from passing out due to dehydration is the amount of Jihoon's slick he's sucked from eating him out. Chan wraps the covers around them again, not even feeling bothered by how dirty they are now and just focused on the way that it at least keeps Jihoon from getting cold.
And that's when it hit him. Jihoon's not as warm as he was earlier.
"Chan?" Jihoon's voice spooks him a little and Chan helps him sit up next to him.
"Hey, hyung. Are you back? Is it over?" Chan asks and he kisses Jihoon's shoulder as Jihoon smiles at him.
"I'm still a little… it's almost gone." Jihoon says and Chan wraps his arms around his waist and pulls him closer.
"Do you want to have dinner first? Wanna drink some water?" Chan asks and Jihoon hums.
"Channie, I'm still a little light headed but, uhm… you were so good. I liked it. Loved it." Jihoon says and Chan hums.
"I liked it when you called yourself alpha. It was hot." Jihoon adds and he crawls on top of Chan's lap and kisses him.
"You were so good to me. So gentle but rough when I beg for it." Jihoon says and Chan smiles up at him.
"And you…" Jihoon blushes and Chan stares at how pretty the color looks on Jihoon's skin. How it makes his deep brown eyes seem fuller.
And then Jihoon is punching his chest.
"You kept saying you were gonna knock me up. You don't say that to an omega in heat, asshole."
"I'm sorry! I was only saying it because you said it first!"
"Of course I'm gonna say it! But you don’t get to say it because… because I thought you were actually going to. Now I feel stupid for hoping I'd-" Jihoon says, catches himself with an embarrassed huff, and he starts punching Chan again.
Chan is going to die of heart problems at the ripe age of twenty four if Jihoon is like this every time he goes into heat.
"We can keep trying." Chan says and Jihoon stops when Chan catches his wrists. He turns even brighter and he scowls at Chan.
"Yah-" Jihoon starts, using his deep voice but Chan doesn't let him finish.
"Do you wanna keep going or do you want dinner first?" Chan asks, kissing up Jihoon's throat, and he hears him take a deep breath.
"You know I'm awake now, right?" Jihoon counters back and Chan nods.
"I know. Doesn't mean you'd want your alpha any less. You were so wet for me." Chan says and Jihoon bites his lips and digs his fingers in Chan's shoulder.
"You knotted for the first time today and now you're acting like a big bad alpha? R-really?" Jihoon tries to stand his ground and Chan likes it. It's cute but very ineffective. Chan can see why Jihoon loved teasing him so much.
"You still haven't answered my question." Chan lets go of his wrists and runs his fingers up Jihoon's thighs and his waist.
"Do you want to have dinner first, have a little break, or do you want your alpha to fuck you hard enough to finally break your heat?" Jihoon stares, frustrated, and Chan takes it all in because he is so going to get a lecture in the morning.
"I… I want you…" Jihoon says and he looks over Chan's shoulder, avoiding his eyes, and Chan thinks that a little unfair.
Chan figured there's no harm in playing into the alpha role sometimes.
Chan holds Jihoon's jaw gently, forces him to look into his eyes, and he smiles when Jihoon tries to look away.
"You want..? What? Speak up." Jihoon bites his lips and his fingers on Chan's shoulders finally let up and he presses his palms down on Chan's chest. "I… I want my alpha to break my heat." Jihoon says and Chan hums.
"Say please." Chan adds and Jihoon's glare comes back for a second before it melts away as soon as he looks at Chan's eyes.
"Chan." Jihoon says in a quiet voice and his hands shake a little.
"Come on, hyung. Or is that mouth just good for sucking fingers?" Jihoon takes shallow breaths and Chan soothes him with hands on his skin. Jihoon's pupils are blown wide and Chan sees both of him there. The Jihoon he had grown to look up to and the omega who went through his laundry basket and came from humping a pillow while he pushes his shirt against his nose.
"Say. Please." Chan says and Jihoon lets out an adorable whine.
"I…I want my alpha to break my heat. Please. Hoon-" Jihoon's voice breaks and Chan soothes him and tells him to keep going. "Please help Hoonie and fuck him good, alpha." Jihoon finishes and Chan feels a little high when he looks back into Jihoon's eyes and finds him a little teary-eyed, a little frustrated and embarrassed. Chan savors it for a few seconds and he nods. He kisses Jihoon's throat, sucks a little harder, and he takes in Jihoon's scent with a deep breath.
"Good omega." Chan says and Jihoon's slick soaks through his underwear and onto Chan's skin.
Even though Chan mostly intended to just tease, he makes good on his promise and fucks Jihoon until his heat eventually breaks. Not that Jihoon was satisfied with just one round regardless of his heat. "Wanna feel you knot me again. Stretch me with your knot and then fill me up." Jihoon asks as if he isn't sitting on Chan's knot, cheeks still a pretty shade of pink and cock dripping against Chan's abs. The twenty minutes it took for them to wait for Chan's knot to go down passed by in a blink because Jihoon had a death grip on Chan's nape as they make out the entire time. It's like finally coming out of his heat headspace made Jihoon hungrier for Chan and Chan's a little too weak to say no to all of his requests.
When Chan knots Jihoon for the last time in the night, Jihoon is a little breathless. He's very graphic in describing what he's feeling, how every thrust hits his sensitive spots over and over and how badly he wants to cum by his knot alone. When Chan starts to swell, he flips Jihoon to make him lie on his stomach and he gives him what he begs for and fucks his knot in and out for as long as he can regardless of how hard it tugs on Jihoon's rim. Jihoon spills a pathetic spurt of cum on the bed and Chan kisses him in a rather uncomfortable angle but it's worth it. Jihoon cries, tears spilling from his gorgeous eyes as Chan fills him up and keeps him full even until his knot swells down. He wraps his arms around Jihoon's body and turns to his side so they can both lie on their sides. Jihoon takes his hand hostage again and hums as he sucks on Chan's fingertips. Jihoon mutters a soft "Alpha." under his breath and he tenses up right after. As if catching himself. Chan mouths at his shoulder and neck and Jihoon relaxes in his arms. Instead of shoving Chan's fingers in his mouth, he sucks on them gently, taking in just his fingertips and playing with them with his tongue. He falls asleep eventually and Chan pulls out as gently as he could, leaving the mess be, and he pulls Jihoon's shoulders to make him turn to face him and Jihoon moves closer to him as if on instinct. Chan holds him there and closes his eyes because as hungry as he was, his whole body was a little sore and he thinks he's sprained muscles in places he didn't even know he could sprain at all.
Chan wakes up from the gentle hand brushing the hair away from his face and he peeks one eye open to see Jihoon's smiling face against a backdrop or sunlight. The light makes his fair skin unfairly beautiful and bright that Chan wouldn't have known where his skin starts and where the sunlight ends if it weren't for the faint blush dusted over the skin of his neck up to his nose. Chan blinks, trying to see if he's still dreaming and desperately hoping that he isn't. And even if it were just a dream, he hopes it's one he never wakes up to at all. He stares at how painfully gorgeous Jihoon is with his black hair and his soft smile and he lifts his hand up and reaches to hold his face and as he does, he feels like he's holding sunlight inn the palm of his hand and not the face of love.
