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•°¹°•The Gorgeous Stranger─✵─────────

The cold wind swept through Jeongguk's curls making him shiver as he quickened his pace along the narrow road of cobblestone. Beneath the halo of a street lamp, he turned his collar to the cold winds. The indistinct hum of vehicles and horns blaring faded gradually as he made his way down the dimly lit street. His shoe-clad feet made rhythmic taps against the stones, breaking the silence of the night that was surrounding him. He could hear chatter as he closed up on his destination.

He came to a halt in front of a wooden door. Inside he could hear loud chatter and music. He pushed open the door and stepped into the bar and was immediately surrounded by warmth and music.

The bar, a place Jeongguk was too familiar with, was filled with locals of different ages. There was cheerful chatter all around him. Jeongguk pushed past crowds and made his way to where a bunch of men sat around a table, all of them holding a glass containing a liquid of choice. They were chattering in the comfort of their own private bubble and none of them noticed until Jeongguk pulled out a chair and sat down.

"Jeon! Took you long enough!" A voice said.

"Sorry, Rick, got caught up with some papers," Jeongguk said and shook hands with the other four people around the table.

"You finished correcting the papers?" The man beside Jeongguk said. Kim Seokjin. A charming man who Jeongguk had known for longer than anyone else around the table.

Jeongguk smiled at the handsome man who was in his early thirties. 31, to be precise. Only a year older than Jeongguk himself. "Not exactly"

"Me neither," Jin said and took a sip from his glass.

"You look like shit, Jeon. You should get some rest, man. Been working a lot these days, haven't you?" The man in front of Jeongguk, Anthony, said.

"I just need something stronger than cheap beer," Jeongguk said and called a waiter over and ordered a drink.

"He looks like he's fresh in his twenties no matter what though" Rick, again. Laughter followed the little company around Jeongguk. "Won't look like he even broke a sweat even if he runs a marathon. Lucky bastard"

Jeongguk chuckled. His drink arrived and he took a sip of it. The strong alcohol burned down his throat.

His friend group consisted of university lecturers. Just like Jeongguk. The bunch of them usually hung out in this small bar every Friday night. The winter break was just around the corners and Jeongguk had been busy checking the student papers till late that evening. Jeongguk and his friends came to this small bar every Friday. The place was not too busy nor too deserted. It was a perfect place to cool down the pressures of a busy week.

Jeongguk downed the remains of his glass and poured himself a glass of Vodka that was placed on the table, whilst listening to the relaxed conversation that passed between his co-workers. Distracted by the conversation being exchanged between the fellow co-workers around him, he didn’t realize that he had taken more than just a few shots of vodka and he could feel himself becoming a little tipsy. From experience, he knew a few more shots would have him staggering in his walk so he needed to be more careful. 

He wasn’t the one to get drunk too easily but this week had been rough and busy. Maybe he really needed to get a little drunk.

He was listening to Anthony rambling about his wife when he heard loud bubbly laughter from a nearby table. His attention was suddenly diverted into the source of the sound. He turned his head, trying to find where it had come from. He scanned his surroundings and he heard it again.

Jeongguk saw a group of young people at a table away from them, laughing and chatting. None of them looked like they were in their twenties. Jeongguk doubted how they even came inside the bar.

Jeongguk saw five people holding their beers and cheering as one of them chugged down a mug of beer. Jeongguk watched the bunch of boys shouting and laughing, having a time of their life.

But what caught Jeongguk's instant attention was an innocent-looking boy among them. Cute bubbly laughter erupted from him every once in a while, his mouth forming a rectangular shape each time. Dyed blond hair and sharp jaw, round cheeks, and shining eyes. He looks so ethereal.

Jeongguk found himself in a daze, unable to take his eyes off the beautiful boy. How could such a beautiful yet handsome being exist? Jeongguk was mesmerized.

The boy hadn't noticed the stranger staring at him with intensity for a long while until his straying gaze met Jeongguk’s stare.

The boy's beautiful orbs locked onto Jeongguk’s for a few moments and the boy's smile faded and his expression changed to somewhat of wonder and awe. 

Jeongguk couldn't take his eyes off the stunning boy who was now staring right back at him. His almond-shaped, chocolate eyes, his cute nose, his thin lips that were now slightly parted, he looked freshly carved out of the heavens.

"Let's go!" someone from the boy's gang shouted, making the boy tear his gaze away from Jeongguk. Jeongguk watched as the bunch of boys stood up, picking up their coats and head outside. Jeongguk slightly panicked. He had never seen the boy around this place, meaning he was either new or wasn't from nearby.

The boy was walking out and just as he was about to go out of the door, he glanced back and held Jeongguk's gaze for a moment, and then walked out.

Jeongguk gulped.

He was going crazy. He wasn't thinking straight (literally) when he stood up and quickly grabbed his coat "I got to go" he said to his co-workers and made a run to the exit of the club, leaving his co-workers confused.

Jeongguk didn't have the slightest idea why he was chasing after some boy who he had just seen. But he acted on instinct. He knew he had to follow the boy. He had to. He just did. As to why or what he was going to do with him, Jeongguk didn't know.

Jeongguk had to get to know him. 

He stepped out just in time to see the bunch of boys walking down the narrow alley. Most of them were tipsy, Jeongguk could say. And their chatter was loud enough to wake some neighbors if they were in the countryside.

The blond boy didn't look drunk, compared to his friend. His friend, a shorter blond, clung to his arm, both laughing at something someone had said. Jeongguk prayed that the smaller boy wasn't the gorgeous one's boyfriend.

Jeongguk walked a few feet behind them, careful not to get noticed. Jeongguk was surprised when the group of boys took a turn from the alley. They stopped at a neon-lit doorway.

A nightclub.

Jeongguk was sure that none of them were 21 to go to a nightclub. But they were let in, without even checking their ID's. Jeongguk was confused. But he followed them anyways. To Jeongguk's surprise, his ID was checked before he was let in. Were the bunch of youngsters' regulars or something?

The moment Jeongguk stepped in, he was welcomed with the strong smell of smoke, cheap alcohol, sweat, and sex. The place was crowded. He stood up from his toes and scanned the room for his blond beauty but was unable to see him. The boy seemingly had disappeared into the crowd.

Jeongguk got himself a glass of vodka and leaned against the bar, searching for the particular blond boy.

"I'll be here. Not in the mood to dance" A voice. Sweet as honey. Deep as the Pacific Ocean. It was enough for chills to go all over Jeongguk's body. He felt like he was hypnotized by the voice when he turned his head to the source of the voice like a sailor to a siren's call.

There he was.

Tall, blond, and gorgeous. Smiling as he waved off his buddy and leaned against the bar. He obviously hadn't noticed Jeongguk, or he was playing hard to get. Jeongguk liked the challenge.

Jeongguk downed his shot and slowly made his way towards the boy who looked like a snack.

The boy looked so tempting. He was wearing tight jeans and a white t-shirt that clung to his small figure. The curve of his ass was visible as his T-shirt had ridden up a little. Jeongguk found himself unable to stop himself from checking out the younger boy. Jeongguk licked his lips.

"Hey, beautiful" Jeongguk said in a low, seductive voice.

The boy turned. His eyes were big, as he took in Jeongguk's demeanor. He looked confused and surprised as if he hadn't expected to see Jeongguk here.

"Hi," A shy but deep voice. Jeongguk smiled.

The boy's voice obviously didn't match his adorable appearance. But hell, did it look so damn sexy on him.

"Can I buy you a drink?" Jeongguk said.

The boy nodded shyly and hesitantly.

Jeongguk ordered them two shots of tequila. He handed the blond beauty a shot, who shyly took it. "Thank you"

"Hakuna ma tequila. It means no worries" Jeongguk said.

The boy giggled. Bubbly, shy laughter that felt like honey to Jeongguk's ears. His grin widened.

Jeongguk downed his shot in one go and stared at the boy who took careful sips off the glass. His eyes squinting shut and hissing after every sip.

"Not much of a drinker, are you?" Jeongguk asked.

"No. I hardly ever drink" The boy said. He placed his glass on the bar after he finished.

"I could see that. Care for a dance?" Jeongguk said, offering his hand.

Jeongguk must be out of his mind. He never danced. Not in a club. Not at his best friend's birthday party. Not even in his own wedding. Never but now? Jeongguk would blame it on alcohol.

And temptation.

Temptation to get to know the gorgeous boy right next to him.

The boy looked back and forth between Jeongguk's hand and his eyes. Eyes shy and calculating.

"Come on, baby" Jeongguk whispered.

The boy's cheeks dusted a pretty pink. Jeongguk cooed at the sight. The boy visibly gulped and in the end gave in and took Jeongguk's hand.

They moved to the dance floor, hand in hand. The place was crowded and they hardly had any personal space. The two of their bodies were close and touching and they slowly started moving to the beat.

The boy was shy, Jeongguk could tell. So he took both of the boy's hands in his and started moving him, along with himself. The boy complied and after a while he started moving in his own accord, getting captivated by the music. The boy was a little tipsy, Jeongguk could say.

Not more than Jeongguk himself, surely. 

All around them were moving sweaty bodies. Someone from behind the boy accidentally hit the boy from behind drunkenly and the boy stumbled forward. Jeongguk caught him in his arms. Their chests collided and their faces were inches apart. The both of them had stopped dancing and were staring at each other's eyes. Moments passed and the boy drunkenly smiled at Jeongguk and looked away shyly. He started moving again.

Jeongguk's heart was beating fast and he gulped as the boy danced in front of him. He rolled his slim and curvy body to the beat. The sight was enough to make Jeongguk's dick twitch. Jeongguk decided to join him too. He took a step towards the boy and wrapped an arm around his waist and pulled him towards himself. The boy was taken by surprise but he grabbed the front of Jeongguk's shirt to keep himself balanced. Jeongguk found his hands fitting perfectly in the curve of the boy's waist.

Together, they started moving to the beat.

"What's your name, beautiful?" Jeongguk whispered in the blonde's ear.

"Taehyung"

"A pretty name for a pretty boy," Jeongguk said, smirking.

"Yeah?" A drunken giggle.

"Yeah" Jeongguk hummed in Taehyung's ear.

"What should I call you, handsome?" Taehyung's voice was smooth and flirty. He seemed less shy than before. He was warming up to Jeongguk. 

"You can call me Mr. Jeon" Jeongguk whispered.

"Mr. Jeon. I like that" Taehyung said.

Taehyung quickly turned around, all of a sudden, so his backside was pressed against Jeongguk's front. Jeongguk groaned as Taehyung's perky ass pressed against his growing boner.

Jeongguk ignored the raging hormones in his veins and continued to dance. Out of nowhere, Taehyung started moving his ass. He was grinding against Jeongguk.

Jeongguk groaned as he felt himself growing harder.

"Baby" Jeongguk husked.

"Yes, Mr. Jeon?" Taehyung said innocently.

Feisty little thing

Jeongguk tightened his grip around Taehyung's waist, making the smaller boy whimper a little. Two can play the game.

Taehyung continued to push his ass against Jeongguk's dick and Jeongguk was millimeters away from losing all self-control and banging the boy right then and there.

Jeongguk placed his lips on the boy's neck and kissed the pale skin, making the boy jump a little. But he didn't push away. So Jeongguk started sucking on the skin and the boy moaned.

That was when Jeongguk lost it.

"Fuck. I want you" Jeongguk rasped.

There was no hesitance of shyness in Taehyung's voice when he uttered the next words:

"Then take me"

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•°²°•Oh Shit I Have A Wife─✵─────────

Jeongguk took the boy by his hand and dragged him across the club, eyes fixated on the EXIT sign lit up in neon. He pushed the door open, only to find himself in a dark alley. The moment Taehyung stepped out, Jeongguk pushed the boy against the nearest cold wall and pressed himself against him.

Taehyung whimpered out the moment his back hit the hard surface. Under the dim street lights, Taehyung looked absolutely enchanting. His chocolate orbs mirrored Jeongguk's intense stare, hungry with need.

Both of them were breathing heavily, having literally run across the crowd. Their breaths mingled and Jeongguk could feel the boy's hot breath against his lips.

Jeongguk usually had self-control. He wouldn't surrender to his darkest desires so easily. But from the moment he saw the gorgeous blond, the boy seemed to strip down all of Jeongguk's protective walls and made him surrender to desires he didn't know existed within him.

Jeongguk and Taehyung stared at each other for a few long moments.

"What are you waiting for?" The boy asked, sounding rather impatient. "I thought you wanted me"

Jeongguk was tongue-tied. "I...um..."

"Shut up" The boy whispered and the next thing Jeongguk knew, Taehyung was kissing him.

The boy’s plump, cold lips pressed against Jeonnguk’s, and his eyes widened for a split second from surprise. He hadn’t expected Taehyung to be so bold and take the lead. However, Jeongguk was only pleasantly surprised. He liked it. 

Jeongguk kissed back and the boy seemed so needy that he bit on Jeongguk's bottom lip, asking for entrance. Once again, the boy’s action had taken Jeongguk by surprise. Jeongguk supposed this boy was full of surprises. 

Taehyung was leading the feverish kiss but Jeongguk soon regained dominance as he grabbed the boy's ass and squeezed it. Taehyung gasped, giving all the entrance Jeongguk needed to explore Taehyung's mouth.

Kissing Taehyung was like sipping fine wine. A rich taste seizing his taste buds and beginning to numb his whole body. The taste was so soft and rich and beautiful. Jeongguk could wrap his lips around Taehyung's lush lips and sip all the time. 

The kiss was fire; ignited with passion and desire. His brain was on fire and warmth spread through his whole body. They kissed as if to devour each other. Like fighting for the last drop of water. Jeongguk doesn't ever want to pull away. In that minty moment, his senses had been seduced that he can no longer think straight.

Taehyung's hands were fisted in Jeongguk's shirt, gripping him tightly, drawing him closer. The boy whimpered from time to time and it only encouraged Jeongguk to keep tasting Taehyung.

They pulled away, at last, gasping for breath, their foreheads pressed together.

"Take me home with you" Taehyung panted. "Please"

Home?

"Not home, baby" Jeongguk said. "I know a place"

Jeongguk led Taehyung to a hotel nearby. Jeongguk hasn’t been to hotels for this kind of occasion but desperate times called for desperate measures. 

They stumbled into the room of the hotel Jeongguk had got for them.

The moment the door clicked shut, they were on each other like starving wolves. Their kisses were intense and messy, trying to devour each other. Jeongguk's hands worked their way around Taehyung's body, feeling every crevasse, each line up and down his perfect physique. The boy wasn't muscular. But he loved the softness and the curves Jeongguk's hands surfed upon.

Practiced hands removed Taehyung's sweater and together they fell on the soft bed. Taehyung's hands struggled to take off Jeongguk's shirt and with the help of Jeongguk, it was off.

The boy stared at Jeongguk with wide eyes. A blush had crept up his perfectly rounded cheeks as his eyes explored every line and crevasse of Jeongguk's muscular torso. His toned chest, perfect abs, and the v line leading to his-

"Take a picture, it'll last longer," Jeongguk said, smirking down at the boy.

The said boy shook his head, the blush darkening at Jeongguk's teasing words. The boy started to unbutton Jeongguk's jeans in a hurry. The boy was brave, Jeongguk thought.

Jeongguk was kneeling on the bed as Taehyung stumbled with Jeongguk's zipper. Jeongguk watched as the boy slowly unzipped his jeans and looked up at Jeongguk with wide eyes searching for permission. Jeongguk licked his lips and started stroking his already hard member through his jeans.

Taehyung's eyes shifted to the place Jeongguk had started stroking and the boy gasped. Jeongguk's hard dick's outline was visible through his pants.

The boy hesitantly reached and placed his hand over it. Applying feathery touches from his fingertips. Jeongguk hissed.

"Don't tease, baby" Jeongguk warned.

Taehyung hesitantly started mouthing at Jeongguk's member over his pants.

"Fuck" Jeongguk groaned.

He could feel himself leaking. He was turned on more than ever, more than he thought was possible for a man of thirty years. Jeongguk thought he must be dreaming because the boy kneeling before him did nothing but palm and lick him over his trousers. It was so simple. Why did it feel like he was about to cum already? This is starting to get embarrassing. 

The boy continued to mouth at Jeongguk's dick, stroking him. The boy took hold of Jeongguk's thighs and licked and bit his dick over the material.

In minutes, Jeongguk came inside his boxers with a loud groan. A dark patch appeared in the front of his Jeans. Jeongguk watched as the boy licked at the stain as he kept his eyes on Jeongguk.

Jeongguk couldn't remember the last time he came that quickly. It was probably when he was a teenager and that was embarrassing, He couldn’t believe how attracted he was to this boy he had met less than one hour ago. 

He needed to do more. Needed to pleasure the boy and drive him nuts with his cock. He needed to make the boy a mess under him. Every cell in his body burned with that desire. 

Therefore, Jeongguk pushed the boy on the bed, so he was lying on his back and got on top of him. He started kissing the boy, sucking on the tongue, thrusting his tongue, and licking the inside of his cheek. He bit the edge of the boy’s tongue, making him whimper in pleasure and surprise.

Jeongguk started to nibble on the boy's neck, leaving red blotches and teeth marks on the pale and unmarked fabric of skin. He made sure they were dark red so the boy would have them for days to come. So every time he watches himself in the mirror, he would get reminded of Jeongguk. 

Taehyung was a moaning mess, whimpering “please” every now and then, and his hips bucked up to meet Jeongguk’s own every once in a while. The boy’s eyes were glassy with unshed tears and his bottom lip was swollen from biting. His hands fisted on the sheets with pleasure and he didn’t once close his mouth to conceal the symphony of moans that left him as Jeongguk slowly left marks down his beautiful body. 

Jeongguk just couldn't keep his hands off Taehyung's body. He touched Taehyung's torso like he was made out of fine silk. Or of expensive china. As if he was fragile. And precious. Jeongguk treated him so delicately.

Jeongguk's index finger found Taehyung's pink buds, hard and so pretty.

Jeongguk squeezed his nipples making the boy moan so beautifully beneath him. His fingers were soon replaced with his tongue. There's something about the way Taehyung tasted. He couldn’t stop himself from wanting to taste more and more. His skin was so soft and velvety. Unmarked, and almost as if no one had ever touched him intimately like this, from the way the boy is reacting to the softest of touches.

Jeongguk moved south, his teeth and tongue working on Taehyung's paleness, red blossoms blooming on his skin with every bite.

Pretty wasn't enough to describe what Jeongguk witnessed at that moment.

Jeongguk's hands found themselves on the boy's belt at last. Quick hands undid it and his pants were pulled off along with his boxers. Taehyung's erection sprang free.

Jeongguk’s mouth grew dry at the sight. Taehyung was bigger than he expected. And he was beautiful. All of him. There wasn't a single imperfection on his body. 

Taehyung blushed scarlet as Jeongguk's dark eyes stared at his cock, red and flushed. Jeongguk seemed to be devouring the boy with his eyes. The way a predator would eye its prey.

Taehyung's hands were quick to cover himself from the older man's predatory gaze. Jeongguk growled in annoyance and took Taehyung's hands away from his cock.

"Don't hide yourself. You're too pretty for that"

Taehyung whimpered.

"Take off yours too" The boy was obviously feeling embarrassed.

"Of course" Jeongguk smirked.

He took off his pants and boxers in one go. The moment his boxers were tugged down, his massive cock was revealed. He was hard and leaking against his abdomen. Again. Jeongguk wasn't surprised to find himself in such a state. The boy's face alone could make Jeongguk cum.

Taehyung gasped as he took in the older man's physique. "You're so big," Taehyung said in a small voice. "That wouldn't fit inside me"

Jeongguk chuckled. "Don't fret, my darling"

Jeongguk leaned down again and kissed Taehyung, teeth nibbling on his bottom lip, then biting down hard, making the younger boy moan. Jeongguk moved to the boy's thighs, earning a whimper from him when Jeongguk intentionally ignored Taehyung's leaking cock. He kissed Taehyung's inner high, making the boy whimper.

"You're so sensitive," Jeongguk said, making the boy moan in agreement.

He left marks on the pale skin on his thighs and moved back up to kiss him on the mouth.

"So beautiful, you are. I want to you so bad" Jeongguk growled in Taehyung's ear before kneeling between Taehyung's legs.

"I don't have any condoms or lube," Jeongguk said. He had totally forgotten about the need for them when he had dragged the boy into a hotel room. He wasn’t planning to fuck a stranger that night when he came to meet his friends.

Or ever, for that matter. 

Taehyung hesitated for a second. "Doesn't matter. Just do it. Please"

Jeongguk sighed in relief. 

But he hoped the boy meant it. The boy was no longer tipsy, Jeongguk could say from his voice. He hadn’t been, since they arrived at the hotel room. Since that moment, all he had been is needy and submissive, and sometimes trying to take control of the kissing. At least until he started touching Jeongguk’s cock. 

JEongguk was glad that he too wasn’t tipsy anymore. HE wanted to feel all of this. All of Taehyung. He needed to experience this to the fullest. He didn’t think he would get a chance like this ever again. 

Jeongguk was feeling nervous, though. He hoped the boy was clean. Without thinking any further, he decided to ignore the doubts tugging at the corners of his mind and started his work.

"Suck" Jeongguk shoved in three fingers in front of Taehyung's face. The boy looked confused for a split second but then eagerly opened his mouth. Jeongguk shoved the digits inside Taehyung's mouth and watched the boy spread saliva on them eagerly, all the while staring at Jeongguk eagerly.

"Fuck" Jeongguk cursed as the unholy sight unrolled before him. Jeongguk wondered what remedies that mouth would be able to do. Remedies on his cock. Shame, this has to end tonight.

When Jeongguk's fingers were dripping and wet with saliva he took them out and placed one at Taehyung's entrance.

The boy jumped at the unfamiliar feeling. Jeongguk looked once at Taehyung's face and pushed in a digit, checking up on his reactions to make sure he’s alright. Taehyung fisted his hands in the bedsheet as he shut his mouth tightly.

"Tell me if it hurts," Jeongguk said.

The boy shook his head. Taking this as a good sign, he entered another finger and started thrusting them in and out of Taehyung. He was in two knuckles deep when his fingers brushed past a small lump. Taehyung jumped and moaned loudly.

"Found it" Jeongguk smiled wildly and continued to abuse the boy's prostate.

He scissored his fingers inside Taehyung before adding the third. Three digits had Taehyung gripping the bed sheets and moaning and mewling loudly. Jeongguk could listen to Taehyung's sinful symphony forever.

"I'm gonna- ugh- c-co-..." Taehyung whimpered.

Jeongguk took out the tree fingers, making Taehyung whine at the loss of pleasure.

"Not yet, baby boy" Jeongguk growled. "Ready to take something bigger?"

"Please...please...do it" The boy moaned out.

"Look how needy you are. Begging for my cock. So eager to be ravished" Jeongguk growled. Taehyung gasped.

Jeongguk started stroking up and down his own cock, spreading the pre-cum all over his length. Taehyung watched wide-eyed and wide-mouthed as the older pleasured himself. Moans and pants escaped Jeongguk and Taehyung reached to touch himself.

"Don't" Jeongguk said sharply, which made the smaller boy snatch his hand away from his cock.

"Do you like it rough?" Jeongguk asked and got on top of Taehyung. He wanted to know how Taehyung likes it. He didn’t want to fall short of the boy's expectations. 

Taehyung moaned and nodded eagerly.

Jeongguk nodded to himself and spread his legs wider, positioning himself at the boy's entrance, ready to fuck him.

Jeongguk wasn't the one to do it soft and slow. He needed it rough and fast. He was glad Taehyung wanted the same. 

He looked down at the beautiful boy beneath him. His cheeks the color of rose petals, his lips swollen and bitten red, fallen open perfectly, small pants escaping them, his eyes barely open to stare at Jeongguk.

His body was covered with blemishes of many colors. Some freshly red and some turning purple. A blush continued to light up the paleness of his neck along with his chest and to where his pretty cock lay on his stomach. Red and leaking. He's a true work of art; a masterpiece like no other human Jeongguk had ever seen. And Jeongguk can't wait to find out all the ways he could ruin this beauty.

Jeongguk pressed a soft kiss on the boy's lips and pressed his tip to the entrance. He pressed a bit further and the boy jumped when the tip barely entered him, hands flying up to Jeongguk's biceps.

"Tell me if you want me to stop"

The boy nodded impatiently. Taking this as Jeongguk's cue to continue, he pushed all the way inside Taehyung. The beautiful boy moaned from somewhat pain and pleasure, his grip on Jeongguk's biceps becoming tighter, almost bruising.

But Jeongguk couldn't care less. Not when he could feel Taehyung's heat was all around him. His velvety walls were so tight around himself and the boy clenching from time to time as Jeongguk waited for him to adjust. Jeongguk groaned.

The boy was whimpering beneath him, trying to adjust to Jeongguk's size. Tears pooled his eyes, threatening to spill.

"Tell me when to move," Jeongguk said.

"Go" Taehyung whispered after a few seconds.

Jeongguk moved. Shallow thrusts at first and deepening gradually.

The boy was letting out loud whiny moans, tears cascading down his cheeks. His grip around Jeongguk's arms loosened, only to wrap themselves around his neck, drawing Jeongguk closer.

Their bodies were pressed together. A thin layer of sweat was the only thing they had between their naked skins. Jeongguk was moving in and out of Taehyung so slowly, too scared that he might hurt the boy in any form.

"Fuck you're so tight" Jeongguk growled. Taehyung whimpered in response.

"Faster, Mr. Jeon" Taehyung cried out.

Jeongguk felt ecstatic. He loved the way his name rolled out of Taehyung's tongue. Loved how it made him lose control.

He began fucking Taehyung faster. The boy shook beneath him, trembling with every powerful thrust. The bed creaked and Taehyung moaned so shamelessly.

The boy's symphony of moans only increased in volume and frequency as Jeongguk pushed his legs above his shoulders and started fucking Taehyung faster and deeper. The boy's hands flew to Jeongguk's back, nails digging in. Jeongguk growled from the pain but he kept fucking Taehyung so brutally. He kept chasing his high, only focused on finding his release. He was lost in his own pleasure.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" Taehyung shouted as Jeongguk relentlessly pounded into him.

Jeongguk was impressed by the foul mouth of the younger boy. Profanities kept streaming out of his with every powerful thrust of Jeongguk. The bed shook and hit the wall with every thrust.

"Mr. Jeon! I'm gonna-oh fuck! "Taehyung couldn't finish his sentence.

"I got you, baby" Jeongguk started stroking the younger boy.

Within moments, he came; white ribbons sprawling from his cock all over his chest and Jeongguk's hand.

Jeongguk kept fucking Taehyung's limp body, chasing his own euphoria. He grunted as he increased pace, heat at his lower abdomen becoming unbearable.

He pulled out the moment he came. His cum sprayed all over the boy's inner thigh and some even on the sheets. Taehyung whimpered a little as Jeongguk's hot semen hit his thigh but the boy soon closed his eyes.

Jeongguk collapsed beside Taehyung, who had already closed his eyes, breathing heavily. Jeongguk wordlessly stared at the beautiful boy, trying to catch his own breath. His mind was in bliss and everything around him felt out of focus. All he could feel was the numbing high his mind and body were at. That was one hell of a good fuck. 

Jeongguk realized the boy had passed out after a few minutes. Jeongguk smiled. The boy looked so adorable. He wrapped his arm around the smaller boy, bringing him closer to his chest, and kissed his forehead.

Jeongguk was feeling euphoric; so full. He felt like he had never been so pleased in his whole life. The boy was really good in bed. His ass was a blessing. Jeongguk could fuck him forever.

Jeongguk shifted a bit and turned off the lights and within minutes, Jeongguk fell asleep, cuddling the other boy.


Jeongguk woke up with a jolt. He could hardly make out anything in the darkness. He felt the warmth of a body next to him. Taehyung had his arms and legs wrapped around Jeongguk, his face buried in Jeongguk's neck.

Jeongguk smiled.

What time is it?

Jeongguk was slightly panicked. He gently pushed Taehyung off of him and got up from the bed. He found his phone inside the pocket of his pants. He first checked the time. It said 4.15 a.m. Oh shit . He had to get home.

What he saw next was what terrified him.

There were 14 missed calls from his wife.

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•°³°• Distractions ─✵─────────

Taehyung woke up feeling nauseous. His stomach churned and the next thing he knew, he was hopping out of bed, frantically looking around to catch a glimpse of a bathroom and after finding a door that could've passed for a bathroom door, barging in there and unloading the contents of his stomach to the toilet commode.

He coughed and breathed heavily, gripping the edges of the toilet seat for support as he knelt on the tiled floor. After finding the strength to lift himself off the kneeling position, he flushed the toilet and walked to the sink. He turned the water and washed his face and mouth. His throat still burned as if he threw up acid, which he technically did.

After he had calmed himself down, he raised his head to meet his reflection on the huge mirror. His naked self was staring blankly at him. The expression turned to one of pure horror when he took in the reflection of his body. Purple blotches of various shapes and sizes littered his skin from his throat to his lower abdomen.

Taehyung, horror-stricken, took a wobbly step back, heart erratically stammering in his chest. The moment his foot hit the tiled floor, a shockwave of pain ran up his spine, from his ass. He gasped and clutched the granite counter in front of him as he lost balance and almost fell forward.

His whole body hurt. And he looked like a mess. A cry was stuck in his throat and tears were on the verge of dropping as he searched his mind for what could've happened to him the previous night.

But the memories seemed blurred, the only clear memory being of himself with his group of friends at the nightclub and – oh

The handsome stranger

Taehyung remembered the man approaching him. He had looked older than Taehyung and had sharp delicate features. He had looked sexy and alluring. But his face had looked soft and kind.

Taehyung remembered the man giving him a drink, and Taehyung drank it without much hesitation because he knew he wouldn't be able to say no to such a handsome stranger. He remembered being attracted to him. He was too handsome and sexy to ignore. 

Taehyung searched his mind for more memories. He remembered dancing with the man but then, everything seemed to be a blur. Bits and pieces came to him but they weren't enough to form an understandable scenario in his head.

Tears started streaking down his face and he looked at the reflection of himself in the mirror. He could make out the mark of a hand on his hips and a loud sob escaped his throat.

He felt disgusted in himself. How could he have been so foolish and irresponsible towards himself? To get drunk like that? To give himself to a man who he had met only moments ago?

After minutes or eternity, he walked out of the bathroom. He was able to figure out that this hotel was an expensive one. The room itself was big and the bathroom had looked luxurious too. He took in his surroundings and found his clothes folded neatly on top of an armchair. He walked towards the bedside table and found his phone there and a note.

A fucking note.

Thank you for last night. You were great.

XXX

Taehyung wanted to pull his hair out. The man had had the audacity to leave without a word after fucking and leave a note.

He crumbled the paper angrily and threw it somewhere. He picked up his phone but before he could check his phone, he noticed the dollar bill that was seemingly placed under his phone. Confused, Taehyung picked up the money, only two find a hundred dollar bill.

A hundred fucking dollars.

Taehyung couldn't believe what he was seeing. Did the man leave Taehyung money? For what? Sleeping with him? Did he take Taehyung for a prostitute?

Tears cascaded down Taehyung's face. The man was a dick. He can't believe-

He just can't believe that he was this unlucky. Taehyung couldn't believe that he lost his-

Taehyung's thoughts were interrupted by his phone vibrating in his hand. He answered the call, the moment he saw the ID.

"Hello?"

"Taehyung?! Thank fucking god you picked up. I've been calling you since last night. Where the fuck are you?!" Jimin's frantic and worried voice only made Taehyung sob harder.

"Jimin-ah" Taehyung brokenly said, his voice a mere whisper.

"Tae? Baby, what's wrong? Are you crying? Please tell me you're okay"

"I'm fine," Taehyung said.

"That doesn't sound convincing. What happened? Where did you go last night?"

"I slept with someone" Taehyung's voice broke mid-sentence.

He could hear Jimin's gasp from the other end. "Isn't that good? You finally-"

"I don't remember anything! And he's gone when I woke up!" Taehyung shouted, more tears trailing down his cheeks.

Jimin was silent for a second or two. "Oh, baby. Were you drunk? Wait...did he use you? Did he force himself on you while you were drunk?! I'm going to beat the shit out of him I swear-"

"No, it's not that. I wanted to sleep with him. I hardly remember his face…And I wasn't even that drunk!"

Jimin sighed. "Where are you?"

Taehyung looked around him. "I don't know. Some expensive ass hotel"

"Don't you see some name anywhere? I'll come to pick you up"

Taehyung stood up and walked over to the large mirror in his room. There was a notebook with the hotel's name. "Appleton," Taehyung said. "That's where I am"

"I'm coming baby. Hang in there. You're alright, aren't you?"

"I think so" Taehyung muttered, another sob threatening to escape his lips.

"I'll see you soon, Tae"

"Okay bye," Taehyung hung up.

He felt like burying himself alive somewhere. He knew that he was so damn unlucky but never did he ever think he'd be unlucky enough to sleep with a complete stranger when he was drunk. 

Never did he ever think he'd lose his virginity to a stranger who was probably some player and not remember his first time. How stupid could he be? He should’ve been more careful, no matter much he wanted to sleep with that man and no matter how handsome and sexy he had been. It should’ve been special. And this was nowhere near special because all that stranger had considered him to be is a one-night stand. 

Worse, a prostitute. 

He walked slowly to the bathroom and closed the door to get ready. When he finally stepped into the shower, water drops hit his irritated skin and he could feel himself calming down. He took some shower gel and started scrubbing himself. He scrubbed and scrubbed frantically and it almost hurt. He just wanted to rid himself of the man's scent.

After a few rounds of applying shover gel, again and again, he decided to step out. He quickly got dressed in his clothes from the previous night. He needed to get out of the damned place as soon as possible. After taking one last look at the empty room, he stepped out of there.

He went to the reception, the money the man had given him folded in his hand. He turned over the electric card and asked to pay, only to find out that it had already been paid.

So the man really had taken Taehyung for a whore.

Jimin was waiting for him outside the hotel. He attacked Taehyung with a bear hug the moment he saw Taehyung stepping out. Taehyung returned it eagerly.

After getting in the car with his best friend, he filled Jimin with the details he remembered. Bits and pieces had started to come to him now. He started remembering more and more of them fucking and how it felt good. Also how he wanted it so badly. The more he remembered the more embarrassed he felt. The man had been nothing but a beast in bed. He remembered that much. Taehyung remembered how needy he had been the previous night. As much as there was nothing to regret about the sex, he just couldn't help but regret the whole thing. 

He had always wanted his first time to be special. 

Never did he ever imagine that he would lose his virginity to a complete stranger to who he meant nothing and hardly remember what happened.

"You don't even remember his name?" Jimin asked, eyes on the road as he drove.

"He told me something," Taehyung said and thought for a while. "Ah! His name was Jeon. Mr. Jeon"

"Jeon? That's all? His last name?"

"Yeah. It was his last name"

"Wow, what a dick. He didn't even tell you his name"

"I know," Taehyung said sadly.

“Were you drunk? Like almost-passed out drunk?”

“Nah…I wasn’t.  I’m starting to remember and I really wanted him to fuck me” Taehyung whined, regret clawing up his throat. “He was drunk too I think. Yeah…He looked quite tipsy when he bought me a drink”

Jimin sighed. “I’m so sorry…I know how much you wanted your first time to be special, baby bear”

Taehyung gulped down the sob that threatened to escape his throat. “Yeah”

"Hey, let's go to the carnival to cheer up, okay? Let's go in the evening"

Taehyung just wanted to curl up in his bed and sleep. So he would have less time to think about what happened. But maybe Jimin was right. He needed a distraction.

"Okay," Taehyung said in a small voice.

"Hey, forget about him. Let's look at the good side. Now that you've lost your virginity, you can sleep with anyone. Next month we're starting college. So it's a new life. New people. New beginning. You'll get all the dick you want. Be a whore"

Taehyung chuckled halfheartedly. Jimin was right. He needed to put this event in his past. But...but it hurt too much. He had dreamt of a magical first time his whole life. 

He looked at Jimin and forced a smile. Jimin smiled back, concern permanent in his brows.

Taehyung didn't want to cry again. So he averted his gaze to the road and watched the buildings pass by.


"Where were you last night?"

Jeongguk was welcomed by his wife's cold gaze as he entered the kitchen.

"I was with my friends. You know I go to the pub every Friday" Jeongguk said as he walked over to where his wife was making pancakes and kissed her cheek.

"Yeah but you didn't come home last night"

"Sorry, I came late. Got caught up with them" Jeongguk sat on one of the kitchen stools and watched as his wife poured him some juice.

"I was worried" Jieun, Jeongguk's beloved wife, said as she placed pancakes in front of Jeongguk. She sat next to him. "You never come home late"

"I'm sorry, babe"

"It's okay. Just tell me if you're running late" Jieun said and placed her hand on Jeongguk's thigh.

Jieun, Jeongguk's wife of 10 years, was a beautiful woman. She and Jeongguk had met in school and they got married when Jeongguk was 20. She had been a helpful wife. Always honest and always taking care of Jeongguk's every need. She worked as a lawyer, which had been her dream job since childhood. Jeongguk thought that she had a strong personality. She worked hard to achieve her dream job all the while taking care of a child with Jeongguk. Yes, she was stronger than Jeongguk would ever be.

As to how Jeongguk ended up with a 15-year-old daughter at the age of 30, well, that's kind of fucked up.

It all started when Jeongguk saw Jieun at school one day. He couldn't take his eyes off her. Jeongguk was hypnotized. Knowledge of her being a year older than him didn't stop him from approaching her.

Jeongguk had been only 15 and too young to know how love works. Or to know actually life isn't a bed of roses. And even it was roses have thorns. He definitely wasn't thinking straight when he hooked up with Jieun one night at a party. It was a drunken mistake but the mistake turned out to be a permanent one in his life.

The realization that he'd gotten a girl pregnant had crashed down on his life a few weeks later and made his life a living hell. But his child's mother refused to get an abortion. In all honesty, Jeongguk wanted her to. Because he knew, his life and dreams would only crash down if he decided to raise a child.

How could he manage? When he could barely manage his own life. Getting up from bed in the morning to go to school alone had been a struggle.

But at the end of the day, Jeongguk had to take responsibility for his actions. Fortunately, their parents agreed to support them until they had stable jobs. Jeongguk had strict parents and he was too afraid that they would disown him or something. But they probably had no way out of this too so they decided to support Jeongguk too.

There were many obstacles through their family life, but Jeongguk and Jieun had been together through them, helping each other and supporting each other any way they could. And in all honesty, Jeongguk was glad he had Jieun. And Aria, she was the reason Jeongguk kept himself on his feet through dark times. So Jeongguk was thankful for his wife and daughter for existing in his life.

"Where's Aria?" Jeongguk asked now.

"She's hanging out with her friends today," Jieun said.

"She didn't tell me," Jeongguk said.

"Well you were asleep when she left"

"Oh. Could've woken me up"

Jieun shrugged.

Jeongguk bit on his pancake as he watched Jieun stand up and walk over to the fridge.

Jieun was a devoted wife. And Jeongguk loved her for that. Jieun and he had hardly ever fought. Even when they did, it soon ended with a conclusion and heated, angry sex. Jeongguk didn't want to scar their good husband-wife relationship in any way. He couldn't let some random boy ruin his perfect family life.

So that's why he decided to not say a single word about the happenings of the previous night. The fact that he had just cheated on his wife, for the first time in his life, haunted him. He regretted it immensely. He pitied her. She trusted him too much, sometimes.

Some things were better left unsaid.

He promised himself that no such thing would happen again. Ever. He swore it wouldn't.

But he didn't know to what extent he could keep the promise. Not when the first thing he remembered when he woke up that morning was the boy's face and how good he felt wrapped around his cock.

Jeongguk decided that he was safe as long as he doesn't see the boy again. If he ever does, he will control himself at all costs.

"When's she coming back?" Jeongguk asked Jieun, walking over to the counter where she was cleaning a glass. Jeongguk put his plate in the dishwasher.

"In the evening. I told her not to be late" Jieun said, placing the glass on the counter and turning to meet Jeongguk's dark eyes.

Jeongguk took a step towards her. "Does that mean we have the whole house to ourselves?" Jeongguk was smirking.

Jieun gasped. "Gguk!" She said and punched his chest lightly.

Jeongguk chuckled darkly. He placed his hands on her thin waist. "We could use some privacy, don't you think?" Jeongguk whispered.

"It's still morning!"

"Yeah but I want you screaming my name. You can't scream all you want when Aria's around"

"Jeonggu-"

Before she could say anything else, Jeongguk's lips were on her. She let out a whimper of surprise but kissed back anyway.

Jeongguk's hands slid down her waist and the curve of her ass to her thighs. She had wrapped her arms around Jeongguk's neck as her whole body pressed against his. Jeongguk slowly lifted her dress up, hand trialing to her panties.

"Oh what a naughty girl. You're wearing lace panties" Jeongguk groaned against her mouth.

"Wanted you to see me in them," She said.

"Fuck" Jeongguk swore. "Let's take this to the bedroom. Don't want to ruin your kitchen"

She nodded eagerly and Jeongguk took her from her thighs and carried her upstairs to their shared bedroom.

Jeongguk needed to get his mind off Taehyung. His wife should feel better than the boy, right? His wife's body should make him hard sooner than Taehyung did, right? His wife's moans should be more heavenly than Taehyung's, right?

Should .

But why did Jeongguk's mind keep flashing back to the previous night? When he fucked the beautiful boy? Why did his wife's moans feel less heavenly than the boy's?

Why did he keep wishing to see Taehyung in those lace panties?

Why did he keep wishing that it was Taehyung under him, rather than his own wife?

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°⁴°• The Father's Daughter─✵─────────

Jeongguk stared at the white ablaze laptop screen in front of him. Eyes narrowed and brows knitted together as he read the article in front of him. He adjusted the reading glasses that were halfway down his nose to his eyes to get a more comfortable view of the screen in front of him.

It was a fine Monday evening. College would start in two days and Jeongguk had left earlier that day to collect some of his papers from the university and returned home by midday. Being a university lecturer wasn't easy, he had to prepare for his lectures beforehand, even though he'd been teaching the same lesson for years now. Also, he had to deal with horny, stubborn kids who are in their early twenties. Jeongguk didn't particularly love his job. But he didn't hate it either. He simply liked it. After all, he had wanted to teach people about what made his heart beat faster, what gets him excited. He wanted to teach others his passion: art. And that's what he's doing now.

Jieun was having dinner with her colleagues and that meant Jeongguk had to cook that night. Aria would be home from school any moment now. Aria probably didn't know Jeongguk was home. So he bought her some ice cream on his way home to surprise her. Aria was growing up quickly. In nearly two months, she'd be 16.

Jeongguk had considered Aria a burden and a mistake in his life in the first few months after he had her. But soon she started to become the light of his life. He loved Aria dearly and he'd do anything for her. Aria was the best daughter in the world. But then again, of course, Jeongguk would think that.  she's his daughter.

Jeongguk took off his glasses and stood up to go downstairs to fetch himself a glass of water. He was about to take the staircase down when he heard the front door opening.

Aria must be home , Jeongguk thought.

With a smile etched on his face, happiness evident in his gleaming eyes, he was about to take a step forward but suddenly paused when he heard his daughter speak. Jeongguk stopped in his tracks.

"Come on in, my parents aren't home" Jeongguk heard Aria's voice from downstairs.

Who was she talking to? Jeongguk silently wondered, still glued to his position up the staircase.

Maybe she brought a friend home . Aria was a friendly and popular kid. Jeongguk knew that she had a lot of friends.

"Are you sure?" A deeper and masculine voice.

Jeongguk's heartbeat sped up. The voice was awfully familiar. Jeongguk ignored the weird feeling the voice brought to his body and wondered why Aria had brought a boy home. Maybe one of her friends?

"Yeah" Aria sounded impatient.

Jeongguk decided to move downstairs to greet the guy. But instantly stopped when he heard some sound.

His whole body went cold upon hearing it. Eyes wide with confusion and then realization, he woke himself up from his daze and started to go downstairs in a hurry.

Jeongguk caught sight of his daughter by the doorway. But she wasn't alone.

A boy was kissing his daughter.

Wide-eyed, Jeongguk took some more steps down. He couldn't believe what was unrolling in front of him. The boy's hands were on Aria's waist, her shirt tugged up and his hands wandered on her bare hips. Aria's hands were on the boy's neck. 

Anger surged through Jeongguk as he realized what was happening.

"Aria!?" He shouted.

Aria broke away from the boy. Her eyes were wide open and her lips were glistening with saliva. And it wasn't only her own. Jeongguk felt disgusted.

"D-dad" Aria whimpered. "It's not what you're thinking"

"I know what I saw" Jeongguk growled, as he took a few steps towards his daughter. He was only focused on his daughter. All he could see was her. His whole body felt hot with anger and disgust. All he wanted to do was lash out at his daughter. 

She’s only fifteen. How could she?!

Jeongguk was red with anger. "Is this how we have taught you? Were you trying to sleep with him?"

"Dad, no. I wasn't. He's-"

"Shut up" Jeongguk couldn't contain his anger. He had never been so angry at Aria.

"You hook up with boys? How old are you?! You're barely 16!"

Aria was crying now. "He's my boyfriend!"

"What?" Aria had a boyfriend?

"He's my boyfriend. I've known him for a while now"

"You never told us you had a boyfriend," Jeongguk said.

"I'm sorry. I was going to tell you"

"Yeah? When? After he fucks you?" Jeongguk's temper was riding again.

Aria started crying louder. Jeongguk soon realized his mistake. He was always careful to not swear in front of Aria. But he couldn't contain his anger.

Jeongguk angrily swept a hand through his hair. It was only then that he realized that the boy who Aria had brought home was still standing next to them.

He turned to look at the boy, to give him a good scolding and to kick him out of his house.

But Jeongguk swore his heart stopped beating for a few seconds the moment he laid eyes on the boy. Time seemed to slow down around them. It felt like a dream because it was too good to be real.

Round face, cheeks dusted pink, wide almond eyes, chocolate in color, cute nose, thin lips, slightly parted in surprise, and- oh beautiful blond hair. He was around the same height as Jeongguk. He wore a white tee and a denim jacket over it. His dark ripped jeans, the ones, Jeongguk could swear, he wore the last time he saw him. The ones with a dark patch that's hardly visible. 

The ones, Jeongguk himself took off of the boy's soft, delicate thighs.

The boy hadn't changed during the one month of time. He was still the same innocent-looking creature Jeongguk had met one month ago. And Jeongguk still couldn't believe what he was seeing.

The boy mirrored Jeongguk's expression. Surprise and disbelief. Though Jeongguk thought that he looked a little angry. 

"Taehy-"Jeongguk started.

"Sir" Taehyung interrupted. "I'm sorry for what I've done. But I can assure you that I have no ill intentions towards your daughter" He said.

Jeongguk was speechless. Taehyung was dating his daughter?

Jeongguk laughed humorlessly.

"Aria? Go to your room"

"Yes, Dad," She said. "Please don't shout at him. He's really nice"

Yeah, he's really nice in bed.

" Did I ask for your opinion? Go now " Jeongguk said.

Aria ran upstairs. Jeongguk waited until he heard her door close shut.

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. He looked up to meet the boy's eyes.

"Taehyung?"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "No shit, Sherlock"

Jeongguk was surprised. Now, this was a side Jeongguk hadn't seen on Taehyung.

Jeongguk was speechless. "I didn't know you were dating my daughter"

"And I didn't know you had a daughter" Taehyung was angry.

"Look, I can-"

"Ugh, I can't believe this!" Taehyung started walking around. "I can't believe I hooked up with an old hag"

"What-"

"This is gross. Do you also have a wife?"

"Taehyung, please sit down," Jeongguk said slowly and led him to the sofa, where they sat facing each other.

"Would you like something to drink?" Jeongguk asked nervously.

"Please, Mr. Humbert, I didn't come here to have tea talk with you"

"Taehyung please"

"Okay start. I don't have much time"

Jeongguk sighed. "How old do you even think I am?"

"I don't know? Forty-five? Because your daughter is 16"

"That's definitely not what you thought at the club. I'm only 30"

Taehyung's eyes widened at that. He looked away as if he was unable to meet Jeongguk’s eyes. 

"What?" Jeongguk asked, smirking a little.

Taehyung's blush was a little too evident. "You look younger," Taehyung said in a small voice.

Jeongguk chuckled. "You're not the first to say that to me"

"Do you have a wife too?"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"Wow" Taehyung laughed humorlessly in disbelief. "So you che-"

"Yeah I don't want you to spell it out for me, okay?"

"Oooh daddy's angry" Taehyung teased.

"What did you call me?" Jeongguk said darkly.

Taehyung's smile faded. "Mr. Jeon"

Jeongguk chuckled. "It's Jeongguk"

"Jeongguk" Taehyung repeated. "Sounds like a name of someone who'd cheat on his wife"

Jeongguk liked the way the boy said his name. It was almost sexy. Jeongguk found himself licking his lips unconsciously, completely ignoring the rest of Taehyung's speech. Thoughts only focused on how he wanted to hear Taehyung say his name over and over again. 

However, he was brought back to reality when he took in Taehyung’s face, which was crumpled with distaste. Oh right, Taehyung said something about Jeongguk cheating on his wife. Right. Jeongguk cleared his throat, willing all the inappropriate thoughts to not cross his mind anymore.

This kid is Jeongguk’s daughter’s boyfriend, for fuck’s sake. He shouldn’t be having such thoughts about this guy. Wait…wait a damn minute- 

"Please tell me you aren't my daughter's age," Jeongguk said.

"I'm not. I just turned 20. You're safe" Taehyung said. "Oh god, imagine if I was 16. I'd be like Lolita or some shit. And you, Mr. Humbert" Taehyung chuckled.

"Please don't joke about this. I'm not your stepfather, for god's sake!" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung scoffed. “I mean you could be something like that since I'm dating your daughter”

Jeongguk’s eyes narrowed. “Taehyung, she’s a minor! You’re like four years older than her! You mustn't be dating her!”

“Look, I didn’t know she was that age when she gave me her number okay?”

“That doesn’t mean-”

“Save it. Don’t give me advice about my relationships when you’re the one ruining your family” Taehyung huffed. "I'm getting the fuck out of here. I don't care if you choose to cheat on your wife or not. That's your business"

"So you're just going to leave like you didn't come here to fuck my daughter?"

"No, I'm going to leave like I hadn't already fucked her father," Taehyung said casually.

"I thought you were gay"

"So did I. But I decided to stop sleeping with men after I slept with you"

Jeongguk felt genuinely hurt. "Wow. Was my dick game that trash?"

Taehyung chuckled. "No. Because you were a dick"

Jeongguk was confused. "What do you mean?"

Taehyung stood up and looked at Jeongguk. He started searching his pocket and took out a hundred-dollar bill, which he shoved in front of Jeongguk's face.

"This" Taehyung sounded angry. "Did you take me for a prostitute? To leave money after sleeping with me?"

Jeongguk was hurt. He never thought Taehyung would feel this way about leaving money. "I didn't! I swear! It's just I had to leave early and didn't know how else to apologize. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you" By now Jeongguk had stood up and was facing Taehyung.

Taehyung huffed out a breath. "I can't believe I slept with a jerk like you. I can't believe-"Taehyung's voice broke. "That I lost my-"

"Lost what?" Jeongguk asked, taking a step towards Taehyung.

"Nothing" Taehyung was looking away but Jeongguk could see the blush covering his cheeks.

"Don't tell me" Jeongguk and Taehyung were only centimeters away now. "That I was your first time"

Taehyung took a step back. "Fuck off"

"Wait, are you serious?"

"What?"

"Was I your first time?"

"Yes," Taehyung said in a small voice.

Jeongguk couldn't believe what he was hearing. He did not just-

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I'm-"

"If you knew, what would you have done? Would you not have fucked me?" Taehyung spat.

"Of course I wouldn't fuck you if I knew!"

Taehyung looked at him with wide eyes. "Why?"

"Because your first time should be special," Jeongguk said.

Taehyung looked away with a sigh. Jeongguk even asked him if he wanted it rough because he thought the boy was experienced. He swore the way the boy made him cum from just touching him over his jeans looked nothing like he was inexperienced. Jeongguk thought the boy knew what he was doing. All of his actions during their time together that night felt like the boy had done the same thing many times before. 

"If only I had known...I'm so sorry, Taehyung. I never thought you were a virgin. Even if you told me I would've laughed because your actions spoke otherwise. Was it because you were tipsy? Did you forget to tell me? I'm so sorry-”

“Forget it,” Taehyung said. “I don’t know why I slept with you when I didn’t want my first time to be something so…unremarkable. I was just blinded by lust and need that I forgot my plans to make my first time special”

Jeongguk nodded, eyebrows knitted together with concern. “I wish you had told me. I feel so bad now. I just...you were so irresistible. And I loved how needy you were" Saying these things aloud felt like such a sin. But seeing the way Taehyung's pink blush turned scarlet, there were no regrets left behind.

"What's done is done. I'm over it" Taehyung said sternly.

"Come on. Let me get you something to drink" Jeongguk said. Taehyung followed him to the kitchen. He took a coke can out of the fridge and gave it to Taehyung, who took it hesitantly but opened it and chugged some down.

"You know," Jeongguk said, leaning against the kitchen counter. "You were the first boy I slept with"

Taehyung looked at him, wide-eyed. "Seriously?"

"Yeah"

"Wow"

Taehyung took another sip from his coke. They stayed like that for a while. Jeongguk leaning against the kitchen counter and Taehyung on a kitchen stool, silently sipping his coke. Taehyung seemed to be lost in thought. So Jeongguk took the opportunity to check the boy out.

"Where's the trash?" Taehyung said, making Jeongguk snap out of his thoughts. Taehyung waved his empty coke can in front of Jeongguk.

"Over there," Jeongguk said, gesturing where to dispose of it.

Taehyung stood up and walked over to dispose of it and threw it at the trash bin. The can missed the bin and fell on the floor and rolled over, which made Taehyung walk towards it with a pout. Taehyung bent over to pick up the can.

Jeongguk didn't know if the boy was doing it purposefully when he took an extra-long time to pick up the can. His perky ass in the air and his shirt ridden up to showcase his whole ass. His jeans were tight and Jeongguk could feel himself growing hard as he watched Taehyung put on a show in front of him.

Nasty little thing.

Jeongguk's breath hitched when Taehyung finally picked up the coke can and walked over to the bin, all the while swaying his hips. Jeongguk wanted to release a growl of frustration but he didn't. He didn't want to start anything with the boy. He wouldn't cheat-

"Mr. Jeon. You look uneasy" Taehyung said, standing only a few steps away from Jeongguk.

Jeongguk cleared his throat. He tried to sound normal like he didn't have a boner inside his sweatpants. Like he didn't want to bend the boy over the kitchen counter and fuck him then and there.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Jeongguk said.

"Oh I think you do, Mr. Jeon" Taehyung was smirking. It made Jeongguk so uneasy. It looked like the boy was planning a scandal in his head.

Taehyung stood centimeters away from Jeongguk, so close that Jeongguk could feel Taehyung's breath. Jeongguk was frozen under Taehyung's gaze. But just as Jeongguk started nailing at the kitchen counter he had pressed himself against out of nervousness, Taehyung got on his knees.

Jeongguk's mind went blank for a split second, not able to understand a single thing happening. But a loud gasp escaped his lips as his mind registered what he going to get himself into.

"Taehyung no!" Jeongguk weakly said.

But Taehyung ignored Jeongguk's complaints and tugged down his sweatpants to his knees. He slowly started rubbing his palm over Jeongguk's erection. Jeongguk felt himself give in to that pleasure, losing himself.

Taehyung pulled his briefs down and started stroking Jeongguk's cock.

"Taehyung don't-"Jeongguk tried again, weakly. He knew that his words and actions were like sky and earth in comparison.

Oh, the number of times he wanted his cock in Taehyung's mouth. But every such time he had reminded himself that he has a wife and a family. That he can't give in to such sinful things. But as he watched the tip of Taehyung's tongue make contact with his leaking cock, a bead of cum being licked off, Jeongguk wasn't sure anymore if he could actually control himself; especially not when his fantasies were coming true.

"Tell me to stop now and I will" Taehyung looked up at Jeongguk with his almond-shaped chocolate eyes, which had now gone darker with lust.

Jeongguk stared at the boy on his knees. How in the world could he say no? When this very thing was one of his deepest darkest desires? 

"Be quick" Jeongguk grunted. This will ruin him. But he'd rather get ruined by Taehyung.

Taehyung grinned in awe.

He mouthed at the head of Jeongguk's cock, which made Jeongguk jerk his hips forward, stuttering out a moan. Taehyung gripped Jeongguk's bony hips, licking up the length of his cock and finishing his stripe, taking Jeongguk back in his mouth.

Jeongguk moaned at the warmth around his cock, seeing Jeongguk take more and more of his girth in his mouth. Taehyung swirled his tongue around Jeongguk's cock, making Jeongguk gasp out profanities. He had one hand in Taehyung's hair, and the other gripping the kitchen counter.

There was something about Taehyung that had Jeongguk growing weak. There was some dominance in the boy and Jeongguk needed to comply with whatever the boy said. Jeongguk hated himself for giving himself off so easily but fuck did he love it when Taehyung looked like he was in charge.

"I thought you hated me" Jeongguk uttered out.

Taehyung leeched off Jeongguk's cock after a few strokes.

"I don't hate you. But you were a dick. And now? I'm horny. I'm making you pay me back for being a jerk to me. This is revenge"

"I'm enjoying this extremely. How could this be revenge?"

"I'm making you cheat on your wife" Taehyung smiled innocently. "Now fuck my mouth"

Taehyung took Jeongguk in his mouth again and looked up at Jeongguk as if to urge him to fuck his mouth. Jeongguk stared back at him, still trying to wrap his head around Taehyung's words.

Jeongguk gulped the bile in his throat and held Taehyung's head in his hand. He started thrusting in and out of Taehyung's mouth. Low grunts escaped his throat as he fucked Taehyung's mouth. Taehyung took it with vigor, lavishing around getting his throat fucked. Jeongguk tightened his grip on his hair and shoved Taehyung's mouth further onto his cock.

Taehyung choked, letting out a rough moan while deep throating Jeongguk completely. Tears threatened to spill from the edges of his eyes.

After a few more thrusts, Jeongguk came down Taehyung's throat with a loud groan. Taehyung sucked Jeongguk off until the last bit of his cum was in his mouth.

"Fuck. That was great" Jeongguk said as Taehyung wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and stood up. It was unarguably the best blowjob Jeongguk had had in his whole 30 years of existence.

"I know. My blowjobs are known to be the greatest" Taehyung said proudly.

Taehyung chuckled breathlessly. He pulled up his sweatpants and fixed his shirt. After fixing his attire, he pulled the boy towards himself and wrapped his arms around his waist.

"God, you're perfect," Jeongguk said hoarsely.

Taehyung was blushing. Jeongguk found it cute. No matter how strong the aura of dominance of Taehyung was, he seemed to like being praised.

Jeongguk couldn't help the need to kiss the pretty boy in front of him. He was a true beauty. He might be here to ruin Jeongguk's life but in reality, Jeongguk was the one ruining his own life, by letting his desires take control of him.

Maybe it was the fact that the only person he'd ever slept with had been Jieun. Maybe Taehyung was just too intimidating. Either way, he was cheating on his wife.

Kissing Taehyung was the same as he remembered. But soberer. That blissful warmth that coursed through his body the moment their tongues met each other was still incomparable to anything he's felt before. Jeongguk tilted his head and deepened the kiss, tongue going wild inside Taehyung's mouth. Jeongguk could taste himself in Taehyung and that was the hottest fucking thing Jeongguk had experienced in a while.

They pulled away from each other to catch their breaths. Foreheads pressed together as they gasped for breath.

"I want to fuck you" Jeongguk whispered.

"Then do it"

"No," Jeongguk said. He wouldn't. Not again.

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk. He soon closed the space between their mouths. The kiss was all tongue and teeth and Jeongguk-

"Dad?"

Aria's voice came from somewhere outside the kitchen. The two men jumped away from each other the moment they heard her. Jeongguk and Taehyung wordlessly fixed their appearance.

"We're here," Jeongguk said.

Moments later Aria appeared at the kitchen entrance. She had changed her clothes and she looked scared.

"Did you scold him?" She asked Jeongguk in a small voice.

Jeongguk didn't say anything. "I need to make dinner," He said and turned around to walk to the fridge. He met Taehyung's nervous stare for a moment.

"Will you stay for dinner?" Jeongguk asked.

"I'd love to," Taehyung said. "Mr. Jeon"

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•°⁵°• Stinky Old Man─✵─────────

"You fucking idiot!" Jimin threw his hands up and screamed in devastation.

Taehyung turned around to see his best friend staring at him in disbelief. "Don't scream! These walls aren't soundproof"

"You idiot. How could be someone be so stupid? You should've just spat him in his face and returned the money and skirr skirred outta there ASAP" Jimin said. "Not suck his dick. Jesus Christ!" Jimin exclaimed.

"Look, I know okay? But he was wearing this white T-shirt and sweatpants and Jimin he looked so gorgeous oh my god. I was so turned on. And his dick was screaming to be sucked" Taehyung said. "And he has the biggest dick I've ever seen. So thick and veiny and-"

"I get it! I get it! Stop describing it. And you haven't seen many dicks, have you?" Jimin said.

"I told him I didn't sleep with any guy after him"

"He bought it?"

"Yeah. I'm a good actor" Taehyung chuckled.

Jimin and Taehyung were in the new house they had rented. Well, it wasn't a house because it was more like a dorm. There were lines of rooms in the house. Jimin and Taehyung decided to not get college dorms in their first year because the dorms were expensive. Paying for tuition was enough if a struggle for Taehyung and the place they stayed at when they went to high school was too far from college.

College would start in one day. So the two best buddies had come to their dorm and started unpacking. Their room was quite small. Two beds, a bathroom, a table, and a wardrobe. It was good enough. Manageable. There was a common kitchen for the whole dorm.

"I'm not sure if I'd be able to stay here for long" Taehyung said as he carried a pile of clothes to the wardrobe. "My mom said she lost her job. And she isn't sure if she could send me money this month"

Taehyung's mother worked in New York. His mom and dad were divorced and his dad hardly ever called him. When he did, he'd ask about his studies and things like that. Taehyung felt like his dad only called him for the sake of keeping in touch with him. Just because he's his son. Needless to say, he wasn't Taehyung's favorite person in the world.

Taehyung had lived with his grandparents since childhood. He had moved into the city to go to middle school and since then, he had basically lived alone. Well, he had Jimin and his friends.

"I'm sure we'll figure something out," Jimin said.

"I'll have to find a job," Taehyung said. 

"Things will work out, okay?" Jimin's small hand was on his shoulder and Taehyung gave him a weak smile, not really believing his words, no matter how much he wanted to.

"I'd have to break up with Aria," Taehyung said. "I technically fucked her dad twice"

"Do you know how fucked up this sounds?" Jimin asked, giving him a skeptic look.

"Yeah" Taehyung chuckled.

"Oh my god, you don't really care, do you? You'll literally ruin the old man's family life. What if his wife finds out?"

"She won't. As long as we keep our mouths shut. And it was just once. I was so angry at him. And he isn't old, okay? You just haven't seen him. He's dripping of sex"

Jimin raised an eyebrow at him. "Yeah I'm good with Namjoon"

"Besides," Taehyung said, "It's not like I'm going to meet him again. Not if I end things with Aria. What a shame. She's really pretty. Dude, can you believe she is sixteen? Looks nothing like it. If you heard the way she flirted with me last month when she gave me her number…Like I would’ve never guessed until she told me that time when she decided to take me to her house"

“Bro she’s a walking red flag. He probably knew you were so much older than her that’s why she didn’t tell her age. Should've backed off the moment she told you, though. Even though you can technically date her, it’ll be weird if you have sex with her”

“I know but we were making out right before she told me we should go to ger place and I was so turned on. None of that shit crossed my mind” Taehyung muttered. He already regretted his actions. A lot. “If I backed off we wouldn’t have gotten caught. But she’s so hot, Jimin”

Jimin rolled his eyes. "Break up with her. Look, college starts the day after the next and we'll be new people, right? We'll leave the stinky bulk from the past behind and start a new one. No one there knows us. We can start anew. You can forget that stinky old man and get a new hot guy who's your age"

"For the last fucking time," Taehyung said. "He's not old. And stinky. And FYI, he smelled very nice"

"You get my point"

"Yeah. New life it is!" Taehyung grinned. Jimin smiled back and went back to unpacking.

"But his house was so awesome. It looked so modern and rich. I bet he's filthy rich. He could've been my sugar daddy, don't you think?" Taehyung said.

Jimin gave him a Really? look and rolled his eyes.

Taehyung grinned and went back to unpacking. However, before long, the doorbell rang, making Taehyung and Jimin look up from their work. Jimin shared a confused glance with Taehyung before he walked towards the door to open it. Unbothered, Taehyung continued unpacking, not giving much thought about who was outside. It could’ve been the landlady or someone from another dorm. 

"Is Taehyung there?"

Oh no

"Yeah," Jimin said a little hesitantly and moved aside for the girl outside to come inside.

"Taehyung!" Aria said happily and jumped at Taehyung, wrapping her arms around him.

"Aria, hey," Taehyung said, returning the hug. His eyes were big with surprise because he never thought Aria would visit him. "I didn't expect to see you here"

How did Aria even find out where he was staying? Did he tell her? He might have…maybe he mentioned where he lived some time. He didn’t remember.

"Yeah sorry for turning up without telling you beforehand. I decided to come by since I didn't get to apologize to you properly last night"

Oh

"That's fine. Your father didn't hurt me or anything" Taehyung chuckled fakely.

"He didn't? But he scolded you, didn't he?" Aria said, her eyes big with worry.

"Yeah, a little" Taehyung scratched the back of his head. It was actually the other way around.

"I couldn't hear anything. I tried to eavesdrop but it was awfully quiet. The stupid walls are soundproof. I locked myself in my room for like twenty minutes and cried because I was scared about what would happen to you and when I went to listen, I couldn’t hear anything at all. It made me so nervous"

"He was mad at me but that was fine. We talked it out" Taehyung said, a fake smile tugging his lips upward.

"He isn't usually mean. I've never seen him so angry. I'm sorry. I wanted to spend some special time with you yesterday"

You wanted me to fuck you.

"I know," Taehyung said.

Aria unwrapped his arms from Taehyung. She looked around the room. Taehyung noticed that Jimin had left somewhere and silently cursed at himself.

"This place is so small. How could you manage?" Aria asked, walking around.

"Well, unlike you, I'm used to living in places like these. Besides, it's not that bad. At least this dorm is really clean"

"Yeah," Aria said. "Which one is your bed?"

Taehyung pointed to the one he had chosen as his, earlier. Aria sat down on it and patted the space beside her and gestured to Taehyung to sit. Taehyung did.

"How did you come here? Aren't you supposed to go home straight from school?"

"I am. I wanted to come here to see you" Aria pouted.

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said, suddenly feeling guilty about cheating on her the previous night. To make things worse, it was with her own father. Taehyung couldn't decipher how guilty Jeongguk must feel, knowing he cheated on his wife, with his daughter's boyfriend, whether he approved of him or not.

"For what?" Aria asked.

"Just" Taehyung shrugged.

"What did your dad say about me? Did he tell you to break up with me?" Taehyung said.

"Yeah. He said he doesn't like you. Says you look like a player. He's crazy. You're too cute to cheat on me" Aria said and pinched his cheeks.

Taehyung smiled weakly.

"But who cares. I like you too much to let you go" Aria said.

Taehyung bit his lip nervously. "Aria I don't think-" this is going to work .

Aria's phone started ringing before he could finish his sentence. She took her phone out of her pocket and checked the ID.

"Shit" She cursed. "It's my dad" Aria gestured to Taehyung to be quiet and picked up the call.

"Hello?" Aria said.

Taehyung watched as Aria talked with her dad.

"I'm on my way, dad. There's a lot of traffic today...No of course I didn't go to meet him. Yeah I'll come home straight"

Taehyung's guilt only increased. The way the girl was lying to Jeongguk made Taehyung annoyed for some reason. She didn't sound like a good person. 

"My dad's being a pain in the ass, Tae. I need to go. Or he'll figure out I came to meet you" Aria said after hanging up. "And I'm grounded"

"Hey, don't say that. He just wants the best for you" Taehyung said.

"Whatever. I'm going to go. See you later" Aria said and stood up. Taehyung stood up with her.

Aria stood up from her toes and kissed him. Taehyung was taken by surprise but managed to kiss her back.

Aria was almost two heads shorter than Taehyung. She was so small, even her body, compared to Taehyung. She almost looked like she was his very younger sister. With that thought, Taehyung felt disgusted with himself. How did he even manage to get turned on when she kissed him for the first time the previous day? 

What he was doing was very very wrong.

“Aria, hey,” Taehyung said right before she turned to leave.

“Yeah?”

“I have something to tell you” The sooner this is over, the better. Taehyung didn’t want any more trouble. 

“Can we talk later? Let’s meet again soon” she said, already walking towards the door. Taehyung followed.

“Oh,” Taehyung gulped.

"I’m going! Bye!" Aria said before Taehyung could say anything else and ran out of the door.

Taehyung stood there, guilt still eating at him.

His life felt fucked up. He needed to break up with Aria. He didn't want to mislead the poor girl when he knew he's rather fuck her dad than her. Taehyung didn't want to hurt her. Taehyung wouldn't sleep with Jeongguk again. He shouldn't. Mainly because he's his girlfriend's father and he's like 10 years older than Taehyung. But I mean, let's be real, Taehyung didn't give a fuck about that.

But he just couldn't live with the guilt that he actually did sleep with someone while he was still dating Aria. Aria didn't deserve to be lied to like this. The only way to undo the knot in his life was to break up with her.

Just like Jimin said, college would be a new life. He'll become a new person. He'll forget about Jeongguk and his daughter. He needed to leave Aria behind. He was going to make his dreams come true.

Yes, he'd break up with Aria tomorrow.

And start a new life. Forget Jeongguk. Forget the man who took his virginity. Yes. He'll never meet Jeongguk again.

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°⁶°• New Beginnings ─✵─────────

Walking through the hallways of Taehyung's new campus, trying to find the place where his lecture was conducted was truly a hassle. The place was huge, with hallways leading to different parts of the campus and lecture halls. Jimin and Taehyung had collected their schedules and were walking in search of their lecture halls. Fortunately, both of them had History of Arts as their first lecture for the day.

Taehyung wants to major in arts and become an artist. Or art psychologist. Just anything to do with art. He'd always loved painting and had won a couple of awards for his paintings throughout his teens. He even did some art-related projects back in high school, which he was so passionate about. He was fortunate enough to be chosen to Beverly, one of the biggest and best colleges in America that offers globally recognized art degrees.

Taehyung had applied to many colleges back in high school, but this is the closest one he had been chosen to. He was selected to a one in Califonia too but he decided that it would be difficult for him to afford to stay there than Beverly so he chose Beverly. He had high hopes to get selected to this university called the New York Art Academy, which is known to be an art student’s dream and the most prestigious art university in America. Taehyung knew for him too, it will only be a dream. However, he was satisfied with Beverly, mostly because he still gets to hang out with his high school friends who went to Beverly with him.

"Oh! This must be the one" Jimin said as he paused in front of a double door that said B2. Taehyung too paused in his tracks, coming back to earth from the sound of Jimin’s voice. He looked at the huge double door in front of him.

"Yeah. That's the one" Taehyung said, checking his timetable.

The two boys pushed open the doors and stepped inside. They were awestruck by what was in front of them. They had walked into a massive lecture hall. Taehyung swore there were at least 300 seats in there. And more than half of them were already filled with students. People were chatting loudly and no one took notice of Taehyung and Jimin's arrival. On the front of the lecture hall were a massive stage and aboard. Seemingly, the professor hadn't arrived yet.

"Wow" Jimin breathed, looking around, mesmerized. Taehyung mirrored his best friend's expression.

"Come on" Taehyung dragged Jimin to find a seat for themselves. The back rows were filled and the few front rows were empty. Taehyung found a couple of seats that were empty and decided to sit there, around the middle of the lecture hall.

More and more students kept streaming inside. "This class seems really popular. Don't you think?" Jimin whispered from beside Taehyung.

Taehyung was rummaging his backpack for his headphones. "Yeah"

"I heard the history teacher was hot," Jimin said. "I've always hated history but maybe we'll be able to enjoy this lecture"

Taehyung chuckled.

"And maybe you can forget about that old Mr. Jeon of yours. I mean you're hot. If you act like the teacher's pet, maybe you'll be able to get in his pants"

Taehyung gave him a disgusted look. "I can't believe you're my best friend. I thought we were all about new beginnings bro"

"We are, bro. But I've seen you looking dead yesterday, probably thinking about that old man of yours. You need to get laid. I’m just saying, heard the professor was hot"

"I'm still dating Aria" Taehyung muttered with a sigh. He was going to meet up with Aria the previous day but she was grounded, apparently. And Jeongguk had come to pick her up from school. The guy really didn't want his daughter hanging out with Taehyung. "And I'm not into old men anymore"

"Who says he's old?"

Taehyung sighed. "Well he's a professor. He can't be in his mid-twenties. He should at least be in his thirties"

"Yeah. I guess you're right" Jimin said.

"And besides, why are you talking about a professor that you haven't even seen? I pity Namjoon"

"No, no. I love him. Just because I'm dating Namjoon, doesn't mean I can't appreciate what's hot" Jimin smirked.

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "You whore"

Jimin burst into a fit of giggles, earning a few looks from neighboring students. Taehyung wanted to sink into himself. 

"Please don't draw attention, it's our first day here. Stop embarrassing me" Taehyung whisper-shouted.

"Alright," Jimin said, wiping a tear and started scrolling through his Instagram. Meanwhile, Taehyung put on his headphones and closed his eyes, listening to the soothing melody that was playing.

A few songs later, Taehyung was forced to open his eyes by Jimin, who was nudging his elbow at him. Taehyung took off his headphones and gave Jimin a what the fuck look.

"He's here" Jimin whisper-shouted. "Oh my god. Look at that hotness. I'd totally bend over for him. Shit, look how built he is. He looks so daddy! Taehyung look!" Jimin was practically drooling.

Taehyung followed Jimin's gaze into the front of the lecture hall.

There stood a man. He had his back facing the students, apparently arranging something on the table. He was wearing a black button-up shirt, tucked in his black trousers. His back alone looked so hot. And he was obviously well-built. He had a thin waist and wide shoulders. But something about him was awfully familiar to Taehyung.

Then he turned around.

Taehyung's heart skipped a beat or two. He forgot how to breathe. Their history of arts professor was none other than Jeon Jeongguk.

"Shit" Taehyung cursed out. He looked at Jimin and he was still staring at Jeongguk, wide-mouthed.

"Jimin!" Taehyung's said, panicked. Jimin finally looked at him, confused.

"What?!"

"That's Jeongguk! Jeon Jeongguk! Aria's dad!"

Jimin stared at Taehyung like he was doing some math equation that was written in Taehyung's face.

"Wow" Jimin said, finally. "So much for new beginnings"

Taehyung wanted to bang his head against a wall. He was going to start a new life. Forget about Jeongguk and find someone better. Younger. Less father-of-my-girlfriend type of person. But he guessed that he was the universe's laughing stock now. Some clown. Because life played him just like that.

"I mean I can see why you slept with him. And sucked his dick" Jimin said.

All around him girls, as well as boys, were drooling over Jeongguk. No better than Jimin. Taehyung prayed that Jeongguk doesn't notice Taehyung. I mean, it should be impossible, right? There were basically 300 students here.

Jeon Jeongguk smiled at the students. Taehyung could practically hear the students sucking in a breath. 

"Good morning, class," Jeongguk said. "I'm Jeon Jeongguk. You can call me Professor Jeon or Mr. Jeon" Jeongguk grinned at his audience.

The students practically swooned.

"You'll be working with me for the next 4 years while you complete this degree and I hope we'll have an amazing time together," Jeongguk said, smiling. 

God , he was so charming. No wonder why all these students were drooling over him. The man didn’t look a day over twenty-five and he was built like some greek god. Everything about him screamed perfection, including his handsome face and sweet melodic voice, the way syllables rolled out of his tongue, letting out a series of words that felt like honey against Taehyung’s ears. 

"To give you a small description about myself, I know you hate these but hear me out. It's better to know who's teaching you, so you can trust me with your education, right? So I have a Ph.D. in History of Arts..." Jeongguk went on, babbling about all the degrees he's done, his Ph.D. and how many years he's taught at Beverly, which is only three, mind you.

His self-praise didn't last long, as he promised.

"Shall we start our work, now? And don't be shy to raise your hand and ask me any question you like" Jeongguk gave the students a warm smile.

"Okay. Turn to page 13 of the book you received this morning. And take notes when you feel like it"

The lecture started. And Mr. Jeon turned out to be good at teaching. Taehyung figured that fucking wasn't the only thing he was apparently good at. Taehyung did his best to try to focus on the lecture. The way Jeongguk walked around the stage, the way his back muscles flexed against the tight spots of his shirt and the way he laughed or smirked from time to time were extremely distracting. Taehyung had to slap himself mentally at least twenty times during the lecture to stop his thoughts from escalating into something that was definitely not related to the topic they were learning about. 

About 50 minutes later, the lecture ended and students started streaming out of the hall. Taehyung had noticed that no one had actually fallen asleep during the lecture. Even though the subject was quite boring, staring at Jeon Jeongguk wasn't boring at all.

And Taehyung hoped Jeongguk hadn't noticed him.

"What do you have next?" Jimin asked, gathering his stuff.

"Photography," Taehyung said, standing up. "You?"

"Fine arts," Jimin said. "See you later, then?"

"Yeah"

"Are you going to talk to him?" Jimin said, inclining his head towards the front of the hall, where around a dozen of girls, who were giggling while talking to Jeongguk. Jeongguk too seemed to be enjoying their company.

"Are you out of your mind? Like, hell no. Let's get outta here" Taehyung said.

Jimin chuckled. "He'll see you, sooner or later"

"Just go," Taehyung said and started to walk outside. Just as he was about to exit the hall-

"Mr. Kim!" A voice called.

Taehyung turned, knowing who had called his name.

Jeongguk was still surrounded by girls. He was looking at Taehyung, a warm smile etched on his face.

"I would like to have a word with you," Jeongguk said.

"Yes, sir," Taehyung said and walked over to Jeongguk. The girls eyed him jealously.

"Do you have a girlfriend, Mr. Jeon?" One of the girls asked.

Jeongguk chuckled. "Unfortunately, I'm off limits for you girls, I'm sorry"

A series of oohs and ahh s followed his statement, along with makeup-covered faces pouting. 

"I think you girls should run along now. You'll be late for your next lecture" Jeongguk said. The girls nodded and bid their goodbyes and left.

Taehyung watched them leave. The door closed loudly after they exited, making Taehyung almost jump. Taehyung's stomach started bubbling out of nervousness, now that he and Jeongguk were alone.

"Taehyung"

Taehyung turned to face the man leaning against the wooden desk on the stage. He was smirking at Taehyung. Taehyung gulped down the bile in his throat.

"Didn't think you'd be doing the art degree" Jeongguk said.

"Oh well," Taehyung shrugged.

Jeongguk chuckled. Taehyung eyed the man dressed in all black. He looked more handsome, now that Taehyung was only a few feet away from him. The shirt was slim fitting and so were his pants. The whole outfit hugged his muscular physique. He looked so damn hot and Taehyung would totally bend over that desk for him. Right then and there.

Shit, he really was no better than all the other students of his class.

"Take a photo. It'd last longer" Taehyung's thoughts were abruptly stopped by Jeongguk's voice that was an octave lower than before.

Taehyung mentally cursed himself for checking out the older man so openly. His embarrassment was too visible from the blush that gathered in his cheeks, dusting them pink.

"I n-need to go. I'm going to be late for my next lecture" Taehyung mentally slapped himself for stuttering. He turned to leave, mentally reminding himself to walk as fast as he can. But his plans were proven useless when a large hand gripped his upper arm and pulled him back. Taehyung stumbled backward and tried to regain his balance. But the only thing that he could find for support was Jeongguk's body. Taehyung helplessly clutched onto Jeongguk.

Jeongguk was still gripping Taehyung's arm. He quickly let go and Taehyung detached himself from Jeongguk, the pinkness of his cheeks getting darker.

"Sorry," Jeongguk said. "But your lecture doesn't start for another ten minutes. I need to tell you something"

"Say it," Taehyung said.

"I need you to stay away from my daughter," Jeongguk said.

Taehyung scoffed. "Why? Don't want your daughter finding out you slept with her boyfriend?"

"Of course I don't. Look, Taehyung" Jeongguk stepped close to Taehyung. "I made a mistake. I cheated on my wife and I regret it. But I have a family to maintain. I can't have anyone ruin what I built so I'm sorry"

“You talk as if I forced you to cheat” Taehyung spat. The audacity of this man. “If your family gets destroyed from what you did, it’s your fault. Not mine. I was single when we fucked. You didn’t remember that you had a wife and a daughter when you followed me to the nightclub and fucked me in some hotel, did you? If you value your family so much you should’ve controlled yourself”

Jeongguk sighed, nodding. His eyebrows were knotted with hurt. “I know. I’m not blaming you. I did what I did but I regret it, Taehyung. I just don’t want anything happening to my family. And Aria. No matter how much I want to fuck you”

"Yeah, I know," Taehyung said with a sigh, feeling guilty again. "You know I wasn't serious when I said I'm going to make you cheat on your wife. I wouldn't do that"

Jeongguk chuckled lightly. "I know. You can’t make me do anything that I don't want to do"

Taehyung nodded, smiling a little. 

"But I'm telling you this as Aria's father. Not as the guy you once slept with. I would like you to let my daughter go. Let her be"

"What if I don't?"

"Taehyung you're five years older than her. She is 16 and wrong. And you guys aren't going to work out anyway. And you literally came to my house that day to fuck her. As her father, I won't let you do that. She's too young. And you could’ve gotten in so much trouble if Aria’s mom found out"

Taehyung looked away. "When did you lose your virginity, huh? When you decided to make a girl pregnant?"

"My daughter isn't me. I won't let her do the same mistakes I made"

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk. He looked so young. In a way, Taehyung pitied Jeongguk. He lost his teenage years due to having a child at fifteen. And only sleeping with one person for his whole life? When he's as hot as some Greek god? Over here in America? Sucks. Girls and boys would be all over him and on their knees for him 24/7. He probably missed all that in his high school and college days.

"Alright. I'll break up with her. I was going to do it the day after I met you but didn't get the chance to" Taehyung finally said. "I kind of feel uncomfortable with kissing her and stuff when I literally sucked her father's cock"

"Thank you," Jeongguk said. "I hope we don't get involved with each other after this. You should start a new life here"

"Why? I'm no longer attractive?"

Jeongguk laughed. "You? Unattractive? "Jeongguk took a step towards him. They were only about one foot apart. "Baby I'd bend you over right here, right now, and fuck the living lights out of you if I could. And I'm controlling myself so damn much right now"

Taehyung's breath hitched in his throat at Jeongguk's words. He felt his dick twitch.

“I thought you said you wanted to keep your family stable” 

Jeongguk licked his lips. “ I do. But I still want you. How could I not? You’re fucking gorgeous. I’m just controlling myself. A day hasn't passed since that time you left my house where you didn't cross my mind. What have you done to me, Kim Taehyung?” 

Taehyung gulped as he stared into Jeongguk’s eyes. His eyes were pitch-black; sexy and breathtaking. Taehyung but down on his lip as he stared.

“I can’t help wanting you. All I want to do is fuck you” Jeongguk whispered. More than lust, there was emotion in his voice. As if he was battling his demons inside. 

However, Taehyung couldn’t help but be turned on by Jeongguk’s words. 

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed out. He backed himself to the writing board behind him.

Jeongguk smirked at Taehyung and stepped closer to Taehyung. He was trapping the smaller boy between his arms now.

"I want you so fucking bad" Jeongguk's whisper was hot against his ear. He buried his nose in the crook of Taehyung's neck and inhaled the boy's scent. Taehyung closed his eyes as he felt tingles travel through his whole body.

"Fucking want you" Jeongguk groaned. Taehyung had a rock-hard boner in his pants now.

Jeongguk nosed Taehyung's pale, unmarked neck. Then Taehyung felt the professor's hot lips replacing his nose. The man continued to place soft kisses up Taehyung's neck to his sharp jaw. His hands traveled to hold the boy's waist and he pressed himself against him. Taehyung felt Jeongguk's lips linger on his jaw. And soon, the man was nibbling the soft, mellow skin right under his jaw. Jeongguk licked and bit on the skin and Taehyung had to cover his mouth with the back of his hand to muffle out his moans.

"You should stay away from me" Jeongguk whispered hotly against his neck and continued to nibble on his skin.

"I should stay away from you" Taehyung moaned out as Jeongguk gripped his ass. Taehyung should push Jeongguk away but he couldn't. He knew he needed to start a new life in college but as Jeongguk started nibbling on his collarbone and his hands flew to clutch Jeongguk's body, feeling up the curves and muscles.

Taehyung wanted to touch Jeongguk properly, to feel his muscles up and map the curves and crevices with his mouth some time. Wanted to feel him up. Not like this. Not over the clothes. Taehyung wanted him naked.

Jeongguk kept kissing and sucking his collarbone. Taehyung was sure there's a mark formed there by now. Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's soft ass, making him whimper.

"Jeongguk!"

Jeongguk hummed in approval and kissed the red patch that had bloomed on the boy's beautiful pale skin.

Taehyung could feel Jeongguk's boner against his thigh. The thought that he made a full-grown man hard in a small amount of time was a freaking turn-on for Taehyung. He was about to yank Jeongguk's face away from his neck and kiss him-

Riiiiiiiing

An annoying sound echoed through the lecture hall and Jeongguk literally jumped away from Taehyung.

"Shit" He cursed.

Taehyung figured that must be the bell, signaling the beginning of the next lecture.

Frustrated and not doing what to do, Taehyung stood there, eyes scanning the wooden floor beneath his feet. Jeongguk too looked frustrated. He cleared his throat, making Taehyung look up at Jeongguk.

"I think you should go to your next lecture," Jeongguk said, voice husky.

"Yeah," Taehyung said in a small voice. He picked up his backpack that had apparently fallen on the ground sometime during their encounter.

He quickly walked out of the hall. Outside, students were moving here and there and fortunately, no one took notice of him. He walked quickly until he came to the men's bathroom and inspected the destruction that had happened to his neck. A huge reddish mark was on his collarbone and a few more less-prominent and fading marks were on his neck. Mentally cursing at himself, he fished his pockets for his phone to call Jimin. Jimin always had a concealer with him.

Unable to find his phone in his pockets, he quickly searched his bag for it. He gave up, panic eating at him. His phone was nowhere to be found. He searched his memories to where he could’ve left it and he remembered.

He had left it in the lecture hall.

Mentally cursing himself for the millionth time that day, he fished out the scarf he keeps in his bag and wrapped his scarf around his neck and put on his jacket. At least the outfit was fashionable. It wasn't even a cold day but he'd rather be seen as a weirdo than with those hickeys.

Luckily, the hallways were almost empty. He quickly walked to the next lecture hall, telling himself that he'd go search his phone at lunch.

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°⁷°• Mayonnaise ─✵─────────

"Fuck my life"

Taehyung let out angrily as he barged into his dorm room and threw his backpack on the floor.

He didn't think his first day at campus would suck this much. After his photography lecture, which he was 10 minutes late to thanks to Jeongguk, he had gone to the Art History lecture hall in search of his phone. But his efforts were proven futile when his phone was nowhere to be found. He had taken half of his lunch period to investigate the whole massive hall. He had given up, in the end, and made it to the cafeteria and joined his friends to eat lunch.

His gang consisted of him and Jimin, Hoseok, the funny and happy-all-the-fucking-time one, Namjoon, who is Mr. Brain, and Yoongi, the I-don't-give-a-fuck one. They had met each other in middle school and have been best friends since then. All five of them were lucky they were able to attend the same college. Even though they had applied for different degrees, they were more than happy that they'd be meeting at lunch and English.

Namjoon was going to be a doctor. Hoseok and Yoongi liked to work in the music field. And as for Jimin and Taehyung, they were going to get art degrees. Jimin was into other things like contemporary dance too, which he took part-time classes for. 

Somehow his friends had suggested that he inform the help desk that he had lost his phone and to tell Mr. Jeon about it. But being the stubborn boy Taehyung was, he refused to go to Jeongguk's office. And didn't inform the help desk. Hid did not want to see Jeongguk. 

At the end of his first day at college, he had lost his phone and was suffering from a massive boner. He wasn't joking when he said his life sucked. And he couldn't afford to buy a new phone right now.

Taehyung pushed open the door to the bathroom now and locked it. He was so fucking frustrated and angry. And Jeongguk. Ugh! He was such a dick. At least he should fuck Taehyung after kissing him like that! But the bastard just left him with a boner.

At this rate, Taehyung was sure he'd get blue balls.

"Fuck my life" He muttered for the nth time that day and pushed his jeans and boxers down a little and took out his hard cock.

He hissed as the cold air hit his hard cock. Taehyung started pumping up and down at a slow, steady pace. He fucking hated Jeongguk. He was a grown-ass man. He should be able to control himself, right? Even if he couldn't, he must finish what he started. He's such an asshole.

But a hot asshole.

He was sexy as fuck. Like, what teacher even has a fine body like that? Taehyung thought that he'd be having old men for his lectures at the college. Because he always imagined that men with PhDs were grandpas with white hair. He was not expecting Jeongguk.

To make matters worse, what he wore today was beyond sexy on him. Who even wears such things for a lecture? I mean it's just a shirt and trousers but still... Taehyung wouldn't be surprised if he popped a boner during the lecture.

He just wanted Jeongguk to fuck him so badly.

Yeah. So much for new beginnings.

"Fuck!" Taehyung let out and covered his mouth with the palm of his hand. Jimin had gone to Namjoon's dorm so Taehyung was alone for the moment so he could be loud as he desires. But then again, the walls weren’t soundproof. 

He stroked his length faster as he imagined the way Jeongguk fucked his mouth only two days ago. And Taehyung swore Jeongguk's kisses were the best. 

He has had his fair share of kisses and blowjobs. Given and received. Before and after Jeongguk. But the only person he had had sex with was Jeongguk. And some part of Taehyung wanted Jeongguk to be his second time too. Because damn, that body was to die for.

Taehyung hadn't seen Jeongguk naked properly. He had, their first time, but he doesn't remember much details of it. Not of his body. Just the fact that he had a great one.

Taehyung moaned out as he felt his climax approaching. He threw his head back and choked out moan after moan. His hips bucked and thrust into his palm as he felt his orgasm build up and pure pleasure run up and down his spine. 

"Jeongguk! Ah!" Taehyung moaned out and came into his palm.

He panted afterward. He had just jerked off to his professor. His girlfriend's father. That's a whole another level of fucked-up. Ignoring the guilt that's creeping up his throat, he washed his hands and fixed himself, and stepped out of the bathroom.

He wasn't expecting to see Jeongguk standing inside his dorm, a smirk plastered on his face.

Taehyung paled. All the blood in his face traveled south. He wanted to bury himself right then and there. Jeongguk had probably heard him. What kind of embarrassment is this?!

"Wh-what the fuck are you doing in my dorm?" Taehyung shouted.

Jeongguk chuckled and started walking slowly towards Taehyung. With every step he took, Taehyung took a step back. Until his back was pressed against the wall, next to the bathroom door.

Jeongguk kept advancing on him until their bodies were centimeters apart.

"Not like you didn't want me to come here and fuck you," Jeongguk said.

"How did you know where I was staying?"

"It's not really hard to get information from Aria," Jeongguk said. "She's quite a nice kid"

"I hate you," Taehyung said.

"Not what I was expecting to hear," Jeongguk said. "I came to give you this"

Jeongguk fished his pocket and took out something. Taehyung moved his eyes away from Jeongguk's dark orbs and looked at what he was holding. It was his phone.

"Where did you get that? I was searching for it everywhere!" Taehyung grabbed his phone from Jeongguk and clutched it to his chest.

