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Now despite his (very little) self control, Seungkwan and Hansol did end up making out one or two times--- okay, scratch that. It’s been several times since and with each one of those, they get a little more carnal than the last. Hansol purposely does the opposite of what Seungkwan tells him to and would tease him for a kiss afterwards. A simple kiss would ultimately end in a make out session where they will both be a hot mess panting against each other.
Sometimes, Seungkwan would be embarrassed because he would refuse at first only to be the one whining in disappointment when they have to stop. Hansol just laughs with so much adoration and kisses the tip of his nose. “You gotta tell me when you’re ready, okay?”
Ready?
Will he ever be?
Should he be?
Okay, maybe.
Now with his current predicament, he knows exactly who his go-to person is.
“Jeonghan-hyung?” he knocks and then turns the knob to peek inside. He saw Jeonghan on the bed with his head peeking out while Seungcheol is sleeping beside him, cuddling Jeonghan in his arms. Seungkwan said not to bother getting up since it’s already late at night but Jeonghan gestured for him to wait outside.
“What is it, Kwannie?” Jeonghan looks sleepy as well, but all the members know that when someone needs him, he’ll be up and ready to help anytime.
“Sorry hyung i got in so late and couldn’t sleep so…”
Jeonghan pointed at the chair so he can sit down. “Did something happen?”
Seungkwan pressed his lips together. “About to, I think.” his uncertainty caused the older member to look at him with confusion. “Okay hyung since you know my deepest darkest secret--”
“Wait, I don’t think I do?” Jeonghan laughed, even more confused.
“Well, you know. When we went to the you know..” Seungkwan’s explanation made Jeonghan form an o with his mouth. “That’s already your deepest darkest secret? I feel so…. bad then.”
“Okay hyung I don’t need to know what it is okay? especially if it’s with Coups hyung please please keep it to yourself.”
“Okay.” Jeonghan laughs once again. “Since you asked nicely and I don’t want to scar you.” then his face turned serious. “So, tell me what’s up?”
“Okay. So there’s this friend.”
“Uhuh.”
“Who secretly likes his friend.”
“Mmkay?”
“And then they just found themselves in a somehow… confusing situation.”
“Confusing in what way?”
“Like… bestfriends… with benefits?”
“Ahhh.” Jeonghan nods. “Okay, sounds familiar.”
“Yeah so.. they haven’t gone all the way… yet. But they want to. But this friend is nervous and doesn’t know how they should go about it.”
“So this friend… it’s his first time?”
Seungkwan nodded. “He’s really freaking out.”
“Understandable, okay. So are you asking me for an advice or...?” Jeonghan’s question trails.
“So, this friend is asking for my advice which is why I’m asking for your advice on his behalf.”
“By advice you mean what your friend has to do to prepare himself right?”
Seungkwan nods furiously. Jeonghan stands up and tells Seungkwan to wait while he goes inside his room and then a minute later, emerges with a paper bag on his hand. “Here you go.” he hands it to Seungkwan.
“What is this hyung?” Seungkwan studies what’s inside the paperbag and then his eyes shot wide. Buttplug and lube???
“Hyung this--”
“Tell your friend he needs to train first. Get used to the feeling. Often, people just go on with it without proper preparation and it makes the experience less than ideal. Don’t worry, those are all brand new, I got it as spare but never really used it.” then he whispers to Seungkwan. “Preparation is key. Foreplay. I know when you get into the mood you’ll just want to do it right away, but try to hold back a little. It will be a much better experience for you and your friend then..”
“Hyung, it’s my friend and his friend.” Seungkwan corrected.
“Okay, your friend and his friend. Go tell them that, okay?” Jeonghan is so amused. It’s so obvious who this supposed friend and his friend is. Oh Seungkwannie. He looks at one of their youngest member with adoration. Seungkwan then thanks him with a hug and exits their dorm to go to his floor.