"I love you. So much." Chan says and he watches Jihoon's smile disappear for a second before it comes back along with a hand on Chan's cheek.
"I'm supposed to be the one to have post-heat dead-brain, Channie." Jihoon laughs and Chan watches.
Wait.
"Before your brain catches up, I just want to say that I love you, too. I have for a long time now, I think." Jihoon says and Chan blinks.
"Since when, hyung?" Jihoon hums and Chan notices their postion. Him on his back and Jihoon on his side, half on top of him.
"Since- let me think. I think our first kiss?" Jihoon says and Chan smiles.
"I was freaking out because I didn't know if kissing you on the first date was okay." Chan laughs and Jihoon laughs along but shakes his head.
"Not that. Our first kiss, Channie. The very first one." Jihoon says and Chan stops breathing.
"I told you I wanted to be sure, remember? That your first kiss is from someone who loves you. Not like mine." Jihoon says and Chan sits up and now it's his turn to look down on Jihoon.
This is, Chan thinks, the one image of Jihoon that he's always going to be thinking of when he thinks of everything that makes Jihoon, Jihoon. And Chan feels as though he had found a piece of heaven on earth.
Jihoon lies back, smiling, reaching for Chan's hand as his unruly hair forms a crown that shines bluish-black under the sunlight. His smile is devious, teasing, and almost annoying when you're at the receiving end of it but it's also sincere and sweet. Chan notices his own shirt on him, a black shirt with a random band name on that Vernon had given him in one of his many birthdays. All of it adds up and weighs down on Chan's heart like an anchor. It keeps him grounded and sane but at the same time it tugs on him a little that it hurts a little bit more the more he stares. And to top it all off, Jihoon's eyes are on him and him alone. He watches Chan as if he's more than just him. There are unshed tears in his eyes, unsaid words, making his smile brighter but also heavier, and Chan feels him squeezing his hand.
He's not so sure how long he's been staring but he clears his throat and frowns.
"I mean, I at least remember it that way. I'm not so sure. I kind of forget these things." Jihoon adds, smiling the smile he does when he wants to rile him up, and Chan moves on top of Jihoon and leans in until their noses are touching.
"You forgot?"
"Yeah. I think you have to remind me again how the kiss went. I think you were bad at it? I don't know…" Jihoon says, one hand holding Chan's face and another slotting through his hair. And that smile. God, that smile. That devious and infuriating smile that he uses on Chan.
"Yeah?" Chan watches Jihoon close his eyes and it's all the sign he needed to lean in for a kiss. Just a sweet, innocent, gentle kiss.
But Jihoon has to be a dick about it and grope Chan over his boxers.
Chan groans and pulls Jihoon's hand away.
"As much as I want to keep going, I'm out of commission for the day." Chan says and Jihoon grins.
"I know. I'm a little… too sore myself."
"Oh? Do you want a bath? How can I help?"
"Look who's being such a lovely alpha." Jihoon teases him, again, and Chan lets him.
"Well, I feel a little responsible." Jihoon laughs and Chan lets himself drop on top of Jihoon.
"I made breakfast. As thank you. I was just coming to wake you up." Jihoon says and Chan frowns.
"Don't give me that 'I should be the one taking care of you' bullshit. Or I will really put your friend down there out of commission. For a good while." Jihoon says with a calm voice and Chan hums.
"I love it when you talk dirty." Chan says and Jihoon laughs.
"Come on. The coffee's gonna go cold." Jihoon says and Chan hums.
"Breakfast then bath?" Chan asks and Jihoon nods.
"Also, I don't remember putting on clothes?" Chan admits and Jihoon laughs.
"I figured. You woke me up to clean me up a bit and then made me wear clothes and you passed out as soon as you like, caged me in a hug." Jihoon says and Chan buries his face under Jihoon's jaw.
"First time I saw your alpha auto-pilot brain. I thought Seokmin and Jeonghan were making it up. You were kind of hot, though. Just grunting and moaning and grabbing me like a dress up doll. You were like a zombie. Or a very adorable caveman." Jihoon adds and Chan slaps his thigh and Jihoon laughs.
Breakfast was quiet. Jihoon had insisted on moving to the couch so he can sit on Chan's lap and feed him and Chan lets him. Because he still hasn't learned how to say no to Jihoon and he honestly doesn't see the benefit of saying no in the first place. Jihoon seemed… softer. The way he spoke, the way he touched, even the way he looked at Chan. All of it feels so mind numbingly good that when they were done and Jihoon asked if they could just stay there for a while before taking a bath, Chan had blurted out his thoughts.
"Is it weird?"
"Not what I meant hyung. I like it. I just think there's probably a reason behind it."
"Well you broke my heat in less than twenty-four hours, which is record breaking. I feel… I feel like I actually remember all of it. Like, everything from the start up until last night and it's… It feels good. I feel good." Jihoon says and he moves closer to Chan and pressed himself against his side. Chan holds him, pulls him closer, and Jihoon hums.
"I'm glad."
"My heats are usually a pain because I don't have anyone to ask. Seungcheol's with Seokmin, Wonwoo's with Mingyu, Soonyoung's with Jeonghan and I'd rather stab my dick than ask Soonyoung for help, and I didn't feel comfortable asking the younger alphas on our little group for help."
"If I had known I'd have offered to help since I presented." Chan says and Jihoon laughs.
"Channie, if you had the balls to talk to me right from the beginning you'd have offered to help even before you presented." Jihoon says and Chan can't really argue with that.
"You think you know me so well, don't you?" Chan teased and Jihoon hums.
"I do know you well. And i… I want you to know me, too. Know all of me. It's only fair, yeah?" Jihoon says, hiding his face on Chan's neck and playing with the hem of his shirt.
Chan holds Jihoon in the bathtub, letting him lean back on him as he tells him all of him. Tells him of scars he swore he'd never tell anyone else. He told Chan about what it was like when he presented as an omega in his freshman year, how he thought people would treat him differently but in the end, they didn't. A lot of them were even older alphas who seems to always ask if they're stepping over boundaries and Jihoon felt safe there.
During his first heat, he couldn't reach out to anyone because everyone had exams to think about and Jihoon didn't want to seem like a pathetic omega begging for help so he told a few of the people he trusts in class about it and they even offered to walk him to his dorm. And before Jihoon could thank them, one of the older alphas offered to walk him home himself. They knew people would less likely to bother Jihoon with an alpha around so they let him and Jihoon thanked him as he took Jihoon's bag and held him by his waist as they walked on.
"I never knew how to… I don't know if I'm right to feel this way about it. Because it feels like he was right. Like he didn't do anything wrong." Jihoon adds. Chan holds him tighter.
