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They hadn’t forgotten about her.  They had tried—tried to completely cut ties, tried to forget they had a daughter, tried to pretend there’d never been a Chandler named Trisana.  And at first, after she’d been given away to the Temples, it had been easy.  Out of sight, out of mindmost of the townsfolk forgot Darra and Valden’d ever had a child

They tried so hard that nobody gave House Chandler any thought when those blasted rumors about a prodigious child-mage began circulating.  A child-mage for whom lightning came to heel, who summoned rain with a thought, who killed without batting an eyelash.  The first of the rumors came coupled with news of Aymery’s death, quite the blow to House Chandler. 

Promising Aymery of the bright eyes and easy smile, with his expensive Lightsbridge credentials and charming parlor tricksit was almost unbelievable that so bright a life could be snuffed so easily.  Of course, rumor had it that he had betrayed Emelan to pirates, but surely one of House Chandler would never stoop that low.  (And get caught.)

Those rumors were as absurd as the idea that the girl they had abandoned as useless was some sort of prodigy mage.

In any case, Emelan was far enough from Capchen that Darra and Valden could ignore the rumors. If you ignore something long enough, you'll come as close to forgetting it as possible.

So when Darra and Valden found it necessary to visit Emelan on business, they didnt’t even think to connect Emelan with the girl they'd left behind once upon a time.  At least, not until they arrived, supervising the dock workers carrying their wares off the ship, and Darra heard a strand of gossip behind her.

“-called Trisana. I was there when she called those storms down on the pirates, it was a sight to behold, I almost-”

Just becuase you ignore something, just because you almost forget something, doesn't it mean it goes away.

Darra was consumed with fright from that moment onwards, terrified she would bump into the not-her-daughter around the corner, or that Trisana would hunt them down for abandoning her, torn between wracked with guilt and frozen by fear.  Valden had no patience for her hysterics and told her there as such,  said there was no dealing with her when she was like this, gave her 'til morning to get her nerves under control or he’d do business without her.  This spineless weakling was not the steely-eyed woman he'd wed twenty years ago.  And with those words, he'd retired to his room.

Next morning, Darra emerged from her rooms with dry red eyes and pursed lips.  A Chandler never shows weakness to the outside world. 

Business took five days to resolve, concluding a day earlier than originally foreseen, leaving Valden and Darra both drained and triumphant.  They decided to spend their last day in Emelan wandering the markets together, taking note of which prospects seemed most viable, gauging competitor's prices, keeping an eye out for new business opportunities.

They had almost forgotten the not-their-daughter, as they examined silk from Yanjing, and then copper from Namorn.  It was on their way to observe some of the finer shakkans of the region, though, when some Trader collided with them.

“Watch where you’re going!” Valden snapped, then sniffed.  “I didn’t know they let trash in here.”

The Trader’s eyes flashed, but a different voice cut in.  “Well, if they let you in, anyone must be allowed,” a baritone drawled.

Valden turned to what must be the Trader’s friendstwo well-dressed girls and an insolent boy.  “Look here, now,” Valden began, “I’ll not be insulted-”

“Then you shouldn’t be insulting others,” the better-dressed girl said quite firmly.

“It’s alright, Sandrythese kaqs really just don’t know any better,” the Trader said coolly.

The other girl, though, was growing more and more horrifieda look that mirrored Darra’s, Valden noticed.

“Valden,” Darra hissed, “she’s got Uraelle’s eyes!”

“Mother?  Father?” the girl said, quite viscerally shocked.

Darra shrunk away.  “You must be mistaken,” she said, her voice quavering.  “I have no daughter.”

The girl didn’t even flinch.

“Is this …?” the girl next to her asked.

“These are my par- the people who threw me out,” she answered unwaveringly.  “Darra and Valden Chandler.”

Three sets of eyes swung back to look at them.  Darra flinched.

“I see House Chandler has done well for itself,” the gir- Trisana continued, eyeing their clothing.  “Probably in Emelan on business.”

“And I see you’ve been exorcised or something by the Temples,” Valden observed, not giving an inch.  “I hope you don’t think House Chandler will take you back, for any reason.”

“Excuse me,” the well-dressed noble (she must be a noble, with that attitude) interrupted.  “But Tris is doing quite well for herselfno thanks to you.  She’s an accomplished mage accredited by both Winding Circle and Lightsbridge.  She-”

“Don’t bother nattering at these bleaters,” the boy advised.  “If they passed up on a good thing once, they’ll do so again.”

