Sirius tapped his foot slowly against the dinner table as Kreacher served him breakfast.
Kreacher mumbled something about Sirius being an ungrateful brat. Sirius pretended not to hear. The house elf was always causing his problems, he was a snitch, he told Sirius’ parents every little thing he saw. Sirius hated him, he was the Black, Kreacher was just a stupid house elf. How dare he act as if he was above him?!
“Have you packed everything?” His mother said, sharply.
“Yes, mother.” Sirius looked down at his plate and picked at his buttered toast, it was dry, the butter had soaked into the bread and left the toast chewy.
“Right. Well. I’ve found your father’s old tie, it shouldn’t be too big but if-” Walburga started.
“You don’t know if I’ll be a Slytherin, mother.” Sirius clenched his jaw.
Walburga looked at him. Her eyes and her posture were threatening.
“Don’t interrupt me.” She snarled, “You will be a Slytherin. It is in the family’s blood. You will be placed in the best and correct house. Now stop being ungrateful. It is an honour for you to get your father’s old tie. It’s tradition.”
Sirius nodded and took a small bite of his toast. He wasn’t going to argue anymore, he knew what those threatening eyes meant. He felt the salty bread soak in the back of his throat and the slimy feeling butter filling his mouth with the taste of raw eggs.
“Kreacher!” His mother called. Kreacher popped up with a crack. “Take Sirius’ plate away. He clearly isn’t hungry.” She smiled evilly.
“May I be excused?” Sirius mumbled.
His mother flicked a hand his way to usher him off.
Sirius walked up the long back of wooden stairs to his room, closing the trunk as he pushed it off his bed and it landed on the floor with a thud.
He slumped down onto his bed and placed his head in his hands, sighing as he pressed his palms to his eyes. Only one more hour. One more hour and you’ll be on the train for Hogwarts. One more hour and you’ll be out of here. He thought to himself.
Sirius felt comfort in this. A voice in the back of his head telling him everything would be alright. But the rest of him knew he wasn’t really out of there. He would be back for the holidays, and if he was put into Slytherin it would be the same as at home. He knew the people would be moody gits like his parents and grandparents and aunts and great aunts - basically his whole family. He hoped maybe other 11 year olds would be like him in Slytherin. At least he wouldn’t have his mother’s evil black eyes following his every move. And the threats. And the beatings…
Sirius just didn’t understand. He didn’t know if other families were like this. He listened to his mother and father at dinner when they told him that the Blacks are in the Sacred 28. Their blood is pure, which makes them better than other wizards and witches. He listened to them when they taught him about muggleborns. How they shouldn’t be allowed at Hogwarts and how they’re weaker and less than purebloods. His father told him he was allowed to be acquaintances with half bloods only if they understood that they are less than him, and only if they were just acquaintances. He must only make friends with purebloods. His mother told him that it was awful that so many people with tainted blood and blood traitors were allowed in school.
Sirius listened, and pretended to care as they told him this. He understood the gist of it and he would be doing the exact opposite of whatever they tell him to do.
As they took the Floo to King’s Cross Station his mother made a face of disgust. Sirius almost laughed when he saw it. Her lips puffed out like a fish and her long nose wrinkling.
“It’s disgusting, being around all these muggles.” She commented with a forced shudder.
Sirius nodded. Regulus popped up behind their mother and looked around drowsily.
“Alright. You know what to do. Behave, Sirius.” His mother said sharply. “Goodbye. Son.”
Sirius gave her a kiss on the cheek and hugged Regulus. “You’ll be okay.” He whispered. He felt Regulus nod against his shoulder.
“Off you go.” Walburga said boredly.
Sirius rolled his eyes and ran towards the wall into Platform 9 ¾. He watched as the other parents kissed their children goodbye and had tears running down their cheeks. Sirius felt it a little dramatic. He walked around the train and found a compartment with only a boy with messy black hair, a muscular build, dark skin and glasses.
“Hello, I’m Sirius Black, nice to meet you. What’s your name?” Sirius said.
“James Potter, pleasure to meet you.” The boy replied.
“Would it be okay if I rode in here for the journey to Hogwarts?” asked Sirius.
“Oh, yes, I don’t mind.” James said.
As they talked, laughed, and got to know each other better, Sirius could tell that he and James would be good friends. Soon after, a girl with long, beautiful, red hair walked in along with a boy with greasy black hair and a large nose.
“Hullo, I’m Lily Evans, and this is my friend, Severus Snape. Would it be okay if we rode with you?” The redhead asked.
“Sure.” James and Sirius said together.
“Thanks.” Lily said shyly and sat down with them.
To break the silence, Sirius asked James, “So, what House do you hope to be in?”
“Gryffindor, where the brave dwell at the heart! Like my father.” James exclaimed.
James’ comment got a snort from Snape. James turned to him and said, “What’s so funny?”
Snape said haughtily to James, “Well, if you prefer to be brawns over brains and in Gryffindor rather than Slytherin, I guess that’s fine by me.”
“So where are you going to go, seeing as you’re neither?” James retorted.
“Come on, Severus, let’s go find another compartment.” Lily said quietly, but the compartment had grown so silent with tension that everyone heard her. She glared at James and Sirius, and then left the compartment with Snape not far behind.
“See ya, Snivellus!” Sirius snickered as Snape walked out.
“Wow, what a jerk!” Sirius said to James once Lily and Snape were out of earshot.
“Totally,” James agreed. After a moment he added, “But wasn’t that Lily girl kind of pretty?”
“Ooh, I think you’ve got your first crush!” Sirius teased James.
“You are so thick.” James said, though he was smiling.
“Oh, denial, now I truly know you like her!” Sirius said playfully.
Sirius and James chatted some more about Quidditch and what Hogwarts might look like.