Jeonghan goes back inside his shared room with Seungcheol. Slipping back into the covers, Seungcheol stirred from his sleep to get Jeonghan back in his arms. “Where did you go?” he asked in his rough voice.
“Seungkwannie needed me.”
“Yeah?” Seungcheol drapes his arm around Jeonghan’s waist as he nuzzled his face on the crook of the latter’s neck. “Cheollie?” Seungcheol hums in response. “The kids are really growing up.”
Jeonghan couldn’t stop smiling until he fell asleep that night.
--
“Something’s different with the two of you.” Minghao looks at them with his eyes even narrower than it already is. “Something’s fishy.”
“Nothing’s fishy!” Seungkwan immediately defended himself and his secret bestfriends-with-benefit. Hansol looked like he was going to say something but Seungkwan nudged him on the side. When Minghao just shrugged at him, he proceeded to pulling Hansol to one side of the room. “We definitely have to keep it down.”
“Maybe you have to keep it down?”
“What do you mean me?”
“Well, I don’t know if you notice it but when we’re making out you’re…. well, you’re kinda loud.”
Seungkwan gasped. Loud?? He’s loud?? “No I’m not! I barely make noise!” he masked his embarrassment with a defensive stance. Well it isn’t true anyway! Or at least that’s what he tells himself.
They got called back in for taping then, it’s almost evening but they’re not even halfway done yet. They like that their variety show is having better productions as time goes by, but sometimes it can be pretty taxing too because that would mean all day and night shooting.
Today, they’re shooting for an episode called Bad Clue where they’re trying to solve who killed the ‘Chairman’ and then as time goes by they die one by one. As the shooting went on, everyone eventually got drained out so some of the members requested to take a break. Seungkwan went to the pop up pantry to get some food (and coffee, but Hansol musn’t know) and while on his way back, he gets pulled into one of the dim lit rooms, a hand clamping over his mouth immediately.
Seungkwan panicked and wriggled out of the hold. “It’s me. It’s me.” It’s Hansol.
“What the fuck!! You almost gave me a heart attack!” Seungkwan was pushing him away but the latter wrapped his arms around his waist, nuzzling his face on Seungkwan’s neck. “I’m sleepy.” and then he proceeds to trail kisses from the exposed skin up to just below of Seungkwan’s ear, eliciting a muffled shriek from the other man. “What do you say we try to wake ourselves up?”
“Ya, I’m fully awake I just had--” and then he decided not to continue because he’ll slip that he just had a cup of americano.
“I know. I can smell the coffee on you. Didn’t we talk about you not drinking that at night?”
“But we’re taping so I have to stay awake.”
“We can stay awake by doing other things.” Hansol smirked at him. All of Seungkwan’s resistance were swallowed the second Hansol claimed his lips.
It was a very dim lit room and Seungkwan couldn’t even see much except Hansol. He’s mostly relying on his sense of touch so he does his best to feel around. He was kissing Hansol with as much enthusiasm that he didn’t realize Hansol had guided his hand to his pants to cup him through the cloth. “That okay?” Seungkwan looked at Hansol and saw something in his eyes that he’s never seen before. Apparently, even if they’ve been bestfriends since forever, there are still so many things about the other man that he has to learn.
Seungkwan nods, loving the way Hansol feels rubbing against his palm. Hansol leans his head to Seungkwan’s shoulder as he continued to thrust against Seungkwan’s hand. Goosebumps travel up to Seungkwan’s arm everytime Hansol calls his name or lets our a shaky breath. “Shit, I can’t wait till you’re ready, Kwannie. I can’t wait to touch you and kiss you all over and make you feel good.”
“I--” Seungkwan is so thankful the room is dark so Hansol wouldn’t see how hard he’s blushing.
“Don’t worry, I will never rush you. I’m just saying---”
“You don’t need to wait anymore.” Seungkwan tells him. “I think I’m ready.”
“What?” Hansol pulls away, stopping all his ministrations. “You mean--”
Seungkwan smiled. “My room, later?”
“Holy shit are you serious?”