"Well, you left it in the lecture hall. I couldn't leave it behind. I came to give it to you"

"Oh" Taehyung was glad that Jeongguk found his phone, not anyone else. "Thank you"

"No problem" Jeongguk smirked.

Jeongguk was staring at Taehyung intensely. He realized that Jeongguk has dark, doe-like eyes. His facial features were soft and delicate. It would've looked really cute if it wasn't for his toned body.

Taehyung had a thing for muscles. He'd go as far as to say that it was a kink. And Jeongguk seemed to be satisfying his late-night dirty imagines a little too much.

Taehyung tore his gaze away from Jeongguk's intense glare, suddenly realizing the ungodliness of the trial of thoughts in his head. He placed his phone on the desk next to him and looked down at his feet. Taehyung felt awkward and didn't know what to do. The fact that Jeongguk knows that Taehyung jacked off thinking about him and the said man was standing right in front of Taehyung at that moment, made Taehyung wish for sweet sweet death to devour him.

Jeongguk's gaze and smirk followed his every action; never faltering. Taehyung reached up to scratch the back of his neck in embarrassment but his hand was caught midway in action. Taehyung looked up from his feet to see Jeongguk tightly gripping his arm.

Taehyung was confused and was going to question the elder's actions when Jeongguk turned his arm around a little and examined the sleeve of his sweater.

"Is this...cum?" Jeongguk asked and turned his sleeve around to show Taehyung what he was talking about.

Taehyung flushed fifty shades of scarlet when he saw the sleeve of his right hand. Because it indeed was...cum.

"N-No! It's not! It's um..ah! Mayonnaise! Yes," Taehyung stuttered.

Jeongguk's smirk grew wider and the next thing Taehyung knew, Jeongguk and Taehyung's bodies were pressed together and Jeongguk took his sleeve into his mouth.

Taehyung gasped. Embarrassment and arousal crashing on top of him in waves. He could feel his dick twitch as Jeongguk kept his eyes on Taehyung and sucked on the sweater.

Jeongguk hummed after he was done. "Tastes like cum to me," He said.

"Fuck you"

"You really want that, huh?"

Jeongguk kissed his wrist, which he was still holding. He nibbled on the soft skin there and Taehyung watched as he left many visible marks on his skin. Taehyung was so freaking turned on by now.

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed. Jeongguk started kissing up to his palm up to the pads of his fingers. Taehyung pressed his fingers against Jeongguk's lips and Jeongguk watched Taehyung's expression. It was pure lust and desire.

Taehyung added more pressure and Jeongguk parted his lips. Taehyung's fingers were met with wet flesh. Taehyung couldn't help the shivers that ran down his spine when Jeongguk's tongue brushed Taehyung's fingers ever so lightly. Taehyung's breathing was becoming irregular as his whole body was being numbed by lust. Small pants escaped his parted lips.

Taehyung pressed his fingers further. Now, three of Taehyung's fingers were a knuckle deep inside Jeongguk's mouth. Jeongguk stared at Taehyung with big eyes, darkened by lust.

Jeongguk's tongue glazed over his fingers, dampening them with hot saliva. Jeongguk started sucking on them and Taehyung pushed his fingers a little further and the next thing Taehyung knew, Jeongguk was lightly sucking his fingers.

He was getting worked up in his lower regions. He didn't think it was humanly possible for anyone to get a boner minutes after ejaculation. But then again this was Jeongguk he was dealing with. And he dripped sex.

Jeongguk lightly bit Taehyung's fingertip which made Taehyung whimper and pull out his fingers.

"Ouch" Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk chuckled darkly. He took a step back, giving Taehyung some fresh air to breathe. "I'll see you tomorrow then," Jeongguk said and turned to leave.

Wait wait wait. Hold the fuck up. Is Jeongguk going to leave Taehyung after all that? After sucking his fingers like a Popsicle? No fucking way. No, sir. Not today.

"Ex- fucking -cuse me? You're leaving?" Taehyung cried.

"Yeah?" Jeongguk said casually.

Taehyung laughed humorlessly and walked towards the closed door where Jeongguk stood.

"After...after.... this ?" Taehyung gestured at himself. Jeongguk's eyes traveled all over the boy. His eyes lingered over the very much visible tent in Taehyung's pants.

"Taehyung I have a wife," Jeongguk said. "I just came here to return your phone. I'll see you tomorrow in class"

Jeongguk turned to leave but Taehyung grabbed his arm and pushed him against the wall. Jeongguk closed his eyes for the briefest moment as his back hit the wall, a yelp of surprise escaping his lips.

"You're going nowhere until you take care of the problem you caused" Taehyung gritted out. "And you didn't quite remember that you had a wife then you sucked my fingers, did you?"

Jeongguk smirked. "Look how needy you are"

Taehyung glared daggers at him. He boldly squeezed Jeongguk's dick, which Taehyung could feel against his thigh, half hard.

"Fuck" Jeongguk let out.

I'm offering you to fuck me. Me, who swore to myself that I'd never sleep with a prick like you again. You're really going to turn that down?"

"I'm offering you to walk away from me. Start a new life here in college. You’re really going to turn that down?" Jeongguk shot back.

"Yes. I want to lose my virginity for real this time"

Jeongguk stared. "I thought you slept with people after I fucked you"

"I lied. I didn't" Taehyung said. He only blew off a person or two. "Now will you fuck me or not?"

Jeongguk’s soft eyes scanned Taehyung’s sharp ones as if he were trying to solve a calculation. Taehyung could see how he was contemplating his decisions, the way he seemed to be fighting a battle deep inside his heart: whether to be a slave for his darkest desires or save what matters to him the most. 

It took a few long moments for Jeongguk to decide on the sacrifice he’s going to make. 

"Get on the bed" Jeongguk ordered.

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°⁸°• Touch Me Like You Do ─✵─────────

Taehyung grinned from ear to ear, finally having won over the older man. He walked and laid over the bed and Jeongguk just watched. Taehyung sexily posed on the bed, the way he'd seen actresses lay on beds when they're waiting for their man-whores to come fuck them.

Jeongguk looked as if he was fighting a war inside himself. Taehyung pitied the man. He had a wife. But he wanted Taehyung. Maybe sometimes you just got to say fuck it and do what you want. 

"If you're hesitating because of her" Taehyung stated. "I'm sorry this sounds wrong but...forget her for a while. I know you want me"

Jeongguk stared for a while. "I want you so badly, Taehyung. You're so irresistible"

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk as he ran a hand through his hair in frustration.

“I’m going to hate myself if I do this,” He said in a small voice. “I…I want you and I don’t want to let you go. Why is it so hard to control myself around you?”

Taehyung sat up on the bed. ”You want to fuck me. Is that not what you want the most right now?”

“It is”

“Then do it. Fuck me” Taehyung whispered. “You need to say fuck it sometimes, Jeongguk”

Jeongguk let out a sigh, nodding. "You’re right" He locked the door and made his way towards Taehyung's bed. He stared down at Taehyung, who was now sprawled back on the bed, looking at Jeongguk seductively.

He knelt on the bed and hovered over Taehyung, who lifted himself up as the older man slowly brought his face towards Taehyung. The smaller boy placed his hand on Jeongguk’s neck as he pressed his lips against Taehyung’s. 

Taehyung smiled into the kiss, feeling like he was living his dream. It felt like it; to be kissed by Jeongguk- so softly and so passionately at the same time.

Taehyung felt Jeongguk’s lips stretch into a smile against his lips, which made the boy want to giggle. 

“If my life is bound to be destroyed, I would rather have it destroyed by your lips” Jeongguk whispered against Taehyung’s lips.

Taehyung’s eyes snapped open, widening. He couldn’t help himself when he smirked and dragged Jeongguk downwards so that their bodies were pressed. Jeongguk chuckled into Taehyung’s mouth and began kissing him at a different angle. 

A few minutes later, Jeongguk finally detached himself from Taehyung and started unbuttoning his shirt. Taehyung stared in awe as button after button started to reveal his pale skin. Taehyung was out of breath by the time Jeongguk had thrown his shirt somewhere on the floor.

Jeongguk's chest was broad and his waist was small. His toned stomach led down to a perfect v-line. He looked like he had jumped straight out of a men's health magazine. Taehyung's mouth was agape as Taehyung took in the Greek sculpture before him.

Jeongguk smirked. "Would you like to stare all day or let me fuck you?"

Taehyung looked up at Jeongguk's face and gulped. "Fuck me please" he whispered.

Jeongguk snickered and sat back down on the bed after taking off his shoes and socks. He hovered over Taehyung, on top of him and pressed a chaste kiss on his lips.

Taehyung cupped Jeongguk's neck and brought his face closer and deepened the kiss. Jeongguk's lips were soft, just as Taehyung remembered them. One of Jeongguk's hands was on his waist, on his bare skin and he caressed there softly. The other hand was propping himself up.

Jeongguk broke the kiss to catch his breath. Taehyung cupped his face and looked into his eyes.

"I'll take care of you, okay? You'll be fine" Taehyung said softly. He couldn't help feeling bad for him.

Jeongguk chuckled. "Sounds like something I should say"

"Why?" Taehyung was confused.

"'cause I'm topping"

"Oh. But I mean you should focus on me so you don't have to worry about anything else"

"I will, sweetness" Jeongguk kissed Taehyung's cheek. "I intend to do that"

Jeongguk pressed one last chaste kiss onto his lips before he started kissing down his neck. The places he had left marks on earlier were still visible. He licked them slowly as his hands wandered on Taehyung's hot, naked skin.

"I'll make your second time as special as it could be, okay? I'll treat you so well" Jeongguk said in between kisses.

Taehyung was feeling all tingly and hot. Jeongguk was leaving a trail of hickeys along Taehyung's chest and stomach, which was nowhere near as toned as Jeongguk's. When Jeongguk reached his belt, he looked up to meet Taehyung's gaze, as if to ask for permission. Taehyung silently nodded. He wanted Jeongguk to get the fuck on with it and fuck him hard quickly but he also wanted to cherish this. Jeongguk was so careful and delicate when he touched Taehyung as if he was something precious. It had Taehyung feeling things.

Taehyung suppressed his need to flip Jeongguk over and take the lead. Instead, he decided to bask in the dominance Jeongguk was offering Taehyung.

It felt good. Nice. Which was something Taehyung had never felt. He didn’t like being taken control over. To be under the power of someone. 

But the way Jeongguk was touching him made him feel important. As if he was someone that was worthy of being touched like that. Be given pleasure to. That his pleasure too was important. As if he was worthy of being touched so lovingly and preciously. 

It felt odd. 

But still nice. Taehyung sighed and pressed his head against the pillow under his head. He relaxed his whole body and diverted his concentration towards Jeongguk’s hands, lips, and tongue against different parts of his body. He let himself be kissed, touched, and marked. 

It felt so, so amazing and loving and pleasurable, Unlike anything Taehyung had ever felt. 

Jeongguk's long fingers tugged at the belt and undid it slowly. Then came off the top button. Then the zipper. Jeongguk took extra time to unzip his pants. His fingers brushed past Taehyung's bulge and he almost moaned at the feeling.

Jeongguk pulled off Taehyung's pants along with his boxers. His hard cock sprang free and slapped his stomach, and stood there between his milky thighs, wet and red.

Jeongguk threw away his pants and knelt between the younger boy's knees. His eyes hungrily took in the smaller boy's body. Taehyung flushed red and covered his cock in embarrassment.

"Don't" Jeongguk growled and took his hands away. "Stop hiding from me. You did this the first time too"

"I-I did?" Taehyung whimpered. He didn't remember.

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. "You have a gorgeous body. So pretty and perfect. Why hide?" The older male traced a finger over the milky soft thighs of Taehyung. He shuddered under the touch.

"I'm smaller than you" Taehyung let out in a small voice.

Jeongguk chuckled. "You're adorable"

"You take off your clothes too," Taehyung said, suddenly feeling too exposed when Jeongguk was only shirtless.

"Of course" Jeongguk started undoing his belt and pulled down his zipper. Taehyung stood up and tugged his pants down and Jeongguk just watched with a smirk as Taehyung pulled the pants down. Jeongguk's large cock sprang free, almost hitting Taehyung in the face.

After Jeongguk was fully naked, he got on top of Taehyung again and kissed Taehyung roughly, pushing his tongue down his throat making Taehyung moan. Taehyung felt Jeongguk's cock against his and he rutted against Jeongguk, to find some friction. Jeongguk pulled away and moaned as Taehyung kept moving his hips against Jeongguk.

"Fuck" Jeongguk said and knelt between Taehyung's knees.

"On your front" he ordered.

Taehyung was confused for a second. "No. I want to see you while you fuck me"

Jeongguk eyed Taehyung for a second. "Any way you want it, baby" He said and got up from bed. He picked up his pants and took out a condom from his wallet. "Got lube?"

"Yeah. In the bedside table" Taehyung said and Jeongguk walked over to get the lube. After climbing back on the bed and placing the needed items beside him, Jeongguk bent the younger's knees and kissed his inner thigh, making Taehyung squirm.

"This is going to hurt a little. Tell me if you want me to stop" Jeongguk said softly.

Taehyung nodded. He was a bit scared and nervous, in all honesty. This was basically his first time since he didn't remember much from his first. His heart was racing.

"No need to be scared, okay? I'm here" Jeongguk said softly as if he was reading Taehyung's mind. He squeezed the bottle of lube and got a generous amount on his fingers.

Taehyung nodded, uncertainly. Jeongguk's words kind of reassured him.

"Pretty baby" Jeongguk breathed. The next thing Taehyung knew, there was something unfamiliar prodding at his entrance. He squirmed the moment Jeongguk's finger pushed a little in, but barely. Taehyung started to whimper.

"I'm barely in"

Taehyung whimpered again. It felt too weird. He had never had anyone's fingers down there. Ever. Well, his own didn't count. And he didn’t remember how Jeongguk’s fingers felt there the first time. 

Jeongguk kept pushing in until his whole middle finger was inside Taehyung. His lower stomach throbbed strangely at the feeling and Taehyung whimpered more. Jeongguk pumped his finger in and out of Taehyung and soon added another. The stretch was quite painful, especially when Jeongguk started scissoring his fingers inside Taehyung.

Jeongguk kept pumping his fingers in and out of Taehyung and his thighs quivered. Jeongguk curled his fingers inside Taehyung, making him moan loudly. A strange but addictive feeling coursed through his body as the professor dragged his fingers over a lump inside him.

The pain had vanished and all Taehyung could feel was an addictive pleasure. His moans were long and whiny and he pushed his hips into Jeongguk's fingers while he was thrusting. It felt so good, he couldn't get enough.

Jeongguk licked his lips at the sight of Taehyung fucking himself on his fingers.

"More" Taehyung stuttered. "Want your cock"

Jeongguk chuckled darkly.

"How bad do you want it, baby?"

"Just fucking put it in" Taehyung growled impatiently as Jeongguk had taken out his fingers moments ago. He was feeling awfully empty. He needed something to fill him up.

"I'll have to fuck that attitude out of you one day" Jeongguk growled darkly.

Taehyung would love that very, very much.

Taehyung heard a foil packet being ripped open and watched as Jeongguk put on the condom on his cock and lubed it up. He hovered over Taehyung and aligned his tip with Taehyung's hole.

Taehyung felt the hard thing poke his entrance. Jeongguk was so big. He wondered if it'd hurt. Jeongguk looked up at Taehyung and he nodded, to tell him to go.

Jeongguk did. He pushed inside Taehyung in one go until he bottomed out. Taehyung gasped and moaned as he felt something much larger than two fingers filling him up. He clutched onto Jeongguk's biceps for support as a ripping sensation numbed all his senses. He wasn't feeling any pleasure at all.

Taehyung couldn’t help gasping for breath. His heart rate seemed to have picked up and his eyes wide open. All his walls were stretched to fit Jeongguk and all he could feel was pain from that.  Jeongguk was too fucking big, that's the problem.

"Fuck you're tight" Jeongguk groaned. "Tell me when to move"

Taehyung felt the need to tell Jeongguk that there was nothing wrong with himself, that the only problem is that Jeongguk was too big. He decided against voicing out his thoughts because Jeongguk having a big cock is actually good for Taehyung-

"Go"

Jeongguk started drawing his hips back. Then he pushed it in again. Likewise, he started with shallow thrusts. Taehyung's pain disappeared moments later and every time Jeongguk's cock slid past the bundle of nerves inside of him, shockwaves of pleasure surged through his body making him moan out loud.

It was a pleasure different from anything he had ever fet before. He had had his fair share of blowjobs and handjobs. But that pleasure is nowhere comparable to what he was feeling now. This, he felt through his whole body. On every one of his nerves. He needed more. 

"Fa-Faster" Taehyung let out, as he felt heat pooling in his lower regions and something building up. The pleasure was electric and he felt so fucking full. 

Jeongguk did. He mercilessly slammed into Taehyung making the boy almost scream as shockwave after shockwave of electrifying pleasure made his body quiver. He dug his nails into Jeongguk's biceps, unable to contain the addictive sensation. Jeongguk fucked him like he'd waited his whole life to do this. Desperate, throaty moans and grunts escaped his throat.

"Mr. Jeon! Ah!" Taehyung moaned out, and Jeongguk groaned. 

Taehyung remembered moaning his name the first time they fucked. It was quite obvious Jeongguk liked it when Taehyung called him that. 

The bed creaked with every powerful thrust of Jeongguk. His thrusts were animalistic, he had momentarily forgotten that it was only the poor boy's second time and that he shouldn't be so rough on him. He supported his weight on his forearm whilst he kept the other on Taehyung's hips to keep him in place. All the air in Taehyung's lungs was knocked out of him.

Jeongguk brought his mouth to Taehyung's, kissing him. Taehyung didn't have enough strength to kiss him back as eagerly as Jeongguk did. Taehyung dug his hands into Jeongguk's hair and pulled lightly making him groan and bring his body closer to Taehyung's. That way, his thrusts were deeper. It was almost as if Jeongguk was hugging Taehyung, rather than hovering over him. Profanities and slurred words filed out of Taehyung and Jeongguk did him just right.

"I'm g-gonna-" Taehyung moaned out and taking the cue, Jeongguk reached out and grabbed Taehyung's dick and started stroking it.

Jeongguk too was busy chasing his own climax, thrusts becoming faster and both their bodies rocking together. Pre-cum leaked off Taehyung's member as Jeongguk kept stroking him.

"Fuck" Jeongguk let out and Taehyung focused on Jeongguk's face. It was scrunched in pleasure. Like an addict, a lust-crazed moron, Jeongguk chased his own euphoria. Taehyung swore he hadn't seen anything more satisfying than Jeongguk's face moments before he came: his eyes big and teary, face flushed red sweat glistening his forehead and his previously neatly combed hair now a mess with dark locks all over his face. He looked so darn sexy.

Tears were streaming down Taehyung's face due to the pleasure that he was receiving. But he took no care for that.

"Mr. Jeon! Fuck!" Taehyung came, his toes curling and eyes rolling to the back of his head from the pleasure. A long needy moan escaped his lips. Soon followed Jeongguk. The professor kept riding out his climax and collapsed beside Taehyung. They both lay there trying to calm their breathing.

After what felt like minutes, Taehyung turned his head to look at Jeongguk, only to see dark onyx orbs staring back at him. Jeongguk smiled at Taehyung.

Taehyung was amused. But he managed to return the smile. Taehyung's mouth had grown dry and he couldn't find words to speak, even though he had many things to tell Jeongguk at that moment. The fact that he needs to feel that again was one of them.

But he kept his mouth shut.

Jeongguk reached over and pecked his lips. Then he kissed the tear stains on either side of Taehyung's face. He then smiled down at Taehyung. "Thanks"

It took a few moments for Taehyung to register what Jeongguk said, as he was too busy being mesmerized by the face peeking at him.

"For what?" Taehyung's voice was hoarse from all the moaning.

"For taking care of me"

Oh

Jeongguk sat up and reached out to the bedside table and took out a packet of wet tissues, from the same drawer that the lube was kept. He carefully cleaned Taehyung and wiped off the droplets of cum on himself as well.

Then he got up from the bed and disposed of the tissues and the condom. Taehyung watched silently as Jeongguk did all these, unable to even move a single limb. It brought him great joy to watch Jeongguk walk around his room in all his naked glory. His thighs were thick and so was his ass. Taehyung licked his lip at the sight.

"Can I use the bathroom?" Jeongguk asked.

"Yeah" Taehyung said.

With difficulty, Taehyung sat up on the bed. All his limbs ached and there was some ripping pain on his ass that made him almost scream. He was about to stand up when he heard someone's ringtone.

Jeongguk's phone was ringing. Taehyung eyed the closed bathroom door. He heard the water running. Jeongguk was either running a shower or cleaning himself. He'd take some time, right?

Taehyung took wobble steps towards where Jeongguk's trousers sat on the floor and fished out his phone.

Jieun the caller ID said.

Who's Jieun? Taehyung wondered. The phone kept ringing noisily and Taehyung was running out of patience. After a while, it stopped ringing. Taehyung sighed in relief.

Then before Taehyung could muster up a single other thought, the phone started ringing again. Taehyung stared anxiously at the phone screen that said the same caller ID from before.

The shower was still running. What if it were an emergency? Jeongguk didn't seem to be coming out of the bathroom anytime soon. It can't possibly do any harm, right? This might be the stupidest idea he’s ever had but-

Taehyung slid the call button to the side.

"Jeongguk? Where are you? I came home early-"A hurried female voice said from the other side.

Taehyung panicked.

"Jeongguk? Are you there?" She said.

"H-Hello?" Taehyung said slowly.

"Oh my god! Who's this? Where's Jeongguk?"

"Ma'am-"Someone grabbed the phone from his hand and Taehyung turned to see a scowling Jeongguk beside him.

"Hey, babe" Jeongguk said to the phone. "I'm still at the university. Yeah, I'm on the way....that was a friend of mine...I'm sorry about that...of course. Will do....love you too"

Jeongguk hung up the call and looked at Taehyung. Taehyung watched him with puppy eyes. That was probably his wife, right? Shit. Taehyung almost fucked up. Big time.

"What fuck were you thinking? That was my wife!" Jeongguk thundered.

"I'm sorry. She-she called twice I just thought-"

"Enough," Jeongguk said and started getting dressed.

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said as he watched Jeongguk fixing himself.

"Fuck, Taehyung, you should be more careful. If she finds out, I'm done" Jeongguk said.

"I'm sorry I just-"Taehyung let out shakily.

Jeongguk turned to face him. He sighed when he saw Taehyung almost in tears. He picked up his underwear and handed it to Taehyung who silently took it and put it on.

"It's fine. Just...be more careful next time. You know how much I'm putting my family in line for this"

"Yeah," Taehyung said, fiddling with his fingers.

Jeongguk walked over to Taehyung and put his forehead against Taehyung's. "I love this but I hate it at the same time. I hope you'd understand that you need to keep this a secret, okay? And steer clear from me. You're too fucking irresistible. Your body is literally begging to be fucked"

Taehyung giggled at that.

Jeongguk continued, "So next time I really won't be able to control myself. Might fuck you in front of all the students if you keep wearing tight jeans like that" Jeongguk said jokingly.

"I should keep wearing these then" Taehyung whispered against Jeongguk's lips. "I have a public sex kink"

Jeongguk chuckled. "Oh?"

"Hmm" Taehyung hummed and pressed his lips against Jeongguk. It was soft but intimate. Before the kiss got dirty, Jeongguk pulled away and Taehyung pouted, wanting to taste Jeongguk a little more.

"I'll see you in class tomorrow," Jeongguk said and kissed Taehyung's forehead. He heard the door unlock and then close behind him. When Taehyung turned, Jeongguk was gone.

And his room reeked of sex.

Great

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•°⁹°• I'm fucked 101─✵─────────

Jeongguk Jeon, one of the best, most popular professors in the Art department at Beverly, was known for the casual atmosphere he created during his classes. Most students chose him for their classes not only because of his extraordinary teaching skills, but also his good looks.

The sparkle of his dark brown eyes that matched the darkness of his hair, curls that covered his eyebrows, the full-lipped smile he offered anyone that came his way. And not to mention...his flirtatious remarks towards his students once or twice a day. But they were mostly harmless. Unless someone takes it personally and comes up to him after a class and brags about their good knees.

His charm was that he looked younger than his years. It wasn't a popular fact that he was a married man with a kid among students. Jeongguk didn't think he'd have to make it known. Because his private life has nothing to do with his career. But his fellow staff knew of this matter.

He may have been offered a blowjob or two or a dozen in the last few years in his career. He recalled them to be moments he regretted dressing in jeans too tight or being too flirtatious towards a student or two. He always had the decency to refuse the offers, no matter how intimidating the student was.

There were hardly any complaints filed under his name, Jeongguk knew. Well, except those times he had cursed once or twice during one of his lectures that had someone feeling offended. He usually kept formal attire and mannerisms during lectures.

Well, History of Arts wasn't the most interesting subject to Jeongguk's students. He knew that, no matter how passionate he himself was towards the subject among other ones. So he always tried to create a casual atmosphere in his class. He tried to crack a joke or two, wake up a drooling boy and make him red with embarrassment making the whole class snicker. One would say, and Jeongguk had heard people saying, that they love his class because of the obvious eye candy called Jeongguk Jeon. But Jeongguk liked to give himself credit for his teaching skills rather than his looks for the lessening amount of sleepers in his class.

Jeongguk always had his class call him anything they liked. From Doctor or Professor or sir or even Jeongguk for some brave students. Many called him Mr. Jeon too. However, it didn’t have much effect on him until Kim Taehyung started calling him that. 

The little devil would greet him in the hallways or in the parking lot every morning, with a wide-mouthed grin, that Jeongguk noticed was one of a rectangular shape, and a "Good morning Mr. Jeon". Jeongguk's heart melted every time the boy smiled cutely at him. The way he said it, the way ‘Mr. Jeon’ rolled out of his sinful tongue had Jeongguk flashing back to the many moments the boy had said it the exact same way but in different circumstances. It would make him feel uneasy for the rest of the day.

Jeongguk Jeon had his principles and morals. He might be a total flirt. Someone most students could consider a friend and someone with who they could talk about anything, given his friendly persona. But he was never someone who crossed boundaries.

The whole university knew him as rather boisterous. True, he was very playful. He was the youngest professor in Beverly. That is if you didn't count Irene, the Fine Arts professor, who's the same age as Jeongguk himself. But no one could file a complaint about him. Nor did the senior professors and department heads dare speak to him about any complaints, if there were any. Mainly because he had done three pieces of research in the past three years and his third publication was going to be out of the press any time soon. It wasn't as if anyone could kick him out of Beverly for swearing in class; he was one of the best professors. The lecture hall filled with students proved the point.

Therefore, despite being unruly and playful at times, he knew what he was doing. He always did. He was good at what he does. From teaching to fucking.

So he didn't flirt back when students obviously flirted at him. Neither would he ever flirt with any student when he was alone with him or her. He only threw out a blush-worthy remark or two during his class. He was principled, just like that.

He was still principled when Taehyung Kim pushed him against the green board every day after the lecture is over and kissed him roughly. The boy pushes him with so much force that the board rattles as Jeongguk's back hits it.

It's messy. And needy. Despite the boy's frame being smaller than Jeongguk, not having had worked out for the muscles, he was the same height as Jeongguk. His hands were wild as they roamed all over Jeongguk's body, tugging up the shirt that was tucked inside his pants. Their mouths crashing unevenly and hurriedly trying to devour each other.

Jeongguk was just as desperate; his tongue licking the inside of Taehyung's mouth and teeth crashing with Taehyung's momentarily because there's never a plan to how to start or end their brief make-out session. It always started and ended with Taehyung.

After continuing for around ten minutes, only stopping briefly to catch their breaths, Taehyung would pull away and smirk at Jeongguk and leave without a single word. And a minute or two later the bell would ring, signaling the start of the next lecture period.

And Jeongguk would watch Taehyung leave with a full grin plastered to his face.

Damn, he was so fucked.


"And then this woman's voice spoke from the other and I knew I was fucked. Like dude, she sounded so mad when another dude answered her husband's phone. She sounded like a bitch though. Like one of those possessive wives who boss their husbands around and tell them to go grocery shopping while they watch TV. Serves her right that I slept with her husband" Taehyung finished and flipped his imaginary hair.

His group of friends stared at him as if just told them that he slept with the hottest professor of their college. Oh wait...that's exactly what he said.

Jimin was the first one to speak up. "I thought you were supposed to keep it a secret.

"Meh," Taehyung said as he bit on a chip.

"So you slept with the History of Arts professor, Dr. Jeon AKA the hottest professor in Beverly who also turns out to be married and the father of your girlfriend," Namjoon said, trying to process what he'd just heard.

"Yeah, no biggie," Taehyung said. "But I didn't see Aria in weeks so we're kind of over anyway. She's hardly my ex bruh. I never liked her that way and we hardly dated"

"Dude if I was you and that dude was into me like that, I'd sleep with him too," Hoseok said, chuckling.

"But you're straight, Hobi" Yoongi, who had apparently woken up from his nap, sleepily muttered.

"Exactly" Hoseok grinned.

"You're just saying shit about his wife right now because you want to justify the fact that you made Dr. Jeon cheat on his wife," Namjoon said.

"It's not like he didn't desperately want it too" Taehyung said with a pout. "We didn't have sex in weeks though"

"Maybe he finally realized that he shouldn't cheat on his wife," Jimin said.

"Nah he kisses me like he misses me so yeah Nah," Taehyung said and sipped his coke.

"I don't know, bro," Namjoon said, scratching his head. He's always been the overthinker. "It's wrong and unprofessional but fuck that. Just be safe"

"I will" Taehyung said. "We just fuck. No strings"

"If I was you I'd fuck him too. And I bet most students of his class want to too" Yoongi said.

"Yoongi!" Namjoon said, annoyed. "Not helping!"

Yoongi shrugged.

It was lunch and the five guys were in the college cafeteria. It had almost been a month since college had started and for Taehyung, everything was going okay. He and Jeongguk hadn't had sex after that first day at college. Okay, Taehyung might have blown the professor once or twice between periods but that's not sex. And Taehyung was low-key frustrated. His own hand hardly did him any good.

He and Aria had been another case. Taehyung had texted her that the thing between them isn't going to work but Aria had told him that they should meet up and discuss this. He knew it was cruel of himself to break up with the poor girl over a text and he just didn't want to meet her. Every time he saw her on social media, his whole body froze with guilt. He had cheated on her and she didn't deserve it.

Aria should know that it's not going to work out anyway since she's too young and Taehyung was too old for her. It's basically unethical, for fuck's sake. Taehyung knew he should've said no when Aria gave him her number. But being too naïve and too hung up on I-lost-my-virginity-to-a-stranger and Jeongguk, he wasn't thinking straight (no pun intended) when he agreed to go on a date with her. He just needed a distraction.

And it was so, so wrong of him to lead the girl on like this.

Taehyung sighed now. His life seemed so fucked up.

Taehyung was looking around his plate of food, his appetite suddenly lost, and looked up at the crowds of students roaming the cafeteria. His eyes were met by another pair of eyes staring at him.

William. William Taylor was looking at him. William was known to be one of those fuckboys in college. Legit every girl crushed on him. He had those blue eyes, high cheekbones, perfect height, and nice long hair that reached halfway to his neck. And he was smart. He studied astrophysics so he must be smart. It's like a plus one for all that hotness.

Taehyung gulped as he started walking towards his table. Taehyung looked behind him if anyone was behind him but it turned out to be just the wall. He elbowed Jimin, panicked.

"Dude is William coming this way?"

Jimin looked up and gasped. "He is! Why is he coming this way?!"

Before Taehyung could say that he didn't fucking know, a velvety voice said, "Hi"

Taehyung looked up to meet William looking directly at Taehyung, standing beside him.

"Hello?" Taehyung croaked out.

"Taehyung, right?" William's voice was friendly.

"Yeah," Taehyung said.

"I'm William. Nice to meet you" William said, extending his hand.

Taehyung stared at his hand extended towards him for a good ten seconds before he realized that he should probably shake it. He groggily stood up and shook it.

"Nice to meet you too"

"I'm having a party this weekend at my house. It's not far away from college. I was hoping you'd come" He said.

Wait...what?

Is a popular kid inviting Taehyung to a party? Only those popular kids went to those. 

"I...um..."Taehyung stumbled for words. He looked behind him to see his friends looking at the scene unfolding before them, wide-eyed.

"Oh I mean all of you," William said. "All of you guys are invited"

"Oh," Taehyung said. And before he could say anything at all-

"We're coming!" Hoseok said.

William grinned. "Awesome! I'll see you on Friday!" William said and waved at Taehyung and the others and walked away.

Taehyung sat on his seat. "Dude why did you say that we'll come?" Taehyung asked Hoseok.

"Dude it’s William Taylor. The hottest student around here. We'll never get invited to those parties like ever if we missed this chance. We should show off that we're cool too"

“Come on man, we’re in university. Doing our undergraduate degrees. Who cares about being cool? That’s high school shit. Literally, no one cares whether you’re cool or not” Yoongi grumbled. 

“Yoongi, come on! We can get some free booze and if you’re lucky you’ll get laid” Hoseok said. 

“Booze? Okay fine I’ll go. Anything for some free booze” Yoongi said, making Jimin and Hoseok chuckle. I mean, it'd be fun but...

"I have a bad feeling about this" Namjoon said.

"If you and he decide to hook up, please wear a condom," Jimin said.

"What the fuck?! Why would he hook up with me?! I mean look at me!" Taehyung gestured towards himself. He wasn't even that hot.

"Why else would he invite you first?" Hoseok said.

"Okay if you want, hook up with him and get over Jeon," Namjoon said.

Taehyung sighed. He didn't feel like letting Jeongguk go. He's literally a beast in bed. But the dude had low-key been avoiding him. Taehyung had dropped hints multiple times after their once in a while make-out sessions that he wanted to get dicked down but the older man had totally ignored them. 

It wasn’t every day he got to meet Jeongguk after lectures. He only had the class three days a week. The other two weekdays, he only saw Jeongguk once or twice in the hallways or the parking lot, where they never talked. Even then, even though Jeongguk made sure to smile and smirk at him, and even though after every lecture Taehyung had, Jeongguk managed to kiss him with so much passion, the man didn’t seem to want to do anything more than a blowjob. It frustrated Taehyung. 

He knew what he was doing and he understood why Jeongguk might be hesitating. They didn’t have any kind of relationship. No labels either. Hell, they weren’t even fuckbuddies and they’ve only slept together twice! Whatever they were having was nothing but temporary. Insignificant.

And if Jeongguk isn’t willing to give Taehyung more attention, he might as well move on. 

"Yeah whatever" Taehyung grumbled. There was no use being hung over a guy who isn’t willing to take some time off and fuck Taehyung. 

Taehyung hoped to have fun at the party. This was the first party he had been invited to in college. So he would make the most of it. As much as he wanted to forget about Jeongguk and move on from the married man and as much as this party would be the key to that, he didn’t know if this whole thing would be a curse or a blessing to his life. 

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•°¹⁰°• Needs and Wives ─✵─────────

Taehyung smacked his lips together in satisfaction after finishing up his lipstick. He looked cute, Taehyung thought. Cute enough for William's party.

He hadn't put much effort into his make-up; in fact, he had only applied a little bit of foundation, eye shadow, and after some nagging by Jimin, a thin line of eyeliner. The lipstick wasn't too flashy either. Well, Taehyung didn't want to look like a drag queen when he basically only wore tight jeans and a T-shirt.

Jimin, on the other hand, wore tight high-waist jeans that brought out his round, plush ass and a pink crop top partly revealing his defined abs. He knew he was hot and he liked to show that off.

Friday night came sooner than expected for Taehyung. And it felt like he had gone weeks without any sex. Which he had. He was disappointed with how it was going on with Jeongguk and him. But he understood that both men were busy and Taehyung had started playing soccer so he didn't exactly have much time to have any action with the older man in the evening. Constant blowjobs, which seemed to have come to a halt a week or so earlier and the making out on some occasions just weren't enough.

Taehyung had tried to hint Jeongguk that he needed more than what they were having many times in the past week since the frustration only seemed to grow. He wanted Jeongguk and all he could think about was him. Besides, Taehyung had kept it only to Jeongguk for the last month. They didn't have a label, yes. But that didn't really bother Taehyung. What he was bothered about was that Jeongguk was being such a coward.

Taehyung gets it. He wants to keep stuff low-key. He has a wife and a kid. But the man can't really keep his hands to himself. He wants Taehyung. But sometimes he's just too afraid to make a move on him. So he just keeps it at blowjobs.

Taehyung is just saying that if he fucked Taehyung once, he should just keep doing it. Solely because he wants it too, not just Taehyung. But every time they were together, making out or between a blowjob, Taehyung can see that he wants to do more. But he’s controlling himself. 

Just because he doesn’t fuck Taehyung doesn’t change the fact that he’s cheating on his wife. If it bothers him that much, he should break things off with Taehyung properly. But the man has no control over himself and can’t help wanting Taehyung. 

If Jeongguk isn’t willing to give Taehyung what he wants, he will do it himself. 

So today he decided he's going to get some dick. He was frustrated. And no, he didn't feel like he was cheating on Jeongguk. They didn't have a title. They were nothing. Besides, Jeongguk probably fucks his wife every night after a college day. So what if Taehyung does the same? There shouldn't be a problem, right? 

He nodded to himself in the bathroom mirror and stepped out, seeing his bunch of friends already gathered in his and Jimin's dorm room.

"Should've taken a few more hours, princess" Hoseok said.

Taehyung rolled his eyes.

"Shall we go?" Yoongi said. "Someone please tell Joon and Jimin not to have sex in front of my virgin eyes. Please!"

Taehyung chuckled, turning to look at the said pair making out on the bed. Fortunately, they had stopped, awoken by Yoongi's voice.

"Ok let's go," Namjoon said, grinning cheekily. On cue, everyone stood up from their spots and started streaming out of the room. 


"For the last fucking time Jin, I'm not going," Jeongguk said making the man on the other side of the phone line huff out and start nagging at him again.

Jeongguk, sighed, listening to Jin's endless complaining, and continued to cut a carrot. Jeongguk had decided to make dinner that night since Jieun had come home later than usual looking tired. She works so hard these days, Jeongguk noticed. He knew that working at a law firm wasn’t easy. 

"Dude come on!" Jin said for the hundredth time in the last thirty minutes. "You sound like a grandpa I swear. Do you ever have fun?"

"I'm busy tonight, Jin"

"Making dinner isn't an excuse to miss a fabulous party!"

"I don't even understand why you'd want to go to a party filled with college kids. Those places tend to get wild with every passing hour. We weren’t even invited. Not to mention that they’re our students!"

"That's exactly why we should go! My cousin's son is throwing that party. They told me to keep an eye on him while they were abroad and this fucker is throwing a party. If we go, I'd be able to keep an eye on William and we'd be disguised and we can have some fun!"

"Jin in case you forgot, I'm married. Your description of fun doesn't match mine. Besides, there aren't any girls around your age in there. I'm sure everyone is a college kid. Your students, Jin!"

Jeongguk wanted to laugh at himself after saying those words. He should be saying those words to himself. He's the one sleeping with a student.

"I'm not going there to take someone home! We can get drunk and dance. I've never been to a college party since… college"

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. 

"And help a brother out. Please. You're my best mate"

“You can go alone, man” 

“You literally have no friends other than me. Spend some time with me. Let’s go get drunk” Jin pleaded.

"Look, I'll think about it, okay?" Jeongguk said finally.

"Yes!" Jin exclaimed. "We'll go at about 11. Everyone would be drunk or high then. No one would recognize us"

"Alright," Jeongguk said and went back to cutting his carrot.

"What was that?" A voice said behind Jeongguk, the moment he hung up on Jin.

"Oh, that was Jin. Wants me to go to a party with him" Jeongguk said after seeing Jieun standing behind him. "Aren't you tired? Go get some rest. I'll make dinner"

"I'm not, honey. And you should go"

Jeongguk turned to look at her in surprise. "But I'll be out for a couple of hours"

"That's fine. You should get out there more. You're only thirty and you hardly have any friends"

"That's not true!"

Jieun giggled and pinched Jeongguk's cheek. "Whatever. Just go"

"You aren't afraid?" Jeongguk said, looking at her with big eyes.

"No? what would I be afraid of? The dark?" She giggled. "That you'd cheat on me? You wouldn't do that" She laughed.

Jeongguk laughed uneasily, his laugh forced out as he felt guilt build up in his stomach. 

He nodded and went back to preparing the meal. He didn't have the courage to meet his wife's eyes.


"Wow" Jimin breathed out the moment they entered William's house. Well, it wasn't a house. It was a mansion. The place was huge. All around them people danced and talked, holding red cups in their hands. Taehyung felt nervous, seeing a lot of seniors and popular kids at the party.

People were making out and some looked like they were about to have sex then and there. There were many people there and it was really crowded. Some people he'd never seen before were there too.

"Come on!" A hand tugged at his arm and dragged him deeper into the party. They stopped to get some drinks. All his friends looked excited to be here. Especially Hoseok, who was jumping up and down to the loud bass.

"You going to dance?" Jimin asked Taehyung and before he could respond, he was dragged into the dance floor by Hoseok. They formed a small circle and started dancing. Well, Hoseok danced and Yoongi, well, he just stared at Hoseok with his cute gummy smile while vibing. Namjoon and Jimin had already stepped up their game, not even minutes had passed until they got on the dance floor, and the two horny young adults were grinding on each other.

Taehyung finally decided to vibe in. Plastic cup in one hand, the other hand in the air, he started moving to the beat of the song that was playing. And in no time he was enjoying himself.

Taehyung was actually having fun, dancing wildly to the beat, adrenaline high in his veins. Hoseok laughed as he watched, cheering him on and coming up to him to dance with him when Taehyung felt a hand on his waist. He turned around to meet a tall guy with hair that reached his neck.

Taehyung smiled at William, who smiled back. Taehyung's heartbeat sped up. William was really hot. He looked more handsome that night, with that V-neck he wore, which exposed his gorgeous collarbones and chest.

"Hope you guys are having fun" He shouted over the music.

"We are" Hoseok shouted back.

"Awesome" William grinned.

"Come with me, pretty?" Taehyung heard William whisper in his ear, making Taehyung blush red.

"Sure," Taehyung said without much hesitation.

William took him by his hand and led him through the crowd. Taehyung briefly looked back at his friends who had stopped dancing and now were watching Taehyung go, all of them grinning.

Jimin made a ring with his fingers and inserted his index finger in and out of it, making Taehyung roll his eyes.

Taehyung and William stopped at the table with alcohol and refilled their cups. 

"Are you enjoying my party?" William asked.

"I was. Until you came along" Taehyung said.

William laughed. At least the guy can take a joke, Taehyung thought. "I'm a very fun person to hang out with, you know"

"I'm sure you are," Taehyung said, grinning. 

"Want to see for yourself?"

"What?"

"Come on" William took Taehyung by his hand and whirled him around, making him giggle. In no time, the two were laughing and dancing. William had his hand around Taehyung's waist and he already knew what the guy was coming for.

He's a fuckboy. And if he wants to fuck him and treat him like he never knew him the next day, Taehyung will be okay with it. You need to be a player to play with one.

Taehyung's suspicions became real when the guy started grinding on his ass. The moment he did, Taehyung flashed back to the moment he first met Jeongguk. At that nightclub. The situation was almost the same. Just another guy who wanted to fuck Taehyung. Nothing out of the ordinary for Taehyung. Whenever he went to a club or a pub, there would always be a few guys who’s offering to buy him drinks and promise him all kinds of luxuries for a night with him. Taehyung just never slept with any of them. 

At least until Jeongguk. Why was Taehyung so attracted to him? Maybe because Taehyung could see that the guy genuinely saw him as a…boy. Not an object he could pay for the night. 

Well, that didn’t age well because Jeongguk left money the next morning. However, after hearing that it was only a misunderstanding and the guy meant no offense to Taehyung, Jeongguk did turn out to be a lot different from all the men he would usually meet. 

Taehyung gulped now, suddenly a wave of guilt and something else he couldn't quite decipher filled him up as thought after thought about Jeongguk filled his mind. He started wishing it was Jeongguk instead of William behind him. 

"Do you want to get out of here?" Taehyung felt William's hot breath against his ear.

Taehyung took a deep breath. He needed to let Jeongguk go. He and Jeongguk would never work out. The man had proved to Taehyung over the course of a month that he wasn’t willing to fuck Taehyung the way he wants. Taehyung was one horny guy and this was college. The last thing he wanted to do in his early twenties is to be hung over some guy who clearly isn’t treating him right. He needed someone to provide him the pleasure he’s missing so he'd be over the way Jeongguk made him feel in bed. He needed someone who didn't have a wife and a kid.

The only person he'd really had had sex with is Jeongguk. What if his dick game was really trash? He'd never know until he tried it with anyone else. But Taehyung highly doubted that because sex with Jeongguk is literally heaven.

But he needed this. He wanted it.

"Sure" Taehyung whispered back.

Taehyung felt a wet kiss on his neck and the next thing he knew, he was stumbling towards a hallway on the ground floor.

William held him against a wall in the hallway and Taehyung knew he was going to kiss him. He closed his eyes and readied himself for what's to come next.

But it never came.

Instead, he heard a thud and a grunt and Taehyung opened his eyes to see William on the ground, another man hovering over him.

It was Jeongguk.

Taehyung gasped in shock, unable to believe the scene rolling right in front of him. 

"He's mine! Back off you bastard!" Jeongguk shouted at William.

"What the fuck?" William said, still on the ground.

"Why did you hit him?" Taehyung shouted at Jeongguk. Ahe looked at William on the ground. "He isn't my boyfriend!"

"Then why the fuck did he hit me?" William asked angrily.

Taehyung was going to say that Jeongguk was no one when-

"Taehyung!" Jeongguk growled, making Taehyung shiver and gulp down the sentence he was about to speak. Jeongguk looked furious.

"Keep your filthy hands off of him!" Jeongguk told William.

"And you!" Jeongguk said, turning to Taehyung. "Come with me"

Jeongguk bolted right afterward and Taehyung followed him, almost running to keep up with Jeongguk's speed.

He stopped when they were outside. Taehyung saw Jeongguk's car on the pavement, with a few others. The moment they reached his car, Jeongguk pushed him against the door of his car roughly and Taehyung gasped in surprise.

The only thing he saw was Jeongguk's angry dark eyes before he crashed his lips against Taehyung.

Taehyung whimpered as Jeongguk kissed him feverishly, with so much force that Taehyung's neck almost hurt. Jeongguk had pressed himself against Taehyung and it was almost crushing the poor boy.

But Taehyung kissed him as eagerly. He missed this roughness, this passion, this lust. He missed Jeongguk.

Jeongguk bit Taehyung's lip, and Taehyung was sure it left a bruise. Taehyung hardly minded. Not when Jeongguk's wet tongue was exploring his mouth and obscene noises of saliva squelching between their mouths cut through the silent night.

When Jeongguk finally pulled away, they were both panting. Adrenaline was high in Taehyung's veins and he was already hard from Jeongguk’s rough treatment.

However, Jeongguk was glaring at him. "You dare fuck other men behind my back!? You whore!"

Taehyung flinched at the harsh words directed towards him. His eyebrows knitted together in confusion, and then annoyance. How could Jeongguk-

"You let other people fuck you? Is that it? Sleep around with everyone? I'm nothing special huh? Just another guy you fucked?" Jeongguk seethed.

At that, Taehyung lost it. He had been nothing but faithful. He had only decided to hook up with someone else tonight because he was tired and frustrated with waiting.

"Oh, I'm the whore?" Taehyung yelled, losing his temper. "I'm not the one who doesn't have the guts to take what I want! I'm tired of your bullshit! I waited and waited thinking you'd sleep with me but every day you just leave me hanging. We aren't even in a relationship of any kind. And oh I'm cheating, huh? You probably fuck your wife every night after going home. I don't get angry about that! And you dare call me out on trying to sleep with another guy"

Jeongguk sighed exasperatedly, looking conflicted. 

He looked tired, Taehyung thought. For a second he looked older than he was. But when he looked at Taehyung again, he looked younger. He wore a black sweater and tight black jeans. And round glasses. Taehyung would have had to look twice to see if this was the same professor who teaches him History of Arts on any other occasion. He was almost unrecognizable. He looked so much like some e-boy. And Taehyung loved that look on him.

"Look I'm sorry. I know I've kept you waiting. I'm so confused right now. Two months ago I was happy with my wife and I didn't even like boys like this! I'm so conflicted that I don't know what to do" Jeongguk said.

"Yeah but that doesn't give you the right to get jealous about me sleeping with someone else"

"I'm not jealous!"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. “Yeah right,” He scoffed. "What are you even doing here?" Taehyung asked.

"Jin wanted me to come with him. This is his cousin's place it seems"

"Wait, you mean, Mr. Kim Seokjin, our English professor?"

"Yep. That's the one"

"Oh," Taehyung said. William was related to Mr. Kim? Wow

"Let me take you to your dorm," Jeongguk said.

“Are you fucking with me? Let me go back to the party. I came here to have some fun and get some dick, which you are obviously not giving me”

“Tae…”

“And what the fuck was that temper tantrum about?! You can’t tell me who I can sleep with. We aren’t in a relationship. You are in no position to tell me what to do with my personal life. Especially not when I’m just trying to get what you’re not providing me with”

Jeongguk sighed. “I…I’m sorry”

“Just let me be. Let me go about my life. You can go back to your little family”

“But I want you,” Jeongguk said, sounding a little desperate.

Taehyung sighed. “I’m going back-” Before he could walk away, Jeongguk took his hand, preventing him from moving. 

“You aren’t going back,” Jeongguk said a little aggressively. “I want to fuck you and I will”

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk’s dark eyes for a few long moments. Despite the anger that burned inside of him because of Jeongguk’s actions, he sighed and looked away. 

Jeongguk’s gaze softened. “Get in. I’ll drop you off at your dorm”

"Seriously?" Taehyung said, annoyed.

"What?"

"You're still not going to fuck me?"

"It's late, Tae. I should head back"

Taehyung checked the time. It was already past one in the morning.

"Fine" Taehyung said, giving up. Jeongguk was unbelievable. He doesn’t want to fuck Taehyung and neither does he let him sleep with other people. What kind of logic is that?

"Get in the car"

Taehyung slid into the passenger seat as Jeongguk took the driving seat. They sat in silence as Jeongguk drove, Taehyung suddenly feeling a bit awkward.

"Oh, shit" Taehyung cursed out of nowhere.

"What?" Jeongguk asked, keeping his eyes on the road.

"The keys. They're with Jimin"

Jeongguk hit the brakes, stopping in the middle of the empty road. "What?!"

"I don't have the keys!"

"You're not going back to that party!" Jeongguk said.

After a while of sitting there silently, the car started moving again. 

"Where are you taking me?" Taehyung asked, surprised.

"My place. I have an extra room. You don't have anywhere else to go"

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•°¹¹°• Choices: Me or Her? ─✵─────────

Taehyung let out a nervous sigh as they pulled up in front of Jeongguk's front yard. The inside of the house looked basked in darkness, claiming the residents of the house were asleep. It was almost two in the morning. Of course, they would be asleep.

Jeongguk's house looked somewhat normal. Even the inside didn't look too luxurious. It looked comfortable and homey and so inviting. Even though Taehyung had only been inside once, it felt like somewhere he would prefer spending time.

Nevertheless, Taehyung was nervous. He wasn't the one to be nervous most of the time, being the social butterfly he is. But Jeongguk's wife was inside. He had never met her and he wondered what kind of a person she is. Would she suspect that Taehyung was madly sexually attracted to her husband?

"Are you going to stay in the car or are you going to come inside?" A voice said from beside Taehyung, making him turn to look at Jeongguk looking at him with shining eyes. He was smiling. Taehyung thought he looked really handsome when he smiled. He looked so soft. Taehyung didn't like it when he was all rough and controlling. It was almost as if it didn't suit the older man.

"Yeah let's go," Taehyung said quietly and followed suit of getting out of the car. He followed Jeongguk inside the house after he unlocked it.

The interior looked the same as the last time he visited. A living room with a huge sofa and a tv on his right, a passageway leading to rooms, and a kitchen on his left. A staircase right in front of him.

"Your wife is here right?" Taehyung asked nervously.

"Yeah, you can meet her in the morning" Jeongguk smirked at him.

"Wow I'm so excited" sarcasm dripped off Taehyung's words.

Jeongguk chuckled. "Come with me"

Taehyung followed Jeongguk as he walked towards a room and opened it, walking inside.

"Here," Jeongguk said as Taehyung walked inside. "You can stay here for tonight. The bathroom is right down the hall"

Taehyung looked around the small room. It looked like no one had used it in a while. There was a bed, a bedside table, a desk, a chair, a mirror, a cupboard, and a window that probably outlooked the garden.

"Thanks," Taehyung said and sat on the bed.

"Sure. Do you need any clothes?"

"Nah I'm fine," Taehyung said. "Though I might need some in the morning if you have any"

"Yeah, I'll let you borrow some in the morning. Good night then" Jeongguk said and turned to leave.

"Wait!" Taehyung said making Jeongguk halt in his tracks.

Jeongguk turned.

Taehyung looked at his professor with puppy eyes as he invaded Jeongguk's personal space. "I should thank you properly, Mr. Jeon" Taehyung said flirtatiously.

Sure, the poor man was offering Taehyung a place to stay in for the night out of the goodness of his heart. And is Taehyung going to use that to satisfy his own kinky fantasies? Absolutely yes.

The thing is if you start something with Taehyung, the only way to end it is to break it off completely with him. And not have it on and off. That was irritating. Jeongguk wanted to keep this going with Taehyung but he still doesn't want to be completely in this with him? Yeah, that's not Taehyung for you.

"You already-"

Before Jeongguk could continue, Taehyung was already kissing Jeongguk. He had placed his hands on the older man's chest, pressing his whole body against him.

Jeongguk let out a whimper of surprise when Taehyung bit the elder's lip, making him open his mouth to invite Taehyung's tongue inside his wet cavern.

How cute, Taehyung thought as another whimper escaped the professor's throat when he massaged his tongue with his own. Jeongguk's hands fisted on either side of Taehyung's shirt as he kissed back.

When Taehyung finally pulled apart, the older man looked awfully soft and adorable. His lips glistened with saliva and his eyes were shining in the dim light. He looked as if in a daze.

When he was finally back to his senses, he spoke up, voice gruff. "Taehyung...I-I need to go. Y-you should sleep"

Jeongguk turned to leave but Taehyung was quick to pull Jeongguk back towards him. "But your wife is asleep" Taehyung's voice was sickeningly sweet. "Let's have some fun"

Jeongguk visibly gulped. "I-I can't-"

Taehyung didn't let Jeongguk finish his sentence. He pushed him on the bed and straddled the older.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung's voice was stern. "I'm getting tired of this. One moment you want me and the next you don't. One moment you're baring your teeth on my throat and growling at me and the next moment you act like some lost puppy who doesn't know what to do with his tail! You're a fucking coward. A pussy" Taehyung spat.

"And you're using me to satisfy your needs that your wife cannot fulfill for you. But you know what I hate?" Jeongguk was looking at Taehyung with wide eyes. "Being treated like some toy. I would've been totally fine if we just hooked up randomly. But no. you also don't want me hooking up with other people. And that's ridiculous! You think I'm some emotionless dummy?!"

"Taehyung-"

"So choose. End this here or show me how much you're willing to sacrifice for me" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk looked lost under Taehyung. The expression on his face looked similar to what he wore when Taeehyung told him to fuck him that day at his dorm. He looked like he was battling his inner demons. 

"I want you," Jeongguk said lastly. "I want you so badly. I'm sorry if I made you feel like that. But with every passing day, my desire for you only grows"

"Choose"

Jeongguk was contemplating. Taehyung knew the man couldn't resist him. But he had a choice. If he doesn’t want to ruin his little family, he could simply break things off with Taehyung and move on. 

"You" Jeongguk's tone was final. "I want you. I want to keep doing this with you"

Taehyung smirked. "Wise decision"

Taehyung took off his top teasingly slow and Jeongguk stared at him with wide eyes and a wide mouth. Taehyung made Jeongguk take off his own top and trousers and took off his own so the two men were naked except for their underwear.

Taehyung straddled Jeongguk again, who didn't protest. Jeongguk looked nervous. But it'd go away, right?

Right. Because there was no hesitancy when Jeongguk opened a packet of lube that belonged to Taehyung and propped his fingers inside him. He didn't look slightly held back as he watched Taehyung fuck himself in his long fingers with an expression that could throw Taehyung off the edge anytime.

When Taehyung aligned himself with Jeongguk's cock, ready to ride him, Jeongguk reached to guide the younger but his hands were slapped away.

"No touching" Taehyung said.

"What?!" Jeongguk sounded bewildered.

"You watch as I fuck myself on your dick. No touching" Taehyung said. "And keep still. I'll do all the work"

Jeongguk groaned in annoyance. Taehyung smirked as he lowered himself until Jeongguk's tip was pressed onto his hole, which was stretched open from three fingers moments ago.

Taehyung gasped as he totally bottomed out. He could feel Jeongguk's thick cock buried deep inside him and the feeling had his eyes rolling to the back of his head. He had never felt anything like this before. It was different when Jeongguk was fucking him. 

Taehyung and Jeongguk both were panting by the time Taehyung’s ass was pressed against the older man’s balls. When Taehyung felt like he had adjusted himself, he arched his back, feeling the hard muscle slide out on him and arched his back again, making Jeongguk slide inside him again. Taehyung leaned forward, placing his palms flat on Jeongguk's hard chest, and started bouncing on his cock.

He picked up a pace, fast and just right . Taehyung moaned and Jeongguk's hands were flying everywhere, gripping the bedsheets to gripping his own hair as he moaned too. Taehyung could see it. The way Jeongguk held himself from touching Taehyung and Taehyung loved how he has the older obeying his command.

Wet sounds fill the room and Taehyung could feel familiar heat building up in his lower stomach. A few more minutes and then he would be cumming. But he stopped.

He stopped and Jeongguk whined in frustration as the younger picked up a pace that's teasingly slow.

"A-Ah!" Jeongguk let out a needy moan. He needs more friction, Taehyung knew. But he isn't going to give what Jeongguk wants. Not just yet.

"Taehyung...please..." Jeongguk started. There were tears on the edge of Jeongguk's eyes now. And Taehyung could see how far gone the older is. He had never seen the older man so wrecked.

"Hmm?" Taehyung hummed in response. He's loving the way Jeongguk is acting all submissive under Taehyung.

"You're really good, Mr. Jeon, aren't you?" Taehyung says sweetly and he's amazed when he heard Jeongguk moan in response to the praise.

Oh he has a praise kink

Taehyung chuckled to himself and continued his slow pace. Jeongguk let out another whine of frustration. His hips unconsciously thrust upwards, taking Taehyung by surprise.

"Did I not tell you to keep still?" Taehyung says sharply.

"I need more-"Jeongguk said, voice barely audible.

"What do you need, Mr. Jeon?"

"N-Need m-more...want..."

"Words, Mr. Jeon" Taehyung said.

"Faster. Want more..." Jeongguk moaned out and Taehyung chuckled. He clenched around Jeongguk's cock making the older groan loudly.

“What exactly do you want, Mr. Jeon?”

“W-want you to go faster” Jeongguk moaned out. 

"Good boy" Taehyung ras[ed and increased his speed. He was now bouncing on Jeongguk’s cock and rolling his hips deeper and faster. 

There were tears all over Jeongguk's face oh how pleased Taehyung was to see the control he has over him. How pleased he is to see that he's the one making the older man cry.

Taehyung chuckled and adjusted himself again on Jeongguk's dick and then he's riding Jeongguk's cock like no tomorrow. His thighs started to hurt but he has too little care for that. He's riding Jeongguk eagerly and Jeongguk now has his head on Taehyung's shoulder.

Taehyung could feel himself nearing his climax and he moaned because damn , this feels too good. Jeongguk's cock repeatedly hit his prostate making him see stars every time he slid down.

Jeongguk groaned again and unable to help himself, he thrust upward to meet Taehyung's bounces. Taehyung was too weak to tell him to stop. Too carried away and chasing his high.

"Please..." He heard Jeongguk whisper. "Please let me..."

"Let you what, Mr. Jeon?" Taehyung moaned out the last part, failing to sound controlled. Because he was collectively losing himself.

"Please let me touch you"

The way Jeongguk is begging had Taehyung groaning and giving in. "Fine"

Jeongguk's hands roamed wildly on Taehyung's body, feeling him up. His right hand came to his cock that's now leaking pre-cum and tugged at it. The other hand at his hair, tugging the blond locks back to reveal his neck. Jeongguk sucked a hickey onto his neck while Taehyung rode him like his life depended on it.

Soon Jeongguk's head was buried in his neck and he was groaning and Taehyung felt hot liquid fill him up. Jeongguk kept stroking him and a stroke or two after, he was cumming into Jeongguk's palm with a loud moan.

Jeongguk wrapped his arms around Taehyung and he slowly turned them over. Taehyung was exhausted. But without a doubt, he had never cum so hard in his whole life. He felt the soft cotton on his back, cold against his hot sweaty body. He felt Jeongguk pull out of him, a whimper escaping the boy in the process. Before he could register what was happening next, he passed out. A deep and dreamless slumber took over him.

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•°¹²°•The Wife and the Girlfriend─✵─────────

Taehyung woke up with blinding light on his face. He scrunched his eyes and held his hand in front of his face to block the sunlight that streamed off the window, through the wide-open curtains. He groaned as he sat up, his pupils adjusting to the light in his face as everything around him slowly came to focus.

He had slept in, obviously. Outside the window was a bright spring morning and a clear blue sky. It should at least be nine in the morning. He checked his phone that was, surprisingly, on the nightstand. Though he didn't recall placing it there the previous night. Yup. Almost nine.

Taehyung was wearing his boxers and his other clothes were luckily on the chair that's on the far side of the room. He flashed back to the events of the previous night. He felt a nervous tug at his heart as he remembered how reckless he had been. He wasn't even that drunk! In fact, he wasn’t drunk at all. Maybe a tiny bit tipsy. He had persuaded Jeongguk to sleep with him when his wife was just upstairs. Taehyung's heart filled with guilt, the more and more he thought about it. 

But that was fun.

Because Taehyung was a whore.

He loved the control he had over Jeongguk. Loved the way Jeongguk fell so easily for his charms. The way he had Jeongguk begging even though no matter how much his own conscience declined to accept Taehyung's offers. All the while he had a wife and a kid. Taehyung loved the way he felt when he and Jeongguk fucked knowing that his wife had no idea that her husband was currently fucking a younger boy. That he was totally whipped for someone else. It was apparently Taehyung's kink. And this wasn't the first time he had been into older men, even though he hadn't acted on his desires or had been so intrigued to sleep with an older man.

So Taehyung was a fucking whore. He knew it and he loved it.

A knock on the door snapped Taehyung from his thoughts.

"Yes?" Taehyung answered with his groggily morning voice.

"May I come in?" A feminine voice said from the other side of the door. Taehyung panicked. That wasn't Aria. So it should obviously be Jeongguk's wife.

"Y-yeah" Taehyung said nervously. He quickly pulled the sheets to his chest to cover himself.

The door opened revealing a lady. She had dark brown hair that was tied into a neat bun atop her head. She wore a knee-length flowery dress, neat and ironed. She had dark gleaming eyes and a cute face, that Taehyung guessed, wasn't covered with makeup. She was fucking gorgeous.

Taehyung was mesmerized by how beautiful she looked. She and Jeongguk both seemed to share the trait of looking younger than they were because there was no way this woman looked thirty-one years old. However, she did look older than Jeongguk, Taehyung thought. 

She was carrying some clothes. Despite her breathtaking beauty, she looked kind and sweet and very likable. But too neat and pretty and groomed up for Taehyung's taste. It was as if she was trying hard to look pretty.

But she was beautiful. Taehyung had to admit that she didn’t have to try to look pretty at all. 

Jeongguk sure had scored himself a pretty lady. Too bad he has to cheat on her.

"Hi! Good morning!" She said enthusiastically. "Taehyung, is it? I'm Jieun. Jeongguk's wife" She stood at the edge of Taehyung's bed.

"Mrs. Jeon, it's a pleasure to meet you," Taehyung said politely. "Good morning"

"Jeongguk told me all about you!" Jieun said. I doubt that Taehyung thought. "One of his students, right?"

"Yes, ma'am," Taehyung said.

"Good. Here are some clothes for you. Why don't you get ready and come over to the kitchen? I've prepared breakfast for us. Jeongguk didn't eat yet either"

"I'm troubling you, Mrs. Jeon"

"No! No it's fine, really!" Jieun smiled. Taehyung nodded.

"I'll leave you to it then" Jieun turned to leave but paused by the doorway.

"The party must've been wild last night, huh?" She said.

"What?" Taehyung was confused.

Jieun inclined her head towards Taehyung. "Must've been a wild night for you. Had fun?"

Taehyung was confused for a few moments until he finally looked down at himself and saw the hickeys littering his chest and neck. He blushed scarlet and pulled the sheets up to his neck.

Jieun chuckled. "Oh don't worry. Seriously, if you aren't going to be reckless in college and high school, you'll never find days to. Bet he or she went a little hard on you right?" Jieun winked at him and walked out, shutting the door behind her.

Taehyung was speechless. Yeah, he did have fun last night. But Taehyung was the one who went rough on her husband . Not the other way around.

Taehyung smirked to himself and got up from his bed. Jeongguk's wife wasn't as bad as he thought. She was really nice. He almost felt bad for making Jeongguk cheat on her. Almost.

After taking a quick shower, he went to the kitchen wearing the t-shirt and sweatpants he was handed. They were probably Jeongguk's and were a bit too big on him.  

His senses were overflowing with the smell of pancakes when he walked through the hallway to the kitchen. The first thing he saw when he entered the kitchen was Jeongguk, who was sitting by the white marble kitchen island in the middle of the kitchen. He wore a T-shirt and Sweatpants too, much similar to Taehyung's. Taehyung stood by the entryway as he watched Jeongguk.

He kept scrolling through his phone, oblivious to Taehyung standing in the doorway. Jeongguk looked hot. His hair was parted in the middle and it looked a little messy, making him look sexy. He slowly munched on a pancake as he looked at something on his phone. His face muscles flexed every time he brought his gums together. He was folding his hands and his thick biceps popped every time he moved a little. It was absolutely fucking hot. Taehyung was basically drooling.

"Oh, Taehyung! Come on, darling. Sit down" Jieun's voice made Taehyung tear his gaze from the man to his woman. He saw Jieun smiling at him. He smiled back at her.

"Thank you"

His gaze was met by Jeongguk's even gaze, which was staring back at him. Jeongguk nodded in Taehyung's direction and Taehyung took the seat in front of Jeongguk.

"Here you go," Jieun said handing him a plate. "Eat as much as you want," She said.

"Thank you, Mrs. Jeon," Taehyung said.

"Good morning" He heard Jeongguk say from in front of him while he got himself some pancakes and poured whip cream all over them.

"Good Morning Mr. Jeon" Taehyung said politely.

He was Jeongguk smirk. "Slept well?"

"Yeah. Thank you for letting me stay"

"You already thanked me last night" Jeongguk's lips played a playful smirk.

"I felt like I should thank you more. Would you like that, Mr. Jeon?" Two can play this game.

Jeongguk's smirk turned to a smile. He was flashing his bunny smile at Taehyung, who found it adorable. Jeongguk shot a sideways glance at his wife who was facing away from them doing the dishes, before replying. "Very much"

Taehyung smirked. Before he could say anything else- "Taehyung!" Another voice said making Taehyung turn around on his seat.

Aria stood in the doorway to the kitchen beaming at Taehyung. Taehyung had totally forgotten that Aria, his current or almost nonexistent girlfriend, with who he mentally broke up, also lived in this house too.

"Oh, Aria darling! You know Taehyung too?" Jieun asked.

"Yeah," Aria said, still smiling at Taehyung who found it hard to smile back. "We're... friends "

"Wow. Seemingly Taehyung is so famous. I'm the only one who doesn't know him?" Jieun giggled.

Taehyung smiled at her and started picking at his pancakes again, trying to ignore Aria.

"Hi" Aria whispered from next to him.

"Hi" Taehyung replied and went back to his food.

"I missed you"

Jeongguk cleared his throat loudly making Aria jump away from Taehyung. Jeongguk saved the day! Thank God!

Taehyung was about to eat another piece of pancake when Jieun came over to Jeongguk. "Gguk, I'm going now"

"Where are you going?" Jeongguk asked confused.

"I told you last week that I'm going to meet my friends today"

"Oh. I forgot. Have fun" Jeongguk said, smiling at her. “I’ll clean up”

“Alright” She smiled down at him and kissed his cheek before rushing upstairs. Taehyung tried not to feel disgusted. He looked at his plate of food and his appetite was gone already.

Now that Aria's mom was nowhere in sight, she shifted closer to Taehyung. Jeongguk was sitting right in front of them. This girl seriously had some guts.

Before she could say anything to Taehyung-

"Must've been quite wild last night, huh?" Jeongguk said, looking at Taehyung. "Don't know how many more people you would've hooked up with if I didn't take your drunk ass with me last night"

Silence followed Jeongguk's statement.

Until Aria shrieked.

"Are you cheating on me?!" She shouted at Taehyung.

Taehyung was speechless. Yes, he was going to break up with Aria. But not this way! And the only person he'd been sleeping with is her own father!

"Oh, you guys didn't break up yet?" Jeongguk's tone was amused.

"I'm-" Taehyung started but was soon cut off by Jeongguk.

"How could you!" Aria started.

"Aria sit down" He said. "First of all, you guys can't even date. You're underage so it's basically illegal. Unless you want Taehyung to have a nice time in jail. Second of all, truth to be told, he just wanted to sleep with you. I've been watching him as my student for the last month now. He sleeps around with people. He's a player. And he's kind of smart to want to break it off with you. He's too old for you, Aria. Have I not told you that you two must break up? Why are you still after him?!"

Taehyung can't believe that Jeongguk just threw him under the bus like that. And that he just said all that to his own daughter. Wow.

Aria started crying and screamed "I hate you" at Taehyung and ran upstairs.

Taehyung watched her go, mouth agape from confusion and disbelief.

"What the fuck did you just do?" Taehyung asked Jeongguk.

"You haven't yet have broken up with my underage daughter. I did it for you. You should thank me"

"Yeah but that was too harsh!"

"She was dumb to start an affair with a much older guy. She needs to learn that life isn't all rainbows and unicorns. Besides I gave her a whole lecture about how wrong it was of her to do what she did! After all that, she didn't break up with you!"

"I can't believe you're her father! Even if she didn’t listen to you, doesn’t mean you should be so harsh to her! And in front of her boyfriend?! "

"It's only the truth. And you don't have to teach me about how to be a father. Besides, why are you like this? Have you caught feelings for her?"

"No! But still..."

Taehyung sighed. He felt really bad for the girl. He should call her later and apologize. Part of him was thankful that he was finally free from Aria. But this must've really hurt her feelings.

"The harsher the breakup, the sooner she'll get over you," Jeongguk said and started eating his banana.

Jeongguk wasn't wrong. But then again, who was he to tell Jeongguk about what's right and wrong? Taehyung had been cheating on his girlfriend.

"Hurry up. I'll drop you off at your dorm" Jeongguk said, eyes focused on his phone as he read something in it.

"There's no need, really. I'll take the bus" Taehyung said.

"No need. I'm heading that way anyway"

"Okay" Taehyung continued to finish his breakfast.

"Jeongguk!" Jieun's voice came from behind Taehyung. "Why did Aria run to her bedroom? She isn't opening the door"

"I scolded her. Let her be for now" Jeongguk said.

"Why do you always scold her? What did she do this time?" Jieun asked, now standing next to Jeongguk.

"Doesn't matter, love. She never listens to what I say. You're going now? When will you be back?"

"Yeah, I am. Around four in the afternoon I think. Hope it won't be too much for you to make lunch and take care of Aria"

"I'll be fine. I'm going to drop off Taehyung in the dorm and shop for groceries"

"Take Aria with you, then?" Jieun said.

"If she comes, I will. Have fun, babe" Jeongguk said.

Jieun giggled. "I will" She reached to kiss Jeongguk. He looked taken aback for a moment until he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her back. Taehyung uncomfortably picked his left-over pancakes on his plate. And when he looked up again, Jeongguk was watching him as he kissed his wife.

Taehyung gulped. This guy is playing.

When they were finally done after a good few seconds, Jieun bid goodbye to both Jeongguk and Taehyung and left.

Jeongguk smirked at Taehyung. "Do you want a kiss too?"

"Fuck off," Taehyung said and washed his plate.


Jeongguk sat in the driving seat, Taehyung on the passenger seat as he waited for Aria. His daughter had screamed 'I hate you’ to him previously when he told her to get dressed and that they're leaving in five minutes. She had refused to eat breakfast and Jeongguk had to control his temper when she snapped at him.

"Could've blown you off on the ride if she didn't come along" Taehyung said grudgingly from beside Jeongguk.

"I can't leave her alone, Taehyung"

Aria finally got inside the car and Jeongguk started driving. For a few minutes, there was only silence. Until Jeongguk pulled up in front of a small shop.

"I'm going to buy some stuff here. Do you guys want anything?" Jeongguk asked.

"I'm coming with you," Taehyung said.

"My friend is nearby. I told her to come to pick me up. I'm going over to her place" Aria said.

"Which friend is this?" Jeongguk asked.

"My best friend. Lisa. She's on her way here with her mother. I told her to pick me up. Let me go"

"Who gave you permission to plan something like this?" Jeongguk couldn't contain his anger.

Aria was silent.

"I swear we're too loose on you sometimes," Jeongguk said. "Fine. Be home before two"

"What? I can't do that!" Aria said.

"I said what I said or you're grounded," Jeongguk said.

"Screw you," Aria said and got out of the car. Jeongguk followed her.

"If you don't watch your attitude, young lady, I'll have you grounded for a week. You'll only be going to school, nowhere else for a whole week. Don't make me do that"

Taehyung stepped out of the car and waited for the father and daughter to stop fighting. Fortunately, Aria didn't talk back so they went inside the small shop.

Jeongguk quickly picked up some books that he'd been needing and walked off to find Taehyung to tell him to get going. He found the younger in an aisle, looking at a small bottle.

"What's that?" Jeongguk asked as he walked over to him.

"It's lube!" The younger said enthusiastically.

"Why do you need it?"

"Because Mr. Jeon, when two guys have sex they need to use this-"

"I know. I know! You can't buy it here! Aria is here!"

"I'll buy it," Taehyung said.

Before Jeongguk could protest, Taehyung was already walking off to the paying counter. Jeongguk huffed and followed.

After they paid, Jeongguk handed Aria to her best friend's mother, who was a friend of both Jeongguk and Jieun's. After making sure she'd be home with the kids, Jeongguk bid Aria goodbye. He noticed that she didn't even look in Taehyung's direction when they pulled off. But that was rather good.

Jeongguk couldn't help but admit that he was glad he got a chance to get rid of Aria. So he could spend some time alone with Taehyung. He hated feeling this way. But honestly, he felt like he'd been missing something until he met Taehyung.

Taehyung was a brat. And it didn't have to take months for Jeongguk to understand that Taehyung wouldn't stop being a brat and Jeongguk was okay with that. He didn't want to tame the boy. He wanted him to continue it. He enjoyed it when Taehyung so carelessly and easily pushed Jeongguk to his limits and the more frustrated Jeongguk is, the better the sex.

He also loved it when Taehyung took control. Maybe that's what he'd been missing.

His wife was always submitting to him. She never argued. Never pushed him off limits. She never asked for more or demanded things from Jeongguk. She took what he gave in bed and thinking back, that was boring. He needed what Taehyung gave. The dominance. The roughness. The frustration that got him off so good.

He did like dominating Taehyung. But damn was it hot when Taehyung dominated him.

He always thought that he was so lucky to have a wife who did everything he asked her to. Someone who took what he gave without asking more. Especially in bed. But that's apparently not what Jeongguk needed.

Taehyung was seated in the passenger seat, silently sipping his chocolate milkshake as Jeongguk made his way to his car on the almost empty parking lot. He slid into the driver's seat and looked at Taehyung.

"I'm horny," Taehyung said.

"You're really horny for someone who got their ass wrecked not ten hours ago," Jeongguk said, adjusting his hair from the review mirror.

"By the way," Taehyung said and placed the cup on the space between seats. "What are we going to do now?"

"What?" Jeongguk was genuinely confused.

"Are you going to keep treating me like some doll or are we really in this?"

"If you want me to divorce my wife, I hope you are aware that I won't do that"

"I don't care if you had a wife or not, Professor " Taehyung dragged the word professor . "Are we going to keep fucking?"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. “I want to”

"Awesome. Make time for me"

"I will. I really want to"

"Good," Taehyung said.

A silence followed. Jeongguk was about to start the engine when Taehyung took off his seat belt and leaped into Jeongguk's lap. An involuntary gasp left Jeongguk's lips as Taehyung's straddled his thick thighs. Jeongguk's sanity was failing right in front of him as he felt the boy's hot breath on his neck.

"What-"Jeongguk started.

"Do you love her?" Taehyung said.

"What are you talking-"

"You're cheating on your wife, Jeongguk . This isn't really about lust or getting a better fuck. You have a wife. A kid. A family. If you really loved her, you wouldn't let me do this, would you? So tell me, do you love her?"

Before Jeongguk could even form an answer, Taehyung's lips crashed onto his. Taehyung's mouth was hot against his. Open and tongue invading his own. Until Jeongguk had thrown all his self-control and sanity out of the window and held the boy from his hips and kissed him back with the same force and intimacy. Taehyung kissed like a lunatic. A sex-crazed teenager. It was messy. And his hands were all over Jeongguk and his hips moved on their own accord; circular movements on top of Jeongguk's crotch. Taehyung moaned into the kiss, making Jeongguk's cock twitch. And Jeongguk knew if they continued, he'd end up fucking Taehyung in the parking lot.

Taehyung pulled away. Jeongguk watched him with dark eyes clouded with lust. Taehyung looked down at the small space between them. There, a tent had risen in Jeongguk's pants.

Taehyung smirked at Jeongguk.

"Didn't think so"

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•°¹³°• Professor ─✵─────────

Taehyung started unbuckling Jeongguk's belt. He unzipped the pants and started palming his half-hard cock over the thin fabric of his underwear.

"A-Ah!" Jeongguk moaned shamelessly, his mind going into a frenzy as Taehyung pressed his thumb on his tip.

Taehyung slid his hand inside Jeongguk's boxers and took out his erect cock. It was red and leaking pre-cum. Jeongguk almost felt embarrassed from how soon he had managed to get hard. Taehyung, on the other hand, looked pleased with the destruction he had caused all by himself, by only barely touching the older man. 

Taehyung stroked Jeongguk's length teasingly slowly, spreading pre-cum all over the soft and veiny surface to lessen the friction. He then knelt in the confided space between the driving seat and the wheel and took Jeongguk in his mouth.

The sudden wetness and pleasure made Jeongguk buckle his hips up, almost thrusting into Taehyung's mouth. The younger boy pushed Jeongguk's hips back onto the seat.

"Don't move. Stay still" Taehyung ordered.

Jeongguk did as he was told, no matter how prominent the need to fuck Taehyung's mouth was. He wanted to obey Taehyung. 

Taehyung took Jeongguk into his mouth again, making Jeongguk throw his head back against the seat. Taehyung swirled his tongue around Jeongguk's tip and Jeongguk moaned out.

"Taehyung Ah!"

Taehyung kissed Jeongguk's tip and looked up at him. "Does this feel good, professor?"

"Y-yes. Oh my god don't stop"

Taehyung smirked. He was back on Jeongguk's lap, straddling him. "Does your wife suck you better than I?"

"No" Jeongguk was surprised at how quick the words left his mouth.

Taehyung chuckled darkly. "Fuck you're such a naughty boy" He rasped. "Will you fuck me now, Mr. Jeon?"

Jeongguk's eyes widened. "We're in a parking lot!" Anyone can pull over any moment and they could be seen!

"Fuck me now," Taehyung said, eyes never leaving Jeongguk's.

"Baby I want to. But someone could see us!"

Taehyung started undoing his pants. "So let them"

"Taehyung!"

Taehyung smirked. "Does it bother you, Mr. Jeon?"

Jeongguk was silent for a moment. "No," He said. "Fuck come here"

Jeongguk grabbed the back of Taehyung's neck and pulled him towards himself, connecting their lips. Taehyung wrapped his hands around Jeongguk's neck, moving his whole body towards Jeongguk so there's so space between them.

They kissed like they fought, a heated session of lust and hunger. With their erect cocks pressing together and hormones afire in their veins, they didn't care that they were in a parking lot and anyone could pull over at any moment and catch them on the act. And Jeongguk knew there was no stopping now. He's never in charge of his decisions when it comes to Taehyung.

Taehyung broke the kiss, breathing heavily and his lips glistening with saliva. Jeongguk's saliva. That was so hot that Jeongguk felt pre-cum oozing out of his cock at the series of nasty thoughts that crossed his mind.

"Want you inside me. Now" Taehyung said, voice carnal desire. Aggressive, almost. Jeongguk found that incredibly hot.

"Get the lube," Jeongguk said and Taehyung didn't need to be told twice. He reached over to the passenger seat and took out the lube he bought earlier from the shopping bag. He quickly and messily squirted some onto his palm and grazed Jeongguk's dick with the liquid.

Has the boy planned this? Is that why he bought it from the store?

Jeongguk bit his lip, trying not to moan. He didn't want to be seen as too needy. Though he was more than just needy. He needed to be inside Taehyung so badly that he felt like he'd go mad if he didn't any soon. But he was this boy's teacher, for fuck's sake! He needed to have some respect for his profession.

And Taehyung was purposefully lubing him up slowly. It was starting to frustrate Jeongguk.

"Fuck hurry up," Jeongguk said through gritted teeth.

"Shut it or you'll never get inside me," Taehyung said, making Jeongguk widen his eyes and instantly shut up. "Be patient, like a good boy. Then I'll give you what you want"

Jeongguk gulped.

Taehyung smirked at Jeongguk and lifted himself, taking off his pants and boxers and throwing them to the passenger seat. He adjusted himself on Jeongguk's lap and started to sink down. Jeongguk held his cock in place as the younger sank down.

The boy's red heat wrapped around Jeongguk's thickness, inch by inch as he took him in slowly. Taehyung and Jeongguk both threw their heads back and moaned. Soon, Taehyung had bottomed out.

Taehyung pressed his forehead against Jeongguk's, breathing heavily, trying to adjust himself even though he was still loose from last night.

Then within moments, Taehyung started moving, fucking himself of Jeongguk's cock. He sped up his bouncing and the whole car shook as he did. Jeongguk felt powerless as the boy fucked himself on his own, not giving a damn if Jeongguk helped him or not.

Jeongguk was too lost in the pleasure to care.

Within minutes, Taehyung's pace was faltering. Jeongguk felt this and held the boy from his ass and helped him ride Jeongguk. Taehyung's whole body weight was on Jeongguk as he tried to move by himself but it was obviously difficult for him to. So Jeongguk started thrusting upwards. Taehyung's shallow bounces were met with Jeongguk's powerful thrusts making both of them moan sinfully. 

Jeongguk could feel the familiar heat on the bottom of his stomach pooling wildly and he started to thrust into Taehyung faster. Taehyung moaned and put his hand against the window to support himself. But the window had fogged up. His hand slid down the window, forming a clear handprint in its wake. Taehyung had his head on Jeongguk's shoulder now, moaning as Jeongguk sped up his thrusts.

"A-Ah! Mr. Jeon!" Taehyung moaned against Jeongguk's neck, grabbing onto his shirt. "I'm going to cum!"

"Got you baby" Jeongguk started to stroke Taehyung's cock and in no time the boy was spilling his cum into Jeongguk's palm. It only took a few more thrusts for Jeongguk to fill Taehyung up.

Both men lay there, exhausted, sweat dripping down both their foreheads. The only sound audible inside the car was their heavy breathing. Taehyung moved after a few minutes, turning to face Jeongguk. Jeongguk was still inside him.

He smiled at Jeongguk and Jeongguk returned it. The boy looked so fucked out. His blond hair was stuck on his forehead and his brown orbs looked beautiful and tired at the same time. Even after doing such unspeakably sinful things with another man, Taehyung managed to look like an angel.

Taehyung was a true beauty. He looked soft and pretty. Like an innocent angel. No one could've guessed that he liked to dominate his partners in bed. Taehyung was undoubtedly one of the most beautiful people Jeongguk had ever seen in his life. How he even managed to go 20 years without anyone taking his virginity, Jeongguk didn't know. But Jeongguk felt lucky to be his first. And he isn't going to let him go anytime soon.

"I want you naked on my bed" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung looked amused at the sudden confession. "The one you sleep in with your wife?"

"Yeah"

Taehyung smirked. His eyes gleamed with excitement. "I'd love that"

Jeongguk chuckled breathlessly and kissed the boy's forehead.


Jeongguk watched Taehyung walk off to his dorm from his car parked on the other side of the road. He waved at Jeongguk one last time and was about to go inside when the door opened and a middle-aged lady stepped out.

Taehyung said something to her and he was about to go inside when she spoke to him again. Jeongguk couldn't hear what they were saying but he watched them carefully. He could see Taehyung fiddling with his fingers.

It looked as if he was being scolded?

Jeongguk guessed the lady was the person who owned the dorm because Taehyung silently listened to her, nodding his head from time to time. After a few minutes, the lady went in, leaving Taehyung outside. He looked lost in thought somehow.

Jeongguk got out of his car and walked over to Taehyung, who was still outside.

"What's wrong?" Jeongguk asked, making Taehyung almost jump.

"O-oh? Nothing" Taehyung stuttered.

Jeongguk frowned. "Tell me"

The younger sighed. "My mom hadn't sent me money for two months now. She had lost her job. She's in another state now. And the landlady wants me to pay for the new month before next weekend. I don't know how to pay her now. If I don't pay, I'll have to move out"

Jeongguk nodded. "You should find a job. You can work after lectures. Ask for the month's payment after one week and pay her"

"I'd have to look into jobs then" Taehyung replied sadly.

"Yeah. If it doesn't work out, I'd look for a cheap place for you to stay at"

"You'd do that?" Taehyung asked, eyes big with hope. "Thank you"

"Yeah. No problem" Jeongguk said.

"Though I doubt if there are any places cheaper than this. I and Jimin searched the area before we moved in and this was the cheapest"

"I'll try and look for something," Jeongguk said. "Don't worry"

"Thank you, professor"

Jeongguk chuckled. "It's professor now?"

"I promise when I find a new place or a job, you'll be the first person I'll blow"

Jeongguk chuckled darkly. "Correction: I'll be the only person you'll blow"

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"In the first period of recorded history, art coincided with writing. The great civilizations of the near East, Egypt and Mesopotamia arose...." Jeongguk Jeon paced back and forth the stage of the massive lecture hall and came to halt in front of his desk. He leaned against it, his long legs clad in tight jeans pressed together as his watchful eyes scanned the classroom for a familiar face.

He watched a few students off. He decided not to say anything. The lesson was, indeed boring. Even for the professor himself. He saw Taehyung in the crowd, watching him. Their eyes locked and Jeongguk smirked at him for a brief second before turning around to write some words on the board behind him.

When the bell rang, it was their usual meet-up. That day it was the last lecture of the day and students were hurried to go to their dorms or wherever they were planning to go. In a few minutes, the lecture hall was empty except for Taehyung and Jeongguk. Taehyung stayed behind and slowly walked towards Jeongguk.

"Hey," Jeongguk said as Taehyung approached his desk. He was arranging his books and papers, grinning cheekily at him.

"Hey," Taehyung said, smiling.

"You free this evening?" Jeongguk asked.

"Yeah. No plans"

"Come with me to my office, then. The teachers will be gone soon and it's safer than here"

"Oh," Taehyung said. "Why didn't you take me there sooner?"

"Because teachers don't usually bring students to their offices," Jeongguk said, eyeing Taehyung sideward.

"Yeah but I'm not just any student, professor" Taehyung leaned against the desk. Jeongguk smirked slightly as he piled up his notes.

"I'm your dearest fuck-student"

"Yeah you are" Jeongguk looked at Taehyung. He inched closer to Taehyung and wrapped an arm around his thin, petite waist. "Mine"

Taehyung visibly blushed. His peachy cheeks lifted slightly as a smile adorned his rosy lips. Taehyung was breathtakingly beautiful. Jeongguk couldn't believe he was all his.

He gave in to the temptation to taste those beautiful lips. How could he control himself? Taehyung looked like a marble statue. So perfect.

Taehyung smelled of vanilla and strawberry. It's always so intoxicating. He tasted of bubblegum. Had he been eating bubble gum during Jeongguk's lecture? Jeongguk pushed away the idea and continued tasting Taehyung's lush lips. When they pulled apart, Taehyung was slightly smiling at Jeongguk.

"By the way" Jeongguk started. "I've been wanting to ask you"

"Yeah?"

"Did you tell your friends?"

Taehyung tensed. "Yeah"

"Are you kidding me?" Jeongguk's voice suddenly rose, which made Taehyung flinch. "Do you have any idea how risky what I'm doing is? Doing inappropriate things with a student? This could cost me my job!"

"I know! I know! Look, it's just Jimin, Namjoon, Yoongi, and Hoseok. I've been friends with them since forever! And only Jimin had even seen you. The others are doing different majors. They won't tell anyone. I told them not to"

Jeongguk massaged his temples. "I swear to god-"

"Chill, Jeongguk. I won't let anyone find out"

Jeongguk sighed. He can't believe Taehyung did that. How could he be so irresponsible? Even though Jeongguk didn't tell him to not tell anyone, it's still basic knowledge that they should keep something like this a secret. Does he not understand the depth of this issue? 

"Come on. Let's go" Jeongguk said, a little irritated but needing to release some frustration somehow. He let out a sigh. What’s done is done. They need to be more careful. 

"Sorry" Taehyung said, head hung low.

"Whatever" Jeongguk said as he walked out of the lecture room. The hallways were already deserted, classes having ended almost thirty minutes earlier.

"I searched for some places for you to stay at. I'm sorry I couldn't find any cheap places. All places are either occupied or too expensive. I'm sorry"

Taehyung sighed. "I couldn't find any either. But I got this job at this pizza shop. Right next to the campus. The pay isn't exactly good enough because I only work part-time"

"That's good though. Better than nothing"

"Yeah, but I won't be able to work till next month. Only next month would they have a vacancy. Some guy retiring. I agreed because I couldn't find any other jobs. No vacancies anywhere. I'd have to ask the landlady if I could pay the rent next month, for this month"

"Hope she agrees. If she doesn't..." Jeongguk trialed off.

"Hmm?"

"Nothing. Hope you'd be able to stay there. But why aren't you staying at the college dorms?"

"It's more expensive than my dorm. Besides, I don't have any friends there" Taehyung pouted.

Jeongguk nodded. He came to a halt in front of a wooden door that was at the end of the hallway that they'd been walking. He saw Taehyung looking around, surely amused because he hadn't come to this area of the campus before.

He watched with wide eyes as Jeongguk fished out a key from his pocket and unlocked the door. He stepped in after Jeongguk. Jeongguk's office wasn't roomy. It had a desk that had a few books and a laptop on top of it and a swivel chair. There were racks of books around the room and a few paintings hung on the walls. There was a couch and a small coffee table in the middle of the room.

Jeongguk watched as Taehyung looked around the room in amusement. Jeongguk smiled fondly.

"Oh my god, this place is beautiful" Taehyung mused. He threw his bag on the couch and walked over to a painting and gazed at it. "I love this one"

He stared at the painting of stars and lights drowned in a void of black with shining eyes, amusement portraying his facial features as he observed it for a good few minutes.

"This is a masterpiece. Whose work is this?"

"Mine" Jeongguk said.

His answer made Taehyung turn his head towards Jeongguk. "Wow," Taehyung said. "It's really beautiful. You deserve to get your dick sucked right now"

Jeongguk chuckled. He walked over to the chair and pulled it out and sat on it while Taehyung watched. He spread his legs and waved Taehyung over.