“Hey, Peter, I was wonderin’....oh, I didn’t mean to intrude. I think my compartment is next door, sorry.” A boy with curly hair and a long silver scar down his warm face said as he slid the door open suddenly.
“Oh, no, it’s alright, if you would like to join us, that’s okay, right, Sirius?” asked James.
“Hmm? Oh, yes, it’s fine by me, I don’t care.” Sirius said rather dully. He looked the boy up and down. He was tall and had a slight slouch. He had muggle clothes on, loose faded jeans and a long sleeved t-shirt. Sirius wondered if he was a muggle-born.
“Well, now that you mention it, if you wouldn’ mind, it would be nice to meet new people. I’ll just go and get my friend, and then we’ll be right back.” He said with a slight twinkle in his eye. He had a thick welsh accent which made Sirius feel intrigued.
Sirius could tell the boy had been somewhat lonely in his childhood; he had a sad expression that he looked like he always wore, Sirius wondered if he wore the same expression. He wasn’t lonely in his childhood, he had Regulus, but he certainly didn’t have any friends. His childhood was filled with meeting dull family members and long chats with his mother and father about what he’d done wrong this time.
The boy came back with Peter and made introductions. Peter had a pale face and chubby cheeks which flushed when he smiled. He was wearing wizard robes.
“Are you a muggle born?” Sirius asked Remus sharply.
Remus creased his brow, “Do you have a problem with that?”
Sirius’ eyebrows shot up. “Oh- oh no. I don’t have a problem. With that.” He stuttered.
Remus raised his brow in question. “No. I’m a half-blood. Not that it matters. I grew up in a muggle household though. My dad stopped liking magic after-” Remus stopped and looked down at the floor. He clears his throat “Um… he doesn’t like magic anymore. So we started doing things the muggle way. I basically have the same amount of knowledge as muggle borns apart from a couple things I’ve managed to get outta him.”
Sirius nodded. “What about you?” Sirius asked Peter.
“Oh. I'm a pureblood. My last name is Pettigrew.” Peter said quietly.
Sirius raked his brain for the name Pettigrew. Not in the Sacred 28, but still pure.
“I'm a pureblood.” James said slowly.
Sirius rolled his eyes. He knew the Potters of course, they were the richest pure bloods in India before they moved. They were also not in the Sacred 28 but they were well known throughout the wizarding world. He remembered his mother telling him that they were blood traitors, but Sirius didn’t care.
“What are you then?” Remus asked bluntly.
Sirius almost kicked him. He was a Black, everyone knew the Blacks. He then remembered he’d only told Remus his first name.
“Oh, my last name is Black.” He smiled softly while waiting for Remus to understand.
Remus raised an eyebrow, “Okay? Are you a pureblood or what?” He said with annoyance.
“I’m a Black. Everyone knows the Blacks. We’re in the Sacred 28. Of course we’re pure.” Sirius said angrily.
“Hmm. Personally I’ve never cared for that rubbish. Pure this and pure that. It’s a load of bullshit if you ask me.” Remus smirked.
James and Peter gasped at the swear word. Remus grinned more.
“Posh twats.” He laughed. Sirius grinned at that, but quickly tried to look angry again.
“He’s right, y'know. We’re no better than the rest of them just because we’re purebloods.” James shrugged.
Peter nodded in agreement.
Sirius looked at them and bit his lip. “Well, I suppose you’re right.”
The rest of the journey was spent with them teasing and laughing together. As they got off the train and were taken to the boats to cross the river. Sirius and James sat behind Remus and Peter, who were the first to run to the front.
He looked at the night sky and lake in awe. Listening as the other students whispered to their friends about the beauty of the castle looking building they were approaching.
As they were dragged into the Great Hall and walked in a line, Sirius watched as the first years started getting sorted.
“James Potter.” McGonagall’s voice called. James went up to the stand and sat on the bench. Before the hat has even properly sat on his head, only touching his messy black hair, the hat boomed, “Gryffindor!”
Sirius smiled as James grinned joyfully and walked over to the Gryffindor table.
A few more names, and then “Peter Pettigrew” was called. Peter rushed up nervously and sat on the bench.
After around 3 minutes, a long time, the hat finally shouted, “Gryffindor!”
As the cheers erupted Sirius felt a pang in his chest. He really hoped he would be with at least one of his friends, maybe Remus would get into Slytherin. Sirius hoped Remus wouldn’t be in Gryffindor, there would be more chance of being with him if he was in any of the other houses. Sirius really didn’t want to be in Slytherin, but he knew that Gryffindor was the polar opposite of Slytherin, and he still had some Black blood after all.
As Remus was called up to the stand Sirius crossed his fingers behind his back.
He watched as Remus’ face paled slightly at the hat’s words. Sirius creased his brow, maybe he wasn’t going to be put with his frien-
“Gryffindor!” The hat boomed. Remus smiled slightly, his face still a little pale. He walked quickly over towards the table and sat next to James who was talking to a blushing Lily.
Severus Snape was called. He was put into Slytherin, Sirius wondered if he always had a permanent scowl on his face.
“Sirius Black.” Professor McGonagall called.
Sirius walked up to the stand while hearing a few murmurs from the crowd.
“Ah. Another Black. What shall we do with you, eh?” The hat said.
“Gryffindor.” Sirius thought.
“Gryffindor?! I never thought I’d hear a Black say that. I suppose you don’t really fit Slytherin. Not very cunning, are you? Impulsive. Hm… perhaps you would fit hufflepuff. Although I still feel you’re a little too… impolite there. Perhaps Ravenclaw, yes. You would do well in Ravenclaw. Very smart. Although perhaps you don’t have quite the thirst for knowledge there. Ah, I suppose it will have to be…”
“Gryffindor!” The hat shouted.
