Chapter Text
The morning in the ER had settled into that strange, suspicious lull that never felt peaceful so much as threatening.
It was not quiet, exactly. Hospitals were never quiet. Somewhere, a monitor beeped with the bored persistence of a microwave left emotionally unattended. A phone rang twice before someone picked it up. A porter rolled a cart past with one squeaky wheel and the thousand-yard stare of a man who had already seen too much before breakfast. But for the ER, it was slow. Dangerously slow. The kind of slow that made experienced doctors twitchy because everyone knew the universe had a sense of timing and absolutely no bedside manner.
At the nurses’ station, Raelle and Tally had responded to the lull with the dignity and professionalism expected of two highly trained emergency physicians.
They were building a tower out of tongue depressors.
It had started, as most terrible ideas in the ER did, with Tally saying, “Bet you can’t make it taller than the hand sanitizer dispenser,” and Raelle immediately taking that as an attack on her engineering prowess, her honor, and possibly her ancestors.
Now the two of them were hunched over the counter with surgical focus, tongues caught between teeth, hands moving with an absurd amount of precision as they stacked the wooden sticks into a precarious, crisscrossed structure. It leaned slightly to the left. Raelle had noticed this. Tally had also noticed this. Neither of them had acknowledged it, because doing so would make the tower aware of its own mortality.
“Okay,” Tally whispered, holding a tongue depressor between both hands like she was lowering the final piece into a nuclear reactor. “Nobody breathe.”
“I’m not breathing,” Raelle whispered back.
“You are breathing.”
“I am clinically minimizing my breathing.”
“That’s different.”
“It’s medicine.”
“It’s nonsense.”
“It can be both.”
Tally slowly placed the next tongue depressor across the top. The tower wobbled. Both women froze.
Across the nurses’ station, Scylla appeared with a chart tucked under one arm and a paper cup of coffee in the other hand. She stopped before either of them noticed her, taking in the scene with a slow, spreading smile that she did not even try to hide.
Raelle’s hair was pulled back messily, a few blonde pieces already escaping around her face, her brows furrowed in extreme concentration. Tally stood beside her with the solemn intensity of someone assisting in open-heart surgery instead of actively wasting hospital supplies. Between them, the tongue depressor tower shivered, brave and doomed.
Scylla leaned her hip against the counter and watched for a few more seconds, deeply content to let them continue making fools of themselves.
Then she said, “It’s not structurally sound on the left side.”
Raelle jumped so hard her elbow hit the counter.
The entire tower collapsed in a soft wooden avalanche, tongue depressors scattering across the desk, onto the floor, and into a nearby stack of discharge papers.
Tally gasped like she had witnessed a murder.
Raelle spun around, one hand pressed to her chest, eyes wide with betrayal. “Oh my God, Scylla.”
Scylla took a calm sip of coffee. “Good morning.”
“That was your fault,” Raelle said, pointing first at Scylla and then at the ruined tower. “You assassinated our building.”
“No,” Scylla said, completely unbothered. “I merely identified a pre-existing architectural weakness. The left-hand side was structurally unsound anyway.”
Tally stared down at the wreckage. “She has a point.”
Raelle whipped her head toward her. “Don’t side with my fiancée during a workplace tragedy.”
Scylla’s smile deepened at the word, a tiny flicker of warmth passing over her face before she covered it with another sip of coffee. Even after Christmas, even after rings and snow and both of them somehow proposing to each other like the most dramatic idiots alive, that word still did something to her. Fiancée. Raelle’s fiancée. It landed every time with a soft, impossible weight.
Raelle noticed the smile, because of course she did. Her indignation faltered for half a second, replaced by something gentler. Then she remembered the tongue depressors and narrowed her eyes again.
“Don’t look cute at me,” she said. “You destroyed art.”
“I destroyed a hazard,” Scylla replied. “You’re welcome.”
“It was going to be magnificent.”
“It was going to fall on Marcie’s keyboard.”
Marcie, seated two feet away and eating yogurt with the dead-eyed patience of someone who had survived too many ER mornings, lifted her spoon. “For the record, I was prepared to sue.”
Tally began gathering tongue depressors back into a pile, muttering, “We could rebuild. Better. Stronger. More symmetrical.”
“Slow morning?” Scylla asked, glancing between them.
“A little,” Raelle admitted, sweeping some of the fallen sticks into her palm. “Suspiciously slow, actually.” She leaned slightly to see behind Scylla, scanning the corridor. “Where’d you come from anyway?”
“Radiology,” Scylla said. “I was checking on the ankle fracture from bay four. Clean films. No surgery, just ortho follow-up and a boot.”
“Lucky ankle.”
“It looked grateful.”
Tally perked up, apparently deciding it was time to contribute meaningful clinical updates. “We did have a guy with a pea stuck up his nose.”
Scylla paused. “A pea?”
“Yeah,” Tally said, with the kind of relish one usually reserved for scandal, pastries, or both. “But when I say guy, I mean a grown-ass man. Not a toddler. Not a child. A man. He was fifty.”
Scylla’s mouth twitched. “How does a fifty-year-old man get a pea stuck up his nose?”
“He said he was checking if he could still do it,” Tally replied.
Scylla blinked once. “Still?”
“Apparently he used to do it as a kid.”
Raelle made a face. “I feel like some childhood skills are meant to be abandoned.”
“He seemed very proud before the panic kicked in,” Tally said. “Then he sneezed, inhaled weirdly, and suddenly the pea became a medical event.”
Scylla laughed, warm and bright, leaning her forearms on the counter. “When will people learn to stop putting things where they shouldn’t go?”
“Hopefully never,” Tally said immediately. “It makes for the best stories. I mean, it’s not a Hot Wheels car or a cucumber, but still. A grown man with a pea.”
Marcie held up her spoon. “Respectfully, the cucumber lady changed the culture.”
“She really did,” Raelle said, nodding solemnly. “There was a before-cucumber and an after-cucumber.”
Raelle then looked down at the pile of tongue depressors, then at Tally, then at Marcie, and something visibly sparked in her face. It was the expression that usually preceded trouble. Not life-threatening trouble. Worse. Administrative trouble.
“Oh,” Raelle said slowly. “We need a new board for the quarter.”
Tally sat up like a trumpet had sounded on a battlefield only she could hear.
Her eyes went wide. Her posture straightened. Her whole body practically levitated with purpose. Then she slapped both hands onto the counter and shouted, “People! People, gather round!”
Half the nurses’ station looked up. No one moved at first.
Tally clapped again. “This is not a drill. Quarterly board selection.”
That did it.
From various corners of the ER, nurses, orderlies, doctors, and one respiratory therapist who always appeared for gossip with supernatural timing began drifting toward the desk. Dr. Chen materialized from the direction of the trauma bay holding a tablet. Malcolm leaned out of a supply closet with gauze in one hand. A senior nurse named Julia rolled her chair over without standing up, pushing herself backward with one foot and looking deeply invested.
Raelle crossed her arms, grinning despite herself. Scylla stayed beside her, coffee in hand, looking amused and faintly alarmed by how quickly the department reorganized itself around nonsense.
“Marcie!” Tally shouted.
Marcie was already moving. “On it.”
She ducked behind the nurses’ station and began rifling through what looked like a completely ordinary storage shelf but had, over time, become the unofficial archive of ER stupidity. Clipboards, spare markers, outdated discharge leaflets, a bag of rubber bands, three granola bars of unknown origin, and at least two retired whiteboards appeared before she finally produced a clean one with a flourish.
