Hyde spent the next few days at home, working on lyrics for his next album and spending time with his son, who continued to play with the toys given to him on their last visit to Gackt’s. Looking down to his son who sat on the floor, he watched Tohru for a good few minutes, smiling softly at the boy’s obvious amusement while he played. Letting his eyes go from his son to the toys, he was brought back to that night, the feeling of Gackt’s hands against his shoulders, the softness of those velvety lips as the pressed to his neck.
But most of all, he remembered the love that was laced into everyone of the man’s words to him, the same love he had not felt with anyone else; not even Megumi or Sakura. Wrapping his legs underneath himself, he went back to watching his son again, who’s eyes were now on him.
“Yes Tohru?” Hyde smiled softly to the boy, although the emotion of happiness he wanted to portray did not reach his eyes.
“Daddy…why are you sad?” Tohru asked him after a moment, crawling over to his father and climbing onto his father’s lap ungracefully, but getting there none the less. Hyde held his son close, chuckling a little when he saw the boy had almost taken two of his toys, handing one to his father. He looked it over before his thoughts went back to Gackt again, looking back to Tohru as he pulled him closer.
“Tohru…what do you think of Gakun?” He held the toy his son gave to him at his side while he held Tohru with his other arm.
“I like Gakun.” Tohru looked up to his father, bouncing the toy gently in his small hands, “Why, daddy?”
Hyde chuckled at the boy’s question and took the toy away for a moment, turning his son around to look down at him. Tohru looked back up to his father as he was turned, his large eyes holding a soft curiosity.
“Tohru…your mother…she’s not coming back…” Hyde spoke quietly, trying not to upset the young boy, but knowing it’s better for him to hear it now; even if it was painful.
“I know daddy…” Tohru blinked up at him, “are we going to get a new mommy, daddy?” Hyde laughed softly at the boy’s innocence and shook his head, holding him closer.
“Tohru…its hard to explain, but…Gakun wants to-”
“Be my new mommy?” Tohru finished before his father, jumping in the man’s lap excitedly before confusion came over the boys face and he stopped, “wait…Gakun is a boy like you, daddy. He can’t be a mommy!”
“No, Tohru…” Hyde chuckled at the boy, pulling him back to look at his face with a smile, “No, Gakun can’t be a mommy…but he wants to be a daddy; like me. Do you understand?”
“Gakun is going to take care of us, daddy?” Tohru looked up at his father hopefully, breaking out in a smile when Hyde nodded his head, shoving his face into his chest, nuzzling, “I’m glad…I like Gakun a lot, daddy…” Tohru spoke before yawning, nuzzling closer to his father. Hyde watched his son fall into a peaceful sleep before sighing, hugging his son even closer to him.
“I do too, Tohru…and I hope he’ll take care of both of us…” He gave his son one last loving look before picking him up gently, going to put the boy in bed for the night before going to his own room, hoping sleep would give him a rest from all the thoughts going around his head.
“DIOHA-CHAN!!” Hyde felt his body twitch at the loud shout of his bassist from L’arc en ciel, giving the techie he was speaking to an apologetic smile before turning around, enveloped into a hug. “Dioha-chan! How are you?” Tetsu grinned big, being followed up by the other members of L’arc, Sakura included.
“Fine, Tetsu, now that you have shouted into my ear.” Hyde spoke seriously before smiling to him, turning to the other’s, “Thanks for coming guys…although you didn’t really need to.”
“Are you kidding? Our little Haido performing his solo stuff? We had to come and watch.” Ken smiled to him, reaching over to ruffle the other’s hair, much to Hyde’s annoyance.
“And besides, if you screw up, we can just make fun of you later.” Yukihiro joked, letting out a mocked gasp as Hyde reached out and hit his arm, faking great pain as he held his arm.
“Hello, Haido-chan.” Sakura smiled and went to hug the other, feeling the other stiffly return said hug, but choosing to ignore it, blaming it on nervousness, “You’ve certainly come a long way haven’t you, Haido-chan?”
“I suppose. Thank you, Sakura.” He spoke dryly, the last person he wanted to see being the man right in front of him. His body stiffened ,however, when Sakura brought him into a hug, feeling the other’s hot breath on his ear, making his body shiver.