The Hall went silent, murmurs fill the tense air. McGonagall took the hat off reluctantly and smiled softly in an act of encouragement to Sirius. Sirius rushed over to the Gryffindor table and sat next to Peter, opposite James and Remus. He placed his head in his hands and groaned quietly.
“You’ll be fine, mate.” James smiled.
“Sirius Black, is it?” Lily said, “I’ve read about your family.” She said wearily.
Sirius just groaned again, “They’re gonna kill me.”
Peter patted him on the back, “Don’t worry about it. Just enjoy your meal for now.”
The sorting ceremony finished. Dumbledore gives some silly speech about sticking together and working hard and all that bollocks.
Halfway through pudding, McGonagall walked up to the Gryffindor table. Remus was munching on some chocolate brownie.
“Remus, come with me please.” She said softly.
Remus wiped his face of crumbs and followed her. James and Sirius give each other questioning looks.
“Do you think he’s in trouble already?” Peter said. “It’s not even been an hour.”
Sirius hummed and bit his nails. He shrugged. “Maybe-”
“Maybe you should keep your nose out of other people’s business.” Lily smiled patronisingly.
Sirius scowled, “He’s our friend. You haven’t even talked to him.”
Lily scowled back, “Yes I have. And anyway, it’s still none of your business, Black.”
James sighed, “We’ll talk to him later. Anyway, do you reckon first years are allowed to watch the Quidditch practices because I…”
Sirius zoned out. He’s not really in the mood to talk about Quidditch, or Remus. He had his own problems. The next day he would probably wake up with a howler.
They walked up to the Gryffindor common room.
“Silly Sneezles.” The Gryffindor Prefect said.
The Gryffindor common room is practically covered in red, orange and gold. Everything felt so warm, it felt the exact opposite to his house.
They got shown up to the dormitories. Sirius, of course, was put with Peter, James and Remus.
Alice, Marlene, Mary and Lily were in the girls’ dorm together.
After a few minutes Remus appeared in the doorway. He smiled at them.
“Where have you been?” Sirius demanded at the same time as Peter said, “What did McGonagall want?”
Remus sighed, “I’ve been expelled.”
“What!?” They all exclaimed at the same time.
Remus broke out into a grin, “Just kidding.”
“That wasn’t funny.” Peter squeaked.
“It was to me.” Remus chuckled, “The look on your faces.” He shook his head fondly.
“Stop deflecting. Where have you been?!” Sirius demanded again.
Remus sat down on his bed. “Didn’t Lily tell you to mind your own business? I did tell her to tell you that. I suppose you must have forgotten. Mind. Your. Own. Business.” Remus said.
Sirius rolled his eyes “I think as your friends, we should know.”
“Hmm.” Remus looked like he was thinking carefully, “Well. I don’t. Ask me no questions and I will tell you no lies.” He shrugged.
Sirius sighed, annoyed. “How do you know Lily? Is she your girlfriend? James will be heartbroken.”
“We met at Diagon Alley because we both had no clue where we were going. She’s not my girlfriend, I barely know her. We’re just friends.” Remus said with a pink tinge on his cheeks.
“You don’t like her do you?” James said nervously.
“Well you kind of have to like someone to be their friend.” Remus teased.
James rolled his eyes “Do you fancy her?”
“Nope.” Remus popped the ‘p’. He lay down on his bed. Sirius grinned at James’ relieved face.
Sirius saw Remus' shirt rolling up slightly and he could see his stomach. He noticed jagged scars lying across his navel.
“How’d you get all those scars?” Sirius blurted.
Remus tensed visibly. He ignored Sirius. “I’m going to change.” He mumbled. Padding off to the bathroom.
“Well done, Sirius.” James said sarcastically.
“What? I was just asking.” Sirius frowned.
“It’s a bit insensitive. I don’t think he likes us asking questions.” Peter said.
Sirius rolled his eyes, “Well we have to help him get out of his shell then.”
Remus walked out of the bathroom with blue pyjamas on and a yawned. Sirius jumped onto Remus’ bed. Remus gave him a quizzical look.
“I’m not getting off until you tell me something interesting about you.” Sirius grinned wickedly.
Remus shrugged and sat down on the bed next to Sirius. “What do you want to know?”
“Nothing about my scars.” Remus gave him a look.
Sirius nodded, “Why were you with Professor McGonagall?”
Remus sighed and rubbed his face with his palm. “She needed to talk to me about some arrangements. I wasn’t in trouble or anything.”
“What arrangements?” Sirius creased his brow in confusion.
Remus looked at him for a moment. “I can’t tell you. Sorry.”
James and Peter watched the exchange from across the room.
Remus looked at him again with a slight trace of worry on his face. He watched as Sirius lay down, Remus turned onto his belly and propped himself up on his elbows while looking at Sirius and searching for something to say.
Luckily, James stepped in, “Sirius, it’s Remus’ bed. Leave off him.”
Sirius sighed and looked at Remus once again. Remus just shoved him with a smile and Sirius climbed out of his bed and into his own.
The first day of lessons went well. Luckily everything was very calm and friendly, partly because it was their first day ever and partly because it was Thursday and basically the end of the week.
Sirius found out that James was a fellow prankster. Remus and Peter were not, James said it was now their job to convert them.
“But… won’t we get in trouble?” Peter asked, gnawing at his lip.
James grinned and gave him a pat on the back. “That doesn’t matter! It’s for fun. Who cares.”
Sirius nodded along. Remus yawned. “I reckon we should put laxatives in the Slytherins’ food. They were being twats earlier, to Mary MacDonald.”
Sirius grinned “I knew we became friends with you for a reason. We can find a spell for that, I reckon.”
Remus rolled his eyes “You didn’t become friends with me because of my mysterious looks?” He said sarcastically.
James laughed, “I reckon Sirius finds your mystery the most annoying thing about you.”