"Give me what I deserve then" Jeongguk smirked.

Taehyung walked over to Jeongguk and stood between his legs, grinning all the time.

"Gladly"

Jeongguk watched as Taehyung sunk into his knees between Jeongguk's long jean-clad legs. His long fingers reached to Jeongguk's flyer and he adjusted himself on the leather chair. The sound of zipping cut through the silence of Jeongguk's office. Taehyung palmed Jeongguk and he knew that before Taehyung could even touch him for the briefest moment, he was already half-hard.

Taehyung palmed him over the thin fabric of his boxers and Jeongguk had to bite his lip to conceal the moan that threatened to escape his lips. When he took out Jeongguk's member and stroked him, he could feel himself hardening under the palm of the younger boy. He breathed out shakily as Taehyung stroked his length, spreading the pre-cum all over him.

Jeongguk couldn't help the loud moan he released as he felt wet heat wrap around his member. Taehyung's tongue was busy rolling around Jeongguk's leaking tip and he took more and more of him in his mouth. Jeongguk's hand flew to Taehyung's hair and roughly grabbed the soft locks as the boy bobbed his head up and down his length.

Jeongguk couldn't help himself when he started thrusting slowly into the boy's mouth and he knew Taehyung loved it as he started moaning around Jeongguk's cock, sending vibrations from his cock to his whole body.

It was embarrassingly fast that he was reaching his climax. Before he could spray his semen all over Taehyung's throat, pulled out, leaving Taehyung to look up at him confused.

"Why?" He croaked out.

"I want to fuck you," Jeongguk said. "Bend over"

Taehyung stood up and bent over Jeongguk's desk. Jeongguk stood behind him and removed his pants and boxers. Taehyung's bubble butt and his pink hole came into view and Jeongguk had the sudden urge to eat him out. But that was for another time.

Jeongguk pulled out a bottle of lube from his desk drawer, having kept it there since recently, in case he one day decided to bring Taehyung over to his office. And that was today. He squeezed a generous amount to his fingers and spread them all over them.

He pressed one lubed finger inside Taehyung and he grunted a little, probably not having had sex in a few days. Soon Jeongguk was fucking him with three fingers and Taehyung was a moaning mess.

Jeongguk knew, no matter how much the boy wanted to dominate over Jeongguk, he'd always go weak when Jeongguk is fucking him.

Jeongguk lubed up his cock quickly and entered Taehyung. Soon, he was fucking Taehyung roughly on the ass, his balls hitting Taehyung's ass with every thrust. He could feel himself buried deep inside him but he had too little focus on that. He was enjoying the feeling of Taehyung clenching from time to time around his cock. He knew Taehyung was close. So was Jeongguk.

He was about to reach over and stroke Taehyung when-

Riiiiiiiiiiiing

The sound of Jeongguk's phone ringing made him stop thrusting completely. Jeongguk turned his head to see the phone on his desk, phone screen lit up with the caller's ID and a picture.

It was his wife

Jeongguk gulped.

"What the fuck are you doing? Keep going!" Taehyung's angry voice made Jeongguk look at him. He was looking back at Jeongguk, an irritated look blurring his perfect facial features. His puffy cheeks still had that adorable blush and it didn't match the words that came out of his mouth.

"What-"

"It's my wife"

Silence, except for the annoying sound of the ringing filled the room. Jeongguk and Taehyung stayed still for a few seconds, the older man still inside the boy. The silence stretched around them until-

"So? What are you, going to keep fucking me or not?" Taehyung sounded angry.

His wife was calling probably because he was late. And she must be home by now. If she suspects him...

"Give me a second I need to take this call" Jeongguk reached for his phone.

Taehyung grunted in frustration. "Fine pick up your wife's call while you're fucking your whore"

Jeongguk audibly gulped. And without further thinking, slid his thumb over the call icon.

"Jeongguk?! Why aren't you home yet? Are you on your way?"

"I got caught up with something in the university. I'll come soon" Jeongguk said, one hand holding his phone, the other resting on the small of Taehyung's back.

"Okay, can you bring-" Jeongguk was listening to his wife babble on a list of grocery items when Taehyung started moving.

He moved his ass, making Jeongguk grunt into the phone. Jeongguk internally cursed himself as his wife stopped speaking.

"Jeongguk? You okay there?"

"Yeah. Yeah," Jeongguk said as he eyed Taehyung who was smirking back at him. "I'm fine"

Taehyung started to thrust back again but Jeongguk tried to stop him, trying to hold his hips. But the action proved fruitless when Taehyung continued to thrust his ass as he fucked himself on Jeongguk's cock.

Jeongguk bit his lip to keep himself from moaning as Taehyung slowly moved his ass. His wife kept telling him about the groceries he needed to buy but he wasn't listening. Because disgusting wet sounds were filling the room and Taehyung was already moaning.

That little devil.

Jeongguk's whole body went cold when Taehyung's moans grew louder and Jieun stopped talking. Jeongguk had to squeeze Taehyung's waist to stop him from making any more sounds.

"What was that?" Jieun sounded utterly confused.

"I'm at the sports complex, babe. Kids are playing here. You were saying?" Jeongguk had to put all his acting skills together to say those sentences without moaning or his voice wavering.

"Oh okay. It sounded weird" She said and chuckled. Jeongguk did too, an empty feeling taking over him. "That's all babe. Come home soon and be safe"

"I will," Jeongguk said and before she could even say goodbye, he hanged up.

"You little bitch" Jeongguk seethed. Taehyung only giggled like the little brat he was.

"She heard you moaning. If she suspects a thing, we're over"

"I'm sorry not sorry professor" Taehyung giggled. "Now fuck me"

"Fuck you, yes" Jeongguk said. "You deserve to get punished"

"Like you'd have the guts to punish me. Mr. Jeon"

Jeongguk chuckled humorlessly and slapped Taehyung's ass. Taehyung moaned, suddenly blushing scarlet as he did.

Oh, Taehyung has a spanking kink?

Jeongguk smirked. Does the power bottom like to get spanked? Amusing. Very amusing.

Jeongguk did it again. His peachy butt turned rosy with every slap, the figure of a handprint much evident. And Taehyung moaned with every slap. "You say I can't?"

"Ah! Fuck me please" Taehyung moaned out as Jeongguk spanked him again.

Jeongguk chuckled. He leaned over to Taehyung's ear and whispered hotly: "Dirty little slut" and started thrusting in and out of Taehyung.

In minutes they were both moaning and close to their climaxes. Jeongguk's thrusts were becoming sloppy and he reached over to stroke Taehyung.

Just as Taehyung came into Jeongguk's palm, Jeongguk whispered: "My whore" in Taehyung's ear.

And as the cum was shot out of his cock, he whispered back "Yours"

The word was enough to make Jeongguk find his release, while buried deep inside Taehyung's ass. Jeongguk groaned loudly as he pumped his cum into Taehyung and the boy whimpered at the sensation. The two of them panted heavily, trying to calm their erratic heartbeats. the sound of their huffs filled the room. Jeongguk let out another grain of satisfaction and bliss, his head feeling light from the amazing orgasm he had just had. 

"What are you doing to me, Taehyung?" Jeongguk whispered, breathless.

The little devil whispered back:

"Fucking you up"

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Taehyung Kim was a fuck up.

The realization didn't come to him after 20 years of living, one February morning in the middle of his History of Arts lecture. He'd known it for a while. Say, when he was 16? He doesn't remember exactly how it happened but he did remember how he gave a blowjob to a man who was thrice his age.

He remembered the man's rough caroused hands grabbing at his soft brown locks, which weren't dyed blond back then. His glassy eyes brimmed with tears as he stared at the wrinkled face above him, head thrown back in pleasure. He remembered the exact way the man had held his face with his large hands, restricting him any movement as he roughly fucked his mouth. And at last, mercilessly came down his throat.

At least the man was decent enough to not forcefully fuck him when he denied the request. He remembered how he was on the floor, half-naked, tears running down his face when the man stood up from the bed after using Taehyung's mouth for pleasure. Remembered how Taehyung got himself on his feet and dressed himself as the pedophile watched. And after he was done, the way the man threw 200 dollars on the floor for Taehyung to pick up before he walked out of the motel room.

Every weekend he at least blew off 5 men. All of whom were older than himself. It was easier to find older men. Because Taehyung was beautiful, delicate, soft to the touch. And those men who came to nightclubs were old, filthy rich, and tired of their wives who failed to provide them enough pleasure in bed.

Most people were angry at Taehyung because he wouldn't sleep with them. It was a principle of his. He'd let the men have their way with him and collect the money at the end of it. Not letting anyone fuck him was what kept him from calling himself a prostitute.

He used to live alone, in a shabby apartment his mother had rented for him. He hardly ever saw his mother. She lived in another state and sent him money. But the money was only hardly enough for his school and food. And with no one to tell him how wrong it was of him to make money off his body, he got addicted to the big loads of notes being thrown at him. And his father was always out of the equation. He was non-existent in his life. He never sent Taehyung money and he hadn't seen him in years. He called, once in a while. But Taehyung hated him. He had a family of his own. He didn't care for Taehyung.

He had been best friends with Jimin for so long. But he'd never told him about what he does. The only thing Jimin knew was that he had a thing for older men, which was partially true.

He stopped letting men use him when he was 18. Instead, he found himself one man, married or not, and stuck to him for a long period of time. It was more like having a sugar daddy. They didn't last long. Not more than two months. It ended either because Taehyung wanted to; if he was growing tired of them. Or most of the time because their wives found out about the affair. Taehyung didn't mind. He'd always find someone new the following week.

He enjoyed it. Especially when their wives found out. Enjoyed the way he'd be the one destroying families. One would call it madness. Another would call him a psychopath. Either way, he was feeding off the hate that was directed towards him.

He grew up without love. He grew up thinking he didn't need it. Nor did he want others to receive it.

And with every family he destroyed, he was punishing himself. And he was addicted to that feeling. The guilt.

Yes, he was a total fuck up. There's no other word for him. A whore, yes. A fucked-up whore at best.

By 19, he had finished high school. He was slowly getting tired of his habits. He was getting tired of how he'd provide pleasure to older men but they wouldn't show him the slightest kindness and get him off. He was tired of the way men who were much older than him would touch his soft body with their wrinkled hands and kiss him with those chapped lips and push their smelly tongues inside him. How those pedophiles would just take pleasure watching a body who's the age of their grandchildren and get off to the sight.

He hated how they expected him to obey and be submissive. It was after a few years that he found out that he wanted to dominate other people, not to be dominated.

So as he turned 20, he decided he wouldn't sell his body anymore. He was still a virgin. He had secured that one thing for someone special. He was about to go to university and start a new life. He was going to put his past behind him and work toward his artist dream.

He had gotten himself a girlfriend, even though he didn't really want one. It's just Aria's very persuasive. And kind of pretty. They had been friends for a few weeks and she was nice. At first, all he thought was that he would be friends with her and even when she asked him out, he never intended to sleep with her. It had lasted for a few weeks. And Taehyung thought he was finally getting his life together.

He wasn't prepared to meet Jeongguk that winter night.

At first, he just wanted to sleep with him. Jeongguk was handsome and sweet. He didn't want Jeongguk for money. He just wanted to be with Jeongguk. Taehyung thought that Jeongguk actually showed him some intimacy, more than just lust. From the way the older man touched him, he knew the guy didn't take him for a prostitute.

He was beyond outrageous to find out that Jeongguk had fucked him and left money the following morning. Because he thought that life was over for him. He didn't expect Jeongguk to do that to him. He thought he would never take money for sleeping with someone. He had felt disgusted in himself that he had not only allowed a stranger to take his virginity, but also let himself be sold like that.

But when he had kept bumping into Jeongguk at different moments, he had decided that he'd want to keep having sex with Jeongguk.

Jeongguk didn't treat him like some doll or a possession. He wasn't a pedophile. Nor was he too much older than Taehyung. He wasn't filthy rich. He had a godly body, unlike most men Taehyung had offered pleasure to. Most of all, Jeongguk didn't try to dominate him.

But he did have a wife. And a kid.

And the thrill of messing with a married man was still fresh inside Taehyung. He still fed off of that thrill of doing something so forbidden.

But with Jeongguk he didn't really feel the thrill to destroy the poor man's family life. It was hard to explain for Taehyung, what he's feeling towards this man. Deep down, he knew that there was something special about Jeongguk. He didn't really want Jeongguk's wife to find out about them and to destroy his life. And neither did he care about Jeongguk having a wife. It simply didn't matter. He still loved the thrill. But there was something else that was attracting him towards Jeongguk. He couldn't exactly pinpoint what that is. But that's what made him still stick to Jeongguk, even when he wasn't willing to give Taehyung all the attention he wanted Jeongguk to give him. He was immensely attracted to Jeongguk. Sexually.

He wanted to keep fucking Jeongguk. And that's all he needed from the man.

"....Picasso said that everything you can imagine is real" Jeongguk was saying and Taehyung was snapped back to reality with the name of Picasso, one of his favorite artists. "Art is about everything real and everything unreal. In art, it doesn't matter if what you're putting into that canvas is real or not. It's just you and your mind in this. Together you'll create masterpieces.

"Picasso also said good artists copy, great artists steal," Jeongguk said, making the students erupt into low chuckles. Jeongguk himself was smiling, his lips stretched to form a bunny-like grin, and dimples appearing on both his cheeks. He looked cute, Taehyung thought. Taehyung smiled at him fondly.

"I want you to think about that quote as homework today. What does he mean by it? What are your ideas about it? Do some research on it? I'll be randomly picking up students and asking them questions. I want you guys to engage in this lecture. For today that's all. Any questions?" Jeongguk said.

A redhead with freckles, who always stays after class to ask Mr. Jeon questions rose her hand up.

"Yes, Miss. Frey?"

The girl asked something very descriptively, waving her hands everywhere as he did. Taehyung dismissed her over-attentiveness and closed his notebook.

"Hey I and Namjoon are going to the mall today. Want to come with us?" Jimin said from beside Taehyung.

"As a date?"

"Not really"

"Nah man, you guys go. I'll pass" Taehyung said. "Got some stuff to study too"

"Oh yeah. Okay. I'll bring you dinner, then?"

"Bro you'd be going straight to Namjoon's room after the date. Don't worry, I'd eat something" Taehyung said, chuckling.

"Fuck off" Jimin punched Taehyung's arm lightly, smiling.

The bell rang and the students started streaming out of the class, the moment Jeongguk dismissed the class. Taehyung saw the redhead still leaning forward Mr. Jeon's desk, asking something, and Jeongguk, sitting on his chair and listening to her babbling.

"Aren't you going to the next class?" Jimin asked.

"No, I'm going to meet Mr. Jeon for a second" Taehyung said.

"You're going to tell him to come over, aren't you?" Jimin said. "While I'm out"

"If he agrees" Taehyung smirked at Jimin. Jimin laughed, making Mr. Jeon avert his gaze momentarily towards the two of them, as the class was nearly empty by then.

"Okay, bro. Good luck with that. See you in English" Jimin said and waved at Taehyung and walked out of the hall.

Taehyung slowly approached the table. The girl was still with him. Taehyung sat at the front seat row, right in front of Jeongguk, and spread his legs. Jeongguk was focusing on the textbook the redhead had set open on his desk. Jeongguk's gaze flicked over Taehyung once and he looked back at Taehyung and his eyes grazed over Taehyung's body for a few seconds right before focusing on the girl.

"Miss Frey, let's not go ahead of ourselves, shall we? I haven't taught that lesson yet. So I'll explain that part tomorrow or the day after" Jeongguk said, smiling at her fondly.

"Yes, Mr. Jeon," She said and picked up her books. "Thank you"

"Of course"

Taehyung watched as the girl walked out of the classroom.

"Hi," Jeongguk said the moment the door closed after the girl.

"Hello," Taehyung said, smiling. He was in a good mood that day.

"Did you ask your landlady if you could pay the rent next month?" Jeongguk asked, standing before Taehyung, his hands in his pockets.

Taehyung huffed, irritated. He was going to forget about the matter for that day. But he guessed he couldn't avoid his problems forever.

Taehyung shook his head. "She said no. she wants me to pay and move out before this week ends"

Taehyung was struggling. He wasn't exactly used to struggling because after he started selling himself off, he'd always had money. But in the last few months after her mother's pay had been cut off from time to time, and the money she'd been sending him had been reducing, he'd assured his mother that he has money and she doesn't need to send him as much as before. He had spent most of the money he had saved in the last few months. His college fees and books had been expensive. And now he only had a couple of dollars in his bank account.

He was almost considering going back to his lifestyle. Back to being used. And he was considering sleeping with people too. Because now that he's no longer a virgin... and because it would pay more.

He hated the idea. He didn't want to be submissive to men again. He despised it now. Besides now that he and Jeongguk were hooking up...

"I was thinking about getting a student loan," Taehyung said.

"Oh" Jeongguk seemed to think for a moment. "You know I have an idea"

"What?"

Jeongguk paced back to his desk and sat down on top of it, long legs clad in tight jeans and sneakers dangling off the edge. "I'll pay your rent for the last month"

Taehyung was dumbfounded. He never thought he'd see the day Jeongguk offers him money. He considered Jeongguk his lover. He didn't expect anything from him in return. It was one thing that set Jeongguk apart from the men Taehyung had offered pleasure to. Jeongguk was not his sugar daddy, nor was Taehyung his prostitute.

He would not accept money from Jeongguk for sleeping with him. Somewhere deep inside, Taehyung knew Jeongguk was more than just a guy he slept with. That's why he called him his lover.

"Are you offering me money for sleeping with me?!" Taehyung almost shouted.

"What!? No!" Jeongguk shook his head. "I'm just offering you money, you brat. You can pay me later. Besides" Jeongguk's voice grew softer. "I'm not some millionaire who can shower you with money and spoil you with branded things like a sugar daddy. Seriously, I can't afford that. I'm only a university professor"

Taehyung sighed. "I know. I don't want you to be"

He wondered if he should tell Jeongguk about his past, for a split second. But some things were better unsaid. His past was in the past. It doesn't determine who he is today.

On the other hand, he felt guilty for wanting to accept money. He didn't have much of a choice at this point. He would be able to pay Jeongguk next month with his new job but still....

He didn't like it that Jeongguk was trying to take care of him like this. He knew he was being stubborn but he hated being treated as a submissive. His previous sugar daddies had done the same, trying to control his life for him and he had hated that. He didn't want Jeongguk doing that too.

"You don't have to worry. I can offer you money and you can pay it back sooner or later. Don't feel guilty"

Taehyung stopped fiddling with his fingers and looked up at Jeongguk. It was as if Jeongguk was reading his mind. Taehyung looked at the smiling figure of Jeongguk looking down at him. And maybe, it was okay. Maybe it was okay for him to be taken care of. Maybe he needed that once in a while too...

"Hmm...fine," Taehyung said at last. "I'll pay you back next month. Thank you, Mr. Jeon"

Jeongguk grinned. "You're welcome," He said. "And you can stay at my place for this month if you want. Because there's no place for you to stay, right? You don't have to pay me or anything"

Taehyung was honestly starstruck. He thought of staying at one of his friend's houses for a few nights. Hoseok and Yoongi lived nearby. So, he could've crashed at either of their paces since his landlady would kick him out the moment he pays the rent. But he can't stay there for a whole month. Hoseok wasn't rich. Yoongi was, and he knew the both of them would agree to let him stay over as much as he wanted. But he hated being a burden to them. They were only students too.

He knew staying at Jeongguk's place would be a burden too...maybe he could pay rent at the end of the month...

"Is that okay?" Taehyung asked.

"Of course," Jeongguk said.

"I'll stay if you'd let me pay you back"

Jeongguk quirked up an eyebrow. "No"

"Then I'll crash at someone's"

"Stop being so stubborn. If you really want to pay, we'll discuss that at the end of the month. Don't bother your friends"

Taehyung sighed. "Okay then," He said. "I don't want you to be my sugar daddy, that's all"

Jeongguk laughed. "Sure" Jeongguk said. "But..."

Jeongguk's pause made Taehyung look up at him. He had walked over to where Taehyung sat and was crouching down in front of him. Their eyes were on eye level with each other. Taehyung stared at the elder's dark, doe eyes. And for the nth time, he thought that they were quite captivating. "There's something you aren't telling me. Why are you so hesitant to accept money and care from me?"

Taehyung fiddled with his fingers for a while. He was feeling nervous. In all reality, he didn't want Jeongguk to know about his past yet. He hadn't even told Jimin about it.

"It's just that I hate the idea of someone controlling my life. People.... people had tried to do that to me and...it wasn't a good experience and I didn't like it" Taehyung stumbled on his words.

"Taehyung I'm not trying to take control of your life. I don't want to do that. I'm just trying to help you. I don't expect anything in return. I want you to be whoever you want when you're with me" Jeongguk's palm was soft against his cheek and his thumb brushed over the apple of his right cheek. Taehyung found himself involuntarily leaning into the warm touch.

Taehyung nodded. "Thank you"

"No need to thank me, darling" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung felt Jeongguk lean in and the next moment his hot lips were pressed against Taehyung's cold ones. His warm breath tickled his cheek as Taehyung closed his eyes, the feeling of Jeongguk's soft lips unusually comforting. He opened his mouth a little and so did Jeongguk. In no time Jeongguk's hands were cupping Taehyung's cheeks as they kissed. It felt nice. Beautiful. Almost romantic. Comforting nonetheless. There wasn't a wave of arousal coursing through his body like every other time he'd kissed Jeongguk. Instead, there was a warm feeling blossoming inside him. It was so... alien to Taehyung.

Taehyung let the older man suck his bottom lip a little and then softly enter his tongue before pulling away a little. Jeongguk's words were a whisper against his lips.

"I'm always here for you"

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"Fuck! Harder!" Taehyung moaned out as Jeongguk slammed into him from behind. It had Taehyung gripping his bedsheets tighter and dipping his head into his pillow. Though Jeongguk was already fucking him at a brutal pace, he just needed it harder, faster.

Jeongguk leaned forward upon hearing Taehyung's demand, fucking him harder and deeper. Taehyung whimpered when Jeongguk's cock slammed straight into his prostate. His moans were muffled as his head was buried in a pillow. He didn't want to be too loud as they were in Taehyung's dorm.

The confined space of his and Jimin's bedroom was too warm as both males had jumped on each other the moment they came inside the room, tearing each other's clothes off, and had forgotten to turn on the air conditioner. Now Taehyung was sweating profusely.

But he had too little care for that. He was crying in ecstasy as Jeongguk continued to ram in and out of him, low groans emitting from his throat. It only turned on Taehyung more. Jeongguk's nails were digging into his hips as he fucked Taehyung, trying to keep his hips in place.

Taehyung knew Jeongguk was close when his thrusts became sloppy and less rhythmic. Taehyung was too. Jeongguk's hand came from behind him and started stroking Taehyung's already leaking cock and in a few moments, he was moaning loudly, eyes rolling to the back of his head as he came, white ribbons spurting from his cock to his sheets and pillow. A few thrusts later, Jeongguk was coming inside Taehyung with a loud groan that made a shudder go through Taehyung's whole body.

As they lay side by side, scrunched in Taehyung's small bed, breathing heavily as if they've run a marathon, trying to come down from their high, Taehyung turned his head to look at the man next to him. He was staring at the ceiling, mouth slightly agape as he breathed heavily. His face glistened with sweat, so did his body under the dim lights. Jeon Jeongguk was unarguably smoking hot. He was handsome. A hot piece of meat. The chatter in hallways at the campus by both girls and boys about Professor Jeon proved it. Everyone at campus wanted to get a piece of him. Taehyung doubted if they knew he had a wife and a kid. If they knew, would they stop thirsting over him?

Maybe yes. Probably so. Not everyone is a psychopath like Taehyung.

On the other hand, Jeongguk was cute. Taehyung loved it when he smiled. The way he flashes his teeth every time he smiles reminded Taehyung of a bunny. Taehyung found it extremely adorable. Even now, as Jeongguk stared at the ceiling with those huge eyes of his, he simply looked cute, all the while he looked handsome.

"Taehyung I know I'm hot but it's rude to stare," Jeongguk said, still looking at the ceiling, a smirk stretching at his lips.

"Shut up," Taehyung said and looked away, smirking to himself.

Jeongguk turned, the bed creaking as he rolled on his side to look at Taehyung. It was now Taehyung's turn to take interest in the ceiling.

"You know, Taehyung, there's something about you that I can't just have enough of. Sex with you is so good. I don't understand what makes me so attracted towards you" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung turned to face Jeongguk, amused. "Better than your wife ever was?"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said quietly. "Feels like it"

"Do you feel guilty for cheating on her?" Taehyung asked in a small voice.

"Yeah. A lot"

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said, actually feeling sorry.

"It's not your fault, Tae. I'm a fuck up, that's all. I'm the one who started this" Jeongguk said.

"We should've finished this after that first night," Taehyung said.

"Do you really want that?"

Taehyung shook his head. "Nah, I want you all the fucking time. You know I've had my fair share of blowjobs and all, just not sex, I've never felt so right with anyone else. Too right." He said. "I just feel bad for you, I guess"

"Don't be. If I wanted, I would've stopped this. But I can't. I'm too fucked up" Jeongguk said.

"Guess we're both fucked up then, huh?" Taehyung said, giggling a little.

"What do you mean? You aren't fucked up, Tae. You're completely normal"

Taehyung's heart skipped a beat. Jeongguk was looking at him, his face reflecting confusion. Maybe he should let Jeongguk know he's basically been a prostitute. Yes. This is the best time. If Jeongguk feels disgusted in him and lets him go- Taehyung gulped, his heart sinking a little at the very thought. But he had been needing to tell Jeonggukk about his past for a while now. Since this is a long-time thing, he should...

Taehyung took a deep breath. "I used to-"

Someone started knocking at the door. Taehyung and Jeongguk both sat up on the bed, startled. Jeongguk looked at him with wide eyes. "Who?" He mouthed.

Taehyung shrugged. "Jimin can't be back this soon" Taehyung whispered and got off the bed, jumping a little when a sharp pain shot up from his ass, making him whimper. Nevertheless, he managed to stumble and put in some boxers and sweatpants.

"Hide" Taehyung whispered to Jeongguk before he went to the door.

He slowly opened the door a little and peeked through it.

Standing outside his room was Aria.

"Aria!" Taehyung said a little loudly, so Jeongguk would hear him from inside. "Hey! What are you doing here?"

Taehyung sneaked out of his room and closed the door behind him as he stepped outside.

Aria was looking at him with surprise. He was bare-chested. But that can't be the first time the girl had seen a guy's naked torso, right?

"Ta-Taehyung" Aria stammered.

"Aria. What brought you here?" Taehyung asked again.

Aria looked horrified. He was literally glancing up and down Taehyung's chest.

"My father was right," She said, voice breaking as if she was about to cry. "You are cheating on me. You are fucking other girls!"

Taehyung was surprised. Then only did his dumb brain realize that his whole chest and neck is littered with hickeys. Both new and old, some red and some fading. All of it was left by none other than Aria's own father.

Taehyung gulped, trying to cover his chest with his hands. "Aria we broke up"

"No, my father made us break up!" She shouted.

"Look, I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry that I cheated on you. But Aria I'm literally five years older than you. And... you deserve someone better than me" Taehyung said.

"Why did you even start dating me in the first place!?" Aria said.

"Because you asked me to! And you were hot and all so I kind of wanted to too! But I've been busy and we hardly met. This wasn't that serious for me, Aria. I wasn’t even planning to sleep with you when I said when you asked me out. I can't possibly have sex with you and I hooked up with a couple of people" Taehyung said.

"I hate you!" Aria said and hit his chest. "Oh my god, you reek. Were you having sex when I came?!"

"What?! No!" Taehyung said, panicked.

"Don't lie! Besides, why aren't you letting me in? You've never done this! There is someone inside! Let me in!" Aria started fighting against Taehyung to get inside. Taehyung tried to block the door with all his might. But damn, Aria was sure strong for a sixteen-year-old.

"Aria!" Taehyung shouted, having enough. "We broke up. We're over. Stay out of my life. Yes, I just fucked someone. So what?! We broke up. I can fuck whoever I want!"

Silence followed. "I hate you!" Aria shrieked and turned on her heel, stomping away.

Taehyung sighed to himself and watched her leave. After she was out of sight, he opened the door and was about to go inside when someone pushed him. He lost balance and fell forward and the door was opened, ajar.

Taehyung recovered from the shock and he saw Aria by the door, frozen in shock.

"Dad?"

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•°¹⁷°• My Little Girl─✵─────────

Jeongguk's heart beat in his throat as he hurriedly slipped on his clothes that were all over Taehyung's dorm room. He could hear the heated argument outside and Aria screaming at Taehyung about cheating on him. If Aria sees him here, he's done for. His family life would be flushed down the drain.

After he looked presentable, he was about to run into the bathroom and lock himself when the door opened and Taehyung came in. He sighed in relief when he saw Taehyung was alone. A smile tugged his lips upward but it was soon slapped off when someone pushed Taehyung onto the floor.

Aria stood by the doorway, a look of horror portraying her features.

Jeongguk's face wasn't too different. Panic was eating him out from the inside.

"Dad?"

Okay, Jeongguk. This is when your fifth-grade acting skills you mastered for that school drama should be coming of use.

Jeongguk raised an eyebrow at his daughter, a boost of adrenaline coursing through his veins as he soon recovered his shock and put on a casual look. 

"Wh-what are you doing here?" Aria asked Jeongguk with a small voice Jeongguk swore his heart broke at the sound of her voice. He knew what she was thinking. It was crystal clear.

The room itself stank of sex and sweat. Taehyung was the walking epitome of a I-just-bottomed-for-someone guy, with his whole body covered with love bites and hips decorated with new handprints and nail marks.

"I should be asking you the same" Jeongguk said casually as he leaned against Taehyung's work table. Arms crossed as he gave Aria a judgmental look. "What are you doing at my student's dorm?"

"I'm...I came to meet him, dad. Why are you with him? He's...did you and him...?" Aria stumbled for words.

"What are you implying, Aria?" Jeongguk asked her.

"Why were you with him? He reeks of sex!" Aria shouted.

Jeongguk furrowed his eyebrows together. "What ridiculous thing are you implying right now, Aria? My daughter?"

"Aria! What the hell are you thinking?! Do you think I had sex with your father? What the fuck? He's my teacher. And your father! Gross" Taehyung joined in, a disgusted look scrunching up his perfect features.

Aria was about to cry. "Then why are you in his room? Look at him! He said he was having sex"

Jeongguk sighed. "Should I tell her?" Jeongguk asked Taehyung.

Taehyung looked confused and panicked. "What?! Professor please no!"

"She has misunderstood this whole situation, Mr. Kim. Besides you two have nothing to do with each other so there shouldn't be any harm in her knowing, right?"Jeongguk said. "I really don't have to explain myself to you, Aria but since there's a ridiculous misunderstanding here, I'll tell you. I'm tutoring Taehyung every Tuesday and I came a little earlier today. He was with someone when I came here. Another boy, who's also from my class. I had to tell him to leave as soon as I came here. I was about to tell him to get dressed to start our lesson when you came in"

"Oh," Aria said. "Is that why you came home late every Tuesday?"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. Not because I was fucking your boyfriend.

"Why are you here? I thought I told you to stay away from him? He's casually hooking up with every guy and girl he meets and you're still after him? You should be focusing on studying and not boys! He obviously doesn't want you. I knew he was cheating on you. That's why I wanted you guys to end this" 

Aria held her head down.

"If I ever see you near him again, I'll ground you until the summer vacation is over," Jeongguk said sternly. "Now go and wait in the car. Taehyung, I don't think we'll be able to continue our lesson today. I need to get her home. I just caught her red-handed, going against my words. I don’t trust her to go straight home. Only God knows where she’ll go"

Aria sniffled.

Jeongguk turned towards Aria, his eyebrows furrowing together upon seeing her cry. “I trusted you when I told you to stop visiting him. Go now, wait for me in the car. Taehyung, I’ll be taking my leave now”

"Oh. That's okay, Professor. When can we continue the lesson? " Taehyung asked innocently. 

"I'll see my schedule and inform you," Jeongguk said. "Aria, the car is on the other side of the road. Wait for me. I'll come quickly. Don't go anywhere"

"Okay dad," She said in a small voice and left. Jeongguk and Taehyung watched her leave and as soon as she was out of sight, Taehyung closed the door. 

Both men sighed in relief.

Then they looked at each other and Taehyung burst out laughing. Jeongguk couldn't help the smile that tugged his own lips upwards, despite the guilt that crept up his throat. He let out another sigh to get rid of that feeling. He did what has to be done. He needed Aria to believe that what she was thinking didn’t happen. 

"I didn't think you're such a good actor, Professor" Taehyung said between giggles.

"That was close. I thought I was done for. oh my god. I knew doing it in your dorm is a bad idea"

"No! It was fun. So professor, when's the next lesson?"

"Tomorrow. At my house” Jeongguk said in a small voice.”Pack your stuff I'll pick you up after lessons"

"Oh tomorrow? Did you tell your wife?"

"Not yet. She wouldn't disagree. She loves you" Jeongguk chuckled.

"Okay. It'd be quite an issue with Aria though" Taehyung said.

"We'll manage," Jeongguk said.

Taehyung nodded. He stepped near Jeongguk and wrapped his arms around his neck. Jeongguk's hands automatically flew over to Taehyung's narrow waist. 

Jeongguk was fast to close the space between their faces. They kissed sloppily and hungrily, Jeongguk's tongue lapping against Taehyung's as wet sounds filled the room. The excitement of kissing Taehyung was as fresh as the first time they kissed. He tasted like fine wine every time. Jeongguk couldn't drink enough. He was too addicted and drunk on the feeling.

Jeongguk pulled away to catch his breath. He smiled at the younger boy with fondness.

"See you tomorrow, "Jeongguk said as he took his leave. 

"Sure, Professor "


Aria wiped her tears as she waited by the car for her father to arrive. She was heartbroken. She was too attached to Taehyung to let him go like this. But he had proved over and over again that he didn't give a shit about Aria.

As her mom once said, boys are trash.

Her dad was right to tell her to stay away from him. But Aria liked Taehyung too much...

She saw her dad walk over to the car and get inside without a single word. Times like these, when her father was angry, it scared her. She had been caught red-handed by her own father. Not only once but a couple of times. 

Aria noticed that her dad's shirt was quite crumpled. He usually dressed neatly. Aria shook her head and ignored it as she got inside the car on the passenger seat. 

Aria couldn't believe what she saw when she entered Taehyung's room. She knew it was too much on her side. That it was crossing so many lines; what she did. But she had to see the bitch that was fucking with her Taehyung. She was dumbfounded to see her own father inside the room.

The thoughts that crossed her mind made her cringe even now. His father would never cheat on her mother. They were so much in love and they hardly even fought. Aria thought that they were a perfect couple. She was disgusted in herself that thought as such even crossed her mind. 

Her dad started the engine from beside her and set into the road. 

"Do you not listen to a single word I say, Aria?" her father's voice was dangerously calm. It terrified her. Aria stayed silent.

"I told you to stay away from him because of this exact reason. Now you have proof that he's sleeping with other people. Didn't believe it when I said, huh? He isn't worth your time. I think he has a boyfriend too. See how quick he moved on from you?"

"What? How do you know that, dad?"

"Did you forget that he's in my class? There's this guy he always hangs out with. The same guy I saw him... in bed with"  

 "Oh" Aria felt like crying again. She was such a crybaby. She hated that about herself. 

"You know, Aria. He is a good student. He just doesn't like you. He knows that you're too young for him. He's a smart kid. I'm tutoring him English. I started it a few weeks ago. He's quite struggling with his money, Aria. He's going to be kicked out of his dorm. So I decided to let him stay at our place for a while. Are you okay with that?"

"What?" Aria was starstruck. "He's going to live with us?! Why?!" 

"Because he can't afford that dorm now, Aria. He has some financial problems"

"Why are you so friendly with him? I thought you hated him!"

"I don't hate him, Aria. I pity him. He's not from around here either. So I decided to help him a little bit with some things. When he moves in with us, I don't want you to try anything weird on him. Do you hear me? Or I'll do what I said earlier. Grounded for the whole summer. You won't be able to even hang out with your friends. And you know I stick to one word" Aria's father said.

Aria huffed. "Fine"

"Good. You know I'm doing this for your own good, right? He's not good for you. Besides you're too young"

Aria didn't reply.

"You know I love you, right, my little girl? " Her father said. Aria's breath hitched on her throat the moment she heard her nickname. It had been such a long while since Jeongguk had called her that. She loved it when her dad called her that. It brought back old memories. Her dad always used to call her that when she was younger.

"I know, dad" Aria said. "I love you too"

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•°¹⁸°• Regrets ─✵─────────

To cover one lie, one must tell a thousand.

A lie here, another there; Jeongguk found himself lying to the most important people of his life. People to who he never thought he'd be lying. All because he couldn't keep it in his pants.

As Jeongguk pulled up in front of his house, with a giddy Taehyung in his passenger seat, he wondered if this was the best decision he could take at that moment. Bringing his fuck buddy to his house where his family lived was crossing a lot of lines that Jeongguk didn't expect to cross. But there was no backing up now. 

"You look happy" Jeongguk commented, looking at the younger.

"First of all, I'm relieved. Second of all, we don't have to sneak around campus and your office to fuck" Taehyung said.

"You don't like my office? It's very artistic and neat" Jeongguk mused.

"I do! I like there. It's kinky when we fuck there" 

Jeongguk chuckled. "Jieun is inside. So is Aria. So behave"

"Behave? Me? Don't you think you're the who should behave, Mr. Jeon? It's your dick that always makes its way to my ass" Taehyung slurred.

Jeongguk scoffed. 

"Besides" Taehyung added, "If you don't behave, I'll punish you, sir" Taehyung's hand shifted up to his thigh, dangerously close to his crotch. Jeongguk gulped, high-key turned on by the words. He didn’t understand why he always acted like some high school boy who hadn’t lost his virginity yet whenever he was around Taehyung. 

"Let's go inside," He said and quickly stepped out of the car. 

Jeongguk helped Taehyung carry some of his things, what seemed to be books and art supplies. He didn't have many belongings, other than a suitcase full of clothes and art equipment.

The moment Jeongguk opened the front door for Taehyung to come in, they were welcomed by Jieun's cheerful voice.

"Taehyung! It's so nice to see you again" She chirped, clasping her hands together. "I was really excited when Jeongguk said you'll be staying here for a while"

Taehyung smiled at the woman. "Mrs. Jeon, I'm sorry for bothering you-"

"What nonsense! You're not a bother at all! After all, aren't you and Jeongguk like friends now? You're always welcome at this house, Taehyung" Jieun said. 

"Thank you, Mrs. Jeon. I'll forever be grateful for helping me" 

Jieun waved her hand dismissively. "Now, you must be tired. I'll call you when dinner's ready. Go along now. Oh and, you're free to go anywhere in this house. Just tell me if you need anything at all" 

"Thank you, Mrs. Jeon"

"Call me Jieun, darling," She said. "Jeongguk, will you help me make dinner tonight?"

"Are you tired? You should get some rest, Jieun. I'll manage dinner" Jeongguk said.

"Oh and I can help!" Taehyung offered. 

"Thank you, both of you, "  Jieun said. "Aria is in her room. I don't know what's come over her. She refused to come to greet you"

"Aria and Taehyung had had some quarrel. Let her be for now" Jeongguk said.

"Okay. I'll be in our room then. Make yourself at home, Taehyung" She patted Taehyung's shoulder and went upstairs.

After she disappeared upstairs, Jeongguk spoke."You're okay with the room you stayed at last time, right? There's another room upstairs..."

"No. That one is fine. Thanks" Taehyung said, making his way towards the hallway.

"This room is my and Jieun's study," Jeongguk said, pointing at the closed door right in front of Taehyung's room. "Aria's and my rooms are upstairs. There's also one bathroom upstairs. The other bathroom, you used, there, at the end of the hallway. The kitchen and living room, you know"

"Yeah. Thanks" Taehyung stepped inside the room. It seemed to have been cleaned. The sheets had been replaced. Otherwise, it looked the same.

"I'll leave you. I'm going to start making dinner at six" Jeongguk said, making his way towards the door after setting down Taehyung's stuff. 

"Jeongguk" Taehyung called, making Jeongguk stop and turn around to look at Taehyung.

The younger boy was looking at him with those beautiful chocolate eyes of his. The sunlight flowing through the open blinds of the window behind him made his tan skin glow. There was some extraordinary beauty about the boy. Which was what attracted Jeongguk towards him in the first place. But on the other hand, Taehyung felt like someone that should be in Jeongguk's life.

Taehyung took a few steps towards Jeongguk and before he could process what was going on, Taehyung had cornered him to the wall while his other hand pushed close the door. Jeongguk stared at Taehyung with wide eyes, unsure of what the younger was going to do to him.

Taehyung stepped closer to Jeongguk with a devilish smirk plastered to his face until their chests were touching. Jeongguk's breath hitched in his throat when he slowly brought his face closer to Jeongguk. Jeongguk closed his eyes, thinking the other boy was going to kiss him. Instead, he felt a fan of hot breath on his cheek and Taehyung's lips touching his ear lobe. 

He kissed his earlobe and Jeongguk sighed at the blissful feeling of his lips. Taehyung's hot lips left kisses from his earlobe, all the way down to the corner of his mouth. Taehyung's hands were on either side of Jeongguk's face and Jeongguk had rested his hands on the younger's petite waist. 

When he pulled away the older of the two fluttered his eyes open. Taehyung had leaned away, but not too much, and was watching Jeonngguk. 

"Thank you" Taehyung whispered. He brought his face closer to Jeongguk, his lips ghosting on top of his. "This means so much to me. I don't know what I'd do without you. Really. Thank you"

Jeongguk stared at Taehyung for a second ot two. Then he let out a dry chuckle. "Why are you like this? You already thanked me. This isn't like you. Decided to quit being a brat?"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "I'm sincerely thanking you. Take it or leave it"

Jeongguk laughed. "There he is. My little brat" Jeongguk squeezed his waist.

"Fuck you, professor" Taehyung said, smiling.

"You'd want that, huh?"

Taehyung rolled his eyes again. Jeongguk couldn't deny that was hot. He quickly pecked the younger's lips.

"I'll get going now. I'll be upstairs if you need me"

"I need you now, professor" Taehyung whined.

"Not like that" Jeongguk said. "I should go now"

Taehyung let him go without further argument. He pouted cutely at Jeongguk.

"Get some rest and finish that assignment I gave you. Just because you've sucked my dick, doesn't mean I'll let you away with not completing that"

 "Fine" Taehyung huffed.

Jeongguk smiled at him and took his leave, leaving a pouting Taehyung behind.


If Jeongguk said that he was obsessed with Kim Taehyung, he wouldn't be lying. 

A single hour didn't pass without the younger boy crossing his mind. His voice, his hands, his chocolate eyes, his thick thighs, his sweet cherry lips, his everything was beautiful... Jeongguk knew that this wasn't healthy at all. The fact that his obsession; his drug was only downstairs, only a couple of meters away from him, didn't help at all. 

Jeongguk was walking on thin ice. He has become a prisoner of his own thoughts and his obsession only thrived. The more his relationship with Taehyung flourished, the more his bond with Jieun progressively deteriorated. 

And less guilty he felt with every passing day.

Jeongguk hated it. But there are no regrets in life. Only lessons. 

He wondered what the future held for them all. He knew that the truth was bound to be out one day. The truth would be out and the family he and his wife worked so hard to build would be in shambles. That was inevitable.

But with every kiss that felt like pure bliss and every time they fucked it felt better than the last time, he didn't know if he could stop, despite the consequences. His brain knew no logic. He was driven by lust. 

He pitied Jieun. He didn't know why but that's all he felt for her. Pity and remorse guilt. 

He looked at her now, lying in their bed, peacefully asleep. Jeongguk had thought she was beautiful fifteen years ago. But the last thing he had wanted to do was marry her one day.  Now, she didn't make his heart race like back then. He didn't feel any lust when he watched her curvy, beautiful body. 

She was everything a man could ask for. But Jeongguk only went after another. 

If by any chance, he'd stop things with Taehyung, it would be because of Jieun.

Jeongguk sighed, exasperated and feeling bad about himself. He hated himself. But he was too addicted to his drug by now.

"Jeongguk?" he looked at Jieun who laid awake on her bed.

"Hey" He smiled at her. "You awake?"

She hummed and waved him over. Jeongguk walked towards the bed and sat next to his wife who was lying on the bed.

"What's wrong? You look bothered"

Jeongguk shook his head. 

"Tell me" She urged. "You know I'd always take your side no matter what"

Jeongguk smiled at her sadly. "I'm sorry" He whispered.

Jieun furrowed her eyebrows together in confusion. "For what?"

"You look tired. Go back to sleep. I'll wake you up when dinner is ready"                                              

Jieun didn't question further. So Jeongguk walked out of the room to the kitchen, ruffling his wet hair, that was fresh out of the shower. His heart felt heavier after the conversation with his wife. 

However, an hour later, he found himself on his knees in front of Taehyung, with a rock-hard cock in his pants. 

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•°¹⁹°• Keep It Down ─✵─────────

"So have you and Jeongguk known each other for long?" Taehyung heard the woman sitting before him speak in a calm voice.

It was a Saturday morning and Taehyung was helping Jieun make lunch. He always helped with meals, even though Jieun protested. But after a few days, she gave up.

Now, Taehyung fumbled with the boiled potato in his hand as he tried to peel it and looked up at Jieun, who was now waiting for an answer to her question.

"Oh I met him about two months ago, I think. Last year. I hadn't started college at that time. I didn't know he'd be my teacher" Taehyung answered honestly.

"Ah I see," Jieun said, nodding, and went back to cutting the carrots. "Jeongguk never mentioned you. He only told me about you recently. But only that you're his student. But I figured out you guys must be close for him to bring you home after getting drunk" she chuckled.

Taehyung smiled. "Maybe he didn't tell you because I wasn't that important. We met at the pub and talked a little I guess"

"Oh! I didn't mean that! You see, Jeongguk hardly brings anyone home. I mean I've been married to him for ten tears now. I've brought my friends here but he hadn't ever brought any of his friends home. I bet you're special" she smiled.

"I'm sure it's  just because I'm a broke college student"

"Jeongguk has a good heart. You can stay here as long as you want, Taehyung. You're not a bother at all. You need to enjoy your college life"

"Thank you, Mrs.Jeon," Taehyung said. He really meant it.

"You know, when we were going to college, Jeongguk never went to those parties," Jieun said, her voice quite heavy with repentance. "Doing an art major, he had a lot of free time. A lot more than me. And he could've gone to all those parties and hung out with his friends on the weekends. But he never did any of that. Instead, he stayed at home, looking after Aria. He sacrificed his whole youth for her. And I feel bad for him."

Taehyung stared at the unpeeled potatoes on his plate, heart heavy. "But wasn't it the same for you?"

Jieun smiled. "Well, yes. But in law college, I hardly had any time for that. Besides I was doing a job too. It doesn't matter. Jeongguk just...I feel like it affected him more than me"

Taehyung nodded. Jeongguk became a father when he was 15 years old. Jieun was probably the first person he had sex with. And she was just a crush. Jeongguk never got the time to figure himself out, fall in love with someone he really wanted to be with. He was snatched off from all of that. But above all, he never got the opportunity to figure out his own sexuality.

It obviously had affected Jeongguk more than Jieun. Jieun wasn't the one cheating on her spouse.

Bet Jeongguk prefers dick over pussy.

"I love him"

Taehyung's gaze flicked over to the woman before him. He stared wide-eyed at her as he processed the words in his mind. Something stirred in his stomach upon hearing the words. Something, that Taehyung couldn't pinpoint as this or that.

Of course, she does. She's his wife. Of course, she loved her husband. They wouldn't be together if she didn't.

Jieun laughed. "I'm sorry...I just...I'm stating the obvious, right? You must be thinking that I'm getting too personal with you"

"No worries,  Mrs.Jeon" Taehyung smiled at her.

There was nothing to even think much about. Nothing to worry over. Jeongguk obviously didn't love Jieun. At least not anymore. Taehyung didn’t understand why he felt bothered.

"Jeongguk's been rather busy lately.  I hardly have time to spend with him. Does he have a lot of work at university?"

Taehyung fumbled with his fingers. Jeongguk probably didn't have time to spend with Jieun because he was hanging out with Taehyung.

"I...um..." Taehyung stumbled for words. "I think so. I've seen him in his office,  surrounded by work. Besides our exams are around the corner..."

"Ahh, I get it" Jieun nodded. "Taehyung, I need some help from you"

The younger boy looked at the beautiful woman before him. Her dark orbs dug into his own. There was something about that gaze. Beneath all that kindness, sweetness, and beauty, something dark. Taehyung didn’t know what it was. 

However, the moment Jieun’s smile widened and her eyes narrowed, crinkling on the edges, from the way she seemed even more beautiful when she smiled, all of Taehyung’s thoughts about her being ingenuine washed away and he found himself smiling back at her. 

"I was thinking about going out with Jeongguk around next week. You can call it a date of some sort" she chuckled after a few minutes. "We haven't been to one. Ever."

Wait... .what? Jeongguk had never been on a date?

"He's been stressed lately and I want him to free his mind up a little. I want to go with him for a dinner. Alone. But I can't leave Aria alone at night” She sighed.

Taehyung stared into space, confused and surprised.

“You must be wondering why I can’t leave Aria alone,” Jieun said, staring into Taehyung’s eyes. “Jeongguk told me some things about her lately. Told me that we shouldn't leave her alone because she can’t be trusted. Besides, I’m sure you understand. She’s at the peak of her teens and you never know what these teens would feel likt doing”

Taehyung nodded with a small smile. So Jeongguk really hadn’t told Jiein about what happened between him and Aria.

“Jeongguk and I had been so protective of Aria ever since she was a kid. We both don’t want her living the same fate as us. So i don’t want to leave her alone at night. BEsides if we run late…she’s never been alone so late at night. I was just wondering if you could look after her until we come back” 

"I'm sorry if I'm asking for too much. If you can't, I can leave her with someone else. I’m just asking. If you have plans, do tell me"

"No, it's fine,  Mrs.Jeon. Taehyung said in a small voice. He owed Jieun and Jeongguk. Taehyung still didn’t know how much he would have to pay for staying with them but he was pretty sure it would be such a low cost. Even when he eats at least one meal from the Jeon’s. Jieun was asking for a favor. How could Taehyung say no?

"Oh thank you, Taehyung" Jieun sighed with relief. 

"It's nothing, Mrs.Jeon. besides, I don't have anything planned for next week. Well, other than studying of course." Taehyung smiled at her. Sure, Taehyung could look after Aria. He could probably handle her if she tries to make a move on him or something. Though Taehyung didn't think she would, after all that happened. It's not like she would try something weird on him. At the most, she would try to bend Taehyung into dating her. But Aria wasn't the problem here.

It was Jeongguk.

Taehyung didn't feel good about this whole date thing. Sure, it wasn't his problem. He didn't care. But he did .....?

He shouldn't care. At all. He didn't know when this little affair between him and Jeongguk would end. He didn't want it to, for some reason. He felt weirdly attracted to the older man. If this does end, Taehyung would have to forget about him and move on with his life. And maybe...just maybe find a new guy the following week.

What Taehyung worried about was that if Jeongguk would fall for Jieun again by the end of their little date. That would be an issue. Jeongguk would try to remove Taehyung from his life. Taehyung didn't want that. He wanted Jeongguk too much.

Wait....he hadn't developed feelings for the guy, right?

Of course not. It was so much unlike Taehyung. Jeongguk was only a good fuck. And maybe a good friend too because he was helping Taehyung and that was much appreciated by him.

Either way, this uneasy feeling at the bottom of his gut was so unfamiliar to him. Taehyung decided to ignore it.


Later that day, all four people residing at the Jeon household sat at the table, eating their dinner in silence. Jeongguk had come home in the evening. There wasn't much exchange of words between Taehyung and Jeongguk throughout the whole day. Taehyung figured out that Jeongguk must be tired.

"I have a case to work on. I'll be late to come to bed" Jieun told Jeongguk after Aria left bidding goodnight to them.

"I'll take care of the dishes" Jeongguk offered.

"I'll help!" Taehyung said cheerfully.

"Thank you" Jieun smiled at Taehyung and left the kitchen.

Jeongguk had already started cleaning the dishes so Taehyung joined him at the sink.

The older man wordlessly cleaned the plates, not sparing a glance at Taehyung. Taehyung was confused.

"Jeongguk?"

"Hmm?" Jeongguk turned his head towards Taehyung. His dark orbs shone under the kitchen lights. He looked handsome as always. Breathtaking.

Taehyung was at a loss for words as Jeongguk stared him down.

"What is it?" Jeongguk said, smirking at Taehyung.

Taehyung blushed. Shit. He was supposed to dislike being stared down like this. He wanted to dominate Jeongguk! He didn’t like being submissive! 

"N-Nothing," Taehyung said and averted his gaze to the flowing water from the kitchen faucet.

He didn't have anything to do there, actually. Jeongguk was almost done with the dishes. So he just stood there, watching Jeongguk's veiny arms flex as he washed.

"Aren't you going to help me? I thought you were going to" Jeongguk spoke, not averting his gaze from the dishes.

"There's nothing for me to do here. You're almost done with everything"

"Not everything" A smug smirk played at his lips.

"Huh?"

"You can help me with my cock in your mouth"

Taehyung was taken aback. "Why are you so horny?" He chuckled.

Jeongguk smiled. "I was attempting to flirt, ok?"

"Well, you suck at it. Flirting isn't always sexual, Jeongguk"

"I know! I know! But that was the only thing I could come up with, ok?"

Taehyung laughed.

"So do you want to do it?" Jeongguk asked.

"You were ignoring me for the last four days! Jeongguk didn't you want me to come here so we can fuck more? But since the day you came here you've barely touched me. I was wondering-" Taehyung said. He'd been anxious the past few days and kind of frustrated.

"Woah hold up," Jeongguk said, wiping his hands with a towel. "I haven't been ignoring you. We did talk and I've been really busy, Tae"

Taehyung just stared. He wasn't buying it.

“Besides I didn't bring you here to have sex with you! I only wanted to give you a place to stay. You were struggling. And I haven’t been ignoring you!”

Taehyung rose an eyebrow at him. 

Jeongguk sighed."Ok fine. I've been reluctant to have sex with you here, ok? My wife and kid are here"

Taehyung sighed. Of course. He knew it. Jeongguk wasn't as brave as he let on.

"You don't want me anymore?"

"What?! No! That's not what I meant. Of course want you. I need you"

"Then act like it!" Taehyung said, his voice rising a little.

"Don't shout!" Jeongguk whisper-yelled. "You're being childish right now! I can't have anyone finding out about us. I need to be careful. Don't you get it?"

"I get it! But you're just being a fucking pussy about it"

Jeongguk glared at him, dark eyes burning darkly. "Call me pussy one more time" he seethed.

Taehyung's heartfelt sped up. Jeongguk looked fucking hot when he was angry. "Or what?"

"You'll regret it"

A smirk tugged up the corners of Taehyung's lips. His body was on fire from excitement and hormones sang in his veins.

"Pussy"

Taehyung didn't see it coming.

Jeongguk slammed into Taehyung, his back crashing with the pantry from the force. His strangled yelp of surprise was silenced by Jeongguk's mouth on his before he could let it out.

Jeongguk held him from his jaw, roughly keeping his face in place as he devoured Taehyung. Jeongguk's other hand held him from his waist and Taehyung's hands flew to Jeongguk's chest the moment the older man entered his tongue into his mouth.

Taehyung moaned as Jeongguk massaged his tongue with his own. They kissed sloppily, Taehyung as eager as Jeongguk to taste the other.

After what felt like seconds or hours, Jeongguk's grip on the younger's jaw loosened, only for him to be lifted up from his thighs.

Taehyung instantly wrapped his legs around Jeongguk's waist, the kiss breaking for a few moments. That was long enough for them to catch their breaths. Soon, Taehyung's mouth was back on Jeongguk's,  tongue invading him.

Jeongguk carried him from the kitchen, down the hallway. He kicked open Taehyung's bedroom door and went inside. Taehyung gasped as he was literally slammed into the soft mattress. He felt Jeongguk detach himself from Taehyung as he ran towards the door, locked it, and stood at the edge of the bed.

He stared down at Taehyung who was propping himself up from his elbows. There was an obvious tent in his sweatpants. A sudden urge to touch him there and taste him took over him but before he could act on his thoughts, Jeongguk took off his t-shirt. His rock-hard abs made Taehyung swoon, no matter how many times he'd seen it. It's always a treat to see it over and over again.

Taehyung had a thing for muscles, not gonna lie.

Jeongguk climbed on top of Taehyung with a smirk plastered to his face. He helped Taehyung out of his clothes until the both of them were naked except for their boxers. After giving Taehyung a final kiss, Jeongguk dragged off his underwear in one go, and Taehyung was naked under the dim light of his lampshade and Jeongguk's lustful eyes.

Taehyung was too turned on to realize that the older man was eyeing him with a predatory gaze, ready to devour his prey.

When Jeongguk's soft, hot lips finally met Taehyung's hot skin, a shrill went down his whole body and he threw his head back, an involuntary moan escaping his lips. Taehyung had been craving Jeongguk's attention on his body for the last few days that now he felt like he was finally getting a drop of water after days of famine. With every touch and every time Jeongguk's teeth dug into his skin, he writhed, unable to take the ecstasy provided to him. He felt ashamed by the way his body was reacting to the briefest of touches of Jeongguk. And the party had only begun.

His cock ached, rock hard against his stomach, precum oozing out of his slit. Taehyung wondered how he grew this greedy. This hungry to be touched. He was never like this. He always had control over his desires. At least until Jeongguk.

When Jeongguk finally reached his lower abdomen, after leaving a beautiful trail of red and purplish blossoms over his pale fabric of skin, Taehyung shook again because Jeongguk was kissing him everywhere around his cock, purposefully leaving out the red, erect mass of flesh.

Jeongguk's predatory gaze met Taehyung's glassy eyes. A smirk played at his lips. Fuck, Taehyung hated how Submissive he felt in that tainted moment. He hated how he didn't have any kind of control over the situation he had put himself in.

He was surprised he didn't care. Because it was Jeongguk. He trusted Jeongguk. He trusted him with his submission.

He used to like being dominant because he hated when people used him and took control of him. He still felt the same. He still liked dominating Jeongguk. But Jeongguk was the only person he'd trust his submission with.

Even now, when Jeongguk started leaving love bites along Taehyung's inner thighs, while eyeing him with his lust-darkened eyes, a cocky smirk playing at his lips, he was okay with it. He was more than okay. Hell, he loved it.

"Fuck me already" Taehyung whined, unable to take it anymore. He needed to be touched. To be fucked. Hard and fast.

"Eager, are we?" Jeongguk growled but obeyed nonetheless.

After planting a few more kisses along his thighs, he went over to the drawer and took the lube. After squirting a generous amount to his hand he applied it over his cock. Taehyung watched as his professor stroked himself, soft pants escaping his slightly parted mouth.

The scene itself could make Taehyung cum.

"I didn't tell you to touch yourself" Taehyung seethed. "Come over here and fuck me"

Jeongguk eyed the boy before him. He was a mess. A mess created by Jeongguk himself. Jeongguk wanted to mess him further.

"You won't get anything if you don't behave, baby boy," Jeongguk said smugly.

"Don't call me that" Taehyung snarled.

"Not like you don't secretly like it" Jeongguk climbed over Taehyung until he was right on top of him, faces inches away from each other.

Taehyung blushed.

With the lack of response, Jeongguk's learned down and kissed Taehyung on the lips one more time, hands brushing down his sides, sending tingles down his whole body.

Jeongguk entered him without warning.

Both men groaned at the feeling. Taehyung hadn't had sex in days and he doubted he was loose. Waves of pain crashed on him as Jeongguk continued to push further inside.

"Fuck you're tight" Jeongguk groaned.

"You didn't prep me you stupid- ah! " Taehyung buried his head in Jeongguk's neck as sharp pain emitted from his lower regions.

"Does it hurt?" Jeongguk asked softly.

"Mmhm"

"Should we stop?"

"No. Keep going"

“You sure? I can stop if you want”

Taehyung shook his head, his eyebrows furrowed together. “No. It’s fine”

Jeongguk bottomed out slowly. Both of them were panting, one from pain and the other from pleasure.

They stayed like that for a while and after Taehyung felt like the pain had numbed and when he was ready: "move"

Jeongguk started moving. He started with shallow, slow thrusts until Taehyung's pain subsided and his body started filling up with familiar pleasure.

"Faster" Taehyung moaned, needing more.

Jeongguk didn't have to be told twice. He started ramming into Taehyung at an animalistic pace as if he'd been dying to do so. Taehyung almost screamed but managed to cover his mouth with his palm.

The pleasure only increased. With every thrust, Jeongguk pushed him deeper and deeper into a void of pleasure. And his moans only increased in pitch that the palm covering his mouth wasn't enough to keep them at bay.

At one moment or the other, Jeongguk put Taehyung's legs on his shoulders to fuck him at a better angle. The change of position only made Jeongguk's cock ram head onto Taehyung's prostate.

A loud moan escaped Taehyung's throat which made Jeongguk's pace falter.

"Shhh baby boy, you might want to keep it down" Jeongguk rasped in Taehyung's ear. 

"Because your wife is in the next room?" Taehyung moaned out.

"No. Because your girlfriend is asleep"

Taehyung didn’t have the energy to smile at that reply or respond with a snarky comment. He was too lost in the pleasure. Jeongguk sped up his pace and just when an involuntary moan was about to escape Taehyung's mouth, Jeongguk covered it with his own, drinking up the moan.

Taehyung knew he was close as a fire had started to pool low in his stomach and his ties were curling with pleasure, as he moaned into Jeongguk's mouth. From the way Jeongguk's trusts became sloppy and less rhythmic and the way he groaned into Taehyung's mouth, Taehyung knew that the older man was close too.

Taehyung ended up coming untouched. His eyes rolled to the back of his head as everything around him blurred into white noise.

Jeongguk followed soon after. Taehyung gasped as Jeongguk pumped his hot cum into Taehyung's hole.

He fell on top of Taehyung's body and a low grunt escaped Taehyung. But he had too little care for that. His body still shook from aftershocks, mind numb from the euphoria.

He didn't know when he drifted off to sleep. But it was right after he heard Jeongguk snoring softly from beside him.

After all, he did know that he didn't regret calling Jeongguk a pussy

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•°²⁰°• Past Lovers ─✵─────────

A week later Taehyung found himself running errands to Mrs. Jeon.

He wasn't complaining. No, not at all. It's okay, not like he had a portfolio to hand in before two weeks' time and he isn't halfway through completing it. (sarcasm)

He didn't have work at the pizzeria near campus he had started working at just last week. He only had work every weekday, after his lectures were over. So he said he didn't have any urgent business to attend to when Jieun asked him if he could run to the grocery store just down the road.

With Aria.

Jeongguk had left early that Saturday morning for some work. And he wouldn't be home till late that evening, it seems. He and Taehyung hadn't had any kind of action since the previous Saturday. Well, they did exchange occasion makeout sessions here and there. But Taehyung wasn't really complaining.  He has a lot of assignments to complete and Jeongguk too was busy all the time. It was much understandable that he didn't have any time to do anything with Taehyung.  He came home late every day from college looking exhausted. Being the newly appointed deputy head of the Art department of their campus must keep him busier than usual. Besides, their exams were coming up.

Jieun too was busy with one of her cases. So she told Aria to run to the store to grab some groceries. But since Taehyung was there, she didn't have to go alone, right?

The only problem or uncomfortable situation that Taehyung would be facing was being alone with Aria. But he decided that he'll survive. He didn’t have the strength to say no when Jieun asked him to go with Aria. 

"Buy anything you need, Taehyung.  Aria has the money." Jieun had said right before sending them off.

Hence he found himself walking side by side with the girl he used to date, an awkward silence stretching between them.

"How are you doing?" The older tried to break the awkwardness.

"Not like you care" Aria shot back.

"I'm sorry"

"Are you?" Aria glanced sideways at Taehyung.

Taehyung kept silent. Because he wasn't. He wasn't sorry that he hooked up with Jeongguk, her own father.

Aria laughed humourlessly "That's what I thought"

Another silence stretched between them. This time, Taehyung didn't try to ease it. It was a good thing Aria was mad at Taehyung. That way, she would be over him any time soon. She would stop bothering him.

"You're a dick," Aria said after a while. They had almost reached the store. It was only a few blocks away.

"I know"

"I hate you. I thought we had something real. You said you liked me" Aria said brokenly. "And you were the first person I ever wanted to date"

"I'm sorry for hurting your feelings. I really am. This wasn't going to work out anyway and you have your whole life in front of you. Being hooked on me isn't going to do any good to you. You will find someone much better than me. Someone who isn't a cheating bastard"

Aria kept her head down. "Why do you and my dad keep telling the same thing?"

"Because it's the truth"

They had arrived at the store after 20 minutes of walking. Taehyung walked to the door, only to find it locked.

"It's closed" Aria stated the obvious from behind Taehyung.

The parking lot was empty too. What are they going to do now?

"Is there any place nearby where we can buy stuff?" Taehyung asked, looking around.

"There's a Walmart little further away from here. We'll have to take the bus though"

"Let's go back home and tell your mother that the store was closed" Taehyung decided. Jieun was perfectly clear when she told them to come straight home after getting the goods and not to go anywhere else.

"What?" Aria said, bewildered. "Let's get the groceries"

"The store is closed!"

"Let's go to the other one!"

"No! It's in the city and your mom told us to not go anywhere else!"

"You're such a coward. I can't believe you're 20 years old" Aria said angrily.

"I would go alone. I'm not taking you anywhere without your mom's permission"

"I'm not a kid!" Aria said.

"Yes, you are. You've only 15!"

"I'm going to be 16 next month!"

"Still a kid"

"You're impossible! Why does everyone treat me like a kid?!" Aria was raging with anger. Taehyung shook his head. He couldn’t believe he used to date her. Or ever even thought going on a few dates with her was a good idea. What the hell was going on in his head? 

"Because you are one"

"Ugh, I hate you! Fine. Call mom and tell her we're going to the other store" Aria said. 

"She's your mom! You call her. Besides, I don't have her number"

Jieun ended up giving them permission to take the bus to the other store, only because, she said, they're out of groceries. She made Taehyung promise that he'd keep her daughter safe.

Taehyung kind of thought that Jeongguk and Jieun were rather too protective over Aria. They really did treat her like a kid. At her age, Taehyung started making his own money and he basically grew up alone at that time.

He just didn’t understand their concerns. Trie, Taehyung did think Aria isn’t capable of making good decisions on her own because the way she just talked Taehyung into sleeping with her was something Jeongguk and Jieun definitely would not approve of. It’s quite apparent that she hardly ever listens to her parents too. So maybe he really needed to be watched all the time. So she wouldn’t do something she would regret. 

Like hooking up with Taehyng or getting pregnant.

It’s just that Taehyung never had anyone look out for him and take care of him like that. Taehying thought that Aria’s parents were being too much. Aria must be able to make her own good decisions, like a normal teenager. Even though she wasn’t really good at it. Taehyung was sure he was so much smarter at her age. 

After a twenty-minute bus ride, they reached Walmart, which was the second nearest place to buy groceries.

Aria completely ignored Taehyung and told him to pick up anything if he wants and left him. Taehyung wanted to go after her but decided against it since he had some things to buy too.

Taehyung went to the toiletries aisle and chose the shampoo that he had always been using. He was running out of it. Deciding to go pick some snacks for himself, he started making his way there, while examining his shampoo bottle when he jumped into someone.

The shampoo bottle fell from his hand and he immediately bent down to pick it up.

"Watch where you're going boy-" the man he'd bumped into started. He paused when Taehyung looked up at the tall man before him.

Air left Taehyung's lungs when he realized who he'd bumped into.

"Well well well...what do we have here?" Park Bogum said sultrily.

Fear rose in Taehyung's chest as he straightened himself. Bogum took a step towards Taehyung and reflexively Taehyung took a step back.

"B-Bogum" Taehyung stuttered.

"Oh, you remember my name? How amusing. Thought you'd have forgotten it since you whore around with a new man every week" Bogum spat.

Taehyung stood there speechless. Park Bogum used to be Taehyung's sugar daddy when he was 18. He was married, living a perfect and lovely life with his wife when he once met Taehyung at a nightclub. Bogum was a businessman. He was filthy rich. Taehyung had been offering his services to Bogum for more than a month but they ended things because his wife found out. Taehyung didn't hear from the guy after that. Nor did he care enough to find any information. Besides he did find a new man the following week.

What made Bogum special was that he used to be the youngest sugar daddy Taehyung had been with. Most men were much older than him. Bogum wasn't more than 5 years older than Jeongguk.

"You worthless whore" Bogum spat at Taehyung, making him cringe at the harsh words. "My wife divorced me after she found out. My whole life was ruined because of you"

Taehyung scoffed.

"Oh, you're giving me an attitude now? Gotten brave, have you? Used to be on your knees all the time begging for cock back then"

"That life is over for me. I don't do such things anymore. Besides, it wasn't me who ruined your marriage.  It was you. It was you who came coming back to me. You were the one begging me to let you fuck me. Not the other way around. It was you who ruined your marriage, just for a few blowjobs. You cheated on her. I didn’t force you to" Taehyung spat back.

Bogum was raging with anger. "You little-"

"Taehyung? There you are! I've been searching everywhere-" Aria appeared behind Bogum, making the older man pause his foul words.

Bogum turned to face Aria.

Aria's eyes widened as she looked at Bogum. "Mr. Park? Fancy seeing you here"

"Well if this isn't our little Miss Jeon. What brought you here?" Bogum said, the disgusting tone replaced with a sugary sweet one.

But how do Aria and Bogum know each other?

"I came here to get some groceries for mom. Do you know Taehyung?" Aria said.

Bogum glanced at Taehyung. "Well yes. I guess you could say that"

"Awesome" Aria said.

"You know him too?"

"Yeah he's my...friend," Aria said.

"She's my girlfriend" the words were out of Taehyung's mouth before he could stop himself. He needed Bogum to know that he wasn't a whore anymore. He didn't go around blowing people anymore. He was also afraid that if he didn't prove it, Bogum would interfere with his life again and he didn't want his past life mingling with his normal present one.

"You're dating him ?" Bogum asked Aria, disgust, and mockery lacing every word.

Aria looked dumbfounded for a split second before nodding, playing along.

Bogum chuckled. "Kid" he was looking at Aria. "I've known you since the day you were born. I'm telling you this for you and Jeongguk's sake; this boy is a filthy little shit. Not someone you should get yourself involved with"

Taehyung's heartbeat sped up. No. No this can't happen. Bogum wouldn't tell Aria about his past, right? 

"Uncle Bogum, what do you mean?" Aria's face was scrunched with confusion.

"He is a prostitute"

Taehyung's heart stopped beating.

" What? " Aria screeched. "Please say sike now"

Bogum rolled his eyes. "Child, why would I lie to you? I've met him before. He's nothing but someone who sleeps with people for money"

Taehyung wanted to scream that he'd never slept with any of his clients but his throat was closed shut, no sound escaping.  Aria kept staring at him, eyes wide with confusion.

"I'm warning you, Aria, you have no idea how filthy he is. Everyone knows about him"

Taehyung wanted to cry. He knew people thought of him this way. Many people from the higher class, like Bogum, knew of him. He was considered nothing but someone who they can take advantage of and throw some money at him for letting them use him.

"Keep what I said in mind," Bogum said and glared at Taehyung for a moment before walking away from them. Taehyung, speechless and frozen in place, kept staring at the floor.

"Is it true? You're a prostitute ?" Aria took a step towards Taehyung.

"No! I never sleep with people like he said" Taehyung said quickly, finally raising his head to meet Aria's gaze.

"Uncle Bogum would never lie to me. You're telling me he told me a baseless statement?"

Taehyung nodded.

Aria scoffed. "You think I'm a fool? Ok if you're telling me he lied about this, I'll tell my father about this. So he, himself will speak to uncle Bogum about this. Uncle Bogum would never lie to my dad. They've been friends forever. Would you like that?"

Taehyung eyes widened with fear."No! Please don't tell Jeongguk!"

Fear rose like bile in Taehyung's chest. If Jeongguk finds out about him, he'll end everything between them. Taehyung hated even thinking about it.

"Then tell me the truth. I won't tell my parents" Aria said.

Taehyung kept looking at her dark eyes. They were kind of like Jeongguk's. But Taehyung thought nothing could compare to the beauty of Jeongguk's onyx eyes filled with swirling galaxies.

Taehyung wondered why Aria wasn't disgusted with him. Why she wasn't running away yet.

"I just didn't sleep with men, okay? That's all there is to say. Besides what benefit would you have by knowing about my past?"

Aria sighed. "Fine if you aren't telling me. I'll have to warn my parents about this. I mean we can't keep someone like you in our house. We don't know anything about you. You're apparently nothing like a normal college student after all. You could be a thief for all we know!"

"I'm not a thief! I'm just a broke college student"

Aria just stared.

Taehyung felt like crying again. He wondered if he had a choice in this situation. Aria obviously didn't buy what he said.

"My mom works in another state and she used to send me money from working. My dad was nonexistent. The money my mom sent was hardly enough for my school and rent. I started letting men...use me... sexually...but I never slept with them. I did it for a couple of years but I stopped last year before I started college" Taehyung said in a small voice.

"Wow"

"Wow? I just told you that I'm basically a whore and wanted to date you once upon a time and your answer is wow?"

Aria shrugged. "Do you like have STDs?"

"No! I got myself tested just two months ago!" Taehyung said, aghast.

"Well that's a relief," Aria said. "Let's go home. Did you get everything you wanted?"

Taehyung nodded.

She started making her way towards the paying counters and Taehyung followed, slightly confused as to why Aria had such a small reaction to the truth.

After they've paid, they left with a couple of bags in their hands. They started walking to the bus stop in silence.

"Why aren't you surprised? Aren't  you disgusted in me?" Taehyung asked.

"I am surprised. But not disgusted. I get why you did it. I don't care, really. I kind of want to be a stripper too" Aria giggled.

"You what?!"

"I'm just saying! It sounds fun, you know. Easy money. It's not like I'm actually going to be a stripper. I want to be a lawyer like mom"

Taehyung sighed. "What exactly do you want?"

"Huh?"

"You can't be keeping my secret without needing something back from me. Tell me what it is."

Aria smirked. "You're smarter than I thought.  Yes, I want something from you. Nothing comes without price"

"Name it"

"I want you to be my boyfriend"

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•°²¹°• Desperate ─✵─────────

 

"I want you to be my boyfriend"

"Aria what the fuck" Taehyung said, bewildered. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. Is this girl dumb? Does she simply not understand the word rejection ?

"Why are you trying to make yourself look so desperate? I don't have feelings for you. I never did"

"Because I am!" Aria cried, making a few passerby pedestrians shoot them looks. Aria continued nonetheless. "I am desperate! I desperately want you to be my boyfriend!"

"What use would you have by forcefully dating me? You're pretty. You can easily get a boyfriend around your age! Besides, you're just a kid. You're supposed to be studying. Not go after boys and read smuts" Taehyung said.

"That's not the point"

"I just don't understand why you'd want me to be your boyfriend. You just found out that I'm basically a whore and I have a shitty past. Also, I sleep around with any hot girl or guy I meet" which is not true at all because the only person he sleeps with is Jeongguk.

"I don't care! My friends think we're still dating" Aria said. Damn, she sounded desperate.

Taehyung laughed humourlessly. "Oh this is why you're so desperate"

Aria glared at Taehyung. "Just pretend to be my boyfriend. Go on dates with me and I won't tell my parents about your past. And don't tell my father about what I asked too"

Taehyung let out an exasperated sigh. Pretending to be Aria's boyfriend isn't a big deal. But he was practically hooking up with the girl's father. And Jeongguk would be mad if he finds out Taehyung agreed to be Aria's boyfriend...even if it's just for the show.

He wondered if he would be mad if he did this with someone who isn't Jeongguk's daughter.

Taehyung had never dated anyone in his life. Aside from Aria. Even that, he just agreed to date her back then because she was pretty.

Taehyung knew that he treasured what he had with Jeongguk. Part of him wanted to have a dating experience with Jeongguk. Jeongguk and Taehyung weren't friends. They weren't boyfriends either. But he did want to have late-night talks with Jeongguk. He wanted to cuddle Jeongguk to sleep and not just after sex. He wanted to go to a nice coffee shop and drink hot chocolate while talking to Jeongguk. He wanted Jeongguk to rant to him after a long day at work. He wanted to know what it'd be like to date Jeongguk.

He bet it'd be a blissful experience.

But he didn't really like Jeongguk? He didn't really know if he had feelings for the guy. Maybe the cause of the confusion is that Taehyung knew, deep beneath him, that Jeongguk is a married man and he and Taehyung would never have a clear future. Therefore it's useless to develop feelings for him.

"Jeongguk wouldn't like it" Taehyung found himself mumbling as he was lost in thought.

"Of course, he wouldn't. He wouldn't want me dating a guy like you. He already made that clear" Aria said from beside Taehyung.

Taehyung diverted his gaze to the girl. "Why not tell your friends that I cheated on you and make a sob story? Make me the bad guy. I don't care"

"You idiot! Don't you get it? Not a single girl from my school has ever had the opportunity to date someone as hot as you. Not even those popular girls. They were drooling back in January when they found out that I'm dating you"

"That's so pathetic," Taehyung said. "You'd go against the wishes of your dad for what? Some temporary exhilaration? At the end of the day, none of that popularity bullshit is going to matter. The only thing that's going to matter is your personality. You have no idea how lucky you are to have your both parents who are always so caring about you. They love you so much. You should not go against their word, Aria. You'll regret it one day. They only want the best for you"

Aria stayed silent for a few minutes.

"This isn't going to do me any harm. I'm just asking you to pretend. I don't want you lecturing me about parents when you clearly have none” Aria said. 

Taehyung rolled his eyes. Rude much?

“Tell me if you're taking the deal or not. Or I’ll tell my father about what I heard today”

"Fine," Taehyung said. This can't do him any harm, right? He needs to keep his secret from Jeongguk. 

"Good," Aria said.

Taehyung sighed. This girl seriously doesn't learn her lessons.


The evening sky was lit up in different shades of pink and orange by the time Jeongguk got home from university. He had been working the whole day, despite it being a Saturday. He had an event to organize as well as an exam to prepare for. Needed to say, he was exhausted.

He opened the front door to his house and went inside. He heard the chatter of some tv show coming from the living room as he took off his shoes. He was welcomed by Jieun, rushing from the living room to greet Jeongguk. He smiled the moment he saw her.

"You look tired" Jieun commented.

"I am," Jeongguk said. He really was.

"I made dinner. Go and take a shower so we can eat. The kids are in their rooms" Jieun said.

"The kids?" Jeongguk mused, confused.

"Yes. Aria and Taehyung"

Jeongguk laughed. "Taehyung is a kid?"

"Well, yes. Isn't he? He's your student. And he’s only a few years older rhan Aria. He’s still a kid"

"I guess," Jeongguk said. It'd be really weird to think of both Aria and Taehyung as kids. Aria is a kid. Taehyung wasn't. At least not to Jeongguk. Taehyung was...his fuck buddy? Is that the word? But it felt like Taehyung was more than that in some aspects.

"Are you hungry?" Jieun asked.

"Famished" Jeongguk said.

Jieun giggled. "I made you your favorite. Mac and cheese"

"Yay I love it" Jeongguk laughed.

"I swear you're such a kid sometimes," Jieun said, laughing.

"I'm literally 30 years old"

"Your looks and personality say otherwise," Jieun said. "Hey I was going to tell you something"

"What is it?"

"Can we go on a date this week?"

"A date?" Jeongguk asked, bewildered.

"Yes. We've never been on one. Just two of us though."

"Oh"

Jeongguk wondered how Taehyung would feel about this. Jeongguk would dislike it very much if Taehyung goes on a date with someone. It was almost unfair to think that.

Jieun and he had never been on a date. Thinking back, he never got a chance to fall in love with her. Normal couples go on dates and get to know each other before getting married. But they just lived together for a while and then got married right after they entered college. The five years Jeongguk lived with Jieun, they had lived in his parent's house and they were just kids. They were oblivious of the meaning of love.

Jeongguk thought that he had fallen in love with Jieun somewhere along the lines of living together and marriage. If he truly had fallen in love with her, would he lust after Taehyung? Would he really chase after him? Would he think of ways to sneak into Taehyung's bedroom that moment while Jieun was talking about going on a date with him, just to go and steal some kisses from Taehyung to ease his stress? When his wife was right in front of him?

He guessed the answer was no.

Knowing that he had nothing he could actually do about it.

"Not this week. I'm really busy. Maybe after the student exams are over. I'll make some time" Jeongguk said. It's just a date. It means nothing.

"Of course," Jieun said.

"I'll go take a shower," Jeongguk said and walked upstairs, shooting a glance towards Taehyung's closed bedroom door.

After dinner was over and both Aria and Taehyung had sprinted off to their rooms after bidding goodnight to both Jieun and him, Jeongguk found himself alone in the kitchen with his wife.

He longed to talk to Taehyung. But there was no space to. Maybe tomorrow morning he'd go to his room and... de-stress himself.

"Jeongguk you go to sleep. I'll finish doing the dishes and come" Jieun said.

Jeongguk nodded. He really did need some sleep. He was exhausted and quite stressed.

He made it to his and Jieun's bedroom and made himself comfortable in the sheets getting ready to sleep. But even almost 20 minutes later, sleep seemed nowhere close.

So he lay awake on the bed alone, staring at the ceiling. Even when Jieun came inside after a shower and changed herself into one of her silk nightgowns, he was awake.

Jieun turned off the lights except for the lampshade on her side of the bed, getting ready for sleep.

"Can't sleep?" Jieun asked, climbing to her spot beside Jeongguk.

Jeongguk hummed. He continued to wordlessly stare at the ceiling, lost in thought. He wondered if Taehyung was asleep. Probably not. The boy stays awake studying late at night. And it's not that late yet. He wondered if there was any way he could sneak out of his bedroom and meet Taehyung. He missed spending time with him. He wondered what Taehyung did that day while he was away. Could he not pretend to visit Aria and sneak into Taehyung's room? Or sneak out of bed after Jieun is asleep?

Call him desperate but he just needed to spend some time alone with Taehyung. But he guessed he couldn't.

Jeongguk let out a heavy sigh.

"What's wrong?" Jieun, who was reading a book from beside Jeongguk, asked him.

"Huh? Oh, nothing. Just stressed"

Jieun set her book on the nightstand and looked at Jeongguk. Feeling her gaze on him, Jeongguk turned his head to look back at her.

"Want me to do something about it?"

"What?"

Before Jeongguk could process the question, Jieun had already climbed on top of Jeongguk. Jeongguk whimpered in surprise as he felt her ass press against his flaccid cock.

"I can relieve your stress" Jieun smirked.

"N-no it's fine" Jeongguk stammered. He and Jieun hadn't had sex since the day he started teaching Taehyung.

Jieun didn't listen to Jeongguk's words as she pulled down Jeongguk's pajama pants, revealing a very flaccid cock. He wasn't turned on at all. Especially not when Jieun was on top of him.

Jeongguk sucked in a breath as Jieun's small hands wrapped around his length, slowly stroking him, trying to get him hard.

Jeongguk, not knowing what else he could do in this situation, decided to go with the flow. Even though he didn't want to have sex with her, how could he say no to his wife when they haven't had sex in nearly two months? 

He concentrated on the feeling of Jieun's hands stroking him. A few seconds passed and Jieun was still stroking him and shit shit shit why wasn't be hard yet?

Why wasn't he hard? He wasn't even half hard. Fuck, this shouldn't be happening. He was supposed to be hard when his wife was providing him pleasure. He always got hard when she did it…at least before he met Taehyung because they didn’t fuck after he started sleeping with Taehyung.

Why...

Jieun continued to stroke him patiently, trying to make him hard but to no avail. The act proved useless.

Jeongguk closed his eyes, willing himself to grow hard. But it didn't work that way. So he opened his eyes to look at Jieun. She was beautiful. She had a beautiful body. A strap of her red nightgown had fallen off her shoulder and the fabric that hung loosely on her figure revealed her full breasts halfway. She looked sexy, no doubt.

But why wasn't Jeongguk hard yet?

Any man would've been hard and leaking at this point. But not Jeongguk. What was wrong with him?

Jieun, seeing that her hands were not working, started mouthing on his cock.

But nothing. Jeongguk didn't even hiss at the feeling. It was just wetness on his cock. Nothing else. If this was Taehyung he'd be squirming and leaking pre cum by now.

Oh...Taehyung

If it was Taehyung who was stroking him now, instead of Jieun. His rosy lips glistening with saliva as he swirls his tongue over Jeongguk's slit. Long fingers tight around his hardness as he took more and more of him in his mouth, bobbing his head up and down. The wet heat making Jeongguk thrust into Taehyung's mouth. The way Taehyung would stare at him with those glassy eyes, wide as he takes Jeongguk's cock deeper and deeper, the tip of his cock hitting the back of his throat.

Jeongguk moaned.

He saw Jieun bobbing her head up and down his length, that was now hard.

He was hard. After a series of thoughts of Taehyung crossed his mind. Why the fuck couldn't he get hard for his own wife?

He let it slide as more and more thoughts of Taehyung crossed his mind. There's no going back now. Hormones were singing in his veins.

He imagined Taehyung sucking him off instead of Jieun. Taehyung's mouth being fucked by Jeongguk, instead of Jieun.

He was closing up on his climax. He quickly removed Jieun's mouth iff his cock with a grunt. She looked at him confused. But she didn't have much time to process it because Jeongguk flipped them over until Jieun was under him.

He looked watched her under him, eyes big and lips wet. She was beautiful. But Taehyung was more beautiful. He felt guilty to even think those things in the presence of his wife. He couldn't possibly do this with his wife looking at him like this.

"Turn"

It took a while for her to understand what Jeongguk wanted her to do but in seconds she had her head buried in a pillow and her ass up in the air.

Jeongguk quickly shrugged off his clothes and took a condom and quickly slipped it on. This is the least he could do for her. Better finish what he started.

He entered her wet hole without warning and quickly started thrusting, needing to get it over with. He held her from her hips. As he fucked her, all he could think about was the way Taehyung's ass was so much more plumper and the way he was tighter. How soft Taehyung's skin was and the way his moans were a thousand times more heavenly than Jieun's.

And as he thrived in his imagination of fucking Taehyung instead of his wife, he came, a grunt escaping as pleasure shot through his whole body.

After both of them were done and Jeongguk cleaned himself up and Jieun, he wordlessly closed his eyes, trying to fall asleep. He was feeling too guilty to talk to her after what he had just done to her.

And when Jieun cuddled to his side, no matter how much he wanted to push her away, he couldn't.

And as he tried to ignore what he did, to not feel guilty because of what he did to Jieun, he realized something.

He realized that he wasn't feeling guilty only for what he did to her. He also felt like he cheated on Taehyung. Because Taehyung was loyal to Jeongguk.

Jeongguk felt like he should be too, despite him having a wife, as ridiculous as it sounds.

And Jeongguk was fucked. He was utterly, brutally fucked because he had to imagine Taehyung to get hard for his wife. This isn't something that should even be happening.

Jeongguk didn't know what to make of this whole scenario.

All he knew was that he's gonna wake up early tomorrow morning and go kiss Taehyung and fuck him hard until he couldn't remember what fucking Jieun ever felt like.

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 •°²²°• Punishment ─✵────────

The rich aroma of chocolate filled Taehyung's nostrils as he brought the large mug of steaming hot chocolate to his mouth. It was almost six in the morning and Taehyung had woken up early that morning to study. He was behind on his studies. He had made himself a hot chocolate and had sat down at the small table he had in his room, which was now stacked with books, stationery and art supplies, still in his pajamas.

He was about to take a sip from his delicious hot chocolate when the door of his bedroom flew open. Taehyung jumped in his seat and whirled round to see who in the name of God would be awake at this time of the morning on a Sunday.

It was Jeongguk. In all his sweatpants and tight T-shirt glory.

Before Taehyung could question why the fuck he barged into his room, Jeongguk came towards the Taehyung and stood beside his table.

"Taehyung," He said.

Taehyung quirked an eyebrow at him.

"I slept with Jieun last night"

Taehyung was baffled. Something unknown stirred in his stomach. He gulped down the faint anger rising in his throat.

"You had sex with your wife?" Taehyung wanted to laugh. What kind of a ridiculous question is that? Why was he feeling upset, though? He knew he isn't supposed to feel this way. It isn't fair to get angry and upset because Jeongguk has had sex with someone other than him. Especially when that other person is his wife. "You cheated on me" Not like they were in a relationship.

"I'm sorry" Jeonnguk was not meeting Taehyung's eyes. "I didn't mean to-"

"You told me not to hook up with other people and yet here you are..." Taehyung stood up from his chair. Something was riling up inside Taehyung's stomach and he couldn't fathom what that emotion was exactly.

"You don't understand. I didn't even get hard! I had to think about you. I feel really guilty. Please believe me" Jeongguk, was practically begging at this point. The dude must really be feeling guilty. For both his wife and Taehyung. Taehyung would too if he had sex if another person. But if he was feeling guilty towards his wife, why on earth was he here?

"Excuses excuses," Taehyung said nonchalantly.

"I wouldn't have done it but if I said no to Jieun she would've suspected" Jeongguk was saying. Taehyung rolled his eyes. “We haven’t slept together in like months. Not after you came along”

"On your knees"

"W-What?" Jeongguk finally looked at Taehyung. His face was still puffy from sleep. His eyes were big with surprise. They shone beautifully as he stared at Taehyung.

"I said, on your knees, professor"

Jeongguk hesitated for a moment. Then he sank into his knees in front of Taehyung.

"You've broken our rule," Taehyung said, "We weren't supposed to hook up with other people while we're together"

"I'm sorry"

"Your sorry doesn't cut it. Apologize properly"

Jeongguk looked up at him with those big round doe eyes of his, swirling with confusion. Taehyung couldn't believe the man was 30 years old sometimes. He'd have passed for a mid-twenties guy with no effort. He looked young and innocent most of the time. But every other time, he'd look mature and all daddy-like.

When Jeongguk blinked at him innocently and confused, Taehyung raised his eyebrows at him, prompting him to do what he has to do. So he did.

Jeongguk raised his hands to the waistband of Taehyung's pajama bottoms and tugged them down to his knees. His cock sprang free for he wasn't wearing any underwear that night. He was half-hard already. Jeongguk glanced at his cock and then at Taehyung before wrapping his hands around it.

Taehyung hissed as Jeongguk started to stroke it slowly. He pressed his thumb to the slit and added pressure there making Taehyung almost buckle his hips forward. In no time he was fully hard. Jeongguk continued to stroke him with one hand while the other caressed his balls.

"Use your mouth, professor " Taehyung said, impatient.

Jeongguk obeyed without delay. An electrifying wave of pleasure went up his spine the moment he felt wet heat around his cock. He let out a choked moan. Jeongguk took more and more of him in his mouth all the while bobbing his head up and down.

Taehyung looked down at the man kneeling before him, Taehyung's cock in his mouth, looking up at Taehyung with his doe eyes now glassy as he sucked the living lights out of him. Fuck, Jeongguk looked angelic with his cock in his mouth. Taehyung brushed his finger on Jeongguk's bottom lip, smiling a little to himself upon seeing how adorable and beautiful he looked.

Taehyung thrust into Jeongguk's mouth, unable to contain himself. His cock hit the back of Jeongguk's throat and he gagged a little. Taehyung took hold of Jeongguk's mass of raven curls in his hand, keeping his head in place, and started thrusting into his mouth.

Taehyung gasped as wave after wave of pleasure shot through his body and he increased his pace. Jeongguk held Taehyung's thighs as he let himself be manhandled and have his mouth roughly fucked. A gagged moan escaped him every now and then.