“Got it,” Marcie announced, setting it on the counter. “What are we thinking?”
Raelle leaned in, eyes narrowing like she was choosing the fate of nations. “Most Dramatic Use of WebMD.”
A murmur rippled through the gathered staff.
“Oh, that’s good, Collar,” Marcie said, already writing it down in the top corner.
Tally nodded thoughtfully. “Strong contender. Broad category. Good narrative potential.”
“We’d fill it in four days,” Abigail said as she approached, coffee in hand, surgical cap still shoved into one pocket. She looked tired, polished, and immediately judgmental. “People google ‘mild headache’ and arrive convinced they have a Victorian wasting disease.”
Dr. Chen lifted a finger. “Yesterday someone told me WebMD said his elbow pain could be ovarian cancer.”
Everyone turned to look at her.
Dr. Chen stared back. “He does not have ovaries.”
“Okay, that goes on the pitch list,” Marcie said, scribbling faster.
Scylla leaned closer to the board, considering. “Things Patients Claim They Fell On.”
Several people made appreciative noises.
“That’s evergreen,” Julia said.
“Classic,” Malcolm agreed. “Elegant. Reliable.”
Tally pointed at Scylla. “See, this is why you’re family. You understand the art form.”
Raelle’s gaze flicked to Scylla at that, softening again. Family. It still landed. It still made something warm unfold behind her ribs, especially now, with Scylla standing beside her wearing the ring Raelle still caught herself staring at like an idiot when she thought no one noticed.
Scylla did notice.
Scylla always noticed.
She gently nudged Raelle’s foot with hers beneath the counter, subtle enough that no one else caught it. Raelle fought a smile and lost.
Tally, unfortunately, had the observational instincts of a raccoon near an unlocked bin. “Do not start being cute during board nominations,” she warned. “This is a sacred democratic process.”
“It is absolutely not democratic,” Abigail said. “You rig it every quarter.”
“I guide it,” Tally corrected. “Like a benevolent monarch.”
Marcie kept writing, marker squeaking. “Okay, we’ve got Most Dramatic Use of WebMD, Things Patients Claim They Fell On. Other suggestions?”
“Worst Object Found in a Scrub Pocket,” Malcolm offered.
Julia nodded. “Good, but too internal. Less patient chaos.”
“Most Unnecessary Ambulance Arrival,” said one of the orderlies.
Abigail made a face. “Too mean.”
“Agreed,” Scylla said. “Half of them are scared.”
“And the other half are dramatic,” Raelle added, “but still.”
Tally put a hand over her heart. “Look at you two, bringing ethics to my nonsense board. Disgusting. Continue.”
Marcie drew a cloud bubble around the rejected suggestion anyway and wrote too mean beside it.
“Best Patient Lie,” Dr. Chen said.
A hush fell.
Then everyone began talking at once.
“That’s strong.”
“That’s very strong.”
“Too hard to judge.”
“No, that’s the beauty of it.”
“Would ‘I slipped’ count?”
“Only if it was clearly not slipping.”
“Everyone says they slipped,” Raelle said. “Slipping is the patron saint of bad decisions.”
Scylla nodded. “Same with ‘I was cleaning naked.’”
A nurse at the back snorted. “We should have a subcategory for that.”
Marcie wrote Best Patient Lie in the center of the board and underlined it twice.
Tally tapped the marker against her chin. “Okay, okay. But we need something with range. Something that lets everyone participate. The horrible object board was iconic because every department had a shot. Surgery. ER. ENT. Unfortunately urology.”
“Especially urology,” Abigail said.
“They were too powerful,” Raelle agreed. “We created a monster.”
“They still talk about the lightbulb,” Marcie murmured.
Scylla turned slowly toward Raelle. “The intact one?”
Raelle grinned. “Legendary.”
Scylla shook her head, smiling into her coffee. “This hospital is a circus with imaging.”
“Thank you,” Tally said. “That’s our mission statement.”
Another nurse raised her hand. “What about Worst Explanation for a Completely Obvious Injury?”
“Oh,” Abigail said, straightening. “That has legs.”
“Sometimes broken ones,” Raelle added.
Scylla pressed her lips together, trying not to laugh. “That was terrible.”
“You love me.”
“I do. Still terrible.”
Marcie wrote it down. “Worst Explanation for Obvious Injury.”
Tally made a weighing motion with both hands. “Okay. Excellent. Very strong field this quarter.”
Raelle glanced over the list, tapping her fingers against the counter. “Most Dramatic Use of WebMD is funny, but it might get repetitive.”
“Right,” Scylla said. “After the third person convinced they have sepsis because they sneezed weird, we’ll get bored.”
“Speak for yourself,” Malcolm muttered.
“Things Patients Claim They Fell On is classic,” Abigail said, “but it overlaps with the old horrible objects board.”
Tally nodded with grave seriousness. “We cannot dilute the brand.”
Marcie capped the marker halfway, then uncapped it again. “Best Patient Lie gives us range. Injuries, symptoms, timelines, substance use, objects, relationship drama.”
“Relationship drama?” Raelle asked.
Marcie stared at her. “A man came in last week with a human bite on his shoulder and told me he ‘bumped into a mouth.’”
The entire nurses’ station erupted.
Scylla closed her eyes, laughing softly. “Bumped into a mouth?”
Marcie nodded. “Repeatedly, apparently.”
Raelle leaned back against the counter, delighted. “Okay. That’s art.”
“It’s poetry,” Tally said. “Terrible, terrible poetry.”
Abigail pointed at the board. “I vote Best Patient Lie.”
“Seconded,” Scylla said.
Raelle looked at her, mock betrayed. “You’re just saying that because you know I’m going to get competitive.”
“I am saying it because you’re going to get competitive,” Scylla replied. “And because I want to watch.”
A few people made low, knowing noises.
Raelle shot the entire group a glare. “Do not make that weird.”
Tally smiled sweetly. “We don’t have to. You two bring your own weird.”
“Can we vote before HR senses us?” Julia asked.
Tally grabbed the board and turned it toward the group. “All in favor of Best Patient Lie as the official quarterly board?”
Hands went up across the nurses’ station. Marcie lifted both. Malcolm raised his gauze. Dr. Chen raised one finger without looking up from her tablet. Abigail raised her coffee cup.
Raelle hesitated for half a second, then raised her hand too. Scylla watched her do it and smiled like she’d just watched Raelle consent to a minor crime.
“Motion carried,” Tally announced. “Marcie, make it beautiful.”
Marcie spun the board around and wrote in large, theatrical letters across the top:
BEST PATIENT LIE OF THE QUARTER
Underneath, in smaller writing, she added:
Prize pot: $10 buy-in. Winner gets cash, glory, and one free cafeteria dessert of questionable origin.
Raelle squinted. “Questionable origin?”
“That’s part of the prize,” Marcie said.
“It’s part of the risk,” Abigail corrected.
Tally slapped a ten-dollar bill onto the counter. “I’m in.”
One by one, others followed. Bills appeared from scrub pockets, badge holders, wallets, and one mysterious folded note from Dr. Chen that looked like it had been prepared in advance. The prize jar was retrieved from its usual spot beneath the desk, still labeled from the last contest with old tape residue clinging to the glass.
Scylla reached into her pocket and pulled out a bill.