Remus chuckled, though he did look slightly hurt. “Right, I was going to check for that Transfiguration book in the library. I reckon I can find a spell there. Anyone coming with?”
“Sure.” Peter shrugged. Sirius and James declined.
Sirius watched as Peter and Remus walked away. Suddenly a swish of blond hair came into vision.
“Cousin.” She greeted, then got straight to the point, “Expect a howler from your mother. She’s not happy about this whole Gryffindor thing.”
Sirius nodded. He couldn’t tell whether Narcissa was trying to warn him or scare him. His face paled either way.
Narcissa walked away. Her long hair swishing and her heels making an echo in the hallway.
“Are you alright?” James asked.
Sirius scoffed, “Mhm.”
“I know something that’ll cheer you up.”
James showed him a spell he’d learned, it was a hex which made the victim’s snot turn into bats. It was called the Bat-Bogey Hex.
Sirius didn’t have the nerve to tell him he already knew about the hex and has stolen his mother’s wand to perform it on Regulus, multiple times.
Remus opened the door to their dorm and Peter followed him in. Sirius jumped out of his seat and rushed over to them.
“So what did you find?” He asked excitedly.
“We found this. It’s pretty easy. I’ll show you guys the wand movement. It has a similar effect to Belch Powder…”
Remus explained the spell and how if all four of them did it they would be able to get the whole Slytherin house.
The next morning, the operation began. They walked into the Great Hall for breakfast nonchalantly. Sirius sat down and watched as the Slytherins piled in. After a few moments Remus whispered, “Go.”
The four of them cast the spell and quickly went back to their food.
Suddenly, Mulciber stood up with a strange look on his face. A few more Slytherins did the same. They all started running out and screaming.
The students all burst out laughing, the Great Hall filled with cheers and giggles as the Slytherins ran out with shocked faces.
“Your faces match your robes!” James shouted with laughter. Lily gave him an angry look and stormed off.
Eventually the hall calmed down. People went back to their normal conversations.
“To our first prank.” James cheered.
“To our first prank.” They repeated and bumped their cups of pumpkin juice together.
Then the owls started flying in. Sirius gulped. A letter dropped by his food.
“SIRIUS ORION BLACK. I AM DISGUSTED. DISAPPOINTED AND HORRIFIED. HOW DARE YOU TARNISH THE FAMILY NAME. GRYFFINDOR!? GRYFFINDOR!? IT IS HORRIFIC. A BLACK IN SUCH A HOUSE. WE SHOULD BE TAKING YOU OUT OF HOGWARTS AND PUNISHING YOU FOR THIS AWFUL BEHAVIOUR. BLACKS ARE MEANT TO BE IN SLYTHERIN. NOT THE HOUSE OF BLOOD TRAITORS AND MUDBLOODS. NARCISSA TELLS ME YOU’VE BEEN CONVERSING WITH SUCH PEOPLE. I WILL ACCEPT THE POTTERS. AND MAYBE THE PETTIGREWS. BUT THE LUPINS?! A DISGUSTING FAMILY. DID YOU KNOW THAT LYALL TOLD THE MINISTRY HE DOESN’T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH MAGIC ANYMORE!? HE WANTS TO LIVE AS A MUGGLE. I REFUSE TO LET YOU GO ANYWHERE NEAR THAT CHILD. IT IS PROBABLY PUTTING IDEAS IN YOUR HEAD. I TOLD YOU. WE ARE BETTER THAN HALF BLOODS. YOU ARE TO ONLY TALK TO PUREBLOODS FROM NOW ON. I DO NOT CARE IF YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH SUCH A THING. YOU ARE NOT TO TALK TO A HALF BLOOD. STAY AWAY FROM ANY MUDBLOODS. I WILL BE PUNISHING YOU AT CHRISTMAS. GRYFFINDOR. IS. NOT. FOR. BLACKS. If you want to be part of this family, you’re going to have to act like it.” Walburga screamed across the hall. The howler burst open into pieces. He heard murmurs across the students.
Sirius didn’t know when he started crying, but there were definitely tears running down his face. Sirius looked at Remus, who was pale and hunched over, looking small. Sirius felt horrible for dragging him into his mother’s speech.
It. She had said.
“I think I’m going to go get my books from the dorm. Sorry, Sirius.” Remus mumbled and got up.
Sirius stared for a moment and then got up and ran over to follow him.
He caught up and said, “Jesus, your legs are too long for your own good.” He’d meant it as a joke, but it didn’t sound like one when coming from a crying 11 year old.
Remus stared at him as he caught his breath.
“I’m sorry about her. Don’t listen. She’s just being dramatic, I’m not like that. I’m not going to stop being friends with you just because you’re a half-blood.” Sirius said desperately.
Remus had a pained expression on him for a moment. He nodded, “I know.”
He held his arms out for Sirius to hug him. Sirius quickly accepted and buried his head in Remus’ shoulder.
“I don’t know if it would be the same if…” Remus mumbled.
“If what?” Sirius asked. Remus shook his head.
“Don’t worry about it.”
That night Sirius padded over to James’ bed for a chat.
“How’re you feeling then?” James asked.
Sirius sighed, “I know she’s just being dramatic. She’s not that angry about it. I’m still the heir and everything. She’ll get used to it.”
James nodded along, “Good, good. Don’t worry about it
Sirius lay down next to James and yawned wildly.
“Oi. Get your own bed.” James said.
“Nah. I think I’ll stay here.” He grinned.
“Idiot.” James said fondly.
They both fell asleep next to each other. Sirius smiled when James passed the blanket over to Sirius in an act of kindness.
It was the first weekend at Hogwarts. Sirius was woken up early by James. James was a morning person.
Sirius got out of James’ bed and walked back to his own so he could get some more sleep in. He bumped into Remus’ bed on the way.