Jihoon doesn't remember most of it. He said he remembers reaching his room and remembers the alpha walking in and closing the door behind him. When he thanked him, he just smiled and offered to help even more. Jihoon remember him saying he can make his heat feel better.
Jihoon never said yes. But the alpha had argued that he never said no when he started touching him.
The moment his heat broke off, Jihoon had kindly asked the alpha to leave and he did so with a smile on his face. He called Soonyoung, told him about what happened, and half an hour later Soonyoung and Wonwoo are in his room, arguing, while Jun helped him clean up in the bathroom. Holding him up as Jihoon washes up and he holds him up as Jihoon throws up the little bit he had left in his stomach. Jihoon didn't leave his room for the next day but it made him sick to his stomach when flashes of those nights come back to him. Jun had packed his stuff up for him and made him stay with him for the rest of the semester. Wonwoo walked into all of Jihoon's classes, talked to his professors for him on how he can take their exams without having to take it in person, and they never told Jihoon but he knew that he asks around about the alpha in his class. Jihoon kept telling Wonwoo to go back to his uni that's literally a whole city away and Wonwoo just frowns at him before going back to telling Jihoon where his professors are going to make him take his exams.
Chan feels sick to his stomach the entire time. He wanted to ask why he never told them, why did he hide this from them when they could've helped, too. But Chan knows that's all nonsense.
"But taking my finals in the library was definitely enough for my professors to catch on. And as much as I want to hate the world, the world has actually progressed a lot, in a way." Jihoon says and Chan asks Jihoon to get up because the water in the tub is almost cold now and Chan dries him up, puts on his clothes for him, and asks if he can keep going after Chan's taken care of their bed.
Jihoon's friends spoke up. They knew from the moment he stopped attending classes that something was up and they apologized to Jihoon for not speaking up earlier. The asshole that took advantage of him was walking around their classes like nothing had happened. But after that, they heard he dropped out of his course and moved away.
"What's his name?"
"Chan. That's not why I'm telling you all of this." Jihoon says. They're lying on the bed now, Chan's head pillowed on Jihoon's arm as he holds Jihoon tightly.
"I'm so mad at Wonwoo hyung for not telling me about this but I know I'd be even more mad if he did tell us." Chan adds and Jihoon laughs a little.
Oh god. Oh god, Wonwoo.
"Fuck."
"What?"
"God, I… I called Wonwoo hyung yesterday. I was asking about this heat stuff and he-" Chan's voice breaks.
"He told me that you deserve better. He said that whatever I was doing, you deserve a lot more. And I just- I lashed out on him. I thought he…"
"Oh."
"God. I'm such an idiot."
"No, Channie. Listen. I'm sure you both were just driven by your emotions then. Wonwoo knows you. He knows you'd take care of me. I'm sure it's he won’t take it to heart. Yeah? Wonwoo likes you. He adores you." Jihoon says but Chan's already imagining his life now that Wonwoo's disowned him. How he's never going to have updates on him on current projects near them and he's never going to drop by with lunch when he's done visiting the construction site of his current project. God, now they'll never meet as a whole group of thirteen because Wonwoo's going to pretend to be busy when he finds out Chan's coming with Jihoon.
"You wanna know what he told me when we went out on our first date?" Jihoon asks, playing with his hair, and Chan hums. He's fighting back tears but Jihoon's proven effective in distracting Chan.
"He said that he's glad. Because I deserved someone like you. Someone who liked me as much as you do." Jihoon says and Chan huffs.
God. He's a complete jackass.
"He did not say that." Chan says and Jihoon laughs.
"He did!" Jihoon argues and Chan sighs.
"I can't believe you're lying to my face like that, hyung. Wonwoo hyung's… he's an ass. He kept telling us that we were knock off alphas for years." Chan says and Jihoon laughs harder.
"You and Vernon?" Jihoon asks and he starts laughing louder.
"Hyung." Chan whines and Jihoon at least has the decency to hold back his laughter.
"I'm sorry. I know Wonwoo's an idiot but he's really proud of you two. He talks about you like you two are his sons, actually." Jihoon says and Chan sighs.
"Do you think he's right?"
"About you being a knock off alpha? Definitely not. You're knot is very much like a real alpha. And you cum like one, too." Jihoon says in a serious voice and Chan slaps his thigh and hides his smile as Jihoon laughs.
"No, about me."
"That I'm someone you deserve…"
"Lee Chan, you're everything I deserve and more." Jihoon says and Chan buries his face on Jihoon's chest and Jihoon hums.
"I'm being serious, okay? You're so good to me, even before everything. You always took care of hyung in your own cute little awkward ways and I am so glad that you were my first kiss." Jihoon tugs on him to pull away and Chan doesn't hide the tears in his eyes that were already starting to fall.
"I love you, Lee Chan. And I'm a hundred percent sure that I want you to be just mine for as long as I live." Jihoon says, smiling, and Chan nods.
Wait-
"Wait, hyung-" Jihoon nods and Chan wipes at his face and blinks.
"I want to be yours, Channie. Want to be owned by you. Be touched just by you. I want to be kissed just by you. I want to go out in public with you and you growl at anyone who so much as look my way." Jihoon says and he laughs through his tears, too.
"You've given me so many of your firsts so I want beat that and give you all of my lasts." Jihoon says and Chan swallows. His Jihoon. All spite and sarcasm.
"Is that what you want?" Jihoon asks and Chan nods.
"Is that really what you want, hyung? I-" "It is. I'm sure. I want to be your omega from now on."
"Hyung."
"If you're sure, if you're really sure-" Jihoon shuts him up by pulling him in for a kiss.
"I'm sure Channie. Please." Jihoon says and Chan nods.
Chan kisses him, he holds him as he kisses his ever so sweet hyung. He kisses down his jaw, his throat, he even goes down to kiss his shoulder. He kisses everywhere but where Jihoon needs him the most. "Channie, please. No more teasing. Not with this one." Jihoon begs and who is Chan to say no to that? Chan pressed his nose against Jihoon's scent gland, takes in how sweet he smells right now, how turned on he is even if his body is tired. Chan kisses over it, licks it, and he takes one last deep breath of this smell. Of an unclaimed Jihoon moaning in his bed. "Last chance, hyung. Please. Tell me you really want this. Or tell me you don't while I can still pull back." Jihoon lets out a frustrated sigh and pulls Chan up for another kiss.
"I'm sure. I've wanted this for years, Channie. Please." Jihoon moans right on front of his face and Chan brushes the hair out of Jihoon's face and smiles. "Sit up hyung." Chan pulls him up, holds his legs up on either sides of his and sits Jihoon on his lap as Jihoon wraps his arms around Chan's neck. "I love you." Chan says, kissing that spot again, and this time he opens his mouth and bares his teeth over it. "I-" Jihoon doesn't finish.