Raelle looked at her. “You’re very calm for someone about to lose.”
Scylla arched an eyebrow. “I had a man tell me a lizard with a grudge attacked him.”
Raelle paused. “That was a strong case.”
“And now I have a whole quarter to find worse.”
Tally made a delighted noise. “This is why we needed this board. Look at her. She’s hungry for victory.”
Scylla smiled. “I enjoy excellence.”
“You enjoy beating me,” Raelle said.
“That too.”
Abigail sipped her coffee and glanced between them. “Are we still talking about the board?”
Raelle pointed at her. “Absolutely not engaging.”
Scylla’s smile turned dangerous. “Wise.”
Before anyone could make that worse, the phone rang. Marcie picked it up, listened for three seconds, and then slowly looked across the desk at Raelle.
Raelle straightened. “What?”
Marcie’s mouth twitched. “Bay three. Man with ankle pain.”
Raelle waited. “And?”
“He says he injured it while heroically saving his neighbor’s cat from a tree.”
“That sounds nice,” Scylla said.
Marcie held up one finger. “His wife says he tripped over a laundry basket while trying to demonstrate a TikTok dance.”
The nurses’ station went silent.
Then Tally whispered, “First entry.”
Raelle’s face lit up.
Scylla turned to her with a slow smile. “Race you?”
Raelle was already grabbing the chart. “You’re on.”
They took off down the hall together, shoulder to shoulder, both pretending they were going because of medical urgency and not because the first official lie of the quarter had just landed in bay three wearing an ankle brace and the fragile dignity of a man betrayed by choreography.
Behind them, Tally seized the marker, uncapped it with her teeth, and wrote beneath the title:
Dr. Collar & Dr. Ramshorn: heroic cat rescue / TikTok laundry basket ankle incident
She stepped back, admiring it.
Abigail came to stand beside her, arms folded. “This is going to get out of hand.”
Tally smiled, bright and pleased. “God, I hope so.”
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By the time Raelle and Scylla got home, the apartment had the warm, end-of-day quiet of a place that had learned how to hold them.
It was not perfectly tidy. It never was, not really. Two emergency physicians lived there, which meant the apartment existed in a constant state of almost-clean, almost-chaos. A pair of Raelle’s sneakers sat near the door, one upright, one on its side like it had collapsed dramatically after a long shift. Scylla’s coat was hooked neatly by the entrance, while Raelle’s hoodie had somehow migrated onto the back of a dining chair despite the fact that she had walked directly past the coat hooks to put it there. There was a half-finished cup of coffee on the kitchen counter that neither of them was willing to claim, a stack of medical journals on the side table, and a throw blanket on the couch that had become less a blanket and more a permanent domestic landmark.
It was home. Theirs. Soft around the edges in all the right places.
Scylla sat curled into one corner of the couch with her laptop balanced on her thighs, hair loose around her shoulders, as she scrolled through a journal article with faintly irritated focus, reading a conclusion section and finding it offensive. She had changed into soft black joggers and one of Raelle’s old sweatshirts, because apparently engagement had only made her hoodie theft more brazen.
Raelle, meanwhile, was across the room tending to Toulouse.
Toulouse, who had once been a sad fern. A tragic fern, really. A limp, browning, spiritually defeated little thing that had spent years in Raelle’s apartment being watered only when guilt and coincidence aligned. But since moving in with Scylla, Toulouse had undergone what Raelle referred to as “a full botanical rehabilitation journey,” and what Scylla referred to as “you projecting onto a plant.”
Raelle was currently crouched in front of him with a spray bottle in one hand and a small moisture meter in the other, her expression grave.
“You’re being dramatic,” Scylla said without looking up from her laptop.
Raelle glanced over her shoulder. “I am not being dramatic. His soil is inconsistent.”
“He’s a fern.”
“He’s a survivor.”
“He’s sitting in an expensive ceramic pot by an east-facing window while you mist him with filtered water.”
“Exactly,” Raelle said, turning back to the plant. “And I intend to keep him humble.”
Scylla smiled down at her laptop, warmth spreading through her chest before she could stop it. There were still moments when the domesticity of it all hit her sideways. Raelle in socked feet, aggressively caring for a plant. Their coats by the door. Their rings catching in the lamplight. The casual ease of being in the same room without needing to fill it. After so long spent feeling like her life had been something she was supposed to perform correctly, this still felt almost unreal sometimes. Not uncertain. Just precious in a way that made her want to touch it carefully.
Raelle leaned closer to Toulouse, narrowing her eyes. “I don’t love this angle.”
“The fern’s angle?”
“The sunlight angle.”
“Of course.”
“He’s getting too much direct exposure on the left side.”
Scylla’s lips twitched. “Structurally unsound?”
Raelle turned slowly, eyes narrowed. “Don’t you dare bring up the tongue depressor tower in this house.”
“It was structurally unsound.”
“You destroyed it with your judgment.”
“I saved Marcie’s keyboard.”
“You betrayed art.”
Scylla looked up then, smiling properly now. “How is Toulouse not art?”
Raelle considered that, then gave a small nod. “Fine. Good point. Toulouse is living art. Which is why he deserves correct sunlight positioning and a pH-balanced environment.”
Scylla stared at her for a beat, entirely gone on her. “You know you’re very cute when you’re deranged.”
“I just care, aggressively,” Raelle said, spraying Toulouse twice with unnecessary intensity. “It’s different.”
“Barely.”
Raelle was opening her mouth to argue when her phone pinged from the couch cushion beside Scylla.
She did not look away from the fern. “What is it?” she asked, carefully turning Toulouse’s pot by approximately two centimeters.
Scylla glanced down. “Your phone.”
“Yes, babe, I gathered that from the pinging.”
Scylla reached over, picked it up, and the screen lit beneath her thumb. “Email notification.”
“From who?”
Scylla unlocked it with the casual ease of a woman who knew Raelle’s passcode, medical history, sleep tells, coffee order, and every single face she made before lying about being fine. “Some conference address.”
Raelle frowned but kept examining the plant. “Conference?”
Scylla opened the email. Her eyes moved across the screen. Then stopped.
Raelle noticed the silence immediately. She straightened slightly but still did not turn around. “What?”
Scylla kept reading.
Raelle turned now, spray bottle still in hand. “Scyl?”
Scylla’s mouth had gone soft with something unreadable. Not worry—not exactly surprise. Something warmer, slower.
Raelle stood up straighter. “Did someone die? Do people email about death now?”
Scylla looked up at her, and the smile finally broke through. “No. No, it’s…” She let out a quiet laugh, more breath than sound, and held the phone out. “Here. You should read it.”
Raelle eyed her suspiciously, then crossed the room and took the phone. “Why are you smiling like that?”
“Just read it.”
Raelle looked down at the screen. At first, she skimmed it, her face blank in the way faces went blank when the brain refused to accept the first pass of information. Then she stopped. Went back to the top. Read it properly.
Scylla watched her.
Raelle’s eyebrows pulled together. Her thumb shifted slightly as she scrolled. Then she read the first paragraph again. And again.
Finally, she looked up.
Then down.
Then up again.
She let out a half-laugh that sounded like it had tripped on the way out. “That’s a joke, right?”
“I don’t think so,” Scylla said gently. “It’s very clearly addressed to you.”
Raelle stared at the phone like it had betrayed her. “No.”
Scylla’s smile widened. “Rae.”
