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Luo Binghe had a secret.
A secret he had never told his Shizun.
And it felt like every day was getting hard, as if he could no longer bear this secret anymore.
In his entire life when he met Shizun, he had known many things about him. Now the person he used to call Shizun, he can called him Wife... Husband. They had officially married 3 years ago and because of that Luo Binghe felt that there was nothing more to hide from each other anymore.
But somehow, upon seeing Shizun's smile, his husband, Luo Binghe found it hard to tell the secret he had been keeping all this time.
Shizun...
There's one thing I haven't asked you yet.
Shizun...
Will you tell me your (real) name?
。。。
There was a reason why Luo Binghe had never called out his Shizun's name all this time.
Despite having known him for more than 10 years, Luo Binghe never once called his Shizun's name, even though they were already married. Ning Yingying, his Shijie even scolded him for not taking the opportunity to call out Shizun's name affectionately.
And Luo Binghe?
It's not that he doesn't know Shizun's name, he has heard many people has call him Shen Qingqiu.
Shen Qingqiu.
Shizun's name, but not Shizun's name either.
In the past, there was a time when Shizun behaved... different to him. Where Shizun did not hesitate to look at him as if he was the most disgusting piece of trash in the world, punish him mercilessly and leave him alone in the dark and cold warehouse.
Several years after that, Shizun developed a fever which made him change his attitude. He became a gentle... caring... and very... very kind person.
If in the past Luo Binghe believed that and thought the change in attitude was natural, now when he was an adult, he was no longer short-sighted.
Is there anyone who can change his attitude just because of a high fever?
Luo Binghe knows.
Now he could tell the difference between his Shizun's characters.
Now that he thought back, the first time Shizun recovered from his high fever, he called Luo Binghe to see him. And at that time Shizun looked very surprised and scared when he saw so many wounds on Luo Binghe's body. He unhesitatingly handed him a vial of medicine, telling him to treat his wound.
If Luo Binghe used to be stupid and innocent before, then he is not anymore.
Shizun had changed since that high fever and since then a lot of unreasonable things had happened.
How Shizun let him ride the carriage with him (Ning-shijie who was originally Shizun's favorite disciple was never even allowed to get on the same carriage before), how Shizun smiled gently at him at that time.
Shizun even saved the life of his enemy, Liu Qingge, starting to be nice to him even though they used to always swear at each other whenever they met.
There are more,
There was ample evidence of Shizun's different attitude.
And what made Luo Binghe even more certain was when Yue Qingyuan called Shizun “Xiao-Jiu.”
Luo Binghe immediately noticed the uncomfortable, sad, guilty and regretful expression on his Shizun's face.
Xiao Jiu.
No.
It wasn't Shizun's name.
It was the name of Shizun whom Luo Binghe first met when he was 10 years old. It was Shizun who break his heart in their first meeting.
They are very different.
At the age of 10, Shizun poured tea over his head.
At the age of 14, Shizun gave a medicine to him.
And the Shizun who was with him right now...
"Binghe."
The soft call came from the front of him, Shizun turned around to give him a sweet smile, the smile that Luo Binghe liked the most.
"Shizun."
How Binghe wanted to call out Shizun's name, Shizun's real name. It must feel so calming, so comfortable and also so right. But Shizun still didn't tell him.
Ah, I think I should wait a little longer.
。。。
Binghe had been looking a little gloomy lately.
Even though he was still smiling and acting normally, Shen Qingqiu could immediately tell that something was troubling his mind. And considering Binghe, he wouldn't want to tell Shen Qingqiu the inconvenience, didn't want to make Shizun worry he said.
But if he didn't say it, wouldn't that only make Shen Qingqiu even more worried?
After all, Shen Qingqiu felt that he was completely useless. Even though they have been married for 3 years, it is Binghe who always shows his love intensely, always makes him comfortable and takes care of his every need.
Well... It's not like Shen Qingqiu didn't show his love back... He also showed a lot of love to Luo Binghe, okay?! Although... Even though Shen Qingqiu would rather show it through his actions than his words.
Wait...
Could it be that Binghe felt that he was no longer loved?!
Considering Binghe, he would definitely go to extremes in the slightest!
What... Does this have anything to do with last night's incident where Shen Qingqiu refused to papapa with him?!