Chan sinks his teeth in, breaking the skin and Jihoon lets out a new kind of whine. It's high pitched and broken and his nails dig into Chan's skin over his shoulder blades as Chan slowly feels Jihoon accept him. Chan pulls back, licks up the blood on Jihoon's wounds and Jihoon squirms away from the touch. "Stings." Jihoon whimpers and Chan held him tighter. "Shh. Alpha's got you." Chan finds himself saying and Jihoon turns from squirming away to pulling Chan closer. The blood stops as soon as Chan licked him clean and he blows cool air over it and it makes Jihoon shiver.
Chan tries to hold back but he finds himself leaning in and scenting Jihoon. It breaks his mind a little to find that he does smell different. He… He smells something under the familiar scent he's grown obsessed with and Chan pressed his nose by the wounds before letting up.
"Do you feel different?" Chan asks, watching Jihoon open his eyes. Jihoon stares back at him with unfocused eyes and Chan waits for him to speak up.
"Yeah, I-" Jihoon takes a deep breath and frowns.
"What?"
"I feel hot. Can I get another heat just because of this?" Jihoon asks and Chan moves his hands on Jihoon's lower back.
"Hyung, how should I know?"
"Channie." Jihoon wraps his arms around his shoulders and takes a deep breath.
"What is it?"
"I… Why do I smell different? Why can I smell myself?" Jihoon asks in a quiet voice and Chan kisses him.
"That's just me, yeah? It's okay. It's so other alphas will know you're mine and they can't have you the way I do." Chan says and Jihoon nods.
"Do you like it? How I smell?" Jihoon asks, looking away, and Chan laughs a little.
"Of course. I love everything about you, hyung." Chan offers and Jihoon nods.
"God, I feel tired." Jihoon sags in Chan's arms and Chan gets up on his knees, still carrying Jihoon, and he lies him down on the bed gently before lying next to him and pull his back agaisnt his chest.
"Sleep some more, hyung. I'll be right here." Chan says and Jihoon nods. He hums and starts playing with Chan's fingers. Chan wouldn't have noticed it at first but after a few more minutes passed, Jihoon's still toying with his fingers. Chan smiles, wraps his left arm around Jihoon's stomach and slips his right arm under Jihoon's armpit and lets his fingers rest over Jihoon's mouth. Jihoon kisses his fingertips, plays with them for a while until all Chan can feel is his warm breath hitting his palm.
Meeting their group again, a year after their last meeting, went exactly the way he thought it would. Everyone acts like the idiots that they are and the victim of their dramatic tendencies just happens to be the two of them.
Although, one part of it went the complete opposite of what Chan thought would happen.
"Hyung, come on." Chan tries to tug on Seungcheol's jacket but Seungcheol just smiles at him, takes his hand off, and drags Jihoon on another table where Soonyoung, Wonwoo, Joshua, Vernon, and Jun were already waiting.
"He'll be fine." Jeonghan says and he drags Chan towards their second table.
Chan was expecting the talk because it's kind of a rule. Whenever a couple comes together in their little group, they have to do a little intervention. Chan never saw it because when he joined the club, Seungcheol and Jeonghan had already graduated and Wonwoo and Mingyu had been sort of together since Mingyu was a freshman so Chan didn't get to see that either. He thought they'd have to give Seungkwan and Vernon the talk eventually but that never really grew into anything other than being very close friends that Seungkwan would take Vernon to Jeju sometimes when he goes home for the holidays.
And now he wishes he'd seen at least one of them be given the talk because he feels a little… ganged up on.
Jeonghan had assured him Jihoon would be fine and Chan only realized it as soon as he sat down but he never actually assured Chan that he'd be fine. Their table has all the younger club members aside from Vernon along with the addition of Jeonghan. Mingyu, Minghao, and Seokmin just smiling at Chan while Seungkwan is eyeing him, like he's trying to understand something and he's struggling with coming to terms with it.
"I don't see it."
"See what?" Chan asks and Seungkwan just shrugs.
"What you have that I don't. I've been trying to flirt with Ji hyung since I joined the club and nothing." Seungkwan says. Chan takes a deep breath, tries not to let Seungkwan get to him, and he smiles.
"Oh? Maybe that's why. Maybe it's because you always try too hard, hyung." Chan says as politely as he can and Seungkwan frowns at him.
"Or maybe Jihoon likes that Chan's a smartass but gets all cutesy with him." Jeonghan says and Chan takes another deep breath and forces his smile to stay.
"Hyung, come on."
"It's true. And the same goes for him. Your favoritism goes both ways that it's so disgusting." Mingyu says and Chan… Okay. Now, Chan doesn't need to force his smile.
"How is it like in your new place? Vernon's been complaining about being left alone." Minghao asks.
"Oh, it's great. The condo Wonwoo hyung suggested was perfect. I couldn't talk Jihoon out of moving companies but he said he has offers to every major company in every city in South Korea so he would've left and accepted an offer closest to wherever we moved to. He's ridiculous." Chan says and when he looks up he finds them all watching him with stupid grins on their faces. Even Seungkwan.
"God, I can't believe Chan's settling down before me. I feel so pathetic." Seungkwan says and Chan smiles brightly at him.
"Ey, hyung. You don't need my help in that. You're pretty pathetic regardless." Chan says and Seungkwan's smile drops.
"Let me hit him. Just one time. Hyung, come on. Just one. I know everyone here had wanted to at least once before." Seungkwan says and Jeonghan slings an arm around Chan's shoulder and shakes his head.
"If I let you then Jihoon's going to hold me accountable and I need him on my side for now because I need some dirt on Soonie. I still think he's a little too perfect." Jeonghan says and Seungkwan makes a disgusted sound.
"You couples are disgusting." Seungkwan says and Minghao nods.
"They're better than some of the couples I know." Minghao says and Mingyu sighs.
"You have to let that go."
"You brought Wonwoo hyung into our bro trip! Seokmin didn't even think about inviting Cheol hyung."
"I brought him as our, you know, photographer. And sort of tour guide."
"Last time I checked you don't make out with the tour guide in our shared, three bed hotel room. And we went to Jeju! If anything, it would've made more sense if we brought Seungkwan." Minghao says and Chan hears two scoffs at the same time.
"You went to Jeju without telling me?" Seungkwan asks at the same time Jeonghan asked, "You went to Jeju without Cheol? And he let you?" to Seokmin.
"We did. And he let me because he knew Wonwoo hyung was there."
"What's Wonwoo hyung got to do with that?" Chan asks and the whole table went quiet.
Which is pretty weird for their group.
Chan looks around the table and they all look at each other quietly until they all eventually look at Mingyu.
"Chan doesn't know?" Mingyu asks and they all just shrug.
"It happened on our senior year." Jeonghan says and turns to Mingyu.
"What don't I know? What happened?" Chan asks and they all glance at the other table and find Wonwoo sitting next to Seungcheol, leading their convesation. They seem a lot more serious than their own conversation.
"Let's just say that Junhui may have been the president of their batch and Jihoon may have been the one rounding us up everyday, but Wonwoo's kind of their year's head. And yeah, it's not just because he's an alpha." Seokmin says and Chan blinks.