“No,” Raelle repeated, more firmly this time. “Absolutely not.”
“It’s an invitation.”
“It’s a threat.”
“It is not a threat.”
“It says keynote.”
“Yes.”
“Keynote is a threatening word.”
Scylla closed her laptop and set it aside, already shifting into the careful, steady mode she used when Raelle’s emotions began attempting parkour. “They’re asking you to speak at the emergency medicine conference in April.”
“They are asking the wrong person.”
“They are not.”
Raelle threw the phone onto the couch beside Scylla like physical distance might make the email lose authority. “I can’t do a speech.”
Scylla picked the phone up again before it slid between the cushions. “You can.”
“I—me?” Raelle gestured at herself with the spray bottle. A fine mist shot sideways and landed on the coffee table. “I can’t do that. No. That’s absurd.”
Scylla stood, phone in hand, and moved closer. “Raelle.”
“No, Scylla—that’s insane. I can’t talk to a room full of people about emergency trauma response in urban centers.”
Scylla blinked at her. “That is literally what you do.”
“I do it in trauma bays.”
“With people watching.”
“Different.”
“With residents watching.”
“Different.”
“With nurses, surgeons, paramedics, consultants, terrified families, and occasionally Tally watching while eating pretzels.”
Raelle pointed at her. “Tally watching while eating pretzels is not the same as a conference.”
“You’re one of the best emergency physicians in New York,” Scylla said, voice calm but firm. “Honestly, one of the best in the state. Maybe the country. Of course they asked you.”
Raelle looked genuinely horrified by that. “Don’t say country.”
“Fine. Continent.”
“Scylla.”
“Planet?”
“I will mist you.”
Scylla’s smile softened as she took the spray bottle gently from Raelle’s hand and set it on the coffee table. “You deserve this.”
Raelle’s jaw worked, but no words came out at first. She looked away, toward Toulouse, like maybe the fern would provide legal counsel. “I didn’t even want to be an attending,” she muttered. “They made me. They were like, ‘You can’t be a resident forever,’ and I argued, ‘Why not?’ and they made me an attending anyway.”
Scylla’s expression softened further. “And you’re brilliant at it.”
“I’m accidentally brilliant at it.”
“That’s not a thing.”
“It is. It’s my whole brand.”
“Your whole brand is being very competent and deeply annoyed that anyone noticed.”
Raelle huffed and folded her arms. “Email them back. Tell them no. You do it instead.”
Scylla arched an eyebrow. “You want me to give a keynote about your work?”
“Yes.”
“Bold.”
“You’re smarter than me.”
“I am not.”
“You read journal articles for fun and get mad at methodology.”
“So do you, and also, you intubated a man last week while simultaneously correcting a resident’s dosage calculation and telling Tally not to put a bagel in the trauma bay toaster.”
Raelle made a face. “That toaster is a hazard.”
“It was still impressive.”
Raelle dragged both hands down her face and groaned. “I can’t stand on a stage.”
“You stand in trauma rooms.”
“Trauma rooms have a purpose. Stages are just elevated judgment platforms.”
Scylla laughed despite herself, stepping close enough to touch her. “Okay. How about this? You don’t say no immediately.”
Raelle looked at her with open betrayal. “You’re supposed to be on my side.”
“I am on your side.”
“My side is no.”
“No, your panic is no. Your side hasn’t actually spoken yet.”
Raelle went quiet at that, eyes flicking down as Scylla reached for her hand, thumb brushing over the ring there. It still caught her sometimes, the sight of it. The simple fact of Raelle wearing a promise that belonged to both of them. She lowered her voice. “Just think about it before saying no. That’s all I’m asking.”
Raelle looked at their hands. “I already thought about it.”
“For seven seconds while threatening a fern.”
“Toulouse is part of my process.”
“I respect Toulouse deeply,” Scylla said, completely serious. “But I still think you should take more than one plant-care interval before turning down a major professional invitation.”
Raelle’s mouth twitched despite herself, but the nerves were still there, crawling under her skin. “What would I even say?”
“What they asked you to talk about.”
“Emergency trauma response in urban centers,” Raelle recited, then shook her head. “God, even saying it makes me sound like I should own a blazer.”
“You do own a blazer.”
“One blazer. For funerals, weddings, and court appearances.”
“When have you been to court?”
“That’s not the point.”
Scylla squeezed her hand. “You’d talk about what you know. Fast decision-making. Staffing. Resource pressure. Multi-disciplinary response. How trauma teams communicate under load. How you teach residents to think when everything is loud and bloody and everyone’s scared.”
Raelle stared at her.
Scylla shrugged softly. “I listen when you talk.”
Something in Raelle’s face shifted. Just enough. The panic didn’t vanish, but it lost one of its sharp edges.
Then she ruined it by saying, “I hate that you made that sound good.”
“I’m very gifted.”
“You’re very annoying.”
“You’re in love with me.”
“Tragically.”
Scylla smiled and stepped closer, winding her arms around Raelle’s waist. “Talk to your mom.”
Raelle’s head snapped up. “My mom? Why?”
“Because your mother has given more keynotes than I can count,” Scylla said. “She knows how this works. She has experience.”
Raelle frowned. “She’ll make a big deal out of it.”
“Yes.”
“I don’t want a big deal.”
“She’ll be proud of you.”
Raelle’s face did something complicated. A flicker of resistance, then embarrassment, then a softer vulnerability she usually tried to hide behind jokes and sarcasm. “That’s worse.”
Scylla tilted her head. “Her being proud of you?”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
“Because then I’ll have to feel things.”
Scylla’s eyes warmed. “Terrible.”
“Awful.”
“Unbearable.”
Raelle nodded solemnly. “You understand.”
“I do,” Scylla said, brushing a kiss against the corner of her mouth. “And she’ll be proud of you just for being asked. Not because you have to say yes. Not because you have to be perfect. Just because it’s a huge honor and you earned it.”
Raelle leaned into her despite herself, forehead dropping lightly to Scylla’s shoulder. “I hate honors.”
“No you don’t.”
“I hate public honors.”
“You hate being perceived.”
“I save lives in fluorescent lighting, Scyl. I’m perceived constantly.”
“By concussed people and nurses who already know you’re weird.”
“Exactly. Safe audiences.”
Scylla slid one hand up Raelle’s back, slow and grounding. “You’re allowed to be scared.”
Raelle was quiet.
The apartment hummed around them. The radiator ticked softly near the window. Toulouse sat regally in his carefully positioned patch of indirect light, thriving under duress. Outside, the city moved on without caring that Raelle Collar had just been professionally recognized and was treating it like an active explosion.
After a moment, Raelle said, muffled against Scylla’s shoulder, “What if I say yes and I’m terrible?”
“You won’t be.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I do.”
“You’re biased.”
“Deeply,” Scylla admitted. “But I’m also right.”
Raelle huffed a laugh into her sweatshirt. “God, that’s infuriating.”
Scylla pressed a kiss to her hair. “You don’t have to answer tonight. Read it again later. Call your mom. Maybe talk to Abigail too.”
Raelle lifted her head. “Abigail will make a spreadsheet.”
“She will.”
“Tally will make a board.”
“She absolutely will.”
“Marcie will start a betting pool on whether I swear during the speech.”
“She already has the marker uncapped in spirit.”
Raelle stared at her for a long second.
Then, horrifyingly, her eyes widened. “Oh my God. The ER can never find out.”
