Jimin was making pancakes in the kitchen and I was just sitting there on the couch looking at him. He was different, different from all the other people around me. He wasn't interested in any of the things that usually the people of our age are interested in. I hadn't talked to him properly yet so we didn't know anything about each other but still sometimes I felt that he was similar to me.
I stood up and walked into the kitchen. Jimin was mixing the batter and he was unaware of my presence. His back was facing me. He was looking so fragile and soft standing there. Sometimes I really wondered where he got that attitude of his but I wasn't complaining because it was one of the things that made him different. He always tried to look strong but I felt that deep down he was different from how he pretends. He was sensitive but he didn't want to show it to anyone. There was something that made me want to know more about him.
It was the first time when I was thinking about someone in that way. Usually, when I was attracted to someone it was just physical but with Jimin...I still couldn't understand what was it but it was making me want to be with him even if it was just us talking to each other or me just sitting there looking at him without saying anything.
I was lost in my thoughts when he turned after making the pancakes and looked at me.
"You were so hungry that you couldn't even wait in the room?" he asked with a smile.
I looked at him while he was walking closer to me with pancakes in his both hands. His hands were so small but I wasn't surprised, they matched his appearance perfectly.
"I want more honey on my pancake," I said with a smile while he was placing the plates on the table.
"It's in the kitchen. Go and get it yourself. I'm already tired," he replied while handing over the plate to me.
I took the plate from his hand and went into the kitchen to get more honey. When I came back he had already started eating. His pancake had a lot of chocolate on it and he was eating it like a kid.
"You usually eat like this or it is just today?" I asked with a chuckle when I saw that there was chocolate all around his lips.
"You're talking about the chocolate on my face right?" he asked while stopping for a moment before taking the next bite.
"Well, yes I do eat like this but then I wash my face again before going out," he said and I looked at him with a smile again before starting to eat my breakfast.
"Let's just finish it quickly or we'll get late," I said while looking at my wristwatch.
He quickly got up from the couch and went to his bedroom to get his bag. When he came back his face was washed and then we went out of the apartment.
I was driving the car and Jimin was busy looking out of the window.
"You live here alone right?" I asked trying to break the silence between us because we were sitting quietly through the whole ride.
"Yes I live alone," he replied still looking out of the window.
"Where is your family?" I asked while focusing on the road as it was still raining heavily and I was driving carefully.
"They live in Busan."
"So you're here for studies?" I asked while looking at him as the road was not busy that busy here.
"No," he replied and his body tensed a little.
I felt that he was not comfortable with this topic so I decided not to talk about it any further.
"I live with my hyung. Our parents are not with us anymore so it's just the two of us. Hyung takes care of me a lot," I said with a smile at which Jimin smiled back.
"You're lucky to have someone to take care of you," he replied now getting more engaged in our talk, "many people don't even have that one person in their life."
"Yes, you're right. You know, I was really sad and heartbroken when our father died. He was really the best father in the world. He made me the person I'm today. He was always there to give me support and courage. He taught me how to deal with the world. I was just thirteen when he died but I'm happy that hyung was there for me. He helped me a lot through that time. He tries to do everything father used to do for me."
"I want to meet your hyung someday. He sounds like a good person," Jimin replied now looking at me.
"Of course, he is my hyung he must be a good person," I said in an isn't-it-too-obvious tone while shrugging my shoulders.
Jimin just chuckled and gave me an i-am-so-done-with-you look and with a smile plastered on his face and right then we reached the school.
It was the first time when I talked to someone like that. I never told anyone how I felt when my father died or how much I grateful I was to hyung for always being there for me. I was actually feeling good after talking to someone. I was never an expressive person. I was very bad at conveying my emotions and thoughts to others. Or was it because there was no one to listen to me before? Or was it because I never wanted to be vulnerable in front of anyone?
We got out of the car and ran into the school trying not to get soaked in the rain. When we entered the class Hyunjin was sitting on the seat next to Jimin's. I clenched my jaw as I had the idea what he was trying to do.
Jimin looked at him and then looked back at me. He walked up to his seat and sat down avoiding Hyunjin.
"I want to talk to you Hyunjin come with me," I said while walking closer to his seat with gritted teeth.
"Is there something wrong?" he replied trying to act oblivious of everything.
"I said fucking come with me," I said trying not to punch him right across the face.
He stood up from his seat and walked out of the class with me. We went to the locker room trying to avoid talking in front of everyone.
"Stay away from him," I said in a low voice trying to control my anger.
"From whom? Park Jimin? Why? Is he your boyfriend Jungkook?" Hyunjin asked with a smirk.
"I said stay away from him or else you know what I can do with you."
"You're really in love with that boy. Are not you?" Hyunjin asked with a dark chuckle.
I just glared at him without having any idea what I should say because I didn't know if he was right.
"So the great Jeon Jungkook finally fell in love with someone. As long as I remember you were the one who used to say that love is weakness and now look at yourself, it's hurting you when I'm just going to sit with him. It is irritating you even when I really didn't even do anything with him yet," Hyunjin said in a mocking tone.
"Shut up, Hyunjin. Who said that I love him? Shut up or I'll fucking kill you," I said while clenching my hand in a fist.
"You're a person who just craves strength and power. I can't believe you're really doing all this for him. You once told me that you want to be like your father and he was the man who put all those stupid things behind for becoming the person he was and you're putting a boy first you're really making him your weakness Jungkook. He is becoming the priority of your life now."
I couldn't listen to his bullshit anymore so I punched Hyunjin right across the face when I couldn't control my anger any further.