“Want me to change my mind?” Seungkwan is smirking so hard.
“No, no. Deal! I’ll be there.” He can feel the excitement in Hansol’s voice.
And his cock which he’s pretty sure he felt twitch upon hearing that invitation. But before he can make a snarky remark about it, Hansol had already locked their lips again and then pulled away to whisper. “I hope you’re really ready because I’ve been looking forward to this for so long.” another kiss. “So don’t plan on getting any sleep tonight.”
Those words hit Seungkwan harder than the cup of Americano did.
--
Seungkwan’s heart is about to explode from his chest. He just came in his room and Hansol sent him a message to wait for him and to get ready.
Now whatever the word meant, Seungkwan is sure he’s got everything under control.
What his Jeonghannie hyung had said is true and he’s been doing it religiously ever since. He’s trained himself to feeling something stuff him back there and of course at first it felt a little uncomfortable but he definitely eased into it well.
Now he knows Hansol is a lot bigger than that thing but at least, he knows what feeling to expect.
Seungkwan made sure to freshen up quickly, making sure he’d be all clean all over. Around 30 minutes later, Hansol finally came in with Seungkwan welcoming him by the door. “Hey--” but Seungkwan couldn’t even finish that because Hansol had already pinned him to the nearest wall and started attacking his lips. “I couldn’t focus the whole time.” Hansol said in between kisses. “Every time you talked all I could think of was you making a different kind of noise and whining about something else.”
“Ya.. don’t be so--”
“Forward?: Hansol chuckled. “I’ve been wanting to say all those things to you for a long time so I apologize in advance since I think I’ll say more explicit things later.”
Oh no, don’t apologize keep going. Seungkwan wanted to say, but instead he pulls Hansol into another kiss as he busied his hands with the latter’s clothes.
Seungkwan almost shrieked out loud when Hansol hooked both of his legs to his middle and carried him to the bed. Hansol hovered above him immediately, not wanting to be separated for longer. Seungkwan welcomed him with all of his limbs entwining with Hansol’s, pressing him down so they could feel more of each other.
Seungkwan is definitely overwhelmed. When and how Hansol learned all these he’ll make sure to ask later but right now all he’s going to do is enjoy it.
Clothes were shed despite all the frantic kissing and busy hands. Hansol didn’t let Seungkwan’s tiny nubs escape without attention as he nibbled and licked and sucked them alternately. “God, stop looking like that.” Hansol kissed him hard.
“What?”
“Your face.. it turns me on so much.” and to prove his point, he humped against Seungkwan, feeling both of their growing erections brush against each other.
“Lie on your stomach, Kwannie.” Hansol pressed a kiss on his stomach. Seungkwan knows what he’s going to do.
“No need for it. I--” he gulped. “I took care of it.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean.. I-- I prepped myself.”
“What?” That’s right, it’s time for Hansol to be the one to malfunction, can’t always be Seungkwan, right? But Hansol’s next question totally caught him off guard. “Can I see?”
“What? No! Just- just put it in.” But it was too late because Hansol had already spun him around, making him stick up his ass so he can look at it better. He heard Hansol pop the bottle of lube and then touch him there. “You’re right… you’re already gaping and so ready…” and without the resistance, Hansol was able to slip his finger inside with ease, causing Seungkwan to whine with his face pressed on the pillow.
“You were too impatient that’s why you did this, right?” Hansol asked. “I like it. I like that you were excited.” and then he leans forward so he’s slightly hovering above Seungkwan. “But next time, I want to be the one to do this to you, okay? To stretch you like this.” and to demonstrate, Hansol slipped another finger and made scissoring motions inside him, stretching him out. Seungkwan grasped onto Hansol’s wrist, biting his bottom lip as the other man’s finger brushed a sensitive spot inside him.
“Sol, please..” Seungkwan is already so overwhelmed and it’s just Hansol’s fingers.
“I know.. I know. I’m impatient too but I have to make sure I take care of you well, okay?” Hansol whispered to his ear. “You’re okay right?”