"But it's Wonwoo hyung. He's like, clingy and sends cat motivational posters when he ends a conversation through messages." Chan says and they all laugh.
"I mean, yeah. He's obviously a huge dork, but let's just say that out of everyone here, he's the only one we were sure who was going to present as an alpha." Mingyu says and he looks at the other table again and he has this somber smile on his face that makes Chan feel a little soft.
"Makes you wonder if its just coincidence that he's dating a submissive alpha, right?" Seungkwan adds and Mingyu glares at him and Seungkwan smiles sweetly.
"So, what..? He's like an alpha's alpha?" Chan asks, still a little skeptical about this, and now it's Jeonghan who laughs.
"Channie. Why do you think you and Vernon are so reliant on him?"
"We're not." Chan argues and Mingyu sighs.
"He goes by your place almost everyday." Mingyu says and Chan scoffs.
"Uninvited. And we can't stop him because he knows our passcodes."
"And he knows them because..?" Mingyu asks and Chan huffs.
"Because he was there when I moved in. When Vernon hyung moved in, too."
"Why did you even move there in the first place?" Mingyu asks and Chan thinks.
"Because Vernon hyung lives there. And… And Wonwoo hyung said it's great there." Shit. Was Wonwoo actually subtly making Chan's life better? Is this that gaslighting thing people kept talking about in dramas?
"So Wonwooo hyung suggested your place then the same way he did now? With your condo with Jihoon hyung?" Seokmin asks and Chan blinks.
"Oh.. Yeah. I guess so." Chan says, defeated, and Mingyu laughs.
"Believe it or not, Wonwoo hyung's reliable. So reliable that you don't even notice how much he's helped you until you put the pieces together." Mingyu says and he smiles at Chan.
"Cheol hyung said the same thing. Before. I asked him who he thought would be the alpha of our little pack if he wasn't and he just told me he wasn't. At most, he thinks both he and Wonwoo are the head alphas. That's why he trusts him that much. And believe me, he's lived with an all alpha family his whole life. If he respect Wonwoo hyung that much then it must mean more."
"I still can't believe he'd trust anyone that much that it's enough to be trusted with you. Like, even if it's Wonwoo. He couldn't leave you at the table when we were out for lunch. Soonyoung and Joshua were there, too, and he insisted in taking you with him!" Jeonghan says and they all laugh.
"I told you. He's from those all alpha families. He's just, I don't know. He's built different." Seokmin says and Minghao sighs.
"That's not how you use that line, Seokmin."
"Fuck off, I can use it however I want. It made sense. Right?" Seokmin asks him and Chan nods.
Chan lets the conversation pass over his head as he rethinks his entire life ever since high school and he analyzes every little bit of it where Wonwoo had steered him in the right direction.
And he finds it kind of funny that he sees him in literally every big decision he's even made. And most of the time it's Chan who reached out to him.
That fact that he's taking the same course is not Wonwoo's influence on him, okay? Chan's been interested in architecture since he was in his senior year. But he's not going to pretend like he didn't choose the same uni as Wonwoo for no reason. If you think about it, Chan could've picked Jihoon's uni and maybe see where they could go there but somehow Chan finds more comfort in choosing a uni where Wonwoo is. Half of Wonwoo's notes from college are still stacked up on Chan's book case and he remembers every pre exam studying and every project he's done in Wonwoo's dorm's floor while Vernon and Mingyu study on Wonwoo's bed and Wonwoo's on his computer.
God. Wonwoo was even in his graduation.
And even after Chan was 'independent' and living alone, he seems to always have Wonwoo's phone number at the ready for when shit happens. He helped Chan find a better place, find better firms to apply to, he even did try to actually teach him how to cook. Mingyu scolded them both for wasting food because what they had after cooking was not at all edible. It's both somehow raw inside and burnt outside.
Chan even looked to him for help with Jihoon. For everything.
Chan called him when Jihoon asked him for breakfast for the very first time. He was there to scold Chan on what to properly do on dates. He was sarcastic about it but everything he said was helpful. He kept telling Chan what Jihoon wants, what he needs, and he even tells him things about Jihoon that Jihoon himself doesn't know about. He was on the other end of the phone call when Chan gets a message from Jihoon and his heart breaks because this isn't enough for him. Wonwoo was the only one he could pour his emotions out to and Wonwoo was the only one who have told Chan to not give up on Jihoon all these years.
And he was cool after Jihoon's first heat with Chan. Even after everything Chan said. Even after Chan found out why Wonwoo said what he did. He was cool. Chan tries to not get on his nerve after that but he was very cool.
"Hey, I think they're done." Seokmin says and he gets up and runs up to Seungcheol who's already waiting for him with his hand out.
"We got a table big enough for all of us inside." Seungcheol says and they all got up and started piling inside.
"Hyung, I'm just gonna talk to Chan about something." Wonwoo says and all eyes are on them no.
"Wonwoo." Seungcheol says, almost like he's warning him, and Wonwoo laughs.
"It's an architect thing. You losers wouldn't even understand." Wonwoo slings an arm around Chan's shoulder and pulls him outside.
"Don't take too long. We have Mingyu hostage." Seungcheol says and Mingyu sighs. Chan lets himself be led outside and as soon as they walk past the door, Wonwoo pulls his arm and holds Chan by the back of his neck.
Chan is going to pass out.
Maybe it was a sign that they had talked about Wonwoo before because now he's at least a little prepared. If Wowoo had done this without their conversation earlier Chan would've put up a fight. He would've lost so pathetically fast but he would at least try to put up a fight.
An alpha's neck is a very dangerous place. Regardless of intention, even if you do it as a joke or even if you just take an alpha by surprised by touching their neck accidentally, they will feel as though you've just held a knife at them. Chan's not really sure how he knows this. He's not sure if anyone who isn't an alpha or haven't been with an alpha would know about it but Chan knows that Wonwoo knows this.
The mere fact that Wonwoo is holding the back of his neck as they walk outside and into the alley at the side of the building is already a sign that Wonwoo knows. He knows that Chan knows his place. Call it submission, call it knowing which fights you're better off not fighting, whatever you call it, Wonwoo knows that Chan knows his place.
"We're not going to talk about architect stuff, are we?" Chan asks and Wonwoo pushes him up a wall and smiles.
"No. We're not."
"Is… is this about Jihoon hyung?"
"Yes. Anything you wanna say before I start?" Wonwoo asks and Chan made the mistake of making eye contact. Since they're in the dark alley with nothing but the lights that are bouncing off the walls, Wonwoo's eyes look unnaturally dark. His demeanor is different as well and Chan feels like a couple foot shorter with the way Wonwoo holds himself up and squares his shoulder.
"No hyung."
"Good."
The suspense is going to give Chan a heart attack.
"I really like you Chan. I've looked out for you as best as I can and I at least think that you respect me enough as a senior and as your friend. So I only have one thing to tell you, Lee Chan." Wonwoo says and he puts his hand back on his nape and Chan swallows.