Scylla laughed. “Baby.”
“No—no, absolutely not. If Tally finds out, she’ll make it a whole thing.”
“She is going to find out.”
“She won’t.”
“She will.”
“How?”
Scylla gave her a look. “Because you’ll walk into work tomorrow trying very hard to look normal, which means you’ll look like someone stapled a secret to your forehead.”
Raelle groaned. “I do have secret forehead.”
“You have the loudest secret forehead I’ve ever seen.”
“I hate this family.”
Scylla’s smile softened at the word. Family. Their strange, nosy, over-caffeinated ER family. The people who had watched them fall in love by accident and then had the audacity to document it in marker. The people who would be unbearable about this, yes, but only because they loved Raelle so fiercely they had no idea how to be normal about it.
Raelle seemed to realize the same thing, because her shoulders slumped. “They’re going to be so proud.”
“They are.”
“Gross.”
“Disgusting.”
“I’ll never recover.”
“I’ll hold your hand.”
Raelle looked at her then, really looked, and the panic in her eyes quieted just a little more. “Yeah?”
Scylla’s thumb brushed over her knuckles. “Always.”
Raelle swallowed, then nodded once. “Okay. I’ll think about it.”
Scylla smiled. “That’s all I wanted.”
“But I’m not saying yes.”
“Of course not.”
“I’m just thinking.”
“Very neutral.”
“Barely considering.”
“Practically indifferent.”
Raelle pointed toward the couch. “And you’re not allowed to tell Tally.”
“I won’t tell Tally.”
“Or Abigail.”
“I won’t tell Abigail.”
Raelle narrowed her eyes. “You’re doing that calm face.”
“This is just my face.”
“No, that’s your ‘I know something inevitable and I’m letting you arrive there naturally’ face.”
Scylla smiled sweetly. “I have no idea what you mean.”
Raelle stared at her for another second, then sighed so dramatically Toulouse probably felt the humidity shift. “Fine. I’m calling my mom tomorrow... maybe.”
Scylla’s face lit with quiet triumph.
Raelle pointed at her immediately. “Do not look pleased.”
“I’m not.”
“You are glowing.”
“I’m engaged to a keynote speaker. It’s exciting.”
“I am not a keynote speaker.”
“Not yet.”
Raelle made a strangled noise and grabbed the spray bottle again, turning back toward Toulouse with renewed urgency. “I need to water my son.”
“He does not need more water.”
“He needs emotional support.”
“You need emotional support.”
“We both do.”
Scylla watched as Raelle crouched back down in front of the fern, muttering softly to it about betrayal, professional development, and the dangers of being loved by ambitious women. Her phone sat on the couch behind them, the email still open, bright and waiting.
Scylla picked it up once more and read the opening line again.
Dear Dr. Collar,
She smiled.
Raelle glanced back suspiciously. “Are you reading it again?”
“No.”
“You are.”
Scylla set the phone face down and folded her hands innocently. “I’m just sitting here.”
“You’re proud-smiling.”
“I’m allowed.”
Raelle looked at her, caught somewhere between panic and softness. “You really think I can do it?”
Scylla’s expression gentled completely. “Rae, I think you’re going to walk into that room terrified, make one awkward joke in the first thirty seconds, and then forget to be scared because you’ll start talking about the work. And once you start talking about the work, everyone in that room is going to understand exactly why they asked you.”
Raelle didn’t answer immediately.
She looked down at Toulouse, then at the spray bottle in her hand, then at Scylla sitting on their couch in Raelle’s stolen sweatshirt, her eyes soft and sure and impossibly certain.
Finally, Raelle sighed. “I hate when you believe in me like this.”
Scylla smiled. “No you don’t.”
Raelle’s mouth pulled into a reluctant, crooked smile.
Then Toulouse received one final misting, whether he needed it or not.
---
The apartment was dark except for the low amber glow leaking from the living room.
At first, Scylla did not wake fully. She surfaced slowly, dragged up from sleep by something she could not name at once. Not a sound, not a nightmare, not her phone buzzing on the bedside table. Just absence. A shift in the warmth beside her. The bed felt too wide where it should have been familiar—too still where Raelle should have been sprawled half on top of her with one knee thrown across Scylla’s leg like a deeply affectionate weighted blanket.
Scylla blinked into the dark, reaching automatically across the mattress.
Empty.
Her hand met cool sheets.
That woke her properly.
She lifted her head from the pillow, squinting toward the bathroom first, then the doorway. No light there. No sound of running water. No soft muttering from Raelle about toothpaste or misplaced socks or whatever small domestic mystery had offended her at two in the morning. Scylla rolled onto her back and glanced at the clock on the bedside table.
2:37 a.m.
For a few seconds, she simply stared at it.
Then she exhaled through her nose, already knowing. Because of course she knew. Raelle had spent the entire evening claiming she was “barely thinking about” the keynote invitation, which meant she had thought about nothing else. She had watered Toulouse twice, rearranged the throw pillows, opened and closed her email four separate times, then insisted she was totally calm while making tea and forgetting to put the teabag in the mug.
Scylla had let her be. Mostly. She had kissed her temple, told her they didn’t have to decide anything tonight, and guided her to bed with the patience of a woman escorting a wild animal away from a cliff edge using only affection and herbal tea.
Apparently, the wild animal had escaped.
Scylla pushed the duvet back and sat up, rubbing sleep from her eyes. The apartment was cooler now, quiet in that deep middle-of-the-night way that made every small sound feel intimate. She pulled Raelle’s sweatshirt from the chair beside the bed and tugged it over her head, then padded barefoot out of the bedroom, following the glow.
Raelle was on the couch.
Of course she was.
She sat hunched over her laptop, one knee drawn up beneath her, hair in disarray, face lit pale blue by the screen. A half-empty glass of water sat untouched on the coffee table beside three balled-up tissues, a pen, a notebook, and Toulouse’s moisture meter for reasons Scylla chose not to investigate. Raelle’s fingers moved fast over the keyboard, then stopped. She read something. Deleted it. Typed again. Deleted half of that. Made a face at the screen like it had personally disappointed her.
Scylla leaned against the doorway for a moment, watching her.
There was something so achingly familiar about it. Raelle in a spiral, but not the kind that broke outward. This one turned inward, tightening around a thing she cared about too much to admit she cared. Her shoulders were tense. Her jaw was set. Her eyes were too awake, bright with thoughts that had clearly refused to leave her alone.
Scylla walked over without saying anything.
Raelle startled slightly when the couch dipped beside her, but not badly. Not like she hadn’t sensed Scylla coming in some quiet, bone-deep way. She glanced sideways, guilt flashing across her face. “I didn’t wake you, did I?”
Scylla slid close, tucking herself against Raelle’s side. “No.”
Raelle gave her a look.
Scylla amended, “The lack of you woke me.”
Raelle’s face softened immediately. “Sorry.”
“It’s okay.” Scylla reached up, fingers slipping into Raelle’s hair, slow and gentle, combing through the messy blonde strands with sleepy tenderness. Raelle’s eyes closed for half a second, her whole body leaning unconsciously toward the touch. Scylla rested her head on Raelle’s shoulder and squinted at the laptop screen through the fog of being awake at a morally incorrect hour. Her voice came out soft and rough with sleep. “Okay. What have you got?”
Raelle looked down at her. “You don’t have to—”
“Rae.”