Taehyung let out a loud moan as he felt his climax right around the corner. He threw his head back and his thrusts became irregular; the grip on Jeongguk's hair tighter. Soon his orgasm ripped through his cock and he pumped his cum into Jeongguk's mouth. When Taehyung slowly pulled out of Jeongguk's mouth, gasping for breath as he tried to come down from his high, Jeongguk swallowed his cum like the good slut he was.

"Hope you learned your lesson," Taehyung said, looking at the older man who was still on his knees, lips glistening with a mixture of cum and saliva. He wiped off his mouth with his hand.

"If this is the punishment for cheating I'll cheat all the time" Jeongguk grinned.

"Slut"

Jeongguk's smile faded away. He stared up at Taehyung with those eyes as dark as oblivion, fires of lust and desire burned inside them. He knew what Jeongguk came here for. He wanted to fuck Taehyung until he forgot what fucking his wife ever felt like. He needed a better companion in bed.

And that was what Taehyung's role in this relationship, was it not?

"Let me fuck you please" Jeongguk whispered. Begged . Taehyung took a step towards the older man so that his flaccid cock was touching Jeongguk's face.

"Sorry. I didn't hear you" Taehyung said as he took his cock in his hand. There was a bead of cum on its tip; some cum that Jeongguk had been unable to milk out earlier.

"I want you. Please" Jeongguk said. Taehyung brought his cock towards Jeongguk's face and moved the tip against his face. Faint stripes of cum painted Jeongguk's face in its wake. Jeongguk closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling of Taehyung's cock against his face.

"Strip and wait for me in the bed," Taehyung said and moved away from Jeongguk. The older was on his feet in seconds. He hurriedly took off his clothes while Taehyung went to the door, locked it, and stripped himself off of his pajamas.

When he turned around, Jeongguk was laying on the bed, his back pressed against the headboard and legs spread so that his rock-hard cock was standing against his stomach, red and leaking. Taehyung could even see his hole. He gulped as he felt himself getting harder, arousal spreading through his body like wildfire.

Jeongguk smirked.

Taehyung didn't hesitate to take his sweet fucking time to walk to his nightstand and take out the small bottle of lube, despite being horny as fuck. He needed to punish Jeongguk. He needed to teach him a lesson. It was fucking unfair that it was he who has to abide by every one of Jeongguk's rules. If Taehyung can't hook up with other people, neither can Jeongguk. Especially not when he doesn't feel anything towards his wife.

Taehyung climbed on top of the bed and knelt in front of Jeongguk. Jeongguk extended his hand towards Taehyung presumably asking for the lube to prep Taehyung.

"I'll prep myself," Taehyung said and sat on the bed, legs spread revealing his pink fluttering hole. Jeongguk looked amused. Taehyung smirked, knowing that the older wouldn't be amused in a few minutes when Taehyung starts fingering himself.

Taehyung squeezed a generous amount of lube into his fingers and spread it along three fingers. He circled one finger over his rim before pushing it in. He started fingering himself, legs wide open giving Jeongguk a good view.

After thrusting a couple of times, he inserted another. He scissored himself open as he bit his lip, trying to control his moans. He threw his head back in pleasure and continued to fuck himself.

Jeongguk, on the other hand, was dumbfounded, never having experienced anything like this in his life. His mouth had dropped open in surprise and arousal. The sight of Taehyung fucking himself in front of him was too much to take.

Taehyung eyed Jeongguk as he stretched himself open. Jeongguk was running his hand all over his chest and around his pelvis, probably eager to touch himself. Taehyung saw him give up, hand slowly making its way toward his cock.

"Don't touch yourself" Taehyung snapped and Jeonguk's hand flew away from his cock. Watching the scene unfold before him and not being able to do anything must be torture to Jeongguk. Taehyung smirked to himself, satisfied.

"Please Taehyung" Jeongguk whined. "Let me fuck you"

"Patience, professor" Taehyung's voice was smooth as honey. Jeongguk only whined in response.

"Have you learned your lesson now?" Taehyung asked, voice wavering a little because his finger brushed his prostate.

"Yes. Yes. I will never do that again" Jeongguk said hurriedly.

Taehyung took his fingers out, a breathy moan escaping him as he did. "Good boy"

He took sympathy on his professor and made his way towards him and straddled his lap. Jeongguk's hands held Taehyung's thin waist as he helped Taehyung move towards him. Taehyung did quick work of lubing up Jeongguk's cock before raising his hips and sinking down on Jeongguk's cock.

Both men threw their heads back and moaned as Taehyung started sinking down. Taehyung held Jeongguk's shoulders for support and Jeongguk held him from his waist. When Taehyung finally bottomed out, they were gasping for breath. Taehyung buried his head in Jeongguk's neck, the pleasure too much to handle as he adjusted himself.

Then he started moving. Jeongguk's cock brushed past Taehyung's prostate every time he rose and pushed down, delicious pleasure shooting up his spine. Jeongguk groaned against Taehyung's neck as the younger fucked himself on his cock.

"A-ah Jeongguk-ah!" Taehyung moaned out, his voice muffled as he almost bit down on Jeongguk's shoulder.

"Baby" Jeongguk rasped. He sucked a couple of hickeys on Taehyung's shoulder and neck as he slowly moved his lips towards his mouth. Then he started kissing Taehyung, rough and hard. It muffled up his moans and he continued to move his hips. Jeongguk swirled his tongue inside Taehyung's mouth, wet sounds echoing from the confined space of Taehyung's bedroom.

Taehyung could feel heat pooling in his stomach. He needed to increase the speed because the shallow thrusts were less than enough to reach his climax. His thighs hurt and his pace faltered.

Jeongguk flipped them over, upon noticing this. In a fraction of a second Taehyung was under Jeongguk's muscular and hot body and he was fucking Taehyung hard and fast. Their kiss broke for a second but Jeongguk soon connected their lips again as he thrust in and out of Taehyung at an animalistic speed, just the way Taehyung needed it. It was just right. A few thrusts later he was spurting White ribbons from his cock all over their chests, the long whiny moan he let out swallowed by Jeonggguk's mouth. Jeongguk followed soon after, biting down Taehyung's neck as he did.

Jeongguk collapsed beside Taehyung. Both of them silently stared at the ceiling trying to regain their breaths and come down from their highs. Sex with Jeongguk was always an exhilarating experience that would leave Taehyung feeling an utmost bliss for a couple of hours.

The morning had completely set in, Taehyung could see through the curtains. They'd been in there for more than one hour and Taehyung was supposed to study that morning!

He didn't know why but Aria crossed his mind. Should he tell Jeongguk about what happened on the previous day? If he did, he'd have to tell Jeongguk about his past and he didn't think he was ready for that yet.

Instead, "Aria's still after me"

Jeongguk looked at Taehyung. And sighed exasperatedly. "What happened?"

"We went to the store yesterday and apparently she hates me but also wants me to fake date her so she can show me off to her friends"

"Damn," Jeongguk said.

"And she told me not to tell you so don't tell her I told you this if you're going to do something about this"

"Kids these days," Jeongguk said, shaking his head. "Just don't go near her, okay? I trust you. After so many warnings if she isn't backing up, I don't know if I could trust her on this case. I'll figure something out"

Taehyung hummed.

"Tae" Jeongguk said.

"Yeah?"

"You do understand that I'm preventing Aria from dating you for a lot of reasons and not just because I want to keep you all for myself, right? I mean you're too old for her and she's too young and it's high-key gross because we hooked up too"

"Yeah of course. If her mom finds out I could be in some trouble…legally"

Jeongguk nodded. "I just don't want her to end up like me"

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk and saw his eyes twinkle beautifully. He looked so, so young at that moment. Taehyung's heart skipped a beat when Jeongguk flashed him a slight smile. He looked beautiful.

Taehyung moved towards Jeongguk until their chests were touching and Jeongguk wrapped an arm around him.

"She won't," Taehyung said.

"Jieun wants to go on a date with me. I told her I'll try to make time after the exams. But there's a lot of work even afterward. Should I go?" Jeongguk said.

"You're asking me?" Taehyung mused. Jeongguk nodded. "I don't know...I don't think you should give her hope if you don't love her. It's not fair. None of this is"

"Are you feeling bad for her?"

"Yeah. Don't you?"

"I do," Jeongguk said. "I can divorce her but I can't. I want to stop cheating in her but I can't. I hate it"

“Why can’t you divorce her?”

Jeongguk shook his head. “Because if Aria. I don’t want her to get in the middle of relationship drama. It could be a messy process and she will suffer from it” 

Taehyung understood. "Tell her the truth?"

"Yeah like, what? Like oh hey Jieun I've been cheating on you for the last two months with a college boy I randomly met. Oh yeah, the same guy who you've been cooking and housing for the last two weeks " Jeongguk said. "Like that?"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "I'm just saying. I don't understand why you're still with her. She's a good person, she doesn't deserve this"

"You seem to have had a lot of experiences like this" Jeongguk said.

"W-what?"

"I mean it's like you've made couples break up like this before. From the way you're telling me all this" Jeongguk said, grinning.

Taehyung couldn't smile back. His heart was in his throat. He didn't want Jeongguk to know about his past life. Not just yet.

"Come on," Jeongguk said, snuggling into Taehyung's side. "Jieun will be up soon. Let's cuddle for a while"

Taehyuung gulped, the embrace not as comforting as it was on other days. He gulped down the fear that arose in his throat and buried his head in Jeongguk's shoulder and breathed him in. His scent of vanilla and musk was always so calming. He closed his eyes and let himself be cuddled.  

Soon, the anxiety that made his heart heavy faded with the sound of Jeongguk’s heartbeat rhythmically tapping against his ribcage. In minutes, he was back in the moment, back in Jeongguk’s arms, wrapped around the warmth of him and his scent. It felt utterly peaceful and beautiful. He had never felt something like this before.

So he closed his eyes yet again and listened to the heartbeat of Jeongguk and the way his breaths fell. He felt himself drift to sleep, the exhaust of the rough sex finally catching up to him. So he fell asleep in Jeongguk’s warmth, surrounded by all of Jeongguk.

Feeling loved, for the first time in forever.

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•°²³°• Cheaters and Fathers ─✵────

It was the day after Taehyung had completed and handed over all the due assignments of his first semester at art school that he found himself sprawled on the couch in the living room of the Jeon Household, lazily watching a whale documentary. The residents of the house had left earlier that day, leaving Taehyung alone.

He didn't have anyone to hang out with. Hoseok and Jimin were taking dance classes and Namjoon was going to visit his mother. Yoongi decided to sleep in. Therefore Taehyung was boredly watching how whales communicate.

It was around midday when Taehyung got a call from Jieun telling him that she had left some documents at home. So he found himself running to the road to catch a taxi, holding a blue file, in hopes of getting to Jieun's office as soon as possible. He didn't mind, of course. Not like he had anything else to do anyway.

Jieun had apologized to him many times, feeling repentant that Taehyung might ruin his free day because of her. But Taehyung had insisted that she wasn't any trouble and that he didn't have any other plans for the day.

Well, other than staying on the couch till Jeongguk comes home, hopes high that he'd be home soon. So they can enjoy some private time together. Taehyung didn't mention that part to Jieun, of course.

Taehyung thought that Jieun was too sweet and nice for her own good. At times like these, Taehyung felt guilty for making her husband cheat on her. It was him, who led Jeongguk to have sex with him for the second time when the older was persistent on moving on from Taehyung and forgetting about their mistake. If it happened only once, it could be called an accident. If it happens twice, that's on purpose.

Jieun treated Taehyung like her own son. She would check up on him every now and then and scold him when he didn't eat enough. He wondered if Jieun ever suspected her husband of cheating. He doubted if there was anything that gave her a sense of doubt. Jeongguk never gave anything off when they were together, other than the subtle smirks and constant eye fucking. I mean why would she doubt her husband? Which wife would think that her husband of 10 years would bring home a schoolboy who's his fuck buddy to the house where he lives with her and his kid? That's just ridiculous.

Taehyung wondered if Jieun cheated on Jeongguk too. It was very much unlikely. Because Taehyung had seen the way she'd look at Jeongguk. She'd watch him when he talked, when he ate, with twinkling eyes filled with love and happiness. She would hold his arm at times and plant a kiss on his cheek. Jeongguk would smile at her at those times.

Taehyung envied her at times like this. She could hold Jeongguk and kiss him all she wants, publicly. She can publicly display affection to him. No one would shoot her weird looks and badmouth her. They would praise them for what a lovely wedded couple they are. Taehyung envied how she had all the freedom in the world with Jeongguk and Taehyung has to be subtle with him all the time.

It wasn't like Taehyung wants to be affectionate towards Jeongguk. No, not at all.

Taehyung got off in front of a huge building where Jieun's law firm was, after almost an hour-long ride. The receptionist told him to go to the third floor without much question when he told her that he wanted to meet Mrs. Jeon. So Taehyung took the elevator to the third floor.

He stepped into a rather busy hallway after he got out of the elevator. On either side of the passageway were offices filled with people. Taehyung tried his best not to bump into anyone, since everyone seemed to be hurrying here and there, past him. Taehyung's jeans and T-shirt were a deadly contrast against the pressed suits and dresses, skirts and shirts of the men and women who passed him by. Lawyers. They dripped formality.

Taehyung tried not to pay any mind to how cheap he looked and quickly made his way through the busy hallway, taking turns as he was instructed by the receptionist downstairs. After minutes he came to a hallway that was rather quiet. There was no one in sight. Taehyung slowly walked towards the offices, pushing closed doors to see if Jieun was in them. But no avail. Jieun was nowhere in sight. He was wondering if he had taken a wrong turn and if he was lost. Taehyung was about to take a random turn in the hallway when he heard voices.

Taehyung whirled around and made his way towards the source of the sound. He saw Jieun in the middle of the hallway. Taehyung sighed in relief when he saw her.

But she wasn't alone.

A taller man stood in front of her, his back facing Taehyung. Jieun was talking to him. Taehyung decided to wait until they ended their conversation. So he stood at the end of the hallway, hidden from their view, hoping Jieun won't see him and get disturbed. The man must be one of her clients.

He checked the time on his phone and saw that it was almost two in the afternoon. He sighed, looking around the empty hallway.

"...don't think you have a right to ask me about it, Mr. Kim" Jieun's voice was sharp. Taehyung didn't mean to eavesdrop, nor was he listening at all. But the sharpness in Mrs. Jeon's voice made Taehyung's eyes widen as they fell over his ears. Taehyung had never heard her sound so...angry.

"Jieun, please. I apologized" A deeper voice. Presumably from the man who stood before Jieun. That voice...it was so familiar to Taehyung. Too familiar.

But he hadn't heard that voice in ages. At least not directly. From a phone line, on Christmas if he was lucky.

What Taehyung was thinking was ridiculous. It couldn't possibly be...

Jieun scoffed. "Did you do something that could be covered with an apology? Don't make me laugh. And it's Mrs. Jeon to you"

"Jeon, eh? I heard you married him right after you entered college. That stupid boy"

"You will shut up about my husband or-"

"Poor kid. Deserved better than you. He was only fifteen" The man went on.

"Seongho if you don't stop-" Jieun's voice rose.

Seongho

That was...Taehyung was right...Kim Seongho...that's Taehyung's father.

The plastic file Taehyung was holding fell on the tiled floor with a loud clatter, making Jieun halt mid-sentence.

"Who's there?" Jieun's voice was sharp. It scared Taehyung. Muttering a few curses under his breath, Taehyung picked up the file. He stepped into the view of Jieun and the other man, clutching the file close to him.

The man...was indeed Taehyung's father. Though that face was one that made Taehyung puke from distaste, as memories from his childhood rose like bile in his throat, that face, Taehyung would never forget.

"Oh, Taehyung. It's you" Jieun sighed in relief.

Taehyung smiled at Jieun. He felt his father's eyes on him but he didn't dare meet them.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to eavesdrop...I was waiting till you were done with your conversation" Taehyung rambled on nervously.

"Oh don't worry" Jieun was in front of Taehyung now, placing a hand on his shoulder. "I'm sorry to keep you waiting. You should've told me the moment you came here. Or called me. Besides, Mr. Kim was just leaving" the was Jieun's voice grew cold when she said Mr. Kim didn't go unnoticed by Taehyung.

"Here's the document, Mrs. Jeon," Taehyung said, handing her the blue plastic file.

"Thank you so much, Taehyung. I don't know what I could do without you" She smiled sweetly at Taehyung.

"I'll get going, Mrs. Jeon"

"How will you go? I could call Jeongguk if you want" Jieun said.

"I was thinking of taking a taxi. Is Mr. Jeon free at this time? I thought he was at campus"

"He said something about coming home early. Taehyung, by the way, I won't be home early today. Nothing went according to plan because i forgot this file this morning. Can you and Jeongguk make dinner? Get Aria to help you too"

"Of course Mrs. Jeon. I'll call Mr. Jeon and ask him if he could pick me up. Or I'll just take a taxi" Taehyung said.

"Go home safely," Jieun said, stroking his arm lovingly. Taehyung grinned at her and bid goodbye to her, turning to leave.

It was almost a minute later that he heard footsteps behind him. Someone snatched him from his arm, making him stumble and almost fall.

His father stood before him. Taehyung had tried his best to ignore him the whole time.

"Why are you ignoring me?" Seongho said gruffly.

"I have no business with you," Taehyung said, angrily.

Seongho sighed. "How do you know Jieun?"

"None of your business"

"Yes it is my business because you're my son"

"But I don't consider you my father because you've never done anything my father should do for me"

"Look, you know I married again. My wife doesn't like it when I care about you"

"That's your problem. I don't need your care"

"What were you doing with the Jeons?"

Taehyung sighed. "I live with them. Can I go now? I have better things to do"

"Why are you living with them? What happened to your dorm?"

"I don't have enough money to balance college tuition and the dorm" Taehyung sighed.

"But I thought your mother-"

"She lost her job"

An awkward silence passed between them. Taehyung's anger rose by the second. The way his father knew nothing about what's going on in Taehyung's life. How dare he even call himself Taehyung’s father when he has zero involvement or idea about Taehyung’s life? It had always been like that since his parents split up and he just hated his father.

It was then Seongho fished his pocket and took a couple of dollar bills, stretching his hand towards Taehyung to take them.

"I don't want your money"

"Take this. I'm your father. You need the money"

"No"

Seongho took Taehyung's hand and placed the money on top of it. "Take it"

"I said I don't-"

"Taehyung!" Seongho said sharply, making Taehyun stop struggling. "Take it. Just take it"

Taehyung looked at the couple of hundred dollar bills in his hand. He didn't want it. He didn't want his father's money. But maybe he needed it.

"Whatever" Taehyung mumbled and turned around. "Don't bother calling me. I bet your wife doesn't like you talking to your son at least once a year" With that said, Taehyung took his leave, leaving his father staring after him.

After a couple of wrong turns and getting lost several times in the maze of hallways and offices, Taehyung finally came outside the building.

He fished out his phone and dialed up Jeongguk's number. After two rings, Jeongguk picked up.

"Yes, babe?"

"Where are you? Come pick me up" Taehyung said.

After explaining to Jeongguk why he was where he was, Jeongguk said that he was still on the campus. Taehyung said that he'd wait.

When Jeongguk finally arrived after fifteen minutes, Taehyung got inside the car and was welcomed by a grinning Jeongguk.

"What got you all happy?" Taehyung asked.

"Nothing special," Jeongguk said. "Why, can't I be happy?"

"Didn't say that" Taehyung said. "Jieun said that she is running late. Will Aria be home soon?"

"No, she has swimming practice," Jeongguk said. "Why?"

"We can spend time together. Alone" Taehyung said. "Let's go"

"Where?"

"On a date"

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•°²⁴°• The Date─✵─────────

The sweet aroma of coffee and pastries engulfed Taehyung's senses as they entered the small coffee shop. A small bell rang indicating their arrival. The small shop was deserted, for the most part.

Taehyung looked around him in awe. The shop was the same as he remembered. Colorful tables and cushioned chairs scattered in the vicinity of the coffee shop. There were mosaic glass walls that made the light that flooded through the glass light up the inside with vibrant colors. Dream catchers hung from the ceiling. The place had a dreamy look and was aesthetically pleasing. Taehyung used to come here all the time when he went to school. His old apartment was just a few blocks away.

Taehyung saw Jeongguk look around him too, starry eyes wide with amusement. A small smile played at his lips. He was wearing a rather casual outfit that day. Most of the time he wore his tight pants and a shirt to campus but that day, he wore a t-shirt tucked into his tight jeans. He looked a lot younger that way. A lot more like a college student than a father of a 15-year-old.

"Wow," Jeongguk said, still looking around.

"Awesome, right? I used to come here every day" Taehyung said.

"Lucky," Jeongguk said, flashing him a grin.

"Taehyung?" A feminine voice said, making Taehyung look towards the source of the sound.

"Dahyun?" Taehyung said, walking towards the girl who had just called his name from behind the cashier counter. "You still work here?"

"Yes! Oh my God, it's been so long!" She said as she took Taehyung's hand in his.

"I know right?" Taehyung said. "Have you been well?"

"Of course. How about you? How's college working out for you?"

"It's going okay" Taehyung shrugged.

"Did you find someone? A girlfriend? Boyfriend?" She giggled.

"Actually..."

"Oh my god I didn't see you there" she was looking at Jeongguk, who stood awkwardly in the middle of the shop. "Is that your boyfriend?"

"What?! No...he's just my-"

"Friend" Jeongguk cut in. "I'm Jeongguk"

"Wow you're so hot" Dahyun giggled. "So what can I get for you and your boyfriend?"

"He's not my-"Taehyung was going to say. But Jeongguk cut him off again.

"I'd take a latte and two chocolate muffins," Jeongguk said.

"And you?" Dahyun asked, smiling wide. "The usual?"

"Yes," Taehyung grumbled.


The two men sat in a corner of the small coffee shop, sipping their beverages in silence. Jeongguk was still looking around, eyes lit up with child-like amusement. Taehyung watched him as he sipped his hot chocolate.

"Stop staring," Jeongguk said.

"Request denied," Taehyung said. "You're rather good to look at"

Jeongguk scoffed. "Same goes to you, Kim" Jeongguk said, turning his head to look at Taehyung.

Taehyung laughed. Jeongguk was grinning as he watched the younger. "It's nice to hear you laugh"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah. It’s a nice sound. I like it a lot. You should laugh more"

"Ok you're flirting now," Taehyung said.

"Really? Is this what you call flirting? I thought it was things like 'Are you a parking ticket? Because you've got fine written all over you'"

"No! Ew!"

"Can I follow you where you're going right now? 'Cause my parents always told me to follow my dreams"

"Oh my god, no! Please no!" Taehyung said as he fake-gagged. "I will stand up and leave if you ever say a pick-up line again"

Jeongguk laughed. "You should do that more often"

"Do what?"

"Smile"

Taehyung's cheeks started burning. He saw Jeongguk smirking at him. "I thought you said you can't flirt"

Jeongguk chuckled. The two men sipped their steaming hot drinks in comfortable silence. Taehyung munched on the delicious muffin Jeongguk had bought him. The way Jeongguk started at him with a smile playing at his lips didn't go unnoticed by Taehyung.

"Who was that girl?" Jeongguk asked after a while.

"Who? Dahyun? Oh my ex"

Jeongguk's smile was slapped off his face. "Your ex?"

Taehyung swore that the look Jeongguk had at that moment was priceless. He stifled up his laughter.

"You're still in contact with her? Do you still like her?" Jeongguk had his eyebrows furrowed.

Taehyung couldn't hold it. He burst out laughing. Jeongguk looked at him, confused. "What are you laughing at?" He sounded angry.

"I'm...sorry" More laughter. It took him a few moments to control his laughter and compose himself. He wiped a tear off his eye. "You should've seen the look on your face. I should've recorded it!"

Jeongguk just stared.

"She's not my ex. She's my cousin! Besides she's older than me" Taehyung started laughing again.

Jeongguk pouted. "You lied"

"I'm sorry. I needed to see your reaction"

Jeongguk kept staring at the window.

"Oh come on" Taehyung reached and placed his hand over Jeongguk's, which made Jeongguk turn his head to look at him. "She's like a best friend to me. Besides you're the first person I've-"

Dated

The word was on the tip of Taehyung's tongue. It hung in the air, left unsaid. Taehyung didn't know why he almost said it. His heartbeat was erratic in his chest. Jeongguk and he weren't dating for fuck's sake. What was he thinking?

"You've what?"

"Nothing," Taehyung said quickly. "Been in this kind of relationship with?"

"And I thought it was my daughter," Jeongguk said. "You're still dating her?"

"Yeah," Taehyung said. "But not exactly. Like, her fake boyfriend?"

"I'll have to do something about this. I don't understand why she is so desperate even after you cheated on her. Wait...on second thought...I get it"

"Huh?"

"You're fucking hot. That's why everyone's after your ass" Jeongguk said. "I'm lucky, huh? That ass is all mine"

Taehyung rolled his eyes, blushing. Many people, many times had told him he looked pretty, cute, beautiful, hot. But when Jeongguk said it, butterflies started erupting in his stomach, his cheeks heating up uncontrollably.

"Can we stop talking about my girlfriend?" Taehyung said in a small voice. "This is our date"

"Is this what people usually do on dates? I've never been on one. Do they usually go to pretty coffee shops and talk?" Jeongguk asked.

"You can do anything you want," Taehyung said.

"I like this. I like dates. Is this what dating feels like?"

"What? No...I mean I don't know. You should like the other person romantically to date them" Taehyung stammered.

"Oh," Jeongguk said. "You're right. But you said this was a date"

"Yeah. I just..." Taehyung scratched the back of his neck anxiously. He was at a loss for words. "I just wanted to go on a date with you, okay? Isn't this nice? Don't you like spending time with me? Would you rather hang out with your wife who you can't even get it up to?"

Jeongguk laughed. He entangled his fingers with Taehyung's and looked at him fondly. "I love spending time with you, Taehyung. This is such a new experience. I barely had any idea how dates work. All my friends used to go on dates with all sorts of people back in my school days and in college. But I never got to. I think I love going on dates with you"

Taehyung smiled. "So when you go on a date with Jieun sooner or later, you'll get reminded of this little date we had"

"I'm sure I will" Jeongguk smirked. He took a sip of his latte. "This is so good. I don't remember the last time I sat in a coffee shop and had coffee like this. Why didn't you order coffee?"

"I don't like coffee"

"What the fuck? How can someone not like coffee? It's so delicious"

"I like coffee-flavored things but not coffee. It's so bitter!"

"Then put some sugar in it! And here I thought you liked coffee. You never told me!"

"You never asked!"

"You're right. I barely know anything about you. Ok then, what's your favorite color?"

"Grey"

"Grey? That's unusual"

"What's yours?" Taehyung asked.

"Red"

"Cute" Taehyung smiled at Jeongguk.

He rolled his eyes. "Favorite animal"

"Tiger," Taehyung said. "You?"

"Rabbit" Jeongguk smiled, his bunny teeth sticking out in the most adorable way possible.

"Has anyone ever told you that you look like a bunny?"

"What? No!"

"You remind me of a bunny. With those little teeth of yours and your little nose. So cute"

"Stop it. You're the bottom here"

"You're sub here"

"I'm not!"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "I can top you anytime"

"I won't let you and you won't because you like my dick up your ass," Jeongguk said cockily.

"Whatever"

They sat in the small coffee shop for what felt like hours, talking about the most random things. He learned that he barely knew Jeongguk. He didn't know that Jeongguk likes taekwondo and he was a champion in his school days. He didn't know that he liked playing video games, but stopped after entering college because he needed to take care of Aria. He didn't know Jeongguk liked to paint portraits. Taehyung suggested that he should paint more often and Jeongguk said he wanted to paint Taehyung.

"Paint me like one of your French girls," Taehyung said.

"Will you only wear a necklace with a blue diamond?" Jeongguk said.

"If that's how you want it, sir"

Jeongguk smirked. "I'd love to do that, darling"

Both of them laughed. And for a moment, everything was fine. It was just them in the world. The world seemed just perfect. Taehyung was happy.

They walked down the road afterwards, hand in hand. The sun hadn't set yet, but the streets glowed with a soft golden light. They were walking down the deserted road of the area Taehyung used to live in. Not many people lived there, but the neighborhood was friendly. There was a park just down the road and Taehyung wanted to take Jeongguk there.

When they finally reached there, only a few children were playing, running around. They sat on a bench under a tree, hidden from the direct view.

"This area is peaceful. I've never been here" Jeongguk said.

"My apartment was a few blocks away," Taehyung said. "Me, Jimin, Namjoon, Hoseok and Yoongi used to come here all the time"

Jeongguk hummed. "Must've been nice"

"It was"

Taehyung eyed Jeongguk, who sat next to him, his shoulder touching Taehyung's. He was looking around, taking in the view. His eyes twinkled ever so beautifully as he watched the children play.

Taehyung felt a pang in his chest, knowing that he was keeping secrets from Jeongguk. He felt like he shouldn't be keeping such a huge secret away from Jeongguk, especially when Jeongguk was treating him so nicely.

He should tell him. Taehyung couldn't live with the guilt eating him from the inside. He prayed that Jeongguk wouldn't be disgusted with him. He couldn't afford to watch Jeongguk become disgusted with him.

"I have something to tell you," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk turned to look at him. "What is it?"

Taehyung hesitated for a moment, fumbling with his feelings.

"Hey, look at me," Jeongguk said and tilted Taehyung's face up to meet his gaze. "You can tell me anything... Do you trust me?"

Taehyung nodded. 

"Then tell me"

"I'm...not the person you think I am...I didn't have enough money to manage my school expenses so..."

Jeongguk eyed him curiously, eyes soft.

"I...used to give people blowjobs for money. I never let them fuck me. I...I didn't like it but I needed the money. I did it for around a year and then found a sugar daddy for myself. They didn't last more than a month most of the time. I stopped it after graduating high school. I hadn't been whoring around since then. At least...until I met you"

Taehyung was too scared to look at Jeongguk's expression. But he did it anyway, heart stammering in his chest. But it wasn't what he had expected. Instead of disgust, his eyes were still soft. Lips forming a small smile.

What he did next caught Taehyung by surprise.

Jeongguk hugged Taehyung.

Taehyung didn't know what to do as he felt strong arms around him and a hand stroking his back.

"My baby," Jeongguk said. "You've been through so much. I'm glad that you decided to open up to me. Everything is fine now. You don't have to do those anymore. I will give you money as much as you want"

Taehyung felt like crying. He pulled himself away from the embrace. "Aren't you disgusted in me? Why aren't you leaving me already!? You should be disgusted with me! I just told you that I was basically a prostitute and you're hugging me! I don't need your pity!" Taehyung got up to leave but Jeongguk pulled him back until he was seated in Jeongguk's lap.

"Why would I be disgusted in you? I understand your struggle. I'm not pitying you, I'm being empathic. Your past is in the past. Your past doesn't define you. What you choose to do in the present only does. And I think I like the present you and that's all that matters"

Taehyung fought back his tears. This isn't what he had expected at all.

"Why would you still keep me close when I used to-"

"The problems of your past are your business. The problems of your future are my privilege"

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk wide eyed. "I want you to let go of your past. I want you to focus on your future so you won't find yourself in such a place in the future. Understood?" He said, wiping a tear from Taehyung's face.

Taehyung kissed Jeongguk. He wrapped his arms around Jeongguk's neck and kissed him passionately while being seated on his lap. Jeongguk soon took hold of the younger's waist. Jeongguk tasted of coffee. But the taste was sweet. Taehyung didn't mind it, even though he hated coffee.

The bittersweet taste was additive as Taehyung pushed his tongue inside Jeongguk's mouth, kissing him deeper and harder. And at that moment, when the unexpected happened and turned into happiness, everything seemed perfect.

They made it home before Aria came home. Jeongguk collapsed into the sofa and Taehyung followed him. Taehyung straddled him, knees on either side of Jeongguk's waist as he brought his face closer to him.

"Aria will be home soon," Taehyung said, voice dragging lazily as his lips ghosted over Jeongguk's. The older eyed him under his half-open eyelids.

"Mmkay," Jeongguk said and he was tipping his head forward, closing the gap between their mouths in a kiss- long and slow and sweet.

There was a warmth between them and Jeongguk brought one of his hands to Taehyung's ass and the other to his cheek, his thumb brushing against the high curve of his cheekbone.

Taehyung brought his own hands and rested them on either side of Jeongguk's neck, tipping his own neck to lick smoothly into Jeongguk's mouth with a hum. Jeongguk's response was effortless, their tongues slowly sliding together and apart far enough for the older to lick Taehyung's bottom lip and take it in his mouth, grazing his teeth slightly over it and then biting it softly but enough to pull a little noise from the back of Taehyung's throat.

Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's ass every now and then. His tongue smoothed over Taehyung's and Taehyung practically purred, regretting the fact that they haven't done this sooner.

Why hadn't they done this before? Taehyung questioned himself as they slowly made out. Why didn't they just chill and make out like this? Just sit and make out, not worrying about getting off or anything. Just lazy grins and open-mouthed kisses and the occasional lip bites.

The sound of the front door opening was loud enough for both men to hear it and practically wrench away from each other. So when Aria walked into the living room the TV is on and the two men were on either side of the sofa, as far from each other as they could be.

They were lucky that the living room isn't in direct view from the front door. When Aria came into the living room and eyed Taehyung and Jeongguk with a tired but melancholic look.

"I'm home, dad," She said.

Jeongguk cleared this throat. "Did you have a nice day at school?"

"Yeah"

"You look tired. Go get some rest. Your mom will be home late. I'll call you when the dinner is ready"

"Okay" with that said, Aria walked upstairs and it was when both men let out the breath they were holding.

"That was close," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk chuckled. He grinned at Taehyung and he grinned back, adrenaline still humming in his veins.

After dinner, they picked up where they left off. Jeongguk fucked Taehyung hard and fast and just right that Taehyung found it difficult to walk the following morning.

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•°²⁵°• The Toy ─✵─────────

On a Sunday night a few days after his and Jeongguk’s date, Taehyung had just come home from his shift at the pizzeria he had started working on and he was about to walk into his room and get ready to sleep because he needed some rest. And it was late. But a figure standing in the kitchen made him halt in his tracks.

"Taehyung!" Jieun called him, a glass of water in her hand. The nightgown hung on her slim figure. "Did you eat anything for dinner?"

"Yes, Mrs. Jeon. I had dinner at work" Taehyung replied.

"Good. Do you have some time to spare? I need to talk"

Taehyung was taken by surprise. "Yeah, of course," He walked over to her and sat in one of the kitchen stools. Jieun seated herself in another.

"I'm sorry if I seem intrusive. But there's something I need to know"

"Ask away," Taehyung said, smiling.

"The day you came to my office, the man I was talking to...I saw you talking to him in the hallway. Can I know how you know him?"

"You mean Kim Seongha?" Taehyung asked.

"Yeah," Jieun said. "Do you know him well?"

Taehyung scoffed. "He's my father"

Jieun's face portrayed utter shock. She seemed to be battling with her thoughts because she looked so uneasy. Taehyung was confused as to why she was acting this way.

"Mrs. Jeon?" Taehyung called. But she seemed lost in thought. "Jieun?"

Jieun snapped into reality from her trance. "I'm sorry, I was really surprised"

"Why?"

"I've known him for a while. I just can't believe you're his son" She said, forcing a smile on her lips.

"Well, I wouldn't usually call him my father because he and my mother are divorced and I hardly ever talk to him. He's such a jerk. He doesn't even send me money or check up on me. He doesn't care for me"

Jieun placed her hand over Taehyung's, which he had placed on his thigh. "I'm sorry to hear that. He's always been such a dick"

"You know him?"

"I used to know him. Back in my school days. But then lost contact because he was such a toxic force in my life. And well he got married. I despised him. I still do. I heard he got married when I was in college. I didn't know who it was to. The other day, he only had come to my office for some lawsuit"

"Oh" Taehyung said. "You used to date him?"

Jieun chuckled. "No. Nothing like that"

Taehyung furrowed his eyebrows together. He didn't know why she was so suddenly asking about him.

"Well, then I got pregnant so after that, Jeongguk was my whole world" She chuckled.

Taehyung smiled at her, nodding. “Why was he at the lawfirm yesterday?”

“He has some land over here and he’s trying to claim it, as I heard. He has a case going on and his lawyer is from my lawfirm. He came to meet her and I accidentally met him. I heard he leves in another state

“Yeah he does. That’s why he never visits me”

“Sounds like a dick”

Taehyung chuckled at Jieun’s choice of words. She seemed so formal and contained all the time.He never expected her to curse like that. 

 "Oh one more thing," She said.

"Yes?"

"I just wanted to know if you know anything that's going on in college. Jeongguk had been acting differently lately. I mean the semester is over and there's nothing to stress about, right?"

"Yeah. Maybe he's getting ready for the next semester?"

"I don't know. He says he's fine. He doesn't seem particularly stressed or anything. Just...different" Jieun said, eyebrows furrowed together in worry.

Taehyung felt bad for her. She was genuinely a good person and she's being cheated on. Taehyung had never felt bad about the wives nor husbands and children of the families he managed to destroy. Well, he knew it wasn't entirely his fault because he just stood there and men just couldn't keep it in their pants.

But at this moment, Taehyung was too selfish. He didn't want to let Jeongguk go just because he pitied his wife. The chemistry between him and his wife was long gone, if any even existed in the first place.

He can't tell Jeongguk to divorce her, even though in this situation it's the best option. But that's not Taehyung's decision to take, it was Jeongguk's. Taehyung wished he would tell Jieun. But that wasn't how it usually worked. Usually, when it comes to Taehyung, their wives would find out in some way and their husbands would end it between him and them

But things were different when it comes to the Jeons. They had provided him a home. They had treated him like their own family. Maybe that is why he feels so repentant.

Taehyung feared the consequences of revealing Jieun the truth. Would they get divorced? Or would they hold on? Talk things out and forgive each other? Because it's not only them entangled in this problem, it's also their daughter. It's only going to be more heartache and difficulties if they get divorced.

And at the end of the day, Taehyung would be out of the equation.

So the selfish he didn't want to ruin what they have. He wanted to be with Jeongguk. Some part of him said that they're something more than fuck buddies.

Wasn't everyone happy like this? Taehyung was happy. Jeongguk was too. Jeongguk was having the time of his life spending time with Taehyung. Taehyung could say that he'd pushed his problems and the consequences of his actions to the back of his actions and was trying to enjoy the life he never had. And honestly, Taehyung wanted to see Jeongguk being happy like that.

On the other hand, as long as Jieun and Aria don't know the truth, they'll continue to go about their usual life, unbothered. They'll be happy as long as they didn't know. It's better if they didn't know.

Some things are better left unsaid.

"I want you to stay away from Aria," Jieun said, making Taehyung snap back to reality.

"I'm sorry?"

Jieun sighed. "Don't tell Jeongguk but I've seen the way Aria looks at you. I don't know if you're already aware but I think she likes you. Everyone gets crushes at that age and it'll soon fade away. Besides I don't have to tell you why you shouldn't date her, right? You’re so much older and…she’s just a kid"

Taehyung looked quizzical. "Yeah. Of course. You don't have to worry. I'm gay"

Well, that was a lie. The better answer was, he's more attracted to men than women. And he didn't really see himself dating a girl in the future, despite having a couple of girls blow him off in the past. But Jieun didn't have to know that.

"Oh," She said. "I didn't know that" She smiled.

"I'll get going now? I'm sleepy" Taehyung said as politely as he could. He was tired and sleepy.

"Of course! Good night"

"Good night, Mrs. Jeon"


The sound of Taehyung's pencil scribbling against his sketchbook was loud inside the empty house. Taehyung wasn't particularly bored as he spent the morning of one of the rare days he didn't have to go to college. As an introvert, he enjoyed spending time with himself. He loved hanging out with his friends too and he loved socializing but there were days he wanted to be by himself. He enjoyed doing something to ease his stress and do some self-care like sketching to heal his mind.  So that day, he decided to stay home because Jeongguk would be home soon, and honestly, he loved spending time with Jeongguk

Whether be it fucking or just talking, sprawled lazily on the couch, or making dinner together, or washing dishes, he enjoyed every moment he spent with the older man. Despite being his teacher, and that space that should've existed between them never crossing Taehyung's mind, he felt utterly at ease when he spent time with Jeongguk. He felt like he could talk about anything with Jeongguk. He would always listen to him attentively and then give his opinion about what Taehyung had said.

They would laugh together and whenever Jeongguk did something stupid like using hand wash instead of dishwashing soap to wash the dishes. Jeongguk loves to spread soap bubbles all over his face when they're washing dishes. Taehyung would do the same and they'd end up fighting and making a whole mess on the kitchen counter and floor. They'd end up cleaning all the soap and water afterward, smiling like fools and having no regrets.

They'd have sex if they had time. Or they'd just make out in the kitchen.

Taehyung found out that he loves making out. It's not always sexual and it doesn't always end up with Jeongguk's dick in his ass. Jeongguk would sit on a stool by the kitchen table and Taehyung would sit on his lap and they'd just kiss. Or Jeongguk would trap Taehyung between his arms, against the kitchen counter and they'd just make out. Or they'd just go straight into Taehyung's bedroom, which always ended up with something more than just kissing.

Regardless, Taehyung was having the time of his life being with Jeongguk. And Jeongguk seemed happy too. Taehyung was glad for that. He didn't seem like he was bothered, unlike the earlier days of his and Jeongguk's relationship.

Taehyung carefully sculptured the eyes of the portrait he worked on. The face had come to look like Jeongguk's, even though he hadn't picked up his sketchbook in hopes of drawing him.

But as thought after thought of the older had crossed his mind, he found himself drawing line after line and it transformed into a perfect resemblance of Jeongguk's face. He smiled at what he had managed to scribble. He had drawn Jeongguk's eyes and lips many times, when he's bored on lectures or when he's lost in thought. But he had never drawn a pull portrait.

The front door opened and Jeongguk entered. He smiled when he saw Taehyung and started making his way towards him. He sat next to Taehyung, smelling like that expensive perfume he always wore to work.

"Hi," Jeongguk said.

"Hi," Taehyung said, grinning.

"What are you doing?"

"Just sketching"

"Can I see it?"

Taehyung hesitated. He wasn't always confident about what he drew. Hoping Jeongguk likes it, he handed over his sketchbook to the older. Jeongguk turned it over and watched it with gleaming wide eyes.

When he looked at Taehyung again, his eyes were wide and the galaxies in them swirled with emotion. He grinned at Taehyung, bunny teeth full-on display. "This is me!"

"So it would seem," Taehyung said in a small voice.

"Wow, you're so talented. I love this! Wow! No one had ever drawn me" He said, still examining the drawing with an unfaltering grin.

Taehyung watched him with a smile. He hadn't planned on showing Jeongguk his drawings. But now that he saw how happy Jeongguk looked, he didn't regret it.

"Can I see the others too?" Jeongguk asked, his fingers ready to flip a page of his sketchbook. Taehyung nodded and Jeongguk carefully flipped through the pages full of sketches.

"Beautiful" He whispered, taking his time to carefully examine each page.

"I want to be an art psychologist," Taehyung said.

"That's awesome!" Jeongguk said, still flipping through pages. "These are so beautiful, Tae"

Taehyung blushed. After Jeongguk had finished looking through his sketchbook, he handed it back to Taehyung, a cheerful smile plastered to his face.

"I have something for you," He said.

Taehyung turned to look at the older, confused. He saw Jeongguk holding a paper bag, which he handed over to Taehyung. The younger took it and looked at Jeongguk, still confused. Could Jeongguk have brought Taehyung a gift? Taehyung was all so familiar with expensive gifts being handed over to him but he hadn't been expecting such a thing from Jeongguk.

"Go on, open it," Jeongguk said.

Taehyung took out a rather small black box from the bag. He carefully started to open it. The contents of the box made Taehyung's eyes widen in surprise.

A buttplug.

"W-what?" Taehyung couldn't form words. His cheeks had heated up uncontrollably and Jeongguk just watched him with a smirk.

Taehyung took the small device in his hand and examined it. In the box, there was a small remote with a few buttons. The sex toy was black in color and Taehyung had honestly never seen one before.

"It's a buttplug" Jeongguk said.

"I know what it is!" Taehyung said. "Why did you buy me this? To entertain myself when you're busy with your family?"

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "You can use it any way you like. I bought it so we can use it"

"We?"

"I mean you. It's going up your ass. Not mine. Obviously"

Taehyung turned the device in his hand. "Um...thanks?"

"You're welcome," Jeongguk said, smiling. "I want you to go to your room and try this out by yourself. You can know your limits that way. Then we can try it out together"

"What? No! You must come with me. You should help me" Taehyung whined.

"You can call me when you're ready" Jeongguk sighed. "I want you to try out all the settings alone so you’d know what you’re comfortable with"

"I don't want to do it alone!" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk sighed again. "Baby, have you used a buttplug before?"

Taehyung shook his head no.

"That’s exactly why you need to use it alone before we use it together"

“It’s not that deep. Besides, it’ll be so much better if you were with me. You should be there. I know you will take care of me”

Jeongguk bit his lip and looked at Taehyung with a dark gaze. "Tae-"

"Please?"

"Baby-"

"Please, Mr. Jeon?" Taehyung knew he was pushing some buttons.

"You're impossible," Jeongguk said, massaging his temples.

"Please?" Taehyung was pouting now. "I want you to use the new toy on me, professor"

Jeongguk was rethinking his decisions and Taehyung already knew he had him. "Strip and wait for me in your bed"

Taehyung stood up with glee and ran to his bedroom, leaving the toy on the couch.

He quickly stripped and laid on the bed, waiting for Jeongguk to arrive. After a few minutes, Jeongguk entered and locked the door behind him. He placed the toy and controller on the bed and took off his shirt while Taehyung watched his eagerly.

"I was scared if you might like this. Because you usually like dominating" Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"You're the only person I won't mind submitting to," Taehyung said. "I love taking control but being controlled has a fun of its own. Don't worry, I'm excited to try this out. Besides, I'd love anything you buy me" It was the truth. Jeongguk hadn't bought him anything before and he didn't have to either. Now that he had, Taehyung was bubbling with happiness.

Jeongguk smiled at him. "I'm glad" Then he sat on the bed, next to Taehyung.

Taehyung's heart was racing and Jeongguk's muscular torso in display only made him harder in all his nakedness.

"Now" Jeongguk's voice was an octave deeper when it came again. "What do you want me to do?"

Taehyung was growing fucking impatient. Why was Jeongguk even asking him that? His cock was already hard and leaking. Is it not quite obvious what he wants?

"Want you to use the toy on me, Mr. Jeon" Taehyung said breathlessly.

Jeongguk hummed. "Is that all, baby?" Jeongguk parted Taehyung's legs and drew a finger over his thigh. Taehyung trembled from the touch, his cock leaking more pre-cum.

"I-"Taehyung took a shaky breath. "I want you to Fuck me"

Another feather-light touch on his inner thigh. "You what?"

"W-want you to use the toy on me and fuck me," Taehyung said, voice shaking.

"Good," Jeongguk said. Jeongguk made Taehyung roll on his front and stood up from the bed. Taehyung couldn't see where he went so he buried his head in a pillow. Then he felt Jeongguk's cool hands on his waist and the next thing Taehyung knew, his ass was up in the air. He saw Jeongguk then move and he heard the drawer being opened.

"You think you deserve that?" Jeongguk's voice managed to send chills up Taehyung's spine.

"Mmhm"

"I didn't hear you" The telltale snap of a bottle cap alerted Taehyung of what's coming.

"I deserve it, Mr. Jeon"

Jeongguk's cool, lubed fingers met Taehyung's fluttering hole. He added pressure there, not quite letting his finger slip inside. He kept massaging his finger there.

"And why is that?"

"B-because I've been good"

"Have you, now" More pressure.

"Y-yes"

"Okay then" Jeongguk pushed the finger inside. Taehyung buried his head in a pillow again. The sting of Jeongguk's finger buried deep inside him was just so perfect and he unconsciously pushed his ass back, making it slide more until his knuckled are pressed firmly against the younger's ass.

His actions had consequences. A loud slap echoed through the room and the sting of Jeongguk's hand against his ass was so perfect that he let out a broken moan. Taehyung almost wanted to feel that again. Shit, he did. He should misbehave more often.

"Needy brat" Jeongguk growled and took his finger out, making Taehyung whine.

His asshole clenched around the air and Taehyung couldn't help himself. "Please"

"What, baby?"

"Please, Mr. Jeon"

"What do you want?"

"Please-"He was whining. Taehyung would be thinking about this moment in the future and he'd be regretting being so desperate and submissive but fuck it. He needed something. He needed Jeongguk's hands all over him but he's left with air to clench around.

"Want me to use this now?"

"Y-Yes"

Taehyung fought the urge to touch himself but before he could do anything, Jeongguk was bringing the plug closer to his ass.

"Ready?"

Taehyung nodded impatiently.

"Just tell me when you want me to stop"

"Fuck okay just put it in" Taehyung almost shouted. And he's glad that they're alone.

So without another word, Jeongguk pushed the plug inside him. Taehyung could feel the coolness of the device inside him. A bit unfamiliar but adjustable nonetheless.

"Good?"

"Good" Taehyung answered. Jeongguk picked up the remote and handed it over to Taehyung.

“No you do it" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk sighed. "It'd be better if you-"

"Please?"

"Fine" Jeongguk gave up. "You need to tell me if something feels wrong, okay?"

"I will" Taehyung assured again. Then with that said, Jeongguk sat on the bed again. There were ten settings on the remote. Taehyung could only guess what the tenth one would feel like.

Taehyung was so ready for what was coming, whatever it was. But then a click and a dull buzz from the device inside him. He felt himself stiffen but that's a given. It felt like a small tickle and nothing more.

"Next one"

A click followed. The buzz turned into a steady and small vibration that made Taehyung's lips part in a silent moan. That felt good. He let out a shaky breath but that was okay, he could take more.

"O-okay...n-next one"

Jeongguk hesitated for a moment but obliged nevertheless. It was a solid vibration now. He buried his face in his pillow and let out a loud moan because that setting was so good. Jeongguk carefully studied him from beside him, brows knotted together in worry and concentration.

"It's...good" Taehyung managed but moaned out the last part. He wanted more.

"Next one?"

"Y-yeah"

What followed wasn't what Taehyung was expecting. His mouth parted in a loud moan and his knees gave out so that he was lying flat on his stomach. Jeongguk was beside Taehyung in an instant and was caressing his back.

The younger's body was on fire and there's heat pooling low in his stomach threatening to escape. The need to roll his hips against the sheets to get himself some friction was almost overbearing but-

"Fuu-...next one"

Jeongguk looked as if he might not oblige but clicked the fifth setting. Taehyung almost screamed. He could feel himself leaking and in no time he's going to cum. He couldn't hold it anymore.

A string of curses followed. "Fuck-that's enough" He panted.

The vibration stopped and then Jeongguk was turning him around to meet his face. Taehyung hadn't realized that he'd been crying until Jeongguk started wiping away the tears. He laid Taehyung on his back and started kissing his cheeks.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah," Taehyung said, smiling. But he was so fucking hard and about yo cum and if Jeongguk touches his dick once, he'd cum. So he practically dragged Jeongguk on top of him and kissed him.

Jeongguk instantly responded, kissing him back with equal passion.

"This is the part where you fuck me," Taehyung said when they pulled away. Jeongguk smiled and stood up to take off his pants.

Taehyung watched as he pulled his pants and boxers down and Jeongguk's thick cock sprang free. He was red and erect and so ready for Taehyung.

"Fuck" Taehyung said. His lips grew dry at the sight. It took all his self-control to not touch himself or just cum at the sight of Jeongguk's cock.

Jeongguk smirked before getting on top of Taehyung. He spread Taehyung's legs and pushed them up so that Taehyung was basically bent in two. He took out the buttplug, which made Taehyung tremble.

The emptiness was soon replaced by a much better and warmer object: Jeongguk's cock. Jeongguk started slamming into Taehyung and his eyes rolled onto the back of his head from pleasure. Taehyung couldn't help himself as he moaned and moaned while Jeongguk grunted above him, one hand holding up Taehyung's leg and the other propping himself up.

He mercilessly fucked Taehyung and sick, wet sounds echoed through the room. Taehyung's hand flew to the older man's back and he was sure his nails left some marks there.

It didn't take minutes for Taehyung to lose his shit and splatter his cum all over his and Jeongguk's stomachs, a final loud moan escaping him. Jeongguk continued to fuck Taehyung's flaccid body, chasing after his own high and after moments, he pumped his hot semen into Taehyung's abused hole, a breathy groan of satisfaction escaping his throat.

Jeongguk coaxed him afterward, murmuring praises like "You did great baby" and "My good boy" to him.

Taehyung doesn't need a fucking prophet to tell him that the buttplug is going to be used more often than he imagined.

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•°²⁶°• The Gift ─✵─────────

Taehyung was right. Jeongguk loved using the buttplug on Taehyung. Every day he'd come home and tell Taehyung to put it on. Then for hours, he'd have the device inside him. Jeongguk always kept the remote in his possession, at least when they were together. He'd leave it with Taehyung when he left in the morning.

Things got worse when Jeongguk and Taehyung both were stuck at home because the semester had ended. It was their few weeks of holidays. Jeongguk kept himself busy with his work nevertheless. But they'd always have time for themselves. So every morning, when they're alone, Taehyung would walk up to Jeongguk and hand him the remote.

Jeongguk would lick his lips and smirk at the younger, taking the remote from his hand. Then gradually increase the vibration until Taehyung was on his knees, (only because he couldn’t stand since his knees grew weak and his legs were shaking because of the buttplug) begging for Jeongguk to fuck him.

And Jeongguk would gladly oblige.

Things got different when Aria's holidays started. All three of them would be home. Jeongguk spent time with Aria most of the time. They went to the grocery together and brought ice cream. They went for a morning run around the neighborhood. Both of them watered the plants and picked the weed out of the flowerbeds in the garden. They made lemonade and gave Taehyung a glass. They'd laugh together and Jeongguk would help her with her studies.

Jeongguk invited Taehyung to come with them; be it grocery shopping or gardening or going for a run. But Taehyung declined the offer. He instead hung out with his friends. When he was home, he'd read a book and watch the father and daughter indulge themselves in the most ordinary things.

Taehyung found it strange, almost. Because the Jeongguk he'd witnessed and experienced was the lust-driven, cheating and rude man. Not the man who took time off his schedule to spend time with his daughter. The man who would actually enjoy and look forward to spending time with his daughter. 

From the look of things and how ordinary and at ease both of them looked around each other, Taehyung knew that this had been happening for years. That they had been doing this for years. Jeongguk and Aria actually were close. And they had a healthy relationship with each other, Taehyung had just never seen it. 

It seemed almost impossible. Because Jeongguk had been rude to Aria when he was with Taehyung. He'd lied to her and scolded her. But then again, he's just her father. He wanted to protect his daughter. He just didn't want her to end up like him. So he did everything in his power to stop her from ending up like him, including being rude to her and scolding her when needed. However, Taehyung had to admit that he had only seen Jeongguk scold Aria when it comes to Taehyung. On all other occasions, it had been small nagging. 

Taehyung thought it was a beautiful thing, their bond. Aria and Jeongguk looked genuinely happy. And maybe, just maybe, Jeongguk wasn't that bad at being a father. Taehyung's heart ached whenever he saw them being all lovely and shit, laughing and cooking together. He never got to experience this kind of thing with his own father.

It was different from the busy days where Jeongguk came home late and Aria would go to sleep barely speaking to Jeongguk.

For once Taehyung fully understood why Jeongguk was trying so hard to keep his family stable. What happened was in the past. There's nothing neither Taehyung nor Jeongguk could do about it. Yes, Jeongguk should've stopped himself from cheating if he wanted to go back to a peaceful life with his family. And he should've told his wife about the affair if he wanted to make things right and if he felt guilty. But either way, he'd lose something. And now, seeing everything and how Jeongguk cared about Aria, Taehyung could see why he decided to keep it a secret. He couldn't afford to see his family being broken. He couldn't afford to lose Aria.

But then again, he couldn't let go of Taehyung either.

As fucked up as it sounds, it was the truth. Taehyung was in no position to tell Jeongguk to let him go for his family because Taehyung wanted what they were having to last. He was selfish like that. Jeongguk was a grown man; if he wants, he has the choice of letting Taehyung go. 

Despite making time for Aria, Jeongguk would always treat Taehyung in the evening. They'd have their fun throughout the day too because Taehyung was supposed to wear the buttplug all the time and Jeongguk took pleasure in turning it on any time he wanted.

He'd push the buttons when they're sitting for breakfast, lunch, or dinner. When they're sitting together at night watching TV. When Jeongguk was gardening with Aria and Taehyung watched from the side.

All in front of his daughter and wife.

Taehyung wasn't complaining. No, not at all. In fact, he was into it. Jeongguk was always careful to do it when no one was looking. But it was growing harder and harder for him to not wiggle in his chair or moan out.

Dinner was the most difficult. Jeongguk would let Taehyung eat in peace but when he's almost done eating, he would turn on the device making Taehyung almost choke on his food. Jieun always asked him if he was okay. And whenever they ate together, Jieun was always attentive to him, just like she was to Aria. She tells both of them to eat their vegetables, which both Aria and Taehyung despised doing.

But Taehyung ate them anyway, unlike Aria. 

If things got out of control during the dinner table, and Taehyung had to run to the bathroom, he would always punish Jeongguk afterwards.

Taehyung was almost sure that the older was asking for it. He loved submission, Taehyung could tell. He loved it when Taehyung called him filthy names and then praised him afterward. Loved it when Taehyung fucked his mouth, using him like the slut he was.

They would also have their own time in the mornings when Aria visited her friends' houses or if she went to her swimming practice. On those days Jeongguk and Taehyung went to the small coffee shop for small dates. They made sure to try every beverage on the menu. Well, for Taehyung, every beverage that didn't include coffee.

This was another one of those days where it was just him and Jeongguk. They hadn't talked about going anywhere so Taehyung was reading a book, sprawled on the couch and Jeongguk was upstairs, doing some of his work.

Taehyung was totally enticed with the story but the sound of footsteps from the staircase made him divert his attention from the book to Jeongguk approaching him. Taehyung sat up a little when Jeongguk reached him and laid back down after he sat down, so Taehyung's head was on Jeongguk's lap.

It was natural; a habit now, to lay his head on Jeongguk’s lap when they were on the couch. Like it’s his second nature; as if he’d been doing it for years. 

Taehyung put a bookmark to his book, a small paper he found lying atop the coffee table, and looked up the other man smiling down at him. Jeongguk brushed some stray locks off of Taehyung's face and planted a kiss on his forehead, which made the younger grin.

"You're so beautiful, have I told you that?" Jeongguk said.

"Maybe" Taehyung answered.

"So pretty" He continued. "And delicate"

"Shut up," Taehyung said. "I'm literally as tall as you"

"Adorable" Jeongguk said. "The prettiest"

"Oh my god stop" Taehyung sat up on the sofa, legs crossed and turning his whole body to face Jeongguk. The older wore sweatpants and a T-shirt, his usual but fucking hot attire. Jeongguk knew Taehyung loved him in sweats. 

Jeongguk grinned at him and fished something out from his pocket. A small black box.

"Are you going to propose to me? Jeongguk I don't think that's a good-"

"Shut up. I'm married. How the fuck can I propose to you, you dumbass?" Jeongguk said softly, handing Taehyung the box.

Taehyung took it from his hands and opened it with a pout, feeling confused. 

"Pretty people deserve pretty things," Jeongguk said.

Inside the black box lay a silver necklace. Taehyung's eyes widened as he took the jewelry out of the box. The pendant had a hexagonal light pink stone the size of about one and a half centimeters.

"It's beautiful" Taehyung whispered, mesmerized.

"You like it?"

"I love it!" Taehyung said, turning the pendant in his hand and examining it with wide eyes. He had been given many expensive things by his sugar daddies, who loved to spoil him. He loved being spoiled. But the relationship he and Jeongguk had wasn't a sugar daddy-sugar baby one. They were just... friends ?

And as Taehyung's heart beat wildly in his chest from excitement and something else that he couldn't pinpoint as this or that, he knew that this small gift that Jeongguk had gotten him meant more than anything he'd ever received from his previous affairs.

"You look good in pink so I just thought it'd look good on you," Jeongguk said, fumbling with his fingers. "I saw it and immediately thought of you and I couldn't just not buy it"

"Jeongguk I love this" Taehyung said, grinning at him. He felt out of breath and his heart fluttered wildly in his chest. His stomach was filled with butterflies. Why the fuck-

"It's not expensive or branded. I mean I'm sure your sugar daddies bought you" Jeongguk was saying but Taehyung silenced him with a kiss. Taehyung climbed into the elder's lap and straddled him.

Jeongguk's hands found his ass and he kissed Taehyung with equal passion and need. The younger boy poured all his gratitude and affection he had for Jeongguk into the kiss. Jeongguk kissed back with equal passion. At one point, Taehyung felt Jeongguk smile against his lips, making the butterflies in his stomach go crazy. 

"Thank you" Taehyung whispered as they pulled away. His cheeks had heated up embarrassingly.  "This means more than anything any of my sugar daddies have ever bought me. And you don't have to buy me stuff like these, you're not my sugar daddy. I won't leave your side until you tell me to fuck off"

Jeongguk laughed. "I don't think I'll ever be able to tell you to fuck off" He whispered.

Taehyung giggled.

“And i bought you this because I really wanted to. You deserve it, Taehyung. I want you to have it because….well because it would look good on you and…and I just wanted you to have it, okay? I’m not buying you this stuff because I’m scared that you’ll leave me or something. I know we have something real. The difference between me and your sugar daddies is that I’m not expecting something in return from you like they did. I genuinely want you to have it” 

Taehyung gulped. He felt like tearing up. That’s got to be one of the sweetest things anyone had told him in his whole life. He could’s help smiling like a fool. So he nodded and kissed Jeonggukagain. Jeongguk ran his hands along Taehyung's exposed thighs and rested on his ass. He was wearing a short and an oversized sweater because it was just him and Jeongguk in the house.

Jeongguk pulled away and took the necklace from Taehyung's hand. He turned it in his hand and smiled at Taehyung before he wrapped his arms around the boy's neck. Taehyung leaned forward to let Jeongguk and put it on him. He leaned back after clasping the chain. His eyes traveled over Taehyung’s face and neck. The pendant lay on his chest, right above the neck of his sweatshirt. It felt cold against his skin. 

"Beautiful" He whispered.

"Really?" Taehyung took his phone and examined himself from the front camera. Indeed, he actually looked good in it. "Damn"

Jeongguk was grinning at him. Taehyung smiled back at him but his smile faltered suddenly as a thought crossed his mind.

"You said you wanted to draw me," Taehyung said in a low voice. Jeongguk nodded. "Draw me with this on"

Jeongguk just stared.

"Only this"


Taehyung stripped his clothes off and sat on his bed, against the wall.

"How should I pose?" Taehyung asked in a small voice after Jeongguk had settled down with his sketchbook and pencil. He sat on the chair of Taehyung's study table, in front of Taehyung.

"Any way you like," Jeongguk said, smiling. The way he licked his lips as he watched Taehyung strip didn't go unnoticed, but he decided to keep it to himself.

Taehyung adjusted himself on the bed, against the wall. He was going to sit with his legs against his chest but to spice things up a bit, Taehyung sat in the sluttiest way possible. He spread his legs wide and bent one against the bed. And bend the other against his chest. His half-hard crotch was in full display for Jeongguk. Taehyung was sure his hole was visible to Jeongguk as well. From the way he posed, his delicate curves were highlighted as he straightened his back against the wall.

Taehyung saw Jeongguk visibly gulp as he took in Taehyung's posture.

"Is this good, Mr. Jeon?" Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk's eyes raked over Taehyung's body. The younger felt tingles all over his body as the older man intensely stared at his body, eyes lingering more on his nether regions.

"Yes," Jeongguk said, a little breathless.

He started sketching. The sound of his pencil against the paper was loud against the silence. Jeongguk looked up from the paper at Taehyung from time to time, trial over his body for a few moments, and start sketching again.

Jeongguk looked peaceful as he drew. He looked concentrated and at home at the same time. He was at ease. As if sketching was his second nature. Taehyung bet it was. He had never seen Jeongguk like this, this lively and comfortable. Except on those times he and Jeongguk cuddled or when he laughed at something Taehyung had said.

He looked hot at the same time. Jeongguk sat in the chair, manspreading, his delicious thighs covered in sweats flexing every time he adjusted his position. He looked fucking gorgeous and Taehyung felt himself grow hot as he watched the older man.

The way Jeongguk's eyes raked all over his body was not helping at all. It felt like his were leaving marks on his body. As if his gaze was capable of touching Taehyung. Taehyung could physically feel him, even though he was a few feet away from him. Jeongguk was touching Taehyung without really touching him because the way his gaze just lingered on his body and drew invisible lines on him as it moved, was sensual. Therefore, he was all hot and bothered by his stares and glances. Numerous times had Jeongguk mapped out his moles that scattered all over his body like stars into constellations with his mouth. But now was different. He could basically feel Jeongguk's fingers on his body, as he stared at him.

He wondered if Jeongguk would fuck him after this. He was too horny for this to let slide.

He wanted Jeongguk to touch him like he was sketching him, but with his mouth. He wanted his hands all over his body; those veiny hands with ong fingers. He wanted him to kiss Taehyung with passion with force while grinding down on him. He wanted him to fuck him ruthless after torturing him with patience.

Taehyung accidentally moaned.

"Having fun there, darling?" Jeongguk's voice came, making Taehyung anchor himself back to reality. Jeongguk was still staring him down, a smirk plastered to his face. His sketching had paused as he took in Taehyung's condition.

Taehyung was trembling from arousal. His cock was hard as a rock, erect between his thighs against his flat stomach. At the tip of his cock was a bead of cum.

Mouth agape from the neediness and his blood sang with hormones in his veins. He watched the bead of cum roll down from his tip.

"Fuck" Jeongguk cursed. "You're getting all worked up over there, baby"

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, eyes darkened from lust. "Fuck me" he moaned out.

Jeongguk just smirked and went back to finish his sketch. "Patience, my darling"

The sound of the pencil scraping against the paper was loud against the silence yet again. Taehyung was unable to even remain in the position for Jeongguk to sketch It was itching to touch himself.

"P-please" Taehyung stammered.

Jeongguk rewarded him with silence. He kept sketching, eyes lingering on Taehyung's body before moving back to the paper from time to time. Taehyung needed to touch himself one way or the other. Or Jeongguk could talk dirty to him. He's pretty sure he would be able to cum from that alone.

Instead, Taehyung kept his position.

"You should be a model," Jeongguk said after a while. "You have a great body"

Taehyung stayed silent. Why hadn't he thought about it? It truly could've been easy money.

"Maybe" Taehyung answered.

Jeongguk sat back on his chair and placed the sketchbook and pencil on the table beside him. He looked at Taehyung, rolling his tongue against the inside of his cheeks. His eyes raked all over Taehyung's flushed and hot body, gaze predatory.

"You done with it?" Taehyung asked.

"Yeah"

Taehyung stared as Jeongguk stood up from his chair and made his way towards him. He stopped when he reached the edge of the bed and put one knee on the bed. He leaned forward and the next thing Taehyung knew, Jeongguk was grabbing his ankles and pulling him towards himself. Taehyung yelped as he was dragged until Jeongguk was towering above him.

Jeongguk smirked down at him, his arms on either side of Taehyung.

"So needy today, hmm?' Jeongguk rasped.

Taehyung only gasped as Jeongguk leaned down and started nibbling on his neck. The marks Jeongguk had left on Taehyung's body a few days back had already faded. Jeongguk started repainting Taehyung's body.

His hands were wild on Taehyung's body as he pinched and caressed, mouth kissing and sucking. He slowly moved downwards, just as Taehyung dreamt he would. Taehyung could only moan as Jeongguk literally worshiped his body.

A few minutes later Jeongguk was kneeling at the edge of the bed, Taehyung's legs on either side of his head. Taehyung let out a choked moan as Jeongguk took him in his mouth.

Jeongguk looked up at Taehyung as he slowly sunk down his length. Taehyung could only moan because Jeongguk looked fucking hot with Taehyung's cock in his mouth. The older man bobbed his head up and down his length and Taehyung's hand was fisted in the sheets. A few more seconds and he'd be coming.

But Jeongguk was still looking up at him, doe eyes wide and the galaxies inside them swirling ever so mystically. Amidst waves of pleasure shooting up his spine, Taehyung got a little lost in the other's dark orbs.

Then he felt a hand on his hand and Jeongguk was leading Taehyung's hand towards his head, to pull his hair as he sucked the life out of Taehyung. Who was Taehyung to no comply?

He entangled his fingers in Jeongguk's long raven locks and pulled them, guiding his head up and down Taehyung's shaft. Jeongguk groaned, his gaze momentarily wavering. Soon Taehyung was coming into Jeongguk's mouth, a loud moan of satisfaction escaping his lips.

He took his hand away from Jeongguk's head but the older man made sure to stroke him a couple of times, milking him out and licking off all the cum. 

Jeongguk stood up and Taehyung was lying on the bed from the exhaust. The younger boy eyed Jeongguk, who was looking at him with a gentle smile. His eyes were teary and his cheeks a pretty red, his lips swollen and glistening with saliva and Taehyung's cum. He was hard against his sweatpants.

"Fuck c'mere," Taehyung said dragged Jeongguk towards himself until he was at the edge of the bed. Taehyung knelt on the bed and pulled down his sweatpants along with his boxers. His thick erection sprang free.

Taehyung's mouth watered at the sight of Jeongguk's cock, red and leaking, standing tall and proud right in front of his face. Taehyung licked the tip, making Jeongguk hiss. Taehyung watched Jeongguk who stared down at him with hooded eyes darkened with lust as Taehyung slowly took him in his mouth.

Taehyung ran his tongue all over the sides, gathering the cum that had leaked, and took him inside again, and started sucking. Jeongguk's patience was running thin and Taehyung had it coming. Jeongguk took hold of Taehyung's locks and started fucking Taehyung's mouth.

Jeongguk grunted from pleasure and Taehyung could only moan as his cock slid down his throat, making him almost gag. Jeongguk was so lost in pleasure that their surroundings faded away until-

"Dad! I'm home!"

Jeongguk halted in his tracks and Taehyung's eyes snapped open. They stared at each other for a split second before Taehyung started moving up and down Jeongguk's length again.

"Fuck, be quick" Jeongguk grunted above him. Taehyung knew that the older was close from the was Taehyung started tasting salt more and more. Taehyung quickly pulled away from Jeongguk and started stroking him, making Jeongguk cover his mouth.

"Dad?! Where are you?" Aria's voice was closer now.

Taehyung started stroking him faster and within seconds Jeongguk was coming into Taehyung's hand. His face was scrunched in pleasure and his eyes were teary. His bottom lip looked so swollen from all the biting to keep down his moans. 

Jeongguk quickly fixed himself and wiped his mouth before running out of the door.

Taehyung sat in his bed, exhausted. He could hear cheerful conversation and laughter coming from the living room. He sighed to himself before getting up from bed and walking towards his table.

He picked up Jeongguk's sketchbook and looked at the newly sketched portrait of himself. Needless to say, Taehyung was mesmerized. There wasn't a single line that wasn't accurate, every dot and every line constellating up to create the perfect portrait of Taehyung. It was so detailed too, which Taehyung didn't expect since they only sat there for like twenty minutes. Taehyung’s face was the most detailed, he noticed. JEongguk had drawn him with his head tipped back a little, making his jawline pop and his face was scrunched from pleasure. It looked so erotic. The way his cock was standing erect between his legs and the way it looked wet, Jeongguk was obviously intending it to be so erotic. 

Jeongguk would make an amazing erotica artist. 

Taehyung stared at it for a few long minutes, observing every line. He couldn’t stop admiring it. Every stroke of Jeongguk’s pencil was a masterpiece. It all came together and created an even bigger masterpiece. 

It was beautiful.

Taehyung, feeling curious, started flipping through the pages of the sketchbook. He expected to find sketches of Jieun or Aria or just anything.

All he found was sketches of his own face, from different sides and angels, aging up to the day he and Jeongguk first met.

Chapter Text

•°²⁷°•Home Wrecker─✵────────

It was Aria's sixteenth birthday.

Jeongguk and Jieun were busy preparing for the party which was supposed to be held in their house. Taehyung said that he could crash at Jimin's room for the night but Jieun said that he should say. In the afternoon of the party, Jieun and Jeongguk got together to make Aria's birthday cake. Taehyung was hanging balloons and helping the parents of Aria with small things when he noticed the two making the cake together.

It was almost foreign to Taehyung, to see them together like this. They prepared the cake in silence, except for occasional small talk. Taehyung tried to ignore them while he minded his own business, but the way Jieun smiled at Jeongguk and when Jeongguk smiled back or laughed at something with Jieun, something made his stomach feel uneasy. Something told Taehyung that he shouldn't be feeling that way.

Aria too has been persistent in keeping Taehyung in the house during the party. She dragged Taehyung away from her parents' view when he was hanging balloons and told him to act as her boyfriend or that she'll tell her father the truth about him. Taehyung wanted to tell her that Jeongguk already knew but he really didn't want Jieun to know. So he agreed. After all, they had dated for almost two weeks and Aria is basically Taehyung's ex. And also he forgot to buy Aria a birthday gift. (You can't really blame him, Jeongguk was going around the house wearing a tank top the whole day and he totally forgot about it)

By the evening, the house was crowded with Aria's friends. Taehyung didn't want to put effort into what he wore so he just put on a purple t-shirt and ripped black jeans. There weren't more than twenty people, Aria having only invited her classmates. There was no alcohol and Taehyung seriously needed some. There were no drugs either, making the whole party boring. And there was no one to even thirst over.

Well, except Jeongguk.

Taehyung sat next to Aria, as he was previously told to do, listening to her friends babble things over the loud music. Jeongguk loved coming in to give them food and drinks, glancing at Taehyung every now and then. His stare was almost a warning for Taehyung. Maybe if he flirted with someone he'll have it great later that night.

"Your dad is hot," A girl who was wearing a strapless red dress said just when Jeongguk left the room after placing some snacks on the table.

Aria laughed. "Hey! That's my dad you're talking about! Don't even think about flirting with him. He loves mom"

Taehyung felt uneasy thereafter. Throughout the night, on different occasions, he had to act like aria's boyfriend and talk to her friends. He didn't necessarily mind but a few hours into the party, Jeongguk finally came and rescued Taehyung.

Jeongguk took his hand and dragged him to the kitchen. Taehyung let him and when they reached the kitchen, Jeongguk was looking at him with the widest smile.

"How was it hanging out with fifteen-year-olds?" Jeongguk asked, leaning against the counter.

"Disastrous" Taehyung said, letting out an exasperated sigh. "Was I that cringy when I was fifteen?"

Jeongguk laughed.

"I seriously need some alcohol. How can people even have parties without some alcohol?" Taehyung said, taking a cup and pouring himself some water. He gulped it down quickly.

"She's sixteen. They shouldn't be drinking alcohol" Jeongguk said. "I got something if you need it"

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk. "What is it?"

Jeongguk walked over to the pantry and dug something out from a cupboard. A bottle of whiskey.

"Whiskey?" Taehyung asked. “You a whiskey kind of guy?"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. "Want some?"

"I could use some right now. Though whiskey isn't really my thing"

Taehyung watched as the older man poured some of the yellowish liquid into a mug.

"We don't have anything else at home. Other than some beers. I don't usually drink" Jeongguk said and handed Taehyung his mug.

"Thanks" He brought the mug to his mouth and inhaled the strong scent of alcohol. Whiskey was too strong and he never really liked the smell but he gulped it down anyway. The liquid burned down his throat and he suppressed the need to gag.

"Fuck this is so strong," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk took a sip from his own mug and calmly watched Taehyung as if it didn't affect him at all. "Yeah this is a good one"

"I can see"

They silently sipped their alcohol in peace, listening to the banging electronic music coming from upstairs.

"At least Aria passed the age of fifteen without getting pregnant to end up like me," Jeongguk said after a while. "Two more years to go and she can do whatever the fuck she wants"

"You don't know if she had already had sex or not"

"I don't know and I hope not. But at least she didn't get pregnant"

"You're so protective of her" Taehyung stated.

"As I should be. She's my little girl. You have no idea what we went through to raise her. All of that would have been ruined if I wasn't at home that day Aria brought you over" Jeongguk said.

"For your information, Aria had a condom," Taehyung said. “Aria?!”

“Yeah well it was her idea that we should fuck”

“God, I don’t want to know about this”

“But hey,at least we got to meet that day"

“Yeah” Jeongguk smirked. "You're lucky I caught you two that day. If you slept with her, Jieun wouldn't think twice about filing a case against you and putting you in jail. She's underage. I don't know what was going inside your head"

"I have no idea either," Taehyung said. "But I thought Aria was kinda good looking and when she gave me her number, I thought why not?"

"You thought my daughter was hot?" Jeongguk said, disgust lacing every word.

"Kind of. But I think her dad is the hottest fucking person I've ever met in my life. I can't believe I have you all for myself. Oh, wait...I don't"

Jeongguk laughed. "You kind of do though"

"Yeah but your wife thinks the same" Taehyung said softly. A silence stretched between them as Jeongguk wordlessly took Taehyung's mug and poured him some more whisky. It was a few moments later Jeongguk spoke again.

"I'm doing everything to make sure she doesn't end up like me"

"I know" Taehyung walked towards Jeongguk and placed his hand on his shoulder, squeezing it. "You're managing it quite well"

"I'm destroying my family"

Taehyung watched Jeongguk stare at the ground, a smile obscure in his cherry lips. "Do you regret us?"

"No" The answer was quick and Jeongguk had raised his head to meet Taehyung's gaze. "But I will regret it if this destroys Aria's life"

Taehyung and Jeongguk stared at each other for a few long seconds. The music that came from upstairs was loud but it didn't take moments for Taehyung to get lost in Jeongguk's starry orbs.

"You can't have both" Taehyung whispered lastly.

"I know"

"You should let me go, then" It hurt to even say it. He couldn't imagine a day without waking up to see Jeongguk's face. He couldn't imagine not talking with Jeongguk. He couldn't imagine passing a day without seeing Jeongguk smile at him, soft dark eyes twinkling with delight and cherry red lips stretching into a wide grin to reveal his adorable bunny teeth.

"Do you want me to?" Jeongguk asked.

"No, but you should if you want to keep your family"

"I don't want to let you go" Jeongguk's face was inches away from Taehyung's.

"This is ridiculous. You're married and I'm your student"

"I know," Jeongguk said. "And you were my daughter's boyfriend"

Taehyung laughed. He was obviously tipsy. Jeongguk's laughter followed suit until they were both leaning on each other and laughing. How did a serious talk even turn into a laughing contest?

"I don't even know why you like me. I'm not even that hot and you're just a Greek god walking on earth. You can have anyone you want" Taehyung said between giggles.

Jeongguk's smile turned into a frown. "I don't like it when you say things like that to me. To me, you're perfect. I've never felt this way about anyone"

"Please don't confess your love to me now. We need more booze for stuff like that" Taehyung said jokingly.

"I'm not trying to do that! I'm married, remember? It's my daughter's birthday"

"You're stupid sometimes, I swear"

"You're stupider!"

"Is that even a word?" The two ended up laughing in the end.

"Seems like the boys are having more fun than the girls" A voice came, making Taehyung immediately take a step away from Jeongguk.

"Jieun," Jeongguk said, holding his mug up for her to see. "Taehyung apparently needed a drink after hanging out with fifteen-year-olds for hours"

"Jeongguk! There are children here. You two shouldn't be drinking. And you're drunk already!" she scolded.

"I'm not drunk!" Jeongguk protested. "Taehyung is just a lightweight"

"I'm not, professor!"

"Yes, you are. You're drunk"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. He took the last sip from his mug and started washing it.

"If he's drunk, let him go to bed," Jieun said.

"I'll take him to his bedroom," Jeongguk said, placing his mug on the counter.

"I'm not that drunk!" Taehyung refused. He was just a little tipsy. But Jeongguk dragged him to his bedroom either way.

They made sure to make out for twenty whole minutes on Taehyung's bed, giggles escaping in between before Taehyung passed out.


Jeongguk didn't want to go on a date with Jieun.

They'd been married for ten years and why would they even go on a date now? To get to know each other? Seemed more than ridiculous to Jeongguk. But Jieun had already made reservations at a restaurant because Jeongguk didn't have college for a few weeks. So the weekend after Aria's birthday, they decided to go on a dinner date.

Apparently, Taehyung had been informed of it before Jeongguk. Jeongguk didn't get Jieun sometimes. But Taehyung had already agreed on staying home with Aria. That was a problem on its own. As far as Jeongguk was aware, his daughter still had feelings for Taehyung. He was worried that she might try something on Taehyung. But Taehyung is old enough to take care of himself, right?

He himself had talked to Taehyung about it. Neither of them couldn't help it and Jeongguk felt like he was cheating on Taehyung, as ridiculous as it sounds.

"If you two decide to get freaky in a motel or something, I'll never sleep with you ever again" Taehyung had said.

"A date with her isn't going to bring back the feelings the fifteen-year-old me had, Taehyung. Don't worry" Jeongguk had said.

"Good. Make sure you visit me after she falls asleep so you can receive your punishment"

"I will" Jeongguk had said a little breathlessly.

Their date hadn't even started but he was excited about the aftermath of it. He couldn't wait till they got home.

Therefore by eight in the evening, Jeongguk was dressed up in a button-up shirt and jeans to go on their little date. Jieun wore a pretty green dress and a jacket. The fifteen-year-old version of him may have been head over heels for her. He would’ve been drooling seeing how beautiful she looked at that moment. But the thirty-year-old Jeongguk felt nothing but appreciation for her.

Over the course of months Jeongguk had spent with Taehyung, he had come to realize that he wasn't actually in love with Jieun. If he was, he'd never have cheated on her. And he wondered if he ever was...

After bidding goodbye to the children , as Jieun liked to call them, they got into the vehicle and drove off to the restaurant. It was a rather small restaurant, not a high-end one. Jeongguk was glad that it was. He never liked such places where everyone behaved like they were born to the royal family when in reality most of them were hard-working people who had worked their asses off to have dinner at such a place.

The place wasn't crowded and Jieun and he made their way to a table, led by a waiter. After settling down and ordering their meal, they silently sipped the wine that had been poured for them earlier.

"This place is nice," Jeongguk said, looking around him. Their table had the view of a huge fountain that was lit up with different colors. And soft music played from a small orchestra that stood in one corner of the hall.

"Isn't it? One of my friends suggested me this place" Jieun said, her eyes twinkling with delight.

"I like it here," Jeongguk said. Maybe he should bring Taehyung one day. Or maybe he will be able to find a better place. Taehyung seemed to like aesthetic places like that coffee shop they went to dates at. He should look for a pretty place like that.

"I'm glad," Jieun said. "I've always wanted to go out with you like this. We always go with Aria and never alone"

"Is going with Aria that bad?" Jeongguk smiled at his wife.

"No! that's not what I meant. I just thought...since we've never been on a date"

"I get it" Jeongguk offered her a small smile. "But you didn't have to"

"I can't believe it's been sixteen years"

"It's only been ten-"

"I mean since we had Aria. I remember you being head over heels for me. You seriously wanted to date me back then"

"I did," Jeongguk said, flashing back to his stupid teenage days. "I was stupid"

"For liking me?" Jieun sounded surprised.

"No. You were really beautiful. I'd be surprised if I wasn't crushing on you. Every guy was drooling over you" Jeongguk said with a chuckle. "But I was so irresponsible"

"Are you talking about Aria?"

"Yes"

"She's doing just fine. We managed really well, Jeongguk”

“Yes but still…”

“It wasn’t your fault that I got pregnant. We were both responsible for being reckless like that”

“Yeah” Jeongguuk nodded. If he had made a single different choice, like not following Jieun to a room at that party all those years ago, he wouldn’t have ended up here; married to a woman he was never in love with. 

“Do you regret it?"

"Aria? I don't know. I love her. I can't imagine my life without her now" Jeongguk let out a humorless laugh. But so many things would've been different if he had been a little more responsible. Hell, he had been so drunk that he only remembers bits and pieces of his first time.

"We were young and dumb back then"

"And drunk"

"Yeah," Jieun said. "I remember when you started making out with me at the party and I was so surprised"

"I was surprised you let me sleep with you"

"You were hot. You still are. I was so tempted"

Jeongguk laughed. "We were just kids, dammit. We were Aria's age. I'd hate myself if she ends up like us"

"She won't. She isn't as stubborn as I was back then"

"You were stubborn?"

"Yeah. When my parents wanted me to get an abortion, I refused. I didn't want to kill the baby" Jieun said.

Jeongguk remembered being mad at Jieun back then because she didn't take an abortion. But he didn't comment on it because it wasn't his choice to make. It was her body. Her choice.

But he still had to take care of the child with her, even though he never wanted the kid. Her choice had so many consequences on him. 

"I thought our lives would be ruined because of this but we managed pretty well. Honestly, I'm glad you were the father and not anyone else. I feel like if it was anyone else, they'd have me take an abortion. Or just disappear without a trace because he doesn't want to take responsibility, you know?" Jieun said, placing her hand over Jeongguk's.

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. "Everything happens for the best, they say" Maybe not everything.

"You were just fifteen but you still took responsibility. I think that's when I started to love you. That was so brave of you, Jeongguk" She said.

Jeongguk couldn't meet her gaze. The guilt of cheating on her and repeatedly doing it was rising like bile in his throat. He had never felt this guilty about it. He had always suppressed the guilt up until now. But now, all of that was crashing down on him and it was almost suffocating.

He was itching to tell Jieun and get this weight off his shoulders, but doing so would only follow catastrophe. It would not ruin not only his and Jieun's lives but also Aria's. And he couldn't do that to his daughter.

The only way out of this situation seemed like to break things off with Taehyung. But Jeongguk couldn't imagine not seeing Taehyung every day. Some days, he only woke up just to see his face, to talk with him about the most random things, and laugh together. It was so much more than sex for Jeongguk now.

He knew he was being selfish. But there really is no way out of this. Jieun will not get hurt as long as she doesn't know about him and Taehyung. Nor would Aria's life get ruined.

Maybe he should tell her that he doesn't feel the same way about her anymore. Yes! That sounded like a great idea! Jieun will surely understand his position, right? You can't really blame him, he never even had a chance to fall in love with her before they got married. He thought he loved her but now he really doubted that. Maybe...they can get divorced.

Jeongguk wanted that. But that would ruin their daughter's life and that's the last thing he wanted.

He should probably tell her that his feelings had altered. It isn’t fair on her not to know about that; to pretend that everything is fine between them. Especially when Jieun is making so many efforts to strengthen their relationship.

Just when he was about to speak up, the waiter arrived with their food. Thereon, they ate in silence. Jeongguk tried to speak up but at the same time, he found himself tongue-tied.

Small talk between bites and sips of wine led them to the end of their little date. Together, they stepped out of the restaurant after paying the bill, which Jieun was persistent in paying. Jeongguk agreed to buy her coffee on the way.

Jieun had her arm around Jeongguk's and her side glued to his. A smile decorated a doll-like face and seeing her made Jeongguk smile too. They walked down the pavement in search of a coffee shop. The streets weren't busy so they walked slowly, jackets covering their warm bodies from the coldness of the night. It was almost midnight, Jeongguk realized. They could see the main road a few blocks away, where the nightlife looked lively.

A bunch of drunk teenagers passed them by, their chatter and laughter were loud against the silence of the lonely street. Watching them, Jeongguk flashed back to his own teenage days.

He and his friends used to get drunk at one of their friend's houses almost every weekend. He was only fifteen back then. Their gang was the most notorious gang in the whole school. Jeongguk remembered going to parties and having mad fun with them. He was crushing on Jieun those days so unlike his other friends, he didn't hook up with any girls. His friends used to call him gay jokingly because he never talked to any other girls.

All fun ended when he got Jieun pregnant.

He had to move schools because he couldn't face his classmates. Jieun did too. Jeongguk thought his parents were the best because they accepted his and Jieun's baby. After graduating and going to college, and then finishing college and finding jobs, he and Jieun barely had time for themselves. They lived in Jeongguk's parents' house until college was over and then moved into their own house when they found jobs. It wasn't necessarily busy thereafter, since Aria started going to elementary school.

Jeongguk thought that he was happy being with Jieun. They took turns in taking care of the baby but it was Jeongguk who looked after Aria the most as Jieun was busy with her law firm.

Life went on, the same repetitive days, working hard in the daytime and coming home to their kid and looking after her and at the end of the day, Jeongguk was exhausted. He didn't even get to make many friends in college, except Seokjin. It was only after he started working at Beverly he started going out every Friday night with his colleagues.

Everything changed when he met Taehyung.

It was as if his monochromic world turned into one of vibrant color. After what felt like a long time, he was truly happy. Taehyung introduced him to so many new horizons he didn't even know existed. Hell, he thought he was straight before he met Taehyung. And the way he was attracted to Taehyung was like a magnetic pull. As if it's his second nature to be attracted to Taehyung. Every moment they spent together, despite standing on thin ice, was utter bliss. And Jeongguk was drunk on it. He was high on the drug named Taehyung. He was addicted to the way he tasted, to the way he made Jeongguk feel. And he happily let the euphoria ruin him. He was his only escape from his dull, melancholic life.

All he wanted was Taehyung, for how forbidden it was.

He also had to face the consequences of tasting the forbidden fruit.

Jeongguk and Jieun finally halted in front of a coffee shop. After Jeongguk bought them coffee and they sat on the bench right outside the shop, drinking their steaming hot coffee in silence.

Lightning flashed across the sky swamped with dark clouds and thunder roared soon after. There was no wind and no trace of the moon anywhere in the night sky. Except for the vehicles and busy nightlife, the night was still and silent.

"This is nice" Jieun spoke.

Jeongguk turned his head to look at her. Her small hands were cupped around the paper cup containing coffee and steam rose from it. Her eyes twinkled happily as she took a sip from the cup.

"Yeah" Jeongguk whispered. He gulped the uneasiness that had suddenly crept up his whole being. This is the best chance to tell Jieun what he's feeling. He took a deep breath.

"I have something to tell you"

"I have something to tell you"

Both of them spoke at once.

Jeongguk's heart raced inside his ribcage. His hands were cold despite the warmth radiating from his cup of coffee.

Jieun giggled. "You first"

"No you," Jeongguk said.

"Okay," Jieun said, smiling. "I've been wanting to tell you this for a few days. But I couldn't find an appropriate time and place to"

"What is it?" Jeongguk asked. Jieun's eyes twinkled happily before she answered.

"I'm pregnant"

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•°²⁸°•The Family─✵────────

Taehyung couldn't sleep.

It was almost midnight and Jeongguk and Jieun still hadn't come home. Taehyung wondered if the couple had decided to crash at a motel on their way or something. He hoped not. Because the last time he checked, Jeongguk couldn't get it up for Jieun.

Even though Taehyung had no need to worry about anything, he'd been restless the moment Jeongguk and Jieun had left for their little date. He had been in his room the whole time, trying to study after he had had dinner on his own. But he'd been distracted the whole time.

It wasn't like anyone disturbed him. Fortunately and surprisingly, Aria hadn't spoken a word with Taehyung the whole time. She had rushed to her bedroom wordlessly the moment her parents left. Taehyung was relieved.

But now, after deciding to sleep because he couldn't get any work done and after changing into his comfortable pajamas, he couldn't sleep. He had stayed awake in his bed for what felt like hours but to no avail. He wasn't sleepy at all.

So he decided to go to the living room and watch TV. A man talked about some species of spider that lived in Australia and Taehyung lazily watched it. Maybe he'll be so bored that he'll fall asleep.

The man was talking about how venomous the spider was when Taehyung heard floorboards creaking. He turned his head to look back only to see Aria walk down the stairs. Taehyung paid her no attention and diverted his attention back to the TV.

He heard her walk to the kitchen, footsteps fading as she walked in the other direction from Taehyung. He heard rumbling in the kitchen and then footsteps closing upon him.

Aria walked around the sofa and sat next to Taehyung. She placed the glass of water that was in her hand on the coffee table in front of them. Taehyung's anxiety started to grow for he didn't know what Aria would do at any given moment. But they silently watched the documentary that played on the TV.