"You know what happened to Jihoon, right? He told me he told you everything." Wonwoo says and Chan nods, looking down on Wonwoo's shirt because h can't trust his instincts enough to look directly at him..
"Yah. Look at me when I'm talking to you."
"S- Sorry hyung." Chan swallows and fights back the urge to ask Wonwoo to let him go.
"He told you everything he knows but I'm here to tell you the rest of the story." Wonwoo says and Chan forces himself to breathe.
"Jihoon doesn't know about this and you are not allowed to tell him this when I tell you. Do you understand? He can never know."
"Yes hyung." Wonwoo smiles at him and Chan felt like its more threatening than an actual knife under his throat.
"The last alpha who thought he could hurt our Jihoon and walk around bragging about it didn't actually just quietly disappear." Wonwoo says and Chan blinks. Confused.
"What?"
"Yeah. Do you wanna know what really happened?" Wonwoo asks and Chan nods. Wonwoo clicks his tongue and Chan takes in a sharp breath.
"Yes, hyung." Chan says and Wonwoo blinks at him.
"I hunted him down and cornered him in his own dorm. I asked him which his dominant hand is, broke his other hand's wrist, and then I told him that if Jihoon so much as sees a glimpse of him or if he mentions hearing about him from someone close to him, I'd break something of his that can guarantee me that he can never hurt or defile an omega or anyone else. Ever. Again."
Oh.
"Do you understand what that means?"
Wonwoo has nothing, no proof or anything, if this actually happened or not. He can't prove he did any of these at all. But just staring into his eyes now is enough to let Chan know that regardless of actually having done them before or not, Chan's a hundred percent sure Wonwoo would do them to Chan if he gives him a reason to.
But Chan's sure he's never going to give Wonwoo a reason.
"Yes hyung." Chan says and Wonwoo raises an eyebrow at his answer.
"Aren't you going to promise me that you're not gonna hurt Jihoon I'd probably appreciate it if you beg a little. Wonwoo asks and Chan can feel his throat starting to dry.
"Tha- That won't amount to anything right now. Right? Why would you take my word for it? All that would do is give you empty words." Wonwoo holds his gaze and his smile seems a bit more familiar now.
"That smart mouth of yours is going to get you in trouble some day, you know?" Wonwoo says and Chan keeps his breathing stable and hopes he isn't visibly showing how much he's freaking out.
"I know." Chan says and Wonwoo raises an eyebrow at that.
"But you'll be there to look out for me. Right?" Chan asks and Wonwoo rolls his eyes. His hands leave Chan's nape and a sigh escapes Chan's mouth before he can stop it. His shoulder sags as he does and Wonwoo messes with his hair a bit before walking out into the street.
"You're cool for now Chan. And I like you for Jihoon. And as much as you two are both very close friends of mine, I won't hesitate choosing Jihoon over you. So don't give me a reason to. Yeah?" Wonwoo asks. Everything is normal now. He's at least two meters away from Chan and he's not even looking his way. But Chan pushes himself off the wall and squares his chest.
"I won't. You can trust me with him."
"I know. Now, come on. Jihoon's gonna kill me if you pass out here from breathing like that for too long."
"I'm fine." Chan says and Wonwoo laughs. Understandably so because he is very obviously still trying to catch his breath.
Their dinner was a lot less tense than how it started out and he's at least allowed to sit next to Jihoon for the rest of the night. Just sitting next to him, hearing him, feeling his skin on his, smelling him… all of it instantly calms Chan down that he didn't have to lie when Jihoon asked him if he was okay. Chan wanted to lean more into Jihoon, maybe sit on the end of the table so they won't be too noticeable when Chan asks if he could scent Jihoon a little. You know.. To calm himself down. But Seungcheol and Wonwoo pushes them down in the middle of the long table for everyone to see and Chan is still a little shaken from seeing Wonwoo like that for the very first time so he just takes the teasing and lets Jihoon do all the defending.
Kind of like when they were in high school.
Chan wasn't so sure why they were making such a big deal out their claiming at first but Jihoon reminds him that they're the first in the group. Seungcheol has a very old school, traditional way of thinking and would only claim Seokmin when there's a ring involved and Seokmin had told him that if he proposes just so he could 'claim' Seokmin, he's going to sell the ring and move out. Seungcheol's face was enough to tell them that he didn't like Seokmin's joke and Jihoon whispers that it might not have been a joke at all. Jeonghan and Soonyoung just never really got to talking about it. What, with all their work and how everything already feels right for them in their lives. They said that when times comes and they think it's something they'd want, then they'll talk more about it. Wonwoo starts talking about why he and Mingyu haven't mated yet and he starts by telling them the number of times they've tried. Mingyu stops him immediately and threatens Wonwoo with something under his breath which had Wonwoo reaching for his drink.
"Plus, not a single one of these couples lived the first five years of their adult life pining for each other, flirting through three A.M. messages and once a year phone calls only to subject all of their friends with the pain of watching them flirt openly over dinner because they finally saw each other in person after all that time." Junhui adds and everyone just stares.
"Sorry. Jihoon was venting all of his shit to me and it kind of got to me." Jun says and Seungkwan laughs as he hugs him in his seat.
"Should we be letting him keep drinking?" Soonyoung asks and Jun looks offended.
"You whores have your happily ever afters so let me have my beer and soju and crispy fried chicken." Jun says and Jihoon sighs. Wonwoo and Seungcheol looked at him with these sad kind of smiles on their faces like a couple of dads seeing their thirteen year old sons still talk about Santa Clause and they don't know how to break the news to Them.
"We'll drive him home tomorrow. Don't worry." Jihoon says and Jun thanks him. "Someone has to baby sit him tonight, though." Jihoon adds and Mingyu volunteers. Which got Wonwoo's attention.
"Yah." Wonwoo starts and Mingyu sighs.
"'Yah' your face. Don't use that voice on me. Besides, It's one night. My parents are out of town so he can stay over." Mingyu adds and Jun thanks him again.
"I know your parents are out of town. That's why I-" "That's why you're going to invite Minghao to stay the night, too? Cool. Anyone else?" Mingyu interrupts him and looks around the table only for Vernon to raise his hand. Chan stares.
"I feel weird staying over Chan's parent's house when he's not even staying there." Now evereyone's staring at Chan.
"We stayed over last night. And now we're staying over Jihoon hyung's parents' house and having lunch out tomorrow." Chan says and he's subjected to various dramatic and annoying reaction from it.
All in all, it was a great weekend. Chan's always been a little shy with Jihoon's parents but they are very open with how much they approve of him. Well, technically, they approve of Jihoon finally settling down. It's not so much as approving Chan but he'll take it.
"Why am I so hungover?" Jun says as he groans as they drive away from Mingyu's place and Jihoon hands him coffee they bought before driving by.
"I told you he'd need coffee." Jihoon says and Chan sighs.
"And I told you I wouldn't know because every time we went out drinking I was only paying attention to you." Chan answers back and Jun makes a gagging sound so realistic Chan almost stops the car.
