I didn't know what was going on. I'd never seen Kit like this. No one had. He is usually talkative, always speaking his mind, but today...he just came into the dining hall, sat down, and didn't say a word. I'm starting to get really worried about my mirror twin.
"Hey, Len?" I whisper to him as he sits down between me and Kit.
"Is it just me, or is Kit being a bit quiet today?" I breath, praying the person in question can't hear me.
Len looks at Kit out of the corner of his eye...and by the look on his face; it wasn't hard to tell that he could notice it too. Len opens his mouth to say something, but is interrupted by none other than Kit himself.
"Hey guys...I don't think I'm up for practice today...I think I'm going to spend some time meditating. Do you mind telling Master Eubulon? I don't want him to worry." Before any of us can protest, he just leaves.
Great. Now I'm even more worried. As much as Kit hates practice (I do too), he never misses a session unless he is sick and even then only if he can barely move (the kid is too stubborn for his own good).
"Okay, please tell me I'm not the only one completely confused," Len says in one of his 'I'm going to figure out what's going on around here' tones.
"You're not. But I think we should leave him alone...for now anyway. We'll check on him later." I told him in a tone that left no room for argument.
Len huffs before agreeing. "Alright, we'll check on him after practice. Deal?"
2 hours later
Sigh. I saw the look on Adam's face; he was worried about me. I guess I can't blame him. I just hope he and Len can leave me alone...just for today. I didn't mean to worry them. But this day...this day has never been an easy day. So here I am. In one of the little meditation rooms, sitting on the windowsill. Just remembering her and all the things we used to do together. I felt the tears in my eyes that I'd been holding back all morning try to free themselves, and I let them because I just couldn't hold them back any longer.
It was hard thinking that almost 10 years had passed since I lost her, and it still hurt as if it just happened seconds ago.
Startled, I look down on the screen of my phone. Oh. It was Len telling me it's time for dinner.
Sighing, I send him a message telling him I'd be there soon.
As I'm walking out the door, I count my blessings, especially to have met Len and the others. If it hadn't been for them, who knows where I would be right now. I opened the door to the dining hall and felt my heart warm. I knew she wasn't here, but the fact that they, my rider family, were here waiting for me before anyone started to eat, made the corners of my mouth turn up for the first time today. And as I sat and joined them in discussions about our day, I remembered why I loved these people so much.
After dinner I start heading to my room deciding to call it a day. Welcoming the sense of familiarity as everyone I pass says 'goodnight', 'laters bro', or something similar. And my last thought as I turn off the light before surrendering to a much needed sweet slumber is, 'Thank you, mom.'