Maybe Aria is just here because she couldn't sleep either. But Taehyung wasn't comfortable staying with Aria in the same room especially when they were alone. Maybe it's best to get up and go to his room, lock himself up and try to sleep. Yes. That seemed like a great idea.

Taehyung took one last look at the TV screen where some Professor of some university talked about spiders and was about to get up when he saw movement beside him. The next thing he knew, Aria was seated right beside him, their legs touching, and she was holding his wrist.

Taehyung, still seated on the sofa, eyes wide with confusion, stared at Aria.

"Taehyung" She spoke in a small voice.

"Y-Yeah?"

"My parents won't be home anytime soon"

"They'll be here pretty soon. It's almost midnight" Taehyung said quickly.

"I don't think they will," Aria said and shifted closer to Taehyung, now their arms touching.

"I'm tired. I need to sleep now"

"Taehyung, I want you"

Taehyung gulped. "I...I have a boyfriend"

"I don't care," Aria said and the next thing Taehyung knew, Aria was straddling him, her thighs on either side of Taehyung's legs.

Taehyung gasped.

It was only then he noticed what she was wearing. A silk nightdress that hung off her shoulders from thin straps. It fell down over her chest, revealing her firm breasts. The short dress had ridden up to reveal her milky thighs that now hugged Taehyung's waist and legs. He couldn't help himself as he took in Aria's condition, eyes trailing down from her face and downwards. But he quickly snapped out of it before they lingered anywhere and stared at her eyes which had darkened with lust.

Taehyung gulped audibly, scrunching his eyes touch. Her state, the way she looked at him, and the condition of her, and how her body looked, was simply an observation of Taehyung. However, looking at her like that alone felt illegal. He felt disgusted. This is Jeongguk’s daughter. He felt nothing towards her. Nothing but dislike. 

And this whole situation was so, so wrong. 

"Aria I can't-"

"I will tell my mother" she cut him off. "I will tell her that you are a whore and that you tried to have sex with me. She's a lawyer, you know"

"So you know that this could ruin my life. You know that this is something that we mustn't do any you're still after me" Taehyung said, aghast. "And you know damn well that I don't like you at all. I never did. How many times do I have to tell you? Why do you always have to be so desperate?"

"If you don't do this..." Aria ground her ass on top of Taehyung's crotch. "...you'll be kicked out"

"You're literally threatening me!"

"Yes"

"This is ridiculous!" Taehyung tried to push her away but the moment his hands touched her waist, in the intention to push her away, she gasped.

Taehyung watched her with wide eyes. Aria only smirked.

"You touched me," She said. Taehyung jerked his hands away from her waist, horrified. But Aria only guided them back in place. Taehyung tried to free himself from her grip, but he kept holding onto him tight. And as much as Taehyung wanted to push her away, he didn’t want to touch her in any way or form. It simply disgusted her and from what she just said after he did touch her, he was scared. 

"All it takes is one word from me and you'll be in jail," Aria said. “Your whole life would be ruined”

"But-"

"I don't care!" Aria said. She reached over and grabbed Taehyung's crotch. Taehyung gasped.

"It'll only take a minute," Aria said.

“Aria!” Taehyung shouted. Maybe he could talk his way out of this. Maybe she will stop and if she does stop by himself, she wouldn’t tell Jieun about him. “Please. This is wrong. You’re sixteen and I’m twenty and-”

“I’m old enough”

“I don’t want to do this!” Taehyung shouted. His heart was hammering in his chest and he felt the need to cry. “Why do you have to be desperate?!”

“Because I want you, Taehyung. I want to have sex with you”

“But-”

She started grinding on Taehyung's dick. Taehyung wanted to push her away and run out of the house. He wished Jeongguk would come but no, he just lay there lifelessly, horrified as Aria pushed her ass on top of his dick.

"Aria stop" He pleaded. He felt fucking stupid for being unable to stop a sixteen-year-old from harassing him. But at the same time, he was too scared of the consequences of his actions.

She didn't stop "Ugh why aren't you hard yet?"

"Because I'm fucking gay" Taehyung spat. “And I don’t want to do this”

"No you aren't gay. Do you think I'm dumb?"

"You are dumb. If you weren't you wouldn't be doing this. You're nothing like your father"

Aria scoffed. "Like you'd know so much my father"

It was Taehyung's turn to scoff. But he didn't. Instead, his trial of thoughts was transformed from disgust to thoughts of Jeongguk. Jeongguk promised to visit Taehyung's room after the date. Taehyung swore he'd punish Jeongguk so hard for putting him in this situation. As Taehyung tried to distract himself from Aria's grinding, only thoughts of the girl's father crossed his mind. The mere thought of what he was going to do with Jeongguk when he comes back made his dick twitch.

Shit

Taehyung was hard in a matter of a few seconds. 

"There you are," Aria said sultrily. "So much for being gay. Can't resist me, huh?"

“Oh fuck off" Taehyung groaned in frustration. But Aria only sped up her pace. She held Taehyung's shoulders as she moved her hips. Taehyung, on the other hand, had his hands fisted against his sides. His eyes were scrunched shut. He felt sick in the stomach and he wished that this would stop soon. Hoped that Aria would fucking come to her senses or Jeongguk would return so he could catch her in the act. 

Aria kept adding pressure to his already hard dick and Taehyung's eyes widened as he almost moaned at the feeling. He shouldn't...he mustn't... he's not attracted to Aria in any way. Why must his dick have its own brain?

Taehyung started to think about all the things that turned him off. Aria! Aria is a turn-off but she was right on top of him! Grinding on his dick! Not helping! Taehyung closed his eyes and started to think.

There was pressure on his dick.

Grandma boobs! Yes! Grandmas! And...those sugar daddies Taehyung had...Bogum...Jeongguk...Jeongguk?!...fuck...no, no, no....not Jeongguk! Jeongguk is too hot and sexy and NOT a turn-off...definitely not...fuck...Jeongguk...

" Jeongguk! "

Everything stilled.

Fuck . Did Taehyung say that aloud? His eyes snapped open only to see a horrified Aria looking back at him.

"w-what did you just say?" She asked, eyes wide in horror.

"N-nothing!" Fuck

"Did you just moan my dad's name?" Aria said, getting off of Taehyung's lap and standing up in front of him.

"N-No!" Taehyung laughed humorlessly. "What do you mean? Don't be ridiculous!" His whole body had gone cold.

Aria shook her head violently. "I'm sure I heard you say 'Jeongguk'"

"No I didn't!"

"Yes you did," Aria said. "T-tell me what your deal with my father is or I'm going to tell mom about this" Aria's voice was shaky.

Taehyung gulped. This can't be happening. Jeongguk's well-kept secret cannot be out like this...from a simple mistake that Taehyung made!

"I...I just um..." Taehyung struggled for words. "It's just...your dad is hot. I kind of have a crush on him!" Taehyung said quickly.

Aria just stared, looking disgusted.

"That's disgusting," She said at last. "You're disgusting"

"P-Please don't tell him. He's my professor and besides I have a boyfriend...a-and it's going to go away real quick...don't worry" Taehyung said.

"What the fuck" Aria cursed out. "You came here to home wreck?"

Taehyung's eyes widened. "N-No! The fuck? Your father offered me a place to stay over for the kindness of his heart. And I'll be forever thankful for that. He's married. I know where I stand, Aria. Stop being ridiculous" Taehyung silently thanked his acting skills.

"If I knew about this...I'd never even have..." Aria shook her head in disbelief. Then she stormed out of the living room and ran up the stairs. The slamming of a door soon followed.

Taehyung let out an exasperated sigh. That was close . He thought. At least Aria won't bother him anymore. He felt disgusted with himself and also about what happened. However, that feeling was overtaken by a stronger emotion: fear.

Taehyung ran a hand through his hair in frustration. Hopefully, he didn't fuck up big time.


"I'm pregnant"

Jeongguk just stared. Everything around him faded away into a dull buzz as his mind tried to process the meaning of the words he had just heard. He watched Jieun, her doll face lightened up and thin lips stretched into a wide grin, chocolate eyes crinkling at the ends. It strangely reminded him of Taehyung's eyes. She looked so happy. As if she'd won the lottery, or gotten a raise of her pay.

Jeongguk's face portrayed absolute shock.

"W-What?" Jeongguk asked, voice barely audible.

Jieun giggled. "I'm pregnant! We're having a baby!"

He'd heard it twice now. He couldn't have heard wrong. Jieun is pregnant?

"B-but we...we didn't..." Jeongguk searched his mind for any incident that could've caused this but the last time they had sex was...

"We did, a few weeks ago, Gguk," Jieun said.

"B-but we used a condom!"

"Well, yes but I'm pregnant!" Jieun said, putting her hands up in the air and shrugging. "I started feeling different after a few days but I ignored it. It didn't go away so last week I took a pregnancy test...because I remembered feeling this way last time too..." She mumbled the last few words.

"That can't be!" Jeongguk said, running his hands through his hair in exasperation.

"I know but-"

"Is it even mine?!"

Jeongguk regretted it the moment the words came out of his mouth.

Jieun sat up from the bench. "What do you mean is it yours?! Of course, it's yours, Jeongguk. Who else's will it be? Are you implying I cheated on you?!" She shouted.

Jeongguk was glad that the street was empty. "I'm not saying that," Jeongguk said, standing up. Guilt rose like bile in his throat.

"I'm sorry," Jeongguk said. "I wasn't expecting to have another kid"

Jieun huffed in anger. "What's wrong with another kid anyway? We're still in our thirties and we're are totally capable of raising another child. Besides Aria is all grown up now and it'd be great if she could have a sibling"

Jeongguk stared at the ground. "But I don't want any more kids! It was hard enough raising one! And just like Aria, this one's a mistake too!"

Jieun gasped. "How dare you!" She sounded angry. "Children aren't mistakes! Aria is our daughter! Not a mistake!"

"I know. That's not what I meant...It's...it's just...it would've been better if a child was planned. You can’t just…you can’t just take a decision like this on your own. I..because I’m in involved too. I'm sorry-"

Jieun let out a humorless laugh. "I'm pregnant now and there's nothing you can do about it, Jeongguk. It's your child"

But Taehyung...

He was going to suggest divorce, for fuck's sake. He wanted to be with Taehyung. His life was too fucked up and Jieun didn't deserve to be cheated on like that. He just wanted to put an end to it, whatever the cost.

This was supposed to be the end. But why was something else starting?

"Let's do another test" Jeongguk said finally.

Jieun sighed. "Okay. But I already did two. I don't think it's going to come out any different"

What should he do now?

Jieun is pregnant. She is having his child. They're going to have another child. Another responsibility. Another reason to stay. Another reason to hold on. Another reason to not let go of his family. Another reason to not run after temporary pleasures.

Another reason to let go-

"I'm sorry," Jieun said. "I should've been careful. I didn't know you hated having another kid"

"It's not your fault Jieun," Jeongguk said, taking her hands in his.

"You know what they say," She said, looking up at Jeongguk. "That everything happens for good? I think this is the best thing that could've happened to us at this moment"

Jeongguk didn't think so. He didn't believe that saying anymore. This is the worst thing that could've happened to him. It was as if the universe was telling him to choose his family over Taehyung.

Jieun wrapped her arms around Jeongguk. It took Jeongguk by surprise. Publicly, Jeongguk and Jieun hardly ever showed physical intimacy. Jieun had this professional aura whenever she was out of the house. But not at that moment.

Jeongguk hugged her back, one hand resting in the small of her back and the other in the middle of her back. It was almost alien. The two hardly had any kind of physical intimacy throughout the time they were together...other than occasions in bed and other small incidents that occurred rarely.

"We'll manage this child. We have time and we're still young. We can raise this kid by ourselves. It was our parents who basically took care of Aria in her childhood. This time, we can do it" she said.

"You're right," Jeongguk said. Maybe she was.

Maybe this kid was what they needed. What Jeongguk needed. A rude awakening to know where his priorities should lie.

"I love you" Jieun whispered after a while.

Jeongguk gulped thickly. He didn't love Jieun. He loved...

Who did he love? No one?

Taehyung?

Taehyung was just a friend? A fuck buddy? Jeongguk didn't know what to call him. But he didn't love Taehyung...no.

But Jeongguk didn't love Jieun. He doesn't think he ever did.

Maybe it's time for him to learn to. Jeongguk thought.

"I love you too" Jeongguk whispered. The lie left a bitter taste in his tongue.

When they returned home that night, almost at two in the morning, he didn't visit Taehyung's room like he promised to do. He didn't even look sideways at his room and went straight to his own room, feeling hollow and dead. Then he hugged his pregnant wife until they both fell asleep.

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•°²⁹°•Emotions ─✵────────

Taehyung never liked coffee.

He never got what the hype was about either. Why drink something so bitter? It's bitter even with sugar. He admitted the smell of coffee was quite alright. But he never got why people keep saying the aroma calmed their senses and made them feel alive. Like some sort of boost. But Taehyung felt nothing. He loved hot chocolate more. The aroma of a steaming hot chocolate was so much energizing than coffee. But Jeongguk loved coffee. He made himself coffee every morning. He loved beer too. But Taehyung hated the bitter liquid. Vodka was so much better. Jeongguk didn't necessarily like vodka. He's a whiskey kind of guy.

And Jeongguk was ignoring Taehyung.

The younger boy dressed in an oversized sweater, palms securely wrapped around his mug of steaming hot chocolate, which Jieun had made for him, sat at the kitchen table. He watched Jeongguk who was helping Jieun make pancakes.

For some reason, he looked happy.

But he was ignoring Taehyung. It's obvious as Jimmy Fallon's fake laughter. Taehyung didn't have a clue why. Had he done something wrong? Had he said something wrong?

At the edge of Taehyung's consciousness, Jeongguk's little date with his wife was always there. It made him anxious because Jeongguk's strange behaviors had started after they came back from the date, not two days ago. It made him feel strangely insecure.

He watched Jeongguk now, who poured maple syrup over a plate of pancakes. He turned and walked over to the small table, where Taehyung sat. He set the plate in front of Taehyung and their gazes locked for a split second. Taehyung's heart leaped in his chest as Jeongguk's huge Bambi eyes watched his before diverting them back to Jieun.

Taehyung sighed, heart dropping and something heavy weighted down his chest. He looked at his plate with three pancakes, whip cream on the side, and maple syrup all over the pancakes. Jeongguk knew the way he liked it. He knew the perfect amount of maple syrup Taehyung liked. He would prepare his plate of pancakes or waffles every time they had them for breakfast. And even that day, he did. Just the way Taehyung liked it.

He picked at his pancakes, appetite suddenly gone. Aria came downstairs and took her plate of pancakes, sitting down across from Taehyung to eat. She shot Taehyung a disgusted look. Taehyung wanted to slap her. She almost raped him not two days ago. He didn't know what she'd grow up into. He pitied Jeongguk and Jieun.

"I'm going to go now," Aria said as she stuffed her mouth with pancakes.

"Wait," Jieun said. "I'm staying home today. I need to go to the grocery store so I'll give you a lift"

"Hurry up mom" Aria whined.

Jieun went upstairs, presumably to get dressed, leaving Taehyung, Jeongguk, and Aria alone in the kitchen. Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, who wore a loose T-shirt and sweatpants as he poured maple syrup over his pancakes. Taehyung watched him as he took his plate and came over to sit next to Aria. He started eating wordlessly as he scrolled through his phone.

Taehyung let out a sigh and was about to divert his attention to his own plate when he caught Aria staring at him, face scrunched in disgust. Taehyung shot her a look and pointed his middle finger at her before starting to eat his breakfast.

Jieun and Aria left when Jieun came downstairs, after bidding goodbye to Jeongguk and Taehyung. Taehyung watched them leave and listened to the car being driven off the driveway as he picked on his pancakes. The moment they left, Taehyung diverted his gaze to Jeongguk. The older man seemed to not mind that he was not alone with Taehyung. On any other occasion, Taehyung thought, he'd jump up at the chance and spend some time with Taehyung.

And Taehyung missed that.

He felt his chest grow heavier by every passing minute as he stared at Jeongguk who was busy scrolling through his phone. After a few minutes of suffocating silence, Taehyung gathered up his courage and finally decided to speak up.

"Jeongguk?"

"Hmm?" he continued to scroll through his phone paying no mind to Taehyung.

"Why are you ignoring me?"

Silence.

"I'm not"

"You are," Taehyung said.

Silence followed. Jeongguk continued to pay attention to his phone screen. A few seconds stretched long and the phone landed on the tabletop with a loud clatter, making Taehyung jump. Jeongguk stood up with his plate in his hand. Taehyung watched as he went to the kitchen sink and placed the plate in it.

Taehyung stood up and walked towards him. "Why are you ignoring me?" He asked again.

Jeongguk was facing away from him. He didn't answer Taehyung's question. Instead, he stayed silent.

"Why are you-"Taehyung started to ask the same question again, voice wavering and he felt like crying, something he hardly ever did.

Jeongguk turned. "I'm not ignoring you"

"Yes, you are," Taehyung said. He hoped to whatever God above that his voice won't break and break down there. "You've been ignoring me for the last two days!"

Jeongguk stayed silent.

Taehyung continued, unable to keep inside the hurt and frustration he was feeling. "I can't take this anymore. You have a wife and a kid and I get it. I get you to feel pressured but I'm also human. I'm not some toy you can use when you want and keep aside when you don't want me. I have feelings too. I told you when we started this I can't have you treating me like shit. If you want to maintain your so-called family, then just tell me. You had a perfect life before me. Go back to it"

Jeongguk stared at the ground and Taehyung continued to speak, the emotions he'd been holding in for the past few days unleashing. "You can't have both me and your family and I hate it when you treat me like I'm nothing and decide to be the perfect father figure and husband out of nowhere. One moment you make me feel loved and the next moment you act like I don't exist"

"If you don't want me anymore, tell me. I'll fuck off. I'll leave and keep this a secret and you can live your happily ever after with your wife and kid. You should just tell me and stop treating me like trash-"

Sniffle

Taehyung paused upon hearing it. He was confused for a second until he diverted his gaze towards Jeongguk.

Jeongguk was crying.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered, taking a step towards him.

"Taehyung," He said, wiping his tears with the back of his hand.

Taehyung was caught off guard. He never thought he'd ever see Jeongguk cry. He was afraid that he himself would cry but oh how the tables have turned. Taehyung looked at Jeongguk who had his head held low. Taehyung's heart hurt from worry and seeing Jeongguk cry, he wanted to cry too. With tear-filled eyes, Taehyung held Jeongguk's face, raising his face to meet the younger's gaze.

"W-what's wrong?" Taehyung asked, his own voice breaking. "Did I say something wrong? I'm sorry if I did...I just..."

Jeongguk shook his head no. Taehyung wiped away Jeongguk's tears with the pad of his thumb, the flesh soft under his finger. A scarlet blush had risen in the apples of his cheeks and it hurt so much to see Jeongguk cry.

"I didn't mean to hurt you I swear" Taehyung rambled on. "It's just I was so frustrated and...and please stop crying...I can't see you cry like this. It hurts to see you like this...I'm sorry if I said something wr-"

"Jieun is pregnant"

Jeongguk looked at Taehyung, eyes big and twinkling with tears. Taehyung felt his hands drop from either side of Jeongguk's face and he leaned against the kitchen counter.

"What?" Taehyung whispered. He must've heard wrong, right? He did not just hear...

"It's over, Tae" Jeongguk said, voice wavering with unleashed emotions. "I don't know what to do anymore" more tears started streaming down Jeongguk's cheeks.

Taehyung's mind was an absolute blank space. He still tried to process the information. Jieun is pregnant. Jeongguk is having another child. Another responsibility. Another reason why Taehyung can't be with Jeongguk. Another reason why Taehyung should leave.

Every day the universe seemed to prove why Taehyung and Jeongguk can't continue this. This seemed to be her best shot.

"Oh"

"I'm sorry" Jeongguk took Taehyung's hands in his. "I didn't want any of this to happen. I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you. I was just ignoring you because...because I didn't know what else I should do"

"I get it," Taehyung said. "I understand" Taehyung didn't. He didn't know what was happening.

"Jieun only told me this at the date. I think it's a couple of weeks ago. Probably from that one time I slept with Jieun a couple of weeks ago. You know I didn't want a kid...I'm sorry Taehyung"

"Why are you apologizing?" Taehyung asked, forcing a smile. It faltered quickly as his heart was heavy with emotions. "You'll make a great father..."

"Taehyung..."

Taehyung shook his hands from Jeongguk's grasp. "You should focus on the new kid"

"Taehyung no...you know I can't let you go"

Taehyung glared at Jeongguk. Tears were almost streaming down his face and a sob threatened to escape him. "You're being selfish. Why are you being selfish? You’re being selfish towards not only your family but also me. I can’t just stay with you’re going to treat me like I don’t exist just because something happened. I…I can’t handle that, Jeongguk. So just stay with your family and let me go. Don’t be selfish. It's your only chance to do what's right"

“I don’t want to let you go” Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung sighed. His throat kept closing up, a sob threatening to leave. He didn’t want to leave Jeongguk. But they were nothing. They had nothing between them. It should be easy for them to break things off. 

“You should do the right thing”

Jeongguk stayed silent after that. "I was thinking about that too," He said after a while, doe-eyed gaze meeting Taehyung's. "There's no other option"

Taehyung's heart dropped upon hearing those words. He didn't know what he even wished to hear. Did he expect Jeongguk to say no and hang on to Taehyung? Even after what Taehyung had just told him about not wanting to be treated like that? After the whole speech about being selfish and doing what’s right? Why did it hurt to see the smoke from the fire they themselves built?

Taehyung didn’t want Jeongguk to let him go like this. But... "Yeah"

"This is my last chance to do what's right. My only chance to make things right. To be a better father. We'll stop doing things and end this whatever we had and I can go back to my life. You're right"

Taehyung watched as Jeongguk fumbled with his fingers. A stray tear trailed down his cheek slowly.

"Yeah," Taehyung said, gathering up his courage and composing himself. "It's not like we were in some kind of relationship. We don't mean anything to each other" it hurt to even say it.

At those words, Jeongguk's gaze flicked over to meet Taehyung's before lowering again. "I had the best time with you though"

"Me too" Taehyung couldn't just imagine a day without Jeongguk in it. He couldn't...how could he? How did he get so attached to the older man? It's only been a couple of months.

Jeongguk nodded. "Let's end things form hereafter"

Taehyung nodded his head. "I have plans with Jimin today" He didn't. That was a lie. But Taehyung needed to get out of this suffocating situation before he fell apart right then and there. He wouldn't be able to control himself much longer.

"Sure," Jeongguk said. His steady voice sounded forced.

Taehyung ran to his room, took his phone and wallet, and ran out of Jeongguk's house.


Taehyung was sobbing.

He couldn't be grateful enough for the strong arms that had wrapped around his body as he cried his living soul out. Jimin uttered comforting phrases to him but they did only so much to comfort the sobbing youngster on Jimin's dorm room bed.

Jeongguk's words kept playing in his mind over and over again like a broken record. It never shut up. And it hurt. It hurt so much. Taehyung didn't know why it hurt so much. The fact that everything between him and Jeongguk ended and would never have anything intimate between themselves broke Taehyung.

It was his first time feeling such pain. He'd never been in any kind of relationship. What he had with Jeongguk wasn't a relationship either. They just fucked...and sometimes cuddled...went on small dates...talked for hours...but it wasn't like Taehyung was in love with Jeongguk.

But then why did it hurt so much?

Jeongguk was only doing what he should've done long ago. Taehyung had no right to disagree. He was just in there for the sex. Nothing else. Taehyung could find someone better. He was sure. Someone around his age, for sure.

But they still won't be Jeongguk.

Taehyung hiccuped and Jimin's embrace tightened around him.

"Taehyung-ah" Jimin said in a broken way. "Come on now. He's not worth it. He's a selfish jerk who only thinks about himself"

Taehyung wanted to say that Jimin was wrong. But maybe he wasn't. He knew it deep down. No mater how loved he felt when he was with Jeongguk, the older man just proved to him how easy for him to let Taehyung go. And to go on about his life like Taehyung never existed when the slightest inconvenience happened to him. 

Taehyung was never part of Jeongguk's equation. He was just an external factor that threatened the balance of his equation. Now, he's just terminating that threat. And balance will be reestablished in his equation.

Whatever the case, Jeongguk's family always came first. Even when he cheated, he wanted to keep himself in the family, in his role for the sake of his daughter.

He was selfish, he focused on doing what's best for himself when it came to Taehyung. He may have cared for Taehyung a lot. But he was selfish. If he wasn't, he would not have treated Taehyung like nothing at times when he felt like he was doing something wrong and he wouldn't have cheated on his wife in the first place.

Jeongguk's selfishness wasn't necessarily wrong. But it hurt Taehyung at times. Jeongguk hadn't acted that way since the first month they started their little involvement. In fact, Jeongguk's been caring a lot for Taehyung.

But as minute by minute passed, the only thing Taehyung realized was that Jeongguk was selfish. That Taehyung's role was only to tend to his pleasures and nothing else. When shit starts to go sideways, he can always throw Taehyung away like he didn't exist in the first place. He was always the disposable part of his machine.

He was the factor in his life that could easily be eliminated. That he could just throw away when he feels like he doesn't need anymore. So temporary. What was Taehyung even thinking? That they would be anything more than fuck buddies? 

But then again, that's what they were. They may not have had a label, but the relationship just existed in order to please each other. It was one of no feelings, no attachments. Therefore, Jeongguk’s actions weren't actually unfair.

Even upon knowing this the whole time, why did it hurt Taehyung so much?

He can't process the fact that he won't be able to see Jeongguk the same way again. To look forward to sex with him and cuddling afterwards. To make out in his bedroom or secretly, trying their best to not get caught. He can't imagine not going on small dates with Jeongguk or cuddling in the couch when they were home alone and watching boring documentaries. Or making out on the couch for hours just because they enjoyed it. Or just silently sitting on the porch or in Taehyung's bed, doing absolutely nothing but enjoying each other's presence in comfort.

He couldn't imagine any of it. His whole day consisted of Jeongguk. He couldn't get rid of that lifestyle that easily.

He wondered if Jeongguk felt the same.

"I think I know the best cure for your heartbreak" Jimin said. Taehyung had been crying for hours now. Jimin had held him all this time.

Taehyung looked up at his best friend before snuggling close to him again. "What is it?" He murmured.

"There's a party tomorrow. We should go"

Taehyung whined. "Don't want to"

"Some booze is what you need, Tae" Jimin said. "You can stay here for the night, you know. We'll invite the others and get drunk"

Taehyung hummed. Drinking it all away sounded like a plan. Besides, he was sure Hoseok would make him laugh his ass off. He always manages to do that.

"Fine"

"Awesome! I'll text the others" Jimin said and took his phone. Meanwhile, Taehyung cuddled Jimin's pillow, still feeling like shit.

Taehyung sniffled. After crying for hours, there seem to be no more tears to cry. So he just laid there, heart still heavy with unknown emotions and body heavy with exhaust. In no time Taehyung was falling asleep. Jimin came to cuddle his best friend and in his embrace, Taehyung fell into a dreamless slumber.

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•°³⁰°•For You ─✵────────

Taehyung heard the doorbell ring inside the house the moment he pressed it. Standing in front of the front door of the Jeon household, dressed in Jimin's sweater and pants that were a bit too tight, he felt like he didn't belong there, despite having sat and spent time on the very stairs leading to the front door of Jeongguk's house many times.

He could hear footsteps approaching him, loud against the wooden floor inside. His heart raced in his chest and he hoped that it wasn't Jeongguk who's going to open the door.

It wasn't.

"Taehyung!" Jieun almost shouted. "Where were you last night?! I was worried!" She took his hand and literally dragged him inside the house.

"I...um...kind of stayed at my friend's last night. I'm sorry for not informing you about it" Taehyung said in a small voice.

"Jeongguk was worried too. You didn't even pick up your phone!"

"I might not have heard it, Mrs. Jeon. We were out. I'm sorry" It was a lie. The only thing Taehyung did after going to Jimin's was cry and sleep. That night, he realized pizza, ice cream and booze weren't a good combination at all.

"As long as you're okay" She smiled. "Did you have breakfast?"

"Yes ma'am," Taehyung said. "I'm going to stay at my friend's for a few days, actually"

"Oh," Jieun said. "Is everything alright? Did something happen? You know you can stay here as long as you want..."

"Yes I know" Taehyung smiled at her. "But I've stayed here for almost three months and I think I can find an affordable place because I got some money from my part-time job"

"You can just stay here, Taehyung. None of us would mind. You're a lovely boy"

Taehyung smiled softly. "Thank you, ma'am. But-"

"Taehyung!?" A voice said, making both Taehyung and Jieun look to their side. Jeongguk stood on the staircase, eyes wide with concern. He wore a tank top and sweats and his hair was unruly as if he had just woken up.

He looked so worried that Taehyung's heart skipped a beat. His heart rate only sped up when he advanced towards Taehyung.

"Where the fuck were you last night?" Jeongguk bellowed, pulling Taehyung towards himself from his arm. Taehyung stumbled forward. Jeongguk was watching him with so much intensity that Taehyung wanted to melt.

"Jeongguk! Don't shout at the boy! He's a college kid. He was probably out partying!" Jieun said.

"He should've told me," Jeongguk said.

"Jeongguk, you're not his dad. He's past the age where elders should tell him what and what not to do. Let him be" Jieun said.

Jeongguk looked at Jieun. "Weren't you in a hurry to go to your office?" there was a hint of anger in his voice.

"Oh! I almost forgot why I came downstairs! Taehyung I'll get going. I have work today and I'm already late" She said, checking her watch. "If you need something, tell Jeongguk"

"Thank you," Taehyung said and watched her walk out of the house.

It was then he realized that Jeongguk was still holding his arm. He jerked away from him and walked past him.

"I asked you where you were last night," Jeongguk asked, following Taehyung.

The younger entered his bedroom. The place was just as he had left it. The sheets were unruly and his books were scattered all over his table.

"Out"

"Out? Out where? Why didn't you tell me?" Jeongguk said.

"I don't know. Why didn't you tell your wife that you have fucked me?" Taehyung shot back as he put some of his books and clothes in his backpack. The only reason he wanted to come here was to get some of his clothes to wear for that party.

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. "Taehyung..."

"Why do you even care? We ended things. Go back to your shit and be the father you always wanted to be"

"I'm sorry, okay?" Jeongguk said. "I just missed you"

Taehyung's actions halted upon hearing Jeongguk's words. He had willed himself not to cry again. He didn't know why he had been crying in the first place. He didn't know why it pained him so much that he and Jeongguk were ending things. But now he could feel the pain coming back.

"It's only been a day and I fucking missed you, Tae," Jeongguk said, sounding defeated. "All I could think about is how I want to have you close to me but I just...can't do that anymore"

“Just control yourself, Jeongguk,” Taehyung said. “Think about why you wanted to end things in the first place”

“It’s not only about the sex”

Taehyung’s heart skipped a beat at that. It hadn’t been just the sex for Taehyung either. However, he didn’t know how to reply. Silence stretched between them. "What do you want me to do?" Taehyung whispered at last.

"I don't know"

"I think the best thing I can do for you is, leave you be," Taehyung said. "So you can focus on your pregnant wife and your daughter. I will get out of your life"

"Taehyung..."

"That's the least I can do for you"

"I don't want you out of my life," Jeongguk said in a small voice.

Taehyung sighed and turned around to meet Jeongguk's gaze. "You're so selfish, you know that?"

"What?" the older man whispered. He looked so young at that moment, with his honey skin ignited with morning light sweeping through the window and his eyes gleaming in the soft rays of the sun. He looked enchanting. So young.

So lonely.

"You are trying to keep me and your family in balance but that's impossible, Jeongguk. Not to mention it's wrong. This is your chance to be a real father. And...and raise the kid properly" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk let out a humorless laugh, making Taehyung's eyes widen. "I'm...I'm behaving like a kid aren't I? I'm your teacher, for fuck's sake. And yet, I'm the impulsive one here. I'm the one who's scared of taking responsibilities..." another chuckle.

Taehyung watched him. Jeongguks head was hung low, looking dreadful. Taehyung took a step towards him and wrapped his arms around the older man. Jeongguk instantly responded. He placed his head on Taehyung's shoulder and squeezed him tight.

"It's not your fault," Taehyung said softly after a while. "You spent your youth raising a child. No one can blame you, really. It's only fair you cherish this feeling, having not felt it years back"

"I should get my shit together and take these responsibilities," Jeongguk said.

"Yeah," Taehyung said. "Besides, it's not like we were dating. I'll be your history in a few weeks. We'll just...find our ways in life again" Taehyung felt himself choking up at the last words.

"Yeah" Jeongguk whispered. "I'm sorry for treating you like you didn't matter to me"

Taehyung shrugged, having had broken the embrace. He went back to packing his stuff. He could feel Jeongguk's eyes caving into his back. But he continued to pack anyways.

When he was done, he turned around. Jeongguk stood there, hands crossed.

Taehyung watched him for a couple of seconds. He looked extremely handsome. Smoking hot, one could say. His long hair that reached the nape of his neck was a mass of messy curls. Some locks fell over his eyes. His biceps were popping out from the way he had his hands crossed.

Taehyung bit his lip, feeling turned on.

"But I still want you" The words were out of Taehyung's mouth in an instant.

Jeongguk looked at him with a remorseful look in his eyes. "You know I can't..." he whispered.

The Jeongguk from a few days back would have had Taehyung bend over the table then and there and fucked him. Taehyung was surprised to hear such a thing from Jeongguk. But he guessed Jeongguk had been trying to make up his mind about letting Taehyung go from the moment Jieun had told him about the pregnancy.

Taehyung watched him.

“I can’t be acting like a child, no matter how much I want to. I don’t want to be selfish” Jeongguk muttered.

Taehyung sighed. He didn’t know any way to solve Jeongguk’s problems. It was Jeongguk’s business, not his. He wasn’t even a part of Jeongguk’s life. 

"So you won't fuck me again?" Taehyung knew he sounded desperate. The words that came out of his mouth now didn't match up with the words he uttered to Jeongguk earlier about letting him go at all.

Jeongguk's response took time. It was a whisper. "I can't"

Taehyung smiled. He nodded at Jeongguk. "Good. Keep it that way. Forget about me. I'll take away my other stuff when I find a new place"

"You're moving out?" Jeongguk sounded surprised. "You know you don't have to. You can stay here"

"We both know how that'll end up"

Jeongguk sighed. "Just tell me if you need help"

Taehyung nodded and walked out of his room. Jeongguk followed him. Taehyung stopped at the front door.

"Thank you, for everything," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk looked at him with big eyes, swirling with emotions unshed. "Thank you "

Taehyung smiled. He opened the front door and was about to go out when-

"Tae"

The younger turned around to see Jeongguk standing behind him. He was confused for a second until Jeongguk reached and cupped his face. The next moment, his lips were on Taehyung's.

Taehyung's eyes widened for a second before he closed his eyes. Jeongguk slid his tongue over Taehyung's bottom lip and as if out of habit, Taehyung opened his mouth. Jeongguk slid his tongue inside.

Taehyung dropped his bag out of surprise and let himself be kissed, cherishing the feeling of Jeongguk's lips on his.

Jeongguk tasted like mint. Like toothpaste. But with a hint of that musk that always lingered over Jeongguk. Taehyung's senses tingled with Jeongguk's smell: vanilla. He gasped into the kiss when Jeongguk's hands cupped his waist, drawing him closer and Taehyung could only let himself be kissed while butterflies erupted in his stomach.

It was utter bliss, to be kissed by Jeongguk again. And he let him. He let himself have this last kiss. Jeongguk kissed so passionately as if he hadn't kissed Taehyung in months, even though it's only been a few days.

He was backed off into a wall, right next to the front door and Jeongguk pressed himself against Taehyung. The younger boy's hands were threaded amidst the elder's messy raven curls.

They finally pulled away, gasping for breath.

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk's eyes. They were wide and teary, liquid emotions almost falling off. Before he could say a single word, Taehyung picked up his backpack and stormed out the front door.


The music at the party was so loud that it made Taehyung's skin tingle and his lungs feel like mush. The lights changed color, illuminating the huge crowd in shades of blue, red, green, and purple. The bass thumped in time with his heartbeat as they were one, filling his head to toe with the music. Taehyung liked this song.

Over the roar of music, he could hear his friends' laughter. All of them holding drinks while they moved to the beat. Taehyung laughed alongside them, feeling overwhelmed with the booze. The song that was playing got louder, pulling him in and wouldn't let go. Taehyung had no choice but to join the crowd, jumping in a huddled group like Tic-Tacs being shaken in a box.

Everything around him seemed distant. As if he was there but not really there. Maybe it's the weed. Maybe the alcohol. Maybe the pain in his chest that just wouldn't go away.

He had pushed away a couple of girls and boys who wanted to dance with him. He wasn't in the mood. Instead, he moved to the beat like a lunatic. The music coursed through his veins, adrenaline high inside him. His grin didn't seem to falter. He downed another cup of beer.

Someone gave him another joint. He took a long drag, the numbing but ecstatic feeling only heightening. He was having fun. So were his friends, he could see. Even Yoongi seemed to be having fun. Jimin said something and Hoseok laughed. Taehyung couldn't hear them over the loud music.

But his attention was quickly diverted back to the song playing and he started dancing again. He didn't know how many cups of beer he had. He was drunk.

After hours of continuous fun, Taehyung decided to take a taxi to Jimin's dorm. Yoongi came with him, thinking that Taehyung is too drunk to go on his own. When they reached the dorm, Taehyung went straight to Jimin's bedroom.

The booze was still high in his veins so he sat on the floor before he lost his balance and fell. He took out the can of beer that he had managed to steal from the party and started drinking it. He never liked beer but anything was good as long as it did the job.

Cheap beer did the job. The job of getting Jeongguk out of his head.

Jeongguk

The thought he had suppressed for the whole night had crossed his mind again. Taehyung gulped down the rest of the beer aggressively and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

But to no avail. The image of Jeongguk didn't seem to be going away.

And everything started crashing down on him. The fact that they were over. That Taehyung wouldn't get to wake up to Jeongguk ever again, that they wouldn't go on little dates and talk for hours again. He was being crushed under the weight of reality and tears were streaming down his face uncontrollably.

Strong nausea hit him and he dragged himself up and ran to the bathroom. He gripped the edges of the commode as he emptied the contents of his stomach. He gasped after he was done, feeling like dying. He sat on the bathroom floor, unable to find any strength to get up and make it to bed.

All the emotions that were buried by the exhilaration of party, booze, and weed surfaced again and it was the darkness again. The pain. The pain he didn't know the depths and reasons of.

And all Taehyung could think of is Jeongguk, himself, and everything in between.

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•°³¹°•Saturday Nights -✵───────

Saturday nights were always busy at The Red Deer, the best and only club around the area Taehyung lived in. The other nightclubs were further away, therefore Taehyung and his friends liked going to that particular club. Besides, it wasn't too crowded with nasty guys like the other clubs Taehyung used to go to in his high school days with his fake ID. It was only the locals who came about The Red Deer.

Besides, Hoseok's father worked there so they can enter without the ID and get free drinks.

Taehyung didn't want to go there. However, the others insisted he come along, as he hadn't been doing well recently. Especially after the things that happened with Jeongguk and after moving out. It had been over five days and there was no news from Jeongguk. Not that he checked. (He checked. Religiously. Almost every five minutes for the last five days)

He figured Jeongguk had moved on from him. Maybe there was nothing for him to move on from. Taehyung and he were only having a temporary relationship solely based on sex and pleasure. It was nothing more, nothing less. The relationship shouldn't have existed in the first place.

Even though Jeongguk did say he missed Taehyung the last day they met, Taehyung doubted it. Why would he miss him? Maybe in Jeongguk's language, I miss you meant I miss fucking you .

Taehyung, on the other hand, didn't know why he was feeling what he was feeling. Every time he looked at his phone to see if Jeongguk had called him or even left a text to check up on him, disappointment washed over him upon not seeing a single notification from him. Jeongguk hadn't contacted him for five whole days. And he felt like something was missing in his life. Something huge.

And it hurt. He knew it shouldn't hurt but it did. And he hated that he missed the man who had treated him like shit. Like he was someone so easily disposable. Like a toy. 

Every morning he woke up feeling the need to be with Jeongguk. Disappointment and sorrow washed over him upon realizing he'd never be able to be with Jeongguk again. He would never see Jeongguk at breakfast again, scrolling through his phone, drinking his glass of milk. He'd never see him smiling at Taehyung with that sweet and soft and gentle smile, holding a million secrets that he and Taehyung only shared. His eyes would crinkle at the edges, making him look a bit old and young at the same time, as he follows Taehyung's figure approaching the table. Taehyung would always smile back at him, lips tight and secretive, thinking about the things they did behind closed doors the previous night.

He had a hard time restraining the need to kiss Jeongguk the first thing in the morning. Taehyung was sure Jeongguk felt the same.

He missed their little dates. He missed holding hands in the park near the cute coffee shop. He missed seeing the way Jeongguk's eyes would narrow as he thought hard what drink he was going to order that day, as he was on a voyage of discovery to try all the drinks on the menu. It was the same drink for Taehyung every day: hot chocolate with marshmallows and whip cream.

Jeongguk had been extremely enthusiastic about going on dates with Taehyung. Even for Taehyung, the dates felt like they were extremely intimate, and not in a physical way. Sometimes Jeongguk would push Taehyung against a tree at the back of the park, hidden from the direct view, and kiss him until his knees go weak.

He missed how Jeongguk sometimes took care of Taehyung. Not only in bed. Jeongguk made him feel loved. At least when they were alone. Taehyung didn't have anything against his family. But Jeongguk just made him feel some type of way. Some way that butterflies erupted in his stomach every time they spent time with each other.

He fucking missed Jeongguk.

Taehyung guessed the saying 'Right person, wrong timing' was actually real. He felt it at an astronomical level.

He kept thinking about it...how he missed Jeongguk but would never get to date him. And it hurt him so much. He kept thinking about how right it felt to be with him, despite him treating Taehyung like his toy. He kept thinking about how nice it would be to date Jeongguk. To not hide behind closed doors and school offices. How badly he wanted to date Jeongguk. In a non-secretive way, out in the open.

It did only take a few days for Taehyung to come to the major epiphany that he had feelings for Jeongguk.

It had hit him like a truck. He didn't think he'd be capable of growing such feelings. But Jeongguk was very...lovable. Easy to fall in love with.

He had stayed at Jimin's for almost a week by now and he had been fortunate to not get caught by the landlady. Apparently, she was out of town for a few days. Since Jimin spent most of his nights in Namjoon's room, Taehyung had the small bed all to himself.

Regardless of his friends' attempts to cheer Taehyung up, he'd always felt like shit. The others had already figured out his feelings for Jeongguk. But they didn't tell anything about it. Taehyung remembered how Namjoon told him not to catch feelings for Jeongguk in the earlier days and Taehyung had been so sure that he wouldn't.

Nevertheless, even now, after realizing that he had fallen for a man who can never be his, it felt unreal. He had never been in love. He had never dated anyone. And all of this was so new to him, all these feelings were alien, that he didn't know what to do with himself and he's making a whole mess.

His friends' solution was to go clubbing. And drink it all away. Or to get fucked, literally.

Taehyung wasn't particularly planning on getting fucked by a stranger. He just wanted Jeongguk. But getting drunk sounded like a plan to him.

So here he was, amidst the crowd of different ages and genders in The Red Deer. The smell of sweat and smoke was heavy in the air and bright lights cut through the darkness inside the club, igniting everyone. A few cups of beers later Taehyung's ready to move with the music, hands in the air, body moving like an uncoiling rope, eyes on fire. The joy was like a shot of adrenaline to the heart and all at once, he's moving, one with the music, and one with every crazy person dancing in that place.

The music was like electricity in his veins and his heart thumped with adrenaline, synchronizing with the beat of the music. He swayed his hips and danced as if no one was watching. And no one cared in there. Everyone was high, drunk, or both and dancing like no tomorrow, pushing their problems to the back of reality while they rode a temporary euphoria.

Then, amidst the sweat, smoke, the beats, and the drunkenness, mischievous eyes, raven black hair, and pale skin. Watching Taehyung eagerly. Taehyung stilled.

Jeongguk?

Taehyung rubbed his eyes, unable to believe what he was seeing. He was drunk. Jeongguk couldn't be here, right?

Right.

It was someone else. Not Jeongguk, Taehyung realized after a couple of seconds. But the man continued to stare at Taehyung. Taehyung continued to dance, not giving two shits about the guy. Taehyung isn't unfamiliar with being stared at. He was much used to it. In fact, he used to like the attention. But now, he didn't feel the same way. He just didn't care.

He remembered how almost four months ago he came to this club thinking he'd start a new life when college starts. Then he had met Jeongguk, in this same club. He thought he'd be unfazed by men who only wanted something from him and not a relationship. However, the moment he saw Jeongguk at the pub just a few blocks away, he wasn't so sure he could stick to his principles anymore. And Taehyung's predictions only proved to be true when Jeongguk followed him to the club and approached him. And just like that, he was throwing all the principles and promises he had made to himself out of the window. The attraction to Jeongguk had been like a magnetic pull. He had no strength to pull himself away.

The man that looked a little like Jeongguk was closer to Taehyung now. He barely looked like Jeongguk, Taehyung thought then. Comparable. But it's just the hair and the pale skin. But the man was handsome, no doubt.

A few minutes later, after Taehyung decided to ignore the man who stared at him as if he wanted to consume him for dinner, Taehyung felt hands on his waist.

"Hello beautiful"

Taehyung jerked away from the touch, turning around to see who was intruding on his personal space.

It was the man who was staring at him earlier. Now that he was closer, Taehyung could see something familiar with the way he looked.

"Jeongguk?" Taehyung whispered.

"What?" The man said. He was young.

"You're not Jeongguk," Taehyung whispered. The man narrowed his eyes, obviously not hearing a word Taehyung was saying because of the loudness of the music.

"Taehyung what the fuck it's me"

"Huh?" Who?

"I'm William! Can't you remember? I invited you to my party a few months ago!"

"Holy shit William!" It was as if a light bulb lit over Taehyung's head. No wonder he looked familiar. Was Taehyung that drunk?

William laughed. "You're drunk"

"No shit," Taehyung said.

"You look dazzling," William said, smirking. "But long time no see!"

"Yeah," Taehyung said, grinning. He could see Jimin and the other a little away from him, watching him. Jimin gave him a thumbs up. Taehyung glared at him before turning to look at William.

"Can I buy you a drink?" William asked.

"Sure"

Taehyung didn't really think he'd end up in a cheap motel an hour or a half later, moaning under William as he pounded into Taehyung.

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed. He needed more. He needed it rougher. Faster. He wanted it to be like Jeongguk. William was being too gentle.

William grunted above him, his hair falling into his eyes and forehead covered in sweat. He looked too much like Jeongguk. But not equally as handsome. However, something about him reminded Taehyung of his past lover.

He only agreed to hook up with William because he thought having sex with someone other than Jeongguk would help him get over his past lover. But even when William was on top of him, his dick sliding in and out of Taehyung's tight hole as they both moaned in pleasure, all Taehyung could think of was Jeongguk.

A tear escaped Taehyung.

Taehyung felt the speed falter, which made him open his eyes.

"Are you okay?" William asked.

"Yes," Taehyung said, annoyed. "Stop being a pussy and keep going! Faster"

"Fuck okay. I thought you were hurt" William said and started fucking Taehyung again.

I am

"Jeongguk!" Taehyung whispered as he felt his climax approaching. He hoped to god William would not hear it. He most probably didn't, being too focused on reaching his own euphoria.

When he finally came, it took too long. With Jeongguk, it had always been within minutes. When he bid a small goodbye to William and went back to the club, he found the place to be still crowded, even though it was almost 2 a.m. He saw Jimin and Namjoon making out in a chair and Hoseok flirting with a girl while Yoongi drank some whiskey.

Taehyung made his way to Yoongi and ordered himself a drink. He was slowly getting sober and he could not risk getting sober. Especially after what happened.

He was surely going to regret everything he did that night. From drinking his head off and sleeping with William. But the whole plan seemed like the best idea at the moment because all he wanted was to get Jeongguk out of his mind and like Jimin had told him, to remind himself that ‘Jeongguk isn’t the only guy in the world. There are hotter people out there who would be much better in bed than him’. However, after sleeping with William he understood that Jeongguk was still better and he was still in love with Jeongguk.

"How'd it go?" Yoongi asked.

Taehyung shrugged. "Fine"

"Well, that doesn’t sound anything like fine. I feel like you'd need something stronger than that beer" Yoongi said.

Taehyung nodded. He felt like shit. And it hurt because all he could think of was Jeongguk. He came here to forget Jeongguk but now he missed Jeongguk more than ever. No one could make him feel the way Jeongguk did.

Yoongi offered him a drink that had a green liquid. "The fuck is this?"

"It's the special blend, sir. The strongest I can offer you" The bartender, an older man said.

"Oh thanks," Taehyung said and gulped it down. The bittersweet liquid burned down his throat.

"Fuck" he gasped.

Yoongi laughed. "Good, huh?"

Taehyung nodded. Within minutes, he was drunk again. Chatting with Yoongi about how much he missed Jeongguk didn't help at all. It made him miss him even more.

"I need to take a piss," Taehyung said tiredly, standing up wobbly. Yoongi caught him before he fell face flat on the floor.

"Dude you can't even stand up," Yoongi said, holding onto him.

"I can stand! Let me go!" Taehyung said, his drunken state slurring his words together.

Yoongi sighed and let him go. Taehyung managed to go to the bathroom, only to find a queue. A fucking queue to get in the men's bathroom. How can there even be a queue? Does the place only have one cubicle or something? Taehyung sighed exasperatedly and leaned against the wall next to an old man with white hair. Upon seeing a couple of people in front of him in the line, he fished out his phone since it would take some time anyway.

There weren't phone calls or text messages from Jeongguk. As expected.

He went to his call log. He doesn't get many calls. When he does, it's either from Jimin or Jeongguk or his mother. Rarely from others.

"Fuck you" Taehyung whispered to himself as he scrolled down his call log. Taehyung found it filled with calls from Jeongguk, aging back to months and months. But none that week.

His heart ached upon seeing it. He wanted to hear his voice so badly. He needed it.

"Fuck it" Taehyung whispered as he slid his thumb over Jeongguk's number, dialing up his number.


Jeongguk's phone started ringing from the bedside table. Jeongguk groaned as he sleepily sat up from the bed. He blindly reached for his phone, eyes only half-open and still half-asleep. He rubbed his eyes after picking up his phone, trying to see the caller ID.

Tae💗

Jeongguk's heartbeat sped up, and in moments, he was fully awake. It was two in the fucking morning. Why the hell is Taehyung calling him at this hour? Was something wrong? 

Jeongguk looked behind him. His wife was fast asleep. He got up from the bed and went outside the room, closing the door behind him before he picked up the call.

"Hello?" Jeongguk said, keeping his voice down. "Taehyung what's wro-"

"Jeonggukkie" a slurred deep voice.

Jeongguk was at a loss for words. What's wrong with Taehyung?

"Tae? Are you alright?" Jeongguk was panicking.

Taehyung laughed. "Am I alright?" more laughter. "The audacity of this married man" Another chuckle.

"What..." Jeongguk was confused. "Are you drunk?"

There was more laughter coming from the other side of the line. Jeongguk could hear music and chatter. Was Taehyung in a club? At this time?

"Yes!" Taehyung said enthusiastically. "And I'm fucking wasted! Had to drink away all my sadness you know?"

"Taehyung..."

"Not that you'd care, right? Do you fuck your wife every night now that I'm gone? Does she make you hard now?" Taehyung laughed.

Jeongguk sighed, exasperated.

"Or do you still think of me to get hard?"

"Taehyung I didn't sleep with her at all," Jeongguk said, massaging his temples.

"Aww" Taehyung said. "Aren't you adorable? But go ahead. You can make more babies! You don't need to think about me or how sad I am...because you're probably glad now that I'm out of the way, right? Or do you still want to use me as your toy?"

"Taehyung I never-"

"I don't care. Not like you cared about me either..."

"I care about you!" Jeongguk said, a little too loudly. He was fucking angry. How could Taehyung think about him this way?

"You're funny" a small chuckle.

"Taehyung, where are you?" Jeongguk asked impatiently.

"Why? What are you going to do? Pick me up and take me over to your house so you can fuck me while your daughter and wife are sleeping? To use me again and throw me away when you feel like it? When you feel like I’m getting in the way of your precious family?"

"What the fuck is wron-"

"I slept with someone"

Jeongguk's eyes widened. He felt his heart drop at the words.

"He looked just like you," Taehyung said, words slurred. "It wasn't bad, you know"

Jeongguk was at a loss for words.

"Reminded me a lot about you. Even when he was fucking me I was thinking about you"

Jeongguk gulped. His heart was already aching from the previous words of Taehyung about Jeongguk using him. But now, he was devastated. He gritted his teeth from anger as jealousy burned through his veins. He shouldn't be feeling this way. He shouldn't give a shit about who Taehyung sleeps with. Not now. Not ever. They weren't even in a relationship. Whatever they had, it was over. And he was going to be a father again. He had promised himself to become a proper father to the unborn child.

However, the last few days, Jeongguk hadn't been doing well. He could barely concentrate on his work. His heart was heavy all the time.

He just missed Taehyung so much. The breakfast table was empty without him. The morning conversations were bland without him. He missed the secretive smiles and touches. Life was monochrome without his presence in Jeongguk's world.

Taehyung had made him feel things he had never felt before. He introduced him to a world he had never seen. He wouldn't have been able to experience any of it without him. Taehyung brought color to his skies.

Taehyung was the light to his darkness; the moon to his night sky; and without him, his days were gloomy.

Jeongguk didn't think he'd feel this loss so much. He thought he'd stop feeling empty after a few days but it's almost been a week and with every passing second, the need to be with Taehyung only grew. And Jeongguk realized that he was missing more than his body; the sex. He missed Taehyung's whole presence in his life.

The only reason he didn't call Taehyung was he was afraid he'd disturb his life. He wanted Taehyung to start a life without him. Taehyung deserved more than a man that could never be with him; someone who wouldn't have time or space for him in his life. He wanted Taehyung to get over him.

But now...Jeongguk was burning with anger. His feelings were not fair. But the idea of someone else touching Taehyung... his Taehyung...?

He knew it was ridiculous. Taehyung isn't his. Jeongguk was married for fuck's sake! But...

"Where are you?" Jeongguk said with gritted teeth.

"Why? Is professor going to pick me up? Go back to your wife, sir. She probably misses your love"

"Shut the fuck up and tell me where the fuck you are" Jeongguk shouted.

"Oh my god chill. I'm at the place where you decided you want to risk your marital life to fuck me just for once. Remember? You were such a flirt, trying to lure me into your cobweb" Taehyung chuckled.

"Stay there. I'm coming"

"W-what? No! Don't!"

"God knows what else you'd do! Stay there. Be safe! Don't drink anymore!" With that said, Jeongguk cut the line.

He rushed into his bedroom and put some clothes on hurriedly.

"Where are you going?" it was Jieun, having just woken up from her sleep.

"Out"

Jeongguk ran out of his house, started the car, and drove off to The Red Deer.

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Jeongguk scurried through the thinning crowd of the Red Deer, his feet hurried and his mind a chaos of thoughts. His eyes searched the crowd for a familiar face but he could see none. The music was still loud and banging, and some people were still on the dance floor even past 2.00 a.m. Most were slouched on bar tools and sofas, drunk, passed out, or making out. He halted in the middle of the area with sofas and searched for Taehyung. But to no avail, there was no trace of the boy.

It hadn't taken him five minutes to arrive at the club, driving through red lights at eighty. There wasn't a single soul in the streets. It was the rural area of the city after all.

Jeongguk walked to the bar. He could only flashback to that time he saw Taehyung leaning against that very place, looking like the most ethereal being ever, basked in neon lights. Jeongguk had been mesmerized. If he wasn't married, he would've fallen in love with him that instant.

A wave of nostalgia hit him hard as he walked towards the bar, now almost deserted except for one or two youngsters chatting around the place.

Jeongguk made his way towards them. There was one with black hair, who was talking with the bartender. As he got closer, the boy turned his head and saw Jeongguk. His eyes widened and Jeongguk realized the boy recognized Jeongguk. The boy did look familiar. He may have seen him in the hallways or with Taehyung. He straightened up in the bar stool as Jeongguk walked closer.

"Do you know Taehyung?" Jeongguk asked the boy as he halted next to him.

"Yeah," he said, looking baffled.

"Where is he?"

The boy scoffed. Jeongguk raised his eyebrows at the attitude.

"Trying to fuck up his life again, professor?"

Jeongguk stared at the boy, dumbfounded. He glared at him.

"He doesn't want you here"

"He's drunk. He called me just now. Where is he?" Jeongguk seethed, anger flaring through his nostrils.

The boy scoffed again. "He's my best friend. And you're ruining him"

Jeongguk stared at the boy, wide-mouthed. He was surprised to hear such words from a student. But then...

"Yoongi!" a drunken shout.

The boy and Jeongguk looked at the source of the sound. Jeongguk's heartbeat sped up upon seeing Taehyung, drunkenly walking towards them. He was smiling at the boy, Yoongi, and apparently hadn't noticed Jeongguk yet.

And then he did.

Taehyung halted in his steps. His smile fell as their eyes met. The two former lovers held each other's gaze and the time stopped between them. It was just them at that moment. And Taehyung looked so beautiful. It felt like Jeongguk hadn't seen him in ages. Months. His heart ached to see him. And Yoongi was right. He looked fucked up. There were bags under his eyes. His hair was a mess and it looked as if he had just thrown up.

Jeongguk had been longing to see Taehyung, to hear his voice, to touch him and not just for sex. He could barely think of sex the last few days. The only thing he could think of was the throbbing emptiness that followed him everywhere he went. And it had hit him the moment Taehyung barged out of the door the day Jeongguk told him the news. It felt as if Taehyung took all the warmth and life as he went out of his front door.

And Jeongguk was freezing thereafter because the place he called his home didn't feel like home after Taehyung left.

Watching Taehyung now, he felt a spark of warmth inside him. Because he could see Taehyung mirroring his own expression: one of longing and sadness.

Taehyung gulped and finally tore off his gaze from Jeongguk. He started to walk towards Jeongguk...or Yoongi. However, in his drunken state, his figure was wobbly. His steps were unsteady. Then he stumbled.

Jeongguk's limbs worked on their own. It was like some reflex. The next thing Jeongguk knew, he had run across the club to Taehyung to stop him from falling. Taehyung was in his arms.

Taehyung looked at him with wide almond-shaped eyes of his, orbs chocolate. Their faces were inches away from each other. And Jeongguk wanted nothing more than to feel those rosy, soft lips on his own again.

Taehyung tried to get away from Jeongguk, finally having awoken from his daze but Jeongguk only tightened his embrace.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung breathed.

"Taehyung" Jeongguk said, a little breathless.

"Let me go"

"You're drunk. I'm not letting you go anywhere" Jeongguk said, his embrace loosening a little but still holding Taehyung in place. The boy could barely stand straight.

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk. Then his expression changed. His face crumbled and a tear fell down his cheek.

Jeongguk's heart fell upon seeing Taehyung cry. "Tae-Taehyung" Jeongguk could barely form words. "What's wrong?"

Taehyung continued to cry. "Fuck you"

Jeongguk felt himself choking up. "I'm sorry" He whispered.

"I hate you for fucking me up so bad"

Jeongguk stared at the younger boy, still in his arms, tears rolling down his cheeks as he looked at Jeongguk in the most heartbreaking expression.

"I'm sorry, baby" Jeongguk said. "I'm sorry"

"Sorry doesn't cut shit. Go back to where you came from. Your wife is probably waiting for you"

"And leave you here? Where are your other friends?"

"I don't know" Taehyung muttered. "Probably hooking up"

Jeongguk sighed. "Let's go home"

"I don't have a home"

"Yes you do. You can always come to my house"

Taehyung let out a humorless laugh. "Yeah right, where your kid and pregnant wife is residing? You sound ridiculous, do you know that?"

"You were staying there for three whole months, Taehyung. Please I can't let you go like this"

"I have friends. I'm staying with Jimin"

Jeongguk sighed. "The only guy here is that dude, who's as shitfaced as you. He might as well go home with the bartender"

"The bartender is Yoongi's friend" Taehyung whined. "They're going to go to that guy's place. But I can go alone. I'll call an uber"

"No. You're coming with me"

"No!" Taehyung's words were slowly getting slurred. "I'm not going anywhere with you"

"Please. Let me take care of you" Jeongguk was practically begging at this point.

Taehyung sighed. "The whole purpose of me getting drunk is to forget you. The purpose of you staying away from me is to get back to your fucking family. Nothing is working right now!"

"Guess we can't always have what we want"

“You’re insane” Taehyung muttered.

Jeongguk sighed and turned to Yoongi, who was indeed flirting with the bartender. "I'm taking him with me"

"No, you aren't" He protested.

"Do you suppose he go to the dorm alone?" Jeongguk said. "He can't even walk!"

"Then drop him off at his dorm. You don't have to take him to your house!"

"He's not even in his right mind. I can't let him be alone. I can take care of him!"

Yoongi rolled his eyes. "Listen here. I don't care if you're a teacher at my campus or not. If you hurt him again..." Yoongi was giving Jeongguk a death glare. "We'll see after that"

"Yeah you don't wanna mess with my Yoongles" Taehyung said, eyes half-closed and his whole body weight on Jeongguk as he leaned against him. He was close to passing out.

Jeongguk sighed and led Taehyung outside the club. When they reached Jeongguk's car, he seated the younger in the passenger seat and buckled him up. After getting into his own seat, he looked at Taehyung.

"You suck" Taehyung muttered.

"I know" Jeongguk started the engine. "Let's go home"

"I don't have a home" Taehyung whined.

"My home is your home"

"I hate you" with that said, Taehyung closed his eyes. A few moments later, soft snores started escaping him. Jeongguk watched him with a dull ache in his heart. The moon was still gleaming down at them igniting the surroundings with a silvery glow. And the light seemed to make Taehyung himself look angelic, with the moonlight reflecting off his perfect features.

He had undefined feelings for the boy. In fact, he didn’t know what all these feelings meant. And even if he did have an idea. He didn’t know what to do with these feelings. Everything felt like a mess and Jeongguk didnt know how to deal with all these new emotions he's feeling. He was so, so scared. He didn't want to think about them. Thinking about it would make it messier and he didn’t know what to do if it got any messier. So it’s better if he keeps them to himself. 

Jeongguk let out a sigh and looked at the empty road ahead of him. He pulled the gear and whispered under his breath. 

"I love you too"


Jeongguk carried Taehyung to his room, which was the same as he had left it. He laid Taehyung on the bed and took off his shoes. Then he tucked him inside the duvet.

Jeongguk sat next to the beautiful boy who was fast asleep. He brushed a lock of golden hair off his face. He looked so peaceful like this; face lulled with sleep and soft breaths escaped his parted rosy lips. A crimson blush had crept up the apples of his cheeks and his nose. Taehyung was really pretty.

Jeongguk's heartbeat sped up as he watched the boy, butterflies dancing in his stomach. It was only then he realized the empty feeling that had been following him everywhere had diminished. He could no longer feel it. And Jeongguk surely knew it was because Taehyung was with him. He felt alive again. He felt warm. Taehyung's mere presence gave him warmth.

Jeongguk knew deep down that it wasn't meant to last. Maybe in the morning, Taehyung would leave. But he had to cherish what he had now, for he might not get this chance again. He might not get another time to be this close to Taehyung.

It hadn't taken much longer for Jeongguk to understand that he had feelings for the younger boy. He didn't understand what this prolonged emptiness and other chaotic feelings meant at first. For he had never known love, even though he thought he had.

He decided what he was feeling was more than just the need to have sex with Taehyung again. the need to just see him, be with him, make him smile had been so prominent that he had to control himself so much to refrain from at least dropping a text to Taehyung.

The only thing that had kept him grounded was Jieun. And reality. The reality was that he had a family and his wife was expecting another child. Just because he loved someone else doesn't mean he can abandon his responsibilities and run and do what feels right.

Life isn't easy like that.

Jeongguk was an adult. He was married. He had responsibilities. He was a father. There were responsibilities surrounding his position in society. He was no longer in his twenties nor was he unmarried and free to 'follow his heart' or whatever. There were so many things wrong with both staying in the situation he was in and leaving it. And he had no choice but to stay.

Somehow, the epiphany of Jeongguk being in love with Taehyung didn't hit him too hard. It was like some sudden realization, a passing thought. But an important one. It was as if Jeongguk had known for a while so it wasn't much of a surprise.

Then the pain hit him that it only made things worse. He doesn't love Jieun. That, he had realized long ago. But the fact that he had fallen in love with someone else when he had a family...and that the person who he had fallen for probably doesn't have feelings for him hit him like a truck. It hurt more than it should have.

But looking at the person who he had finally fallen in love with, for real this time, after thirty years, he was happy. It felt like his whole life had been a lie and Taehyung was his only truth.

And he was the most beautiful boy in the whole world.

Jeongguk leaned down and pressed a soft kiss onto the boy's forehead. Jeongguk took one last look at the boy and stood up from the bed, ready to leave when he felt a tug at his sleeve.

Jeongguk turned around to look at Taehyung, who was holding Jeongguk's sleeve with two fingers. His eyes were only half-open.

"Don't leave me"

Jeongguk stared at the boy with eyes that spoke of all the love he had for the boy. "I should go"

"Don't" Taehyung whispered. "Not again"

"Taehyung..." Jeongguk whispered. "We both know why I shouldn't stay. Aria and Jieun-"

"Stay"

Jeongguk sighed, finally giving up. It's not like he wanted to leave Taehyung's side. Hell, he wanted nothing other than to be near him. Feel him close. Take care of his baby. But the whole world was against them, it seemed.

Jeongguk sat on the edge of the bed again and held Taehyung's hand. "I'll stay"

Taehyung hummed and closed his eyes again. Jeongguk watched him as his facial features softened, sleep taking over him yet again. Jeongguk couldn't help but smile. But it barely reached his eyes. The sorrow inside him tugged his lips downward, reminding him of all the odds.

Jeongguk didn't know how long he stayed there, holding Taehyung's hand and watching him sleep. It felt like minutes. Jeongguk finally stood up after slowly placing Taehyung's hand under the duvet. He kissed the younger's forehead one last time and turned to leave.

He walked out of the door, slowly and soundlessly shutting it behind him.

What he didn't see was a tear escaping Taehyung as the door shut behind Jeongguk. 

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"Where did you go so late last night?"

Jeongguk turned around as he heard Jieun's voice, abandoning his task of making waffles early in the morning. He watched as she walked towards him, dressed in a pretty pink dress. It clung to her figure like a second skin. Jeongguk's eyes trailed down to her stomach. There was no baby bump. Just a little flab, as if it's the beginning of a baby bump. It has only been a month after all.

Jieun had started showing signs of her pregnancy. She throws up every morning. Even at odd hours like at four in the morning. It's also hard for her to fall asleep at night. She's carrying his child inside her. She loves Jeongguk dearly and also takes care of Aria. But Jeongguk's every thought was occupied with another person. The guilt was becoming unbearable now more than ever. Now that he knew Jieun was carrying his child. It was his wife after all. The mother of his children.

"Um...something came up," Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"Is it something you can't tell me?" Jieun sounded annoyed. It was hardly ever she would lose her temper. She was a lovely and friendly person, nice to everyone. But lately, Jeongguk had found her snapping at Aria on occasions. He guessed it was the stress and the pregnancy.

"No. I'm sorry" Jeongguk said. Jieun stood next to Jeongguk, watching him. She wore makeup that day. She looked beautiful. Jeongguk wished he could feel more than a passing thought of appreciation for her. Like a flutter in his heart whenever he saw her. A flutter of love. Just like it was when he saw Taehyung. But no. He felt hollow.

"Taehyung called me," Jeongguk sighed, leaning against the counter.

"Taehyung?" Jieun sounded surprised.

"Yeah. He was drunk. He sounded so screwed up so I kind of panicked, you know. I went to pick him up. It's not safe out there, so late at night. I didn't want him going home alone. He hardly has a place to stay. So I brought him here"

"Yeah it's not safe for him to be alone," Jieun said, letting out a sigh. "You did the right thing"

Jeongguk went back to making the waffles. But he felt Jieun staring at him. Confused, he turned his head to look at her.

"What?"

"Nothing," She said quickly.

Jeongguk raised an eyebrow. He went back to mixing the dough.

"You seem to care an awful lot about that boy"

Jeongguk stopped in his tracks. His throat grew dry. "He's my student, after all. And he stayed with us for some months. I kind of feel a responsibility towards him I guess" Jeongguk thanked himself for not stuttering.

And I might be in love with him.

"Does it bother you?" Jeongguk asked.

"Bother me? Why would it bother me?" Jieun let out a chuckle. "I found it rather strange, that's all. You guys seem pretty close"

Jeongguk shrugged.

"I have two trails today," Jieun said. "I think I'll be later than usual. Aria won't be home for lunch, right? She's so enthusiastic about going to Lisa's house. I mean her mother is a friend of mine. Is Lisa the only friend Aria has? Because..." Jieun kept on babbling and Jeongguk listened. It was another typical morning. Their morning conversation would mostly be about Aria. It felt so normal. He'd been doing this for almost sixteen years and yet what was so different about it now?

Amidst of the pleasant familiarity, there was something peculiar in the air. It unnerved Jeongguk. It may have been his own imagination. Maybe it's the guilt seeping through the closely shut doors of his heart.

Maybe it's the game he played under everyone's noses. And any moment now, his house of cards would stumble, break and fall, taking everything he holds dear with it.

Thunder crackled in the distant sky, making Jeongguk look through the small window of their kitchen. The sky had darkened, gray clouds covering the whole sky, not a beam of sunlight escaping through them. The trees waltzed with the wind, hinting a storm.

"Looks like it's going to rain" Jieun commented, pouring whip cream all over her waffle. "I need to go now"

Jeongguk hummed. Jieun quickly finished with her breakfast.

"See you," Jieun said, quickly pecking Jeongguk's cheek and turning on her heel to grab her coat.

Jeongguk stared after her for a few seconds. And then, "Jieun!"

"Yeah?" she halted right before she opened the front door.

"You look beautiful today," Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"Thank you!" Jieun grinned. She waved at Jeongguk happily before hurrying out of the house.

The rain started pouring a few minutes later. Jeongguk stared out of the window at the darkened world. Everything beautiful was blurred, darkened, monochrome. Not too different from what Jeongguk felt: to be struck between two worlds.

He let out an exasperated sigh and went upstairs to wake his daughter up.


It was still pouring when Jeongguk finally decided to check up on Taehyung. It was almost midday but he didn't want to wake Taehyung up. However, Jeongguk thought it was a bit unusual for the boy to sleep for so long. But then again, he was probably hungover.

Jeongguk slowly opened the door of Taehyung's room. He peeked inside a little. He saw Taehyung still sound asleep, hugging one pillow and his leg thrown over another. Soft snores escaped his parted cherry lips.

Jeongguk's heart skipped a beat as he cooed at the adorable sight. He slowly closed the door behind him and crept inside the room. He sat down in the chair by the table and watched the boy sound asleep.

But there was something wrong. Jeongguk could feel it. Taehyung's brows were knitted together as if he was uncomfortable. He looked quite pale. Jeongguk stood up. The chair scraped against the wooden floor with a small noise, which made Taehyung shift in his sleep. His snoring stopped and he stirred around so that he was lying on his back. His shirt had ridden up, revealing his adorable tummy.

Jeongguk slowly made his way towards Taehyung. He stopped by the bed and leaned towards him. He placed the back of his hand against the boy's forehead. A small gasp escaped Jeongguk as moved to check the temperature of the boy's neck.

"You're burning up," Jeongguk said to himself.

"Hmm?" Taehyung's eyes were half-open but he seemed to have one foot in the real world and the other in the world of dreams.

Jeongguk looked at the younger, brows furrowed together with concern. After a while of contemplating what to do, he decided to wake up the boy.

"Tae" Jeongguk whispered as he slightly shook the boy from his shoulder. "Baby wake up"

Taehyung groaned in his sleep. After a few moments, he opened his eyes.

"Hmm?"

"You have a fever, baby," Jeongguk said.

"Mmmhmm"

A frown had started to form on Jeongguk's mouth. "Wake up and drink some water"

Taehyung gave no response. He was starting to fall asleep again.

"Baby" Jeongguk said. He sat next to Taehyung on the bed. "Come on" Jeongguk helped Taehyung sit up on the bed, against his chest. He took the bottle of water by the bedside and helped the younger drink it. Sleepily, Taehyung chugged down almost half of the bottle.

Jeongguk then helped him lay back down. "I'll make you some soup and get you some medicine," Jeongguk said, standing up.

"I'm fine" Taehyung whined.

Jeongguk let out a sigh. "No you aren't. You're fucking burning up. Stop being so stubborn for once. Just...just stay until I get you some medicine"

Taehyung let out a sigh and closed his eyes. Jeongguk hurried out of the room. He ran to the kitchen and placed a pot with water on the stove to make Taehyung some soup.

After almost twenty minutes, Jeongguk was rushing back to Taehyung's room with a bowl of soup and some painkillers to bring down the fever. He found Taehyung fast asleep, tangled on the sheets but basically nothing covering his body except for his underwear. His shirt and pants were thrown on the floor.

"Taehyung what is this?" Jeongguk said, bewildered at the mess. He put down the soup and medicine on the bedside table and hurried towards Taehyung.

Taehyung muttered something in his sleep.

"Baby wake up. Shit, you're shivering. Why did you take off your clothes?"

"Too tight" Taehyung mumbled sleepily.

Jeongguk helped him sit up. The moment Taehyung sat up, he wrapped his arms around Jeongguk like a koala bear. "I'm cold. Hug me"

Jeongguk was taken aback for a second. But then: "Of course you're cold! You have a fever and you're basically naked right now"

"Don't shout at me" Taehyung looked up at him sleepily.

Jeongguk took off his sweater. "This is the comfiest sweater I have"

Taehyung looked up at him sleepily. Jeongguk sighed and helped Taehyung put on his sweater.

"Smells like you," Taehyung said, sniffing on the oversized sweater. "I love it" he smiled at Jeongguk sleepily, wrapping his arms around the older again.

"Your fever isn't down yet. You'll have to take some medicine" Jeongguk said.

"Why would I need medicine? Just looking at your abs makes me feel better"

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "Come on, now. Drink this"

Jeongguk had to feed Taehyung the soup with the spoon. Taehyung, on the other hand, seemed pretty glad to be taken care of this way.

"This tastes like shit. You suck at cooking" Taehyung said.

"And yet you finished the whole thing"

"Because I was hungry. Not because it tasted good"

"Whatever makes you sleep at night" Jeongguk smirked. He gave Taehyung the medicine and water.

"I'm already feeling better. I don't need medicine" Taehyung whined.

"They're just painkillers" Jeongguk urged Taehyung to take them. In the end, he did.

"Get some more sleep. Do you need more blankets?" Jeongguk asked, getting up to leave.

"No. I need to pee"

Jeongguk stared at Taehyung. "Oh"

Taehyung made grabby hands at Jeongguk. "Oh, you big baby" Jeongguk said and carried Taehyung to the bathroom.

"You've lost weight" Jeongguk commented. Taehyung was lighter than the time he used to live with Jeongguk. "Haven't you been eating?"

"I'm dieting"

"Screw off. You're as thin as a stick"

"No I'm not! I have baby fat everywhere"

"It's adorable. You're adorable"

An adorable blush blossomed on the apples of the younger's cheeks. "Whatever" He mumbled.

"You treat me like your kid"

"You are a kid"

"I'm literally twenty years old. I'm not a kid"

"A baby, then"

"Your baby"

Jeongguk laughed. "Yeah okay"

"And you're my daddy"

"That's not my kink, Taehyung"

"I mean you look like a daddy"

"I'm a dad, yes"

"No you're my daddy and I'm your baby," Taehyung said, pouting.

"This better be your fever talking, for god's sake. It's so cringe" Jeongguk was grinning at this point.

"What else could you be?" Taehyung thought for a moment. "Ah! How about my boyfriend?"

Jeongguk stopped in his tracks. His heart hammered in his ribcage as he watched Taehyung stare back at him, eyes big with wonder. Yes, he would love that if he didn't have a pregnant wife and a daughter.

Jeongguk cleared his throat. "Would you like me to run you a bath?" They had slowly made it to the bathroom.

"Do I stink?"

"You smell of alcohol"

"I don't want to"

"A hot bath?"

"Fine" Taehyung grumbled.

Jeongguk seated Taehyung on the small stool in the bathroom and went to fill up the bathtub. After he was done, he left Taehyung for himself to get him some clothes and a towel.

When Jeongguk returned, he found Taehyung in the bathtub, playing with the soap bubbles.

"Join me"

Jeongguk let out a chuckle. "Nope"

Taehyung huffed. Jeongguk sat on the edge of the bathtub and placed the back of his hand on the younger boy's forehead.

"Your fever seems to be going down," Jeongguk said. "I'll be right outside. Just call me when you're done"

"Stay," Taehyung said. "Isn't Jieun and Aria home?"

"Do you think I'll be this close to you if they were?"

Taehyung shrugged, pouting. "Help me wash"

"Taehyung..."

"Please"

Jeongguk sighed in defeat. He rolled up the sleeves of the sweater he had just put on and took the sponge from Taehyung. He squeezed in some body wash and started rubbing him with the sponge.

"It would be easier for you if you were inside the bathtub"

"I think I can manage," Jeongguk said with a small smirk.

"You'll get your clothes wet like that"

Jeongguk's smirk grew wider. He continued to rub Taehyung's back wordlessly.

"You really should...since we're alone" Taehyung urged.

Jeongguk sighed. "I'm married"

"Not like it stopped you before"

"We agreed to stop this, Taehyung"

"Then why are you so persistent in taking care of me? Treating me as if I'm your boyfriend or something. As if you're in love with me"

Jeongguk paused his actions and let out a sigh as his heart had started to beat erratically. He looked everywhere but Taehyung's eyes as the younger stared at him.

"Because I care about you" Jeongguk managed.

"Well, you shouldn't. You should've just left me in the club. You shouldn't have cared about how I get home, or how I don't have a place to go, or about who I go anywhere with. You should've just ignored my call if you wanted to move on so badly. You keep coming back to me and leave me feeling all these kinds of shit I don't want to feel. And I don't know why I keep coming back to an asshole like you who treated me like a toy"

Jeongguk kept his head hung low, every word escaping Taehyung hitting him like a dagger to his chest.

"You treat me like I'm your second priority. And I hate it that after all the shit I've been through I fell for you" Taehyung said softly.

Jeongguk looked up at that.

"You have feelings for me?" Jeongguk couldn't have heart Taehyung right.

"W-what? I didn't say that!" A blush had crept up Taehyung's cheeks and he could no longer meet Jeongguk's gaze.

Jeongguk stayed silent for a few moments, his heart feeling heavier than ever. "I don't want you to fuck up your life because of me"

"Don't you think you already did that?"

"I'm sorry"

"You broke my heart and all you can say is sorry?"

"I don't want you to catch feelings for me, Taehyung," Jeongguk said. "I'm married. I have a kid. My wife is pregnant. You can't have feelings for me"

Jeongguk's heart broke multiple times uttering those words. He wanted to be with Taehyung. Hell, he was in love with him. But there's no way Jeongguk could tell him that he loved him. It would be the most selfish thing Jeongguk had done. Even worse than treating Taehyung like a second choice. He wanted Taehyung to let go of him and start a new life.

But why did he always find himself with the person he wanted to get away from? Why can't he just stop caring? Why can't he control himself?

"Yeah I didn't need a reality check," Taehyung said. They stayed like that for a few seconds. Or minutes. Basking in silence lost in thought. Then Taehyung stood up.

Jeongguk raised his head. Bathwater dripped down Taehyung as he stood naked in the bathtub.

"Well, what are you waiting for? Finish cleaning me"


Jeongguk tucked Taehyung into bed after dressing him up with sweatpants and Jeongguk's sweater from earlier because Taehyung insisted on wearing it, saying it smelled like him. Taehyung had just finished the hot chocolate Jeongguk had made him and looked like a burrito wrapped in the blankets.

The fever had gone down a little and Jeongguk was finally feeling relieved. The rain had stopped pouring but the cold lasted still.

"I should go home now," Taehyung said sleepily.

Jeongguk chuckled. "Sleep for now. I'll give you a lift if your fever goes down by the evening"

Taehyung hummed. "Please don't leave me"

"Taehyung..."

"They won't be back so soon. Stay with me for a little bit?" Taehyung said, pouting.

Jeongguk stared at him for a while. "Fine" He muttered after a while, finally giving up.

"Just don't catch feelings for me," Jeongguk said.

"Is it contagious?"

"What?"

"Feelings"

"What..no?"

"Then how can I being near you make me catch feelings?" Taehyung asked.

"You little shit," Jeongguk said as he crawled under Taehyung's blanket. Taehyung laughed and wrapped his arms around Jeongguk. Jeongguk pulled the other boy closer to him, inhaling his sweet scent. He missed this. He missed Taehyung so fucking much. He wanted to hold him close and never let go.

"You smell so nice, daddy"

"If you call me that one more time, I'm leaving"

"Fine. Whatever" Taehyung huffed out and buried his head in Jeongguk's neck.

Jeongguk placed a kiss on Taehyung's forehead and started rubbing his back soothingly.

"My baby" Jeongguk murmured against his hair, "Get well soon"

"I don't want to get better if you keep treating me like this"

"Shut up"

"If I get better I'll have to leave you"

"Taehyung..."

"I don't want to leave you" Taehyung whispered brokenly.

"Neither do I" Jeongguk found himself whispering.

"Then don't"

"Hmm?"

"Don't leave me"

"Baby you know I can't..."

"Divorce her"

Jeongguk was silent at that.

"She's pregnant" Jeongguk muttered.

"Not like you love her," Taehyung said. "Do you want the baby?"

"No"

"Then abort it"

"Babe-"

"I sound so evil, don't I? I sound so selfish. I want you for myself, that's all"

"I know" Jeongguk pulled Taehyung closer to himself. "That's okay. But I can't tell her to do it, Tae. It's not only my choice"

Taehyung stayed silent for a while.

"Then you want me to fuck off?" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. "I want you to leave me for your own good"

"Do you want me to leave you because you desperately want me out of your life?"

Jeongguk stayed silent. No, he wanted to say. That's the last thing he wanted. He wanted nothing more than to be with Taehyung.

"Why do you care so much about me?" Taehyung asked after a few moments of silence.

Because I fucking love you . "What does it matter?"

It was Taehyung's chance to stay quiet.

"Let's sleep. Let's enjoy this while we can" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung placed his lips on Jeongguk's neck. "This is so wrong," He said. "But if you also want to be with me, I wouldn't mind doing such a wrong thing. At least for a while"

Jeongguk didn't want to tear up. But he couldn't help himself.

"If we would be together in the end, I wouldn't mind being your second priority for just a little bit longer"

A tear trialed down Jeongguk's cheek.

"I love you so much" The words were out before Jeongguk could halt them. He was an emotional wreck. Tears cascaded down his cheeks by that moment.

Taehyung sighed. "I figured. I love you too"

"How?"

"I don't know. I could feel it. I was trying to make you admit it"

"You succeeded"

"So it seems" Taehyung looked up at Jeongguk. He smiled at him lovingly and Jeongguk sobbed harder. Taehyung wiped off the tears from his cheeks with the pads of his thumbs.

"It's okay. I'm here right now" Taehyung whispered.

Their faces were inches apart. And Taehyung looked as beautiful as ever. His lips ghosted over Jeongguk's and Jeongguk couldn't help himself. he closed the distance between them.

Taehyung's lips against his were heavenly. He melted against Taehyung like it was second nature. Taehyung's hands reached up to cusp his face. Euphoria surged through his veins as he leaned in more, trying to get a better taste of heaven; to feel back what he missed. And oh God, did he miss this. He didn't know he had missed the feeling of Taehyung's lips on his until he kissed him that moment.

It was perfect. Everything was perfect. The way his lips locked against Taehyung's like two lost puzzle pieces were incomparable. Jeongguk felt himself ease up, worries fading into nothingness as Jeongguk poured his love into the kiss.

When they pulled away and Jeongguk opened his eyes to witness the beauty in front of him again, Taehyung still had his eyes closed, as if in bliss. When he finally opened his eyes, they sparkled so beautifully. Jeongguk hadn't seen the younger's eyes sparkle so beautifully in a while. Taehyung gave him a soft smile.

They stayed like that, neither of them falling asleep but basking in each other's warmth and comfort.

"How did I even get myself into this mess?" Jeongguk whispered after a while.

"It doesn't matter. We'll get out of it together"

Chapter Text

°³⁴° One Last Time?- ✵─────────

A loud knock on the door awoke Taehyung with a jolt from his land of dreams. He raised his head in his post-sleep confusion and rubbed his eyes to get rid of the blurry vision. Morning light poured through the gap between curtains, igniting the small room with an orangish light. He realized that he wasn't in Jimin's room like he had been for the past week or so. And the events of the previous night crashed down on him, a blush appearing on the apples of his cheeks as he remembered the way Jeongguk took care of him.

Another knock on his door had him snapping back to reality. Before he could get up and open the door, the handle rotated and a doll-like face peeked in from the small gap where Jieun had opened it.

"Good morning!" Jieun said, a smile appearing on her thin lips and eyes twinkling brightly. "Can I come in?"

Taehyung nodded quickly. Jieun walked inside and she closed the door behind her. She wore a blue blouse and a tight skirt, probably dressed up for work early in the morning. She walked around the bed and came to the side of the bed Taehyung lay on.

"Are you feeling better?" She asked.

Taehyung nodded. "Just a small headache"

Jieun nodded and placed her hand on Taehyung's forehead. "You still have the fever. Should we go to the doctor?"

"No, I'm fine, Mrs. Jeon. There's no need"

"Still..." Jieun sighed. "Jeongguk went to the pharmacy to get you some meds. He'll make you some soup when he comes back"

"I'm troubling you so much, Mrs. Jeon. I'm sorry. I'll go back today. There's no need for any of this"

"Nonsense. Jeongguk doesn't have anything to do today. Besides, Aria already left in the morning to some hangout of hers so Jeongguk really doesn't have any work. He can take care of you" Jieun said.

"I'm bothering you, still" Taehyung had his head bent as he fiddled with his fingers. Jieun is too nice to him. But all Taehyung does is steal her husband right under her nose.

"I feel like you're my own child, Taehyung. You aren't bothering us at all. Besides, I still don't understand why you decided to move out. You could've stayed with us as long as you want"

"I can't leech off you forever, Mrs. Jeon" Taehyung said with a chuckle.

Jieun laughed. "Do you have enough money for rent now?"

"When I get this month's pay, I'll have enough money to pay rent for two months. Besides, I also got some money from my mom so I think I'll have enough money for tuition for the next semester"

"That's good to hear. But you can crash here anytime"

"Thank you, Mrs. Jeon"

"Anytime. I just came here to check up on you. Jeongguk told me your fever went down yesterday but you slept for almost twelve hours and when we checked up on you last night, you had a high fever. So we didn't wake you up"

Taehyung nodded. "Thank you for everything"

Jieun smiled. "You need to eat something. I should get going now. I have a trial today"

"Okay, ma'am" Taehyung smiled at her.

"Oh! I almost forgot to tell you!" Jieun said, just as she turned to leave. "I found this place you can stay in"

"Oh"

"It's about twenty minutes away from your campus and it's owned by an old lady. One of my friends' sons had also stayed there. And it's actually cheap"

"Oh, can I get the address?" Taehyung said.

"Yeah. I'll text you the address," Jieun said. "Jeongguk had told me that you were looking for a cheaper place to stay. I think this place's rent is cheap. The boy who stayed there had just moved out"

"Thank you so much, Mrs. Jeon. This means a lot" Taehyung said, actually feeling grateful. Jieun was actually a nice person. She doesn't deserve to get cheated on like this.

"Anytime" She smiled. She started to walk towards the door but she turned around again, eyebrows furrowed together looking skeptic.

"By the way...is that...Jeongguk's sweater?"

Taehyung's heartbeat sped up, blood rushing to his face and ears and he tried his best not to look suspicious. "Oh! Yeah. Mr. Jeon gave it to me because I didn't have anything warm to wear yesterday..."

"Oh right! Of course. I bet that's comfy" Jieun smiled.

"It is," Taehyung said, forcing a smile. Jieun nodded and turned around to leave again.

"Oh, um..." Taehyung started.

Jieun turned around, confused. "Yeah?"

"Congratulations"

"For what?"

"For your pregnancy"

"Oh!" Jieun beamed. "Thank you. I assume Jeongguk told you?"

"Yeah"

Jieun grinned. "Our little date went incredible thanks to you. We don't usually leave Aria alone at night and I don't know where to leave her if you weren't here. I waited until that day to tell him about it. I wanted it to be special"

"Mr. Jeon took it well?"

"Of course! He was really happy” Jieun said with a wide smile. "I mean it's about time we had another child"

Liar

"Of course" Taehyung forced a smile. Her reply had come so naturally. As if she was familiar with lying. As if she’s been doing it half of her life.

"I'll leave now. I might not be home for dinner. Bye!"

Taehyung watched her leave, the door clicking shut behind her. He let out a sigh. His slight headache was pounding now. It wasn't like he expected her to tell him that Jeongguk was unhappy about the news. Taehyung thought that Jieun was the nicest person. She had been so welcoming to him. But hearing her lie, Taehyung wasn't so sure anymore.


It was in the late evening when Taehyung woke up feeling much better. Jeongguk had given him medicine in the morning, with some soup. He hadn't had any appetite for food so he refused to eat anything and went right back to sleep. He only woke up now.

He could feel that his temperature had gone down and his headache seemed to have eased up. Taehyung sat up on the bed and his limbs weren't hurting like they did the previous day from the fever. The medicine Jeongguk had bought him from the pharmacy seemed to have worked.

Taehyung gulped down some water from the glass that was placed on the nightstand and got onto his feet. He still wore Jeongguk's clothes. He walked to the bathroom, deciding to take wash as he hadn't had one in more than a day.

After about thirty minutes he was done. He got dressed in some of the clothes he had left behind: a loose t-shirt and old sweats. Outside, the sky had turned into different hues of purple, red, and orange from the rays of the dying sun.

He walked over to his bedside table, where his phone lay. He hadn't picked it up in more than a day. He unlocked it to see several missed calls from Jimin and his friends and a couple of dozen messages. He answered some of them, texting his friends that he was alright and that he'll be coming to Jimin's place soon. He also saw a text from Jieun; the address he had asked for.

Taehyung neatly folded the clothes that he had been wearing, which belonged to Jeongguk, on the bed and exited the room. He closed the door behind him and started walking towards the kitchen.

He could hear the sound of utensils. Someone was cooking. Taehyung guessed it must be Jeongguk because Jieun said she wouldn't be home for dinner.

Taehyung slowly made his way towards the kitchen. He would leave as soon as he can. What had happened the previous day was a mistake. However, happiness bubbled in his heart as he recalled the way Jeongguk had confessed to him. No matter how much Taehyung felt the same way or how much he wanted to be with Jeongguk, he couldn't. He needs to leave before he hurts himself anymore. He needs to leave before he drowns even further in this endless pit of darkness.

He approached the kitchen, only to see Jeongguk cutting some carrots while he softly hummed a tune. He wore a loose shirt with sleeved rolled up and gray sweatpants. He didn't see Taehyung and continued with his work. Taehyung watched from the entrance, heart aching so much. He ached to go touch him, kiss him, and tell him he loved him.

But he couldn't. So Taehyung watched from afar. If he doesn't leave now, all he would be able to do in his life is watch Jeongguk from afar. He might as well not look in Jeongguk's direction at all. Because Jeongguk wouldn't divorce his wife. Not now, especially when she's expecting a kid. There was literally no hope for them.

It hurt. It hurt unbearably for Jeongguk was the only person Taehyung finally opened his heart up to. Throughout his twenty years of life, there had been so many chances he could've fallen in love. But he refused to. All his high school years, he was busy chasing money that he didn't have the energy to contribute to a relationship. He hadn't known love, ever. He hadn't until he met Jeongguk.