Raelle stopped.
Scylla kept her hand in Raelle’s hair, thumb brushing lightly near her temple. “What have you got?”
Raelle stared at the screen for a beat, then leaned over and pressed a kiss to the side of Scylla’s head. It was soft and grateful and a little apologetic. Then the floodgates opened.
“Okay, so I was thinking,” Raelle said, words already tumbling over each other, “if I did it, which I’m not saying I’m doing, I’m just saying if hypothetically someone held me hostage with professional development and made me stand on an elevated judgment platform—”
“Stage,” Scylla murmured.
“Same thing. If I did it, I think I could open with specific examples. Not big flashy cases, not the kind of trauma people think they want to hear about because it sounds dramatic, but real-life examples of managing trauma in urban centers. The daily stuff. The actual grind of it. The things that happen over and over and how we handle them before they turn catastrophic.”
Scylla’s eyes moved over the screen, trying to focus. There were headings. Subheadings. Bullet points. A paragraph that looked dense enough to require its own oxygen supply. “Mhm.”
“Like,” Raelle continued, one hand gesturing as her other hovered near the keyboard, “everyone thinks emergency trauma response is all massive pileups and gunshot wounds and dramatic chest cracks, and yeah, sometimes it is, but most of it is systems. Communication. Resource allocation. Triage under pressure. The tiny decisions that don’t look heroic but keep people alive. Who gets imaging first. Who can wait. When you call surgery. When you don’t. How you keep the room from turning into a panic soup.”
Scylla smiled sleepily against her shoulder. “Panic soup feels very conference-ready.”
“I’ll workshop the phrase.”
“Please do.”
Raelle leaned forward a little, pointing at the screen. “So I thought maybe I open with a case. Not identifying details, obviously—but something ordinary. Like the pedestrian hit by a cab last month. Stable vitals at first glance, talking, complaining about his arm, everyone tempted to treat the obvious fracture, but the abdominal tenderness was subtle. And if you miss that because the room is noisy and the arm looks worse, you lose time. That’s the point, right? Urban trauma is noise. It’s too much information and not enough time, and the job is learning what matters before the body tells you by crashing.”
Scylla’s hand stilled in Raelle’s hair for just a moment.
There she was.
Not panicking. Not joking. Not trying to wriggle out of it.
There was the doctor Scylla knew. The one who saw through chaos with terrifying clarity. The one who could stand in a trauma bay and make the whole room breathe differently because she had already found the shape of the problem before anyone else had stopped reacting to the blood.
Raelle kept talking, unaware of the way Scylla was looking at her now.
“And then I thought I could move into team dynamics. Like, the myth is that one doctor saves the patient, but that’s not real. It’s never one person. It’s nurses and techs and residents and paramedics and radiology and surgery and everyone handing off information without dropping it. And when that works, it looks boring from the outside, but it’s not boring. It’s choreography. It’s trust. It’s knowing Marcie can read my face from across the room and already have the airway cart moving before I ask for it. It’s knowing Tally can keep a panicked family member calm while also somehow finding the missing lab result and stealing my fries.”
Scylla huffed a quiet laugh. “That part’s important.”
“It is important. The fries are part of the system.”
“Put that in the keynote.”
“I might.”
Scylla shifted closer, one leg folding beneath her on the couch, her head still resting on Raelle’s shoulder. The laptop glow reflected in her eyes as she scanned farther down the document. “Rae.”
“Hm?”
“You have five thousand words already.”
Raelle nodded, completely serious. “Yeah.”
Scylla waited.
Raelle glanced sideways at her. “And that’s just the opening section.”
Scylla lifted her head very slowly.
Raelle looked back at her with the cautious expression of someone who knew she had perhaps committed a small academic crime.
“Raelle.”
“What?”
“You haven’t accepted the invitation.”
“I know.”
“You have not written an acceptance email.”
“I know.”
“You have, however, written five thousand words of a speech you are still claiming not to be giving.”
Raelle opened her mouth, closed it, then pointed vaguely at the laptop. “I had thoughts.”
“I see that.”
“They were rumbling.”
“Clearly.”
“I couldn’t sleep with them rumbling.”
Scylla’s face softened despite herself. “Baby.”
Raelle immediately looked down at the keyboard like it might save her from tenderness. “It doesn’t mean I’m doing it.”
“Of course not.”
“I’m just getting the thoughts out.”
“Very neutral.”
“Exactly.”
“Deeply indifferent behaviour.”
Raelle narrowed her eyes. “Don’t use my own nonsense against me.”
Scylla smiled and leaned in, kissing her shoulder through the thin fabric of her T-shirt. “We’ll need to edit you down.”
Raelle looked offended. “Excuse me?”
“You have forty-five minutes, not a residency program.”
“That’s rude.”
“That’s accurate.” Scylla reached for the trackpad and scrolled carefully, eyes skimming the dense paragraphs. “This is good, though.”
Raelle went still.
Scylla noticed immediately, because Raelle always heard praise like it was coming through a faulty speaker: distorted, suspicious, possibly dangerous.
“It is,” Scylla said, firmer now. “It’s really good.”
Raelle swallowed, gaze fixed on the screen. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.” Scylla rested her chin lightly on Raelle’s shoulder again. “You’re already doing the thing.”
“What thing?”
“Talking about the work.”
Raelle looked at the laptop. Her shoulders were still tense, but less locked now. The room seemed to hold its breath around them.
Scylla pointed gently at the screen. “You need to pick the most important examples. Not all of them. The strongest ones—the ones that show the point you’re making instead of proving every single thing you know.”
“But I know a lot of things.”
“I know you do.”
“What if they think I don’t?”
Scylla turned her face toward Raelle’s neck, pressing a kiss there, soft and grounding. “They asked you, Rae.”
Raelle’s fingers flexed against the edge of the laptop.
Scylla let that settle for a second before continuing. “Start with one case. One clear example of why urban trauma is different. Then pull back into the system. The room, the team, the noise, the decisions. Then talk about what changes outcomes. Communication. Training. Trust. Knowing when to move fast and when to slow the room down.”
Raelle looked at her, a little stunned. “That’s… actually a really good structure.”
Scylla blinked at her. “I do listen when you ramble.”
“I don’t ramble.”
“You have five thousand words of a speech you haven’t agreed to give.”
“That is documentation.”
“That is a spiral with citations.”
Raelle let out a laugh, quiet enough not to disturb the sleeping city beyond the windows. It loosened something in her. Scylla felt it through the line of her body, the slight release in Raelle’s shoulders, the way she leaned back into the couch instead of hovering over the keyboard like she was trying to fight it.
The apartment was soft around them. Dark windows, scattered lamplight, the laptop between them, the clock ticking toward three in the morning. Toulouse sat in his pot near the window, noble and overwatered. Somewhere outside, a siren wailed faintly and then faded, folding itself into the night.
Raelle looked back at the screen. “I keep thinking about the pedestrian case.”
“Then start there.”
“And the subway platform fall.”
“Maybe save that for the section on environmental factors.”
Raelle’s eyes snapped to her. “That’s a section.”
“I assumed.”
“It is now.”
Scylla smiled, smug and sleepy. “Happy to help.”
Raelle typed environmental factors into the document.
Scylla watched her do it, then glanced at the word count again and made a small noise. “You’re going to have to cut at least half of this.”
Raelle recoiled. “Half?”
“At least.”
“That’s cruel.”
