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to,
the love of my life
i still remember the first time i met your eyes and the only thought i could form was “wow, this hyung is so cool.” and you’ve only stepped up ever since.
when i moved from Busan to Seoul, everything felt like a magnified version of itself and i.. felt miniature. i was almost convinced that i’d never be able to stand alongside all of you, especially you, because you...you’ve always been so talented and brilliant in everything you do even if it’s the first time you’re settling your golden hands on it and here i was...on a seesaw being decided whether i would be better off as a singer or a rapper; everything felt like a void, a big black hole where my thoughts kept wavering, travelling away and beyond yet so loud
“are you sure you belong here?”
“a singer? pfft, what makes you believe so?”
but...there you were, the only light blinding the darkness, making a way through it..for me; with your arm flung towards me with and open hand, waiting for me to take it, and i didn’t waste a second clinging to it as if my life depended on it....maybe it did back then...still does..
“ Ah hyung, quick! pose for the camera ’’ 
“ okay :] ’’
This was our first of the many hangouts on our day off, do you remember? we went shopping but on a budget….and then you offered to buy things i couldn’t...even though the money was short on you, yourself as well.
“ jimin-ah, what are you doing? have dinner first, before it goes cold’’
*removing his mobile phone*
“ smile hyung, let’s take a selca to post for army. They must be missing us as well ”
* giggles *
“you’re so bad at this hyung, i thought you were an ace in playing basketball”
“i’m just letting you win jimin-ah, don’t get too ahead of yourself” *smirks*
you really were letting me off the hook then, weren’t you? i’ve seen you play otherwise….
*laughing* 
“sto- stop, i can’t see while i’m laughing”
“uhh? that doesn’t make sense”
*continues tickling him till his eyes form crescents prettier than the moon*
“hyung *giggles* ahhh hyungggggg, stop”
“yoongi hyung! jiminie!”-tae calls them, to get a hold of their attention.
“What? *still laughing*
*click*
“h-hyungie….stop looking at me like that….” 
“like what?”
“like i mean the whole world to you”
“and if you do?...”
*blushes*
i remember feeling so giddy and so cold even though the parts of me that you graced practically felt like
they were set on fire.
i couldn’t recognise this feeling, it was foreign yet so homely yet i couldn’t put a finger on it.
you felt the same way back then, didn’t you? you were so familiar with that feeling, i was convinced you birthed it,
and spend a whole lifetime with it to know it so well.
i don’t know what had struck me this day, but even when i tried i couldn’t keep my hands to myself and my eyes off of your lips….i mean *you.
your hands over mine, laying there on top of each other..
sharing the warmth we couldn’t
symbolising those untold words, thickening the air between us
and suddenly it all felt so scary.
this was the day i once again realised how cool you were, how worthy of everything and how deserving of it all. i don’t know why, but it felt like i had finally reached home after a long day of work…covered in warmth and comfort…it was you
“you know you look so pretty when you’re all flustered…”
“…….”
“i wish you could see yourself through my eyes so you’d know why i talk poetry to you”
i think i was about to devour you whole, forgetting we’re in public…not that anything happened while we 
were alone but
let’s pretend it did.
i think my body was so accustomed to being close to yours that it threw tantrums not being able to communicate with you, that it made me want to be burned by the slightest contact i tried to pursue because after a while you didn’t…
you didn’t because i was confused…
confused and scared whether i loved being loved..
or i loved being loved by you
“Miiiiin yoooooongiiiiiii”
there i was being your #1 cheerleader, probably embarrassed you for the most part but
it was okay i guess….because you didn’t stop me
i swear i saw you mouth “this one’s for you” during the final dunk..hmm….
“remember when they asked me to try rapping and i even scribbled down some lyrics that
barely made sense?” *laughs*
“ *laughs* ahh yes of course i remember, but truly your voice is my favourite, it has
always been my muse and haven….”
“……”
*holds hands*
“You are finished if you run away, okay?”
i know we were playing, but my heart did a literally gymnastics routine and my stomach turned
into a goddamn zoo…hoping it meant something…outside the game…
did it mean anything?...i still don’t know
i think it did mean something…of course it did when the whole world was laughing and you stilled to look at me…when your eyes traced my existence and it felt like i was drowning but also caught on fire…when everyone around us could see through you and describe what you felt like…loving me…
there’s something i’ve realised through all these years,
how you tend to hold me close post concerts, how you tend to touch more often
as if trying to remind yourself where you belong after a tiring day
like your body knows what it needs to feel at ease…to feel at home
“ah hyung, why won’t you pay attention to me, now that i’ve come to visit you on the
set after you kept whining….huh?”
*tries to stifle giggles*
“hyung can’t even look me in the eyes…”
*bursts out laughing*
“ :]… ”
Did you change? (Did you change?)
Or did I change? (Did I change?)
I hate even this moment that is passing…..
I guess we changed
I guess that’s how everything is
and hyung still can’t look me in the eyes; everything did change, except this..
everything did change,
my goal in life changed from being happy to making sure you’re happy
the feeling was no more foreign, it was home but more secure for now i know it’s love…it’s being in love with you…
it’s how i would absolutely move the mountains for you but knowing you just need a hug and not the mountains moved,
it’s how i’ve always been a total goner for you and i’ve only just realised….
that i’m in love with you Min Yoongi, just as much as you are….
with a certain Park Jimin.
thank you for being patient and not giving up on us…
when i was seconds away from giving up on myself.
thank you for looking at me like i’ve always been your whole world,
so i knew that is exactly who i was, am and will always be.
from,
your lover(park jimin).
yoongi: babe….what…is….this? *after reading the letter that came in the mail*
jimin: …..?
yoongi: why are you confessing your love for me through a letter like we haven’t been married for years…
jimin: shhhh…play along, i’m just trying to recreate the moment when i confessed to you.
END <3