B-but the reason why he refused was because Binghe and he had done papapa at yesterday noon already! And Shen Qingqiu's buttocks were still not ready to receive his husband's heavenly pillar again!
Ugh...
Did this mean that Shen Qingqiu had to persuade his husband not to sulk anymore, now?
。。。
“Binghe, sit down with this Master and let's talk for a while.” Shen Qingqiu spoke while sitting in their tea room in Qing Jing's bamboo house.
Luo Binghe who was about to clean their bookshelf immediately stopped his work, obeyed Shen Qingqiu's request and sat next to his husband while pouring tea.
“Did something happen, Shizun?” he asked, a little worried.
Shen Qingqiu looked at Luo Binghe with an astonished look for a moment, before his expression returned to normal.
“This Master should be the one asking like that. Is there anything Binghe should say to this Master?” Shen Qingqiu asked back.
Luo Binghe was slightly surprised, “Shizun… T-this disciple…”
“Binghe knows that he can say anything to this Master, right? This master will be very happy if Binghe does so.” Shen Qingqiu coaxed a little.
Luo Binghe lowered his head while playing with the wide sleeves of his robes, looking nervous, his eyes that were black as deep as the ocean lifted and looked at Shen Qingqiu expectantly.
“If… If Binghe asks this, will Shizun promise to… Not be angry?” he asked in a low voice.
“Binghe, Husband, how can this Master be angry with you?” Shen Qingqiu placed a palm on top of Luo Binghe's hand and then clasped it to give him peace of mind.
Luo Binghe looked at Shizun's hand holding him, then his other hand rose and this time squeezed Shizun's hand between his hands. Hold on tight.
“This disciple… This husband is thinking… Would Shizun want… To tell me his name?” Luo Binghe asked after gaining his courage.
Shen Qingqiu's eyes immediately widened and a hint of fear flashed in his eyes. Seeing this, Luo Binghe immediately let go of Shizun's hand he was holding and looked at Shizun with a guilty expression.
"Shizun! P-pardon this disciple's stupidity! S-Shizun doesn't need to say it if Shizun doesn't want to…”
Really, Luo Binghe wanted to cry at this point, but if he did it while Shizun was in front of him, Shizun would definitely become even more uncomfortable. He knew that Shizun's weakness was seeing Binghe cry and if Shizun had forced to say that… Luo Binghe wouldn't be able to shake off his guilt.
For a moment, only silence enveloped them. Luo Binghe was even starting to feel that now Shizun was becoming displeased with him, and... And maybe Shizun wouldー
"Binghe."
Shizun's voice brought Binghe out of his bad thoughts, now his eyes were red from holding back tears, afraid that Shizun would hate him and reject him. But when he looked into Shizun's eyes, there was only tenderness in them.
Eh..?
“Binghe, this Master...” Shizun shook his head once and looked back at Binghe, “I believe what Binghe asked is my real name, right?” he asked, using 'I' instead of 'This Master'.
Luo Binghe nodded.
Shen Qingqiu took a deep breath, then his hand touched Luo Binghe's again, joining their hands together.
"Since when did Binghe know?"
Ah...
"It's been a long time... But I-I've become more and more sure since after we got married."
“I never heard Binghe even mention 'Shen Qingqiu' to address me. Even though he can call me that because we're already married." Shen Qingqiu spoke while looking into Luo Binghe's eyes.
“I feel… Shen Qingqiu is not the right name to call you.” Luo Binghe replied, looking down.
“Ah…” as if he had just realized something new, Shen Qingqiu was somehow happy. “I thought… Binghe wouldn't be happy if I told him the truth…” he muttered.
Luo Binghe who heard that, instantly raised his head and tightly gripped Shen Qinqiu's hand, “How can I not be happy?! Shizun isー” Before he could finish his sentence, Shen Qingqiu cut him off.
“Wouldn't Binghe be disappointed? If he finds out that the Shizun who has been with him all this time… It turns out that he is not the Shizun he knows.” Shen Qingqiu said softly, almost looking sad.
“Shizun, Shizun. How can I be disappointed? Shizun who has been with me all this time is the most important person in my life. Shizun, did you know? It's your smile that saved me from feeling hopeless. Shizun gave me medicine, gave me nice clothes, gave me a warm room to sleep in, gave me all the teachings, gave me happiness, gave me everything. How can I be disappointed?” if previously Luo Binghe had forced himself not to cry, now he had failed and tears flowed freely from his eyes.
