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“Goddammit!”
Across their desk Erwin slams his fist into the wood.
“Fuck microsoft!” Erwin buries his head in arms. His hair is messy from dragging his fingers through it repeatedly.
“Care to explain?” Mike drawls.
Erwin sighs and sits up. Every part of him sags under the gravity he cannot defeat today, Levi wishes he can make it better. “Just lost all progress on my report that’s due today.”
The whole office winces. They’ve all been there.
“You don’t have to stay, you know? Go home.” Erwin looks up from his computer, his hair endearingly haywire.
Levi just hums and continues working on a few unimportant tasks. It’s eight o’clock and he’s waiting for Erwin to finish the work he lost. It’s not like he has anything else to do, it’s a Tuesday night for god's sake. The sky is dark and the floor-to-ceiling windows show the gleaming lights of the never sleeping city.
“It’s done.” Erwin finally says two hours later and collapses back into his chair, an arm draped over his eyes.
Levi stands up and claps him on the back. “Come on, let’s get a drink.” Erwin deserves a good break after hours of non-stop work.
“I shouldn’t.” Erwin hesitates, but Levi sees the decision already made in his eyes. “But let’s go.”
After closing up the office, they make their way to their usual club, falling into chairs with some shots. Probably not the best idea on a weekday.
Erwin thanks him and throws back a shot and exhales.
Levi studies the lines of fatigue on his friend's face. Even with the stress still left on his face, his skin glows golden under the lights of the bar. His eyelids flutter and Levi wants to kiss them. Erwin is sprawled across the long leather seat, his legs splayed invitingly. Levi fights the urge to get on his knees and help his friend feel good. God, would he tug on Levi’s hair urging Levi on?
Levi sculls two shots in a row in an attempt to distract himself. Lately, Levi has felt like a hormonal teenager every time he so much as glances at Erwin. It is ridiculous how his best friend is making him feel. Why is he so damn attracted to him? And now of all times at the busiest time of the year?
Despite the fact that they have to be back at the office in the morning, they both keep drinking. Maybe it’s because they’ve had a long day or maybe it's something else, but Levi can’t bring himself to care as his mind gets hazier and hazier.
A song Levi remembers from his childhood comes on. “Dance with me.” Levi says and stands. He doesn’t wait for Erwin’s answer before he moves into the sea of bodies. He lets his body relax and sways to the music. Warmth from the liquor spreads further inside of him in soft waves. Maybe this will distract him from his never-ending desire.
He watches Erwin follow him with a spark of recognition in his eyes. They shuffle drunkenly to the song, laughing. Everything about this just feels right.The crowd forces their bodies closer and Levi has to tilt his head to watch Erwin as he dances. His head is tipped back, showcasing his neck shining with sweat. Levi wants to drag his teeth along the skin.
The next song is slow and silky. Levi rolls his body to the rhythm, letting the music take control of him. Erwin follows, their eyes lock, ice into grey. Slowly, the distance between them becomes minuscule and Erwin tilts his head down, looking at Levi with hooded eyes. Levi itches to wrap his arms around the man and draw him even closer.
Levi turns around before he can delude himself into thinking Erwin wants him too.
They move together like that, still so close that Levi can feel the heat radiating from Erwin. The ceiling is a swirl of lights and colours.
Levi jumps when he feels large hands curl around his waist and hot breath against the back of his neck. Holy crap. The hands tighten, lips touch his skin and Levi nearly whimpers. Erwin kisses up his neck to below his ear. Teeth tug on Levi's earlobe. Levi's thoughts simply disappear and he can't help it, he pushes his ass back against Erwin and gasps as a hard length digs into his back.
"Levi–" Erwin rasps.
Erwin's hands dig into his hips, pull Levi further against him. He kisses and sucks on Levi's neck, every pore of him feels the brush of fabric, the moisture of Erwin’s mouth. He can’t remember how this started, everything is foggy and if his thoughts weren’t floating maybe he would be more cautious but Erwin’s touch is the only thing that registers.
Their bodies move to the base that shakes the whole room. Sweat trickles down Levi’s skin. Suddenly, Erwin yanks on his tie and the fabric cuts into Levi’s skin. Levi is pulled firm against Erwin as he crushes Levi’s lips with his own. A strong arm wraps completely around Levi’s waist, squeezing him closer.
“Levi.” Erwin whispers into Levi’s mouth. “Levi. Levi. Levi.”
Levi winds his hands into Erwin’s hair. He doesn’t care that they’re in the middle of a club, he doesn’t care. He just purely wants this so much.
All the times he longed for Erwin, for his body and much more than that. Every time he found small comfort in someone else when all he could think about was his best friend, cease to matter. A flower of hope he long thought dead hesitantly blooms inside him. Maybe Erwin really feels the same way he does. Maybe he dies a little every time Levi laughs. Does he wish to wake up next to him? Cook breakfast for him? Share the little moments that Levi wants desperately?
“My place?” It is only a short walk away and Levi needs Erwin inside him like he’s never needed anything before.
“Fuck yes.” Erwin growls, impossibly deepening the kiss.