Darra, during this exchange, was staring in horror at the lightning sparking at the tips of the not-her-daughter’s braids.  “Valden,” she said, her voice rising in panic, “she’s not cured!  Look- look- look at that …”

“I don’t need to be cured,” the not-their-daughter said coolly, “I’m a mage.  You only need to be worried when I lose my temper.”  That last almost-threat was delivered with narrowed eyes.

“Whatever you are, be sure to stay far away from Capchen,” Valden threatened tremulously.  “I don’t care whether you’re a mage or a ghost or a- a- a- just stay away from us!”

“Don’t worry, I wouldn’t go near Capchen if my life depended on it,” Trisana said coldly.

Valden didn't even wait for her to finish before jerking Darra's arm and walking away as quickly as he could without looking like he was running.  Valden and Darra were so anxious to leave behind this piece of their sordid history, they never saw the signsher heartbreak hidden by a proud expression so much like her father's, her unease disguised by stiff posture so much like her mother's.

They didn’t see their daughter, only their fear.



He seemed like such a charming boy when he helped with her bags at the market.  He’d carried them for her all the way to the stall, and had not flinched when her aunt and uncle had scolded her for letting him take them, lest he be a thief.  Instead, he had turned up at the end of the day when she was just about done, and offered to buy her a drink.  Her cousins had all giggled over his good looks and ravishing eyes, but she had been the one he asked.

He had been ever so nice at the tavern, too, helping her over puddles and paying for her food and not pushing things on her, and responding just the right way to her flirtations.  (It could be so hard to find the right kind of flirt, who knew how far to go and no further.)  So when he mentioned that it was getting late and he lived nearby, and he’d be more than happy to invite her to stay the night, both he and she had known what he really meant.

They started kissing on the way back, and almost couldn’t wait for the house.  He had mentioned that he lived with two foster-sisters and a few servants who would be asleep, so they tried to be quiet as they snuck into the house and to his room.  After they got to his room, well, being quiet was the last thing on their minds.

Before she knew it, it was the morning after, and she stretched, lazy and catlike, as she watched him sleep.  Their dalliance had been fun, but she needed to get back to the stall before her shift started, so she quietly dressed.

She woke him in her quest to find her slip, of course, and he watched her.  “Do you have to go so soon?” he asked.

“I have to be back at the stall,” she said, “but my shift ends at the same time tonight.  I had fun last night and would be more than willing to repeat the experience – you know where to find me.”  She shot him a flirtatious look, which he returned.

“I’ll help you-”

“No, it’s not problem, really.”  She smiled.  “Get your rest, as you sure didn’t get any last night.”

Briar (that was his name – what an odd name for a boy) laughed.  “Okay, but feel free to swing by the kitchen and grab something to eat on your way out.  My foster-sibs won’t mind; they’re used to my habits.”

Annice laughed – not all flings were this easy – and headed out.

That’s when things went wrong. 

Annice had thought nobody would be up this early, and she would be able to drop by the kitchen without any awkward meetings.  Imagine her surprise when she saw a Trader girl in the kitchen, a cup of tea in her hands.

The girl didn’t even seem fazed – “There’s fruit on the table, oatmeal in the pot.”

You’re Briar’s foster-sister?” Annice could barely hide her astonishment.  A Trader?

The girl’s eyes flickered.  “Daja Kisubo.”

“Oh,” Annice said, not sure what to say.  Why was that name familiar?  “Um, I’m Annice.  Annice Chandler.”

“Daja, have you seen the- oh.”

Annice turned around to see yet another girl, short, plump with familiar eyes.  Gray eyes she could have sworn she remembered from her nightmares when she was-

Tris?” she said incredulously, barely concealing her flinch.

The other girl seemed confused at first, then- “Cousin Annice?” she guessed.  “What are you doing here?” she asked, obviously disoriented.  Her eyes flicked up.  “You’re Briar’s latest fling?”

“What are you doing here?” Annice asked, confused.  “Last I heard, you were being Dedicated to the Living Circle.  I mean, I’d assumed they’d just sent you there to wash their hands of you.”

“I was at the Stone Circle Temple for a while, yes, then the Broken Circle Temple,” Tris said, “then I ended up at Winding Circle, where I was trained.  I’m not a Dedicate, though.  And I live here.”

“Do you … Have you heard from Aunt Darra and Uncle Valden at all?” Annice ventured.

“Last time I met any of House Chandler, it was Aymery,” Tris said harshly.  “I don’t know if you know how that turned out.”

“I’m here with Aunt Darra and Uncle Valden,” Annice said tentatively.  “We’ll be in town for two more days.  Your foster-brother Briar will know where to find us if you want to … drop by.”

Tris smiled wryly.  “Somehow I don’t see that happening.  Your first reaction when you saw me – it was fear, wasn’t it?”