“Now that she’s out of your life…why don’t we get back together, Hideto?” Sakura changed to the vocalists real name, petting one of Hyde’s sides, despite the looks of disgust and confusion he received from the L’arc en ciel members. Hyde pushed back against the other, feeling extremely uncomfortable wrapped in the man’s arms, his nervousness around the man showing plainly as he spoke next.
“P-please Sakura, stop being foolish.” He tried to push away again, but felt the man unwilling to let him go.
“What…you don’t have anyone new, do you?” Sakura spoke, his tone getting slightly demanding, Ken beginning to take a step forward to break them up, worry obvious in his demeanor.
“Sakura, that’s enough-”
“Hideto!” All of the men’s heads turn to look towards the direction of the voice, an elegantly dressed Gackt following it. His legs were covered in his usual charcoal black leather pants, while his chest was covered in a silky red shirt, matching half of the roses that the man carried, while the other half were a dark blue. Hyde pulled away from Sakura while the man was distracted, walking over to Gackt with a nervous smile.
“Hideto, is everything alright?” Gackt seemed to recognize the emotion behind his smile and held the roses away, brushing a hand on the other’s cheek gently.
“Y-yes, I’m fine, Gacchan…just a little nervous about the performance, ne?” Hyde smiled up at him before looking towards the roses, blushing softly, “are those…?”
“Oh, yes.” Gackt chuckled before handing them to the other man, smiling in full force, “roses…suit you nicely. Beautiful and romantic, but also deadly,” he plucked one of the roses out of the bunch, pressing it to Hyde’s lips, smiling, “ne, Hideto?”
“G-Gacchan.” Hyde blushed brightly before chuckling, taking that rose and giving it to gackt, taking the others, “keep that one…so we match…that is, if you’re staying?”
“And miss your beautiful voice singing, you’re mad, Hideto.” Gackt chuckled and pocketed the rose gently, petting his cheek again, “I know you said to wait…but may I see you after the performance? It wont be for very long, if it bothers you.”
“No! No….that would be nice.” Hyde smiled gently to him, unconsciously leaning into that touch, “So…I’ll see you after the performance then…”
“Good luck, Hideto.” Gackt leaned forward to kiss the cheek he had been petting before walking away, leaving the blushing Hyde behind, cradling the roses close to his chest and even closer to his heart.
“Huh, Haido?” Ken came up behind him, his eyes roaming the large group of flowers while Hyde watched Gackt walk away. He eyed his friend before chuckled, pinching Hyde’s cheek to bring him back to the world, “Gakuto-san’s really falling for you, isn’t he?”
Hyde blinked to his friend before blushing, looking down at the roses. “Yeah…”
“He’s good for you.” Ken whispered into his ear, taking one of the blue roses out of the bunch, smiling, “So don’t let this one get away, right?” Ken walked away before Hyde could response, handing the rose to Yukihiro with a joking suggestive grin, making Tetsu shout loudly.
Hyde held the roses closer, a tiny smile playing on his lips, completely missing the look of utter hate and loathing Sakura gave his roses, the other man wanted nothing more than the smash them to pieces and claim Hyde as his own. He began to smile wickedly as Hyde was called back onto the stage, watching the man flush in apology and race off.
He would make Hyde his, whether the man wanted it or not.
Hyde found himself backstage, relaxing after the short, however difficult performance. Sighing, he leaned against one of the walls in the hallway, trying to get a breather before he went out, already expecting to be drawn into a tight hug by Tetsu. Closing his eyes for the briefest moment, he heard his name being called by the one man who made his heart race and upon opening his eyes, was greeted by the site of Gackt, still pocketing the rose from earlier.
“Your show was fantastic, Hideto.” Gackt smiled to the other, walking up to give him a gentle hug, “And your vocals during ‘Jesus Christ’….they were heart wrenching. But in a good way, of course.” The other clarified, chuckling softly, “However, I think I enjoyed… ‘Season’s Call’ the most…it’s a very lovely song and-”
“It’s about you.” Hyde spoke before he could stop himself, blushing as Gackt stopped speaking the look the other over, “the whole song…it’s about you.”
“Gackt, I think…I really love you. I really, really love you.” He blurted out, face red and hands shaking, unable to stop himself, “I-I think I’m ready for you, Gackt, but I’m not sure if right now is-” Hyde was stopped, however, when Gackt pressed a finger to his lips, moving his own body in to press against Hyde’s, pushing the other against the wall. “G-Gackt…”
“Camui, Hideto…Camui.” He corrected the other, leaning down to kiss his neck gently, working a thigh in between the other’s legs, “when we’re like this…” he didn’t continue, however, for his lips were working the other’s neck, kissing and biting, varying between gentle and passionate.