“That’s editing.”
“I hate editing.”
“I know. That’s why you’re going to make dramatic noises while I help you.”
Raelle’s mouth twitched. “You’re helping me?”
Scylla looked up at her. “Obviously.”
“I haven’t said yes.”
“Obviously.”
“You’re acting like I have.”
“I’m acting like you’re awake at 2:37 in the morning writing the opening of a keynote speech because your brain already said yes and forgot to tell your panic.”
Raelle stared at her. Then she looked back at the screen. Then, very quietly, she said, “That’s annoying.”
“What is?”
“When you’re right.”
Scylla tucked herself closer, slipping one arm around Raelle’s waist. “I know.”
Raelle stared at the document for another long moment. The cursor blinked at the end of the new heading, patient and relentless. “I don’t know if I can do it.”
Scylla did not answer right away. She knew better than to smother that kind of admission with immediate certainty. Instead, she ran her fingers through Raelle’s hair again, slow and steady, until Raelle’s breathing eased.
Then she said, “I know you can. But you don’t have to know it tonight.”
Raelle’s eyes closed briefly.
Scylla continued, voice still soft and sleep-rough. “Tonight, you just had thoughts. So write them. Tomorrow, we edit. After that, you call your mom. Then you decide.”
Raelle huffed. “You make it sound manageable.”
“It is manageable.”
“It’s a forty-five-minute keynote in front of hundreds of doctors.”
“It is a series of small tasks wearing a dramatic coat.”
Raelle looked at her, eyebrows lifting. “A dramatic coat?”
Scylla nodded solemnly. “With academic buttons.”
Raelle laughed again, more fully this time, and Scylla smiled against her shoulder, pleased and proud and so in love it made her chest ache.
After a moment, Raelle turned her head and kissed the top of Scylla’s hair. “You should go back to bed.”
“So should you.”
“I’m almost done.”
Scylla looked at the word count.
Raelle followed her gaze. “Okay, I am not almost done.”
“No.”
“But I could stop soon.”
“Define soon.”
“Before sunrise?”
“Raelle.”
“Before four?”
“Raelle.”
“Fine. Twenty minutes.”
Scylla considered that. “Ten.”
“Fifteen.”
“Twelve.”
“Fourteen.”
“Thirteen and I sit here.”
Raelle smiled softly. “Deal.”
Scylla settled more fully against her, eyes half-closed, head on Raelle’s shoulder again. “Read me the opening.”
Raelle went still. “What?”
“Read it to me.”
“It’s rough.”
“I know.”
“It’s not good yet.”
“Read it anyway.”
Raelle hesitated, then looked at the screen. Her face changed as she found the place to begin, nerves slipping behind focus. When she started speaking, her voice was quiet, roughened by the hour, but the words came steady.
“In emergency medicine, people often think the defining skill is speed. How quickly we move. How fast we call the next step. How soon we can get a body from the street to the scanner to the operating room. And speed matters. Of course it does. But in urban trauma care, speed without structure is just panic with better shoes.”
Scylla smiled, eyes closed now.
Raelle paused. “Too much?”
“No,” Scylla murmured. “That’s very you.”
“Is that bad?”
“That’s why it works.”
Raelle looked down at her, expression softening into something unbearably tender.
Then she kept reading. And Scylla stayed tucked against her, listening in the middle of the night while Raelle Collar, who had not accepted a keynote invitation and absolutely was not thinking about saying yes, wrote the beginning of the speech that was already starting to sound like hers.
Thirteen and a half minutes later, Raelle’s document had gained three new headings, one sentence Scylla had called “actually excellent,” and a note in brackets that read: ask Mom about pacing, do not let Tally know, possibly delete panic soup.
It had not, technically, gained an acceptance email.
Scylla considered that progress.
Raelle, however, was still staring at the screen with the bleary focus of a woman trying to wrestle the entire field of emergency medicine into one keynote and maybe one emotionally unstable Google Doc. Her fingers hovered over the keys, twitching faintly like she might dive back in if given even half a chance.
Scylla watched her for about eight seconds.Then she closed the laptop.
Raelle blinked. “Hey.”
“No.”
“I had one more thought.”
“You have had several thousand thoughts.”
“This one was small.”
“It was not.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I know your face.”
Raelle narrowed her eyes at her. “My face is being profiled.”
“Your face is extremely guilty.” Scylla slid the laptop onto the coffee table, well out of Raelle’s immediate reach, then shifted closer on the couch. “You said thirteen minutes.”
“I said twenty, actually.”
“And because I am deeply generous, I gave you thirteen and a half.”
Raelle glanced at the clock on the laptop before it went fully dark. “It was thirteen minutes and twenty-two seconds.”
Scylla stared at her.
Raelle’s mouth twitched. “What?”
“You are deranged.”
“You’re engaged to me.”
“Tragically, yes.”
Raelle’s smile softened at that, sleepy and crooked and still faintly wired around the edges. “You love it.”
“I love you,” Scylla corrected, leaning in to kiss the corner of her mouth. “The rest is paperwork.”
Raelle huffed a laugh against her lips, but the sound disappeared when Scylla kissed her. A soft press of warmth in the blue-lit dark, Scylla’s hand sliding along Raelle’s jaw, fingers threading into the messy hair at the back of her neck.
Raelle went still for half a heartbeat.
Then she melted.
It happened every time, and Scylla loved it every time. That little pause, that quiet surrender of attention, the way Raelle’s body remembered her before her mind could keep making lists. One second she was all keynote panic and urban trauma systems—and the next she was breathing Scylla in like the world had narrowed to the space between their mouths.
Scylla pulled back just enough to murmur, “Bed.”
Raelle’s eyes were still closed. “Mhm.”
“That was an instruction, not a concept.”
Raelle opened one eye. “You’re bossy at three in the morning.”
“You’re writing a keynote you haven’t accepted at three in the morning.”
“Fair.”
Scylla stood and held out both hands. Raelle looked at them for a moment, then at the laptop, then back at Scylla.
“No,” Scylla said immediately.
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You looked at the laptop.”
“I was saying goodbye.”
“You can see it in the morning.”
“What if it misses me?”
“Then it can develop healthier boundaries.”
Raelle laughed, quiet and helpless, and finally let Scylla pull her up from the couch. She swayed a little once she was standing, exhaustion catching up with her now that the immediate momentum had been interrupted. Scylla slid an arm around her waist, and Raelle tucked herself close without protest, forehead dropping briefly to Scylla’s shoulder.
“Your speech is good,” Scylla said softly.
Raelle made a small noise. “Don’t.”
“I’m serious.”
“I know. That’s why I said don’t.”
Scylla smiled into her hair and kissed her temple. “You’re going to be brilliant.”
“I am going to be asleep.”
“That too.”
Raelle lifted her head and gave her a look that was meant to be stern but was badly undermined by how soft her eyes had gone. “You’re very convincing.”
“I know.”
“Annoyingly convincing.”
“I also know that.”
They started toward the bedroom, but the walk became less of a walk and more of a slow, tangled drift. Raelle’s hand found the hem of Scylla’s sweatshirt, fingers curling there as if to anchor herself. Scylla’s palm settled low on Raelle’s back. They bumped gently into the hallway wall because neither of them was looking where they were going, which made Raelle laugh into Scylla’s neck, which made Scylla turn her head, which meant kissing her again became inevitable.