"Stay fucking away from the things that are mine," I said loudly almost like a growl and went out of the room angrily.
I walked back into the class and Jimin just looked at me with those innocent eyes of his.
"Are you okay, Jungkook?" he asked when I sat on the seat next to him.
Of course, my face would be red from anger that's was he was worried.
"Yes, I'm okay. Everything is fine," I replied with a heavy sigh and put my head in between my hands in frustration.
He stayed quiet and after a few minutes, Mr.Han entered the class to take his lecture.
I kept thinking about everything Hyunjin said to me in the locker room. Yes, he was right I was the one who used to say that love is weakness and I still believe in that. When you love someone you not only get hurt from the things that happen to you but also by the scars that your lover gets. Everything that happens to them affects you too. You've to feel for both of you. And that's why I believe that love does more bad than good. It hurts more than the happiness it brings. I couldn't do that to myself. I couldn't make anyone my weakness.
"So I told you yesterday that I'll make pairs of you guys for the assignments and projects," Mr.Han said while taking the board marker and started writing on the board.
"Jimin I'm pairing you up with Jungkook. I know he doesn't pay attention to me in the class at all so you have to help him in everything."
I looked at Jimin and he just smiled at me. His smile was enough to melt anyone's heart but I tried to avoid him and started writing on my notebook again.
"I don't have work today so you can come at 5 pm for the assignment. I rest before 5," he said while taking a book out of his bag.
"Okay," I replied in a low voice. I didn't want to do it but I was happy about being paired up with him for the assignment.
Jimin was making soup when the doorbell rang. He went to the door to open it. When he opened the door Jungkook was standing there with his hair disheveled in all directions. He was looking funny but cute.
"What happened to your hair?" Jimin asked while walking with Jungkook to the living room after locking the door.
"I overslept and woke up just a few minutes ago and rushed here quickly," Jungkook said while yawning.
"I wasn't going to kill you if you have wasted a few more minutes in brushing your hair or washing your face," Jimin said while laughing at how adorable Jungkook was looking.
Jimin walked closer to him and unconsciously lifted his hand to brush Jungkook's hair with his finger. When he touched it, Jungkook looked at him with a surprised expression on his face as he wasn't expecting Jimin to do that at all.
Jimin had looked at Jungkook this much closely for the first time. They kept looking into each other's eyes for a good minute and forgot to breathe. Their hearts started beating at a faster pace and none of them tried to break the close eye contact. But after a few minutes, Jimin got shy and averted his gaze somewhere else in the room while stepping back from Jungkook with a pink tint on his face.
"You can go to my room to brush your hair. You're looking funny," Jimin said with a light blush on his face.
Jungkook smiled awkwardly and went out of the room. Jimin mentally cursed himself and walked into the kitchen to check the soup.
After that Jungkook came back with his face washed and hair brushed properly. They started studying and Jimin kept scolding Jungkook for not paying attention to anything.
When they finished the assignment, both of them were exhausted. Jungkook was getting up to leave when Jimin stopped him.
"Wait here. I made soup. Let me get it quickly," Jimin said while standing up from the couch and walking towards the kitchen.
"You didn't put any poison in it right?" Jungkook said loudly with a smile.
"Oh my God. He knows about it. Change of plan," Jimin said trying to sound worried.
Jungkook just chuckled and rested his head on the back of the couch waiting for Jimin to come.
After a few minutes, Jimin came back into the room with two bowls in his hands. He handed over a bowl to Jungkook and sat with him on the couch.
They were busy finishing their soup when Jungkook saw a small picture on the side table. He picked it up and looked at it. It was Jimin's childhood photo. Jungkook cooed in adoration and showed it to Jimin.
"You were, even more, cuter when you were a kid," Jungkook said with a toothy smile.
"People used to say that I look like a girl because I look pretty here," Jimin said with a pout.
"I know you're a proper boy," Jungkook said with a playful smirk while placing the photo back to the side table.
"What do you mean by that?" Jimin asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I mean...I looked at you. No no I mean I saw you. I saw your...that...that day."
"What? What did you see?" Jimin said quickly being worried about what Jungkook wanted to say.
"I looked at your...that...the day when I had to take you home and you were sick. Your clothes were wet and you were so cold. I had to change your clothes because you were burning in fever," Jungkook said trying hard not to laugh at that funny expression on Jimin's face.
"Oh God and I didn't even notice that my clothes were changed," Jimin said with his eyes wide open.
"What else did you see?" Jimin asked being worried about the fading scars on his body. He was worried that Jungkook must have already seen them.
"And...I know that you are a bottom," Jungkook said with a mischievous smile.
"Why do you think that?" Jimin said while standing up from the couch.
"By the size of your....I know that you can't be a top," Jungkook said loving to tease Jimin like that.
Before Jungkook could say anything else, Jimin took a cushion from the couch and threw it at Jungkook's face but he caught it before it could touch hit him.
" I didn't know you're a pervert Jungkook," Jimin said while walking towards his bedroom but Jungkook noticed that Jimin was blushing a little.
Jungkook laughed and walked towards the door to leave. He didn't want to leave yet. He was there for about four hours as it was already nine but he still wanted to stay there a little more and talk to Jimin about anything but he had to go.
"Good night, Jimin," Jungkook loudly said while opening the door.
"Good night, pervert," Jimin replied from his bedroom on which Jungkook laughed again before going out.
"He's such a cutie. I'll eat him someday," Jungkook said almost like a whisper before sitting in the car and driving away to his mansion.