“Ow!” He exclaimed.
Remus groaned from inside the curtains and poked his head out. Sirius looked at his messy hair, squinted eyes and pink cheeks from the morning. He didn’t look like he’d slept though. He had purple eye bags under his eyes and shivering hands.
“Can you fuckin’ not?” Remus swore.
”It was an accident.” Sirius said.
Remus groaned again and pushed his palm into his head as if he had a sudden headache.
“Are you ok?” Sirius asked and walked up to where Remus’ head was poking out the curtains.
Remus didn’t respond, he just flopped down into his bed and closed the curtains. Sirius eyed them suspiciously, wondering if he should check on the curly haired boy. He decided against it and went to his own bed.
After what felt like a second of being asleep he felt the curtains being pulled open and the shadow of James standing there.
“C’mon. It’s ten o’clock now. Let’s go to breakfast.” James said and went to Peter’s bed.
Sirius took a moment to compose himself before getting up and brushing his short hair. Sirius was hoping to grow it out while he was at school. His hair grew quickly so it shouldn’t be a problem.
“Remus?” James said while trying to pull his curtains open, they were somehow tightly shut. “Remus?”
“Piss off.” He grumbled. James turned to Sirius and he shrugged.
“Remus.” Sirius said this time. “Are you ok? It’s breakfast time. I know how much you like food.”
Sirius had seen how much food Remus ate. It was like they didn’t feed him at home. Sirius wondered if he and Remus could have a competition on who could eat the most bacon. James was the opposite, he wouldn’t even go near any greasy food. Peter hated anything for breakfast other than beans on toast. He said it didn’t feel like home without his beans on toast. Sirius burst out laughing at that, they’d only been there for a few days and he already felt more at home at Hogwarts than at Grimmauld Place.
“Fuck off.” He mumbled.
“Merlin. We’re your friends, at least tell us what’s wrong.” James said sternly.
“I told you to piss off. You posh boys always act like I should be bloody grateful for being your friend. I don’t need your friendship. Leave me alone. If you’re going to be nosy twats, I don’t want to be your friend.” Remus said angrily.
“Fine.” Sirius stepped in the conversation, “We won’t be your friend. Let’s go Pete, James.”
“I still think we should check if he’s-” James started.
“He made it very clear that he doesn’t want to talk to us or be our friend. Leave it, James.” Sirius said sharply. He turned around and walked to the door, ushering Peter and James to go with him.
Remus woke up in a daze. He peeked his head out of his curtain to see the night sky and everyone asleep. Looking at the clock on the wall he saw 2:38am. He had been sleeping all day.
Remus sighed and went down to the common room. He wasn’t going to get any more sleep and Madame Pomfrey wanted to see him first thing in the morning since this was his first moon at Hogwarts.
He slumped down onto the red sofa and watched as the fire danced.
“Remus?” A voice which Remus recognised as Lily Evans said.
Remus turned his head slowly. “Can’t sleep?”
“Yeah. You?” She replied and sat down next to Remus.
“I’ve been sleeping all day.” Remus shrugged.
Lily gave him a questioning look. “You know… when I first met you I thought you were a werewolf.” She blurted out, “I thought that if wizards and witches were a thing then why not werewolves and vampires? Then I read about it for a bit. They really are quite horrible to werewolves in those books. They act as if they aren’t normal people most of the time. I think it’s awful really, quite prejudiced. Sev said-” she stopped when she saw the look on Remus’ face.
Remus’ hands began to shake.
“Oh, oh, Remus. I’m sorry.” Lily shook her head.
“I’m- I’m” Remus spluttered.
“You are, aren’t you?” Lily said softly. It wasn’t really a question. Based on Remus’ reaction it was obvious.
“Oh god- shit. You can’t tell anyone. Please Lily.” He said desperately.
“I won’t tell anyone. I promise. Oh, come here.” Lily gave him a warm hug.
“I thought I’d at least get through one transformation at school before someone found out.” He muttered nervously.
Lily laughed, “I really wasn’t thinking about it. It was meant to be a joke. Must be my muggle intuition stepping in. All these wizards and witches are oblivious.”
Remus grinned at that. “You won’t tell anyone, right?”
“I promise. Cross my heart.” Lily said seriously.
Remus smiled softly. Suddenly aware of how close together they were. Lily leaned in slightly. Remus breathed out before pressing his lips against hers softly.
They stayed like that for about 2 seconds. Then sprang apart with disgusted looks on their faces.
“Ew, ew, ew, ew.” Lily repeated.
“Bleugh.” Remus cringed.
They looked at each other for a second before bursting out laughing.
“Let’s not do that again.” Remus said.
“Yeah, let’s not.” Lily said, still laughing. She held out her pinky to make the promise. Remus took it with a chuckle.
Remus cringed again, “I imagine that’s what it’s like for you to kiss your sister.”
Lily thought for a moment “Hmm. Nah. You’re alright. I did have a bit of a crush on you when we met in Diagon Alley. But now it feels like you’re more of a brother, no offence.”
“Oh well. At least those are our first kisses out of the way.” Lily winked.
Remus smiled. He didn’t have to the heart to tell her she was, in fact, not his first kiss. “I can’t believe I beat Sirius, James and Pete to it.”
Lily laughed, “Of course you did. You’re very handsome.” She patted his cheek fondly.
Remus chuckled “Not sure I’ve ever been called handsome before. It’s usually ‘oh look how cute he is’.”
“Hmm. Maybe you’ve just started going through puberty.” She winked again.
Remus slapped her shoulder lightly and rolled his eyes. “Wanna play crazy eights?”
“Oh thank god. A muggle game. I’m already sick of bloody Exploding Snap.” She said lightly.
Remus chuckled and pulled out a pack of cards. Eventually Lily fell asleep against his shoulder. Remus sighed and got comfortable against her, hoping to get some sleep.