By the time they reached the bedroom door, they were both smiling against each other’s mouths.
Raelle fumbled for the doorframe and missed it entirely.
Scylla laughed under her breath. “Careful, Doctor Collar.”
“I am careful.”
“You nearly walked into a wall.”
“That wall moved.”
“It didn’t.”
“It had suspicious timing.”
Scylla caught the front of Raelle’s T-shirt and tugged her into the room. They stumbled over the threshold together, clumsy with sleep and warmth and that bright, stubborn electricity that had never really faded between them. Not after the first kiss. Not after moving in. Not after proposals in the snow. Not after a hundred mornings tangled in sheets and a hundred exhausted nights coming home smelling faintly of antiseptic and coffee.
Somehow, it was still there.
Always.
That little spark when Scylla’s fingers slipped under the edge of Raelle’s shirt. The way Raelle’s breath caught when Scylla backed her toward the bed. The quiet pull in Scylla’s chest when Raelle looked at her like this, half tired, half undone, entirely hers.
Raelle sat down on the edge of the mattress when her knees hit it, pulling Scylla with her by the hips. Scylla stood between her legs, hands coming up to frame Raelle’s face, thumbs brushing beneath tired blue eyes.
“You need sleep,” Scylla murmured.
Raelle tilted her head back, looking up at her. “I know.”
“You have a shift tomorrow.”
“I know.”
“You cannot survive on adrenaline, caffeine, and professional dread.”
“I’ve done pretty well so far.”
Scylla lowered her face closer, mouth hovering near Raelle’s. “Raelle.”
Raelle’s hands slid around the backs of Scylla’s thighs, gentle but unmistakably pleased with herself. “What?”
Scylla smiled, then kissed her.
Soft, at first. A slow thing. A kiss with no urgency except the kind that lived under their skin even when they were exhausted. Scylla stepped closer, and Raelle drew her in until Scylla’s knees met the mattress. They toppled sideways together in a mess of quiet laughter, Raelle landing on her back with Scylla half over her, one of Scylla’s hands braced beside her head.
The bedroom was dark, edged in silver from the city light beyond the curtains. The sheets were still twisted from where Scylla had woken alone. The duvet had been shoved toward the foot of the bed. Raelle’s pillow sat crooked, abandoned from her earlier escape. Everything was ordinary. Messy. Lived-in.
Scylla brushed a strand of hair back from Raelle’s forehead. “There you are.”
Raelle’s expression softened so deeply it made Scylla’s chest ache. “Was I gone?”
“A little.”
“Sorry.”
Scylla shook her head. “No. Not like that.” She leaned down and kissed her cheek, then the corner of her mouth. “You were just in your head.”
“Dangerous neighborhood.”
“Terrible parking.”
Raelle laughed, and Scylla kissed that too.
Scylla’s hand slid into Raelle’s hair again, fingers combing slowly through the strands, and Raelle’s arms came around her back, holding her close like she had no plans to let the night have either of them back just yet.
It was soft.
It was electric.
That was the ridiculous thing about them. No matter how settled they became, no matter how domestic, no matter how many nights they spent pressed together in this bed after shifts and takeout and arguments about plant care, there was always that current waiting beneath the tenderness. A live wire threaded through all the comfort. A spark in the familiar. The knowledge of each other didn't dull anything. It sharpened it.
Scylla knew the exact place beneath Raelle’s jaw that made her grip tighten.
Raelle knew the sound Scylla made when a kiss landed just right and turned unsteady.
They knew each other’s rhythms, their tells, the difference between tired and overwhelmed, between teasing and need, between panic and the kind of restlessness that only touch could quiet. They had learned each other carefully, joyfully, with all the patience they had once denied themselves.
Raelle rolled them gently until Scylla was on her back, the movement easy and familiar, her body settling over Scylla’s with a quiet sigh. “I was trying to be responsible,” she murmured, mouth brushing Scylla’s cheek.
Scylla’s hands slid beneath Raelle’s shirt, palms warm against her back. “At 2:37 in the morning?”
“Yes.”
“By writing five thousand words?”
“Responsibly.”
“About trauma systems?”
“Important trauma systems.”
Scylla smiled, breath catching a little when Raelle kissed down the side of her neck. “You’re a menace.”
Raelle lifted her head, eyes bright even in the dark. “You came and got me.”
“I did.”
“Dragged me away from my work.”
“Saved you from your work.”
“Closed my laptop.”
“Heroically.”
Raelle kissed her once, slow and sweet. “And now look where we are.”
Scylla’s fingers tightened against her back. “Bed. Where you belong.”
“With you.”
“Yes,” Scylla whispered, and the word landed between them with all the weight it always carried.
Raelle’s face changed in the dark, her teasing softening into something open and aching. She lowered herself carefully, forehead resting against Scylla’s, their noses brushing. “I love you.”
Scylla closed her eyes. “I love you too.”
Raelle’s mouth found hers again, and the kiss deepened slowly, warmth unfolding between them in a way that made the hour feel irrelevant. Sleep could wait a little longer. The keynote could wait. The email, the conference, the whole terrifying idea of standing in front of a room full of doctors could sit abandoned in the living room beside the laptop and Toulouse’s moisture meter.
Here, there was only Scylla beneath her, warm and real and smiling into her mouth.
Here, Raelle did not have to be brilliant. She did not have to be brave. She did not have to accept or decline anything.
She just had to be.
Scylla seemed to understand that, because she slowed everything down. Her hands moved over Raelle’s back with unhurried certainty, grounding instead of pulling, inviting instead of demanding. Raelle followed her easily, the frantic energy from earlier dissolving into something softer, something molten and quiet.
They kissed until Raelle’s breathing changed.
Until Scylla felt the last of the tension slip out of her shoulders.
Until Raelle’s hand, which had been tracing lazy circles along Scylla’s side, slowed.
Scylla smiled against her lips. “Sleepy?”
“No.”
“Liar.”
“Maybe.”
Scylla rolled them again, gentle this time, pulling the duvet over them with one hand while keeping Raelle tucked close with the other. Raelle went willingly, which told Scylla exactly how tired she was. She curled into Scylla’s side, face tucked against her neck, one arm thrown over Scylla’s waist like she was staking a claim.
Scylla pressed a kiss into her hair. “There we go.”
Raelle mumbled something unintelligible.
“What was that?”
“I said thirteen and a half minutes was fair.”
Scylla laughed softly, careful not to shake her too much. “You’re ridiculous.”
“I"m thriving.”
“Same thing, apparently.”
Raelle’s lips curved against her skin. “Worth being awake for.”
Scylla’s heart squeezed.
She tightened her arms around Raelle, holding her close in the dark, listening as her breathing slowly evened out. The laptop waited in the living room with its too-long speech and its unfinished thoughts. The invitation sat unanswered. April was still months away. The ER would be unbearable when it found out, and Tally would absolutely make a board, and Raelle would pretend to hate every second of being loved loudly by everyone around her.
But not tonight.
Tonight, the city hummed outside their window, Toulouse stood guard in his corner, and Raelle finally slept with her face tucked into Scylla’s neck, safe and warm and no longer alone with the thoughts that had woken her.
Scylla stayed awake a little longer, fingers moving slowly through Raelle’s hair.
Then she whispered into the dark, so softly Raelle would only hear it somewhere deep in sleep, “You’re going to be brilliant.”
Raelle made a tiny sound and tucked closer.
Scylla smiled.