“I’ll be better if you just put it inside me already.” Hansol couldn’t help but smile at Seungkwan’s impatience. He’s usually very shy with things like this but it seems his bossiness is even more prominent with him feeling needy like this.
Hansol turned him around again, and he stilled as he looked at Seungkwan laying on the bed, face all flushed and eyes barely open. He’s so damn beautiful. Whoever says otherwise will get it from him.
He readied himself to push in, with Seungkwan covering his face as if embarrassed by the faces he’s making. Hansol tells him not to. “I want to look at your face.”
“But--aah!” Seungkwan’s rebuttal turned into a guttural moan as Hansol slowly pushed in. Seungkwan bites at his bottom lip to prevent further noises from slipping out his mouth. He’s trying so hard he bit a little hard and bruised his lip. When Hansol was fully inside, he leaned down to kiss Seungkwan and distract him by stroking the other man’s leaking hardness. “Sol-ah, too much!” Seungkwan writhes under him.
“Ahh shit.” Hansol couldn’t help but curse as he savors Seungkwan’s warmth enveloping him. He just wants to ram into him senselessly but Seungkwan’s comfort is above his own pleasure.
Seungkwan let him know he’s ready when he hooked both of his legs around Hansol’s middle and then pulling him down for a kiss. Hansol thrusts slowly, feeling Seungkwan shudder with his every thrust. Their moans being swallowed as they don’t break the contact between their lips.
They rocked their hips together, loving how well they fit. Seungkwan is a mixture of so many emotions. He’s happy that he can have Hansol like this.
But also scared that he can only have Hansol like this.
--
“Hyung I told you not to flirt too much on cam..” Seungkwan said the moment the v-live ended, sending dagger stares to the two oldest members who are now back to holding each other’s hands.
Seungcheol immediately goes all defensive while Jeonghan just leans to the leader’s shoulder giggling. “I can say the same to you Seungkwan-ah, you’re practically attached to Hansol’s shoulder.”
“I’m not!” Seungkwan exclaimed. Hansol swings an arm around his shoulder to bring him closer and said, “You are.” and then presses his head to Seungkwan’s so he can whisper to his ear. “I was so distracted but it was a very nice distraction.” Seungkwan swatted Hansol away and then turned to Mingyu to get help in scolding the older members.
“I’m so tired.” was all that Mingyu was able to say as he walked out of the set, leaving the giggling bunch behind.
Hansol kept Seungkwan close to him as they walked out of the set as well, whispering naughty things that makes the slightly shorter man want to fight him. “Channel all that energy for later.” Hansol whispers for the last time, earning a curse from Seungkwan.
Okay so maybe he’s just trying to not look like he isn’t looking forward to that, but he definitely is.
--
“Ah fuck!” Hansol growled as he slammed inside Seungkwan.
“Stop cursing in english! It makes me feel super dirty!” Seungkwan scolded him in between moans and whimpers.
Hansol just smirks and says something in english again and when Seungkwan asked him to translate it he said. “I love how you’re gripping me so tight I feel like I will cum very soon.”
Seungkwan’s response to that was to gape and playfully slap Hansol’s chest.
The alarm ringing on the bedside table meant another day is about to start for them. Seungkwan immediately regrets not sleeping a blink.
“Get up get up we have to be at the studio before 8.” He pulls Hansol up who’s still recovering from his high. “Look at you being a mess.” Seungkwan fixes Hansol’s wild bed hair. Hansol looks at him with much adoration. “Have I ever told you that I’ve always loved how you fix my hair like that?”
“Stop it, you baby.” Seungkwan is always trying to hide his giddiness but Hansol sees through him anyway. Then he noticed how Hansol is just staring at him. “Stop looking at me like that.”
“Like what?”
“Like I’m your whole world.”
Hansol reached for his face and while caressing his cheek, he said. “You are.”
Seungkwan immediately got up and made an excuse to go to the bathroom. Calming his panicking heart, he blames Hansol for making him feel more than he should.