And he ended up falling in love with someone that could never be his.

Taehyung couldn't help it, really. Jeongguk was so lovable. How could anyone not fall in love with him? Even though he cheated on his wife, he was truly a good person. He may be thirty years old. But he was a young soul. He had missed so much in his younger ages. What's so wrong with chasing after someone you actually love? Not someone who you were bound by a child with and you were forced to fall in love with?

Taehyung pitied Jeongguk. But there was nothing Taehyung could do about it. Part of him told him that if he leaves Jeongguk, he'd lose the one person he truly cared about. And Taehyung really didn't want to leave him because of that. But...

Jeongguk was raised his head shortly and caught glimpse of Taehyung standing by the door. The moment his eyes landed on the younger, his eyes lit up and an adorable smile stretched his lips upwards, exposing his adorable bunny teeth.

"Taehyung!" he said, cheerfully. "You woke up? I was making you some soup. Come here"

Taehyung walked towards the counter. Jeongguk's smile grew as he did. And Taehyung couldn't help but return that smile.

Jeongguk washed his hands and walked towards Taehyung, hands holding the smaller boy's wrists.

"How are you feeling now?" Jeongguk asked, a hand reaching up to check his temperature.

"I'm feeling much better"

Jeongguk hummed. "Your fever seems to have gone down. You're really okay?"

"Yeah. I was actually going to leave"

"Leave? I'm making you soup! And sandwiches! The way you like them"

Taehyung smiled. "It's fine. I should get going" Taehyung said. "Is Aria and Jieun home yet?"

"No. They won't be home for dinner" Jeongguk said. "I'm making dinner for the two of us"

"I should get going"

"What's the hurry? Stay for dinner"

Taehyung sighed. "Jeongguk we shouldn't..."

Jeongguk stared, doe eyes wide with confusion. "What do you mean?" He still held Taehyung's hand.

"What happened last night was a mistake"

A look of hurt flashed across the older's face.

"You're married and we don't have a future. Literally. There's no us , Jeongguk. You know that. You know that more than I do. And we should try to be happy separately. I need to leave you for your own good" Taehyung said. It hurt to say it. It hurt too much.

Jeongguk nodded. "I know. I'm sorry I confessed. I'm just screwing up your life more and more"

"No that's okay. I made you confess. I encouraged you to kiss me, cuddle me, and look where we ended up. Drowning in our uncontrollable emotions. But I'm glad you confessed. It's nice to see that someone actually loves me more than for my body"

"Oh Taehyung" Jeongguk said. He had hurt written all over his face. But this was meant to happen. He started fucking things up the moment he laid his eyes on Taehyung at the pub and decided to awaken his deepest darkest desires.

"Of course, I love you for more than your body. I love you for who you are all you've been and all you're going to be" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung let out a chuckle. "That would've sounded so romantic if we actually had the chance to date"

"True"

"You're the only person who knows about my past. Even Jimin doesn't know" Taehyung said.

"I'm glad you told me. I feel special now" Jeongguk smiled.

"You are special. You're the first person I fell in love with"

"I feel like you're also the first person I've actually loved. I'm starting to doubt if I even ever loved Jieun" Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"I'm sorry you had to go through all that"

"Yeah. It is what it is" Jeongguk said. "But at least I got Aria, right? I'm glad that she's my daughter"

"Even though she tried to get a piece of me even after you told her to stay away from me?" And after she tried to force herself on me?

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "Well...no"

Taehyung laughed.

"But she's still my daughter so I love her regardless of consequences"

"Whatever you say, mister"

Jeongguk smirked. "We're alone at the moment"

Taehyung raised an eyebrow. "And?"

"We can at least have dinner together before you leave"

"Oh yeah. Of course" Taehyung cursed himself for thinking about something else.

Jeongguk smirked. "It wouldn't take twenty minutes. Take a seat and wait"

"I'm good. How can I help?"

"You can't. I'm making you dinner" Jeongguk said, moving to the counter where he was cutting carrots earlier. Taehyung followed him. "Sit down and wait"

"You're such a brat," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk was about to pick up his knife but he halted. "Oh?"

"Oh," Taehyung smirked.

"Fuck off," Jeongguk said. "You were literally calling me daddy yesterday"

"I was sick!"

"You were in your right mind! You said you were the baby and I'm the daddy!"

Taehyung blushed scarlet as he remembered what he said. He wasn't feeling well. He needed to be taken care of!

"That was the fever talking!" Taehyung complained.

"So it was also the fever talking when you said you loved me too?"

"No!" Taehyung said quickly. "Of course not! I love you!"

"I love you too" Jeongguk grinned cheekily.

"You're such a kid," Taehyung said, rolling his eyes as he laughed.

"You're the only kid here," Jeongguk said and pinched Taehyung's cheeks.

Taehyung laughed. "Shut up. I'm literally going to leave you in like thirty minutes"

"Oh fuck" Jeongguk said. "I forgot"

Taehyung smiled, sadly. "I'm sorry. I know I'm all you got"

"Yeah that's true"

"And if I leave you'd have to be stuck with a woman you never had feelings for"

Jeongguk looked at Taehyung. "I'm sure I'll be fine if you would move on, really"

Taehyung studied Jeongguk. He looked so sad that it physically hurt to see Jeongguk like this.

"I'll be really okay if you're going to be happy," Jeongguk said. One of his palms reached to touch Taehyung's cheek. Taehyung immediately leaned into the touch, feeling relieved to have Jeongguk touch him.

"That's not fair. How can I be happy when you're not?" Taehyung whispered as he watched Jeongguk's doe eyes. Emotions swirled like galaxies inside them. So beautiful. Taehyung could stare into those starry eyes forever.

"As you said, we'll be happy separately"

"But you won't be happy"

"I'll try," Jeongguk said. "Maybe with the new baby..."

"A new baby isn't going to bring back your feelings for your wife"

"Taehyung" Jeongguk said softly. "What else can I do? I can't divorce her"

"Let's run away together"

Jeongguk let out a breathy chuckle. "That's so childish. This isn't a fairytale, Taehyung"

"Yeah, true" Taehyung said. "Maybe we'll be able to move on"

"Yeah. I'm just a small episode in your life, Tae. You're still young. You have your whole life ahead of you" They were dangerously close now.

Taehyung hummed. "I'll leave after dinner, then. I'll leave and never come back"

Jeongguk watched Taehyung closely. The older man's cheeks were scarlet. Their faces were so, so close that Taehyung could see the faint lines of freckles that decorated the apples of his cheeks; like stardust. Jeongguk was ethereally beautiful.

Taehyung leaned into his hand more, basking in the warmth maybe one last time.

"Yeah, you should" Jeongguk said. "All I want is for you to be happy"

"Hmm" Taehyung's lips ghosted over Jeongguk.

It was that magnetic pull again. That strange feeling that took over every atom of Taehyung's being every time they were together. And all Taehyung's mind told him was kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss

From the way Jeongguk searched Taehyung's face, he could tell that Jeongguk felt the same thing.

Maybe one last time...

Taehyung kissed Jeongguk. The moment his lips met Jeongguk's cold ones, Taehyung was over him. It was as if they were two beasts who hadn't preyed in weeks, they lusted after each other's lips. Taehyung had fisted his hands on Jeongguk's shirt pulling him further in and Jeongguk's hand that was on the back of his waist pushed his whole body towards himself.

It was all teeth and tongue. Taehyung had been starving. And he wanted more and more and more. He wanted Jeongguk. He wanted to do so much but-

Jeongguk pulled away, gasping. Saliva glistened his lips and his cheeks were flushed scarlet. His previously combed hair was a mess. A hot one though.

"We shouldn't" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung's breathing was uneven. "Yeah" He breathed out. "We shouldn't" And he smashed his lips against Jeongguk.

It wasn't much surprising when Jeongguk started kissing him with the same fierceness; the same hunger. The same need. It wasn't like the previous night, where it had been sweet and romantic. This was a full-on sexual kiss. They had been starved of this kind of thing. And Taehyung was feasting now,

Taehyung felt Jeongguk's hands travel to his ass and the next moment, he was being lifted up so effortlessly onto the kitchen counter- the island in the middle of the kitchen so that his back was facing the entrance of the kitchen. The kiss broke for a split second but Taehyung was quick to pull Jeongguk back in, their heads now on a level with each other. Jeongguk held the back of Taehyung's head, pushing him towards him more and their teeth crashed and tongues made wet noises in the silence of the house.

They finally pulled away after what felt like minutes. They were both gasping for breath at that point. But Taehyung wasted no time. His hands were quick to undo the buttons of Jeongguk's shirt.

"We shouldn't" Jeongguk whispered, gasping for breath as he did.

"Fuck yeah," Taehyung said as he snapped open the last button. "Come here"

Jeongguk did. He grabbed Taehyung from his hips and pushed him towards himself, their hips colliding and Taehyung could already feel Jeongguk's hardness through his sweatpants.

Taehyung let out a deep chuckle and Jeongguk wasted no time. He attached his lips onto Taehyung's neck. Taehyung closed his eyes and bit his lip as Jeongguk nibbled down Taehyung's neck, probably leaving a trail of bruises. He wanted to tell Jeongguk to hurry up and to fuck him because this will be their last time.

That's what Taehyung told himself when he decided to kiss Jeongguk. And that's what he said to himself as he reached to grab Jeongguk's hard cock through his sweats.

A rough moan escaped Jeongguk, lips leaving Taehyung's neck to look at him with eyes pooled with lust. So he grabbed the younger again and captured him in a knee-weakening kiss. He tilted his head, deepening the kiss, and their tongues tangled together yet again. Lust and need fuelled their kiss as they hungrily devoured each other.

There was a liquid fire burning through his veins, electricity sizzling through his spine and the excitement made Taehyung feel like he was going to combust. Jeongguk kissed him like there was no tomorrow. He poured all his love, need and lust into it and Taehyung felt like he could dissolve in the intensity.

He wanted to tell Jeongguk he missed him. He missed this. He missed being able to love Jeongguk. He missed being this close to him. He missed his kisses and touches. He missed the mind-blowing sex.

No one could fuck Taehyung the way Jeongguk does.

Jeongguk groaned into Taehyung's mouth. The sound reverberated through his bones and he could feel his cock twitch. Jeongguk's hands crept under Taehyung's shirt, feeling the soft skin under his hands, pinching here and there, as he kissed Taehyung. Soon the shirt was off and Jeongguk's hands were quick to move to Taehyung's sweatpants. He pulled them down, breaking the kiss while he did, and took out Taehyung's cock from his boxers.

Jeongguk pumped him up and down and Taehyung threw his head back, a moan escaping him. Jeongguk watched him, pure lust overflowing in his eyes. Taehyung couldn't just watch as Jeongguk pleasured him. So he struggled to take Jeongguk's cock out of his sweatpants.

Jeongguk stopped him. There was a devilish smirk adorning his lips and it had Taehyung's heart leaping in his chest. Jeongguk had taken hold of Taehyung's wrist and stopped him from taking off the older's sweats. He drew the hand away from his own waistband and instead, placed it over the sweatpants, making Taehyung feel his hardness through the material.

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed out. He doesn't remember being so aroused in a while. "So hard for me"

Jeongguk's smirk only grew. He attached his lips onto Taehyung's chest, sucked here, and nibbled there until he moved to his rosy nipples. A loud moan left Taehyung's lips as Jeongguk started sucking on his left nipple as he twirled the other between his thumb and index finger. Taehyung threw his head back, unable to contain the pleasure.

Jeongguk took liberty in torturing his nipples for another couple of minutes before leaving a trail of kisses and moving to his neck again. Taehyung felt Jeongguk's hands on his ass and he felt them squeeze the flesh over the thin material of his boxers before slowly taking them off.

Now, Taehyung sat naked on the kitchen counter of the Jeon household, his back facing the entrance of the kitchen. The granite was cold against his ass. But he didn't mind. Because he could feel Jeongguk's hands on his ass as he left more marks on Taehyung's neck.

"Fuck me now" Taehyung whined, losing his patience.

"Patience, baby" Jeongguk muttered against his neck. "I'll fuck you so good"

"I missed this, professor"

"I know baby. Me too" Jeongguk said. He licked a stripe along Taehyung's neck and the younger gasped.

Jeongguk's hand slipped under Taehyung's ass and he raised himself a little to allow access until Jeongguk's finger was prodding at his hole. Jeongguk's other hand was busy twirling a nipple. Taehyung was going insane with all the pleasure provided to him and his erection stood proudly between his flat stomach and Jeongguk's hard abs.

Taehyung reached to touch Jeongguk's cock. He could feel how hard it is. He could feel how big it is and Taehyung couldn't wait to have that inside him. No matter how many times Taehyung had taken Jeongguk, it felt like he could never get used to it.

Taehyung was about to slip his hand under Jeongguk's sweatpants and take out his cock when-

"D-Dad?"

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"D-dad?"

Jeongguk pushed Taehyung off the counter the moment he heard his daughter's voice. His heart beat erratically in his chest. And he wondered if he was dreaming; if he was trapped in a nightmare but no. His daughter stood at the entrance of the kitchen, eyes big and expression horrified. Her face reflected pure horror and disbelief. Tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Sweetie-"Jeongguk began. He didn't know what to say. His throat had closed up on its own and he felt like he was suffocating. There were no thoughts coming into his mind. His daughter had just walked in on him kissing another person who's not her mother. Aria knows now. This cannot be happening.

"Are you cheating on mom?"

Aria knows.

Aria sounded so broken that Jeongguk felt his heart break a million times. Tears had filled up his own eyes. His worst nightmare has come true. Jeongguk couldn't believe that this would happen now...

"It's not what you're thinking..." Jeongguk started, his own voice breaking from time to time. He himself was half-naked. And it so, so obvious that he was about to fuck a guy.

"W-was that Taehyung?" Aria was sobbing at this point. She couldn't see Taehyung as the boy was kneeling behind the kitchen island, away from Aria's view. But Aria isn't stupid. It's not difficult to put two and two together.

Aria fucking knows.

Jeongguk was trying to approach her but she started taking steps back as he started walking towards her.

"No Aria listen"

"You're cheating on mom!" Aria screamed. "With my boyfriend!"

"No, I didn't mean to....please Aria..."

"You're cheating on mom!" Aria screamed again. Jeongguk had never seen her sob so much.

"Please baby listen. I'm sorry" Jeongguk didn't know what to say at this point. He started to walk towards her.

"No, don't come close to me! You're disgusting! I hate you!" Aria screamed at Jeongguk. Without looking back, she ran out of the house.

"Aria!" Jeongguk ran after her. "Wait!"

"Don't come after me!" Aria screamed as she ran.

Jeongguk halted on the doorstep, contemplating whether he should follow her. He watched Aria run through the streets and take a turn, probably heading towards the park nearby.

Jeongguk sank to his knees at the doorstep.

"I'm sorry" Jeongguk heard a whisper behind him.

"It's not your fault. It's mine" Jeongguk whispered. "I..." Jeongguk couldn't form words. Soon he was shaking, loud sobs leaving him.

There were a million emotions swarming in his mind. Disbelief and shock clouded his mind. Fear sat on him like a pillow over his mouth and nose, making it hard for him to breathe. His insides felt like they were dying and he felt nauseous. He fisted his raven curls with his hands, pulling at them as uncontrollable sobs left him.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered and wrapped his arms around him.

"I should follow her," Jeongguk said. "It's getting dark"

"I think you should leave her alone for now. She might need some time alone" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk stayed silent. The neighborhood was safe. She would be fine, right?

"It'll be okay," Taehyung said.

"No, it won't. This is what I feared. The last thing I wanted. To fuck up Aria's life" he knew this would happen. He knew his truth would be out one day. He didn't think it would be this way. He was going to make things right. He was going to let Taehyung go and focus on his children. He was going to-

"You didn't fuck up her life, Gguk"

"Yes, I did. How is she supposed to live with what she saw?" Jeongguk let out, another sob shaking his whole body. "She saw me cheating on her mother. That's enough to fuck up her life, Taehyung"

Taehyung sighed.

"I'm such a bad father. I was so selfish, Taehyung. I didn't care about my daughter when I started cheating on Jieun. I didn't even care about you. I only cared about me. I'm so selfish"

"It's okay to be selfish sometimes" Taehyung sounded like he wasn't sure about what he was talking. "You're not a bad father. If you were, you wouldn't be worrying so much about what happened right now. And you were selfish in a way because you wanted to keep your family tact while you were trying to get back what you missed. I think it's okay"

Jeongguk shook his head. "I didn't want to divorce Jieun because it would affect the children's lives. Especially Aria's life. Divorce always affects children more than the parents. Because they're in the middle of it all. But this...this is worse than a divorce, Taehyung"

Taehyung tightened his embrace around Jeongguk.

For once, Taehyung's touch didn't bring him comfort. Instead, it burned. He wanted Taehyung to be away from him. All of this started because he couldn't control himself. Aria wouldn't ever have found out if Jeongguk was able to control himself.

It wasn't like he blamed Taehyung. He could never do that because Jeongguk was the only one at fault here.

"I think you should go," Jeongguk said finally.

Taehyung stilled. "Oh," he unwrapped his arms from Jeongguk's body. "Yeah I should leave"

"I'm not mad at you. You did nothing wrong" Jeongguk said.

A suffocating silence stretched between them. Then Taehyung hurried to put his clothes on and came back to the doorstep, where Jeongguk still knelt.

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said as he stepped out of the house.

"Not your fault," Jeongguk said. Taehyung looked hurt but Jeongguk didn't know what to tell him at that moment.

"I...um..." Taehyung stepped out of the house and paused, looking back at Jeongguk who now sat on the doorstep, head hung low as tears rolled down his cheeks. "She'll be fine. She'll cool off and come back"

Jeongguk nodded, wiping his tears with the back of his hand. Another silence stretched between them.

"Um...yeah I'll get going," Taehyung said awkwardly. "Goodbye, Jeongguk"

Jeongguk raised his head to look at Taehyung. He looked so sad. And it must've hurt to see Jeongguk like this. To hear Jeongguk talk to him like that. And it hurt to treat him like this but he just wanted to be alone. Jeongguk gulped down the bile in his throat.

It was then it suddenly dawned on him. Taehyung was right. He does treat Taehyung as a second priority. He always had. He just never realized it. And now the truth is crystal clear. Jeongguk's truth that he himself didn't know. When his family life is at stake, he would always choose his family over him. The family he had sacrificed his teenage years and twenties to build up.

It was the truth. Even though he loved Taehyung. Even though he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Taehyung. When Aria is involved, Taehyung would always come second.

Why wasn't it like that when he hooked up with Taehyung even after knowing he was Aria's boyfriend? Because he was greedy. He wanted Taehyung for himself. And also because they weren't supposed to be together because of obvious reasons. The fact only encouraged Jeongguk to think that he was doing the right thing. The right thing to himself, at least; to go after his desires because the sin has already been committed. Why not exercise the sin further, right?

However, when it was Aria's, his daughter's, future that was at stake, Taehyung came second. And he hated that it was like an automated reflex to a dangerous situation.

He loved Taehyung. But it was just that his daughter and the man he was in love with were two different dimensions in his life and he couldn't help but prioritize the more vulnerable one over the other.

He looked at Taehyung now, watching him with his big chocolate orbs, almond eyes filled with unshed tears. Jeongguk never intended to fall in love with the person he satisfied his deepest desires with. Now, as the consequences of his actions fell on him like a thousand bricks, crushing him beyond repair, he realized that being mournful and repentant about him hurting Taehyung is futile. It won't help him out of the pit he had fallen into.

So he let him go. Even though his heart screamed at him not to, that Taehyung was the only person he had. But his mind screamed that Aria is the only thing he actually has. That Aria was the most important person in his life. Aria, his daughter. Aria, the person he had lived this long for. The person he had sacrificed his youth for. He was choking on his sorrow. But he had no choice. He had to save himself from falling deeper into the dark pit.

"Goodbye, Taehyung"

Cheating never brought anyone any good anyway.


Darkness had started to fall upon the streets by the time Taehyung reached Jimin's dorm. The sky was starless; empty just like the way Taehyung felt. He felt numb. But he could also cry a river. The pain was so much that it numbed his whole body.

However, Taehyung had this coming. Jeongguk had this coming. They were bound to be caught sooner or later. He was just worried about Jeongguk. Taehyung couldn't imagine what he could be going through right now. He just hoped Jeongguk would find a way out of this mess. And it would be harder for him since Taehyung will no longer be there to support him

Taehyung had just been dumped. But hell, he wasn't even in a relationship. Taehyung had to make up his heart.

In fact, his brain had already started organizing things for him, no matter how much his heart wept. Taehyung had called the number of the address Jieun had sent him on his way back from Jeongguk's place. He was going to do it anyway. An old lady had picked up and told him he could visit to take a look anytime. Realizing he has to move out of Jimin's room sooner rather than later, he had told the old woman that he would visit in around an hour.

Taehyung knocked on Jimin's room now. He heard ruffling from inside and footsteps approaching the door. Soon, the door opened and Jimin's doll-like face popped up behind it. Upon seeing Taehyung, Jimin sighed and opened the door wider.

"Taehyung!" Jimin said, wrapping his arms around Taehyung tightly. "I've been worried about you!"

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said, resting his head on his best friend's shoulder. "I was sick"

"Did you take meds?"

"Yeah. Jeongguk took care of me"

Jimin dragged Taehyung inside and made him sit on his bed. "What happened?"

"It's over" Taehyung forced a smile.

"Oh my baby bear," Jimin said and wrapped his arms around him and Taehyung told him the whole thing as tears rolled down his cheeks. Taehyung sobbed uncontrollably afterwards and Jimin cold only offer him comfort by whispering sweet nothings to him and caressing his back.

Jimin had told him that what they had wasn't going to end well. But Taehyung never listened. All he wanted was to chase that thrill of being with someone who couldn't be his. And as Jimin had warned him, he had fallen for the said man. And just like Jimin had warned him, Jeongguk had proved over and over again that he would choose his family over Taehyung. Even when they were both in love with each other. That Taehyung was the easily disposable part in his life; if he was a part in his life at all.

After almost thirty minutes of spending time with his best friend, Taehyung gulped down some leftover Chinese food of Jimin and set out on his journey to see the room Jieun had told him about. Jimin agreed to it because they had no other choice. It was only a matter of time until the landlady came back and Taehyung would get kicked out again. Even though he currently had sufficient money to pay his rent for about two months, it would be easier if he could find a cheaper place.

Taehyung arrived at the said destination in around thirty more minutes. He had taken the bus there. The place was about a twenty-minute taxi drive away from the campus like Jieun had told him. It was a couple of miles away from the town, where the roads were busier. Here, the roads were rather peaceful. Just like the area Jeongguk lived in. It looked like a friendly neighborhood, with their two-story houses.

Taehyung walked down the narrow road, trying to find the number of the house. When he finally did, he saw a small house with a couple of plants in the front yard and porch and a carpet that said Welcome right in front of the door.

Taehyung pushed the doorbell and after a few seconds, a short, old woman with a friendly face opened the door.

"Oh Hello!" She chirped the moment she saw Taehyung. "You must be Taehyung"

"Yes ma'am," Taehyung said, offering her a smile.

"Well come on in!" She said and took slow steps into the house. Taehyung quietly followed her as he looked around the house. The woman stopped in the living room.

"Take a seat, will you?" She said, a smile lighting up her greying eyes. "Would you like some tea? Did you have dinner, my child? Oh, look how thin you are!"

"I did, ma'am," Taehyung said, grinning. "Thank you"

"I'll get you some tea, then. I just baked some cookies this evening!" she said and headed further into the house.

Taehyung sat on a sofa in the brightly lit living room. There were knitted rugs all over the place. Even on the sofas. There was an old-looking TV and some more plants here and there. The house smelled like cookies and something about the place made Taehyung feel really warm and welcoming.

After a few minutes, the woman came into the room with some biscuits and tea. "Here you go. Eat as much as you want"

Taehyung took a cookie and started munching on it. "This is delicious!" Taehyung said

The woman grinned in delight. "My grandson used to love them. He's in California right now. I think he's around your age. He comes by for a visit every now and then. Oh, I almost forgot! I'm Mrs. Hooper"

"It's a pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Hooper," Taehyung said, the woman, who turned out to be a real friendly person and reminded Taehyung much of his late grandmother. She told him how she has been providing vacancies to students for almost a decade now. She also told him that she was so used to it that having no one over made her sad.

When they finally went upstairs to see the rooms, Taehyung found out that it was an ordinary room. Much smaller than the room he stayed at Jeongguk's. But there was a bed, a cupboard and a desk, which was more than enough. Taehyung was actually pleased.

The rent was cheaper. And Taehyung was glad for that.

"I can give you breakfast. No need to pay" Mrs. Hooper said as they came downstairs.

"There's really no need, Mrs. Hooper. I can manage" Taehyung said.

"Listen here, kid. I have more and enough money and I really would love it if I could make breakfast for two people in the morning, hmm? So don't be so stubborn. All of you are just like my grandson" She muttered in the last part.

"Thank you, ma'am. I appreciate it" Taehyung said.

"So you'll move in?" She asked.

"Yes. When can I move in?"

"Well if you want you can even move in right now!"

Taehyung grinned. "I'll move in tomorrow. Thank you"

"You're welcome. I'll be home anytime so you can come here anytime. And do tell me of you're running late"

"Sure ma'am," Taehyung said. "I'll see you tomorrow"


Jeongguk lay sprawled on the sofa. It was almost nine o'clock at night and Aria still hadn't come back. After Taehyung left, he had just laid on the sofa, feeling like shit as tears rolled down his cheeks.

He never cried. He doesn't remember crying, like actually sobbing after he got married to Jieun. It was only when Taehyung came into his life on a few occasions that had he actually cried. And Jeongguk felt like he had become softer at heart after meeting Taehyung. He had become a better version of himself. Even though Taehyung managed to bring out his worst desires. But he also had the best and happiest days when he spent time with Taehyung.

There were dried tears all over his face but he had no motivation to go wash his face. Aria's words kept playing in his mind like a broken record. Pain shot through his chest every time he heard them.

You cheated on mom? You're disgusting! I hate you!

Jeongguk sniffled as he unlocked his phone. He checked to see if Aria had texted him. He had checked every minute, for the last two hours. But to no avail, not a single notification popped up. Not a single call.

He wanted to tell Jieun about Aria but how would he explain it to her? What is he supposed to say? Oh I was having sex with my student and our daughter walked in on us? And newsflash! I'm cheating on you!

That's not going to work. The truth is out now and he had to tell Jieun about it. But he just didn't want to do it over the phone.

Aria is old enough to return home, right? This neighborhood was safe and friendly after all.

Jeongguk sighed and closed his eyes. His eyes burned from all the crying. He let out a sigh out of dread. He was finally about to get up from the sofa when his phone started ringing.

Jeongguk sat up with a jolt and looked at his screen, fully expecting to see Aria's contact pop up. But disappointment washed over him as he saw that it was an unknown number.

Jeongguk let out a disappointed sigh and slid his thumb over the call icon. "Hello?"

"Hello? Is this Jeon Jeongguk speaking?" a man's voice spoke.

"Yes?"

"Sir I'm a police officer speaking. Your daughter, Aria is on the way to the hospital right now"

"W-what? What..." Jeongguk's heart hammered in his chest. Confusion flooded his mind.

"Aria was hit by a car"

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Jeongguk's mind buzzed as he ran through the hallways of the hospital, head turning side to side in confusion trying to find the emergency room. The hospital was fairly void of people since it was almost ten in the night. His heart hammered in his chest, fear clouded his mind and he was at the brink of tearing up.

It had taken him about twenty minutes to drive to the hospital. After he heard the news, he had been dumbfounded. He was confused but then he was panicking, never having been in this kind of situation. He had thrown on a pair of jeans and quickly driven to the nearest hospital, where Aria was hospitalized, at full speed.

As he ran through the almost empty hallways, panic fuelling his every step and every pump of his heart, he realized one thing.

Jeongguk was scared.

He was scared of what will happen. He had no clue what was happening and everything seemed to be crashing down on him all at once. He was vulnerable, standing in front of a conflict that he had no means of getting out of. And he was angry that he was the one who caused it. He caused the biggest fucked up situation he could ever have caused and it was not only sucking out his own and Jieun's happiness, but also his daughter's and his one true love's.

His daughter's life was at stake all because of him. All because he couldn't fucking control himself.

Jeongguk halted at the sign that read Emergency Room and looked around. He saw Jieun sitting in front of the room, her head in her hands. Jeongguk took a deep breath and started walking towards her.

Jieun looked up as Jeongguk approached her.

"Oh, Jeongguk!" Jieun said, standing up. Her hair was a mess and tears stained both cheeks. She was usually a neat and tidy person. But now, she looked absolutely wrecked.

Jeongguk wrapped his arms around her, letting her weep into his shoulder.

"Jieun" Jeongguk whispered. He could feel the sob threatening to escape his own throat. "How...where is she?"

"She's still in there. They had brought her here like ten minutes ago and..." Jieun let out another painful sob. "They're still treating her"

"Wh..what did the doctors say?"

"I just got here, Gguk" Jieun said, sniffling. "They didn't say anything yet"

"Oh" Jeongguk held Jieun like that for a while, one hand securely wrapped around her waist and the other stroking her hair. There were no thoughts crossing his mind as he hugged his wife. Instead, he was shaking with fear. He wanted to shout and scream and sob but no. He felt numb...as if it's all a nightmare.

"Our baby..." Jieun sobbed. "She'll be alright, wouldn't she?"

Jeongguk shook his head. "Yes," He let out, but barely. A tear trailed down his cheek and then another. Then another, until he was a crying mess himself.

Of course, his daughter would be alright. Of course, she'll wake up. Jeongguk didn't want to think about anything else. It's simply not possible.

Jeongguk and his wife sat on the rows of metal chairs that were deserted except for another person or two who were dozing off. Jieun rested her head against Jeongguk's shoulder and sniffled from time to time. Jeongguk didn't know how long they stayed like that. Jeongguk was lost in thought the whole time and Jieun didn't attempt to make conversation either. She kept sniffling and new tears made their way down her cheek every once in a while. Other than the occasional squeeze Jeongguk gave her as she held his hand, there was nothing.

The doctor finally came out, a couple of nurses rushing out behind him. Jeongguk and Jieun stood up in an instant as they saw the lady doctor.

"Are you the patient's parents?" she asked.

"Yes," Jeongguk answered. "How is she?"

"She's okay"

Jeongguk and Jieun sighed in relief. Jeongguk could finally breathe after what felt like hours. It was as if a huge weight was lifted off his shoulders.

The doctor continued, "The vehicle had hit her quite hard. So there are a lot of bruises and one of her ribs is broken. And her left arm is also broken. Her ankle was sprained. There were some cuts in various parts of her body. We treated her. She's unconscious. There's a chance she might go into a coma...but that's if worse comes to worst"

"But she'll be okay?" Jieun asked.

"Most probably. Hopefully, she won't go into a coma. She will have to stay in the hospital for a few weeks even after she wakes up, though" The doctor said.

"Oh thank you so much," Jieun said.

"Of course" She smiled. "You can go see her"

"Thank you, doctor," Jeongguk said.

The doctor smiled at him. "You might want to check in with the reception desk and supply them with some documents," she said and started walking away.

Jieun rushed at the moment she left. Jeongguk followed her.

Jeongguk's heart sank the moment she saw Aria on the hospital bed. There were bandages all over her body and she wore a white hospital gown. Her face was swollen and there were bandages on her forehead too.

Jieun let out a sob the moment she saw Aria. Jeongguk caught her before he sank into her knees.

The nurse that stood next to Aria rushed off quickly out of the room after injecting her with some liquid, leaving Jeongguk and Jieun with Aria. 

"My baby" Jieun sobbed. "My baby" she whispered continuously like a chant as she let out heart-wrenching sobs.

"At least she's alright, hmm?" Jeongguk said as his wife sobbed in his arms. "She's going to be alright"

"Yeah," Jieun said. Jeongguk's heart ached. He had never seen his daughter in such a severe condition. She had only been hospitalized a couple of times when she was younger. But never like this. And Jeongguk still couldn't fathom what was happening. His mind was still buzzing with confusion as if this wasn't reality.

There was a pulse oximeter attached to her hand and a constant beep came out of it, indicating her pulse. There was an IV line attached to her arm and an oxygen mask on her face. The sight itself horrified Jeongguk. Can his daughter not breathe by herself?

Jieun held Aria's hand as she wiped the tears that seemed to fall out of her eyes like a waterfall. Jeongguk ran his hands through his hair in frustration. He couldn't help but blame the incident on his actions. The consequences of cheating had become more severe than he had ever imagined.

Jeongguk headed out of the room and slumped down on a chair. He couldn't bear to watch his daughter in such a condition. It hurt him like crazy. He tugged at his raven locks in frustration, fresh tears gathering up in his eyes and the need to let out a sob becoming stronger by every passing minute.

His life was crumbling down in front of him and he was suffocating under the weight of a destiny he couldn't control. He couldn't imagine something happening to his little girl. He had sacrificed most of his life for her and if something happens to her...

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. Jieun came out of the room after a few minutes and sat next to Jeongguk. She took his hands in hers.

"The nurse told me to stay outside," Jieun said, her voice heavy with worry. "They're still treating her I think. And it's the emergency room after all. They're keeping her in there until she regains consciousness"

Jeongguk nodded. "She'll be up soon," Jeongguk told her. But it sounded like he was trying to convince himself that, more than to Jieun.

They stayed like that for a few more minutes, both of them lost in their thoughts.

"You should go home. Get yourself changed and rest up a little. You must be tired" Jeongguk said after a while.

"I'm okay," Jieun said.

"You should go. I'll stay. Will call you if something happens" Jeongguk said. "Besides she won't probably regain consciousness so soon, I think"

Jieun sighed. "How can I do anything when she's suffering like that?" a sob escaped her throat. "I can't..."

"Please, Jieun" Jeongguk said. "It won't take thirty minutes, hmm? Go, now. It's fine. Just put some comfortable clothes on. You're still in your work clothes and you've been wearing them for like fifteen hours now"

Jieun sniffled.

After an hour or so, Jeongguk was able to convince Jieun to go home and get a change. She only went because the doctor said that they can't visit Aria until morning.

Jeongguk leaned back on the metal chair and let out a sigh. The hospital was deserted except for a couple of nurses who wandered by every once in a while. Jeongguk didn't know when or how he dozed off. He woke up when Jieun sat next to him, having returned after a bath and change of clothes. She put her head on his shoulder and took his hand in hers. He welcomed her warmth, the comfort. This was his daughter’s mother. They had raised her together. So Jeongguk sighed, feeling himself relax a little in her presence. And he passed out soon as exhaust crashed down on his body.


"You sure about this place?"

Taehyung looked up from his phone to see Jimin standing on the edge of his bed, his face scrunched with worry.

"Yeah," Taehyung said, mouth filled with the bread of the sandwich Jimin had made him that morning. "Jieun told me about it"

"I don't know, man" Jimin muttered. "That lady sounds kinda sus"

Taehyung chuckled. "She was really nice. Besides I trust Jieun"

"The irony oh lord! You helped her husband cheat on her you bitchass! Talk about trust"

"That's not the point!"

"You can stay here for like two months, Taehyung. You have money, right?"

"Yeah but I'll be able to save up for tuition if I stay in that place" Taehyung said, gulping down the last piece of bread. "Don't worry. If she's a psychotic bitch I'll kung fu kick her ass down the stairs"

Jimin scoffed. "You don't even know Kung Fu"

"Just don't worry, okay? I'll be fine. You need to stop thinking everyone who offers help is sus. You have some serious trust issues for real"

Jimin let out a sigh as Taehyung stood up. He took his small suitcase and bag filled with books and smiled at Jimin.

"I have some of my clothes at Jeongguk's place...I don't know if I could even go there after he basically kicked me out yesterday" Taehyung said.

"He's a dick," Jimin said, following Taehyung outside.

"He's not, Jimin. I mean I understand him. He can't choose his lover over his daughter"

Jimin rolled his eyes. "You're too nice, Tae"

It was Taehyung's chance to roll his eyes. "We're done. I'm going to get over him. Forget about the first-ever person who I fell in love with. I'm going to move on" Taehyung felt like choking up uttering those words.

Jimin wrapped his arms around him. "I know. You're strong enough for that. Just don't go back to him, okay?"

"Okay," Taehyung whispered. "I'm going to change his class too. I'm going to take Professor Hudson's class instead"

"The old dude who teaches History of Arts? I heard he was boring so most people take Mr. Jeon's class"

"Yeah, but I have to. So I won't meet him at all"

"Okay, good" Jimin said. "The next semester is starting the week after the next. Get ready"

"I will," Taehyung said and bid goodbye to Jimin.

By the time he reached Mrs. Hooper's apartment, it was almost midday. He rang the bell and the old woman opened the door, greeting him with a bright smile.

"Oh hello!" She said, eyes crinkling at the edges as she waved him inside. "Come on in! I swept your room and all is ready. You just need to unpack"

"Oh, Mrs. Hooper you didn't have to!" Taehyung said.

"Nonsense! I have nothing much to do in this house. I'll make you some lunch, then?"

"No ma'am! I'm fine, really. I'll grab some lunch-"

"I'm making you lunch. I'll be making for myself so I can make for you too" Mrs. Hooper said. "You eat chicken, right?"

"Yes, ma'am. Thank you" Taehyung watched her walk towards the kitchen with a grin, feeling thankful.

He started making his way upstairs and found his room. He closed the door behind him and before he could start overthinking or possibly start thinking about Jeongguk, he started unpacking. The last thing he wanted at that moment was another breakdown because of his former lover.


Jeongguk sat in the hospital cafeteria as he munched on a burger. He looked out of the window, seeing kids playing around in the small play area of the hospital.

Jieun sat in front of him. She stared blankly at her untouched burger, lost in thought. There were bags under her eyes. She looked stressed out.

It's the second day since Aria was admitted to the hospital. The day after she was admitted, both of them stayed in the hospital, hoping she would wake up any time soon. But she hadn't. Jieun and Jeongguk took turns and went home to rest up a bit. But neither of them had slept. Other than a couple of hours at night when they stayed outside the ER, they hadn't slept. Jieun hadn't eaten anything. Jeongguk had made her drink some hot beverages, which she gulped down with distaste. Even now, Jeongguk had forced her to come to grab something to eat.

"Eat, please?" Jeongguk said.

Jieun snapped back to reality. She nodded and hesitantly took a bite. Jeongguk watched her as she slowly munched on it. Neither of them had gone to work the previous day and even on this day, they decided to stay in the hospital.

Jeongguk himself had no appetite and the burger tasted like sand in his mouth. But he was starving.

"Did you tell Taehyung?" Jieun asked out of nowhere.

Jeongguk almost choked on his burger. "W-What?"

"Did you tell Taehyung about what happened to Aria?" Jieun asked.

"No," Jeongguk said, confused. "Why tell him ?"

"Aren't they friends?"

"Um...I guess?"

"You should tell him. Call him"

Jeongguk gulped. He had been able to avoid the topic of Taehyung for more than twenty-four hours and the last thing he wanted to do was hear his voice. He'll have another breakdown for sure. It hurt to leave him. But he had promised himself that he won't go back to that boy. It'll ruin them both of he did.

"I can't..." Jeongguk mumbled. "You tell him"

"Jeongguk don't be childish. You're more close to him than me. He’s your friend"

"He doesn't need to know"

Jieun sighed. "Jeongguk...I didn't tell you but..."

Jeongguk looked up at his wife.

Jieun thought for a moment and continued. "I don't know this for sure. But I think there's something going on with Taehyung and Aria"

Jeongguk narrowed his eyes at that.

"I think Aria likes him but I don't think Taehyung feels the same way. Besides, he told me he was gay"

"He said that?" Jeongguk asked. Taehyung was bisexual.

"Yeah. When I asked him to stay away from Aria"

"You asked him that?" Jeongguk asked, aghast.

"Yeah. They can't be together," Jieun said. "He's much older and Aria is only sixteen! I mean I love Taehyung but he just can't..."

"Yeah I know. He doesn't feel the same way"

"I thought so. I was quite nervous about him staying here so I found him a place to stay too. I started looking into it the days he came to stay with us, just because you told me to. And I told him about this place one of my friends' sons stayed. It just got vacant"

"Thank you," Jeongguk said, feeling relieved that Taehyung doesn't have to go looking for places again.

Jieun nodded and took another bite from her burger. "You should go home after this," She said. "You didn't go last night"

"I'm okay," Jeongguk said. He could barely sleep the previous night.

"I'll stay and you go home. We need her insurance documents so bring them too" Jieun said.

"Oh," Jeongguk said. "Okay then" Maybe he could use an hour or two of sleep. And a good bath.

"The documents are in our room. You know where we keep certificates and stuff? I think it was there. If not there, probably in my study. You know that drawer? Probably in there. It can’t be on the bottom of the drawer, though. It's filled with old case notes. So look in the upper drawers"

"The one in the corner? The one you never use?" Jeongguk said.

"Yeah. That one"

"What's in that drawer? Looks like a pile of trash inside it"

"It's just my documents, okay?" Jieun said, a glint of a smile appearing on her lips. But it soon faded away. "I keep old documents there, that's all. Mostly case files"

"Okay. I'll get it" Jeongguk said.

By the time Jeongguk reached home, it was almost midday. It felt like he had permanently resided in the hospital and walking into his own home felt alien.

He took a long bath, feeling himself calm down as hot water drops trickled down his body. Afterwards, he lay in bed a little, lost in thought.

His stray thoughts found Taehyung. And all of a sudden his mind was overflowing with thoughts of him and tears had gathered up in his eyes. He wondered how he was doing. Jeongguk hadn't met him in days. And he surely hurt Taehyung the other day when he asked the boy to leave. He regretted it. But he doubted if he had a better choice.

He longed to hear his voice. He longed to be in his presence. Jeongguk knew Taehyung's presence would bring him comfort. With a single word from him, all his worries would fade away.

Jeongguk was madly in love with him. He missed Taehyung like crazy. And it had only been two days. Even though his mind had been occupied with thoughts and worries of Aria, he longed to be with Taehyung. Only Taehyung could make him feel better.

It hurt him immensely to let go of Taehyung. And the realization that he had already cut ties with him and would never be able to hold Taehyung or kiss his soft lips and just hear him whisper sweet nothings to him, made his heart ache uncontrollably.

But he knew what he did was right. Even though it wasn't the best for himself, it was the best he could do for the people around him. It's the best for Taehyung. Taehyung would be better off without him. He would be able to fall in love with someone who is available. Someone who would give up their whole world for him. Jeongguk's whole world was his daughter. And his daughter isn't someone he could just give up. The other baby on the way was the other main reason he couldn't give up what he built most of his life.

Taehyung was just the right person at the wrong time.

He curled up on his bed hoping to get some sleep. But sleep seemed nowhere close as he waited, eyes closed shut. His whole body was tensed and his heart was heavy with worry. And sadness, now that Taehyung had occupied his mind.

He just lay there awake and lost in thought again. Since falling asleep seemed useless, he got up, got dressed in jeans and a t-shirt to get back to the hospital. He started searching for the documents.

After about twenty minutes of scanning through the drawers of their room, he still couldn't find it. He walked downstairs towards the study. He couldn't help the empty feeling that overwhelmed his whole body as he saw Taehyung's room, right in front of the study. He ignored it and stepped into the study.

He started searching in the abandoned drawers belonging to Jieun. As she said, it was filled with old case files. He started searching the drawer with documents filled to the brim. He scanned each and everyone, hoping to see find one with Aria's insurance documents. Finally, he found one with her birth certificate and some other documents. He pulled it out from the drawer and two other documents fell with it.

He scanned the document in his hand and found the insurance card and some other sheets of paper inside the file. He happily took them out and put the file back inside. He placed the papers on the desk and reached for the files that fell on the ground.

He didn't pay any mind to the files, thinking they were some more law-related files. But just as he was about to put them inside, some papers fell from the file and scattered all over the ground.

Jeongguk cursed to himself and bent down to pick them up and put them back inside when something peculiar caught his attention.

The papers were blank. All of them. He shrugged and started picking up the pile when he saw a printed sheet of paper amidst the blank papers. A single sheet.

Jeongguk narrowed his eyes as he took the sheet in his hands. He wondered if he should be doing this. He wondered if it was right to look through this. The drawer consisted of Jieun's things. And Jeongguk never went through her stuff. There had never been a need to nor was he intrusive like that. Besides, everything was law-related and Jeongguk had no business in that.

However, Jeongguk couldn't help the curiosity that tugged his mind to look at the sheet of paper. The paper contained a graph and Aria Jeon.

He scanned over the letters in the document and...

What the actual fuck...

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•°³⁰°• Caught in a Lie ─✵────────

DNA test report , the title on top of the paper read.

Jeongguk narrowed his eyes as he tried to take a better look at the small letters of the paper. Confusion clouded his mind, as he didn't remember any DNA test being done for his daughter. Like ever.

At the bottom of the document read Probability of Paternity- 99.998%

Jeongguk scanned the document over and over again. Alleged father , one side of the graph read, and under it was no name. On the other side, name of child , which said Jeon Aria . Maybe Jieun took a DNA test to confirm that Jeongguk was the father. But why wasn't his name there?

Jeongguk, a little bit suspicious of the certain document, started scanning the other words in it. The report aged back to fifteen years, around the time Aria was born. There was a column that said blood type . The first column showed Aria's blood type, which was A positive , and then the father's blood type, which said O positive .

Jeongguk's head started to buzz with confusion.

Jeongguk's blood type was B positive . Not O positive .

Jeongguk quickly scanned through the document again, just to be sure if he had seen it correctly. O positive. That's not his blood type... why didn't it say B positive as it should've? Maybe they made a mistake. Of course, they did.

"Jeongguk?!" A voice called from the living room and the front door clicking shut echoed through the house. The sound of Jieun's heels tapping against the wooden floor followed.

"Jeongguk where are you?!" her voice sounded rushed. Impatient.

Jeongguk couldn't answer her. He was still confused. There were no rational thoughts crossing the mind. Other than question marks.

"Jeongguk!" Jieun said as she walked inside the study. "I called you. But you didn't answer the phone"

"The battery is dead" Jeongguk muttered.

"Oh of course" Jieun forced a smile. "Let's go back. Grab some things on the way too. Come on" She said and walked towards Jeongguk. Her eyes wandered to the paper in Jeongguk's hands.

When she approached him, she tried to take the document from his hands. But Jeongguk's grip tightened.

"Wh-What's this?" Jeongguk asked, eyeing Jieun with doe eyes, wide and confused.

"What? What's what?" Jieun said. Her face was red and she was trying hard not to let her smile drop.

"This" Jeongguk said. "What paternity test?! We didn't take one"

"Oh, that" Jieun let out a chuckle.

"Did you take one? You took one because you wanted to confirm I'm the father, right? Just in case, right?" Jeongguk said.

"Yes, of course," Jieun said. "My parents wanted me to take one. How ridiculous right? Now let's go"

"But my blood type isn't O positive," Jeongguk said, looking into Jieun's eyes.

Jieun stayed silent as she stared back into his eyes.

"It's a mistake, right?" Jeingguk said.

"Yeah of course. I didn't even notice it" Jieun said, smiling. She was always smiling.

Jeongguk shook his head. "No" He whispered.

"What? What do you mean, Jeongguk? Are you alright? This isn't the time to talk about this! Your daughter is in the hospital!"

"Is she though?"

"What?"

"Is my daughter in the hospital?" Jeongguk whispered.

"Jeongguk what are you-"

"Is it mine or some other bastard's you fucked?!" Jeongguk shouted. Jieun flinched.

The woman took a step back from him. "Jeongguk what-"

Jeongguk took a step towards his wife. "You fucked another man before or after me, right? That's why you took a test. A paternity test"

"Jeongguk I'm-" tears started rolling down her cheeks.

"You said I'm the first person you slept with. You said you had a crush on me too" Jeongguk whispered.

Jieun shook her head as sobs left her mouth.

"Jieun" Jeongguk whispered. He held his wife by her shoulders. "You're my wife. Tell me the meaning of this. Say the truth. Please "

"Jeongguk" Jieun sobbed. "Please. I had no choice"

Jeongguk was confused. Deep down he knew what had happened. But that couldn't be true. It just couldn't...

"I'm sorry. I didn't have the courage to tell you"

"Tell me what?"

"That...That Aria.." Jieun was sobbing loudly.

"Aria what?"

That...Aria isn't yours" Jieun let out another sob.

Jeongguk felt his hands drop from her shoulders . Did he hear her right? Aria isn't...? How? He isn't...

"What..." Jeongguk whispered.

Jieun tried to hold his hand but he shook it off.

"Jieun," Jeongguk said. He couldn't keep a straight face anymore. Tears cascaded down his face. One by one. "You're lying, right? Tell me you are. This is a prank right?"

Jieun shook her head.

"Jieun this isn't a time to joke" Jeongguk let out a laugh. But a sob escaped his throat instead.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I was going to tell you"

"When!?" Jeongguk shouted. The loudness of his own voice surprised him. He had never raised his voice at Jieun. Ever.

"After you destroyed had my whole life?"

Jieun sobbed.

"Destroying my whole childhood, teens and twenties weren't enough? Are you serious right now?"

"Jeongguk please-"

"What do you mean she isn't my child? Do you know how ridiculous you sound? I raised her, Jieun. I raised Aria. I sacrificed my whole life for a child who isn't even mine?! Is that what you're telling me?"

Jieun just sobbed.

"When were you going to tell me huh?" Jeongguk shouted. He couldn't control himself. anger was bubbling uncontrollably inside him. "After you destroy another thirty years of my life? Sixteen years isn't enough for you?"

"I'm sorry"

"You could've told me!"

"I'm sorry"

Jeongguk's head felt like it was going to burst. He was still in denial of the situation. But the truth was slowly creeping into him. He needed to get out before it completely got into him.

Jeongguk started to walk out.

"Where are you going?" Jieun asked, following him.

"Away from you"

"Jeongguk I'm your wife! Where will you go without me? You can't leave me"

"Shut the fuck up" Jeongguk roared with anger. "Is that why you married me? Because you wanted me to never leave you and your child?"

"Jeongguk no!"

"Leave me alone" Jeongguk was almost at the front door when he felt someone grab his leg. He almost stumbled and fell.

He looked down to see Jieun on the floor, weeping as she held on to Jeongguk's leg.

"Please don't leave me, Jeongguk. I love you"

"And I fucking hate you"

Jieun let out a loud sob.

"You ruined my life!" Jeongguk said. "Let me go. I can't bear to see your face"

"Listen to me!" Jieun said as Jeongguk tried to shake her off.

Jeongguk freed his leg from her grasp and she sobbed as she knelt on the floor.

"Fuck you" Jeongguk cursed.

"I'm sorry. I didn't have a choice. I thought it was yours at first. Because we had sex-"

"Did we though? I don't even trust my memory anymore. And we were drunk" Jeongguk said.

"Of course we did! I remember clearly! You said you had a crush on me!" Jieun said.

"Whatever"

"And I took a test after she was born but I couldn't tell you because you said she looked pretty and all-" Jieun said.

Jeongguk let out a laugh. "I didn't fucking want a kid at fifteen, Jieun! I said so not because I wanted a kid, for fuck's sake. Not because I loved the kid!"

"I didn't have a choice okay? I didn't want her to grow up without a father!" Jieun said, tears streaming down her face uncontrollably.

"You're nothing but a selfish bitch" Jeongguk was fuming with anger. "You would rather sacrifice my life instead of hers huh? Making me believe that I was doing the right thing by taking responsibility. I was a kid myself, Jieun. And you were a year older than me even! You ruined my whole life!"

"But Aria is still your daughter. Jeongguk you love her. She loves you . You're her father. Not anyone else!"

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "Well, I didn't want to be her father. And no I'm not her father. I'm not her father!" Jeongguk laughed. "Did you hear that? I'm not Aria's father"

"Jeongguk..."

"Because of what you did, I didn't even have time to figure out my sexuality. What if I'm gay? Everyone gets crushes. And I was fifteen when I crushed on you! What did I ever even know?! I never had the chance to be a normal teenager or college student. When my friends were out partying, I came home to take care of Aria. When my friends were getting drunk and hooking up with random people, clubbing all night, I was feeding Aria instead, and trying to stop her from crying. You ruined my whole life, Jieun"

"I'm sorry! I didn't think so far when I decided not to tell you the truth. But we raised Aria together. She is our daughter! Your daughter! Biology doesn't matter. What if she had to grow up without a father? I can't raise her alone! I was only sixteen too. And her actual father wouldn't take responsibility! How could I ever tell her that her father didn't want her?"

"Wow you're so selfish" Jeongguk let out. "So you thought ruining my life was justifiable? Aren't you a lawyer?"

Jieun sniffled.

Jeongguk let out a laugh all of a sudden. It was loud and obnoxious. Jieun looked up at him, eyes teary and her cheeks stained.

"What...?"

"It's funny" Jeongguk was laughing. "It's funny how I don't regret it anymore"

"What?"

"I used to loathe myself before," Jeongguk said. "Not anymore"

Jieun just stared as Jeongguk laughed.

"I don't regret cheating on you anymore"

Jieun was speechless. She looked up at Jeongguk, eyes wide with disbelief. "You... what ?"

"I cheated on you, Jieun," Jeongguk said. He was no longer laughing. "I fucked someone else" saying the words aloud felt like a huge weight was lifted off his shoulders. It felt so good to finally say it.

Jieun stood up from the floor and the next thing Jeongguk knew, there was a loud sound, that echoed through the house. Jeongguk's cheek burned and his head was tilted sideways by the force of Jieun's hand against his cheek.

The realization that his wife had slapped his face dawned on him instantly. His anger rose drastically but he could only smile.

"It was a guy," Jeongguk said.

"What?" Jieun looked angrier than he had ever seen her.

"I fucked him so good, Jieun. Almost every day for the last four months. We fucked and fucked. Even on this house, you know? I brought him here. I fucked him right under your little nose. I fucked him on your kitchen, in the bathroom, on the sofa...where else..."

Smack

Jeongguk's other cheek started burning. Now his whole face was hurting.

"His ass is a blessing, Jieun" Jeongguk continued, smiling like a maniac. "He was such a good boy. Begging for my cock every day. Oh and the way he sucked me off! Oh! He would suck the living shit out of me. It's heaven, Jieun. He loved my cock. And I loved his"

Jeongguk grinned at Jieun like a psychopath.

"How..." Jieun was at a loss for words. "How dare you cheat on me!"

Jeongguk laughed. "Cheat? Bitch you lied to me. I don't think I ever even loved you!"

"I was always loyal to you. I love you! I never cheated!"

"You expect me to believe that? You?"

"Yes! I may have lied to you about Aria but I loved you since I was sixteen. I never even thought about another man for all these years! How could you do that to me!?"

"I guess we're equal, right? No, wait. I don't think we're equal. You ruined my life but I didn't ruin yours"

"Jeongguk!" Jieun shouted. "Is this a joke to you?"

"Was my life a joke to you?"

"Jeongguk! I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry. But I love you. Just don't leave me, please" Tears started streaming down her cheeks again.

"I'm leaving" Jeongguk said and started to make his way towards the front door again.

"You can't! I'm pregnant!"

Jeongguk stopped. He turned around. "I don't think that's mine"

"What do you mean?! Of course, it's yours!"

"That's what you said sixteen years ago and oh well, here we are," Jeongguk said.

"But I didn't cheat on you! Please believe me. We can do a paternity test in a few weeks. Please don't leave me"

"Find her a father like you did last time, Jieun. You're really good at that. Go ahead and destroy someone else's life"

"Jeongguk!"

"Bye," Jeongguk said. He walked towards the door and just when he was about to open it, he turned around.

"Who is he?" he asked.

Jieun was still weeping. She shook her head. "He's older than us. You don't know him"

Jeongguk raised an eyebrow.

"He was my father's friend and...he was twenty-two at that time. I really liked him so we had sex. When I told him I was pregnant, he said it was not his because I fucked around. Even after the test, he said he wouldn't take responsibility. I didn't tell my parents because I didn't want them to know I slept with my father's friend"

Jeongguk laughed. He couldn't believe this.

"History repeats itself, huh?" Jeongguk said.

"What?"

"Like mother, like daughter"

"Jeongguk what do you mean?"

"Aria almost hooked up with Taehyung, who is my friend"

"What do you mean they almost hooked up? Taehyung is gay"

"He's not. He's bisexual. But that doesn't matter. They didn't hook up. Aria was dating him for a while and I made them break up. Before you go after Taehyung, it was Aria who wanted sex, not him. Besides, it was Aria who was desperate to have a relationship with him"

"I'm not going after Taehyung. They just can't be together"

"Yeah, I know. He's too old for her-"

"No, because Aria's biological father is Kim Seongho-"

"Good. I think I don't know him" Jeongguk said.

"No you don't get it," Jieun said. "Seongho is Taehyung's father"

"What?!" Jeongguk shouted. "You mean Aria almost slept with her half-brother?"

"I didn't know there was something going on between them!"

"This is so fucked up. Does Taehyung know that Aria is his half-sister?"

"Of course not!" Jieun said.

Jeongguk's head was pounding with a headache now. This was too much information to process in a single day.

"Okay since we're spilling all the sins we've done, let me tell you the last thing"

"There's more?" Jieun scoffed.

"Yeah. It was Taehyung. It's he, who I fucked"

Jieun's mouth dropped.

"Jeongguk are you insane?!" She shouted. "How...he...he's your student!"

"And Aria's boyfriend" Jeongguk let out a laugh. " Former boyfriend"

Jieun's stared at Jeongguk, open-mouthed.

"And I fucked him before he became my student"

Jeongguk was in the verge of tears and he could kill someone with the rage that he had controlled inside him. But the sadness that threatened to come out of him felt lie it was piercing his heart.

"What's wrong with you?!" Jieun finally let out. "I...I thought that it was really weird that you guys were so close but I never assumed...I trusted you! I trusted Taehyung! I let him stay in my house!"

"Well, I also trusted you when you told me Aria was my child. Guess we don't always get what we want, huh?"

"You're a fucking psycho"

"No" Jeongguk shook his head as he took a step back. "I just don't love you. I never did. I was just trying to get back what I missed. What you stripped me off of"

Jeongguk turned around and streamed out of the house, not once looking back. He could hear Jieun sobbing loudly behind him but he couldn't give a shit about a woman he no longer has anything to do with.

Jeongguk got inside the car and drove off quickly. It was almost five minutes later he stopped the vehicle at a fairly peaceful area.

He turned up the volume of the radio and started to let out heart-wrenching sobs. His chest hurt like he was about to have a heart attack. His head pounded and he was still in denial. Emotions; anger, sadness, and confusion rolled down his cheeks in the form of tears.

He couldn't control the loud sobs. He doesn't remember crying like this. Ever. And the pain was unbearable.

He had been living a lie for fifteen years. His whole life was ruined. He had been so stupid. So, so stupid to trust Jieun. To marry her. To take responsibility.

And what hurt most was being lied to by his wife. It was the fact that the daughter, the only thing he thought he had left, wasn't even his anymore. She had been his only anchor. She was the person he loved the most. She was the reason he stayed with Jieun. Because he loved her. She was his daughter.

But not anymore.

Part of Jeongguk wished he never found out.

Part of him was glad that he was no longer living in a lie.

Even though the truth was now out in the open, this only made Jeongguk's situation more complicated. What is he supposed to do now?

There was raging anger inside him, mostly directed towards Jieun. If it weren't for her, he wouldn't be in this situation. Above all, he let go of Taehyung because of this situation of Aria. Taehyung, his one true love. He had lost Taehyung because of her.

Jeongguk stayed there for what felt like hours. The light around him had started to fade slowly, as the sky prepared for the early evening. His tears had dried off and he was feeling completely numb. He didn't know what to do.

He didn't know where to go. He didn't have anywhere to go.

He didn't have a home to return to.

He took out his phone, which wasn't dead as he had told Jieun. But almost was. He searched through his call history. The latest ones were of Jieun and then of Aria. There was one from Taehyung, which dated a few days back.

A tear escaped Jeongguk's puffy eyes as he stared at Taehyung's contact.

Jeongguk realized that he had never been in a situation as vulnerable as this. He had no one to turn to. Nowhere to go. No one to tell his sadness to. No one to share his grief with. No shoulder to cry on.

Except one.

His home. His safe place. His haven. His one true love.

Jeongguk took a shaky breath as he thought over and over again about what he was going to do. But he didn't know who else to go to. Who else he could lean on. Jeongguk wiped the tears in his eyes with the back of his hand and stared at his phone screen.

He dialed up Taehyung's number.

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•°³⁸°• Still With You ─✵────────

Blasting Billie Eilish on full volume on his headphones and signing the lyrics off-key in the confined space of his new room felt cozier than Taehyung had anticipated. Taehyung was glad that Mrs. Hooper had left for grocery shopping not five minutes ago. Taking advantage of the situation, Taehyung decided to sing his heart out while he unpacked.

There weren't too many things he owned for him to take days to unpack. Throughout a couple of days, after he had moved in, all Taehyung had done was sulk.

He didn't really think being away from Jeongguk would affect him so much. Their relationship had been entirely based on sex. In the beginning, Taehyung had thought there was zero chance of him catching feelings. But with time, Taehyung had found himself being entirely dependent on the older man's affection and care.

Be it because Jeongguk was the only person to want him for something more than sex or because Jeongguk was so easy to fall in love with. Either way, Taehyung's affection for the older man had rooted deep inside him.

The absence of him; his smile, his voice, his ever so sweet words, his scent, his touch had Taehyung's heart feeling heavy with something he didn't know to pinpoint as this or that. He longed to see him, touch him, feel him, and hear his voice. And it had taken too much effort for him to not dial-up Jeongguk's number.

However, deep underneath, he felt like he had ruined Jeongguk's life. The guilt was so large that it had become the main reason he didn't call. Not even to ask how things were going.

It broke him to know that he had to leave Jeongguk alone to figure out solutions for his problems, which Taehyung had had a part in causing. He left Jeongguk when he needed him the most.

Taehyung started stacking up his notebooks on the small cupboard by the table in his room, humming to Billie's voice since he couldn't remember the lyrics. He was about to pick up a massive textbook when the music abruptly stopped and the music of his ringtone started playing.

He took off his headphones and rushed to the bed, where his phone lay.

Jeongguk

Taehyung gulped as he saw the contact name. Never in his wildest dreams had he imagined Jeongguk would call him. Jeongguk, the man who kicked him out of his house. Taehyung sucked in a breath, contemplating whether or not to pick up.

Should he?

It felt wrong for some reason. If he picked up, he would only feel more dreadful. But he longed to hear his voice. He needed it so badly. Maybe Jeongguk had felt the same. Maybe he was calling out of impulse. Maybe... fuck it.

Taehyung slid his finger over the call icon.

"Hello?"

"Taehyung" Jeongguk's voice was a whisper. He sounded out of breath.

"Jeongguk?" Taehyung said. Butterflies erupted in Taehyung's stomach. His heart bubbled with happiness after hearing Jeongguk's voice. But...

"Tae," Jeongguk said breathily. "Where are you?"

Something was not right. "In that new place," Taehyung said hurriedly. "Are you alright?"

"Can I come over?"

Taehyung was so confused. "Why, what's wrong? Jeongguk is everything alright?" Taehyung was starting to panic.

There was a silence. And then: "No"

Taehyung's heart started hammering in his chest. "Gguk" Taehyung whispered.

"Can I come over?"

"Yeah. Yeah," Taehyung said quickly. "I'll text you the address"

"Thanks"

"Wh-what's wrong?" Taehyung asked, gnawing at his bottom lip.

There was a silence at the other end. It stretched far more than it should. And far more than Taehyung liked. When Jeongguk spoke, he sounded more broken than Taehyung had ever heard him.

"Everything"

-

Almost twenty minutes later, Taehyung heard the doorbell ring. He ran downstairs and opened the door.

On the porch was a very dead-looking Jeongguk. He wore jeans and a t-shirt. There were bags under his eyes, hair a messy array of curls atop his head. His eyes were rimmed red, puffy as if he had been crying.

Jeongguk took heavy steps inside the house as if a burden weighted down his existence. His eyes, which seemed to be fixated on the floor slowly raised up to meet Taehyung. Taehyung's heart sank upon seeing Jeongguk's beautiful eyes. His eyes, which Taehyung loved getting lost in, loved staring at as they talked, used to twinkle with excitement whenever Jeongguk spoke. His eyes, with myriad galaxies embedded in them, light seeping from the millions of stars inside his orbs, were a pure black now, as Taehyung watched him. Blacked out. Dead.

There were no longer any lights inside them. No stars. Just dead and blank darkness.

Jeongguk took a step towards Taehyung and lunged at the younger, collapsing on him, making Taehyung instantly wrap his arms around the older man.

Jeongguk hugged Taehyung so tight that the breath was knocked out of his lungs. He knew something was very wrong. Something huge had happened, to break Jeongguk so much.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered.

The next this Taehyung knew Jeongguk was sobbing.

"Baby" Taehyung said, panicking now. His heart aced. Whatever made him this way? Who?

"Tae" Jeongguk sobbed.

"L-Let's go to my room," Taehyung said. Jeongguk let himself be guided upstairs. He made the dreadful-looking man sit on the bed and locked the door before coming to sit beside Jeongguk.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around the man whose face was drenched with tears, new tears continued to make their way down his face.

"Gguk" Taehyung himself was in the verge of tears. "Please. What happened?"

Jeongguk sobbed against Taehyung's shoulder.

Taehyung caressed the older man's back, trying to give him some comfort and Jeongguk continued to sob his heart out.

"It's going to be alright," Taehyung said, choking on his own words.

"No" Jeongguk said between sobs. "It's not"

"It's okay. I'm here. I'm not leaving" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk sniffled.

They stayed like that, basking in each other's warmth as Jeongguk sobbed. He didn't utter a word. Just let out heart-wrenching sobs. And the only thing Taehyung could do was offer him a shoulder to cry on.

Taehyung didn't know how long they stayed like that. But Taehyung let Jeongguk sob until he could no longer let any tears out. Until he was choking on his dry tears. Until he finally drew away.

Taehyung wiped Jeongguk's tears with the pads of his thumbs, cupping his hollowed cheeks that Taehyung was so sure were full the last time he saw Jeongguk.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered.

"Whatever made you like this?" Taehyung cupped Jeongguk's cheek with one hand and the other held the older man's hand.

Jeongguk leaned into the touch and finally raised his gaze to meet Taehyung's.

"Aria" Jeongguk whispered. His voice was barely audible.

"What about her?"

"She got in an accident"

Taehyung gasped. "Is she alright?" wait...is she...?

"She will be" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung sighed in relief. Jeongguk wouldn't be able to take it if something happened to Aria.

But why was Jeongguk...

"What happened Gguk?"

And Jeongguk told him. Everything.

By the time he finished, tears were streaming down Jeongguk's cheeks as Taehyung tried to process what he had just heard.

"But..." Taehyung began. He couldn't form words. Aria...Jieun...how...

"I've been so foolish," Jeongguk said. "I wasted my whole life for a kid who isn't even mine" Jeongguk sounded so hurt that Taehyung could feel his own heart tearing up.

"But Jieun...was so...nice"

"All of it was a façade. She was...like...too good to be true" Jeongguk said as he held Taehyung's hand.

"She's...a bitch"

Jeongguk huffed through his nose. "Yeah"

"I just can't believe it," Taehyung said. "Why does my dad have to fuck everyone? Ruining everyone's lives" Amidst the whirlwind of grief, anger sparked up at the thought of his father.

"This...this is just ridiculous you know?" Taehyung continued, "Aria...and I are related? Like what the fuck?" Like fuck. They almost fucked.

Jeongguk stayed silent.

"And...and Jieun. Oh god! I just...how could she even...how could she ruin your life like that? Like there were so many more things she could've done if she didn't want to abort it! She could've...I don't know! Well, there's a lot of things she could've done except ruin your fucking life! This is absurd!"

Jeongguk squeezed his hand. "Yeah"

"Jeongguk I...I don't know what to say. I don't know how this must feel for you. I don't know what I'd do if this happened to me like...you're so strong, my love. I...I just...you're so strong"

Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jeongguk again, embracing him as hard as he could.

"I'm not strong, Tae. I...ran away. I'm running away from my problems"

"Well, what else could you do?"

Jeongguk sniffled. "I should be out there trying to figure shit out. Not to weep. And I shouldn't be even here. But I had nowhere to go and-"

"Jeongguk" Taehyung said, drawing away. "I still love you"

Jeongguk looked at him with wide eyes.

"I love you. I'm here for you. Did you really think I'll be able to let you go just like that? That I wouldn't want to be here for you? That's not how love works, Jeongguk"

Another tear escaped Jeongguk.

"Thank you," Jeongguk said. "I...I shouldn't have let you go..."

"No, it's okay. When we started this we knew damn well that there was no future for us. We knew this would have to come to an end. Falling in love wasn't part of the plan. I'm not angry that you told me to go. Just hurt. But that's not important now, is it? I love you. Don't think I will be able to let you go for a while"

"I don't deserve you" Jeongguk whispered.

"But I deserve you"

Jeongguk looked up at Taehyung. "What? No, you don't deserve someone as selfish and fucked up like me"

"I think I'll decide that," Taehyung said, cupping Jeongguk's cheeks. "You're anything but selfish. If you were, you wouldn't have taken the responsibility for Aria all those years ago. You're so selfless that you're willing to sacrifice your happiness for her"

"She isn't even mine" Jeongguk uttered brokenly.

Taehyung sighed. "Just don't cry. I'm here"

“But I was selfish towards you. I kept prioritizing Aria over you a-and-”

“You’re her father. What else can you do?” Taehyung whispered. It hurt. But Jeongguk needed Taehyung right now. 

New tears started to make their way down the older man's cheeks. And Taehyung wiped them away with the pads of his thumbs. Jeongguk looked absolutely wrecked. Jeongguk had cried in front of him before. But not like this. Not when the sorrow weighed him down, had him on his knees, as vulnerable as he could ever be. Not when he's trapped in the darkness of a destiny he couldn't control. Not when his heart had shattered into minuscule pieces, broken beyond repair.

And the only thing Taehyung could do was wrap his arms around him, hoping his love would mend him back together.

"You deserve all the happiness in the world" Taehyung whispered. A tear escaped his eyes and he bit back the sob that threatened to escape his throat. He couldn't bear to see Jeongguk so broken. And there was nothing he could do practically to get Jeongguk out of this situation.

Jeongguk stayed silent with his chin against Taehyung's shoulder, arms tightly wrapped around Taehyung's scrawny body.

"It's just...I can't believe it. I...Aria isn't my daughter. She's not mine" Jeongguk let out another sob. "I spent my whole life raising her and I'm not her father"

Taehyung moved his body away from Jeongguk to face him. "Jeongguk! That's not true! Aria is your daughter. You're her father. You may not be her biological father but she is your daughter. You raised her. You sacrificed so much for her. Not some other fucker. So she is your daughter. She knows that. Everyone does. Biology has nothing to do with who a person's father is. You guys are still family. And you're one of the best dads I've ever seen"

"I'm not"

"Yes, you are! My dad doesn't even call me! And even though you aren't the best husband, you were the best dad Aria could've had. You care so much for her. And you prioritize her over everything. I call that dedication. Jeongguk, Aria couldn't have ever had a better dad"

Jeongguk kept his gaze down." Just..." Jeongguk whispered. "I feel like I've been living a lie my whole life"

"I understand you," Taehyung said, squeezing Jeongguk's hands. "But let's not think about that, hmm? Now you know the truth and now everything around you is true. Including me. I'm right here"

Jeongguk nodded, lips stretching into a small smile. It was the first time he smiled...in hours.

But it faded away, the sorrow knotting his brows together and lips forming a sad curve. Another tear made its way down his drenched cheek. "Please don't leave me," Jeongguk stuttered out, looking into Taehyung's eyes with an expression so sad that Taehyung felt his heart break a million times. "Everyone keeps leaving me. Please...please don't leave me..."

"I'm not leaving you, Jeongguk. I'm staying right here. You got me. I'm not going anywhere"

Jeongguk nodded as if trying to process what he had heard. He then dragged Taehyung towards him and embraced him. Taehyung stumbled forward and collided with Jeongguk's body, but nevertheless hugged him back, as he sat on his lap.

"I love you so much," Jeongguk said. "How did I ever even decide that we should be apart?"

"You just had a bigger priority, baby. And that's okay. If I had a kid, I would probably do the same"

"Doesn't justify what I did to you"

"Maybe, but you didn't do anything. As I said, we were supposed to end this sooner or later," Taehyung said. "But I'm right here now. And everything is okay. You loving me is enough for me"

Jeongguk sniffled into Taehyung's shoulder. Taehyung was his one and only sanctuary. His home. His safe place. His true love. Where else was he to turn to, other than Taehyung?

When they finally drew away, Jeongguk didn't look as sad as before.

"I'm glad I have you. Don't know what to do without you" Jeongguk whispered as he squeezed Taehyung's petite waist. "I love you so much"

"I love you too" Taehyung whispered and cupped his cheeks.

He placed a soft kiss on Jeongguk's forehead. Jeongguk closed his eyes for a second, basking on the comfort and bliss. When he opened them again, his dark orbs twinkled. Taehyung felt his stomach flutter with butterflies and his heart was heavy with love. He truly did love this man.

Taehyung traced his thumb over the apples of Jeongguk's soft cheeks. A pink hue covered them ever so prettily. The dried tears had left trails along his face. His eyes were red and puffy. Even while being an emotional wreck, Jeongguk managed to look angelic.

Taehyung's face was only a couple of centimeters away from Jeongguk's as he traced his finger over the older man's reddish lips, swollen and bitten.

Taehyung looked once at Jeongguk's eyes before diverting his gaze towards his lips. Jeongguk watched him with his half-lidded gaze, dreamy.

Taehyung leaned in slowly and placed his cold lips over Jeongguk's hot lips.

Jeongguk instantly responded, tightening his embrace and pulling Taehyung closer to himself as he kissed back.

Jeongguk parted his lips a little, tilting his head to kiss Taehyung harder but Taehyung took control, pressing his lips against Jeongguk's and loving the way his body and mind were in bliss. He continued to kiss his lover softly, expressing his love towards the older man, pouring all of it out.

When he finally pulled away, Jeongguk's eyes opened slowly, as if he was in bliss. When he looked up at Taehyung, smiling softly, his eyes twinkled. He looked so much better already.

They lay on the bed afterward, hugging each other, basking in each other's comfort and affection.

"You look dead, you know that?" Taehyung muttered against Jeongguk's neck.

Jeongguk hummed.

"How many hours did you sleep last night?"

"I didn't. But I slept for an hour or so today" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung sighed. "Did you eat yesterday? Or today?"

"Had a burger this morning"

"That's it. I don't have any food so I'm ordering pizza. You've got to eat something" Taehyung tried to wiggle out of Jeongguk's embrace to get his phone. But Jeongguk only tightened his embrace.

"Stay"

"Jeongguk-"

"Stay. Cuddle me" Jeongguk said in pout.

Taehyung sighed. "Fine" he looked up at Jeongguk. The older man had his eyes closed. But his brows were knitted together, slightly. As if he was still hurting. Taehyung knew he was. To find out that the child, who you knew to be yours and sacrificed your whole life to raise, wasn't yours...what a shock it must've been. What a betrayal. Jieun didn't look so cruel at first glance. She didn't look like someone to do such a cruel thing to someone.

But then again, looks are deceptive.

Taehyung was cruel himself. He stole her husband from her. But now, Taehyung felt like she deserved it.

Jeongguk's frown slowly ceased, the skin between his eyebrows softening until he looked totally peaceful. After a few minutes, soft snores started escaping him, and his whole body was lulled from sleep.

Taehyung smiled to himself. He was ecstatic that Jeongguk was with him again. He didn't know how long this would last but he wanted to cherish this as long as it lasts.

He wondered if they could be together. To actually date. Maybe even live together! Jeongguk should divorce Jieun, right? How could he even live with her?

Taehyung could keep Jeongguk happy. He could make Jeongguk happier than he had ever been. He wanted a future with Jeongguk.

And finally, Taehyung could see a future where they were together.

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•°³⁹°• Might Seduce Your Dad Type ─✵────────

The bright rays of the summer sun filtered through Taehyung's thin eyelids, making him wake up from his land of dreams. The whole room was illuminated with an orangish glow with the warm rays of the late morning sun; rays of brightness reflecting onto several objects in the room, which decorated its otherwise simplicity.

There was a warmth surrounding Taehyung's body. It took him a while to realize with his sleepy confusion, the reason he felt so warm. Jeongguk's strong arm was wrapped around Taehyung, his back pressed against Jeongguk's chest.

Taehyung smiled to himself. He doesn't remember Jeongguk ever sleeping next to him like this. He had never woken up to Jeongguk. Jeongguk always fucked him and left before Taehyung woke up. To have Jeongguk here, now, felt like he was in utopia; a place he never thought possible to be alive.

And he couldn't help but think he has Jeongguk all for himself now. Taehyung bubbled with happiness at the mere thought.

He was glad Jeongbguk decided to stay the night after what had happened to him the previous day. Taehyung could say Jeongguk hadn't gotten proper sleep in days from the way he passed out on his bed the previous day. It had been nighttime when he finally woke up and they ordered a pizza. Then Jeongguk fell asleep again after changing into a pair of sweats belonging to Taehyung.

Taehyung had been scared of what Mrs. Hooper might say about Jeongguk staying over. But after explaining how his "friend" had gone through heartbreak and wasn't in a good state to go back to his own home, she agreed to let him stay.

And now, as Taehyung laid in bed, Jeongguk embracing him, smiling to himself like a fool, he felt wholesome.

Curious to see Jeongguk's face, he turned around in his embrace slowly, trying not to wake up the older man.

Taehyung was met with Jeongguk, fast asleep, small snores escaping his pouty lips. His perfectly sculptured facial features were lulled with sleep and he looked peaceful. His long lashes kissed the apples of his cheeks, which were covered with an adorable blush. Soft breaths that escaped his bunny-like nose were audible and Taehyung could only coo at the cuteness of the older man.

Jeongguk's other hand, which wasn't embracing Taehyung, was coiled into a fist against Taehyung's chest and the younger of the two found it so adorable. His eyelids momentarily covered his dark orbs that fit myriad galaxies inside them. Jeongguk was mesmerizingly pretty. Taehyung's heart leaped in his chest as he observed his lover's beauty, happiness, and love filling his chest.

Taehyung couldn't help himself as he placed a soft kiss on top of Jeongguk's bunny nose.

He looked so much younger in his sleep.

Jeongguk shifted a little in his sleep but soon stilled, soft snores starting to escape his pinkish lips. The sunlight shone on him and his brown locks gleamed. The tan of his complexion glowed gold and celestial. His naked skin that the sheets had failed to cover shone gold and he looked absolutely empyrean, beyond any beauty Taehyung had come to witness on the face of this world.

Taehyung couldn't believe he had the liberty of having this man so close to him. He couldn't believe that a man so perfect, not only by looks but also at heart; a man so passionate, strong, and selfless had fallen in love with someone like Taehyung. And that the very man wants to be with Taehyung.

He felt like he wasn't worthy of all these good things happening to him. Not when he spent years feeding on the excitement of ruining other people's families.

"You know it's rude to stare" a voice made Taehyung snap out of his thoughts.

Jeongguk's morning voice was deeper than usual. A shiver ran through Taehyung's spine when it fell upon his ears. Jeongguk had his eyes open, lips curved into a smile as he stared right back at Taehyung.

"I was just admiring your beauty" Taehyung replied. "You're rather pretty. Never realized it before"

Jeongguk's lips stretched to reveal his adorable bunny-like teeth. Taehyung knew Jeongguk liked it when he was sassy.

"I should've woken up earlier, then"

"For what?"

"So I could've admired your beauty," Jeongguk said, a smirk playing at his lips.

Taehyung tsked.

Jeongguk reached to touch Taehyung's round cheek, thumb tracing over the apple of his cheek. "Seriously though. You're the prettiest boy out there"

Taehyung let out a giggle.

Jeongguk's smile grew wider. "Adorable"

"Shut up" Taehyung whined.

"Make me"

Taehyung's smile faded. His thoughts momentarily paused as he stared into Jeongguk's beautiful doe eyes. Then his gaze shifted onto Jeongguk's lips.

He leaned in and placed his soft lips on top of Jeongguk's. Taehyung's eyes fluttered close as Jeongguk leaned in, tilting his head slightly to kiss the younger back. Jeongguk cupped Taehyung's neck, pressing his lips against Taehyung. He licked Taehyung's bottom lip and the smaller boy parted his lips in an instant.

In moments, Jeongguk was on top of Taehyung, pushing his tongue inside the blond's mouth as they sloppily kissed. Taehyung caressed Jeongguk's bare back, fingers ghosting over the waistband of his sweats.

Jeongguk pressed his whole body against Taehyung's and a gasp escaped the younger boy, the kiss breaking, as he felt something hard pressing against his thigh.

Morning wood?

Jeongguk prepped kisses along Taehyung's jaw, trailed to his lips again, and planted a kiss atop his rosy lips that glistened with saliva.

Jeongguk looked into Taehyung's eyes once and their gazes locked. Until Jeongguk diverted his gaze back to the younger's lips. Jeongguk took Taehyung's bottom lip between his teeth and sucked on it, making Taehyung's eyes widen, arousal spreading through his body in waves.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung let out the moment the older man let go of his bottom lip.

Jeongguk captured Taehyung's lips in another kiss, moaning "Baby" into the younger's mouth as they kissed.

Taehyung grazed his fingertips over Jeongguk's back muscles, loving the way they flexed and Goosebumps formed under his touch. His hand stopped right at the waistband of his sweats and he slipped his fingers inside, hoping to give Jeongguk's ass a firm squeeze.

Jeongguk, on the other hand, was already squeezing Taehyung's ass, pushing the younger's hips upwards with his hand to meet his own hips. Taehyung could feel his bulge... no ...rock hard cock against his upper thigh and Taehyung let out a moan as a series of unholy thoughts crossed his mind.

Taehyung was about to feel Jeongguk up when-

"Taehyung!"

Jeongguk pushed himself off of Taehyung, almost falling off the bed and Taehyung sat up on the bed at the speed of lightning. It only then did he realize that the door was locked.

"Taehyung? Are you awake?" Mrs. Hooper called from the other side of the door. "

Taehyung let out a sigh of relief and tried to calm down his erratic heartbeat. "Yes, Mrs. Hooper! I just woke up"

Taehyung hopped off the bed, putting on a t-shirt, and opened the door to see the old lady. She smiled as she saw him.

"Good morning Mrs. Hooper" Taehyung smiled.

"It's almost midday, my child," She said. "I'm making rice for us. Will your friend stay for lunch?"

"Oh no, Mrs. Hooper. No need to bother. We can grab something when we go out"

"Nonsense! I'm sure I can feed another mouth for a day! Besides, you didn't have breakfast. Did you know skipping breakfast is dangerous? Especially for youngsters like you! You'll get all sorts of illnesses when you're older because you skip breakfast!"

Taehyung couldn't help but grin. Something he had found out in the few days he had stayed in the house was that Mrs. Hooper was so persistent on feeding Taehyung. It reminded him of his own grandmother.

"Thank you, Mrs. Hooper! I'll come downstairs to help you!"

She waved him off and started making her way towards the staircase. Taehyung watched her leave with a smile on his face and turned to Jeongguk, closing the door behind him.

Jeongguk sat on the bed, cross-legged. He smiled when he saw Taehyung.

"She sounds nice," Jeongguk said.

"She is. So caring"

"Didn't Jieun recommend you this place?"

"Yeah"

Jeongguk flashed a tight-lipped smile at Taehyung.

"What are you going to do now?" Taehyung said, sitting down next to Jeongguk.

Jeongguk shrugged. "Well, I can't stay in here forever. I'll have to go back home"

"Yeah but I mean...about Jieun...?"

"I'm going to divorce her"

Taehyung's eyes widened. "Are you sure? Isn't she pregnant?"

"I don't think it's mine. She probably cheated on me. I don't even care. Even if it is mine, the last thing I want is another kid. I can pay for child support or whatever"

Taehyung took Jeongguk's hand in his. "What about Aria?"

"I don't know about her"

"You know...I understand that it's going to be hard on her to understand that you and Jieun's relationship is so fucked up because to anyone looking from the outside, you two look like the perfect couple"

"Yeah, that's what I was thinking too. We were the happily married perfect parents. Aria probably thinks me and Jieun were so in love because we never even fought"

"Yes but she's sixteen, Jeongguk. She's old enough to understand this situation. Even if you don't tell her about how you're not her biological father, she'll be able to manage the fact that you and Jieun weren't actually happy. She would understand why you did what you did. She's mature. Believe me"

Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's hand and placed a kiss on his knuckles. He smiled. "Yeah. She's strong"

"Now that I think of it, she's really is nothing like you," Taehyung said.

"Really?"

"Yeah. I thought you guys looked nothing alike and also from behavior, she doesn't have your good qualities"

Jeongguk chuckled.

"Yeah, she's a lot like Jieun. Stubborn and all"

Taehyung wondered if Jieun would also force herself on Jeongguk if he said no to her.

Now that he thinks about it, what Jieun did to Jeongguk isn't too different from Aria trying to rape Taehyung.

"Tae?"

Taehyung looked up to meet Jeongguk's eyes. He had his eyes narrowed, observing Taehyung's face.

"What's wrong?"

"W-what? Nothing. Why?"

Jeongguk furrowed his eyebrows together, not buying Taehyung's lie. "You were thinking about something. You looked troubled. Tell me what it is"

"Nothing, Gguk. It's nothing" Taehyung didn't plan to tell Jeongguk that his daughter tried to rape him

"You're lying. You didn't see the way you looked when you were lost on the thought"

Taehyung stayed silent. He couldn't bear to meet Jeongguk's eyes.

"Taehyung, I love you. You know I would never judge you. You can tell me anything" Jeongguk said, hand reaching up to touch Taehyung's cheek.

Taehyung sighed. He leaned into Jeongguk's touch and looked into his eyes. "Fine" He whispered. "But don't be mad"

"I won't"

Maybe this was the best time to tell him...

"That day when you and Jieun went on a date..." Taehyung said. "Aria kind of wanted to have sex with me"

"Oh god," Jeongguk looked horrified.

"And she kinda forced herself on me. She said she'll tell Jieun that I tried to sleep with her and all if I don't fuck her. But! It wasn't that bad. I didn't sleep with her or anything. She just ground on my dick for like two minutes and then I may have moaned your name and she was horrified and she ran back to her room..."

"Woah hold up," Jeongguk said, bewildered. "She wanted you to fuck her. And you said no. but she forced herself on you and you moaned my name?!"

"Yeah well..."

"What the fuck? How could she...I never thought" Jeongguk's face showed absolute shock. "I shouldn't have left her with you. I should've known she'd do something like that after all she's done to get you to be her boyfriend"

"Yeah well no one would assume their daughter would do something like that"

"Oh my god," Jeongguk let out. "She knew that something was going on between us because of that?"

"No! I told her that I was just having a crush on you and she believed me"

"Oh okay. But like what...I really thought I did a good job raising her. She's old enough to understand what consent is..."

"It's in the past. It's wrong but I'm okay. Don't think about it"

"Wait till I see her..."

Taehyung fumbled with his fingers.

"You should've told me the moment this happened. What she did was unforgivable. How dare she..." Jeongguk said. He leaned in and wrapped his arms around Taehyung. The younger instantly returned the embrace.

"I'm sorry"

"It's no big deal Gguk. She barely did anything"

"She could've. She threatened you"

"I'm okay now," Taehyung said. "I got you"

Jeongguk cupped his cheeks. "Yeah. I'm not going to leave you again. I'm never going to tell you to get out of my life"

Taehyung smiled. He was close to tearing up.

"I'm going to divorce Jieun so we can be together. Only if you want to, of course..."

Taehyung smiled. "Of course, I want to! You're the first person I fell in love with. I don't want to leave you. I want to be with you. You have no idea how much I missed you when you were gone"

Jeongguk's eyes shone, as they had filled with tears. "Gosh, I love you so much" the stars in his eyes seemed to glow even more as they swirled in galaxies embedded in his eyes. Taehyung wanted nothing more than to see and admire those starry eyes for the rest of his life.

Jeongguk kissed Taehyung. And yet again, the moment their lips met, Taehyung's whole body and mind erupted with butterflies. He was at bliss; the top of the world. Jeongguk's warm embrace felt like the safest place on earth. He could never find a person who would love him like Jeongguk. He could never find another home in any other person. Jeongguk was his only home.

Taehyung threaded his fingers between Jeongguk's curls as he felt the older lowering him to the mattress, kissing him harder and more passionately.

He could still feel Jeongguk's boner against his thigh. Apparently, not even a grandma interrupting their session could make that boner disappear.

Jeongguk ground his cock onto Taehyung's thigh, making them break the kiss and Taehyung gasped as arousal flooded through his body yet again. Jeongguk started to kiss down Taehyung's neck and his sex-deprived dick was already hard. But-

"Jeongguk we can't have sex in here!" Taehyung whisper-yelled.

Jeongguk looked up from Taehyung's neck, looking quizzical. "Why the hell not?"

"Because this is her house! We can't just fuck! It's not right!"

"She won't know!"

"Jeongguk!"

"Fine" Jeongguk groaned. "I missed you so much"

"So did I," Taehyung said, planting one last kiss onto Jeongguk's lips. He got up from the bed and walked to the closet.

"I need to help her with cooking," He said. "Get dressed"

"Fine" Jeongguk pouted.

"Do you need clothes?"

"No, I'll just wear the ones from yesterday. Yours aren't going to fit"

"Okay," Taehyung said and picked an outfit for himself. "Go take a bath"

Jeongguk huffed and sat up from the bed.

"Do you have an extra toothbrush?"


Lunch with Mrs. Hooper and Jeongguk wasn't as awkward as Taehyung thought it would be. In fact, it wasn't awkward at all. Jeongguk knew how to make conversation. Apparently, Jeongguk's hobby of gardening seemed to excite Mrs. Hooper a lot. She, herself loved gardening. So Taehyung gulped down his rice as the other two engaged themselves in a deep conversation about plants. Which Taehyung found to be boring.

Jeongguk didn't mention that he was married and Taehyung was glad that Mrs. Hooper didn't know Jieun personally. Or things would've been seriously awkward. Mrs. Hooper, fortunately, didn't ask any personal questions.

When they were done, Taehyung decided to go to Jimin's place, since he doesn't have anything to do by himself anyway. Jeongguk said he could drop him off and he agreed.

Taehyung sat in the passenger seat of Jeongguk's car as the older man started the engine.

"So you're just going to be at your house?" Taehyung asked.

"No, I need to go to the hospital..." Jeongguk said. "Do you want to come?"

"I don't think I should"

"Yeah..." Jeongguk started reversing the car to the driveway.

"I have some clothes left in that room...at your house. Can I pick them up and go to Jimin's place? You can go straight to the hospital after dropping me off"

Jeongguk had his eyes on the road ahead. "Yeah sure"

"Will Jieun be home?"

"Nah," Jeongguk said. "She's in the hospital. Had dropped like a hundred messages yesterday since I didn't pick up her calls. She had texted me that she was in the hospital"

Taehyung nodded. They rode in comfortable silence, with a conversation or two and soft laughter escaping them both from time to time as they enjoyed each other's presence. They reached Jeongguk's house by around two in the afternoon.

He followed Jeongguk inside the house, only to find it the same as he had remembered. Even though many things had actually changed around them, everything inside the house looked exactly the same.

"I'll be upstairs," Jeongguk said and headed up the stairs.

"Okay" Taehyung started to make his way towards his room.

He found the door unlocked and open. He hesitantly pushed the door ajar. He let out a gasp when he saw the inside of the room he had once stayed in.

Everything was a mess. The sheets of the bed were on the floor. His clothes, which he had left behind, were scattered all over the place. There were papers torn all over the floor.

Mouth agape, he stepped into the room. This has to be Jieun's doing. Who else would scatter Taehyung's belongings all over the place?