“Remus?” Peter called quietly from the top of the stairs.
“She’s asleep.” Remus whispered.
Peter nodded and gave him a look before going back into the dorm.
Lily woke up slowly from the noise, “I think I’ll go back to bed.” She mumbled.
Remus nodded and walked up to his dorm where Sirius, James and Peter were whispering to each other. They stopped when he walked in and Sirius shot him a dirty look. Remus looked at them confusedly and then went back to bed. He was too busy thinking about the moon to comment on their rudeness.
Remus woke up the next day early. He rushed down to Madame Pomfrey.
“Oh, dear. Let’s get you to bed dear.” She ushered.
Remus was put into a hospital bed by the window. She ran through all the things that would happen. Of course Remus had already heard all these things from McGonagall, his mother, his father and Dumbledore. He was to be led by Madame Pomfrey to the Shack. They would have to be quiet so students didn’t hear them outside. He would be put in a room which had magic on it so he stayed locked inside. The Whomping Willow would protect others from getting in.
After reading all day in the hospital wing he was eventually led to where he would be having his transformations.
It was a dingy room with dusty floorboards and an ugly bed in the corner. Remus didn’t care. He knew they weren’t going to get him a luxury hotel knowing that he was going to rip it to shreds.
“Alright, dear. I am sorry about the room. I asked Professor Dumbledore if he could perhaps put you in a nicer one but-” Madame Pomfrey started.
“It’s fine. I don’t mind.” Remus said calmly.
She nodded her head and sighed with sadness. “I’ll come and collect you tomorrow morning. First thing.”
Remus nodded. “Um… you should probably go.”
Her eyes widened “Oh yes! Right. I’ll see you. Take care of yourself.” She said solemnly before closing the door.
Remus got undressed and lay down on the bed, waiting for the transformation to take over.
First it was the crack. Remus could feel it in his ribs. His lungs were tightening. Then the tension in his right arm. His fingers cracked. Breaking and growing into horrific claws.
Remus shouted in pain. His face scrunching. Then his skull began moving, Remus could feel the panging in his brain as his skull felt like it was about to implode. And then finally, once all his organs had changed and his bones had snapped, his brain began to go blank. First the painful black splodges which he could feel in his eyes started, then the bright light flashed against his nose, growing forward and forward until it took over his eyes. Slowly he could feel part of his creative side shut off, and then all he was left with was: hunt, hunt, hunt.
Remus felt the sting of where his sharp claws slashed at his chest. Then he was gone. Everything was purely wolf, there was no human left in him.
Remus woke up slowly from the noises of birds chirping outside. He took a moment to get used to his surroundings. He quickly pulled his trousers on before Madame Pomfrey came in and lay down on the bed. He didn’t bother checking his wounds, he already knew they were bad. He was in a new place. A new surrounding. The wolf didn’t like the mystery.
“Oh! Oh my goodness!” A voice from the hallway exclaimed. “Remus…” she looked down at him.
“Is it always this bad? Oh gosh. This is horrible. How can they let a child have to go through this. Oh, and since you were five! It’s awful. They should’ve made a cure by now! Look at what they’re doing to you! Oh you poor child. Only eleven! I just can’t believe-” she rambled.
“‘M fine.” Remus grunted. Before passing out.
Remus woke up once again. This time he was in a comfortable bed, the same one he was in before the transformation.
“Oh good.” Madame Pomfrey said, “You’re up! Here drink this, drink this.”
She passed him a sweet tasting potion which he gulped down happily. His throat was dry.
“Oh goodness. It’s Monday. I thought perhaps one of your friends could come by.” She said, gnawing on her lip “I can take one of them out of class. Who are you friends with? I can go and get them.” She exclaimed.
“Uh… Lily Evans knows. But you don’t have to! I’m fine on my own.” Remus said quickly.
“Nonsense.” She smiled, “I’ll just go and get her now.”
There was a knock at the door. Sirius turned around curiously.
“Hello, Professor. I was just wondering if I could talk to Lily Evans.” Madame Pomfrey said with a smile.
“Yes, yes. Of course.” Professor Flitwick muttered before going back to his boring lecture.
Sirius and James both watched curiously as Lily went outside with Pomfrey before coming back in to collect her stuff. She whispered something to Mary before leaving.
“What did she say?” Sirius whisper-shouted to Mary.
Mary shrugged in response, “Something about Remus being in the hospital wing.”
Sirius turned his head around to look at James with wide eyes.
James had the same expression on his face. Except his glasses made his eyes look ten times bigger. It was rather comical, but Sirius was focusing on the matter at hand. After the lesson they rushed over to the hospital wing, dragging an oblivious Peter along with them.
James pushed the door open with a lot of force. Madame Pomfrey startled.
“We’re here to see Remus.” James said sternly.
“Oh!” She smiled, “That’s lovely. Come with me.” She led them to a closed off area which Remus was sitting in bed with while Lily chatted to him.
“Remus!” Sirius exclaimed when he saw him. He had dark purple eye bags under his eyes. As well as bandages sticking out of his top. His face was bruised and his hair was messy.
Remus’ eyes widened for a second before relaxing.
“Remus, your friends are here to see you.” Pomfrey smiled at him before leaving them alone.
“Remus! What happened?!” James looked shocked.
“Oh… er.” Remus looked like he was raking his mind for an excuse.
“He’s ill. Got the flu.” Lily piped up.
“That doesn’t explain the bandadg-” James started.
“He’s not going to tell you.” Lily shook her head. James creased his brow for a second before shrugging.
“I’m so sorry, Remus. I wanted to talk to you again after you got annoyed at us on Saturday. But Sirius here thought-” James started.
Sirius shushed him.
“Why does everyone always interrupt me?” James sighed.