Annice didn’t deny it.  Tris in her memory would always be a short, fat cousin with angry gray eyes standing out in the rain during a heavy hailstorm.  The hailstones had been the size of her fist (though granted, her fist had been smaller then), and she had been terrified the roof would break underneath their pounding.  Her parents had sent Tris away the next day.

“You know my parents,” Tris said dryly.  “They would just as well I were dead.”

Considering the family referred to her as if she were dead, and had set aside an unmarked tombstone for her in the family plot, Annice couldn’t really argue.  “Well … you know the way they are,” Annice hedged unconvincingly.  She glanced at the clock, and sighed.  “I have to go, or Aunt Darra will box me for certain.  I can’t tell you they will welcome you back with open arms, but you can always try.  We leave tomorrow.  Think about it.”

And then she left.

Aunt Darra did box her, and send her scurrying to her place, but she was too distracted by the thought of the strange and frightful Cousin Tris to whine about it as much as she usually did.  She worked until nightfall, and then hesitated as she was closing up the stall to see if someone, anyone came.  She ignored the other girls’ titters when nobody did.

She wasn’t surprised that Cousin Tris hadn’t come – she did know Uncle Valden and Aunt Darra well.  They wouldn’t have taken it kindly.  She also wasn’t surprised that Briar hadn’t shown up.  Even if Briar was a two-night-stand kind of man, he certainly wouldn’t think it appropriate to invite her over to his place again, given the history there.

She did wonder though, the next day, as her ship was leaving harbor and she had a moment of peace amidst the chaos of the Chandler family, what Cousin Tris had done.

Had she cried?  Had she considered coming at all?  Had she ever started out on the way to the market before turning back? Had she possibly watched from a distance?  Or maybe she had put it out of her mind and forgotten it completely.  Maybe Cousin Tris didn’t even feel a twinge anymore when she thought of House Chandler.  Maybe she had laughed about it with her foster-siblings, afterwards.  Maybe...

Annice supposed she would never know now.



Trista Moss was happy.  Well, maybe not happy.  But content.  She was at Lightsbridge, and had access to Lightsbridge’s library, which was huge-

Figures that’s what would please Coppercurls the most.

-and even if certain foster brothers and sisters would not shut up when she was trying to pay attention to the professor-

“What do you think, Miss Moss?”

“I think that the idea has some merit, but would be impossible in practice.”  Luckily, she could multitask.  While she elaborated on her answer, she mentally scolded Briar.

“And what are you reactions to Miss Moss’s hypothesis, Mr. … Chandler?”

Tris flinched.  She’d thus far managed to avoid Lannard Chandler of House Chandler even though they were in the same class, but this was apparently about to change.

“As lovely as Miss Moss may be on the outside,” Lannard said smoothly, “within, she appears to be dull as copper from Chammur.  The challenges she postulates are so hypothetical to the point of being absurd, and hardly disqualify the idea from judicious application.”

“The scenarios I postulate are improbable but are nonetheless possible,” Tris said sharply, forgetting herself.  She ignored Briar’s snickering, And who is this upstart who dares contradict Her Majesty Trisana at the back of her head, nor Daja’s and Sandry’s admonishments, before she was off.  “As a matter of fact, considering just such possibilities is vital to arriving at thorough evaluation.”

She and Lannard might have continued arguing for the remainder of class if the professor hadn’t cut them off to move on to his next question.

At the end of class, as she was about to head off for lunch with a few of her recent acquaintances (a lunch invitation Sandry had begged and pleaded with her to accept before she agreed), Lannard approached.

“I find your viewpoint on the Fortean Ethical Theory critique fascinating,” he confessed, “even though you’re overlooking the value of Dester’s Model.  I was hoping I could continue discussing it with you over lunch?"

“I have plans,” Tris said shortly. 

(Tris!  Don’t be rude.  That’d be Sandry.)

“Dinner, then?” Lannard suggested.

“Still busy.”

“Lunch tomorrow?” Lannard soldiered on.

“I don’t much like to talk about class outside of class,” Tris lied.  “Why don’t you ask me again later?”  She tried to make her tone as discouraging as possible.

He’s family, Sandry said quietly.  Even if he doesn’t know it.  Aren’t you at all curious about what’s going on back in Ninver?  In Capchen?

No, Tris snarled.

I’m with Coppercurls on this, Briar said cheerfully.  If they didn’t want her, why should she want them?

Daja?  What’s your take on this? Sandry asked.

It is true that you have no reason to forgive your family, Daja observed after a moment of silence.  But you said you created Trista Moss so you could temporarily leave behind the name, the fame, the loves and the grudges, the history of Trisana Chandler.  So you could try at being someone with fewer worries, if only for a while.