Levi’s whole body burns. If he waits a minute longer he will actually start rutting against Erwin’s stupidly large thigh. They kiss a few more times and then Levi pulls away. Erwin tracks the movement of Levi’s tongue as he unconsciously licks his lips. Levi shudders and leads them out of the bar before he asks Erwin to fuck him in the middle of the club, audience be damned.
It’s awkward as they half walk, half stumble down the street. They’re close but not close enough to touch and Levi cannot help but sneak glances at Erwin. He swears Erwin does the same.
They both have wordlessly agreed that having sex in a dirty alleyway or bathroom is a line they won’t cross. They’ll leave that to the undergrads.
Tonight the sky is clear and looking past the lights Levi can see the faintest glimpses of stars. The cold air seeps into him, travelling through his veins, clearing his mind. This should be the point when he realises what a mistake he's about to make, but Levi only wants Erwin more as he sobers slightly.
The ten minute walk seems to distract Erwin. He becomes stiff and focuses only on what is in front of him. Is he having second thoughts or is he just still stressed?
Levi needn't have worried because they barely make it up to Levi's apartment before Erwin pounces on him once more. But as they kiss, Levi can still feel the tension in Erwin, he doesn’t touch Levi as feverishly, with as much conviction.
Levi pulls back. Erwin is tense and his eyes waver. "Erwin, d’you want this?"
"More than… more than you can imagine." Erwin’s voice is husky.
Heat throbs through Levi. "Then don't think. Just fuck me."
Something changes in Erwin’s eyes. He suddenly flips them around and presses Levi against the door. Levi gasps, Erwin’s body cages him in, blocking out his view of anything but the man that is touching him everywhere. Erwin kisses him again and again, this time without restraint. His lips are bruising and his hands are harsh on Levi’s hips.
Erwin slips his thigh between Levi's and Levi’s feet no longer reach the floor. The pressure is delicious. “Ah– bed.” Levi pants. He wraps his legs around Erwin and Erwin picks him up. He stumbles to the bedroom, his lips glued on Levi’s. He shoves the door open with his shoulder and promptly throws him on the bed. Air rushes out of Levi and then Erwin is upon him, fingers tugging at the buttons of Levi’s shirt.
“Off.” Erwin huffs, struggling. “Want this off.”
After failing the last few buttons with his shaky hands, Erwin rips his shirt, buttons popping off and Levi frees himself from the fabric. Cool air makes him shiver as he lies bare chested on soft sheets.
"God–" Erwin trails his fingers down Levi's chest.
His fingers brush over his nipples, drawing a gasp from Levi.
Erwin smirks. “So sensitive… Just like I imagined.”
His cock throbs painfully. Erwin has thought of him like this?. God, he is going to die.
Hands continue down him, pinching, squeezing, exploring. Levi bites down on his lip to keep from releasing anymore embarrassing sounds. Erwin runs a finger between his slacks and skin and it’s torture. He is so close to where Levi wants him, he can feel every atom where they are connected. “Erwin, please–”
Dark blue eyes laugh at him. “Please what, Levi?”
Levi can’t help it. He bucks his hips up, desperate for any friction. Erwin just looks at him.
The pillow is soft against Levi’s cheek as he turns his head to avoid looking at the man above him. “Please just touch me.”
Deft fingers creep along his belt and unbuckle it. Erwin pulls it out of the hoops and Levi gasps at the pressure that lifts his hips. His slacks are unbuttoned and Erwin grasps hold of his pants and underwear and yanks them off in one pull. Levi’s cock springs free, coming to rest red and dripping on his stomach.
Erwin cups his cock and stokes him. All the remaining blood rushes downwards at the feeling and the pressure in Levi’s gut increases. “Oh–”
The hands stills and Levi can’t stop himself from thrusting up into Erwin’s huge hand. Levi looks into Erwin’s eyes, begging him to continue. But Erwin just shakes his head. His eyes wander Levi’s body, tracing the ridges and curves of him. His tongue darts out as his eyes come to rest on Levi’s aching cock.
All of sudden, Levi is acutely aware of his nakedness and has the urge to cover himself. Here he is, lying bare as the day he was born while Erwin is just as fully clothed as normal. He reaches up to tug at Erwin’s shirt and Erwins gets the message, pulling off his clothes and throwing them off the bed.
“That better?”
Erwin’s cock is big enough to make Levi blush. It rests heavily and glistening against Erwins golden skin.
“Just come here.” Levi cups Erwin’s neck and pulls them together. Their lips crash together and Erwin falls between Levi’s legs. Everywhere they touch, skin to skin, is heaven. Levi wraps his legs around Erwins waist and their cocks rub together and they gasp into each other’s mouths. They kiss and kiss. Levi’s lips are already swollen and might be hurting a bit but all he can focus on is Erwin.
Levi runs his hands down Erwin’s back, feels every twitch of his dense muscles. Erwin kisses down his jaw, his neck, his collarbone, leaving a trail of marks and spit. Erwin tugs on Levi’s nipple with his teeth. “Ungh–” Levi gasps and twines his fingers into Erwin’s hair.