Sirius grinned, “Because you’re always bloody talking.”
James rolled his eyes, “Anyway. We should’ve known you were sick! As if you wouldn’t want to be friends with us-”
Remus looked at them in confusion “What did I say to you all?”
“Oh… uh. Something about posh nosy twats. And that you didn’t want to be friends with us.” James winced.
He burst out laughing “Well that wasn’t very smart of me. I’m going to be sharing a dorm with you for seven years. I wasn’t wrong about the first part though.” Remus teased.
Sirius rolled his eyes, “Do you not remember that?”
“Hm. Not really. I was sleeping a lot that day, in case you hadn’t noticed.” Remus shrugged.
“You lot didn’t even check on him when he’d been sleeping all day!? You didn’t bother to ask why he wasn’t up and about?” Lily exclaimed angrily.
“Well, to be honest he did call us posh nosy twats and said he wanted to be left alone. And that he didn’t want to be our friend.” Peter defended.
“Can’t blame him.” Lily mumbled loudly.
“Oi!” Sirius said, “It’s not like you checked on him either. And what are you? His girlfriend? You should be caring more than his not-even-friends-anymore roommates!”
“Hey! I’m not his girlfriend. And I assumed he would be with you. You know, because you literally sleep in the same room. Just because he got a little angry at you doesn’t mean you can just leave him when he’s sick!” Lily raised her voice angrily.
“How were we supposed to know that!” James said.
“Well it’s a bit bloody obvious! You could just check!” Lily crossed her arms.
“He charmed his curtains shut! It’s not my fault that he-”
“Stop!” Remus shouted, hands over his ears. “I already have a headache and you lot aren’t helping.”
“Oh, Remus. Sorry.” Lily sat down again, calmly.
“Sorry, Remus.” Sirius said.
“Yeah, sorry.” James said sympathetically.
“Sorry.” Peter said in a high voice, still standing in the doorway awkwardly.
Remus smiled slightly, “Nice to be fought over.”
They all laughed at that. The tension immediately rises from the air. After a while of them quietly chatting Lily got up to leave.
“Sev wants to meet before potions. Sorry to leave early, Rem. See you.”
“Don’t worry. Have fun in potions.” Remus shrugged and waved her off.
“Guess what!” Peter exclaimed once she’d left.
“What?” Remus said.
“We’re planning a prank!” Sirius grinned.
Remus sighed, “What is it?”
“We’re going to make all the suits of armour get dressed in pink and put face paint on them, and then make them walk all around the castle and scare everyone.” James explained with a smile.
Remus gave them a look, “That sounds difficult. Although I think making them walk should be easy enough, there’s that spell which makes inanimate objects move. I reckon I could do that. How are you going to make them all dress up?”
“Oh we found something for that! We think that it’s possible to do 10 suits at a time, and since there’s only about 70 in the whole of Hogwarts it shouldn’t take long.” Peter replied.
“Brilliant!” James exclaimed, “I think we’ll be able to pull it off in the next couple weeks.”
Remus nodded sleepily.
“Do you want to sleep? We can go.” Peter offered.
Sirius frowned slightly, “Do you know when you’ll be out of the hospital wing?”
“Tomorrow, probably. I would like a nap actually. Thanks.” Remus shrugged.
“Okay. See you later, mate.” James said.
They said their goodbyes and left Remus alone.
“What do you think is wrong with him?” Sirius asked.
James shrugged and said, “I don’t know. We probably shouldn’t ask.”
Two weeks later, they had just about finished the plans for the prank.
Sirius sighed “We’ve been planning it for weeks! C’mon can we just get on with it.”
Peter gave him a look, “We can’t mess up. Stop being so impatient.”
Sirius just groaned, “Stop being so sensible. Pranks are supposed to be fun.”
“If you stopped being a massive twat then it would be fun.” Remus said and then winked at Peter.
Sirius recoiled and mumbled something incoherent.
“I think we’re ready, though. Remus has got the moving spell in the bag and Peter and I are pretty quick with the transfiguration.” James said.
Sirius looked up, offended. “Excuse you.”
“You’re good at other things.” Remus grinned,“Like bumping into my bed in the morning.”
“Why must you bully me so?” Sirius said dramatically. “James is more clumsy than me.”
Remus shrugged, “James knows how to do transfiguration.”
Sirius clipped him behind the head in annoyance. “I’m very good at all my subjects, actually.”
“You’d be good if you tried. Right now you’re just average.” Peter said.
Sirius sighed, “For my father ‘average’ means you’re stupid… and for my mother ‘average’ means you might as well become a house elf. Not that she cares. Heirs don’t do anything apart from going to stupid meetings with people you don’t like.”
James coughed awkwardly. When Sirius brought up his family it was always a little uncomfortable.
“It’s fine, Sirius. We’re only in our first year. You’re very smart, we were only teasing.” Remus said softly.
Sirius smiled. “Are you done researching that bloody wand movement yet? I’m bored.”
They all groaned at Sirius’ whining once again.
When they got back to the dorm, James said “I need to show you something.”
They gathered around his bed as James pulled out a brown package from underneath it. He slowly unwrapped it.
“What is it?” Remus questioned when James brought out a blue cloak with stars on it. “Is this one of those weird wizard fashion th-”
Sirius gasped first. Then Peter. Remus just looked at them, confused.
“It’s an invisibility cloak!” Sirius exclaimed.
Remus still looked confused, but a little shocked as well.
James passed the cloak to Sirius who wrapped it around himself. Peter and Remus gaped at his invisible body. Sirius looked at himself with a grin.
“This is so cool!” He said with wide eyes.
“Can I try it now?” Peter complained.
Sirius rolled his eyes and passed it to Peter who covered all of himself with it.