"Oh my God, you two are worse than my hangover. Please just let me out and run me over." Jun says and Jihoon laughs.
Their new condo is a little too perfect for them that Chan is once again reminded how terrifying Wonwoo is. It's big and honestly a little bit much for just a couple but three bedrooms and a big living room with floor to ceiling windows is honestly what sold it to both of them. They chose the biggest room for their bedroom, the next one being a little office for Chan, and the smallest room for Jihoon's studio. Which Chan soundproofed himself for Jihoon because he's told Chan before how his ears are taking too much damage from wearing heaphones for hours on end so this way he doesn’t have to and they won't get complaints from their neighbors. Jihoon loved and asked Chan prove how soundproofed it was by pushing Chan down on his little couch there and giving Chan a show.
He thinks Jihoon's unlocked a new kind of obsession and Chan is honestly thinking about soundproofing their bedroom because Jihoon looking absolutely ruined, riding his dick, and screaming his name as he takes Chan's knot, is forever playing on a loop in the back of Chan's mind.
The biggest difference now that they're mated and living together isn't really the condo though. It's probably their new 'monthly schedule'.
Wonwoo voiced out how pathetic Chan is and Mingyu adds that it's kind of romantic, in a pathetic, stupid, alpha-brain way. But all Jihoon thinks about it is how much influence he has over Chan that whenever he's in pre-heat, it almost instantly triggers Chan's rut.
Chan literally cannot help it. The first time he senses Jihoon's nearing his heat was the first heat Jihoon got after they've mated. Jihoon admits that he hasn't even felt it himself but Chan swore that he can sense it. He can smell it as if it's always under his nose, like the smell of rain that's about to come, and it scares him how much he wanted to eat Jihoon up.
And that's when Jihoon told him what's really happening.
"It's perfectly normal."
"It's perfectly stupid, is what it is. I'm supposed to take care of you in your heat, not go into rut! What the fuck, hyung?"
"Channie, my heats not until a few days later. Hyung will take care of your rut and then you'll come back and take care of me. Okay?"
"But… I don’t- What if I do something and I, and I-" "Again with this?" Jihoon lets out an exasperated sigh and Chan lets out a soft whine.
"Hyung, I mean this in the nicest way possible, but I've wanted to hold you down and ruin you for so long. And I'm afraid that I won't be conscious enough to not do that when I'm well into my rut." Chan admits, already feeling something fuzzy clouding his thoughts and he imagines actually doing that.
Chan imagines holding Jihoon down and using his sweet, little body however he likes. How he can bend him and push him and lift him and press him against wherever and give it to him until he's begging Chan to let him cum. He only comes back to himself when Jihoon holds his face in one hand and smiles at him.
"And I mean this in the nicest way possible, but I've always wanted to meet that alpha you've been hiding from me. The one who said he wanted to use me until I'm bruised and begging." Jihoon says and Chan swallows.
Chan's heart cannot take any more of this.
"I never-" "I hear things in my heat, baby. I remember almost everything you whisper when you knot me. Every promise, every threat, and every dirty little scenarios you put in my head to make me needy." Jihoon says and Chan takes a deep breath.
"Do you really think hyung won't pull on your leash if you push past my boundaries?" Jihoon asks and Chan breaks.
Oh my God.
"You have a leash for me?" Chan asks and Jihoon stares at him with those big brown eyes.
"It's- It was a metaphor Channie, I was…" Chan blushes. He lets out a growl and hides his face under Jihoon's neck, scenting him to keep him calm. To keep himself from submitting to his already very apparent dumb-alpha brain.
"Do you want hyung to put you on a leash, Channie?" Jihoon asks and Chan nips a his throat.
"Only… Only to keep me in check."
"Yeah? Wanna be a good alpha for hyung?"
"Yes. God, hyung, please."
"I don't have one for you right now, okay? And I wanna talk about it more when you're more… yourself. But I'll make sure you won't hurt hyung. I know my alpha's gonna be good to me even in his rut." Jihoon says and Chan lets go. Let's that warm and fuzzy feeling inside his brain and let's Jihoon's voice guide him through everything.
And yes, Jihoon had ordered a customized leash for Chan for his ruts and he's sweet enough to keep it a secret even to Wonwoo. Chan's not exactly embarrassed by it but he doesn't want to announce to the world that he likes it when his omega treats him like his pet. A very hungry, needy, and slobbery pet who likes to bite.
Those are Jihoon's words, by the way.
Now, when Jihoon's heat is days away, Chan would slowly start to slip into his rut and Jihoon knows what to do. And two days later, when Chan feels his mind settle back into his body, Jihoon welcomes him back with his blown out pupils and a scent that will never fail to make Chan get hard. Sometimes Chan leaves the leash on and pretends to let Jihoon take the lead. It doesn't matter that Chan is fucking him against the wall, carrying his whole body as he press his back on their bedroom wall. All Jihoon would think is he's holding onto Chan's leash as he cums and he tugs on it whenever he needs more kisses.
"A turtleneck is not hiding whatever you think it is you're hiding. If anything, it makes people stare more." Wonwoo says and Chan sighs.
"Shut up. Ji hyung said it looks cool. Very professional." Chan says and Wonwoo laughs. The guy in front of them move and they pause their conversation to order.
Chan had an unusually loose schedule for a Friday so he accepts Wonwoo's offer to lunch in a café in between their work. Wonwoo laughs as soon as he saw Chan but he doesn't say much after. But now it seems like he was just waiting for the right time.
"If you know just shut up. Please. And don’t tell Ji hyung because he'll feel guilty about it. I don't know why." Chan says and Wonwoo shrugs.
"There are these things called concealers, you know, make up? And a lot of ointment for closing wounds up faster and lessening the scarring, you know?" Wonwoo says and Chan almost chokes on his coffee.
"Wounds? Scarring? Hyung, it's just bruising. What the hell?" Chan says and Wonwoo actually looked surprised that Chan is even more confused.
"Oh, alright. Then just make up for you, then."
"Why would you even think that it's that bad?" Chan asks and Wonwoo shrugs and sets his coffee down. He leans over the table and tilts his head to the left. He points his finger on his skin, showing a faint, thin vertical scar on the side of his neck before smiling at Chan.
"Mingyu tightened up the collar he bought me a little too much and we only found out it left a wound when it started bleeding under the collar." Wonwoo says and there's about a dozen things Chan has to process as Wonwoo leans back and smiles.
Chan needs better friends. More sane friends who knows what boundaries are.
"You do realize Mingyu's an alpha, too, right?" Wonwoo asks and he takes a sip of his coffee. Chan stares.
"Jesus. But if it was that tight for that long how didn't you-" "Oh. Mingyu has a thing for choking me when I'm about to cum." Wonwoo says and now Chan wants nothing more than to forget this whole conversation.