Tris had to admit that she had very insistently argued this when convincing Niko her plan wasn’t silly.

He is making an effort.  And you are Trista Moss right now.  Trista Moss has no grudge against House Chandler.  Might as well see how it goes.

That was also true, Tris acknowledged.

Who knows, there might even be reconciliation in your future, Tris! Sandry said cheerfully.

Tris rather doubted it. Even if Lannard were, for whatever reason, to find out her true identity and, for whatever reason, didn’t react badly, that didn’t mean her parents would grow new personalities.

“Next week, before class then?” Lannard made one last attempt.

He probably thinks he’s asking me out on a date, Tris scowled mentally.

That book-obsessed guy? Briar asked disbelievingly.  He’s probably one of the only people I wouldn’t think had un-academic intentions.  He more likely just wants to win the argument with you.

Well, he’s not going to, Tris thought firmly.  “Dester’s Model is not the standard we should be using to measure value in contemporary society,” she said rather tartly.  “Alright.  Next week before class.”

So maybe she hadn’t left House Chandler as far behind as she had thought.



When Trisana Chandler opens the door, she’s not sure what she expects to see.  A peddler, maybe, or Sandry dropping by for an unannounced visit, or Daja back early from the forge.

She doesn’t recognize the woman at first, with her windblown hair and red, puffy eyes.  “Can I help you, Miss …?” she asked coolly.

“Hello, Trisana.”

Tris moves to shut the door, but the woman – her mother, Tris reminds herself – stops her.

“I know you don’t – can’t – understand why I might have made certain choices in my life, and I know you probably have not forgiven me, but this is important.”

“What do you want?”

“Can I come in, at least?”

“I try only to invite welcome guests inside,” Tris says coldly.  “State your business.”

“Your brother – do you remember him?”

Tris does, only vaguely.  A young baby who was born without his older sister’s flaws – the new perfect son and heir needed for a perfect family.  Probably the catalyst for her parents’ decision – wouldn’t want Tris’s powers harming the new baby.

“His name is Athes, right?”

“Yes.  Well, he made some bad decisions so House Chandler disowned him.  Now he is sick.  The healers are asking for an exorbitant amount, but House Chandler won’t pay for any of it.”

“What decisions?” 

“He wouldn’t marry where they willed,” Tris’s mother sighs.  “Preferred different company.”

“So you want money.”  It figures, that the only time her parents show up in her life is when they need money.  Merchants to the bone, one might say.

“Yes.”  Darra Chandler is not ashamed, Tris sees, because Darra is unafraid to bow her head and lose her dignity if it means her flesh and blood will live.  (Obviously, she doesn’t really think of Tris as her daughter anymore.  This hurts less than Tris thinks it should.)

“How much?” Tris asks, and does not pale at the exorbitant sum. 

She doesn’t have the money, but she can get it easily.  Briar is independently wealthy, as is Daja, as is Sandry.  She could be, if she settled down and got a job, but that’s neither here nor there.  Whether or not she can provide the money is not the question, it’s whether she wants to.

“Why should I give you the money?” Tris asks, wondering what this woman will answer.

“You have no reason,” Darra Chandler says.  “I could say he is your brother, but it is our fault you never got to know him.  I could say he shares your flesh and blood, but then, you and I know what people can do to their own flesh and blood.  I could appeal to your better nature, but you’ve never been able to appeal to mine.”

Tris waits, but there is no more.  Darra Chandler is not going to sugarcoat anything.  This is most evidently her last resort, and she doesn’t expect much from it.  Tris is not cruel; she doesn’t draw out her decision. 

“I don’t have all of the money on me, but I can give you half tomorrow, half at a later date.”

Darra looks as if she doesn’t quite believe her ears.

“There is a condition, of course.”  This, Darra has expected.  Tris is, after all, her daughter.  “I want to meet him.  He does know he has a sister, right?”

Judging by the look on Darra’s face, Tris guesses he didn’t.

“Well, I suppose you’ll get to tell him.  Come back tomorrow.”

This time, when she closes the door, Darra doesn’t stop her.  As she leans against the door, she wonders when she stopped thinking of Darra Chandler as her mother.



When Darra Chandler opens the door, she’s not sure what she expects to see.  A peddler, maybe, or Valden home early from the docks, or Cousin Uraelle back from the dead to berate her for purchasing the silk for the wedding dress at three silver astrels a yard instead of two and a crescent.

She doesn’t recognize the girl at first, with her carefully braided hair and her prim and proper spectacles.  “Can I help you, Miss …?” Darra asks, coldly.  If the girl’s peddling wares, or looking for charity, she’ll shut the door in her face.