Remus tried to suppress a grin when Peter stuck James’ hair up into two sticking out bunny ears, and when he picked up some Zonko’s purple glitter and sprinkled it over Sirius.
“Hey!” Sirius shouted.
Remus burst out laughing before managing to grab Peter and pull the cloak off him. Remus gave it back to James who gave him a quizzical look and gave it back for Remus to try. Remus tried it round his shoulders quickly and passed it back to him.
“I thought it would be useful for our pranks. My dad said not to tell anyone, my mum doesn’t even know he gave it to me.” James grinned.
They all nodded along.
That night they all snuck underneath the invisibility cloak and went into the halls.
“Ow. You stepped on my foot.” Sirius whisper-shouted.
“You stepped on mine!” Remus said.
“I was talking to Peter. But now that you mention it you’re digging your elbow into me.” Sirius responded.
“No I’m not. You keep moving closer to me so I don’t have enough room.” Remus mumbled.
“Only because Peter keeps stepping on my f-”
“Lads, shut up.” James said. “Here. Pete, let’s go over there and cast the spells. Sirius, Remus, look out for people.”
James and Peter climbed out of the invisibility cloak.
“You’re still digging into my side.” Sirius mumbled.
“You’re still stepping on my foot.” Remus retorted.
Sirius looked down at their feet. “No I’m not.” He said in confusion.
“Ha. Made you look.” Remus smiled.
Sirius rolled his eyes. After a moment he said, “My brother used to do that.”
“It’s been different. Since I got my letter.” Sirius carried on, “He’s been… it’s like I’m not his brother anymore. He just follows our parents around, as if he’s picked his side.”
“I’m sorry, Sirius.” Remus said.
Sirius just shrugged.
“You have us lot though. You and James are practically brothers already.” Remus said.
“You and Pete are great too.” Sirius said forcefully.
“I know. It’s not the same though.” Remus smiled sadly.
“Remus, you’re up.” James said.
Remus nodded and got out of the invisibility cloak.
“What were you talking about?” James asked as he helped Peter in the cloak.
“Nothing.” Sirius muttered.
“Okay.” Remus came back after a few minutes. “It’s all done. By seven tomorrow they’ll be walking around.”
Peter nodded and yawned, “Can we go back now? I’m tired.”
They all mumbled in agreement.
After getting back to the dorm all the boys went to bed straight away. Sirius lay awake, staring at the red canopy above his bed. He sighed before climbing out slowly.
He noticed Remus’ wand light pouring through the cracks of the curtains. Slowly padding over to his bed he peeked his head through the curtain to find Remus cross legged while drawing on a rectangular piece of parchment.
“Hey.” Sirius said quietly.
“Hey.” Remus looked up.
Sirius quickly crawled into his bed. “What are you doing?”
“I’m drawing a map of Hogwarts.” Remus said.
“That’s cool.” Sirius mumbled “Oh! That would be so helpful for our pranks, I wonder if-” Sirius exclaimed.
“Don’t tell anyone yet.” Remus said hastily, “I want to finish it first.”
Sirius nodded and Remus smiled at him before looking back down to his parchment and adding some more brown ink.
Sirius coughed. Remus looked up again, “Oh, did you want to talk to me about something?” Remus said with hopeful eyes.
“Er… well it’s just about what you said earlier, about me and James being better friends… or I mean… closer than you and Peter are with us.” Sirius rambled.
Remus’ face dropped. “Right… uh… look, it’s fine. I don’t mind. I’m just happy to have friends.”
Sirius frowned, “That’s what I was going to say. It’s not that I prefer James at all. I like you all the same.”
Remus sighed, “Sirius, I’m not blind. I can see how close you and James are, you’re always together. Even at night while you’re having those chats or whatever. I know James has a soft spot for Peter, Peter always rushes to him when we’re all meant to be in partners and you get stuck with me.” He shrugged.
“I’m not stuck with you.” Sirius said fiercely.
Remus stared at him for a second. “Okay.”
“Okay?” Sirius asked sceptically.
Remus just nodded. Sirius took this as his cue to leave.
Sirius rubbed at his face in annoyance once he’d got back to his own bed, feeling even less fulfilled than he had before.
The armour prank was hilarious. There were pink suits of armour wrapped in fluffy scarfs walking around the halls with clown faces.
The Slytherins shot spells at them which bounced off the metal, the Ravenclaws ignored them and went about their day, the Hufflepuffs all hid in the corner with annoyed looks on their face and most of the Gryffindors were laughing all day.
Sirius, Remus, Peter and James all had huge grins on their faces, Lily caught up to them in the hallway with books in her hand and a flustered face.
“Gosh. Who do you think created this mess?” Lily said, mostly aimed towards Remus.
They looked guiltily towards each other and James ruffled his hair anxiously.
Lily looked between them “You did this?”
“Uhm. Yeah. Sorry, Lily.” Remus shrugged, but he was smiling.
A grin creeped up onto Lily’s freckled face “Well done, boys.”
James gaped, “What?”
Lily shrugged, “It looks like some difficult spell work. I can’t believe you lot pulled it off, thought you were more the dung bombs and itching powder type.”
Peter sighed, “I can’t wait till we get to go to Hogsmeade. We’ll be able to buy as many dung bombs as we want.”
“James, when’s your dad going to send over that stuff you asked for from Zonkos?” Sirius asked.
Lily interrupted them, “I can tell you lot are going to be trouble for a while. Bunch of marauders, you are.”
Sirius just grinned that Sirius Black, “That we are. Get ready, Evans. You’re in for a great seven years.”
Lily rolled her eyes and sighed. “I can’t wait.” She said sarcastically and walked off.
“Marauders, eh?” James smiled, “We can work with that.”
He wrapped his arms casually around the boys’ shoulders.
“Marauders?” Remus raised an eyebrow. “Weirdos.” He said fondly.