Erwin grins against Levi’s skin and continues down Levi’s stomach. He kisses along his hips coming closer and closer to Levi’s cock. His lips graze the skin there and he lifts his eyes to Levi’s. It is the prettiest sight Levi has even seen. Erwin, hair messed, lips glistening next to his cock.
“Where’s the lube?” Erwin’s voice is deep and husky.
Levi shudders. “Top draw.”
Erwin retrieves it and pours it on his fingers. Levi clenches in anticipation and spreads his legs wider. Erwin kneels between Levi’s legs and rubs a finger against Levi’s entrance.
“Ready?” Erwin hesitates.
“Just hurry up.” Levi shifts his hips in agitation, he needs Erwin’s fingers now.
Slowly, Erwin pushes one finger into Levi. He stills to give time for Levi to adjust and then slowly slides it further into him and then back out. After some searching, Erwin grazes his prostate. “Fuck.” Levi whines.
Eventually, Erwins adds another finger and then a third and Levi is squirming, trying to fuck himself on Erwin. “God– please, I need you inside me.”
“With pleasure.” Erwin draws his fingers out and Levi moans at the empty feeling left behind.
Impatiently, Levi watches Erwin roll a condom onto himself and spread lube on his cock, giving it a few jerks before moving between Levi’s legs and lining himself up with Levi. The head of his cock teases Levi’s hole and Levi pulls Erwin towards him, pushing his ass into Erwin.
Erwin finally pushes himself into Levi until their hips touch. “God– Levi–”
Levi cannot even think. Erwin fills him up completely and there is slight pain but it is drowned out by the feeling of Erwin, Erwin, Erwin. “Move.”
In response, Erwin pulls all the way out and pushes back in hard. Levi digs his nails into Erwin’s back, squeezing his legs around Erwin, drawing him closer.
“You’re so goddamn tight.” Erwin breathes and pulls out again.
The sound of skin hitting skin fills the air as Erwin fucks in and out him. Every slam of Erwin’s cock against Levi’s prostate winds the coil of heat inside Levi tighter. Sweat slides down him, dampening the sheets and Levi loses himself to the pleasure.
Levi is by no means a stranger to sex, but god, this feels like he’s a fucking virgin again, every feeling amplified and new. The way Erwin moves, touches him, kisses him, Levi’s never felt anything better.
Never has he thought that Erwin would ever fuck him. He hasn’t let himself really hope before. But god, Erwin isn’t just fucking him. He’s nearly making love to him, with his gentle preparation and kisses, the way he keeps searching for signs of discomfort in Levi.
They bring their lips together, kissing and then just panting into each other’s mouths as Erwin moves in and out of Levi.
Slowly, Levi comes undone. He is so close and all he can feel is heat in his gut, the shape of Erwin’s cock. “Faster.” He begs into Erwin’s mouth.
Erwin hips snap faster and further into Levi. “So good for me, Levi.”
All it takes is a few more thrusts and Levi is coming. He is soaring in the clouds, flying in bliss, his vision white. Cum cools across his stomach and Levi slowly comes back to reality. Erwin watches him with half-lidded eyes and thrusts one last time into him before he too, comes groaning. Levi watches him in awe, his face so vulnerable and filled with pleasure. Erwin sighs and collapses into Levi.
Their breaths mix together and slowly steadying. Before he can think about what he’s doing, Levi curls into Erwin. It just feels right, here with Erwin, Levi feels safe and light. Also sleepy.
Erwin chuckles, gently extracting himself from Levi’s embrace. “Just let me get a cloth.”
He pads over the bathroom, disposes of the condom and returns with a towel. He gently wipes down Levi, laughing softly at Levi’s sluggish limbs. After cleaning himself, throwing the towel away and flicking off the light, he curls up behind Levi. He buries his head in Levi’s neck.
The sound of Erwin’s breaths is calming and Levi can’t keep his eyes open any longer. Warmth from Erwin seeps into him and in this moment everything feels magical. Erwin is here in his bed, hugging him, falling asleep next to him. Levi sighs in content and lets himself drift off to sleep.
Levi wakes to an alarm blaring.
He jolts and sits up rubbing his eyes. He then sees a lump moving beside him, he looks back and sees Erwin looking like a deer caught in headlights, his eyes wide open in fear. Erwin looks away and stumbles out of the bed, frantically searching for his clothes and picking them up.
“Fuck.” Erwin mutters as he struggles to dress.
A slightly painful feeling in his gut distracts Levi and all the memories from the night before come crashing back. Staying late with Erwin, drinking with him, taking him home.
Fuck, indeed.
The alarm clock tells him it’s eight o’clock. Great, they have slept through his first two alarms. His head pounds as he goes to the bathroom. Whose idea was it to drink on a week night again?
When he comes out, Erwin is no longer in his bedroom. Levi goes into the kitchen but he’s not there either. He must have left. Left without a word. Realistically, Levi knows he is probably rushing back to his apartment but surely he could have said at least something?.
Or does he regret last night? Is that why he rushed out? Levi feels sick. Last night it felt so perfect, did he read everything wrong?
Levi sighs and goes to get ready. How can he even face Erwin now?