He wasn't ready for this, having a boy. Another girl he could handle they were easy. Of course he was able to say that now when the little girl he had at home was only two years old and the worse thing she did was color on the walls. But a having having a boy created a new set of things to be concerned about.
He had first hand knowledge of how much trouble they could be, not to mention his biggest fear coming true. How was he going to handle him when things got tough? What if simple threats and time outs weren't enough? He didn't even want to think about what he could do, but he knew it was a possibility and that was what scared him.
"Are you okay?" She asked as they walked out of the doctor's office, sonogram still in hand.
"Why wouldn't I be?" He asked not wanting her to worry.
"You're just quiet that's all."
"I'm still processing the idea of us having a second kid. And just when I thought we were going to be done with diaper duty too."
"You mean the past doctors visits and my ever growing stomach getting in the way of everything wasn't proof enough?"
He shrugged "It's just taking me a little longer to wrap my head around things. We're going to have two kids under the age of five in the house, one girl and one boy."
"You know you're nothing like him."
He stopped walking and turned to face her, "what?"
"Your father, you're nothing like your father."
"How do you know?"
"Because I know you and I see the way you are with our daughter."
"But she's a girl, it's different."
"No it's not. You are going to love and treat our son the same way that you treat our little girl at home. You will never treat our son the way your father treated you."
"You have an awful lot of faith in me."
"Always have and always will."
She leaned up on her toes and kissed him, the bump from their son pressed up again his stomach reminding him of how much he already loved this baby.
"Now let's go home." She said.
He allowed her to take his hand and lead them back to their car. For now the fears were subsided, but he knew he they would always be there. It scared him how easy it could be to become the man his father was. But he and his wife were never ones to take the easy route, and with her by his side he knew his fears would never become a reality.