“Oh, Binghe...” Shen Qingqiu who saw Luo Binghe's tears became unbearable and finally carried Luo Binghe into his arms, letting his husband's head pressed against his chest so that his heartbeat could be heard clearly without hiding.
Unknowingly, tears had also fallen from Shen Qingqiu's eyes.
“Binghe, even so, the person who had… The one who pushed you…” Shen Qingqiu's voice caught in his throat, feeling unable to say those words, afraid that it would open an old wound he wanted to forget.
“I am the one who scratched the wound on your chest, sent you to a place worse than hell, let you suffer in the misunderstanding between the two of us. Of course I would be afraid that Binghe would be disappointed in me.” he said between sobs.
“Shizun… Shizun…” Luo Binghe buried his face deeper into Shen Yuan's chest, feeling the warmth of the person he loved and the beautiful sound of his heartbeat. “It's all over… I don't blame Shizun anymore, really… That's why I beg you not to blame yourself anymore, hm?” he said softly.
Shen Qingqiu hugged his husband even tighter, letting the tears continue to flow from his eyes, the tears he had unknowingly been holding back all his life.
Regret, Compassion, Love... All that flowed in his tears.
“Binghe, I love you so much.”
Hearing that, Luo Binghe wept and sobbed louder, allowing himself to be immersed in the warmth and affection of the person he loved the most in this world.
"I love you so much, too! I love you so much that my chest feels like exploding. Shizun, I love you.”
"Shen Yuan."
Instantly Luo Binghe broke free from Shen Qingqiu's embrace, staring at the man in front of him with wide eyes in disbelief.
Shen Qingqiu smiled sweetly as tears still faithfully flowed down his cheeks, “Don't call me Shizun anymore, call me Shen Yuan.” he said in a soft voice.
“Shen Yuan… Shen Yuan… Shen Yuan…” Luo Binghe mumbled the word like a spell, his eyes filled with love every time the name left his lips, “A-Yuan.”
Hearing Binghe say his name affectionately, Shen Qingqiu's heart, no, Shen Yuan's heart warmed up. Who would have thought that this would bring him so much happiness?
Before Shen Yuan could say anything, Luo Binghe had thrown himself back in his arms and kissed him.
The kiss was deep and hungry, but there was no lust in it, only the love that flowed from their sincere kiss. The two lovebirds don't know how long their long kiss will last, but what they do know is, their smiles never leave each other's faces.
Fin.
ー Sequel Ⅰ ー
Shen Yuan always felt that Luo Binghe's tears was his only weakness.
But Luo Binghe proved that to be wrong. In fact, everything that concerned Luo Binghe was his weakness. And now, this naughty husband of his, had found the deadliest weapon to weaken Shen Yuan.
As in currently the case,
“Binghe... That's enough...”
"A-Yuan..." tears were caught in the corners of Luo Binghe's eyes, "I still miss A-Yuan so much... Please, one more time...?"
Shen Yuan let out a groan that sound was more like a loud moan, his face was red to the ears.
How could he refuse the request of his very handsome and cute husband?! Plus those big teary eyes and... and his name being spoken so affectionately... How could Shen Yuan resist?!
And that was how Shen Yuan allowed Luo Binghe to enter into him again for the 5th time that night.
...
Or maybe dawn?
ー Sequel Ⅱ ー
Ever since the day Shen Yuan told Luo Binghe his real name, every morning he had felt what called broken waist. Luckily Luo Binghe was a responsible husband, he would clean Shen Yuan's body and would massage his legs, thighs and waist every day.
And to be honest, Shen Yuan no longer regretted telling Luo Binghe his name too much.
After all, when Shen Yuan heard Luo Binghe call him “A-Yuan” with his deep and sexy voice… he felt as if he was in heaven.
Luo Binghe really... had messed up Shen Yuan to such an extent.
"Binghe, aren't you tired of massaging me every day like this?"
Luo Binghe, who was still massaging Shen Yuan's thighs, raised his face with a smile as bright as the sun that always managed to make Shen Yuan melt, “Massaging A-Yuan is my favorite activity! Is A-Yuan satisfied with this husband's service?”
