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Mama is making the grocery list
She asks if there’s anything you want us to have in the house
You.
;-)
Has anyone told you that you are a ridiculous boy?
Ridiculous is not usually a word people use to describe me, no.
Well, they obviously have not been paying attention
Have they Mr. Zimmermann?
Because you ARE ridiculous
Also adorable
Another word not usually used to describe me.
Also mine
Accurate.
To your original question:
Please tell your mom no need to buy anything special.
I survived your cooking all last year, after all.
EXCUSE ME??
Seems to me SOMEONE is asking for his PIE PRIVILEGES to be revoked
Haha.
I know you, Bittle.
You wouldn’t last a day.
I suggest you not test the theory by implying my baked goods are something one “survives”
I actually have another question
Shoot.
Um. So.
Now I’m worried.
You’re using punctuation.
Shut up
So my parents have a guest bedroom
But I also
Um
Have a double bed
So
I was just wondering
Whether you want your own space
Or
Your parents would let me stay in your room?
I may not have asked yet
If I don’t ask they can’t say no
Does that mean you WANT me to stay in your room.
In your bed.
Well
Yes?
Can you elaborate about the question mark.
Because I’ve seen your bed on Skype and it looks big enough for two.
I wasn’t sure your parents would be okay with...us.
Sleeping together.
It seems like a thing many parents aren’t comfortable with.
And I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable either.
Bitty?
Sorry Sorry!
Mama asked me a question.
YES
Yes I want you in my room
It’s just … I don’t know
I just can’t imagine ...
This is embarrassing
Would it be easier to talk face to face?
I’m in the library but I can find a place to call you.
NO!
*hides face*
God no
Texting is good
I’m not sure I can get the words out otherwise
We have an easier time with words when we can also be touching, remember?
Sometimes I think I’ve made it all up
I mean I know I haven’t but
I know what you mean.
But can we go back to the bedroom question.
Would it feel easier if I stayed in the guest bedroom?
It would be like having me across the hall at the Haus.
No reason I’d have to STAY there ;-)
Okay
Maybe
But I don’t want you to think that means I don’t want
I want too <3
OMG did you just use a heart emoji?
I do watch and learn, Bittle.
I am looking forward to having you here Jack
It’s been hard without you
I didn’t realize
(or let myself realize)
How much … of everything we had together already
Until I thought I was going to lose it
And I know I haven’t but…
I’m sorry.
No! No. I wasn’t fishing for an apology
It’s just
It’s felt lonely in bed without you
*dies of embarrassment*
No.
Don’t be embarrassed Bits.
It’s felt lonely in bed without you here, too.
Would it be weird if we did a lot of cuddling while I was there?
It’s just I’ve always...liked that.
…thinking...thinking...WAIT NO.
Jack, you do understand that basically 98.5% of my waking hours right now are thinking about all of the ways I want to cuddle, right?
And I mean both “cuddling” and cuddling-cuddling
Oh, there’s a difference? I wasn’t aware.
Good. Because that’s what I’ve been spending my waking hours thinking about too.
Okay. Good
Cuddling sounds good
I mean. TBH Señor Bunny has been getting all up in my face about it
“When is Monsieur Éléphant gonna visit?”
Blah blah blah
Haha. Yeah.
Monsieur Éléphant keeps glaring at me.
I wake up and there he is staring.
He blames me that Señor Bunny is down in Madison.
Obviously you are responsible for how stupid big this country is
Well
There’s nothing for it
We’ll just have to suck it up and give them some alone time while you two are here
Another reason to have the guest bedroom.
We can put a sock on their door and beat a hasty retreat.
What have I done to deserve you?
You know you don’t have to do anything to “deserve” me, right?
That’s not how this works.
What if I screw this up? What if
I almost screwed this up by walking away from you on graduation day.
I worry about screwing this up every day.
Every hour.
Every minute.
Because that’s how my brain works, Bits.
But I’m learning not to listen to it all the time.
We’ll not listen to it together, okay?
Okay
Okay
Lord, Jack, have I told you how much I miss you?
Multiple times.
But I won’t mind if you tell me again.
I miss you.
I miss you and I love you.
<3 and :-( Bits.
See you in four days <3
Four days!