"Okay. I did not-" "He figured if he tightened my collar right before, he can use his hands to pin me down harder while also still choking me. Being pinned down is my thing and he gets really rough when he's so into the moment that sometimes I literally get sprained, you know?" Wonwoo sighs dreamily.
"That was the best orgasm of my life." Wonwoo says and Chan watches in horror as Wonwoo tells all this with an expression that's so sweet you would think he's talking about having a picnic with Mingyu.
"I wish Mingyu was a lot more rougher and meaner outside of his heat. He's so hot. I mean, he's hot regardless but I wish he'd put up a bit of fight during sex instead of just letting me take contorl, you know?" Wonwoo adds, sighing so deeply like he's genuinely upset that his boyfriend is a saint like Mingyu. Chan takes a deep breath and holds up his hand to Wonwoo.
"Stop. Please. I do not want to hear one more thing from you. Oh my fucking God, hyung. What the hell?"
"Just answering. You asked why I thought it was more than a bruise."
"And you answered me five minutes ago before you went all disgusting. I don't think I can look Mingyu hyung in the eyes anymore oh my god..."
"Well. Just sharing my knowledge and all. I honestly thought Jihoon would go a lot harder on you." Wonwoo adds and he sips his coffee. Chan knows it's bait to make Chan talk about their sex life but he can't help it.
"Shut up. Also, not that it's any of your business, he'd never do anything that I wouldn't be comfortable with." Chan says and Wonwoo nods with a serious face on.
"Oh and I'm sure you just love that." Wonwoo adds and Chan takes a deep breath and finishes his lunch without saying another word.
When Chan got home that day, at around half past eight, he's welcomed by their dark living room with just a bit of light coming from their coffee table. He toes off his shoes and sets them aside properly before walking in finding the light to be a phone. And the owner of it not too far off, snoring a little on their couch wearing another of Chan's run down shirts. Chan kneels in front of the couch and leans in to kiss Jihoon's nape. He places his hand on his shoulder and Jihoon turns slowly and held onto his wrist.
"What time is it?" Jihoon asks with his eyes still closed.
"Around eight-thirty. What do you want for dinner?" Chan asks and Jihoon groans.
"I'll take care of dinner." Jihoon says and Chan laughs.
"I keep telling you to go to our bed when you want to sleep. I didn't invest in a mattress that expensive for you to sleep here. It's not good for your back." Jihoon scoffs at him and opens his eyes to give Chan his trademark glare.
"You are the last person who should be talking about how I should be treating my back." Jihoon says and Chan just smiles.
"I already apologized about that. And gave you a massage. And did a lot more to show how sorry I was."
"Eating me out did a lot worse for my back." Jihoon says and Chan laughs softly.
"Then let me apologize again later." Chan offers and Jihoon pushes his face away and groans again.
"Shut up. And go wash up if you want. I bought those ready-prep-food type of things. Like, putting it on a pan and stir frying. Oh, and Mingyu gave us more kimchi. And then Vernon dropped by to get his kimchi from us that Mingyu left for him. Honestly. I don't know why they always typecast omegas as the ones who need a pack to survive in our modern world when you alphas can't even function properly without seeing each other at least once a week."
"No we don't."
"So you didn't go out with Wonwoo for lunch this week?" Jihoon asks and Chan smiles. There's no winning with Jihoon.
"I love you." Chan says and Jihoon's glares breaks instantly and he turns to hide from Chan.
Chan can never win against Jihoon but he knows a thing or two in making Jihoon lose.
Chan laughs and hugs Jihoon as best as he can from this angle and before he gets up, he scents him for a few seconds and he feels Jihoon melt into his arms. "Stop. You're gonna get me worked up." Jihoon whines and he lets Chan pull him up and he leans back on the couch and lets Chan keep going. Jihoon moans softly as Chan mouths at his neck and then dig his nose over Jihoon's scent gland. "I'm never going to get used to how good you smell, hyung." Chan says and Jihoon tugs on him from the back of his shirt and Chan stares at how Jihoon looks now. Chan's shirt is rumpled uneven on Jihoon, exposing a bit of his right shoulder and the end of it covering up to his thighs which makes him look like he's wearing nothing else underneath.
"Stop looking at me like that."
"Like what?"
"Like that. It makes me feel weird. Pervert." Jihoon says and he tugs on Chan's shirt.
Chan loves his life. He really does.
In the end, their dinner was pushed back to ten in the evening because as much as Chan wanted to hold back, Jihoon followed him to their room, took off his clothes and then took of Chan's clothes for him, and pushed Chan inside the bathroom and inside the showers where he pushed him against the wall before getting on his knees.
"The point of making you fuck my mouth in the shower was to get rid of your alpha brain and make you help me with dinner." Jihoon says and Chan blinks, clears his throat, and goes back to stirring… whatever it is he's stirring.
"Sorry hyung." Chan says and they both know he's not really sorry.
"Is your neck okay?" Chan asks and Jihoon hums. Chan didn't think he was that rough but Jihoon's voice is kind of strained.
"Is your neck okay?" Jihoon asks and Chan can feel himself blushing.
"Yeah. Oh, and I bought something that can help with the bruising."
"Oh? Where is it? Let me do it for you." Jihoon says and Chan turns off the stove and smiles.
"Later. It's fine. Let's eat first, yeah?" Chan asks and Jihoon frowns.
Their dinner was quiet. They've had more dinners in their couch than their actual dining table but Jihoon says it's fine and he puts on a movie as he shit talks about people in his work. Other producers, rude managers, idols who are saints in front of cameras but are the worst people Jihoon had ever met. "It's not- Okay, he's not that bad. It's just- They've been pushing the saint-like, goody goody vibes on him when he's rancid as hell. People need to stop eating up that whole 'soft alpha' bullshit media puts out because it's stupid and annoyin. And it's not even close to the real thing." Jihoon says, scoffing, and he keeps eating.
And of course, in a very Chan-like manner, Chan stops chewing. He stops functioning at all. He notices Jihoon noticing him not chewing and promptly choked as his brain went overdrive and skipped the rest of the chewing process and forces Chan to swallow. Making him cough and almost die.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah. Yeah, sorry."
"It's true, though. And I'm one of the lucky few who gets to have the real thing."
"You know, I thought that at least by now you'd stop teasing me."
"Oh Channie. You should've put more thought into claiming me. Now I get to tease you non stop and you can't ever get rid of me." Jihoon says, shoving his face towards Chan's, and Chan leans in to kiss him.
"Oh no. What am I gonna do?" Chan says and Jihoon pulls away, smiling at his food.
You see, the thing about Chan is that he's been in love with Jihoon since high school.
And no, their story is as far from the cliché as possible. Imagine an omega who doesn't take shit from anyone and an alpha who tails him with his head low and his arms around the omegas right arm. But who cares? Right? Chan knew he was in love with Jihoon before he even knew he could like boys and right now, as Jihoon sits on his lap, putting some relieving cream around the bruises he left there, Chan knows he'll only love him and only him for as long as he can. Chan knows that he'll love Jihoon for as long as Jihoon lets him.