Taehyung picked up a larger piece of paper that was on the floor. His heart sank as he realized what the papers were.

It was Jeongguk's sketchbook.

All the papers, the pages that once had many portraits of Taehyung were ripped into shreds and pieces, scattered all over the place. He put his hand over his mouth, horrified and heart breaking upon seeing the destruction.

Taehyung had left it when he left Jeongguk. It was in his possession all this time. He was keeping it secure with him for Jeongguk. It was their thing. The sketches meant a lot for not only Jeongguk but also for Taehyung.

Jeongguk had loved sketching Taehyung. Why would anyone...

He was scanning the mess when he spotted the cover of the book in the corner of the room. He walked over and picked it up. All the pages were torn off. All the pages, except one.

His last sketch. The one he drew Taehyung naked with the necklace he bought him.

Taehyung held the remaining work of art close to his chest and let out a sigh. He then put it in his backpack and picked up all the clothes that were scattered everywhere. His hands were quick, hurried. Tears were on the verge of falling. After he was done, he could no longer stay in that room. He soon scurried out and shut the door behind him.

He went to the living room. He dropped the bag near the couch. "Jeongguk?" He called.

No answer.

He took a few steps towards the stairs. "Jeongguk?"

Still no answer.

Taehyung hesitantly made his way upstairs. He had never been up here. When he reached the top of the stairs he looked to his right, where he saw a couple of closed doors. To his left were two doors. One, at the end of the hallway, was open.

He slowly walked towards it.

Upon reaching it, he peeked inside. To his relief, he saw Jeongguk standing by a bed. He had his back facing Taehyung. He held something in his hand.

"Jeongguk?"

Jeongguk turned. There were tears in his eyes.

"Hey," He said.

"What's wrong?" Taehyung asked, walking towards him.

Jeongguk gave him a tight-lipped smile and showed him what he held in his hand.

It was a photo frame. Of him, Jieun and Aria. Aria looked like two or three years old and Jeongguk looked as if he had just graduated high school.

"Oh"

"I want to throw this in the trash," Jeongguk said. "I loved her so much"

"I know," Taehyung said. He took the photo from Jeongguk's hand and placed it on the bedside table, face down.

"You were a good father"

Jeongguk smiled at Taehyung. "From the way she had turned out, I doubt that now"

"Well, she got all the shitty qualities from her birth parents. She got the good stuff because you raised her"

Jeongguk let out a chuckle.

Taehyung smiled and cupped his face. He wiped off the tears that had made their way down his cheeks.

"It doesn't matter. You got me. I love you" Taehyung said.

"Of course" Jeongguk smiled. He put his hands on Taehyung's waist and pulled him closer. “I love you too”

Taehyung's face was inches away from Jeongguk's and Taehyung couldn't help it when he closed the distance between them.

Jeongguk's lips were liquid ecstasy. They always had been. And as Jeongguk kissed Taehyung like he missed him, like Taehyung was actually a necessity in his life, Taehyung couldn't help but kiss him back with the same intensity, pouring all his love and want for Jeongguk.

Jeongguk took a step towards Taehyung, making him stumble backward, only to fall atop a soft surface.

Jeongguk and Jieun's bed.

Jeongguk climbed on top of him. He flashed Taehyung a quick smile before leaning down to capture his lips in a passionate kiss.

Taehyung opened his mouth as Jeongguk licked his bottom lip, asking for entrance. Jeongguk's tongue explored his mouth, and their bodies were pressed together, only the thin material of their clothes preventing their naked skin from meeting.

They lusted after each other's lips, every second of their intimate encounter bringing back old memories. Their longing for each other, the deprivation of touch and love of each other only fuelling their kisses and touches, making every touch and caress wilder, hurried.

Soon, Jeongguk had pulled off Taehyung's shirt over his head, and wasting no time, he started pressing kisses down his jaw and neck. He bit down on his collarbone, sucking red spots on his golden canvas.

"Take this off," Taehyung said, voice sharp as he tugged at Jeongguk's shirt.

Jeongguk smirked and let Taehyung rip open his shirt, buttons flying everywhere in the process. Jeongguk didn't have much time to process the destruction, as Taehyung started sucking hickeys onto his skin.

"You always mark me up. I want to mark you up this time" Taehyung said, in between nibbles.

Jeongguk smirked, fingers running through Taehyung's golden locks.

"Want them to know you belong to me" Taehyung rasped.

"I am yours" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung kept kissing and sucking all over Jeongguk's chest, leaving red spots all over.

Taehyung unbuckled Jeongguk's belt and undid the button of his jeans. Jeongguk watched as Taehyung pulled his pants down, along with his boxers. Jeongguk's rock-hard erection sprang free.

Taehyung's mouth watered at the sight. His pink tip was wet and his cock was begging to be sucked. Who was Taehyung to refuse?

Taehyung gave Jeongguk's rosy tip a kitten lick, making Jeongguk hiss.

Taehyung, satisfied with the older man's reaction, took his whole tip in his mouth, sucking it.

Jeongguk moaned. "Fuck! Don't tease, baby"

Taehyunng took more and more of him in his mouth until his tip was touching the back of Taehyung's throat. He started bobbing his head up and down, hollowing his cheeks, making Jeongguk curse and moan.

Taehyung pulled off Jeongguk after a few moments, much to Jeongguk's confusion.

"Fuck my mouth," Taehyung said, looking up at Jeongguk.

"Fuck, baby" Jeongguk groaned.

Taehyung took him in his mouth again. This time, Jeongguk held him from the back of his head, fingers gripping his blond locks to keep his head in place.

Jeongguk started thrusting into Taehyung's mouth.

"Oh fuck" Jeongguk let out as he slowly built up the pace, going deeper with every thrust.

Taehyung moaned around his cock, the vibrations making Jeongguk's cock twitch inside Taehyung's mouth. Tears sprang to his eyes as Jeongguk pushed in deeper, cock in his throat.

Taehyung was gagging. Tears started cascading down his cheeks but Jeongguk kept fucking his throat, chasing his euphoria.

Jeongguk finally came down Taehyung's throat and he pulled out, making Taehyung fall back on the bed, clutching his abused throat.

Jeongguk's cum was still in his mouth, the hot load salty in his mouth.

Taehyung smirked, looking at Jeongguk. And Jeongguk didn't see it coming.

Taehyung kissed Jeongguk, wrapping his arms around him as they both fell on the bed, the younger boy on top of Jeongguk.

Jeongguk happily kissed back. Taehyung, being the freaky little bitch he was, opened his mouth, spitting the mixture of semen and spit into Jeongguk's mouth.

Jeongguk's eyes widened, definitely not expecting Taehyung to do that. Taehyung pulled away to see Jeongguk's priceless reaction, grinning to himself in satisfaction.

Jeongguk gulped down the mixture of his cum and Taehyung's spit.

"You little bitch" Jeongguk said.

"Do you like the way you taste, professor?"

"You whore" Jeongguk growled and flipped them over, so Jeongguk was on top of Taehyung. He pushed Taehyung back into the sheets

Jeongguk attached his lips onto Taehyung's erect nipples. Taehyung let out a moan, back arching as Jeongguk bit down on his rosy bud.

Jeongguk took his time to torture Taehyung's nipples before he moved south, trailing a lane of kisses down his soft tummy onto the waistband of his pants.

Jeongguk undid the button and zipper, hooking his fingers on the waistband. He eyed Taehyung, who looked like a wreck already. Without much waiting, he yanked the pants off.

Jeongguk was met with Taehyung's underwear. A big bulge was evident even through the black material.

"So hard for me" Jeongguk rasped. He traced his finger over the place where a wet patch had formed. "So needy, hmm?"

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed. "Are you going to fuck me or just keep talking?"

Jeongguk raised an eyebrow at him. "Brat" he slapped Taehyung's thigh.

"Fuck me already" Taehyung whined.

"Call me sir"

Taehyung's eyes widened.

"Fuck" Taehyung said, feeling more turned on than ever. "Please fuck me, sir"

Jeongguk smirked. "As you wish, baby"

Jeongguk yanked Taehyung's underwear off, leaving him naked on the bed.

"Is that new?" Taehyung asked Jeongguk as he uncapped the bottle of lube.

"Yeah. Never used it. Jieun doesn't really need it" Jeongguk winked.

"Ew! Gross! You killed the mood"

Jeongguk laughed and slapped Taehyung's thigh. He leaned down to kiss him, tongues colliding and teeth crashing against one another as they lusted after each other's lips.

Taehyung could taste the saltiness inside Jeongguk's mouth. Taehyung loved that way more than he should.

Jeongguk pinched the younger's waist, making Taehyung giggle into the kiss. Jeongguk couldn't help but grin, cooing at the smaller boy's adorableness.

"Adorable" Jeongguk whispered against Taehyung's lips.

Taehyung smiled at him, eyes gleaming.

"The prettiest" Jeongguk mused.

Taehyung rolled his eyes. But his cheeks were dusted scarlet, flustered from all the praising.

"Are you going to fuck me or keep sweet talking to me?" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's plush ass. "So demanding"

Jeongguk sat up on the bed and spread open Taehyung's legs. His pretty little hole was in full display. The exposure made Taehyung's cheeks heat up uncontrollably. Especially from the way Jeongguk eyed him, like a beast eyeing its prey; ready to devour him. Flames of hunger and lust burned in his eyes.

Jeongguk squeezed a generous amount of lube onto his fingers, spreading them over three fingers. He eyed Taehyung once before pressing a lubed finger against his rim. The coldness of his finger made Taehyung jump.

Jeongguk circled his rim before pulling it in. the stretch wasn't painful. He was used to it. Jeongguk thrust his finger in and out of his hole before adding another one.

Taehyung bit down on his bottom lip, the pain from the stretch starting to spread over his bottom half. He hadn't been fucked in almost a week. He was surely tight.

Jeongguk paid no mind to Taehyung's discomfort, knowing it's going to ease up sooner, rather than later. He fucked Taehyung with two fingers, scissoring him, stretching him open.

Jeongguk soon added another finger and Taehyung jumped a little, a sigh escaping him as the pain heightened. Jeongguk stretched him out for a few moments before digging his fingers deeper inside Taehyung.

The moment Jeongguk dragged his fingers along Taehyung's velvety walls, the younger boy let out a mewl as an electrifying sensation took over his body. Jeongguk smirked, having finally found his prostate.

Jeongguk continued to finger fuck the poor boy who whined and shook under him. After he tortured Taehyung for a satisfactory amount of time, Jeongguk dragged his fingers out of his hole, leaving Taehyung tremble and whine at the feeling of loss fullness inside him.

Pre-cum dripped from his cock. Arousal spread through his body in waves as he found himself whining.

"Sir!" Taehyung let out. "Fuck me already"

"Fuck, baby" Jeongguk groaned. "Hold on"

"Please, sir! Be quick!"

"Patience" Jeongguk snapped. "Do we need a condom?"

"No!" Taehyung said. "Fuck me raw"

"Fuck okay"

"Like it when you fuck me raw"

"Me too, baby" Jeongguk said, his own patience wearing thin as he hurriedly lubed up his cock.

Jeongguk hovered over Taehyung again, one hand hoisting himself up as his lower half rested between the younger boy's thighs. Jeongguk quickly aligned himself with Taehyung's wet hole and pushed in.

The moment Jeongguk's cock started filling him up, Taehyung threw his head back, spine arching as he tried to adjust to his size. No matter how many times he had Jeongguk inside him, he could never adjust to his massive cock.

Jeongguk, sensing Taehyung's discomfort, captured his lips in a lustful kiss, to distract him, knocking the air out of his lungs in the process.

Jeongguk kept pushing in until he completely bottomed out. Jeongguk prepped kisses along Taehyung's jaw and collarbones, letting him adjust until-

"Move"

Jeongguk started moving. He started with slow thrusts, slowly building up the pace until he found himself a steady rythem.

Taehyung moaned out, the pain of the stretch vanishing as Jeongguk's cock slid over his prostate with every push and drag. The pleasure spread through his body like wildfire, numbing every sense and making his whole body quiver.

Jeongguk snapped his hips, fucking in and out of Taehyung at an animalistic pace, low groans escaping him.

"Fucking tight" Jeongguk groaned. "So good"

Taehyung moaned in response. He dragged in fingernails along Jeongguk's muscular back, finding the way they flexed as he moved his body extremely satisfying. He threw his head back, profanities escaping him with each thrust. The pleasure was too much to contain.

"Fuck" Taehyung let out. "I m-missed this s-s-so f-fucking much oh !"

"M-Me too baby" Jeongguk buried his head in the crook of Taehyung's neck as he ruthlessly slammed his cock into the smaller boy.

"Sir!" Taehyung let out, tears springing into his eyes as Jeongguk continued to ram his cock into Taehyung.

Taehyung could feel the fire that had pooled at the bottom of his stomach. He was already so close. Every thrust, a scrap of heaven. Every drag and pull pushed Jungkook further and further away from his equilibrium, into a void of ecstasy.

"Fuck I'm close"

Jeongguk's pace faltered for a split second when he pushed Taehyung's legs over his shoulders to fuck him at a between angle. Taehyung could feel Jeongguk's cock so deep inside him, almost in his intestines. The sounds of squelching were sick and sinful.

Flames of lust burned through his veins, liquid pleasure making him scream out.

Jeongguk's sinful chorus of moans and grunts felt heavenly in Taehyung's ears. His groans reverberated through his body, driving him closer and closer to his climax

Taehyung moaned out. He was going to cum untouched.

Jeongguk held him from his hips, his grip bruising and probably leaving marks, and started to fuck him harder and faster just how Taehyung needed it.

Within minutes Taehyung came, electrifying pleasure making everything around him fade into white noise, eyes rolling to the back of his head and toes curling in pleasure.

Taehyung collapsed on the bed, body exhausted but Jeongguk thrust into his lifeless body, chasing his own climax. Within minutes, he came inside Taehyung, pumping his hot cum into Taehyung, making whimper weakly.

Jeongguk collapsed next to Taehyung. The sound of their heavy breathing filled up the silence of the room.

It was Taehyung who spoke first.

"So you kept your promise"

"Hmm?"

"You fucked me in you and your wife's bed at last"

Jeongguk smiled. "Yeah. Always wanted to"

"Kinky" Taehyung grinned. "I love it"

"Another round?"

"Fuck no I'm exhausted"

"Come on! I'm horny" Jeongguk whined.

"I'm fucking sore" Taehyung let out weakly. "Wait a few minutes at least"

"Is that a yes?"

"Maybe"

"Yay!"

Taehyung laughed at the older man's cuteness.

Jeongguk moved towards Taehyung, wrapping his arms around the younger as they stared into each other's eyes, basking in each other's warmth and love.

"I love you" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung sighed, heart bubbling with happiness. "I love you to the moon and back"

"I love you to Saturn and back"

"I love you more than the vast space"

"That's not fair!" Jeongguk said. Taehyung giggled, seeing Jeongguk pout cutely.

Taehyung watched as Jeongguk's eyes twinkle beautifully, the stars embedded in them were bright and mystic. The constellations of his eyes spoke of many possibilities and futures.

Their future. Together.

Jeongguk planted a kiss atop Taehyung's lips, smiling cutely afterward.

Taehyung was about to give him a kiss himself when Jeongguk's phone beeped.

Jeongguk's eyes narrowed, eyebrows knitting together as his attention was captured by the sound of a notification. He let out a sigh and reached for his phone that was on the bed.

Taehyung watched as Jeongguk checked the message and the blond boy snuggled up to him and head buried in the crook of his chest.

"Taehyung"

Taehyung looked up at Jeongguk. He wore an unreadable expression. It made Taehyung's heart jump a little from anxiety. Jeongguk then looked at Taehyung.

"Aria had woken up"

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•°⁴⁰°•Family and Lover─✵────────

"I missed you"

Jeongguk's whisper against Taehyung's mouth spoke volumes of love and passion. Jeongguk held Taehyung's hand, leaning towards him from the driving seat to capture his lips in another passionate kiss. Taehyung's hand on Jeongguk's thigh felt like an anchor to reality as they devoured each other, sitting in the front seats of the car.

"I missed you too" Taehyung whispered, breathless as they finally pulled away to catch their breath.

They had parked in front of Jimin's dorm to drop Taehyung off on Jeongguk's way to the hospital but neither of them could bring themselves to say goodbye.

"We'll meet soon," Jeongguk said.

"When?" Taehyung questioned.

"I'll call you. I promise I'll make time for you. I won't let you go like last time. I won't. I'll take care of you properly"

Taehyung smiled, the apples of his cheeks flushing a pretty pink as he whispered "Okay"

"What do you want to do when we meet?" Jeongguk asked as he cupped Taehyung's cheek, a smile creeping up his own lips upon seeing the younger boy's adorableness.

"Let's go on a cute date"

"Any ideas?"

Taehyung shrugged. "We can go to the movies? Or we can just watch a movie by ourselves and eat tacos and drink hot chocolate, wrapped in blankets. We can cuddle and kiss and have slow romantic sex afterward" he grinned cheekily.

Jeongguk chuckled. "The second idea seems wholesome to me"

Taehyung's eyes lit up with excitement. "We can go to the museum too! I haven't been to a museum in ages! Oh, we can go to the art museum! I heard it's awesome! I've always wanted to go with someone. Jimin is just too lazy. Do you want to go with me?"

"Of course, my love" Jeongguk was grinning like a lovesick fool. "We can do anything you want. Just come up with all the date ideas you want and I'll take you there"

Taehyung grinned, his plump lips stretching to a boxy shape. Jeongguk could only coo.

"I'm so excited!" Taehyung said. "I can't wait!"

"Me too, darling"

Taehyung paced another kiss on Jeongguk's lips. "Get going now. You should be there with her"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said, still holding Taehyung's hand. "I'll see you later, then"

"Okay" Taehyung smiled and opened the door, ready to step out when Jeongguk pulled him again towards himself and captured his lips in a kiss. When they pulled away, both of them were grinning.

"Bye for real this time," Taehyung said, grinning, and stepped out of the car, leaving Jeongguk grinning and watching him walk inside the dorm.

-

Jeongguk took hurried steps along the long hospital corridors, making his way towards Aria's room. When he finally reached the place, he barged the door open only to reveal Jieun and Aria, both looking at him.

Jeongguk saw Aria sigh the moment she saw him. Something in Jeongguk's heart stirred at the reaction of his daughter. Jieun glanced at Jeongguk but he couldn't meet her eyes.

"I'll leave you two," She said, kissing Aria's hand before walking out.

Jeongguk walked towards the bed, heart heavy in his chest as he watched Aria. He stood next to the bed and took her hand in his.

"How are you?" He asked.

"Fine" Aria answered. Her voice sounded different. Maybe because Jeongguk hadn't heard it in a while. Or maybe because she hadn't spoken in a while. Either way, Jeongguk was glad to hear her voice again.

"I was so worried," Jeongguk said, heart clenching in pain as he recalled the time he got the call that Aria had been met with an accident.

"Where were you when I woke up?" She sounded angry. "I woke up like an hour ago and you weren't here. Were you with Taehyung?"

"Aria!" Jeongguk exclaimed. He hadn't expected Aria to forget about the incident. But he'd be lying if he hadn't considered himself to be lucky and hoped she would forget it. Now, however, he couldn't ignore that there was a tension between them.

"I was at home. Your mother and I were taking shifts staying by your side" Jeongguk said. It was partially true.

"I still hate you," Aria said.

Jeongguk's heart clenched painfully. "Can't we talk about this later? When you're discharged we can figure something out-"

"They said they're going to discharge me in a few days" she grumbled.

"Aria" Jeongguk whispered. "Are you feeling okay? Does it hurt anywhere?"

"No I'm fine," She said. "I'm just having a headache"

"Do you want anything? Candy? Anything you want to eat?"

"Dad I'm not ten years old for you to buy me candy. I'm sixteen years old!" Aria said. "I want you to tell me what's going on with you and mom" she sniffled.

"Aria..." Jeongguk watched Aria wipe a tear away with her bandaged wrist.

"It's been bothering me since the moment I woke up"

"Aria" Jeongguk felt like crying. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I did what I did. The last thing I wanted to do was screw up your life"

Aria stayed silent.

"Your mom knows," Jeongguk said. "I told her. I know this is hard for you to understand but-"

"I'm sixteen! I'm mature"

Jeongguk sighed. "Your mom and I haven't had the best start in our relationship. You should understand that we tried but..." Jeongguk honestly didn't know what to tell her.

Aria let out a sigh. "Are you going to divorce her?" her bottom lip trembled.

"We haven't talked about it"

"Please don't get divorced," Aria was crying now. "Please"

"Aria" Jeongguk said brokenly.

"I hate Taehyung for doing this to our family"

"It's not his fault," Jeongguk said quickly, a wave of protectiveness suddenly taking over him. "It's my fau-"

"He ruined everything. You and mom were happy and in love before he came along. He's an asshole. He just wanted to ruin our lives. I hate him"

"Aria!" Jeongguk said, voice raising a bit. "Don't say that. You can blame me all you want. I started it. I met him way before you met him. You just don't understand this"

"He's nothing but a home wrecker. I shouldn't have dated him. He...he was cheating on me with you the whole time" Aria let out a sob.

"I thought you guys broke up. I told you to break up"

"You told me to break up with him so you could have him for yourself!"

"That's not true! He's so much older than you. You can't be with him! Aria you're a minor"

"Oh please," Aria scoffed. "You were being so selfish. You knew I liked him. I hate you!"

Jeongguk bit the inside of his cheek, thinking hard on his next words.

"Is it such a bad thing that your father wants to be happy too?"

Aria stared at him.

"I admitted that what I did was wrong. I told you to break up with him and I thought you did. Yes, I cheated on your mom and if you're so mature as you claim to be, you'd understand that people fall out of love eventually. Your mom had you when we were your age. We were kids, Aria. This was bound to happen"

"But mom loves you!"

"You don't know that"

"I do! All she talks about is you when you're not around. She loves you like crazy and you go hook up with other people behind her back"

"I can't force feelings out of me," Jeongguk said. "And you don't know the whole story"

"Then tell me"

"No. Ask your beloved mom"

"I'm mature enough to handle it. Tell me!" Aria said.

Jeongguk sighed. "I don't think you are"

"What?"

"You might be mature in age but you weren't so mature when you almost raped Taehyung, huh?"

Aria's eyes widened. "He told you?"

"Is that the point here? That poor boy just lived with us because he didn't have money to rent a place. And you took advantage of his helpless condition"

"It was just one time"

"Anything without consent is rape!" Jeongguk shouted. "I didn't raise a rapist in my household!"

Aria let out a sob. 

"Before you try to tell us what to do with our lives, you'd better rethink all the screwed-up things you've done in your life. Like what is this? I expected so much better from you" Jeongguk was raging with anger. He couldn't help himself.

"I'm sorry," Aria said.

"You should be saying sorry to Taehyung" Jeongguk sighed. "I didn't want to talk to you about this right now. But if you were so mature as you claim, you'd repent on your faults"

Aria sniffled. "You brought him to our house and you fucked him behind our backs"

Jeongguk's eyes widened at that. "I just offered him a place to stay," he said, massaging his temples as he could feel the beginning of a headache. "I don't think I did you wrong, Aria. He wasn't really your boyfriend. And I've talked to you like ten times about why you shouldn't be with him. You should've given up on him. You should listen to your parents. And I kept this crazy relationship of yours from your mom, believing you'd give up. If she knew, she'd say the exact same things I told you"

Aria glared at Jeongguk.

"The only problem here should be the fact that I cheated on your mother. And I think me and your mother will take care of that problem, hmm? It's between me and your mom" Jeongguk said.

Aria was silent for a few moments before she nodded slowly, another tear escaping her.

"Just get well soon so we can go home," Jeongguk said, voice soft. "I love you"

"Love you too" Jeongguk heard Aria whisper after a while, right before he walked out of the room.

Jeongguk saw Jieun sitting on one of the metal chairs in front of the room. She stood up and walked towards him as he walked out.

"What did she say?"

"Nothing" Jeongguk grumbled. "She's angry"

"Why?"

Jeongguk didn't answer. Jieun didn't know about the incident where Aria walked in on Jeongguk and Taehyung.

"You didn't tell her about it, right?"

"About what?" Jeongguk asked as he sat down on a chair.

"About you...not being her birth father"

"No, I guessed that you're the one who should confess your sins. Not me"

Jieun scoffed. "As if you didn't do anything wrong. And does Aria know that you cheated?"

Jeongguk hesitated.

"Yeah"

"How?!"

"It doesn't matter. She knows everything and she's mad at me" Jeongguk said. Jieun didn't have to know about the part where Aria walked in on him and Taehyung.

"As she should be"

Jeongguk sighed. "Let's get a divorce"

"What?" Jieun shouted, making a few passersby look at them. Jeongguk looked away, embarrassed.

"Are you out of your mind?"

"Why should I stay with you? I cheated on you. Don't you hate me? And I don't want to be with you. You lied to me about Aria! You ruined my whole life" Jeongguk said, burning with anger.

"Jeongguk I don't hate you. I love you!" Jieun said, looking at him. "I can forgive you. We can make things right between us"

"I don't love you. Why are you forcing me to stay when all I want to do is leave?" Jeongguk said. "The only thing that kept me from leaving earlier is Aria. Now that she's not really my child I don't really have a reason to stay"

"Stop being ridiculous. You're her father. You raised her. She's your daughter" Jieun said. "And what about the baby?"

Jeongguk looked at her, eyes droopy with stress and sorrow. She had her hand on her stomach, caressing the small lump that was barely visible.

Jeongguk's heart clenched upon seeing it. It was the first time he had seen the baby bump. He gulped as a million thoughts crossed his mind. If it's really his baby...

"It's not mine," Jeongguk said, voice thick with emotion.

"Jeongguk! You can't be serious. I'm pregnant with your child. If you don't believe me let's do a test. We can do one in about two weeks"

"I don't want it," Jeongguk said.

"It's your child!" Jieun sounded annoyed. "Your blood, Jeongguk. He or she needs a father"

Jeongguk scoffed. "Find her a father like you did last time"

Jeongguk stood up from the seat but Jieun grabbed his hand.

"Stop acting like some hormonal teenager," Jieun said sharply. "You're thirty years old. You're not a teenager anymore. You're an adult. You have a family. You have a daughter and another kid on the way. Stop being so impulsive and let's talk about this like adults"

Jeongguk bit the inside of his cheeks. "What do you want to talk about?"

"Everything"


Jeongguk sipped on a milkshake as he stared out of the window of the hospital cafeteria, at the garden outside. Jeongguk didn't want to have a friendly conversation with his pathetic excuse of a wife, who made him live a lie for half his life.

However, ultimately, she was right. Jeongguk was acting like a teenager; taking impulsive decisions. All he wanted to do was be with Taehyung but it wasn't easy like that. He couldn't do as he pleases when there's a million lashes dragging him back.

Jeongguk looked at Jieun, who also stared out of the window at the sunset, seated opposite from him at the table. Her cheeks were hollowed and her hair a little messy, unlike her usual attire. She had lost weight.

A pang of worry hit him on the chest as he remembered that she was pregnant. She needs to eat and rest. She needs nutrition. She hadn't gotten enough of either of those in the past few days.

"Look" Jeongguk started, eyeing the plate of untouched food in front of her. Jieun turned her head to look at Jeongguk.

"What?"

"You should eat," Jeongguk said in a small voice. "I'll stay with Aria tonight. You go and get some sleep. You need to rest"

"Okay," Jieun whispered.

"I want to be with Taehyung"

Jieun looked up at that. "Do you love him?"

"Yes"

Jieun bit her lip, looking down. Jeongguk watched her silently. A silence stretched between them. And then-

Sniffle

Jieun wiped tears off her cheeks. Jeongguk watched her, guilt building up inside him.

After a few moments, she looked up and nodded at Jeongguk. "I understand"

"What?"

"I get it. I was wrong. I did you wrong all those years ago. I was a coward and I ruined your life. I'm sorry" Jieun said, voice cracking up from time to time.

"Okay," Jeongguk said. He didn't need an apology. An apology wouldn't bring back those years.

"But I love you"

Jeongguk looked up at her again. "I don't. I'm sorry"

Jieun waited a few moments, staring at the table. "I can't say it's fine. I'm not that strong. I can't tell you that it's okay that you don't love me and that I want you to be happy. I can't tell you to leave me and find your happiness. I'm not strong like that"

"Jieun..."

"I need you. You're all I have. I hate to victimize myself but I don't have a choice, Jeongguk. Aria is a handful. She's stubborn and at the peak of her teens. I know I'm being selfish but I can't manage her and this baby alone"

Jeongguk stayed silent, her words hitting him like a ton of bricks.

"And you're being selfish too, don't you think?" Jieun said. "We have been married for ten years and we went through everything together. Even though Aria isn't your biological daughter you're still her father. I just don't know any other way to put it. You raised her, Jeongguk.

"And I know that deep down you don't mean it when you say you want to leave us. You might not care about me but you care about her. You want to watch her grow up. You want to see her living a beautiful life. Love doesn't disappear like that, Jeongguk. You love her the same way you loved her before you got to know this piece of information"

Jeongguk fumbled with his fingers as he kept his gaze down, trying to control the tears that gathered in his eyes because every word that left Jieun's mouth was true.

The piece of information that Aria isn’t his biological daughter didn’t really change anything between him and Aria. He didn’t love her any less after knowing about it. 

It only gave him another reason to leave Jieun, but not Aria. 

"This baby is yours, Jeongguk," Jieun said. "I didn't cheat on you. Since the day Aria came into this world, you're the only man I've set my eyes on. If you're not going to take my word for it, I don't know how else to prove it to you. I have no reason to lie to you. Not right now"

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. "I don't know what to do"

Jieun stayed silent.

"I'm sorry," Jeongguk said after a while. "I just want to be with him"

"I know," Jieun said. "But you should stop pretending like he's the only person in your world"

"I know," Jeongguk said.

"I'm still your wife and I still care about you and love you," Jieun said. "I didn't know you were so unhappy with me" she wiped another tear that made its way down her cheek.

"I used to be"

"We raised Aria for sixteen years. Together. It's not only you that didn't get to enjoy being a teenager and college life. I worked two jobs in my college days, remember?"

Jeongguk nodded. His heart clenched as he remembered the way Jieun would come home late at night after working at a diner and as a tutor and Jeongguk would always stay up late for her to come home. Jeongguk worked as a tutor in his college days and he had enough free time. But he didn't hang around with his friends and go to parties as his friends did. After work, he went to pick Aria up from daycare and took her home. He looked after her for the rest of the day.

"We built this life together," Jieun said. "And I'm not saying that things haven't changed. But can you leave everything you've spent half of your life building up for some boy you met only four months ago?"

Jeongguk kept his gaze down. He wanted to sob at that moment, as he reminisced all the beautiful moments he had had with Taehyung. His laugh, like an angel's bells, his voice deep as the deepest pits of Tartarus and his body and face carved by the heaven itself. He didn't want to let go of that happy place. His home. His comfort.

"What if it doesn't work out?" Jieun questioned, making Jeongguk look up at her. "He's still in his twenties. A college boy. Do you really think it's going to last? He's just attracted to you because you're older and mature. He's too young for you"

"I think I'll manage that" Jeongguk gritted through his teeth as he bit back a sob. However, he could not help but see the truth in Jieun's words. No matter how she was trying to manipulate him, there is truth in what she was saying. 

Jieun sighed. "You're not a child, Jeongguk. Just think about what I said. It's not because I don't want you to be happy. I wish we could work this out in a way we both could be happy. I'm just telling you to work out your priorities. And as a mother, my priorities are my children. I just want them to have a good future"

Jeongguk watched her as she stood up from her chair and made her way to Jeongguk. She stopped right beside him and he turned to face her, confused. But Jieun took Jeongguk's hand and placed his palm right over her belly.

"Feel it? It's yours. Your baby growing inside me" Jieun said.

Jeongguk gulped as he darted his gaze from her eyes to her stomach.

He gulped. Jeongguk could see the bump more clearly now; a small bump on her otherwise flat stomach. Almost unconsciously, he brought his other hand to her stomach and caressed the bump. He instantly recalled the way he used to touch Jieun's stomach when she was pregnant fifteen years ago. He remembered the way the baby kicked at times.

He couldn't feel anything. It was only a fetus. But the baby bump was so evident, even through the frock that wasn't too tight on her. Jeongguk caressed his palms over the frock, softly, feeling up the way her belly had swollen, all because of him.

His baby

Jieun looked down at him lovingly, but her eyes were sad. She cupped Jeongguk's face, making him look up at her.

"Make a choice, Jeongguk. Family or lover?"

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•°⁴¹°• Happy ─✵────────

"Oh fuck yes! So good!"

Taehyung's groaned against his pillow as Jeongguk rammed his cock into Taehyung, pushing the boy into the sheets. Taehyung could see stars behind his closed eyelids as Jeongguk ground into his ass, his cock sliding in and out of Taehyung's wet hole ever so smoothly. And the younger boy could only clutch onto the pillow and try not to lose his sanity as Jeongguk's series of unholy groans only managed to drive him over the edge.

This wasn't how Taehyung had planned their 'cute date' to go. Nope. He didn't see it coming at all. In fact, they were only halfway through their movie at Taehyung's new place. And he honestly wanted to spend some quality time with Jeongguk. As this was their first official date.

Jeongguk picked Call Me By Your Name as the movie. Apparently, he had never seen it. Taehyung loved the movie and had watched it a couple of times. He didn't mind watching it again, as it's one of his all-time favorites. They weren't actually paying attention to the movie in the first place. They were rather enjoying each other's presence. With nimble touches and forehead kisses, fingers laced over one another, and bodies cuddled together as they silently watched the movie.

But they both couldn't help themselves. The kisses inched closer to their mouths and hands started to touch more than each other's hands. All hell broke loose when Elio started to fuck a peach.

And now, they were lost in each other, chasing their climaxes as the movie played in the background, long forgotten.

"Fuck" Jeongguk groaned as he placed one hand on the arch of Taehyung's back and his other hand held the younger's boy's hand from his wrist, against his back. Taehyung could only moan out loud, lost in the electrifying pleasure that surged through his body in waves with every push and pull.

Jeongguk let go of his hand and leaned forwards, thrusts slowing down as he pressed kisses along Taehyung's back. The younger boy raised his head from the pillow to look at Jeongguk behind him. Jeongguk captured his lips in a chaste kiss, messy as he built up his speed yet again. They were both close to their climaxes.

Taehyung groaned into Jeongguk's mouth, breaking the kiss. Jeongguk leaned away, thrusts slowing down again. Taehyung was so close. He was about to complain but-

"Oh my fuck!" Taehyung shouted as Jeongguk turned him around whilst still inside him. The older smirked as he held one of Taehyung's legs up with his hand.

Without further ado, he started fucking Taehyung, pace brutally fast and Taehyung threw his head back into the pillow, back arching as profanities and moans left his mouth, unable to control the pleasure.

Jeongguk groaned above him and Taehyung's cock twitched at the sound. He swore Jeongguk's sounds of pleasure were the sexiest sounds in the whole universe.

Taehyung could feel the fire burning at the pit of his stomach, ready to explode. It didn't take him minutes for the orgasm to rip through his cock, eyes rolling to the back of his head and toes curling with unbearable pleasure as he finally reached his climax.

Jeongguk followed soon after, after thrusting in and out of Taehyung's lifeless body a few more times. Taehyung whimpered as Jeongguk pumped his hot cum into him, a long groan of satisfaction leaving the older man's throat.

Jeongguk collapsed next to Taehyung on the bed, both men breathing heavily as they tried to calm their racing heartbeats. Taehyung could feel Jeongguk's cum oozing out of his ass, slowly making its way downwards.

Jeongguk got up from the bed and started cleaning Taehyung up, much to the younger boy's relief as he was starting to feel disgusted. Besides, he didn't want to soil the sheets.

Jeongguk laid down beside Taehyung and pulled the smaller boy into his arms after cleaning up both of them. Taehyung happily laid on the older man's chest, arms wrapped around him. The movie played on the laptop at the corner of the bed and Taehyung watched Jeongguk, smiling like a fool as he listened to Elio and Oliver's voices in the background.

Taehyung sighed against Jeongguk's chest, smile widening as he listened to the rhythmic beat of his heart. He couldn't be grateful enough to have this. To have Jeongguk like this. All to himself. Jeongguk, the love of his life.

"What?" Jeongguk questioned, seeing the younger staring at him.

"I love you" Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk grinned. "I love you too"

"Yay" Taehyung whispered.

"God you're adorable" Jeongguk leaned down and placed a kiss atop the younger boy's unruly blond hair.

Taehyung giggled.

"When's the grandma coming back?" Jeongguk said.

Mrs. Hooper had gone to one of her friends’ houses for a 'party'. Taehyung was sure their definition of 'party' differed from his. She had told Taehyung to make himself something for dinner. But Taehyung had seen the opportunity and called Jeongguk to come over. Jeongguk had agreed right away.

It had only been two days since they last met. But Taehyung missed Jeongguk from the moment he left for the hospital that day.

"Think she'll be late," Taehyung said. "Didn't exactly tell me the time. You can stay the night. She loves you. She thinks you're around my age"

"I am around your age" Jeongguk pouted.

"You're ten years older than me" Taehyung laughed. "You're fucking old"

"Shut up. You like that I'm older than you"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "Fuck off"

"You like that I look daddy"

"You act more like a baby sometimes," Taehyung said, tracing his finger of a purplish bruise next to Jeongguk's nipple. He was proud of his artwork.

"I want to be more daddy for you"

Taehyung laughed. "You're daddy in bed. And you're also mature most of the time"

Jeongguk let out a chuckle, reaching down to kiss Taehyung's forehead.

Taehyung let out a giggle as he looked up at Jeongguk, who stared at him with sparkling starry eyes, swirling with emotion.

"You have such pretty eyes," Taehyung whispered. "Starry"

"Really? No one had told me that"

"No one probably had admired you enough" Taehyung wanted nothing more than to admire him all day.

Jeongguk hummed. "Well, you're here now. We can admire each other" He grinned.

"Sure" Taehyung grinned. "I like that"

"Awesome" Jeongguk said, pulling Taehyung's body closer to himself. Taehyung planted a kiss on Jeongguk's chest before placing his head on the older man's chest.

"What's going to happen now?" Taehyung said after a while.

"We cuddle"

"No, I mean...with Jieun and stuff"

"Oh," Jeongguk said, the smile on his lips fading.

"I mean I understand if-"

"I'm going to get the divorce papers tomorrow"

"Really?" Taehyung said, raising his head to look at Jeongguk.

"Yeah. I just want to get the fuck away from her. She keeps telling me the baby is mine but I don't believe her at all"

"Yeah, I mean, she's ridiculously cunning. Like who even lies to another guy about something like that? I still can't believe that she would do that. She's so evil. She destroyed your life"

"I know right?" Jeongguk sighed. "And she's trying to make me stay. After all that had happened. As if I'd believe a single word she says after what happened"

"Is she serious?" Taehyung could feel his anger rising.

"Yeah! She keeps telling me how I should act like a father and shit and to think about the new child and Aria. She told me how she could never take care of two kids and all so she wants me to stay"

"She's just trying to bind you down again"

"Yeah. If there’s anything I care about, it’s Aria. I can’t stop loving her just because I suddenly found out that she isn’t mine. Love doesn’t work like that”

“Yeah, I guess. But I suppose she wants you to stay mainly because of the new kid”

“Yeah” Jeongguk whispered. “Besides, I can pay for child support or something"

"Split parenting sounds okay too"

"Are you okay with that?" Jeongguk asked, looking down at Taehyung as he stroked the younger's head.

Taehyung thought for a moment. "Yeah, I guess. As long as you don’t leave me again"

"You deserve better than me. I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up"

"I knew what I was signing up for the moment I picked up your call. I'll have to take the whole package if I want to be with you. As much as I want to be selfish and tell you to leave your family behind because of everything you had to go through, I can’t do that. And I know you would never do that. All I’m asking for is to choose yourself and do what’s best for you"

“Tae…”

“I can’t just ignore the fact that you’re a dad and pretend that I’m the only person in your world”

“Baby” Jeongguk whispered brokenly.

“In my opinion, what’s best for the both of us is to divorce her. You will never be able to let go of your kids and you don’t have to I guess. But only a divorce would let me have the opportunity to call you mine. So I want you to get a divorce, leave her and come to me so that we can freely date each other”

“That sounds like a plan”

“I want to show you so many things, Gguk,” Taehyung said, looking at Jeongguk with starry eyes. “I want to travel with you and go on dates with you, go clubbing and to parties. You’ve never done any of those, right? You’ve never had actual fun in your whole life. And I want to show you what it’s like to live”

Jeongguk let out a deep sigh and looked at Taehyung with glassy eyes, filled with tears. “I’d love that” Jeongguk whispered. “I want to do all those things with you and have fun with you. I know you’ll show me what it’s like”

“Yeah it would be. I promise” TAehying smiled, happiness bubbling in his chest as he thought about all the things he wanted to do with Jeongguk. “I’m excited”

“Me too” Jeongguk whispered. "It still doesn't seem fair on you"

"That's okay. As long as we're official"

"We are! This is our first fate!" Jeongguk grinned. "And I'll no longer be someone's husband soon!"

"Yes!" Taehyung grinned back, leaning up to plant a kiss on the older's lips.

"I love you so much" Jeongguk whispered against Taehyung's mouth as they pulled away.

Taehyung could only smile as happiness bubbled up inside him. "I'm glad"

"Never going to stop loving you"

"You'd better keep your word"

"I'm not going to leave you again either"

"You'd better keep your word!" Taehyung was grinning.

"You have my word," Jeongguk said.

"I love you too!" The younger boy giggled. Jeongguk grinned as he wrapped his arms around the younger's naked body. With their legs dangled together and faces inches apart, they basked in each other's warmth and love amidst the comfortable silence.

"You know" Jeongguk was the first to break the silence.

"Hmm?"

"Aria says she hates me" Jeongguk's voice was thick. It carried sorrow.

Taehyung's heart ached. "I don't think she means that"

"She says she loves me. I don't think she means that either"

"She's your daughter. She's just mad at you. Give her some time"

"She literally walked in on us having sex. It's going to emotionally scar her for the rest of her life. God, I have so many regrets"

"Are any of them concerning me?"

"God, no" Jeongguk said. "Never. You're the best thing that happened to me in my whole life"

Taehyung smiled. "I could say the same. I feel like I would have gone to my previous lifestyle if you hadn't come alone. I'm kind of glad you kept me in check, even though we didn't date. At least you didn't want me to have sex with anyone else while we were having the affair. No matter how unfair it was since you're married"

Jeongguk chuckled. "I didn't have a right to act so possessively around you. But I couldn't help it. I just...wanted you to be mine. I'm so selfish" Jeongguk said. "But on a serious note, don't ever sell yourself like that, okay? If you need money, you can get a loan or just ask me, okay?"

"Okay" Taehyung muttered.

"Good boy" Jeongguk kissed Taehyung's forehead.

Taehyung blushed scarlet.

"Aria is going to be released in two days," Jeongguk said.

"College is starting next week. In three days" Taehyung said. "don't want the break to be over"

"Me too," Jeongguk said. "Are you going to change my class as you said?"

"Nah" Taehyung said. "I didn't inform anyone about it so I'm technically still your student"

"I'm glad"

"We can fuck in your office" Taehyung smirked.

Jeongguk laughed. "I thought we were dating! We are no longer only fucking!"

"What do you mean dating? People who date also have sex!"

"Yes, but we should be going on cute dates!"

"Let's go to the museum like I said. Next week" Taehyung said.

"I'm down," Jeongguk said. "But you need to focus on your studies more. Your mock exam marks were barely satisfactory. You need to study more"

"Oh my god," Taehyung sat up on the bed and rolled his eyes. "Stop going all professor mode on me, professor. You literally had your cock buried in my ass ten minutes ago!"

Jeongguk laughed. "I'm telling the truth. I'm still your professor!"

"Fuck you"

"I think it's the other way around"

"You think I can't fuck you? Let me fuck you. Where's the lube?"

Jeongguk sat up, laughing. He took both Taehyung's hands in his. "Nope. I don't think so"

"You think I can't top?" Taehyung said, eyes wide with disbelief. "I'll show you. You'll be whimpering under me in no time. I can fuck you-"

Jeongguk pushed Taehyung down to the bed and got on top of him. "I said no " He rasped.

Taehyung bit his lip, arousal coursing through his body in waves. "Fuck"

"Maybe another time," Jeongguk said, staring down at him. "I'm sure you can top me. But not today. You look like a princess today"

"I'm not-" Taehyung couldn't finish his sentence as Jeongguk pushed his tongue inside his mouth. Taehyung's eyes widened in surprise but he closed his eyes, kissing Jeongguk with the same intensity.

A few minutes later they were pulling away to catch their breaths.

"Princess," Jeongguk said breathlessly.

Taehyung blushed a deeper shade of red at the nickname.

Jeongguk smirked and laid down next to Taehyung and cuddled him again, much to his disappointment. Taehyung was turned on again.

Taehyung reached up to kiss the older man's chin. And nuzzled his head against Jeongguk's neck.

"Did you go to college in Beverly?"

"Nah I went to college in New York," Jeongguk said.

"Woah," Taehyung said. "New York Art Academy?"

Jeongguk laughed. "I wish"

Taehyung smiled. "I applied there too"

"Me too. It's every art student's dream. No one gets chosen, though. They only take like 300 per batch. From all of America"

"Yeah. You've got to be really talented and lucky to go there"

"Everyone applies but the chances are really rare. Going there is like an upgrade to the normal degree because you'll get hired literally anywhere"

"Wish I was that lucky"

"That's okay. You can get a nice job right after completing your degree"

"I've always dreamt of going there," Taehyung said. "New York is so far away though"

"Yeah," Jeongguk said. "We moved here like three years ago after I got the job as a lecturer at Beverly"

Taehyung nodded. "Do you get paid well?"

"Yeah. A lot" Jeongguk said. "In a couple of years, I can be a senior lecturer"

"Wow sounds cool," Taehyung said. "Did you always want to be a lecturer?"

"Nope. But I passed with a high GPA and my university hired me as a part-time lecturer there for a while. I was going to apply for a company, actually. But I got paid a lot and I decided being a lecturer isn't that bad either. So I applied to more universities and I got the job here!"

"Wow that's awesome," Taehyung said. "I wonder if I'd have a change of mind like that too"

"Art therapy sounds cool. You should apply for jobs in that scepter first and see. I can help you"

"Thanks" Taehyung smiled.

Jeongguk smiled back, his lips stretching to reveal his adorable bunny teeth and his eyes crinkling at the end. He looked adorable. And happy.

Jeongguk looked happy.

Taehyung didn't remember him ever looking so happy before. The exhilaration sex would bring maybe euphoric but's it temporary. Pleasure isn't equivalent to happiness. And being in love must be what's making him so happy.

"You should do that more" Taehyung said, looking up at Jeongguk lovingly, a smile stretching his own lips.

"What?" Jeongguk asked, his eyes sparkling with love.

"Smile"

Jeongguk's lips stretched into a grin. "Using my own lines, hmm?"

Taehyung giggled. Jeongguk leaned down and planted a kiss atop the younger boy's lips.

Taehyung instantly responded, closing his eyes and melting into the kiss immediately. Jeongguk held the smaller boy's face with his hand as he wrapped his other arm around Taehyung's small waist.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jeongguk's neck and brought his body closer to the older man. Before Jeongguk could know it, Taehyung was pushing him down to the sheets as he got on top of the older man.

Taehyung broke the kiss as he felt Jeongguk smiling into the kiss. Taehyung sat up, straddling the man below him, ass resting right on his half-hard cock.

"Taehyung" Jeongguk's voice was rough, but the smirk that stretched his lips made Taehyung want to ride him till he can't no more.

"Let me ride you," Taehyung said.

"Gladly"

"Keep your hands above your head. No touching. You'll watch me fuck myself on your cock"

Jeongguk grinned. "Fuck yes"


Jeongguk pushed open the door to his house and walked inside, only to see Jieun making dinner. He sighed and walked towards her, feeling exhausted. He needed some rest.

College had always been tiring. He could never adjust properly to the lifestyle of waking up at seven in the morning and going to the university and basically standing for hours on end teaching unruly students. And it had only been two days since college started.

No matter how tiring it was, Jeongguk looked forward to it. He woke up in the morning happy. Looking forward to teaching.

Because he would be able to see Taehyung.

It had him rushing in the morning. Waking up to the first ring on the alarm. Nothing else mattered. Not the fact that his life was a mess. Not the fact that he went hours on end without talking to his wife every time he was at home.

All it mattered was that he would meet Taehyung at the end of their lectures, at Jeongguk's office.

They hadn't gone on a date after their failed movie date. But it was a given. Taehyung was busy at the pizza shop at weekends and since college started, it has been hectic. But they make the most of it after the work of the day was over.

And Taehyung looked happy.

That's all that mattered to Jeongguk. Jeongguk wanted to make him happier. He wanted to go on all the dates Taehyung wished to go on. He could feel the excitement bubbling up inside him every time he thought about it.

"Where's Aria?" Jeongguk asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"I dropped her at Lisa's to catch up on some work she had missed," Jieun said, turning to face Jeongguk.

Jeongguk nodded. "When will she be back?"

"I told her I'll pick her up when she's done. She'll call"

"Then we have time"

"For what?"

Jeongguk slammed the paper file he was holding on the kitchen table.

"What's this?" Jieun asked, walking towards the table.

"Divorce papers"

Jieun's eyes widened in shock. "What are you talking about?!"

"We're getting a divorce"

"No we aren't" She opened the file and took out a couple of papers.

"I already filled out mine. This is yours. Sign it"

"You can't be serious. We can't get a divorce. We have two children"

"Neither of them are mine"

"I told you-"

"And you expect me to believe you? Trust you? Are you stupid?"

"Why are you acting like this? The children need a father"

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "Look I'm done talking about this with you. I've decided this. Now do your part"

"You can't just decide on divorce on your own!"

"Oh yes, I can. The same way you decided to not get an abortion and have a child when I clearly didn't want one. But I respect you for that because it's your choice. So respect mine now"

"Jeongguk!" Jieun said. "This is ridiculous!"

"You know what else is ridiculous?" Jeongguk said. "You getting pregnant when we decided to fuck after months . Even after we used a condom"

"I was confused too. Maybe it broke"

"It doesn't matter. If the child is mine, I'll pay child support. Aria is old enough to handle a divorce. She's going to be flying off to another city in two years for college. We can always try split parenting-"

"It's not going to work!" Jieun cried out. "They're your children. They need a father. I told you we can fix this. I forgive you for cheating on me. Let's make this work again, Jeongguk"

Jeongguk took a deep breath. "No. you may have forgiven me. But I could never forgive you for what you did to me"

With that said, Jeongguk walked upstairs, leaving Jieun crying after him.

Chapter Text

•°⁴²°• The Art of Enjoying the Moment ─✵────────

"Did you even start the art project?" Taehyung said as he ran his hands through his blond locks frantically.

"No dude," Jimin said, his brows knitted together in stress. He sighed and buried his hand in a bag of chips. "I'm trying to catch up with Mr. Jeon's assignments these days. There's a shit load"

"I know right? It's just been two weeks in this semester started and we are already drowning in a pile of assignments" Taehyung said, looking around him as he took a sip from his hot chocolate.

Around them, the college grounds burst with life. Students rushed here and there, laughter and chatter filling Taehyung's ears. It was a different kind of peace, Taehyung thought. He liked how alive everything around him was. How each and every one of them had their own dreams, plans, futures, stories, worries. And Taehyung had his own. Sitting there, looking around with eyes filled with wonder, he was at a separate peace.

The sun shone brightly above them, soaking them with warm summer sunlight. Taehyung and Jimin had come to the grounds to get some work done between the two hour break they had between lectures. The last thing Taehyung wanted to do was fail his classes. He couldn't afford to retake his first year.

"Like the number of assignments Jeon gave today? He's insane!" Jimin exclaimed. "I hate him"

Taehyung let out a giggle. "I love him"

"Oh Lord give me strength," Jimin said with a roll of eyes that made Taehyung laugh again. "You never listen to your best friend do you? How many times did you come crying to me after he tossed you away like you ain't shit? Don't ever come crying to me again!"

Taehyung grinned. "He had his reasons, Jimin. And this time, we can actually work this out. If he tries to get back to his wife again, which he won't, I will dump him myself"

"That's what you said last time. Now look at you purring every time you see him like a fucking cat. You're all heart eyes for him"

"Jimin, I'm in love with him! And it didn't just go away because he chose his family over me. And it's not going to happen again because he's going to divorce his wife"

"If he pulls shit again I'm going to go punch him myself. He's hurt you enough" Jimin huffed.

Taehyung grinned. "I'll join you," he said. "But Jimin I can't just...leave him. He's actually in love with me. And I just...it feels so nice, Chim. I love being loved like that"

Jimin rolled his eyes. "The sea is filled with fish, Tae. Better fish."

"The sea is filled with fucking trash and oil, Jimin. All the fish are dying"

"You're a fucking moron," Jimin said. "A lovesick moron"

Taehyung grinned cheekily and opened his textbook. "I know"

Taehyung took a sip from his hot chocolate, looking at Jimin as he focused on his laptop screen before he diverted his attention to his History of Arts notes. They continued their study session in silence until-

"Did you know you have a humongous hickey on your neck?"

"What?!" Taehyung exclaimed, mind flooding with the memories of his session with Jeongguk earlier that day.

"Yeah. It's right above your collarbone" Jimin said.

Taehyung's hand flew to his neck and indeed, he remembered Jeongguk sucking a mark there that morning. "Fuck"

He had told Jeongguk not to leave marks where everyone can see. The elder had removed his oversized t-shirt off his shoulder and sucked a mark on his collarbone, assuring that no one would be able to see it there.

But everyone can, it seems. Since the oversized shirt easily slips off his collarbones, revealing the love bite so gloriously.

"That looks new. When did he do that?" Jimin asked.

"This morning" Taehyung whispered, cheeks blushing scarlet in embarrassment. Taehyung only wanted to give Jeongguk a visit before the lecture started. But it soon turned into a heated makeout session where Jeongguk ended up leaving lovebites all over the younger's tummy, where no one else can see.

And Taehyung had pulled Jeongguk's shirt out of his pants and sucked in some red marks all over his chest and toned abs.

Because what could be better than walking into the lecture hall first thing in the morning, knowing that underneath Jeongguk's perfectly ironed button-up shirt were couple dozen solid indications that everyone's professor actually belongs to Taehyung and Taehyung alone?

"Y'all fucked before the lecture?" Jimin looked horrified.

"What? No! We just made out in his office before the lecture started" Taehyung said. "Besides we didn't fuck in like a week"

"Is he pushing you away again-"

"Jimin, no" Taehyung rolled his eyes. "We don't have a place to fuck. And we haven't had much time to do anything in his office because he's busy with work"

Jimin sighed.

"Besides, it's good in a way," Taehyung said as he rested his head on his palm.

"What do you mean?"

"It means that we are doing something more than just sex. We started this with sex but now that we're actually dating, we're actually spending time with each other without having sex. I mean I want to and I get horny every time I'm with him but it's nice to go on actual dates with him"

Jeongguk had taken him to different coffee shops throughout the previous week. Despite having a shit load of work himself, Jeongguk always made sure to spend at least an hour with Taehyung. If they didn't get to hang out at Jeongguk's office, they would always call at night and talk for hours. Taehyung found out phone sex was actually better than he had imagined.

However, even though Jeongguk had too many things going on at his home at the moment, he made time for Taehyung. Taehyung appreciated it. And it felt like this was what he had always wanted with Jeongguk. For him to treat Taehyung like a main priority. And Jeongguk was doing exactly that.

“You aren’t really dating him, though. He’s still married, in case you forgot”

“Yeah I know but we’ll be dating officially real soon when he gets his divorce. I can’t wait to call him mine and mean it” 

"God, you're whipped," Jimin said.

Taehyung let out a giggle. "Shut up"

"Are you going to meet him after our lectures today?"

"Yep," Taehyung said. "And he said he's free for the evening. Who knows, maybe I'll get some dick tonight"

"Good luck with that" Jimin smirked.

Taehyung grinned at him.

"By the way, did you hear that Professor Seokjin was leaving?" Jimin said.

"What do you mean leaving?"

"I heard that he's moving to New York. And he's no longer going to work as a professor"

"Woah," Taehyung said. "That's awesome. Bet the new job pays him a lot"

"Bet," Jimin said. "He and Jeongguk were like the only hot professors in this campus. Now that he's gone, I don't even have anyone to simp for"

"You're literally dating Namjoon"

"He admits that Professor Seokjin is hot as fuck. And for your information, I love Joon so fucking much. Unlike your boyfriend, mine is in my league and treats me like his only priority"

"Mine is daddy," Taehyung said, grinning.

"Namjoon is daddy too"

"He's not. He's our age"

"Doesn't matter. He's my daddy" Jimin said

"What the fuck" Taehyung made a disgusted face.

"Why? Stop acting like you don't call Jeongguk that"

"I don't! He says it's not his kink. But who knows" Taehyung smirked.

Jimin laughed.

"He's daddy. I mean literally. He's older and just...a man, you know?" Taehyung said.

"I never got your obsession with older men"

"They're daddy. And more mature. Experienced. Better in bed. There's so many plus points bro"

"Say you have daddy issues and go, bro"

"Bro" Taehyung rolled his eyes.

Jimin grinned. "By the way, did you know that Namjoon is really sensitive? He's like a baby sometimes. His neck is so soft and sensitive. Also, his chest is..." Jimin rambled on and Taehyung listened, grinning as his best friend provided him with too much information about his boyfriend. And at the end of the two hours, they had done nothing, but talk.


"Hi" Taehyung chirped as he pushed open the door of Jeongguk's office. Jeongguk sat at his swivel chair, watching his laptop screen and his eyes lit up the moment they landed on Taehyung.

"Baby" Jeongguk stood up, grinning, and walked towards Taehyung. "I missed you"

"You literally saw me this morning," Taehyung said, leaning against the door as he watched Jeongguk walk towards him.

"What, I'm not allowed to miss my boyfriend after not seeing him for like six hours?"

"Boyfriend?" Taehyung's cheeks flushed pink at the word.

Jeongguk stood in front of him now, wearing a yellow button-up shirt and denim trousers, with loafers. His hair, parted from the middle covered his forehead and slightly fell over his eyes, making him look smoking hot.

"Yeah" Jeongguk whispered as he stepped closer to Taehyung, trapping him between the older man's arms that he had pressed on the door, on either side of Taehyung.

"I'm your boyfriend?" Taehyung whispered as he looked up at Jeongguk with round chocolate eyes, big with wonder.

"Of course, love" Jeongguk grinned. He smelled like perfume. One that you would expect rich men to wear. It was alluring. "We are dating, aren't we?"

"Yes" Taehyung whispered. Jeongguk's breath fanned over his cheek and Taehyung could only stare at the older man's lips that ghosted over his.

Taehyung couldn't help but close the gap between them. Taehyung's plump lips pressed against Jeongguk's and his eyes fluttered shut. Jeongguk kissed back immediately, hands that were pressed on the door moving to hold Taehyung's petite waist.

Taehyung felt Jeongguk take his bottom lip between his lips and the younger opened his mouth to let out a sigh of utter bliss. Taehyung wrapped his arms around the older man's neck and thread his fingers over his curls, which had grown a little, almost reaching the back of his neck now. Taehyung loved his long hair. He would surely be able to wear a ponytail or a man bun by now. Taehyung mentally noted to try it out the next time they hung out.

Taehyung could feel Jeongguk's wet tongue prod at his lips and Taehyung opened his mouth in invitation. The moment the older man's tongue entered Taehyung's mouth, he felt his whole body start to burn with arousal. And he pressed his own tongue against Jeongguk's, fingers pulling the older man's hair as he deepened the kiss.

Jeongguk let out a small groan. It seemed to reverberate through Taehyung's whole body and go straight to his half-hard cock, making it twitch.

Jeongguk, as if sensing the change of mood, placed his leg between Taehyung's legs and pressed his knee to the younger's crotch.

Taehyung moaned, breaking the kiss in the process as he felt arousal burning through his whole body like wildfire. He opened his eyes to see Jeongguk watching him, starry eyes darkened with lust and lips glistened with saliva.

"Fuck me"

Taehyung's whisper was barely audible but Jeongguk reacted right away. He locked the door and pushed Taehyung up from the back of his thighs and the smaller boy jumped, wrapping his legs around the older man's waist, letting himself be carried to the table.

Jeongguk pushed the books and papers aside quickly, giving Taehyung space to lean back.

Taehyung pulled Jeongguk towards himself, their upper bodies pressed together as Jeongguk stood between his legs. Taehyung captured Jeongguk's lips in a frantic kiss.

Everything was rushed; them trying to touch each other and devour each other as fast as possible. Their clothes were off in seconds until Taehyung sat naked on Jeongguk's office desk and Jeongguk with his shirt hanging off his shoulders and his bottom half, naked.

Taehyung pumped Jeongguk up and down as he bit down on his own lip, arousal too much to bear. He wanted Jeongguk inside him that instant. He lubed up Jeongguk's cock with his pre-cum and tried to push it in but-

"Baby, no" Jeongguk piped in, holding Taehyung's wrist in his hand. "You need to be prepped"

"No," Taehyung said trying to shake himself from Jeongguk's grasp.

"You'll get hurt," Jeongguk said. "I don't want to hurt you"

"I'm too horny"

"I know. I'll be quick" Jeongguk said and Taehyung nodded hesitantly. Jeongguk moved to the other side of the desk and fished out a bottle of lube from the drawer. He came back and stood between Taehyung's legs. Taehyung watched as Jeongguk poured the thick liquid all over his fingers and pressed two against his fluttering hole.

Jeongguk eyed Taehyung before he pushed in.

Taehyung gasped as Jeongguk pushed in two fingers at once. He gripped the older man's shoulder and let out a whimper of pain. Jeongguk, without paying him no mind, started stretching him open. Taehyung moaned in pain as Jeongguk scissored his fingers inside him.

After a minute or so, Jeongguk pushed in another finger, thrusting three fingers in and out until Taehyung was no longer feeling any pain. Until Jeongguk circled his wrist and started fucking him with his fingers, making Taehyung howl in pleasure.

"Fuck" Taehyung cursed out loud. His thighs trembled and he buried his face in Jeongguk's shoulder as electrifying pleasure shot up his spine with every thrust of fingers.

Jeongguk pulled his fingers out, making Taehyung whine.

"Keep it down"

Taehyung whimpered in response, feeling his whole body tremble.

"Unless you want the whole campus to know you're getting fucked" Jeongguk smirked. "And also get me fired"

Taehyung smiled, feeling his cheeks heat up. Jeongguk smiled back at him, eyes sparkling with love.

The older man's smile turned into a grin in moments as he stared at Taehyung and he leaned in to kiss Taehyung's lips. Taehyung closed his eyes as Jeongguk's lips pressed against his. When he drew away, Taehyung saw his smiling at him again and the younger could only grin back, feeling his heart bubble with happiness and love.

Taehyung was so in love that it was crazy.

Jeongguk leaned in to plant a kiss atop his forehead before he slowly pushed in.

Taehyung's smile faded away as he felt himself stretch around Jeongguk's thick girth, it being much larger than three fingers. He held Jeongguk's shoulder with one hand and the other against the tabletop as he leaned back, one leg dangling from the table and the other bent and placed on the table.

Jeongguk let out a grunt, eyebrows furrowed together as he continued to push in until their hips were pressed together, Jeongguk's cock filling him up till the base.

Taehyung bit his lip, concealing a moan as Jeongguk stayed still until he adjusted. After a few seconds, Jeongguk started pulling back, before slamming right back into Taehyung

"Oh!" Taehyung moaned out, feeling a wave of pleasure crash down on him.

Jeongguk started kissing his neck and collarbones while he started moving his hips. Jeongguk slowly built up his pace and soon Taehyung had his hand against his mouth, trying to conceal his moans as the professor fucked him at an animalistic pace.

Jeongguk held Taehyung from his hips, keeping them in place as he moved his own hips. It had barely been a couple of minutes and Taehyung could already feel the heat at the bottom of his stomach pooling up.

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, whose face was scrunched with pleasure, long, wavy locks falling to his eyes making him look a million times sexier than he already was. Taehyung felt his cock twitch at the sight.

A bead of cum slowly made its way down Taehyung's cock.

Jeongguk, upon seeing it, looked up at Taehyung with a smirk. "I'm close" he whispered.

"Me too" Taehyung moaned out.

Jeongguk's pace slowed down a bit as he diverted his gazed downwards, where their bodies were connected.

Taehyung followed his gaze and he swore it was the most vulgar thing he had seen in his whole life. Taehyung's cock dripped cum, which dampened his hole. He was dripping with his and Jeongguk's cum.

"Fuck" Taehyung said and Jeongguk looked up at him.

"I love being inside you"

Taehyung moaned at the words. His cock twitched again. All he could think about was the fact that if he could, he'd let Jeongguk fuck him every day, every night, all day, and all night.

Jeongguk built up his pace again. Their hips crashed against one another, sinful sounds of damp skin slapping against skin loud inside the confined space of Jeongguk's office.

"Daddy" Taehyung whimpered.

Jeongguk eyed him, pace slowing down a little as he scanned Taehyung with eyes dripping lust. Then he speeded up his thrusts again, a sexy, victorious smile adorning his lips. "Say that again" Jeongguk practically growled.

"Daddy" Taehyung whined.

"Fuck yes baby" Jeongguk moaned out. He started stroking Taehyung's cock.

"Daddy I'm so close" Taehyung moaned out.

"Mhmm me too baby" Jeongguk said. "Does baby like daddy's cock?"

"Fuck yes, daddy," Taehyung said, mind hazy as he could feel himself being driven to his climax with every thrust. "Love your cock"

"Baby" Jeongguk growled and Taehyung came, climax ripping through his cock as he let out a long moan.

Jeongguk followed, grunting as he pumped his cum into Taehyung.

He rode out his climax for a few moments before he slowly pulled out. Taehyung could already feel the cum starting to drip down his ass. But he had no time to linger on how hot and disgusting it was since Jeongguk captured his lips in a deep and slow kiss.

Taehyung whimpered as Jeongguk squeezed his sides but still kissed back.

They gasped when they pulled out, hearts still racing from the previous session. Jeongguk smiled at him and plated a kiss on his forehead and Taehyung could only giggle breathlessly.

"God you're so precious" Jeongguk whispered. "I love you so much"

"I love you too," Taehyung said, grinning.

"I wish we had a place to hang out," Jeongguk said. "Maybe I should rent an apartment. I mean I'd have to, eventually, when I divorce Jieun. I'll be moving out"

"Really?" Taehyung asked, amused. "What about Aria?"

"Jieun will probably take custody. I don't know" Jeongguk took a step back, picking up their clothes from the floor. He handed Taehyung his. "She doesn't want to sign the divorce papers"

"Oh"

"I'll have to pursue her somehow"

"Maybe if we have sex in front of her she'll be disgusted and she'll divorce you?"

Jeongguk grinned. "This is why I love you"

"I was serious"

"Maybe" Jeongguk winked. Taehyung grinned at him, hopping off the table to get dressed.

"But you will divorce her right?" Taehyung asked in a small voice.

"Of course, my love," Jeongguk said as he kissed Taehyung's cheeks. "I hate not being able to give you priority"

"That's okay. You've been prioritizing me for the last few weeks"

"I want to go all-in with you. No holding back. Just...start dating without anything holding us back"

"I want that too," Taehyung said as he fumbled with his t-shirt.

Jeongguk smiled. "I'll make that happen. Anything for you"

Taehyung smiled and was about to walk towards Jeongguk when he halted in his steps.

He could feel something thick and slimy making its way down Taehyung's thighs. He looked at Jeongguk with big eyes and the older man was confused until he saw the cum dripping down Taehyung's thighs.

"Fuck" Jeongguk said.

"Fuck indeed," Taehyung said.

"That's hot," Jeongguk said, making Taehyung roll his eyes. Jeongguk smirked and moved to grab some wet tissues and started cleaning Taehyung up. Taehyung stood idly by as Jeongguk bent down and cleaned all the cum off.

"Thanks," Taehyung said when Jeongguk stood up.

"No problem" Jeongguk smirked. "Would do that again"

"Fuck you" Taehyung was grinning.

"I think it's the other way around, love"

Taehyung rolled his eyes and started getting dressed. "I'll fuck you someday"

"Someday," Jeongguk said as he buttoned up his shirt. "Could be from tomorrow until the day I die. Which may also mean never"

Taehyung rolled his eyes. "I don't think you're ready to get fucked by me. I'll fuck you when you're ready, darling"

Jeongguk grinned again, eyes crinkling at the edges and his bunny teeth on full display. He looked adorable and not at all like a 30-year-old man. He looked so young.

"I need to go home. I promised Mrs. Hooper that I'll help her with dinner" Taehyung said as he threw on the last piece of clothing and adjusted his messy hair.

He looked at Jeongguk with his just-fucked hair, a hot and sweaty mess atop his head.

But he was pouting.

"I'll miss you," The older man said.

"Let's call tonight," Taehyung said.

"Okay' Jeongguk smiled. "And let's go on a date the day after tomorrow?"

"Awesome" Taehyung said. "Will you buy me that ice cream with twenty flavors this time?'

"Oh god," Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "Fine"

"Yay!" Taehyung said.

"I might not be able to meet up with you tomorrow since I'll be going to get a DNA test with Jieun"

"For the new baby?"

"Yeah. We can do it now, it seems. And when it says the baby isn't mine, another burden will be off my shoulders"

"I'm glad" Taehyung whispered as he started walking towards Jeongguk. Taehyung captured the older man's lips in a kiss.

"I love you," Taehyung said as he pulled away.

"I love you too," Jeongguk said. "Go home safely"

"Okay" Taehyung whispered and walked towards the door. He unlocked it and was about to go outside when-

"Taehyung!" Jeongguk called.

Taehyung turned around to see Jeongguk sitting at one of the sofas.

"I forgot to tell you something" He was grinning. He waved at Taehyung to come closer. Taehyung walked towards him and sat next to him on the sofa.

"I have some good news," Jeongguk said as he took Taehyung's hands in his.

"What is it?" Taehyung asked, smiling.

"I'm being named a senior lecturer"

"Oh my god!" Taehyung said, eyes lit up with excitement. "I'm so happy for you!"

Jeongguk grinned. "I've been working here for almost four years now and I have a spotless record. Also, I've been named one of the most popular and great professors in Beverly so they're giving me the title. It also means I'm getting a raise"

"Ooh," Taehyung said, grinning. "That's amazing"

"I know right?" Jeongguk said. "I'll buy you all the things you want"

"What?" Taehyung said. "You don't have to! You're not my sugar daddy"

"I'm your daddy though" Jeongguk winked.

"Did you just say that out loud...when we're not having sex?" Taehyung made a disgusted face.

"I regret it now. That was cringe. It's only hot when we're fucking"

"For real" Taehyung grinned.

"But listen. When I buy an apartment, you can move in"

"Oh"

"Is it...too soon?" Jeongguk said, sounding uncertain.

"What? No! not at all. I was living with you for months now. I'd love to move in"

"Really?!" Jeongguk asked, grinning.

Taehyung nodded. "But I don't want to be a burden"

"When have you ever been a burden? You're the love of my life and I'd rather spend every second of my life with you than anyone else. You mean the world to me. I want this"

"Okay" Taehyung whispered, looking down at their connected hands as a rosy blush covered the apples of his cheeks.

"My love," Jeongguk said. "Look at me"

Taehyung did. He saw Jeongguk's eyes shine under the lights of the office, making them look starry and mystic as ever.

"You're my home," Jeongguk said.

Taehyung watched him with chocolate eyes, big with amusement. The rosy blush deepened by his boyfriend's words.

"My home is wherever you are. And without you, I wouldn't have a home to go to" Jeongguk said.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered.

The older man reached towards Taehyung and tucked a blond lock behind his ear. "Yes, love?"

"You're making me blush," Taehyung said. He could practically feel himself falling deeper and deeper in love with every second he spent with Jeongguk.

Jeongguk grinned.

Taehyung smiled back and reached to kiss Jeongguk when-

"Jeongguk I-"

Taehyung jumped away from Jeongguk the moment he saw the man who stood at the doorway with a horrified expression.

It was Professor Kim Seokjin.

 

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•°⁴³°• Moving Forward ─✵────────

Jeongguk's stomach did somersaults the moment he spotted Jin standing by the door with a horror-stricken expression. Taehyung abruptly stood up and so did Jeongguk, clearing his throat to ease the awkwardness that stretched in the silence between the three men.

"Am I interrupting something?" Jin was the one who spoke first. He had always been good at easing the tension in a situation. "Should I come back later?"

"I-I was just leaving, Mr. Kim" Taehyung stuttered as he started to sprint to the door when-

"Does he know you're married? And got a kid?" Jin's voice was loud.

Jeongguk sighed. "Jin-"

"Kid, get out," Jin said and Taehyung shot Jeongguk an apologetic look before running to the door, closing it behind him.

"Jeongguk what the fuck-"

"Jin I can explain"

Jin let out a sigh as he walked to where Jeongguk stood and took a seat right in front of him. "I knew you never liked to act your age but I never took you for the cheating kind"

"It's more complicated than that" Jeongguk said, taking a seat.

"I don't think anything would excuse you cheating on Jieun, Jeongguk. She's too sweet. And Taehyung? He's a kid. Your student, Jeongguk"

"Can you let me explain, please?" Jeongguk pleaded.

"Go ahead" And Jeongguk told him. Everything. When he was done, it felt like a huge burden was lifted off his shoulders.

"I've known you for five years now. I can't believe your life was this fucked up" Jin said after Jeongguk finished.

"Yeah it's fucked up," Jeongguk said with a small chuckle.

"I thought you and Jieun were happy"

"I thought so too," Jeongguk said, voice small. "Until Taehyung came along. It was only then I realized I was never happy. I was just existing"

"Wow"

"He makes me happy, Jin. And I...I'm in love with him"

Jin looked up at him apologetically. "I had no idea this kind of thing was going on. And what's sad is that you never once told me any of this shit that was going on with you. I could've helped you out, you know? Could've given you an unbiased opinion"

Jeongguk nodded. "I wanted to but...I was scared..."

"Of being judged?" Jin asked. Jeongguk nodded.

"I get that" Jin sighed. "As long as things are working out. And as long as you're divorcing her. I seriously can't believe what I just heard. Aria doesn't know?"

Jeongguk shook his head no. "I'm not sure if we should tell her. It's like saying you're adopted"

"Yeah" Jin nodded. "Maybe later"

"Yeah"

"All these excuses Jeongguk...it doesn't justify what you did. She might have done shit that can never be forgiven. And you might have missed out a lot of things in your youth. You both are in the wrong here. Indivicully. Just because she did something really bad to you, doesn’t make what you did any less wrong. It doesn’t justify your actions. You can think that she deserved far worse than getting cheated on and maybe that’s true but it doesn’t justify your actions. And what you went through may explain your actions. But doesn't excuse it"

Jeongguk nodded his head, eyebrows furrowed together as he felt something heavy in his chest.

"Cheating is cheating. Whether you loved her or not. She loved you one way or the other. So it must've hurt her to know you weren't loyal. And I don't know if she was cheating on you or not. But at the end of the day, both of your actions have selfish explanations but it's still wrong. It's still inexcusable. You get that, right?"

"Yeah" Jeongguk whispered. "But I don't feel shit, Jin. I don't feel a speck of guilt"

Jin let out a sigh. "Maybe you never really loved her after all"

"Maybe"

"Taehyung...it's so...wrong. Everything is wrong here" Jin massaged his temples, looking stressed. "What you two are doing is really unprofessional. If the university finds out..."

"Please don't tell anyone"

"You really think I would rat you out like that? I'm your friend, Jeongguk. And I'm leaving tomorrow. I only want the best for you, Jeongguk"

"I'll miss you, Jin. You're like my only friend"

"You have others too. But they aren't that close, that's all"

"They're old"

Jin laughed. "I came here to bid my goodbyes but damn my eyes"

"I'm sorry" Jeongguk grinned. "And I wish you all the best"

Jin smiled. "I wanted to tell you something"

"Yeah?"

"You can come with me. I can find you a job there. Better than this. New York is different from here"

"I can't, Jin" Jeongguk said. "My business here isn't over. The divorce will take place in a few months, at least. Since it's a huge procedure. Aria is still here. She’s my daughter, biological or not. And my happiness is here, Jin"

"Taehyung?"

"Yeah"

"That's so cheesy. What are you, fifteen?"

Jeongguk grinned. "Besides, I'm now a senior lecturer"

"I wanted to congratulate you on that too. I'll invite you to my wedding. Make sure you come"

"When is it?" Jeongguk asked.

"We are just moving in together. We haven't decided that yet"

"So you guys are really official, huh?" Jeongguk smirked.

"Jeongguk, she's perfect. I used to hate her when we were kids" Jin said with a laugh. "I'm so in love with her. And she got me the new job. It pays a lot more"

"I'm happy for you"

"I want to tell you the same. I hope all this would be over soon and you can finally be free. I support you no matter what, okay? And you call me anytime. If you ever feel like moving to New York, I’m willing to help you settle in"

"Thank you, Jin" Jeongguk said.

"Since I'm leaving tomorrow, do you want to grab a drink tonight?" Jin asked.

"Yeah, I'd love to"

"Awesome. I feel like you might want to get drunk with the shit you're going through right now. And a friend to rant to. When are you getting off?"

"In about an hour?"

"Okay let's leave then. I'll miss drinking with you. I'll miss you, Jeongguk. You were a good friend"

"I'll miss you too" Jeongguk forced a smile. He was genuinely happy for Jin. And happier that he had finally found himself a girlfriend. He was already thirty-one years old. It was about time Jin got married. However, Jeongguk was sad that his only friend was leaving.

"Good luck," Jeongguk said as Jin stood up. Jeongguk led Jin out of the office, with his hand on the older man's back.

He was glad that Jin was accepting of him. And every word he had said had been true. Jeongguk needed to get this whole thing over with soon so he could finally have some inner peace and start a brand new life with Taehyung.

However, right before Jin exited,

"If I knew you were bisexual I would've fucked you long ago"

Jeongguk could only grin and push him out of his office.


"Is a paternity test really necessary?"

Jieun's voice rang in Jeongguk's ears, making him tighten his grip around the steering wheel.

"Yes"

"When are you going to believe me when I say the child is yours?"

"Never"

Jeongguk heard Jieun sigh from the passenger's seat. Jeongguk had just got off from work, after finishing the lectures of the day. And had picked up Jieun from her law firm to drive to the laboratory for a DNA test. Jieun could've gotten it herself but Jeongguk wanted to be there. Mostly because he couldn't even bring himself to trust her on this.

"I didn't cheat on you, Jeongguk. You're the only cheater in this relationship" Jieun snapped at Jeongguk.

"And you're the biggest fucking liar in this relationship"

"You lied to me about Taehyung"

"I didn't lie to you about him, Jieun. He was my student and he didn't have anywhere to live or the money to move out to a new place so I offered to let him stay at our place. That's what I told you. And it's true. Also, I never lied to you about him, or me cheating because you never asked about him or asked me if I was cheating"

Jieun scoffed. "Look who's talking like a lawyer"

Jeongguk smirked. “Guess I’ve picked up a thing or two from you in the last fifteen years”

"You're bending the truth, though," Jieun said. "I was ready to put that all behind us and start anew"

"It would've been possible if I was at least a little in love with you," Jeongguk said, pushing on the brake pedal in front of red lights.

Jieun sighed. "What happened to us, Jeongguk? We were so happy"

" You were happy because you got everything you wanted in life. You wanted to be a lawyer and here you are. You wanted a father for your child, you got one. You got everything you wanted and not me . I wanted to be free, since my childhood"

Jieun stayed silent.

"And took that very thing away from me," Jeongguk said, feeling the anger rise in his chest. He pushed the accelerator and the vehicle pushed forward.

"And all this time I thought I did the right thing. To take responsibility for my actions because it's the right thing to do" Jeongguk said, a sigh leaving his lips as he finished.

"I'm sorry" Jieun whispered.

"You know what, Jieun? You're right. It's useless to even take this test because I don't care if the child is mine or not. I'm leaving you either way"

"You don't mean that, Jeongguk. It's your child. Your blood"

"Shut up" Jeongguk murmured. When they finally arrived at the laboratory, they were luckily on time for their appointment.

Jeongguk waited outside as they took Jieun into a room, to conduct the test. Jeongguk soon followed her and he handed them a sample of his hair strands. Then he waited till Jieun was done. When Jieun came back from the lab, it was dark outside.

"Drop me at the law firm," Jieun said as she climbed onto the passenger seat.

"What? Why?" Jeongguk was confused.

"Because, Jeongguk, I have work. I have court tomorrow and I still haven't got my shit ready"

Jeongguk started the car and pulled onto the street. "So your boyfriend is here? He's a lawyer too?"

"My husband is sitting right next to me"

"But the father of the child in your belly is at your law firm," Jeongguk said. "Will he fuck you when you get there?"

"Jeongguk! For the millionth time, I'm not cheating on you. I don't have anyone else from anywhere"

"I don't believe you"

"And I don't have any way to prove it to you"

"Maybe you will be confessing about him when we're in court for our divorce. When you're under oath"

"Jeongguk!" Jieun looked aghast. "When are you ever going to believe that I didn't cheat on you?"

"When are you going to sign the divorce papers?"

Jieun huffed in annoyance. In less than thirty minutes, Jeongguk pulled up at Jieun's firm.

"Order something when Aria gets home," Jieun said as she opened the door to get out. "I'll be late and will be taking my dinner here, in case you were worried"

"I wasn't. Are you having your boyfriend's dick for dinner?" Jeongguk asked.

"Are you having your boyfriend's dick for dinner?"

"No, but I might eat his ass"

"You're disgusting," Jieun said, getting out of the car.

"Hey when's Aria coming back?" Jeongguk asked.

"Probably around nine. Why, are you going to fuck that child in the meantime?"

"Yeah might call him over and fuck him on your bed"

"You know what? I feel like signing the divorce papers doesn't seem like such a bad idea right now" Jieun said.

"Yeah please consider that. Or I'll send you pictures of me fucking Taehyung on our bed"

"Fuck you" Jieun mumbled and slammed the door shut before she stormed off into the building.

Jeongguk smiled to himself as he pulled into the road and started driving home.


"Fuck" Jeongguk groaned as he thrust into his fist, head thrown back to the pillows as he couldn't contain the pleasure.

"Daddy" Taehyung groaned from the other side of the line. Jeongguk could hear ruffling from Taehyung's side and sick, wet sounds were loud as his phone was on speaker.

"Are you fingering yourself, baby?" Jeongguk said, voice hoarse. The first thing he did after coming home was call Taehyung. He didn't expect anything to happen at the beginning, but twenty minutes into the call, Jeongguk was palming himself over his work clothes, laying in his and Jieun's bed as he uttered unholy things to Taehyung.

"Yes, daddy" Taehyung moaned. "Would you like to see?"

"Fuck yes" Jeongguk groaned, arousal skyrocketing as he imagined Taehyung fingering himself.

Jeongguk slid his finger over the video call button and there Taehyung was, leaning back on his bed as he fucked himself deep with two of his fingers.

He was naked and Jeongguk could see his whole body from the point of view. Jeongguk adjusted his own phone and took off his trousers, so Taehyung could see him properly.

"My hole is begging for you cock, daddy," Taehyung said, looking at the camera with an erotic expression.

"I would want nothing more than to fuck that tight hole of yours, baby" Jeongguk groaned, thumb pushing down on his tip. "I want to ram my cock into you. I want you screaming my name over and over again. I want to fuck you till you can't walk"

"Fuck yes. I want that so badly" Taehyung said. "I'm close"

"Why don't you stroke yourself, baby? Hmm? You deserve to cum"

"Thank you daddy," Taehyung said, biting on his lip as he pulled his fingers out of his wet hole, a whine leaving his lips in the process. He started stroking his cock.

"Yeah just like that" Jeongguk said. He could feel his own climax right around the corner. He was about to tell Taehyung 'cum for me' when-

"Dad I'm home!"

Jeongguk sat up on his bed at lightning speed, eyes big as he heard footsteps coming towards his room from the hallway. Then he heard a knock at the door. Jeongguk fumbled and stood up, only to see that the door was locked.

"Dad? Where are you?" Aria asked from outside.

Jeongguk took a deep breath to calm his heartbeat. He cleared his throat. "I'll be right outside. I need to take a bath" He still had his cock in his hand. "Order some takeout"

"Chinese?" Aria asked.

"Yeah," Jeongguk said, breathless. "Sounds good"

"Okay"

Jeongguk sighed as he heard footsteps down the hallway again, walking away. He got on the bed again, only to see Taehyung staring at him.

"Sorry about that" Jeongguk muttered.

"I came," Taehyung said.

"Oh come on!" Jeongguk said, pouting. "I wanted to see"

Taehyung laughed. "She's such a cockblocker. Why don't you touch yourself a little more, professor? Cum for me"

"Okay" Jeongguk whispered and started stroking himself. And in less than thirty seconds, he was cumming to his hand, a few drops leaking out to the sheets.

"Fuck" He groaned as he milked himself out.

"That was hot," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk smirked as he looked at him. "I should go..." Jeongguk said, pouting.

"Yeah," Taehyung said. "Are we going somewhere tomorrow?"

"Oh, I don't think I'll make it, Tae. There's a staff meeting tomorrow and I think it'll be late when I get out of work"

"Oh okay," Taehyung nodded, smiling. "When can we go on a date?"

"Next Wednesday? I'll definitely be free"

"That's like in four days!" Taehyung whined.

"I'm sorry, baby. I have lectures and some more work all these days. You can still come to my office, though. And we can have some fun" Jeongguk winked.

Taehyung huffed. "Fine. Can I suck you off tomorrow?"

"Sure"

"Then I'm in" Taehyung grinned.

Jeongguk grinned back. "I love you, baby"

"I love you too," Taehyung said and made kissy faces at Jeongguk. Jeongguk couldn't help but grin back, love and adoration overflowing from his heart as he blew a kiss before ending the call.


"What kind of a date are we going to at Highway Residences?"

Taehyung wondered out loud as he and Jeongguk stood in front of the sixty-story, newly built building.

"A shopping date" Jeongguk answered, as he entwined his arm around Taehyung's.

"There's a shopping mall inside?" Taehyung asked, eyes lit up with excitement.

Jeongguk rolled his eyes. "No, you dummy. I mean apartment shopping"

"Why are we going- Oh..." Taehyung said. "Right"

"Will you consider this a date?" Jeongguk asked.

"Yeah, as long as I get to hang out with you. But why are you taking me with you? You're the one who's going to be buying one"

"But you'll be living there too" Jeongguk smiled.

"Fuck, okay," Taehyung said. "But you're the one who should do the choosing"

"Since we'll both be living here, we should both see what's best for both of us"

"Okay," Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk smiled at him and pecked his lips, making the younger boy giggle. "Shall we go in?"

"Yes, daddy"

"Please don't call me that in public"


After two hours, Taehyung and Jeongguk sat in the white, marble staircase of the apartment complex, exhausted.

"Taehyung what the fuck" Jeongguk said.

"What?!" the younger boy whined. "I was just being honest!"

"But you can't just say 'this is ugly' to the face of that woman!"

"I was telling the truth! All the furniture looks so mismatched! Can't you just buy an unfurnished one? We can furnish it ourselves"

"That's what we looked at for like the first hour! And you didn't like any of them!"

"But I can't see the sea from the first two! The third one was alright though. Except for that fireplace-"

"Tae!" Jeongguk said. "This is one of the most expensive apartment complexes in the whole city! It not only doesn't have a good view and spacious apartments but also is safe. And this area is also amazing"

"Okay fine. You can buy whatever you want. It's your money anyway"

"Baby" Jeongguk said, holding Taehyung's hand. "I wouldn't have brought you here if I didn't want you to choose"

"The third one seems nice," Taehyung said in a small voice.

Jeongguk smiled and planted a kiss on his cheek. "We'll look more into that one, then. I like it too"

"Okay," Taehyung said.

"Let's go now. That lady must be tired of us" Jeongguk said as he stood up.

Taehyung grinned and took Jeongguk's hand in his. "Let's go"

Jeongguk grinned and they started walking down the stairs. Jeongguk was about to ask Taehyung if he wanted something to drink when his phone started ringing.

The couple halted and Jeongguk took out his phone. He slid his thumb over the call button. A woman spoke from the other side.

"Who?" Taehyung asked when Jeongguk slid his phone back into his pocket.

"The lab. The test results are out"


After buying Taehyung his favorite Starbucks drink and making out with him for a good twenty minutes inside the car, Jeongguk dropped him off at his place before driving off to the laboratory to get the test results.

It wasn't urgent, Jeongguk knew. However, he wanted to get the results in his hands before it got to Jieun. He didn't trust Jieun to be trustworthy now when she wasn't sixteen years ago.

Jeongguk pulled up in front of the laboratory in around thirty minutes and hurried inside. After running a couple of confirmations by the staff, they handed him a large, white envelope. He took it to the car, sat in the driving seat, and took a deep breath before finally tearing off the paper from the upper corners.

He took out a couple of paper sheets that were stapled together. His eyes were frantic, scanning through the letters and numbers of the first sheet. Then he saw it.

Jeon Jeongguk , the bottom of the paper said. Jeongguk's heart leaped in his chest, beating erratically as his gaze fixated on the words and numbers that indicated the probability of parentage of his, and the baby:

Probability of parentage : 99.998%

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•°⁴⁴°• Consequences ─✵───────

"What do you mean the kid is yours?"

Taehyung's voice was loud inside Jeongguk's office. The younger boy looked at him with a horrified expression. Jeongguk looked at him, brows furrowed with worry. He didn't know what to say.

"How is it possible? You said you used protection!" Taehyung said, throwing his arms around.

"I was thinking the same thing, Tae" Jeongguk let out a distressed sigh. "It could've broken, though. When it cracks a little, you don't even feel it most of the time. It had happened before. The only difference was she didn't get pregnant back then. And I was in a hurry to get it over with. I didn't realize at all"

"I can't believe this" Taehyung exclaimed. "Everything was going so smooth and we were doing so well and this just fell over us. Is the universe against us this much?"

"Taehyung...this doesn't change anything" Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"That's a fucking lie and you know it" Taehyung said, looking at Jeongguk with an angered expression. "This changes everything!"

"Tae" Jeongguk pleaded as he walked towards the younger boy, taking his arms in Jeongguk's. "Trust me, please"

"I've seen this movie before" Taehyung said. "I can watch you walk back to your family because they're your family . Your responsibility. And I'm just a fling"

"Taehyung, no" Jeongguk pleaded. "Please. Please believe me. I'm not going to go back. Taehyung, I love you and I'm serious about this relationship. This isn't just a fling for me... please "

“Jeongguk, how many times have you left me because you don’t want me to get in the middle of your family life? How many times have you told me to fuck off because you don’t want anything happening to your precious little family?” 

“Tae, it’s different now. I’m going to divorce Jieun now and I’m going to be with you afterward. I love you” 

"I don't know, Jeongguk. We're talking about your kid, right now. Are you really ready to let that kid go?"

Jeongguk stayed silent at that. "I don't have to let the kid go, Tae. I can still divorce Jieun. I don't have to stay with her to raise the child. I can do split parenting-"

"So you want the child"

"What?"

"You want the child. You want to be their father. You want to raise them up"

"Taehyung I don't have a choice..."

"Yes, you do!" Taehyung jerked his hands away from Jeongguk's. "You always have a choice. You just don't want to see it"

"Tae..."

"You can cut all ties with them, including your children, and go start a new life after divorce but no. You are choosing to stay. Jeongguk, you are choosing to stay "

"No, I'm not" Jeongguk felt tears spring into his eyes. "I love you"

"I know that. But we're just going back and forth, Jeongguk. This is so repetitive. Like some broken record, the same thing keeps playing over and over again. You choosing your family over me and then come crying back to me when something goes wrong. I can't do that anymore"

"Taehyung, listen to me," Jeongguk said, biting back the tears. He took hold of Taehyung's shoulders and looked at him in the eyes.