Hyde let out a loud gasp, feeling himself harder against Gackt’s thigh as he arched his neck onto the wall he was pressed to, mewling as the kisses started running over his throat. “C-Camui…I-”
“Please don’t talk, Hideto.” Gackt paused for a moment, taking the other man’s face in his hands and kissing his forehead, moving his lips down to ghost against Hyde’s, “just feel…” He pressed his lips against Hyde’s for the first time, his lips working against the other’s until that mouth opened, letting his tongue slide inside, let himself memorize all of Hyde’s mouth.
“C-Camui!” Hyde whimpered in the kiss, drawing away for a short breath before kissing the man just as passionately as Gackt was to him, arms working themselves onto his chest, feeling the rose in Gackt’s shirt pocket, but ignoring it, his hands crushing it underneath the hold he had on the other. It didn’t seem to bother the other for a second, but stirred him on, pressing Hyde more forcefully against the wall and devouring his mouth, hands working his hips for a moment before reaching around to grab his backside in a death grip, grinding Hyde’s hips into his own. Hyde whimpered when their kiss and drew back again, gasping in a breath as he felt the other ground his thigh against his erection, his own rubbing though his jeans against Gackt’s belly. Letting his head be guided back and to the side, his offered his neck to the other, Gackt’s lips instantly latching on and sucking; intent on leaving large bruises of ownership on the other’s skin.
Hyde felt himself starting to lose his senses and try to push the other off him before things got too out of hand; knowing anyone, including the press could walk in this hall and see them. “Camui, please, we need to stop…”
Gackt gave his neck a soft suck before he let go, gasping from the electric energy around them, drawing his head back before looking down at the other, loving the flush that went over Hyde’s body; loving more so, it was him that caused it and no one else.
“Forgive me…I got out of hand.” He chuckled softly, brushing a hand over the other’s cheek before kissing it, “I’m sorry if I rushed you…”
“No, if felt amazing, Camui…” Hyde smiled gently, opening his eyes softly to look up at him with a smile, blushing as he pressed his hand to the bruise slowly developing on his neck, chuckling, “I better hide that from the guys…they’ll tease me for weeks…”
Gackt chuckled and nodded, drawing away from the other to give him more breathing room, taking in the other’s aroused state with longing. “I love you, Hideto…and I want to do whatever I can for you…”
Hyde looked back up to the other once he took a breath and smiled softly, trying to act as calm as he could although his body still hummed for contact with the other. “Just…maybe later tonight, Camui? I need to go pick up Tohru from Megumi‘s…and ask Tetsu and Yukkie to watch him for me.” He looked up at the other hopefully, his hands twining together.
“Of course, Hideto.” Gackt smiled gently before giving him a soft kiss on the lips goodbye, “besides…if I took you home now, you wouldn’t make it over to the babysitter til morning.” He gave the other a grin before getting swatting away playfully.
“Get out of here, Camui, before the press see us like this…” He smiled to the other, waving goodbye before he took a moment to try and regain his composure; achieving it only when the other was clearly out of site, “that man…” He smiled gently, his arms drawing around himself as he gave a breathy side, the smile growing wider.
That was, until, another voice called out.
“Hello, Hideto.” Sakura appeared from around the opposite corner Gackt had left, nearly scaring the man out of his skin.
“Sakura! What are you doing back here?” Hyde pushed himself away from the wall, walking as nonchalantly as he could with an erection, “weren’t you waiting with the guys?” He began to walk past the other man, but was stopped, pushed violently back a few feet. “Sakura, what the hell?!”
“You’re going to fuck him, aren’t you?” Sakura asked angrily, pushing the man again, “or are you going to ask him to fuck you? Beg him until you feel his hot dick inside you…?”
“Sakura, what are you-” But he was cut off by a violent smack hitting him across the face, sending him reeling to the floor. He sat up to regain his balance, but was pushed back up and towards the exit, Sakura forcing it the whole time. “Sakura, what are you doing?!”
“What does it look like, honey?” Sakura pushed him outside, avoiding people as well as the Ken and the other’s, towards Hyde’s car that was parked, “I’m going to take you home and do what Gackt intends on doing before him.”