“Hello, Mother.  I’m here for Mayna’s wedding.”

The light hits her just the right way, and Darra sees Valden’s eyes.  Valden’s eyes and the infamous Chandler cheekbones and those ears – those ears are from her side of the family.

“I’m- B- … Wh- …” For the first time since she was six and a half, Darra is at a loss for words.

“I won’t disturb you long,” Trisana says.  (It must be Trisana.)  “But since I was passing through, I thought I might pay my respects to my sister and her groom-to-be.”

Darra is not sure whether to invite her to come in, or to shut the door in her face.  She is not sure what to take in, Trisana’s well-to-do clothing, or the occasional lightning spark she could have sworn was crackling in her braids.

“Who is it, mother?” a voice asks from behind her, and Darra is too bewildered to answer.

“Mayna,” Trisana says, just a little more warmly.  “I’ve come for your wedding, like you requested.”

“Mayna?” Darra asks, recovering her voice.  “What is she talking about?”

Mayna looks much discomfited.  “I couldn’t get married and not invite my sister,” she says at last.  Then, “Here, Tris, I wasn’t sure if you were coming, but I did set out a spare room, just in case.”

“Is that what you were doing?” Darra asks.  “Going behind my back to, to-”

“To what, mother?” Mayna asks, defiant perhaps for the first time in her life.  (Why couldn’t Mayna show this much spirit in negotiations, Darra despairs, if she did, she wouldn’t be the hopeless case that she was.)  “To invite family, even if I haven’t seen her in well nigh a decade?  I had to ask strangers for her address so I could write.  I had to rely on rumors before I knew she was even alive anymore!”

“So you think I’m bad mother, because of this?” Darra demands.  “Is it my fault that she-”

“Perhaps we should continue this conversation inside,” Trisana suggests coolly.  “Away from prying ears?”

Flushing, Darra nods, and moves to shut the door.

“I’m sorry to cause so much distress,” Trisana continues when the door is closed.  “This was not my intention.”  The words are cool and distant.  “But as I was on my way back to Emelan, I thought I might drop by before Mayna’s wedding.”

“Back to Emelan?” Darra falters.

“From Lightsbridge, right?” Mayna supplies.  “How many more years before you receive your license?”

“One more,” Trisana half-smiles.

“Then Tris’ll be a mage twice over, Ma,” Mayna says, looking at her mother.  Calculating something.  Maybe how much good a twice-accredited mage would be for the family.  More likely how many more accreditations Trisana would need to accumulate before her mother accepted her.

“I’m not staying long,” Trisana says, “so no need for the spare room.  I have a pressing engagement back in Emelan.  But I did want to drop by and wish you well.”

“Can you stay for an hour at least?” Mayna asks urgently.

Trisana hesitates.

And before Darra can help herself, she speaks.  “Yes, stay for a while.”  She has surprised her daughters, she can tell.  She has surprised herself.

Trisana smiles the first smile Darra has seen in a long time.

“Well, maybe for a while.”


And the other time:

It will be a clear day, a normal day, market day for Tris and Briar and Daja, while Sandry tags along.  They will be out of eggs, and out of porridge, and Briar will need some new seedlings, and Tris will want some new books, and Daja will want to see some of the newest metal wares from Ninver.  Sandry will tag along just because, but she will want to examine up close some of the patterns she saw her cook bring home from the market yesterday.

They will walk there on foot, because the house is not so far, and won’t be arm-in-arm because that would be silly, but will be walking close together and talking and laughing.  Sandry will spot something right off the bat that she must show the others, and though they meant to go their separate ways at some point to look at different stalls, they will travel together from the booksellers to the metalsmiths to the newest shakkans to the weaver’s.  They will also go look at chairs, because Briar broke one when attempting “shenanigans” on it with his latest girl.

They will be on their way to look at some cheap baubles, the girls for themselves and Briar for his latest girl, when it happens.

Tris will bump into a sour-looking man and woman, who sharply bark at her to watch where she’s going.

Tris will mean to snap back, but her friends are beckoning.  She will note the fine and sturdy quality of their clothing and try to place their status (merchants, most likely?), but her friends are beckoning.  She will think they look familiar and mean to get a second look, but her friends are beckoning.

As for the man and the woman, they will have better things to do with their time than bicker with a foolish, clumsy girl, and they are concerned about their upcoming negotiations with the Traders, so even if they think the girl’s eyes flash the same way Aunt Uraelle’s did on occasion, they have better things to do.

And so, on this day, Tris and the couple will part ways, and neither party will realize what has just transpired.