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It has been three days since they discovered Myungjun’s death and body. They finally dared to open the envelopes. The envelope with Reliable Rock Minhyuk and Beagle Maknae Sanha written on it was the first to be opened. Minhyuk read it by himself.
Dear Minhyuk and Sanha,
Hey, it’s hyung here. To be honest, it is my first time writing a letter to people around me. I hope you don’t find it awkward. Don’t you dare to laugh you, kids!
Minhyuk chuckled after reading a few sentences of the letter. He found that it is weird to read a letter from someone who had never written one.
To begin with, I hope you two are doing great when reading this. I hope you guys are always in a good health. Stay positive and always be happy alright? When you read this letter, I may be buried in the grave.
Well, the purpose I write this is to apologize for what I’ve done to myself. Yes, I’m sorry kids I go without offering a goodbye. I’m sorry I committed suicide. I have tried not to do it but I can’t. I had to. Please don’t be sad kids, can you? Live happily without me. I’ll always be watching you guys here up in the sky. Don't cry, take care.
Tears flowed heavily on Minhyuk’s cheeks. He cursed inside his mind-reading the two paragraphs. He hates Myungjun for doing this but at the same time, he loves him. He continued to read the next paragraph that was specialized for him.
Park Minhyuk,
Hyuk-ah, I know that you’ll be reading this first when you’re alone before handing it to Sanha. Don’t cry dear, please? Wipe your tears and please be strong for me. I know it is hard for you to accept my death, especially with this tragic suicide scene you need to face when you discovered my body.
Hyuk, I’m so sorry I broke our promise. I promised to take care of you and the others after Jinwoo passed away but I broke it. Forgive me. I love you guys especially you Minhyuk and Sanha. I wish you don’t resent me too much.
Minhyuk, can you do me a favor? Don’t you try to kill yourself like what you did when Jinwoo left last time? Live your life to the fullest and be happy. Chase your dream like what Jinwoo told you when he was alive. Teach people at the academy to be the best dancer. I know you can do it.
Take care of Sanha for me okay? That giant baby, I hope he’ll be okay. Hyuk-ah, please play with him when he asks to play. Treat him to ice cream when he is sad. If you like him, please confess. I think it has been a long time since you’ve shown him an interest. Be a man and confess alright?
M-hyung.
Heavy flowing tears can’t be stopped from falling. Minhyuk sniffed his wet nose. His body was shaking. His emotion was total damage. The letter slipped from his hand and fell onto the ground.
He can’t read it fully. It hurt his pride and left his emotion in sorrow. After losing Jinwoo, now it’s Myungjun. What did he do in his past life to deserve this kind of situation? He dialed Sanha’s number and asked him to come immediately. Not long after that, Sanha arrived.
“Minhyuk hyung, what’s wrong? I heard you crying over the phone!” yelled. Minhyuk kept his mouth shut and handed over the paper to the latter. Sanha’s clueless mind just takes the paper and reads it to himself.
Maknae Yoon Sanha,
Our Ddana, it’s M-hyung writing. You must be laughing right now reading this. I know I never write a letter but please read it with passion. There is something I want to tell you in this letter.
Ah no, here we go again.
Firstly, I want to thank you for being my first ever best friend since I moved into this neighborhood. I remember that day, you were a six years old dork who love to play around suddenly came to me and asked me to play with you. I was 12 years old when that happen. That time I thought, should I play with this kid? We literally had 6 years gap.
I play with you that day and we eventually became best friends. From primary school until we both graduated from college, we never be apart. I thought of you as my blood brother, cared for you, and protected you from the bullies. Thank you Sanha for being my best friend from when we don’t know.
Sanha’s eyes started to well up. “It is my pleasure hyung” he murmured.
Next, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that you need to read this letter when I’m dead. You can get mad at me if you want but not for a long period. You should visit my grave often. I know that you acknowledged my mental health state even before Jinwoo passed away. Please save it to yourself, don’t tell the others.
I’m sorry that I committed suicide and died this way. It must be traumatized you. You know right that Jinwoo was like half of my soul. Without him in this world, it is like I lose my reason to stay alive. I hope you understand what I said. Again, I’m so so so sorry!
“You’re so selfish hyung, don’t you ever think about what the others will feel?” Sanha cried out.
Sanha, please do me a favor? Please, visit my family once in two weeks. Tell them not to be sad over my death. Take them on a vacation. Use my money, just take my card and use my money wisely. I’ll be watching you, brat. Treat others' meat too. Eat until you feel like your stomach gonna explode! Also spent it on good things, all right?
Ah before I forget, please delete all of my social media accounts. You can find the passwords in my notes. Also, delete all of my pictures. You may save one or two if you miss me.
Tears fell heavily, he can’t handle it. He sobbed in Minhyuk’s embrace. He continued to read the last two paragraphs.
Lastly, Sanha, if Minhyuk confesses to you, just accept it already. You have been waiting for him to confess since god knows when. Don’t you dare to friend-zone him? If you dare to do so, I’ll wake up from my death and annoy you as a ghost, you dork. I know he was in love with you just by looking at his actions towards you!
Tell Bin not to be too oblivious towards the woman. Also, tell Dongmin not to study his ass off. Enjoy your life Sanha! See you again in our next life, if I get a chance to reincarnate. I love you!
Myungjun hyung.
Both of them cried hard. Giving each other hugs. They both had a bad headache and their eyes were literally will pop out anytime soon.
Soon they both drifted to sleep.