See, how shameless his husband is.
"No matter what Binghe does, this husband is satisfied."
Luo Binghe's smile became wider and brighter, Shen Yuan couldn't take it anymore and finally closed his eyes while leaning on the pillow with a face as red as a tomato.
ー Sequel Ⅲ ー
“Binghe, you always called my name when its just the two of us, but why call me Shizun or husband when we in front of other people?”
"A-Yuan." Binghe puffed out his cheeks, pouted, then replied “This husband wants to be the only one who calls A-Yuan by his real name. If others hear, this husband feels that A-Yuan's name will be taken from him!”
“Pfftー”
Hearing that ridiculous excuse, Shen Yuan couldn't stand it and finally pinched his husband's cheek who was taller than him.
ー Sequel Ⅳ ー
"A-Yuan, recently this husband has become very eager to see A-Yuan's true face... Would... A-Yuan describe it for this Husband?" Luo Binghe said spoiledly while hugging Shen Yuan's waist as the two of them were already lying on their bed, wanting to sleep.
“Ah… This husband feels that Binghe will be disappointed if he sees my real face… After all, this husband is not as handsome as this body.”
“This husband doesn't care about appearances! No matter what A-Yuan looks like, this husband will still love him!”
Hearing this, Shen Yuan's heart warmed and he kissed Luo Binghe's forehead on the demon mark.
“Binghe remembers how I looked when I was in the Moon and Dew Seed body? That's roughly what my real face looks like." Shen Yuan replied with a small chuckle.
Luo Binghe was silent for a long time until finally Shen Yuan felt that Luo Binghe must feel that he was ugly. Haha, even though he already said that from the startー
"A-Yuan sure says that he... isn't as handsome as A-Yuan's face right now?"
Luo Binghe was astonished, how could A-Yuan say that he wasn't handsome? Binghe clearly still remembered very well what A-Yuan looked like when his body was from that Moon and Dew Seed. And Luo Binghe could tell that A-Yuan was really pretty!
Shen Yuan raised an eyebrow, confused, then replied “Isn't that so?” he asked back and saw how Luo Binghe's expression looked at him, as if Shen Yuan had just grown two heads, “Er… My real form is, my hair is not long, but very short, maybe only up to the ears.” he said.
Luo Binghe's eyes widened, “A-A-Yuan's hair is only up to his earsー?! Th-doesn't that mean A-Yuan's neck is exposed?!”
“Binghe, why are you so panicked? In my old world, almost all the boys had short hair.”
“N-no way...” Luo Binghe mumbled while biting his lip, “A-Yuan, will you allow this husband to see A-Yuan's true appearance from within the dream world...? This husband… really wants to see how A-Yuan really looks like…” he begged.
Shen Yuan was a little hesitant at first, but eventually he gave in and complied with his husband's request.
The two of them fell asleep and before long, Shen Yuan entered into the dream world that Luo Binghe had created. Shen Yuan himself used his memories to make his form as close as possible to his previous life.
After that, Luo Binghe appeared before him. Currently they are in the bamboo house.
When Luo Binghe saw what his real husband looked like, his eyes widened and stared in shock at this figure in front of him.
“A-A-Yuan…?” he called to make sure.
Shen Yuan was a bit embarrassed, he rubbed the back of his exposed neck with one hand while averting his gaze, not daring to look at Binghe, “Didn't I tell you I'm notー”
“Beautiful...” Luo Binghe cut off whatever Shen Yuan was about to say, his breath caught in his throat, “A-Yuan, you are so... Beautiful... Pretty...” And adorable...
Unable to resist, Luo Binghe threw his body at Shen Yuan, but the next second he realized that this Shen Yuan's body was much smaller. And when he paid more attention, it turned out that A-Yuan was a head shorter than him.
At that very instant, Luo Binghe was faced with the world's deadliest temptation.
Big black eyes, soft and silky black hair that was only ear-length, white cheeks with a light red blush and... A luscious milky white slender neck.
In the next second, all of Luo Binghe's blood descended into his lower area.
And after that Shen Yuan felt what it was like to be a little rabbit being eaten by a hungry wolf.
The next day when he woke up after being devoured by Luo Binghe, his hungry husband was still eating him again until finally Shen Yuan felt what is called unable to walk for 2 whole days.
End.