"I want you in my life. I am going to divorce Jieun and you and I are going to live together in the apartment we chose yesterday. You're my main priority right now, not that unborn child. But when they are born, nothing is going to change between us because I would’ve gotten a divorce by then and we would be living together. I am not leaving you"

"Jeongguk..."

"Just listen to me, Tae. I can't possibly let you go. I am not letting you go just because I chose to take care of my children"

"Ggukie, do you know how selfish you sound right now?" Taehyung asked, brows furrowed together.

"What?" Jeongguk whispered.

"You want both me and the baby. You can't have it both ways! We've been through this!"

"Why not? Just because I have a child with some woman doesn't mean I can't love you. You think I would start looking after the baby and not you? That I would pay more attention to the baby and less on you? Is that the problem here? You…you thought the love I have for you would diminish because I start loving my new kid?"

Taehyung looked down, hiding his face. He sniffled, tears starting to build up in his eyes. 

"Oh my love" Jeongguk whispered and pulled Taehyung into a hug. "My love, that's not going to happen. You're my boyfriend. That child is just...my child. Jieun isn't going to let the child go. She will raise her up and maybe I can visit the kid from time to time. Split parenting?"

"Did she agree with that?"

"No...I didn't talk to her yesterday. I just came home, handed her the file, and went to my room. I couldn't bear to talk to her"

Taehyung sighed. "What if she doesn't want to take care of the child?"

"I don't think that would happen...she didn't want to get an abortion because she wanted the child...if she doesn't..."

"You'll raise them yourself?"

Jeongguk stayed silent.

"Will you bring the kid to our home and expect me to take care of it? Like the way Jieun bound you to take care of Aria? When she wasn't even yours?"

"Taehyung!" Jeongguk said, voice rising. "Stop this. I never even thought about that"

"Well, it's a possibility," Taehyung said.

"I'm not going to do that. You have my word on that. I’m not like Jieun! I won’t give you a child to raise when you’re basically a child yourself and definitely not when you obviously don’t want one! I promise"

Taehyung shook his head. "You’ve left me so many times. You have told me to fuck off and I have done that only for you to come back to me crying. I don’t want to do that anymore, Jeongguk. And I do not want to get in the middle of your family because I hate every fucking person in your family, okay? So I would never raise some kid you didn’t even want"

"I will never bring you to the middle of my problems. I promise” 

“Do you get what I’m saying? You were so adamant about letting that kid go before and you suddenly find out that it’s your blood and you love the child? You don’t love them. You just want to be a father for them out of pity. Because you’re the father and you have this shitty, selfless mindset that it’s your responsibility. Just like fifteen years ago, you’re going to destroy your life all over again. You can just pay for child support or something but you’re staying right where you were before, going all hero mode and deciding to be a father for a child you never wanted” 

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh. “Tae, I understand that you can’t be in my shoes. That you don’t know what it’s like to be a father. But I’ve been one for fifteen years. A child, that I know is mine, isn’t something I can just let go of. And it’s my problem. Let me solve it. You're supposed to help me figure something out. Not make my problems even worse!"

"Oh is that my role in this relationship now? Your comfort person? The one you would fuck to de-stress yourself when the going gets tough?" Taehyung was raging.

"Taehyung what the fuck?" Jeongguk's chest tightened at the younger boy's words. "Don't say such things. I love you. If I didn't, do you think I would get in this relationship with you, putting so many things in line? Even Aria? Just for the sex?"

“Is that the way you feel about me?”  Taehyung whispered. “Someone who you had to put so many things in life for? Someone who destroyed your cute little perfect family?” 

“Tae! Don’t be ridiculous. I’m fucking in love with you. You’re the love of my life and I’m grateful to you for making me happy and showing me what it’s like to actually live. I love you and I want you in my life!” 

Taehyung sighed.

"I'm sorry, baby" Jeongguk whispered after a while. "You mean the world to me. I didn't want you to feel like anything less"

"I'm sorry too," Taehyung said after a few moments. "I'm sorry for being selfish. It's hard to admit that I won't be able to have you all to myself, after all we've been through. I'm sorry for trying to make you choose between me and your child. It’s just, I thought that we would finally be able to date for real and live together happily without anything bothering us"

"You and my children are two different aspects for me, Tae. Two different worlds and they don't have to collide. But right now, I can assure you that you mean more to me than that unborn child, okay? I'll do anything to save this relationship"

"Okay," Taehyung whispered. "I just thought you'd finally prioritize me"

"Tae" Jeongguk whined in frustration. "Come on"

"What!?" Taehyung said. "I don't want to share you. I just needed a normal fucking relationship. Where we focus on ourselves. You know how fucking hard it is to raise a kid and yet you still want to look after another one? After wasting half of your life on a mistake of a child, you're ready to do it again. You said yourself that your teens and twenties were wasted on raising Aria. Without you even knowing it, you'd be focusing more on the kid and our bond will fade away. And you'll be doing what you've always been doing. Raising a kid you never even wanted. Everyone else can watch you destroy another twenty years of your life to someone else. I’m sorry for caring about your future and your happiness. Good fucking luck"

"Tae..."

"I'm done with you," Taehyung said and started walking out.

"Are you breaking up with me?" Jeongguk could feel tears threatening to escape his eyes.

"No" Taehyung whispered as Jeongguk took hold of his hand. He turned around to meet the older man. His eyes were watery with tears threatening to escape. "But this is hurting me. All I can see is a repetition of the past right now. A possibility for you to leave me and a reason for you to leave me. That reason is the same as before: your family"

"Tae, I'm so sorry. I understand what you’re saying. But you said you're okay with split parenting. I...I will never take full custody of the child, okay? Please. I want you in my life. You can't just walk away from my life like this. I can't lose another important thing in my life because of Jieun. I already lost half of my life to her. Please, Tae. You're the only light in my life"

"Jeongguk" Taehyung whispered. "You know what hurts me the most?"

Jeongguk shook his head, tears brimming his eyes.

"That after all this time, you would still think about giving attention to something that would ruin the rest of your life, just like you did fifteen years ago"

"Tae..."

"And I'm not asking you to choose me over your kids, Jeongguk. I want that but it's selfish so I don't expect you to do it. I didn’t ask you to leave Aria. You love her and she’s still your daughter. You can go split parenting for her. But you aren't even giving yourself priority right now. And it's killing me"

Jeongguk looked down as he felt tears trail down his cheeks. "I'm sorry"

Taehyung sighed and wrapped his arms around Jeongguk. "I'm not going to leave you, Jeongguk. I love you, remember? I just want you to figure out what you really want. And not what you should do because society tells you to, okay?"

Jeongguk nodded, sniffling. "I'm not going to leave you, Tae. Please believe me"

"I do" Taehyung whispered. “I want to”

"If I have to let that kid go to have you close, I would do that. Because I don’t love them. I don’t love an unborn child I never even wanted. I love you. I want to fight for you the way you fought for me"

"Thank you," Taehyung said.

Jeongguk pulled away and saw Taehyung's cheeks wet with tears. He brought his hands towards the younger's face and wiped the tears with the pads of his fingers. And he pressed his lips against Taehyung's.

"I love you" Jeongguk whispered as he pulled away.

"I love you too," Taehyung said. "Talk to Jieun and let me know what she says"

Jeongguk nodded. "I will. I promise I won’t bind you to a child like that. And I’m going to get that divorce. Please believe me"

"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow, then" Taehyung said and placed a kiss on Jeongguk's cheek before walking out of his office.


"I'm not signing this"

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh for the millionth time that day. He and Jieun sat at the dining table, across from each other, a bunch of papers scattered on the table. Aria had gone to sleep a couple of hours earlier and it was already past midnight.

"For the millionth time, Jieun, I want a divorce. Why is it so fucking hard for you to give me what I want?" Jeongguk asked, massaging his temples.

"Because now you know damn well, without doubt, that this child is yours. You're the father. And I just can't understand why you'd want to give up on your blood" Jieun exclaimed.

"Because I never wanted it!" Jeongguk said. "And I want to get out of this marriage"

"All for that child you're fucking? He's a literal child. Ten years younger than you, Jeongguk"

"I want to get out of this marriage because I'm not happy here. Seriously, Jieun, can you live with someone who hates you? I don't understand what goes on in your mind! You can easily find someone for yourself. You're still young and beautiful"

"I don't want anyone else" Jieun let out a sob. "I love you"

"Stop with the tears, for god's sake" Jeongguk muttered. "This is your fault"

"My fault?" Jieun asked, eyes red from crying. "How is this my fault?"

"You're the one who bound me into this marriage. Because of a child that isn't even mine" Jeongguk whispered the last part. "You wanted to ruin my life. You were successful with it. Now let me live the rest of my life in peace"

"I don't want to be away from you"

"And I don't want to be your husband anymore! Haven't you had your fun with me? Playing me like a fool? It's time to let me go"

"No!" Another sob escaped Jieun. "I c-can't"

Jeongguk let out a sigh. "Let's settle this. You can't possibly love me. Because if you did, you'd want the best for me. But you don't, since the best for me is to get out of this marriage. So I'm assuming you want a father for the kid. Fine. We can do split parenting"

Jieun continued to weep silently.

Jeongguk let out an exasperated sigh as he leaned back on his chair.

"You got your proof that the child is yours," Jieun said, wiping the tears but new ones soon replacing them. "You're finally having a child that's actually yours. And you can raise them up. What use would you have by being in a relationship with that child? He will leave you anytime. He's in college. You know people just want to mess around at that age"

"No, Jieun" Jeongguk could feel his anger rising. "I wouldn't know. Because I was taking care of a kid that wasn't even mine that I didn't even have time to think about messing around"

Jieun sighed. "What do you lack in this relationship? We have everything we need. We're married, with kids and we both have stable jobs-"

"Happiness" Jeongguk said.

"Doesn't Aria make you happy? And this new child would make you-"

"No! I might love Aria but I never really wanted her fifteen years ago, did I? And I most definitely want the child you’re pregnant with right now. I don’t want to force you to get an abortion and I’m trying to be responsible so I’m willing to pay child support of do split parenting. So I don’t understand what you even want from me. You can have a father for your child. And you can be with someone who actually loves you. Why the fuck would you want to be with someone who doesn't even like you?"

"Because I love you"

"But I don't! What's so fucking hard to understand about that? Why are you so fucking selfish?" Jeongguk said. "Jieun, we're not children. We're grown adults. And we should be respecting each other's choices. I respected yours when you wanted to keep the baby. Now respect mine. Please "

Jieun stayed silent for a few seconds. And then, "When this goes to court you will have to pay a huge amount of money because of cheating. Even more when they find out you're the only one who's been cheating. And that I have no intention to get a divorce. The only fault I have is lying. Its legal value is nothing compared to yours"

"It's a fraud"

"It'll get balanced. But you've been practicing adultery for months. It's the main reason for the divorce after all. You're the one who did the most damage to this relationship" Jieun said.

"I don't care about how much I have to pay. I can pay. I have money and-"

"You will have to reveal about your relationship with Taehyung"

Jeongguk froze.

"Oh, you didn't think that?" Jieun scoffed. "I thought you loved him. But at the end of the day, you're just as selfish as I am. You only think about yourself"

"It won't do him-"

"Any harm?" Jieun rose an eyebrow at him tauntingly. "He can get expelled. It will look bad for him in future jobs. Because, after all, a bad reputation can't be fixed. He'll be working in the future with the people he meets in college. And they would know about what a slut he was, fucking the professor. Married professor. What else? Did the professor also give him extra credit for sleeping with him? Is that how he got A’s every time?"

"Enough!" Jeongguk was fuming with anger.

Jieun scoffed. "It won't only affect him. You'll most probably lose your job. That senior lecturer post? Gone. You won't even get to be a lecturer ever again. Because you're that professor who slept with one of his students. Can never be trusted"

"Why would you do this to me?"

"Jeongguk," Jieun said, looking him dead in the eyes. "I'm not doing anything to you. I'm telling you what's certainly going to happen. The court will find out about your relationship. Because we will have to give reasons for the divorce. We will have to disclose all the information to our lawyers. Even if your lawyer doesn’t bring up anything about Taehyung, I’m going to make sure my lawyer does. I'm just telling you the consequences of your actions"

Jeongguk pulled at his locks in frustration. "I just need to get out of this relationship"

Jieun stayed silent.

"You're so evil," Jeongguk said, tears brimming his eyes. "I just want to be happy"

Jieun shot him an apologetic look. "I'm sorry" She whispered. "I wish there was something I could do to fix this. So both of us will be happy but-"

"I want a divorce"

"You're not listening to me Jeongguk-"

"I am," Jeongguk said. "I hear you. Jieun, I hate what you did to me. But I don't hate you. I don't love you either and I can never love you. I love Taehyung. Please just let me go"

"Jeongguk" Jieun whispered, tears cascading down her cheeks once again. She reached out and placed her hand over Jeongguk's. "I'm sorry"

"I can never forgive you for what you did to me. I'm not going to let go of Aria. I love her. She's still my daughter. I'm not leaving her. I'm just leaving you"

Jieun let out a loud sob. Jeongguk took her hand in his. "And the new baby...I can still be their father. I'm not leaving the state, Jieun. And you can find someone who would love you and take care of you. He will actually love you. Because I never loved you"

"I can't let you go," Jieun said, weeping.

Jeongguk sighed. "You're just being selfish"

"No," Jieun said. "I just told you how you could even lose your job and how it would destroy Taehyung's life but you still want a divorce. You're the selfish one"

"And you're not selfish? Jieun, you're smart. You wouldn't want to stay with someone who doesn't love you. And someone who would hate you if you don't agree to be separated. You only care about what a divorce would do to you"

"No-"

"A divorce would ruin your reputation," Jeongguk said, looking her dead in the eyes. "As you said, all our past will be dragged into this and you would have to reveal about what you did to me. Your reputation would be in shambles. You can even be fired from your law firm. I think it will affect you more than me"

Jieun stayed silent, tears staining her cheeks and her eyes puffy red. Her hand felt alien in his hand but Jeongguk didn't want to let go.

"True," Jieun said after a few moments of silence. "It's going to affect us both. I might lose my clients"

Jeongguk didn't know what to say or do. His mind was chaos. He couldn't think straight. All he wanted to do was be separated from Jieun so he could finally be Taehyung's. All Jeongguk could think now was there were a lot of things that hadn't crossed his mind. And this isn't just going to affect Jeongguk's family but also Taehyung.

And all of them were standing on thin ice.

Jeongguk's head throbbed painfully and a sob threatened to escape his throat because all of this was just too overwhelming. He wanted out and he actually thought things got easier when he found out about Aria. The truth only made things worse for him and Taehyung. Maybe it would've been better if he never knew after all.

There were a million lashes tugging him back from Taehyung. And he just didn't know how to cut them loose.

"I need to speak to my lawyer," Jeongguk said after a while.

Jieun looked up at that. "What for?"

"So he would tell me what I must do. I want a divorce"

"You keep saying the same thing over and over again, Jeongguk. I get it. I was just telling you the reality. It isn't as easy as you imagined. There are so many consequences! You'd wish you didn't get a divorce at the end of it all, seeing how many things you had to let go just to be free from me"

Jeongguk kept his gaze down.

“What about Taehyung?” Jieun asked.

Jeongguk stayed silent. Jieun was attacking him in his weak spots. 

“Let me tell you exactly what’s going to happen to him because you didn’t seem to have heard me clearly the first time I told you. Say you get a divorce. What would happen to him? You’ll most probably lose your post as a senior lecturer and if you’re unlucky, you’ll get fired for sleeping with a student. But above all that, do you think Taehyung could still stay at Beverly as a student as if nothing happened? Everyone would know him as the one student who slept with his teacher. Trust me when I say this. I’ve seen many things like this, Jeongguk. His relationship with you is going to be a huge black mark on his life. And soon, he’s going to wish he never met you” 

Jeongguk gritted his teeth in anger. Why do Taehyung and his relationship have to get in the middle of this? It was unfair that Taehyung had to get dragged into this. And Jeongguk didn't want anything to happen to Taehyung’s life. 

“I don’t want anything happening to him” 

“Then forget about the divorce” 

Jeongguk fisted his hands on his side, tongue rolling against the inside of his cheek from anger. Meanwhile, Jieun stood up and walked around the table. She sat down next to Jeongguk.

"Jeongguk," Jieun said, making him look at her. "I...I did wrong. I destroyed your life. I'm sorry. Sorry isn't going to cut it but there's nothing I can do now than repent. I was young, stupid, and selfish. If I saw this coming, I'd never have done it"

"What's done is done. The least you can do for me now is let me go"

Jieun sighed. "Listen to me. I didn't love you at first either" Jeongguk's eyes widened at that.

Jieun kept going. "I couldn't bring myself to love you for like a year. But eventually, I fell in love with you because you're the kindest and sweetest person I've ever met in my whole life. You were lovely, Jeongguk. And I wanted you to be mine forever. You took care of Aria and you even looked out for me. I was swept off my feet"

Jeongguk smiled as memories from the old days filled his mind.

"I thought I could find happiness with you. And I thought we did. We looked out for each other all this time. And when I came to terms with myself that I'll have to live my life with you, I promised myself that I would never be unfaithful to you"

Jeongguk stared at her glassy eyes that brimmed tears. It felt like she hadn't changed much during sixteen years of time. She was still beautiful. Her face was a little less round and her cheekbones were sharper. She looked more mature.

"And I've kept that promise until this very day, Jeongguk" a tear made its way down her cheek. "I had never looked at another man the way I look at you" She was sobbing again.

Jeongguk couldn't bear to look at her.

"I never thought we would become this... broken as a family. I never thought you would cheat on me. It crossed my mind, but I didn't entertain the thought. I was happy that Aria was growing up so quickly. So she would be off to college soon. And we could spend time together"

Jeongguk kept his gaze down.

"I kind of thought it would be a good idea to have another child"

"What?!" Jeongguk asked, surprised.

"I mean I wanted to..."

"For how long?"

"It just occurred to me last year...a few months ago...four...five?"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because...we didn't have sex much. I was going to, but I never got the chance. When you didn't want to fuck me or didn't even look at me that way for the past few months, I really didn't want to tell you. I honestly didn't think you were cheating. It didn't cross my mind that you may be less interested in me because you've got someone better to fuck"

"Jieun..."

"And when I finally got pregnant, I was delighted. I thought you would be too because we are stable as a family and financially...and we're adults now. We're ready for that kind of thing..."

"I don't know what to say" Jeongguk felt speechless. He pitied Jieun.

"I love you. I still do. And I don't want to let you go"

"Jieun..."

"I don't want to be alone in this world"

Jeongguk could feel his heart clenching painfully. He may not love her but he had lived with her for fifteen years. If he said he didn’t give a single shit about her, he’d be lying. For with time comes familiarity.

"I'm not trying to guilt-trip you into staying with me. I'm just telling you how I feel" she said. "I'm sorry"

"Jieun," Jeongguk said and raised her face to meet his own. "You wouldn't have to be alone for long. I told you, you could find someone who really loves you. Jieun, a lot of my friends from school aren't even married yet! And we're literally in the age of marriage. We've already spent our lives on each other. We could use some time on our own. Aria would be going to college in less than two years. I'm not your whole world, Jieun. There are so many things out there and maybe you should go explore them alone"

Jieun shook his head, tears cascading down her cheeks.

"I want to explore that world with Taehyung. I don't think it's selfish to focus on myself a little now. Because all I've done my whole life is look after you and Aria"

Jieun shook her head. "Then stay until Aria goes to college. If we go to court now, she would know the truth. I don't want her to know. She's still a kid"

Jeongguk sighed. "I don't know, Jieun..."

"Do it for Aria"

But Taehyung...

"I don't want to" Jeongguk whispered as a tear made its way down his cheek. "Nothing has to change just because we get a divorce," He said. "I can still pick up Aria from school. I can still spend time with her. I can still go to parent-teacher meetings for her"

Jieun shook her head. "Why do you have to be so selfish?"

"I'm not, Jieun. I don't want to stay because of Taehyung"

"Taehyung is a fucking homewrecker. Look what he has done to us. We were so perfect. We were such a perfect couple. Everyone adored us. Everyone wished they were us. We were doing okay. What did you ever even lack? You had me. The sex was good enough, was it not?"

Jeongguk shook his head. "It was okay" He whispered.

"Was I not good enough?" Jieun asked. She sounded so broken.

Jeongguk shook his head.

"Was I not sexy enough? What did I ever lack for you to go look for someone else? Was it...was it because I wasn't too demanding? I didn't ask for much in bed. Is that it? You wanted it to be spicier?"

"No Jieun" Jeongguk was sobbing. The guilt he never knew he had was coming to the surface. And he could do nothing but let out sobs as the guilt crashed down him.

"Then? What was it?" Jieun wept. "What did I lack so much that you looked at a child who was ten years younger than you and thought he could give you something more than I did? That he would give you what you missed? What was it, Jeongguk? Tell me. What made you stick your dick in some boy you met one night"

Jeongguk shook his head. "I'm sorry"

"Tell me," Jieun said between sobs.

"It's not you, Jieun. It was me" Jeongguk said, sobbing.

"Tell me what I lacked" Jieun sobbed. "I wanted to be perfect for you. Because of what I did to you. Because I could never forgive myself for it. Tell me what I lacked that made you fuck a schoolboy like you didn't have a daughter and a wife waiting for you to come home for dinner"

"You didn't lack anything" Jeongguk sobbed.

"Then?" Jieun asked.

"It was just my preference"

A silence stretched between them.

And then, "You prefer fucking children?"

Jeongguk let out a sigh. "He's not a child"

"He's ten years younger than you. He's only twenty"

"He's different from anyone I've met"

Jieun wiped her tears with her hand, only for new ones to replace them.

"I must've lacked something for you to look at a child that way. It was my fault. I should've kept you satisfied so you wouldn't look at anyone else. I should've kept my husband satisfied. It's entirely my fault that-"

"Jieun what the fuck are you talking about?" Jeongguk said, annoyed. "What the actual fuck? You don't owe me anything just because you're my wife. Do you live in the 1800s?"

Jieun sniffled. "Then come back to me"

"No"

"Please. We can make it right. What you have with Taehyung is temporary"

"It's not"

"Just tell me what I lacked and I'll make it right. I can be better for you. No one has to get in trouble that way. We stay together, everyone will be happy. And we can learn to be happy together. We can go to therapy...there's couples therapy, Jeongguk-"

"Jieun stop"

"No, I want you back. I love you. I'm with your child. We can raise them up. They will have a great and happy childhood if they grow up with their father. Jeongguk please"

Jeongguk looked away.

"Please" Jieun placed her hand on Jeongguk's cheek, making him look at her.

"How could I look after two children on my own? I would be jobless if my truth gets revealed. You would be broke too because you will have to pay me huge alimony because of adultery on your side. All the things you've done...it's only going to backlash on you"

"Jieun..."

"And above all of that...do you really want Taehyung to get caught up in the middle of all this? That kid? He has a whole life ahead of him. Are you going to destroy his life because of the sins you've committed?"

Jeongguk was sobbing again.

"When I lose my job, how would I take care of the children? And Aria wants to go to Harvard. She told you right? She wants to do law too. She's really ambitious. I'm proud of her. How would I pay for Harvard if I lose my job? And the new baby? Your baby? How would I take care of her?" Jieun rambled.

"I told you. Split parent-"

"Don't you pity me?" She whispered.

Jeongguk looked at her at that. "Jieun..."

“You’re the most selfish one in the relationship, Jeongguk,” Jieun said quietly. “I don’t want you to leave me but I thought you’d at least care about Aria. And it’s making me sick how you just don’t give a crap about your own daughter. Split parenting? What good would that do to Aria? She loves you and she loves spending time with you more than me. You raised her up. She spent most of her childhood with you so it’s only natural that she’s closer to you. She’s a very emotional and sensitive child. Are you really going to leave her in the most important and challenging two years of her life? She’s going to need your emotional support as her father. So at least wait till she moves out to go to college. Please, I’m begging you. I’m not asking you this as your wife, I’m asking this as the mother of the child you were a father to in the last fifteen years”

Jeongguk felt his throat close up and everything felt so suffocating. He felt like he was drowning. He had no means of escaping the mass of water that dragged him down. He was trapped. 

A painful silence stretched between them. The air around them was thick and Jeongguk didn't have any words to tell her. All the words Jieun had said to him were falling atop his head. His torso was hunched and he had his head on his hands as he put his weight on the table in front of him. It felt as if he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders and if he let go, all that weight would crash down on him, destroying everything that is of value to him.

"I love you, Jeongguk," She whispered after a while.

Jeongguk stared at her speechlessly as tears cascaded down his cheeks. He didn't know what to say or do. All he could feel was overwhelming emotions. Guilt, mostly. He thought that he didn't feel any guilt for cheating on her. But now, when everything was out in the open, it felt like the guilt would swallow him whole. And then there was fear. And confusion. And rage. And sorrow. He was exhausted. 

As a silence stretched between them, Jeongguk could feel Jieun leaning in, her face dangerously close to him.

"You're trying to take everyone down with you, baby" Her breath fanned against his cheek.

"Don't you have a heart? How could you do this to all of us?"

"I'm sorry" He whispered.

"I love you so much," She said.

Her lips ghosted over his. And Jeongguk had it coming. She leaned in to kiss him.

But just as her lips were about to meet his, Jeongguk turned his head away, making her lips meet his cheek.

The realization hit Jieun and she immediately leaned away. She let out a sigh and stood up. Jeongguk watched her walk away. She started climbing the stairs. Before she disappeared into the darkness of the unlit stairway.

"If you go down, we all will"

Jeongguk watched her disappear upstairs and let out an exasperated sigh. He felt suffocated amidst the hurricane of emotions. He wiped his tears away and took out his phone. He pressed the last number on his call log.

A few rings later, a sleepy voice answered from the other side.

"Hey, can I come over?"

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•°⁴⁵°• Selfish ─✵───────

Taehyung woke up to a pair of lips against his cheek.

"Hmm?" Taehyung mumbled sleepily, surroundings slowly coming into focus as the soft press against his cheeks that gently pulled him away from his dream. He blinked a couple of times, no longer feeling the press against his cheek. He looked to his left, only to see a smiling Jeongguk looking at him, eyes shaped like crescents from the big smile that stretched his lips upwards.

"Hi" Taehyung mumbled, heart fluttering as he took in his boyfriend's physique. He was shirtless, the blanket that covered them both doing an awful job at covering the defined muscles of his torso. His hair was a crow's nest, curls standing in all directions but Taehyung thought it was adorable. He looked gorgeous, even when he had just woken up.

Jeongguk had come over the previous night and spent the night with Taehyung. Taehyung was more than glad to share his bed with Jeongguk but when he asked why, the older man had just said that he didn't want to be at his home at that moment. Jeongguk had looked stressed out and it made Taehyung close his mouth, not wanting to distress the older man further by asking more questions.

After a quick shower and climbing into a pair of sweats belonging to Taehyung, Jeongguk had fallen asleep moments after his back hit the soft, cheap mattress of Taehyung's room. And Taehyung could only coo at the sight of Jeongguk sleeping like a baby, a pout adorning his cherry lips and soft snores escaping his nose. Taehyung too had fallen asleep instantly, grateful that Taehyung was able to convince Mrs. Hooper to let Jeongguk stay.

"Hi" Jeongguk mumbled now, grinning. "Good morning"

"Good morning," Taehyung said, yawning. He shifted closer to Jeongguk and buried his head in his chest, feeling the need to go back to sleep.

"Tae it's almost midday," Jeongguk said, wrapping his arm around Taehyung's torso. "Wake up"

"No" Taehyung mumbled.

Jeongguk chuckled. "Baby, wake up"

"No! it's a Saturday" Taehyung felt himself dozing off again.

Before he could fall asleep again, Jeongguk's hand on his back traveled downwards, giving a firm squeeze on his ass.

Taehyung jolted awake. "Hey! That's a violation of my rights!"

"Your sleeping rights?"

"Yes!"

Jeongguk chuckled, giving another squeeze. Taehyung whined, the need to fall back asleep now long gone.

"Baby" Jeongguk whispered.

"Yes?" Taehyung whispered back. Jeongguk's face was inches away from him.

Jeongguk placed his palm over Taehyung's cheek and looked at him with eyes. Taehyung's heart fluttered at the sight. He couldn't help the smile that stretched his lips upwards at the sight of Jeongguk.

Jeongguk smiled back, his thumb continuously caressing Taehyung's cheek. Jeongguk's palm felt comfortable and warm, making Taehyung feel fortunate to feel Jeongguk's presence so early in the morning.

"I want to wake up to you my whole life" Jeongguk whispered.

"Me too" Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk grinned. They stayed like that for a few more minutes, basking in each other's warmth and listening to the rhythmic beating of their hearts.

"By the way, I was wondering something..."Taehyung whispered.

"Yeah?"

"Am I better than your wife?"

Jeongguk furrowed his eyebrows. "Of course! In every way possible!"

"Tell me how"

"I don't want to compare because you guys are nothing like each other but you're prettier than her, you're more passionate, smarter, more caring and kind, does a much better job at taking care of me...um...what else..."Jeongguk thought for a moment as Taehyung stared at him with sparkling eyes. "You're so much more perfect than her"

"Äre we going to factually ignore that I give better blowjobs than your wife?"

Jeongguk grinned. "Yeah, that too. I almost forgot. You're a million times better than her in bed. My hot, sexy, horny boyfriend"

Taehyung giggled loudly.

Jeongguk's smile widened, his eyes narrowing into crescents and crinkling at the ends adorably. And Taehyung cooed at the sight, stomach fluttering with butterflies yet again.

But it didn't last long. Jeongguk's face darkened. His smile faltered and his eyes were no longer twinkling with happiness. His eyebrows furrowed together as if something troublesome crossed his mind. It looked as if a rainy cloud had covered the sun.

It made Taehyung's heart drop.

Jeongguk tore his gaze away from Taehyung's and looked at the whitewashed ceiling above them, lips letting out a deep and stressed sigh. It took him a few moments to talk again.

"I'm so fucking tired"

"Jeongguk" Taehyung's voice was thick with worry. He could only imagine what Jeongguk was going through.

"I want to get drunk. Pass out or something Just...not think about it" Jeongguk whispered.

"It's going to be alright," Taehyung whispered as he rubbed Jeongguk's shoulder. "Don't think about it for now. Don't overthink"

"I want to get this over with but everything feels like it's going sideways. I'm so stressed out, Tae"

"Is there anything I can do to make you feel better?"

"I don't want you to get involved, baby. This is my shit-"

"You can use me"

"What?" Jeongguk's eyes widened. "What do you mean?"

"I mean you can use me to relieve your stress. It's the only thing I can do"

"But I don't want to use you. You're the love of my life"

Taehyung sighed. "Not like that. We're supposed to take care of each other. I can relieve your stress"

"Yeah but..." Jeongguk looked at Taehyung. "You know I love you, right?"

"I do" Taehyung said and placed a kiss on Jeongguk's forehead. "I'm sorry about the things I said yesterday. I was being so childish and immature. I didn't mean any of it. It's your child. And I don't have a say in that at all. I'm sorry. I came home and thought about it. And I wasn't thinking at all. I wasn't being fair. I just don't want you to leave me, that's all. I was being so immature-"

"Tae. Baby" Jeongguk whispered, cupping his face. "It's alright. You weren't wrong. You're just twenty. You're allowed to be childish and immature. You're still so young. You were just saying how you really felt and that's alright. After all you've been through, it's fair on your side to think that"

"Gguk-"

"But it hurts me that you think I would leave you. When I'm trying everything I can to not let you go. Because I need you"

"I know. I'm sorry"

"Don't be, baby. I'm not mad at you. I'm the one who's acting immature most of the time. Not you. I'm the adult here. I should have been able to be rational. But when I'm with you...you make me want to be reckless, Tae. You make me want to give my all to you and be happy. You make me want to do what truly makes me happy. You make me feel so young"

"You are young" Taehyung whispered, fingers caressing Jeongguk's jaw. "And you deserve to be happy"

"You make me want to experience what I've missed and when I'm with you I feel like this is what I've been missing. This is what it's like to be alive"

"Oh Jeongguk" Taehyung was tearing up. "I love you so much"

"I love you too, baby," Jeongguk said, planting a kiss atop Taehyung's plump lips.

They stayed like that for a few silent minutes, basking in each other's warmth as morning light soaked them.

"Is the grandma home?" Jeongguk asked after a while, as he pushed Taehyung's body tighter against himself.

"She goes to church every Saturday morning so she won't be back for a while" Taehyung whispered, staring into Jeongguk's doe eyes.

"Okay," Jeongguk said, a small smirk stretching his lips upwards.

Taehyung smiled back. "What?"

"Nothing" Jeongguk's smirk grew. "We're alone it seems"

"Yeah"

"And I'm a little stressed"

Taehyung giggled. "Yeah?"

Jeongguk grinned and Taehyung bit his lip, staring at Jeongguk's lips.

"Yeah" Jeongguk breathed and ground his hips onto Taehyung.

"Yeah, I think you're really stressed" Taehyung moaned.

Twenty minutes later, the two men lay beside each other, hearts racing in unison and proof of the unholy acts they've indulged themselves in splattered all over their chests. Jeongguk was grinning like a fool and Taehyung was trying to get down from the bliss that made him feel like he was on cloud nine.

"Morning sex is the best thing ever," Taehyung said breathlessly.

"I know right?" Jeongguk said, grinning.

"I love it when you break my back like a glowstick, daddy"

"Taehyung what the fuck?" Jeongguk asked, grinning. "You're weird. Let me clean you up"

Taehyung grinned, feeling himself come down from his high. He watched as Jeongguk grabbed some tissues and splattered water all over them before starting to clean both of them. Taehyung silently watched the older man clean him up, dark hair that had definitely grown a couple of inches during the summer falling into his eyes making him look enchantingly handsome. His biceps and triceps flexed under his skin as he moved his hands and Taehyung had to close his eyes to avoid himself from getting turned on again.

Jeongguk stood up, disposed of the wet tissues on the bin by Taehyung's small desk, and sat on the bed next to Taehyung, who lay on his back, naked. He helped Taehyung into his boxers before he dressed himself up too so they were both in their underwear now. Jeongguk smiled at Taehyung and pressed a kiss to his forehead, making Taehyung close his eyes again.

Jeongguk drew away and looked at Taehyung, his gaze calculating. As if he was trying to figure something out that was written on Taehyung's face.

"You look different"

Taehyung raised his eyebrows, confused. "Different how?"

"I don't know," Jeongguk said. "You look tired"

"Maybe because I am?"

"You are? Because of the sex? But you don't usually get tired even when you ride me and today you were under me-"

"Stop you're trying to turn me on again"

"I'm not!" Jeongguk pouted. "But Tae, I'm serious. What's wrong?"

Taehyung sighed and sat up, facing Jeongguk. "I'm just a little worried about you, Gguk. Worried about us. I can't do anything to help you and I don't know what's going on with you. I'm completely in the dark on this matter even though you're my boyfriend..."

"Tae..." Jeongguk whispered, "I don't want to drag you into this mess. You staying by my side is enough strength for me, baby. You don't have to worry. I'm trying to come up with a solution that wouldn't hurt any of us"

"What do you mean hurt us? Why would a divorce hurt anyone?"

Jeongguk sighed. "I spoke with Jieun yesterday. According to her, all our truths could be exposed. Including our affair. And about Aria...I mean we can do something about Aria, even if I really don't want her to find out but...about you..."

"What about me? Would something bad happen to us if they find out?"

"Well, you wouldn't get expelled, obviously. But people would get to know about us. It's a possibility at least. If word gets out that you were in a relationship with a professor of yours, it could look bad on you. And your future. It’s going to give you a bad reputation. It never crossed my mind about how it could affect you, Tae. I was only focused on getting a divorce and never stopped to think about how it could affect the people around me. Also, I could probably lose my job. But it's just a possibility!" Jeongguk said in a small voice. 

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk for a few seconds with a horrified expression, as if he couldn’t believe what he had just heard. 

“So Jieun told you all of this?” Taehyung finally asked.

“Yeah”

“Are we really going to trust her? After all she’s done to you? Seriously?” Taehyung’s voice was loud with disbelief.

“I’m not trusting her but she’s a lawyer. And I feel like what she’s telling is true. I mean, think about it, It’s not impossible” Jeongguk tried to explain. But Taehyung wasn’t taking it. "I need to speak to my lawyer and I have an appointment with him at four in the afternoon today. I already set the time up on my way here yesterday. And I can confirm what would happen after speaking with him"

"You mean...if it gets revealed, it could have a negative impact on my future?" Taehyung said in a small voice. The corners of his lips were inched downwards with worry.

"Yeah well..." Jeongguk said. "But we can figure something out, I'm sure. Anyways, that's why I didn't want you to get involved. I don't want to do you any harm"

Taehyung nodded. "Okay"

"But...I was wondering...." Jeongguk said in a small voice.

"Hmm?" Taehyung looked at him.

"I don't want this thing to destroy our lives. But if there's a high chance that what Jieun said is true, would you be okay if I don't...like...you know...?"

"What?"

Jeongguk shrugged. "If I don't get a divorce?"

Taehyung's eyes widened in horror. "What? Jeongguk what the fuck?"

"Tae-"

"You don't want to divorce her?"

"Were you listening to me? I said if things are going to do us more harm than good, would you be okay with me not divorcing her but still continuing this relationship with you? You and I can even live together-"

Taehyung scoffed.

Jeongguk's eyes widened, hurt flashing across his face in an instant.

"No," Taehyung said. "It's not okay, Jeongguk. We've been through enough shit already. I've been through enough shit because of you. All I want is a good relationship with you. A normal one where we take care of each other and focus on each other. A normal fucking relationship where you're mine"

"Tae-"

"I'm okay with you split parenting or some shit. I don't fucking care as long as you're mine. I came to terms with that. But now you don't even want to divorce her? Like, get out of the marriage?"

"Taehyung" Jeongguk growled, making Taehyung shut up instantly. "You're not listening to me. We're both adults so let's talk about this rationally. I'm telling you that I care about you and I don't want your future getting screwed up because of my shit. I don't want you to get dragged into my mess. Okay? So if it seems like you will be dragged into this, I was just wondering if you would be okay with me not divorcing-"

"No, I'm not okay with that"

Jeongguk sighed. "Okay. I'll try my best to not get you into this"

Taehyung shook his head. “I don’t want anyone in Beverly knowing about us, Jeongguk. I’m…I can’t imagine what it would be like if the other students got to know that I was in a relationship with the professor of one of the hardest subjects of the year. They’d think I got extra credits for sleeping with you! I…and it would affect my future..oh god…”

“Baby, no. I’m going to do my best to not get you involved in this, okay?”

“Fine,” Taehyung said. “But how did that thought of not getting a divorce even cross your mind?”

“Well, it’s because I don’t want any harm coming to you. And Jieun said all these things to me yesterday. She said she would reveal about our relationship in court so I got scared. She told me to stay at least until Aria goes to college and that’s why I was thinking about staying a little more”

Taehyung’s mouth dropped open. “For two more years?! And you were thinking about it? You don’t want to get a divorce because of that?”

“I’m just saying. Because like there is Aria in the equation too, Tae. And she’s still my daughter…I understand why Jieun wants me to stay in the marriage…because Aria needs me and-”

“So you’re thinking about not divorcing Jieun because of Aria?”

“Well, kind of because-”

“Oh fuck you” Taehyung let out a humorless chuckle. “You and your Aria. There we go. You prioritizing your family over me again. Just like before”

“Tae!” Jeonnguk said. “That’s not true. It’s not only because of her! She said that if I stayed for two more years, she would let me go! She wants me to stay for Aria”

“And you do too”

“No, I don't care about staying. I will still be Aria’s dad after the divorce. I’m not going to abandon her! I wanted to find a way around this matter so you wouldn’t get caught up in this because if Jieun agrees to get a divorce after two years, then she wouldn’t reveal about you”

Taehyung let out a scoff. “Just break up with me, then. Everything will be fine. Then you can get a divorce without trouble because we aren’t together and it won’t affect me anyway. Or you can just break it off permanently. Forget me and go live with Aria and Jieun just like before. Because right now, that’s what you’re trying to do”

“Tae, why can't you understand me? It’s not like I want to stay in the marriage either”

“Then why are you thinking about it? Forget about what effect it would have on me. You’re trying to stay mainly because of Aria”

“She is a reason but I was thinking more about what Jieun said the other day about you”

“If there’s a way to not get me involved in this, you should be looking for that. Not think about abandoning the whole divorce! And it just sounds to me like you’re trying to find reasons to stay in the marriage and I don’t think you’re doing that because of me, Jeongguk. Because what I want for you is to get out of that damned marriage and live your life the way you want”

“I told you I’m going to speak to my lawyer and ask him what I can do. But I can’t just forget about Aria’s existence just like that!”

“I didn’t ask you to! You can still be her father and do all the fatherly shit after the divorce too! I don’t give a shit about her but I didn’t tell you to forget about her! I wish you did but I know you can’t! And I’ve made peace with that. All I asked for you is to get that divorce so we can date for real. And I really thought after everything we've been through you were willing to make this relationship happen"

"Taehyung...we're literally dating"

"This is adultery. You're practicing adultery because you're still married to that bitch who ruined your whole fucking life. And you still let her get into your head. Do you love her or something?"

"Taehyung please"

"No. Listen to me. You're still married, in case you forgot. I'm not formally your boyfriend until you get that divorce and become a free man. And then we can move in together and start an actual relationship. Because let's face it, Jeongguk. I'm just a fling right now"

"Taehyung, no"

"And you're not mine until you get that divorce"

"What do you mean? Taehyung you're mine and-"

"I may be yours but you're not mine, Gguk," Taehyung said. His heart felt like it was about to explode. Tears brimmed his eyes.

"Since the moment we met, I've always been yours. I've been here waiting for you to come back to me. I've always been here waiting for you. I've been here for you to come back to. But you were never there, Gguk. You still aren't. And all this time, I was yours and you were never mine. You were hers and Aria's. Not mine. Never mine. Still aren't. You might be, after the divorce. But now, even that isn't a thing I could look up to?"

"Tae..." Jeongguk was speechless.

"Us? We aren't stable, Jeongguk. I've waited for a long time for it to be stable. And my only hope and only solution out of this mess is your divorce. Because at the end of the day, I'm madly and foolishly in love with you and I want this to work between us"

"Tae" Jeongguk sobbed. He took hold of both Taehyung's hands. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for saying that. I'm so sorry. I will never even think that ever again. I will do everything to divorce her. Even if it ruins my life, as long as you're there with me in the end, I'll be fine"

Taehyung sniffled. "It shouldn’t ruin you, Ggukkie. But staying in that marriage would"

"Yeah, you’re right. I'm sorry for hurting you so much"

Taehyung stayed silent as Jeongguk's arms wrapped around him, drawing him closer into a hug.

When Jeongguk drew away, Taehyung gave him a tight-lipped smile and got up from bed. He started putting on his clothes as Jeongguk watched. He walked over to his nightstand, where his phone lay connected to the charger. He took it in his hand and started looking through his notifications.

Upon seeing an unusual email, he opened it.

What he saw almost made him drop the phone.

Taehyung screamed.

Jeongguk sat up and jumped over to Taehyung, panicked. "What?"

Taehyung looked at Jeongguk with his whole expression horrified. Jeongguk stared at him, looking concerned until-

Taehyung started jumping on the balls of his feet, a grin forming on his lips.

"I've been selected for the New York Art Academy!"


"Mom?"

Jieun heard her daughter's voice outside the window of the passenger seat of her car, making her snap out of her trial of thoughts that had made her space out. Jieun quickly wiped the tear stains on her face and unlocked the doors, letting Aria climb into the passenger seat.

"Why did you come to pick me up?" Aria asked as she closed the door.

Jieun cleared her throat. "I got the message that the swimming practices aren't being held today. I came to drive you home"

"I could've gone with my friends" Aria whined. "I'm old enough to go on my own!"

"I know that" Jieun snapped. "I have some time off today so why travel alone when you can go with me?"

"But it's usually dad who comes to pick me up? Where is he?"

"Busy" Jieun said. She didn't know where he was. She hadn't seen him in the morning. She hadn't seen after the previous night. She didn't look for him either, even though it felt strange to not wake up next to him or see him in the morning making her coffee.

She knew she would have to get used to that soon.

"With Taehyung?" Aria asked.

Jieun sighed and started the engine. She heard Aria let out a sigh next to her as Jieun pulled up into the driveway.

"You can stay at home alone until I come back, right? I'll buy you some lunch and I'll be home by dinner"

"Yeah," Aria said. "But dad would be home, right? He would come back soon so I wouldn't be alone. You don't have to worry"

Jieun felt like tearing up again. But she gulped down the need to cry and spoke. Her voice came out shakier than she intended to. "I'm not sure"

"What do you mean? Where is he?"

"I don't know, okay? Can you call him and ask where he is?"

"Mom!" Aria said.

Jieun let out a sigh.

"God, what's happening with you guys?" Aria said, looking stressed out.

"Hey," Jieun said, placing her hand on Aria's thigh. "Don't get stressed out, okay? Just focus on yourself. Your dad and I will figure out what's going to happen"

A silence followed Jieun's statement.

And then a sniffle.

"Please don't get divorced" Aria was sobbing.

"Baby" Jieun said. Her heart ached upon seeing her daughter crying.

"Please" Aria sobbed.

"I don't want to either. But your father wants me to sign the divorce papers...we talked yesterday but he's so persistent on getting a divorce" Jieun said softly.

"Why can't he just stay for me? Will he move out if you guys get divorced? Will he leave us?"

Jieun let out a sigh. The pain in her chest only got bigger by the minute upon hearing Aria sound so broken.

"I don't know" Jieun whispered. "But even if he does move out, I'm sure you can still meet up with him, Aria"

"B-But he's going to leave me"

Jieun pulled up in front of a restaurant. "I'm trying to make him stay"

"He's being selfish" Aria whispered. "He only cares about Taehyung"

"He cares about you too. You're his daughter. He loves you. You're his little girl no matter what"

"I can't believe he loves Taehyung. It's ridiculous. Taehyung is a piece of shit. He used all of us. He's a whore"

"Aria!" Jieun scolded. "Don't say that!"

"Are you protecting him? Mom, what the fuck?"

"Language," Jieun said. "I'm not. But he doesn't deserve to be called a whore"

"He is a whore. Did you know that he used to have sex with people for money before he met dad?"

"What?!" Jieun was aghast.

"See? Mom, you don't know anything about him. He is a whore. Bet he wanted money after sleeping with dad"

"I don't think that's true, Aria. He..." Jieun was bewildered. "He was so nice"

"Well he fucked dad"

"Aria" Jieun warned. "Your dad is an adult. He was having an affair behind my back and it's me and your dad's business. You wouldn't get it. But I understand why he did what he did"

"Are you serious?" Aria said, looking angry. "After all he's done you're still protecting him?"

"What can I do? I still love him" Jieun said, tears starting to make their way down her cheeks. "I had you when I was sixteen and he was the one who was always there for me. He's not a bad person. Anyone else would never have taken responsibility. Your dad looked after me. He was forced to become mature after I had the baby. He was forced to grow up and become an adult at your age. I think we should all cut him some slack"

Aria was silent for a while. "So did you"

Jieun stared ahead of her as tears trailed down her cheeks.

"We should cut you some slack too"

"I want him to stay for you. I tried all I could last night to convince myself. I felt like shit afterwards. But I had no choice. I don't want him to leave us"

"Mom..."

"But I've used up all my cards, Aria. There's nothing I can do anymore. I told him about the possibilities if a divorce happens and how it would affect all our futures. But if he still wants a divorce, there's nothing I can do. I'll sign the papers and divorce him"

Aria sighed. "Does he love Taehyung more than me? More than the new baby?"

A loud sob escaped Jieun. She quickly covered her mouth and wept.

"Mom" Aria said, voice thick with sadness. "Mom don't cry"

Jieun shook her head. "I'm okay," She said groggily.

"No you're not" Aria placed her hand on Jieun's shoulder, squeezing it.

"I'm sure we can find a way to live without him," Jieun said in a small voice. "I mean I will find a way. He's not exactly leaving you"

"This isn't fair"

"I'm sure he thinks differently"

Aria wiped Jieun's tears, pout decorating her lips as she watched her mother. Jieun looked at her and forced a smile.

Jieun knew what she did the previous night was too much. But she couldn't control her emotions. Selfishly, she couldn't entertain the thought of letting Jeongguk go. And Jeongguk was so difficult. It pained her to see him hating her so much.

She hadn't slept that night. All she could think of was how much she regretted making Jeongguk believe he was the father. Maybe if she had raised Aria alone, none of this would've happened. She would not be crying herself to sleep for weeks and crying until there were no tears left. She wouldn't be this stressed out, thinking about her children's future.

She had this coming. But years and years of happy marriage had made her forget that her actions could have consequences and that it would backlash on her one day. That day had come and it hurt more than she thought it would because she was too much in love with Jeongguk.

Maybe if she hadn't walked to Jeongguk and told him that she was pregnant with his baby all those years ago, both of them would have been living happy lives by now. Separately.

"I did something really bad to your father"

"What?" Aria was confused.

"Something happened long ago and it left a negative effect on your father's life. And I'm responsible for that. So I want you to know that if we get divorced, I caused it and not your dad because he deserves to be happy too"

"What did you do?"

Jieun stayed silent for a while. And then, "It doesn't matter. It's a long time ago. But I believe that it excuses his actions. It excuses him cheating and wanting to divorce me"

"I don't think it was that bad"

"It was. Believe me. Not everyone is black or white, baby. Everyone has a certain amount of evil in them. I and your dad did awful things to each other, okay? I did something bad and he cheated on me. Both are bad, okay? But you don't have to think about it because it's between us. Bottom line is, don't hate your dad"

"I hate him"

"Stop being a brat. Your father sacrificed his whole youth to raise you. He and I would be really disappointed if you turn out to be a bad person. So behave yourself. Don't become like me or your dad"

"I didn't ask to be born! Maybe you should've aborted me if you didn't want me!"

"Aria! Shut it. I wanted you. So did your dad. That's why we kept you. Don't ever say that again. We both love you. So much. We only want the best for you. Don't ever forget that"

"If he wants the best for me, why isn't he staying?"

"Because he also wants the best for the person he loves. He's torn between two worlds. We should cut him some slack"


"Holy fuck Tae!" Jeongguk screamed, jumping up and down along with Taehyung. "I can't believe this"

"Me neither oh my god! Look at this" Taehyung handed Jeongguk his phone. Jeongguk saw an email with the art academy's logo on top of it.

"'You've been selected for an interview'" Jeongguk read. "Holy shit. When they say they're interviewing, it means that you're obviously going to get selected. Because they only invite the people they want to enroll!"

"I know!" Taehyung grinned. "I can't believe this! I applied but I never thought I would get selected. Wait, is this legit? What if it's a prank?"

Taehyung started reading the screen again and Jeongguk peaked in with him.

"Nope, nope it's legit. Look at this. It says Taehyung Kim. And it's sent by their official email address. And the vice-chancellor dude's signature is here too. What the fuck?"

Jeongguk grinned. "How did this even happen?"

"I don't know! I mean I did a lot of art projects in high school and I sent all of them to them when I applied! They must be interested in me because of them!"

"Holy shit, Tae! Congratulations!" Jeongguk wrapped his arms around Taehyung, squeezing him.

"Thank you oh my god!" Taehyung said, wrapping his arms around Jeongguk. They started jumping around in joy, still in their embrace and grinning like fools.

When Jeongguk pulled away, Taehyung's eyes were puffy with tears.

"Why are you crying?" Jeongguk asked.

"I'm so happy. This feels like a dream. Can you pinch me? I think it's a dream"

Jeongguk grinned and pinched Taehyung.

"Ow!"

"it's not a dream!" Jeongguk said.

"It's not!"

"You're going to New York!"

"I'm going to New York!"

Jeongguk stopped smiling, reality finally crashing down on him. "You're going to New York?"

Taehyung's grin was slapped off his face. "Oh"

An uncomfortable silence stretched between them, both of them trying to process what was going on.

Taehyung was the first to speak up. "My mom's in New York now. I could meet her too"

"That's awesome," Jeongguk said in a small voice.

Taehyung shifted his weight from one foot to another. "Um..."

"You'll leave?"

Taehyung was speechless. "I..."

"Tae..."

"I...I wouldn't be gone for long"

"The degree is four years"

"Um...I need to speak with my mom"

Jeongguk stayed silent for a few seconds. "Will you leave me?"

"It's not like I want to!"

Jeongguk nodded, taking a step towards Taehyung. "This is important for you. I understand. It’s your future"

"Yeah. I've always dreamt of going to New York Art Academy. This is like one in a million chance"

Jeongguk nodded. "I'll wait for you"

"Oh"

"What?" Jeongguk's heart sank. "You..."

"No, I'm just..."

"What?"

"I want to go" Taehyung said, looking down.

"I know. We can do long-distance-"

"We can't," Taehyung said.

"W-what?"

"What if it doesn’t work?"

"How would you know? You've never done it!"

"I..."

"Taehyung?" Jeongguk felt his heart break.

Taehyung gulped. "You...I love you so fucking much. And I want to be with you so fucking badly. But...the more I think about it the more I feel like we're impossible"

"No, Tae. I'm definitely going to divorce Jieun and we're going to move in together-"

"No, we aren't"

"Tae..."

"I'm going to New York. I'm leaving you"

"You haven't decided that yet"

"Jeongguk, what do you mean? New York Art Academy? I am going. I want to! Desperately! This is my dream. My dream that I’ve had since I chose to do Art all those years ago! And this chance…it's like a lottery ticket. You graduate from there and companies are going to beg you to work for them! Do you want me to stay here for a relationship that there's almost no hope of continuing?"

"Taehyung what do you mean no hope?" Jeongguk's chest throbbed painfully. Tears were on the brink of falling from his eyes. "We love each other. We have all the hope in the world. I love you! And I'm going to divorce Jieun-"

"You said it will affect us negatively. You said it could fuck up all our lives. And a healthy relationship isn't supposed to destroy our lives. But all I see is me losing myself every time I let you come back to me after throwing me away"

"Taehyung, please. After I get a divorce everything will be better"

“Jeongguk, why didn’t you think about a divorce before you found out about Aria?”

Jeongguk just stared, dumbfounded. He started searching for answers in his brain for Taehyung’s question but none came up. So Taehyung started speaking.

“We were in love back then too. And you still told me to fuck off. What changed, Jeongguk? Nothing. Because that piece of information that Aria isn’t yours changed nothing. Aria might not be your biological daughter but it’s not like you started loving her any less. She isn’t any less your daughter after that day. You still love and care about her the same way. If you really wanted to be with me, you’d have taken a divorce the moment you realized you were in love with me. But you just kept going. Why?”

Jeongguk shook his head. “I…I don’t know”

“You didn’t decide to get a divorce because you love me. If you did, you’d have done it long ago. If you really had the intention to be in a stable relationship with me. You didn’t decide to get a divorce because, before that piece of information, you believed that your family was perfect. Because your family meant so much to you than me, no?”

“Tae” Jeongguk whispered. “No. That’s not true”

“Jeongguk, there’s no point denying it. ''Taehyung was choking up on his words. “You have proven to me over and over again how you value your family more than me. A-and even today you just decided to choose Aria over me…over our relationship” Taehyung sobbed. “It’s not like I told you to abandon her. I only wanted you to call you mine for once”

Jeongguk sobbed. “Tae, I’m so sorry”

Taehyung shook his head. 

“Tae I’m going to get that divorce, Tae. I promise. I love you. Please. I just…I don’t know what to do. I want to be with you. I desperately do”

"No, I don't think so. You're still going to be bound to that woman because of your children. And you aren't even sure about your divorce now. They're just words and I've heard your words. I've heard you tell me that you want me in your life and go running back to your family after telling me to fuck off"

A silence stretched between them. 

"You're coming up with all these arguments. Do you hate being with me this much?" Jeongguk said at last.

"I stayed with you for so long. I waited for you even when you told me to go away. I was here for you to come back to every time you chose your family over me. And even now you're trying to prioritize your stupid daughter over me, after all this time. After all we’ve done. You're thinking of her well-being more than mine. If we continue this, all I'll ever be for you is a second option. And that's what I hate. Not you. Not us. I'm sick and tired of feeling like this"

"Tae...that's not true. You and my family are two different things"

"Not really"

"What?"

"If this works out, wouldn't you and I be family? Or have you not thought that far ahead because I'm just a fling to you?"

"Taehyung you're being irrational-"

"No" Taehyung's voice was steady. "I'm not like the girl the guy gets at the end of the movie. You need to earn me. I need to see you making an effort to get me. Because all this time all I've been is the boy you come running to when you're sad, lonely, or horny. Every time you've fucked up I'm here to welcome you with wide arms. Every time you’ve doubted our relationship we get back together. Because I'm here for you to come back to. And I'm sick of that. If this continues, I'm going to get hurt. Just like I did every time you made me feel like the second choice. Just like every time you told me to stay away from you. And I feel like that's going to continue for a while, at least"

"Taehyung I'm trying. Please" tears made their way down Jeongguk's cheeks like a waterfall and he couldn't stop them. His heart clenched painfully and he didn't know what to do. "I'm fighting for you. Everything I'm doing is for you. I'm getting a divorce for you. I'm thinking of split parenting because of you"

Taehyung scoffed. He looked angry but there were tears rolling down his cheeks. 

“It’s like…you tell me you’re going to get this divorce for me? True, I want you to get a divorce and I want you to be in an established relationship with me but getting a divorce for me? Jeongguk, how does that work? That’s so wrong to even think that you’re getting a divorce for me .  A relationship isn’t a one-way thing. You say you’re getting a divorce for me is like saying you don’t want a divorce but you’re forcing yourself to, because of me?! Because I want you to?!”

Jeongguk was speechless. His mind was blank. 

“You ruined fifteen years of your life to a lie. I wasn't there when that happened. So you suffered those fifteen years and you should be trying to get out of that lie you’re living, for yourself . Not me. Like…when did I even appear in your family life? I just wanted you to get a divorce for our relationship. Our relationship isn’t just mine! Our relationship is yours too! Am I the only one who wants this to work? And it's your divorce. I’m not involved in it. You can’t just say that you’re doing it for me like you’re saying you’re working on a painting for me. That’s not how it works!”

Jeongguk stared at Taehyung, dumbfounded. The tears on his cheeks had started to dry and his mind was still trying to process Taehyung’s words.

Taehyung let out a sigh. “You shouldn't be doing things for someone, Jeongguk. You've been doing things for other people your whole life and nothing for yourself. Please, Jeongguk. Please start doing things for yourself. All those things, including a divorce, you shouldn't be doing them for me, it should be for yourself! Because you deserve to be happy"

Another silence stretched between them. Jeongguk didn’t know what to say. However, when he finally found the words to speak, his voice cracked.

"Please don't leave me," Jeongguk said brokenly. "I want you in my life. I'm trying to make you happy, Tae"

Taehyung shook his head. "You don't understand. Happiness doesn't come from people around you. It comes from inside you. And now you're just depending on me for happiness. Aren't you?"

"Yes but-"

"That's not supposed to happen"

"But I love you. You're my only happiness"

“I know. I love you too” Taehyung sighed. "Do you have any idea how much it hurts to see you like this?" He sobbed. “Whatever messed up things you have in your mind…all these things you think that you’re doing, you think you’re doing for other people. That's such a wrong way to think. You’ve lived the last fifteen years of your life for Aria and Jieun. I don’t want you doing the same for me. Because that’s messed up”

“Okay I won’t do that…please, Tae. I will make it right. I’ll take that divorce and-”

“Jeongguk, no. You need to get your shit together. Let’s-”

“Please”

“Besides all of that, I don’t want to be treated like a second priority anymore. I just can’t” Taehyung was tearing up again. “And I don’t want to stay here and watch that happen for god knows how long. Until you make up your mind to finally let go of that family? And I’m not talking about Aria. Something’s gotta break, Gguk. And at this point, I feel like I’m the one who’s going to break again and again because you’re still focused on keeping your family tact”

Jeongguk shook his head. “No, please”

Taehyung sniffled. “I only wanted you to get a divorce” He whispered. 

“And I will, Tae. I am going to get one-”

“Okay, do that. You must do that. For yourself. But I’m going to New York. I want to. I must. I’m not going to let that opportunity go, Jeongguk. I’m sorry. It hurts to be with you. It hurts to not be with you. I might as well-”

"Don't. Don't say it. Please. Don't go. We can make this work. We can-" Jeongguk stopped himself, eyes widening.

He sounded exactly like Jieun.

"Jeongguk" Taehyung stepped closer to him. His perfect face was scrunched with sadness. His eyes were puffy with tears. He had been weeping as much as Jeongguk. 

"This is so toxic. Both of us keep hurting each other. This is destroying both of us, don't you see?" Taehyung said.

Jeongguk was speechless. This can't be happening.

"No" Jeongguk shook his head violently. "I can't let you go"

"Jeongguk" Taehyung sobbed. "Do you think I want to? I would rather hurt myself by staying in this toxic relationship rather than leave you because you're here. But I want to go to New York and for once, let me be selfish. I know you're going through a hard time and you need me now more than anything. But let me be selfish for once in my life. Because you have been when it comes to me"

"Tae..." Jeongguk sobbed.

"I think we should take a break"

"Baby"

"Please. It's good for both of us. Even if I decide to leave, it won't be for a couple of more weeks. There are so many things to do. So we should stay away from each other and think things through. We should take a step back and focus on ourselves a little. You need to get your shit together. You go and try to solve those problems you're in and do what you really want to do. Not because of me, not because of your family"

Jeongguk stayed silent, staring at his feet, head empty and heart heavy.

"Let's try to solve our problems separately, hmm?"

Jeongguk was silent for a few seconds and then he nodded numbly. "You're right" He whispered. "I'm sorry for acting like a child"

"You didn't, baby," Taehyung said softly. "I'm sorry"

"No. Everything you said is true. I was a shitty person to you. And you deserve someone better than me"

"Nothing is wrong with you, Gguk. You just need to grow a little alone. You need to be by yourself a little and explore a little. Because all your life you've been attached to a family and then right after that, me. I think you need to figure yourself out. Alone"

Jeongguk nodded, staring at the floor. He couldn't meet Taehyung's eyes. "You're right"

"I love you, Gguk. I just wish the situation we're in was different"

"You think it would've worked out better if we were in a different situation? Where I didn't have a family to take care of?"

"Of course. We would've been the most perfect couple" Taehyung said as tears trailed their way down his cheek.

"I'm sorry"

"I'm sorry too"

"You're...really smart, Tae. And mature. So much more mature than me"

Taehyung shook his head. "You're just broken, Gguk. And you should fix yourself alone. Not depending on anyone"

"You're right" Jeongguk nodded. He felt so fucking empty.

A silence stretched between them, the two men awkward staring down at the floor lost in thought. It was Taehyung who spoke first after a while.

"You should leave"

"I'll get going, then," Jeongguk said as he took a step away from Taehyung. "I'm going to talk to my lawyer and figure shit out"

Taehyung nodded. "Let's steer clear from each other"

"Okay"

"I won't meet you after lectures and I won't be calling or visiting you"

"Yeah" Jeongguk wanted to cry again. "This is a good idea"

"I need to tell my mom and ask her what she thinks"

Jeongguk nodded. He quickly put on the rest of his clothes and stumbled towards the door of Taehyung's bedroom.

"Go back safely" Taehyung whispered.

Jeongguk started going down the stairs and Taehyung followed. Jeongguk was about to leave without talking to Taehyung because he knew he would breakdown again but-

"Gguk"

Jeongguk turned around.

Taehyung stepped closer to him. Tears ran down his cheek like no tomorrow. And it only made Jeongguk's heart clench tighter in his chest.

"My baby" Jeongguk whispered.

Taehyung let out a sob. "I'm so sorry"

"Baby" Jeongguk whispered. "You have nothing to be sorry for. I'm sorry"

Taehyung shook his head. He cusped Jeongguk's face with his palms and brought his face towards himself. Jeongguk closed his eyes right before Taehyung's lips met his.

Jeongguk wrapped his arms around Taehyung, drawing him closer to his body and securing him in an embrace. Jeongguk added pressure to the kiss and Taehyung opened his mouth, letting Jeongguk press his tongue inside.

Taehyung's hands were on Jeongguk's hair and Jeongguk tilted his head to deepen the kiss. Tears ran down his cheek and as his cheek pressed against Taehyung's he felt Taehyung's tears against his own.

When they pulled away, Taehyung was sobbing. Jeongguk looked at him once more and left the house. And throughout the whole ride Taehyung's words played in his mind over and over again like a broken record:

"You should leave"

Is this how Taehyung felt when Jeongguk said the same words to him that time?

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•°⁴⁶°• My Love ─✵─────────

"Fuck everything"

Taehyung's voice was hoarse as he opened his fifth can of beer that evening.

"Beer tastes like shit. I don't understand why anyone would want to drink something so bitter" Taehyung said and chugged down a couple of sips from his can. Jimin chuckled from beside him, taking a sip from his own can.

Sitting on the tiled floor of Jimin's dorm that probably hadn't been swept since the beginning of summer, drinking cheap beer wasn't really Taehyung's plan when he visited Jimin two days after he broke up with Jeongguk.

He wasn't going to rant to Jimin and cry about the shit he had brought upon himself because Taehyung was pretty sure Jimin knows every aspect of the story there is to be known. But what had Taehyung stumbling into Jimin's room that evening, wanting to cry his eyes out, was him seeing Jeongguk in the hallway that morning.

Taehyung didn't have Jeongguk's lecture that Monday. And he was sure he was able to get through the day without a breakdown. But right after his first lecture, he caught a glimpse of Jeongguk, wearing a navy blue button-down, hair a bit messy and deep bags under his eyes, walking down the hallway filled with students with his head down. He had looked so tired and Taehyung couldn't help but drown in sadness and guilt that he was the one who made Jeongguk this way.

"You're so fucking stupid," Jimin said, annoyed. "How many times did I fucking tell you this isn't going to work out? And you're going to get hurt? And how many times did you come to my dorm to cry about him after he told you to get the fuck out of his life?"

Taehyung sniffled.

"You never learn," Jimin said.

"He looked dead today. I can't imagine how much he's suffering right now" Taehyung let out a sob.

"And you look like you've died thrice and reincarnated twice on the same day. You haven't gotten any sleep in two days. Believe me, you look worse than him. I can't believe the way you still pity that jerk"

"He isn't a jerk Jimin! I was being a dick to him!"

"How is choosing yourself over him being a jerk to him? Dude, have some self-respect. Because all I've seen is you throwing it out of the window every time you got back together with him"

Taehyung sniffled. "I told him to leave"

"Didn't he tell you that a couple of times?"

"B-But he looked so broken"

"Oh my fucking god I can murder someone with the rage I'm feeling right now. I get that you still love him but why can't you fucking get that what he's going through is what you went through multiple times after he told you to fuck off?"

Taehyung sighed and took another sip from his can. "I know, okay? It's exactly why I broke up with him. It just hurts to see him like this. And I left him when he was at his worst. I should stay with him when he's going through so much"

"Tae, look. If he can choose to have his child in his life, you can choose to leave him to pursue your dreams. Both things are not related to the relationship per se, you know? Because it's not your place to tell him to abandon his child nor is it his place to tell you not to go to your dream college"

Taehyung nodded, tears brimming his eyes.

"It's nothing to feel bad about, Tae," Jimin said, "It's your life. Your dreams, which you had long before he came into your life. You don't have to pause your life for anyone"

Taehyung wiped the tears that ran down his cheeks.

"If someone in your life makes you feel bad about pursuing your dreams and they stand in the way, they don't belong in your life"

"I don’t think he doesn’t want me to pursue my dreams. He just doesn’t want me to leave him and I don’t either! But I can’t have both and it’s the best for both of us, I think. It’s not like I’m not hurting over here because of the decision I took regarding myself" Taehyung whispered. 

"If Namjoon ever treated me like a second priority in his life, I would leave him instantly. Because I know my worth. I deserve to have someone who doesn't make me question my worth every time they throw me away. And I deserve to be treated like a main character"

"Period" Taehyung whispered as he wiped his tears.

"You've asked him so many times to not treat you like some toy but for more than half of the time you guys have known each other, he has treated you like a burden. Like some external force he wanted to keep but also would destroy his precious family. He only ever thought about divorce after he found out Aria wasn't his and that speaks a lot"

"And that never mattered because she's still his daughter. It changed nothing"

"Exactly" Jimin sighed. "And he came crying to you like a day after he told you to get the fuck out of his life. You should've held your ground. You aren't a rehab for broken men. You have no self-respect and it shows. Because after everything, you were there to welcome him with wide arms. Stupid bitch"

"I'm sorry, okay? I just love him so much. And I feel like I did the right thing now, after all this time. But I still love him and I feel so bad. It's just that... it didn't happen all of a sudden you know?"

"What?"

"I had been thinking about everything for the past week. Since I found out that the baby is actually Jeongguk's. It's selfish of me because I know he's trying but I just kept feeling like the chances of him leaving me again are higher than it used to be because of the new baby"

"That's right, though. It's his kid so who knows what would happen in the future? And he is going to prioritize the kid over you obviously. Even if he does split parenting. Like...that's his blood. And you..."

"Yeah exactly. And I lost it when he asked if I was okay with him not getting a divorce. Because that's just ridiculous. And I got so mad, Jimin. Because that had been the only thing I had been looking forward to so he could finally be mine. And he said that it could affect our future and it was something I hadn't thought about at all"

"Yeah"

"So when he told me that it would even affect my future I kind of lost it. And what if he loses his job? He can't afford to lose his job especially when he's going to have another child. And I started having second thoughts the moment he told me the consequences. It only added to what I was thinking about the previous week"

Taehyung took another sip off his can. "When I got the email it was the turning point for me. it was like the solution for everything but...just not in the way I wanted" Taehyung started sobbing. “And I told him I didn’t think long distance would work”

Jimin patted his back with a sigh.

"Which isn't true because I would want nothing more than to be with him and forget everything"

"Tae..."

"But I also want to go to Art Academy and it felt like a huge opportunity to leave everything and start anew"

"I know, Tae"

“It’s not like I want to leave him. But I just thought that I would continue to get hurt if I kept staying with him. It hurt me so much when he asked me if it was okay with me if he stays in the marriage. And his reasoning was my future. But I’ve seen this happen before. It’s like a never-ending cycle and he can decide to leave me if something goes sideways in his family like he always did”

“If he really wanted to choose you for once and not be unreasonable, he would have decided to go with you to New York”

“Yeah I wouldn’t mind that. I wish he would. But I just don’t want to have a long distance relationship when he’s still stuck with that family of his. And he needs to get his shit together. He keeps doing things for people around him and nothing for himself! And he’s just depending on other people for his basic needs. He needs to fix himself without any attachment with anyone”

Jimin nodded.

"And it's like he doesn't know himself outside of the roles he has played in his life. Like a father, husband, and now a boyfriend. I had been thinking about all these things over the past week and about the things you told me. And I figured out that more than me, he needs time to heal alone"

"Yeah he does"

“You made a mature decision. And as I said before, if he really wanted to be with you, he could’ve gone to New York with you. And you said he has an opportunity to find a job there because of Professor Seokjin. So he can come with you. Both of you have a future there. Both of you have balanced odds right now because whatever decision either of you take, it would result in losing one thing. So it’s this or that. But if he decides to stay behind with his family, why do you have to give up on your future?”

“You’re right. He has the choice to come with me but I know he wouldn't do that because of Aria. His family to him is like my future to me. I can choose my future the way he chose his family”

“Exactly”

"I told him he needs to make efforts for me but all the efforts he had been making for me, like getting a divorce and making our relationship stable are things he should be doing for himself, you know? Because his whole life he was trapped in a marriage he never wanted and he should be getting out of it because he's suffering. Not because of me. He needs to get out of this mess for himself"

"That's true"

"But I decided to leave him for myself because I don't think I can go through another heartbreak"

Jimin sighed. "There had been a ton of red flags in this relationship since the beginning. You ignored it all, Tae. He may be a good person and his intentions towards you might have been genuine. He loves you. But everything about the relationship was wrong. I think we all knew this was going nowhere but still didn't speak of it. I feel like it brought you both more sadness and damage than happiness. You two fucked up each other's lives. The best thing you can do right now is take a break and let yourselves heal alone. You both need it. You both need to get back on track"

"Yeah" Taehyung whispered. His heart ached but the truth was bitter. And harder to swallow than all the lies he had been feeding himself throughout his relationship with Jeongguk. The lie that he was okay with being the second person to come to Jeongguk’s mind. The second priority. The second choice. The burden. The person Jeongguk wants but doesn’t want to have in his life at the same time.

“Tae, it’s like this,” Jimin said, making Taehyung look at him. “Jeongguk had lived with Jieun and Aria for sixteen years. He prioritized Aria and Jieun because of that. He never stopped to think about what would make him happy. So it’s instinctual that he does the same thing when he’s with you” 

“Yeah”

“I mean I understand why he did what he did but I’m just mad at him because he hurt you. You didn’t deserve to get hurt”

Taehyung sniffled. 

“But an understanding isn’t always a justification. You can understand why someone did what they did but that doesn’t make it suddenly okay. What’s done is done and the effect of it is still there”

“Yeah”

“You can understand the reason behind Jeongguk’s actions but that doesn’t mean any of the things he did to you are okay. Nor does it invalidate what you felt when he did those things”

Taehyung nodded. “I understand that. The reason I decided to take a break is because I don’t want to be hurt like that again. I understand that he was being selfless and he kept sacrificing himself for his family. And I know that it doesn’t mean he loves me any less. But I feel like he only stopped to think about his family and not me. He never paid attention to how all the things that he was doing would hurt me”

Jimin nodded.

“I tried to understand him and I wanted this relationship to work so badly. But he still just keeps choosing his family’s happiness over me and it makes me feel like I don’t matter at all. As if he’s taking me for granted or something. I know it’s hard for him but '' Taehyung wiped his tears and let out a sob. “I just keep getting hurt. I don’t want to get hurt. And I don’t know if it’s selfish of me but I just don’t want to be hurt anymore. I get hurt because I expect him to give me some value and treat me like I’m important but every time he chooses his family over me it makes me feel like I don’t matter at all. It hurts me so much”

Jimin wrapped his arms around Taehyung. “I know, Tae. I know he loves you. But it’s not selfish to choose yourself. To choose your future. It’s essential. It’s the basic necessity”

Taehyung let out loud sobs in Jimin’s arms. 

"You deserve someone who would treat you like a king. And he needs time alone to figure out who he is and what he wants. You need to go live that life you've dreamt. Don't let anyone make you pause your life for them. No one is willing to do that for you"


A week later, Taehyung found himself in front of Jeongguk's front porch, ringing the doorbell.

A few moments later Taehyung heard the rhythmic tap of footsteps closing up on the door and his heart beat erratically in his chest as he stood there, fumbling with his fingers. Myriad times had he stood on this very front porch and myriad times had he rung the bell and waited for someone to open it. But never had he felt this anxious.

The door clicked and opened, revealing a tall man dressed in sweats and a t-shirt.

"Hey" Jeongguk whispered. "Come on in"

"Hey" Taehyung smiled at him and stepped inside the house. He heard Jeongguk close the door behind him.

Taehyung stood awkwardly in the middle of the living room, looking around the house. It had been almost a month since he had come inside this house. And nothing seemed to have changed. He missed the time he spent here, sneaking in and out, talking with Jeongguk, discreetly touching each other, giggling at their stupid jokes, and constantly exchanging secretive glances and smiles, hiding a million lies and truths behind. Hiding the things they did when no one was looking. He missed all of it.

He missed Jeongguk.

They were playing a dangerous game. And their house of cards had stumbled down, taking everything they've built with it.

Jeongguk stood behind Taehyung. He could feel his presence. He longed to touch him. Feel his skin. Feel his warmth. Feel his-

"Aria probably won't be back for another hour. And Jieun won't be home until dinner. We have time" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung turned around to face Jeongguk. "Okay" He whispered.

Jeongguk stared at him, eyes tired and holding a look of longing. A silence stretched between them. Until both of them decided to speak at the same time.

"I missed you"

"I'm leaving"

"Oh" Jeongguk said, blushing instantly. Taehyung felt his heart break.

"I missed you too," Taehyung said, taking a step towards Jeongguk.

Jeongguk nodded. He looked like he didn't know what to say.

"I've decided that I want to go," Taehyung said, breaking the silence between them. "My mom and all my friends told me I should go. And the campus is willing to give me a refund of this semester's money since it has barely been two weeks. My mom told me she could afford to pay the tuition and I could find a job too"

Jeongguk nodded. "Yeah that's good. You don't have a reason not to go"

"Jeongguk I really don't want to leave you but..."

"I get it, Tae," Jeongguk said, looking at him with hooded eyes. "I know you love me and I know you want to be with me. It's alright. This is your future we’re talking about"

"I'm sorry"

Jeongguk shook his head. "Don't be. It's just...I don't want you to leave me. And I really thought we could stay together and I...you're my only happiness. I don't know what to do without you" Jeongguk shook his head. "I'm not trying to guilt-trip you. I'm sorry. I mean... your decision is right. If I were you, I'd leave me too. I wouldn't stay in a place I'm not treated less than what I'm worth. And you’re right. I still want to give priority to Aria and I too don’t want you to get hurt by me like this”

Taehyung sighed. "I always told you not to leave me. And you did. Multiple times. But now I'm leaving you so I won't have to go through it again when you leave me someday"

Jeongguk stayed silent for a while. And then he let out a soft whisper. "But I'm not going to leave you"

"But isn't that what you said all those times? And you still left me, told me fuck off even after you knew I had feelings for you. It'll only be a matter of time until you say that again when something comes up with your family. And I just can't go through that again"

"But I love you"

"I love you too but I love myself a little more. And I don't want to get hurt when the possibility of me getting hurt again is like the elephant in the room. Because all this time we've spent together you've never hesitated on discarding me out of your life when it comes to your family's stability. And throughout our relationship, all I've been is a mistress. Even when we were in love. So I'm stepping out of this relationship first"

"I understand you but things are a lot different now, Tae. I treated you like that when we weren't in love with each other. A lot of things have changed now. And I want to be with you now. You're one of the most important people in my life, Tae"

"I know but you did tell me to leave you even after we confessed to each other? I don't understand why you didn't tell me not to leave you that moment because it's not like finding out your daughter isn't yours changed anything. You could've taken the decision to divorce her earlier if you really wanted to be with me but you didn't. And the responsibilities on your shoulders had only gotten heavier"

Jeongguk shook his head, eyes brimming tears. "I was just scared of ruining Aria's life. I didn't want her to find out that I'm so fucked up as a father"

Taehyung placed his hand on Jeongguk's shoulder. "You are a good father. But you're more than just a father, Gguk. You're you and I don't think you know that yet. You need to find out who you are"

Jeongguk looked at Taehyung with glassy eyes. "Can't we find out who I am together?"

"We can”

Jeongguk looked up at that.

“Come with me to New York”

Jeongguk stared at Taehyung for a few long seconds. Then he let out a sigh.

"I...can't"

“I figured. I’m going to New York. I’m going to chase my dreams. I’m choosing that for myself. My future is my responsibility The same way your family is your responsibility”

“I know. And I’m proud of you for being brave. I want you to chase your dreams too, Tae. I love you, after all. And I want the best for you”

Taehyung nodded. "You know...me going to New York...it really isn't something to think twice about. It's every art student's dream. But I keep thinking twice because of you. Because I love you and I want to be with you. I don't want to leave you right now. I really don't, Jeongguk. Not when you're going through all this and you're at your worst. I'm scared of the consequences of me leaving you. But I also want to go to New York. Since I want to live my dream. It has been my dream since I was like ten. And deep down I wish you'd come with me, even though I know we need time apart"

Jeongguk sighed. "I can't come with you. I talked to my lawyer after we broke up that day. He said that Jieun is right but the chances of our relationship getting exposed is rare. Especially your name. Jieun's lawyer could find out about you and decide to use you against me. And it would really be better if Jieun would decide to settle so none of this would happen. Until all of this settles down, and I take my divorce I would have to stay here, Tae"

Taehyung nodded. "Okay"

"I decided that I want to stay with Aria over here until she goes to college. I felt like it would be the best for her too. It’s not because of Jieun. I want it too. She’s my daughter and I want to be with her in the last two years of her life, of which she will be around us. So I can’t come with you to New York, even if I wanted to. I promised Jieun that I would do split parenting after the divorce too so... I'm sorry"

"I didn't really expect you to so...it's alright. I know you can't choose me over your family"

"They're still my children. I can't abandon them. But I love you, Tae. You're the love of my life. You know that, right?"

Taehyung sniffled. "Yeah. You're the love of my life too"

Jeongguk cupped Taehyung's face. "Don't cry now. You look adorable when you cry. Makes me want to kiss you"

"Then kiss me"

Taehyung raised his gaze to meet Jeongguk's glassy eyes, shining under the electric bulbs of the living room. He felt Jeongguk lean in; his lips lingered over his own as if the older man was hesitating. So Taehyung closed the gap between them.

Jeongguk's lips were hot but soft against Taehyung's cold ones. Taehyung pressed further, eager to taste Jeongguk at least once more. Before he leaves next Monday.

Jeongguk pressed his tongue against Taehyung's and the younger boy opened his mouth to let him in. Jeongguk tilted his head, kissing him deeper, and his tongue wildly exploring Taehyung's mouth. Jeongguk's hands were on Taehyung's hips, pulling him closer to himself, their clothed bodies pressed together. He could feel Jeongguk's-

Taehyung moaned.

Jeongguk drew away, eyes wide with surprise.

Taehyung blushed scarlet. "I...I...You're hard"

"So are you!"

Taehyung grinned.

Jeongguk grinned back, an adorable blush covering his cheeks.

"Do we have time for one last time?" Taehyung asked.

Jeongguk's smile faltered. "That hurts but yeah..."

"Fuck me on the kitchen counter then" Taehyung said, eyeing the kitchen.

Jeongguk grinned. "Fuck yeah" he pulled Taehyung towards himself and connected their lips in a hungry kiss. Taehyung pulled at his hair and was about to feel his cock up when the doorbell rang.

"Fuck" Jeongguk cursed in annoyance. "Who could it be at this time?"

Jeongguk walked towards the door and opened it. Taehyung walked towards the living room, so he wouldn't be seen. He could hear Jeongguk talking with someone outside. In a few moments, Jeongguk was walking towards Taehyung.

"It's the neighbor...she needs help with something. I'll be back in a few minutes. Take a seat, will you?"

"Yeah sure," Taehyung said, nodding. Taehyung sat down on a couch, looking around the living room as he waited. A few minutes later he heard the front door open again and Taehyung stood up, hoping that Jeongguk was back so they could continue where they left off.

But it wasn't who he wanted to see. His blood ran cold upon seeing who it was.

Aria Jeon.

The moment Aria saw Taehyung, her eyes widened, a look of disbelief portraying her face. Then her expression turned into one of anger.

"What the fuck are you doing in my house?"

"None of your business" Taehyung snapped. He had hoped he would never get to see Aria ever again. He hated her, especially after what she had done to him.

"Get the fuck out. You whore" Aria shouted.

Taehyung's eyes widened. "Your dad took me in. I'll leave when he tells me to"

Aria scoffed. "Came to scrape off some money from him, did you?"

"No I actually came here to fuck him" Taehyung flashed her a fake smile.

Aria's mouth fell. "How dare you! My father is married! He's my father! You're disgusting"

And I'm your half-brother

"It actually did cross my mind every time we fucked. I just thought it was really hot and badass that I was fucking my girlfriend's father. Kinky, right?"

Aria gasped. "You whore"

Taehyung smirked. Serves her right.

But he didn't see it coming. He saw a flash of skin and then a slap echoed through the house. Taehyung's right cheek was burning.

The fact that Aria had slapped him dawned on him and he saw red. "You bitch-"

Before Taehyung could sputter a string of curses, the front door opened again, and in came Jeongguk. He paused in the hallway, taking in the scene before him.

"What the hell is going on here?" Jeongguk asked.

"Dad, why is he here?" Aria asked.

"She slapped me!" Taehyung said.

"Why did you slap him?" Jeongguk asked Aria.

Aria scoffed. "He was saying disgusting things. And he's a whore"

"Aria shut up" Jeongguk's tone was annoyed. "Why are you back so early? You said you would be late"

"I can't come home when I want to, now? Were you going to fuck him when me and mom were away? Is that why you have him over?"

"Aria shut up" Jeongguk thundered.

"Didn't I already tell you? He was just about to fuck me. If you came in five minutes later, you could've enjoyed the show too" Taehyung smiled.

"Tae!" Jeongguk's face was red with anger. And this time it wasn't only directed at Aria.

"Both of you shut up. Aria, go to your room. Tae, come outside with me" Jeongguk said.

Taehyung scoffed, looking at Jeongguk. "Yeah, I was just leaving. See you never" Taehyung said to Aria and started to walk out.

"Tae, stop. I still need to talk to you" Jeongguk took hold of Taehyung's arm right before he reached the front door.

"Get out of our house and don't ever come back. You home wrecking whore" Aria shouted.

Taehyung paused.

His anger rose and he could feel himself losing his self-control by the second. He would not tolerate such insults from the person who almost raped him.

So he turned around, anger burning behind his eyelids. He shook off Jeongguk's hold off his arm and walked towards Aria.

"Listen here you rapist pussy ass bitch" Taehyung thundered.

Aria's eyes widened.

"Yeah, I fucked your dad. What are you going to do about it, huh? Cry about it? Stupid bitch. I'll fuck your mom if I want to. If your dad marries me I'll become your fucking stepdad and ground your ass for weeks"

Taehyung saw Aria tearing up and he walked towards Jeongguk, who looked speechless.

"You're the only whore in here. The whore who doesn’t even know basic consent. The desperate bitch who was begging for my dick" Taehyung said to her.

He marched to Jeongguk, wrapped his hand around the older man's throat, and slammed his lips against Jeongguk’s.

Jeongguk squeaked in surprise but couldn't pull away because of Taehyung's grip on his neck. Taehyung opened his mouth and for a split second, so did Jeongguk, letting Taehyung thrash his tongue into his mouth, kissing him deeper and harder.

Taehyung really wouldn't mind getting fucked by Jeongguk right then and there, in front of Aria just to leave her traumatized the way she left him.

The thought lingered on his mind for longer than it should've and Taehyung was so lost in the kiss that neither of them heard the front door opening.

Someone gasped.

Taehyung pulled away in an instant, his whole body burning with embarrassment upon seeing who stood by the entrance of the house, face portraying absolute horror.

Taehyung took a step back. He didn't know what to say or do other than hide his face.

"What the hell is going on here?!" Jieun screamed. She was shooting daggers at Taehyung with her eyes.

"Jieun..." Jeongguk said, stepping in front of Taehyung and hiding him behind himself.

"Jeongguk what is this? How dare you let him into our house?!"

"He just came here to talk with me," Jeongguk said. He sounded calm but his ears and face were red. "He was just leaving"

"I..." Jieun still looked traumatized. "Get out of my house," Jieun told Taehyung.

"I'm sorry, ma'am" Taehyung stuttered out.

"Let's go" Jeongguk said, taking Taehyung's hand in his and starting to walk towards the front door.

"You're such an ungrateful person, do you know?" Jieun said just as Taehyung started to walk, making him halt in his steps.

Taehyung raised his gaze towards hers.

"I let you stay here for months and fed you and this is how you repay my kindness? By fucking my husband?'

"Jieun please..." Jeongguk tried.

"I never thought you were such a...disgusting person"

Taehyung stayed silent.

"It's not his fault, Jieun. I brought him here and I...was having an affair with him before I brought him to our house. I know it was wrong of me to do that but I only let him stay here because he didn't have anywhere else to go"

Jieun scoffed. "He's still a homewrecker"

"Ma'am" Taehyung said. "I'm sorry but don't act like you didn't destroy Jeongguk's whole life"

Jieun's eyes widened. "W-what?!"

"You can't really blame him. He was just trying to get back what he missed in his younger days. The very thing you deprived him of. And you can't really blame me for giving it to him. He deserved someone who knows how to fuck him good"

"You-"

"You're just as evil as he is...if not more" Taehyung said and dragged Jeongguk out of the house, leaving Jieun burning with anger.

Jeongguk followed him outside and the moment the door closed behind him, the younger boy pushed the older man against the wall and kissed him.

Jeongguk kissed back eagerly, grinning into the kiss. When they pulled away, both of them were smiling like fools.

"Wow that was...wow" Jeongguk said, doe eyes glinting.

"I'm not sorry"

"Jieun deserved it" Jeongguk whispered. "I'm not happy with what you said to Aria though. But she deserved it for what she did to you"

"No wonder she's not your daughter"

Jeongguk chuckled. "God, I love you so much. I love that spice and sass you have"

Taehyung grinned. "I love you too daddy"

Jeongguk bit his lip. "Wish you could call me what while I fuck you"

Taehyung's smile faltered. "I'm leaving next Monday. And I won't be coming to classes because I already applied for resignation. The interviews are starting in two weeks so I'll be staying with my mom until then...I haven't met her in ages so I can't wait to meet her"

"Did you find a good place to stay when you enrolled?"

"Not yet. But my mom said we could find one when I arrive in New York. I'm really excited, Jeongguk. This is a dream come true"

Jeongguk smiled, but there was sadness glinting in his eyes as he reached out to touch Taehyung's cheek. "I'm happy for you. I really am. And I'm so fucking proud of you for getting selected. And I'm so proud of you for taking this decision to leave me. Because I know it's not easy. It must've taken a lot of strength. I could've never been that strong"

"I don't want to leave you but I want to-"

"I know, baby. I know. And it's alright. I thought about the things you told me and you're right. I need to get that divorce and find myself all over again. We both need to grow. I don't want to let you go but I'm sure I will be fine as long as you are"

"Jeongguk..."

"I'll try to be happy as long as you are. So be happy in New York for me, hmm?"

Taehyung nodded, tears cascading down his cheeks. Jeongguk smiled sadly at him. He wiped away Taehyung's tears with the pads of his thumb.

"Maybe..." Taehyung sniffled. "Maybe our paths will cross in the future and if it does, we would have become so much different from who we are today. Let's grow and mature separately, independently so maybe if we meet in the future, we would be able to maintain a healthy relationship in a healthy background"

Jeongguk smiled. "Of course. We would've become different people in the future. I hope to meet you again"

Taehyung smiled and cupped Jeongguk's face.

"I really wanted to go with you and I would've...maybe if I wasn't going to have another child"

Taehyung nodded. "I understand you"

"I love you, Taehyung. And I always will"

"I love you too" Taehyung smiled at him, tears brimming his eyes. He planted a quick kiss atop Jeongguk's lips and turned around, walking away from Jeongguk as tears cascaded down his cheeks.

He didn't dare look back once.


"Oh I'm going to miss you, my child! You were one of the most peaceful kids who had stayed here" Mrs. Hooper said as she squeezed Taehyung in a bear hug.

"I will miss you too, Mrs. Hooper. Thank you for treating me so well. I can never repay you enough" Taehyung said as he pecked the older woman's forehead. She smelled like cookies, like she always did. And as much as Taehyung didn't want to admit, he would miss her love and care.

The old woman finally drew away and Taehyung smiled at her. The day had finally come. The day he was leaving for New York. His flight was in five hours. His friends were coming to pick him up and drive him to the airport so they could bid goodbye to each other one last time.

"You know Mrs. Hooper..." Taehyung said as he walked towards the front door with his suitcases. "That guy I had over...my friend...he was my boyfriend"

"Jeongguk? Oh, I knew that! I knew the moment he started telling me about you. The way he looked at you. He was surely in love with you. It was so obvious"

"Oh" Taehyung said, surprised. "I didn't think..."

"Well I've lived eighty years on this earth and I've seen my fair share of people. That's enough to read someone in and out"

"You weren't mad that I was having him over?"

"No! Of course not. He was a sweet man. And you guys didn't make much noise. I had two girls stay here last year and they were so loud in the night time if you know what I mean"

Taehyung blushed. "We...I'm sorry for not telling you earlier"

"You must've thought I was not supportive. But I am. I just don't care, darling. Now go on about your way before you get late. Safe tra