For making him feel like they could be more.
--
“Hansol-ah did you see where Seung—“ The door suddenly opens, revealing the leader.
Seungcheol’s eyes found Hansol on top of Seungkwan, fortunately clothed and just making out.
It was Seungkwan who recovered first and then almost knocked Hansol off of him. “Hyung!”
Seungcheol recovered next, torn between yelling at the two of them or just exiting the room completely. He decided on the latter but announced, “I’m going to get Jeonghannie.”
It was only then that Hansol snapped back to reality with Seungkwan half-blaming him, half-assuring him that it will be alright.
A few minutes later, Seungcheol returns with Jeonghan tailing behind him this time. “Hyung..” Seungkwan calling him sounded like he needed help. He just sneakily nods at the younger, assuring him that he’ll contain the leader.
“So apparently, these two have a thing going on.”
“And?”
“Well, they’re kids! Jeonghan, you should be on my side this time. They’re doing something under our roof.”
“Oh for goodness’ sake Seungcheol get off your high horse. Let them be. It’s a long way coming, right kids?”
The two cant even nod. “Just as long as they’re being careful, they’ll be fine.” Jeonghan holds the leader’s arm. “How long has this been going on, kids?” Seungcheol still has his leader voice on.
“Just recently—“
“For years now—“
Seungkwan and Hansol spoke at the same time but with very different answers, making them look at each other.
“What?”
“What?”
“We’ve been dating for years?” Seungkwan.
Hansol frowned. “We’re not?”
The whole awkward and confusing situation made the two older members look at each other as well, with Jeonghan urging Seungcheol to leave the two for now. “Okay.. err, i guess sort it out first then come find us later to explain.” Jeonghan scolds him with his face.
“Kids there’s no need to explain but do figure it out okay? We’re happy for you.” And then he drags Seungcheol away and out of the couple’s room.
There was a long silence and a lot of staring once the two oldest members left the room.
“What do you mean we’ve been dating for years?” Seungkwan is honestly so lost.
“What do you mean we’re not dating for years? Why do you think I’m doing all sorts of things with you? You really think I’d just go do those with whoever?” Hansol, too, is confused but a little more bordering into frustration. “I don’t know when exactly it started, but I just thought we’re together. You said you liked me. I said I liked you too!”
“B-but… we were kids then.” All these years, he’s had a secret crush on the other man but then he finds out now that Hansol actually thinks they’re together?
“We were kids. But we grew up and the relationship never changed. Why do you think I cuddle you when sleeping? Or do things I wouldn’t usually do? And look at your ass??” Hansol is obviously worked up. “What do you think we’ve been doing all this time?”
Seungkwan didn’t know what to say.
“I know I’m not very vocal or showy or clingy, but I do try my best to make you feel I love you--” Hansol’s sudden declaration made Seungkwan choke. “Y-you love me?”
“Well that’s what I’m trying to say!”
“But you never said it!”
“I showed you! I kiss you on the forehead every chance I get right? And you know what kissing on the forehead means for me. I told you that’s how I show love to my mom or my sister so--” and then he continues. “I thought we’re just waiting for you to be ready to be intimate which is why we’ve only done it recently..”
Ready? If only Hansol knew he’s been ready for years!
“Oh my god we’re idiots.” Seungkwan facepalmed. “All this time I was worried that you’re only in this for the sex. And here you are telling me you’ve been in love with me for years. God, we’re so annoying.”
“So does this make it clear?” Hansol asked. “That you’re mine and I’m yours?”
Seungkwan feels so many kinds of emotions upon hearing those words coming from Hansol. Who would have thought all these years of pining would lead to this-- finally?
Maybe if they learned to use their words then they could have avoided this major confusion. Nevertheless, it doesn’t matter now. What’s important is Hansol is his.
God that sounded so much better now that it’s real.
Seungkwan smiles and then leans forward to press a chaste kiss on Hansol’s lips.