Visiting a nearby park with coffees from a local cafe had become the couple’s weekend habit. Both were hardwired early risers and this allowed them to enjoy the slower pace for a little while. This morning they found an empty bench with a view of the dog park.
“Have you ever had a dog?” Alex asked.
Lena shook her head, “No, have you?”
“Nope. I’ve always wanted one though.”
“If you could pick from all the dogs in the dog park, which would you want?”
“Hm…” the redhead paused to think as she scrutinized the animals. “See the one that’s mostly black, but with all the brown spots and streaks? That one. What about you? Which would you pick?”
“I’ve never really thought about a dog…” Lena said, though she was clearly focused on picking one out. “Either that tall skinny one or the little white, fluffy one?”
“Do you think you’d ever want one?” Alex asked.
“I don’t know. I probably wouldn’t get one for myself, but I suppose I wouldn’t mind having one around,” her girlfriend shrugged.
“Have you ever thought about a kid? Not now, but someday?” the redhead asked in a much more vulnerable tone.
“I…” Lena began, then paused to make sure she actually thought before answering. “I’m hesitant. I don’t actually remember my mother, and as much as I loved him, my father was rarely around. Lillian is the parent I knew the longest. I’m afraid that not having a proper role model means that I would be horrible. I’m not sure I could be a good mother.”
Alex wrapped an arm around her girlfriend’s shoulders, offering strong, steady support. She didn’t speak until minutes later. “I have a hard time imagining you repeating their mistakes,” she concluded with a kiss to Lena’s temple.
“Do you want a child?” Lena asked, just as softly as Alex had.
“I’ve always seen myself as a mother. Someday.”
“You’ll be a wonderful mother.”
“I think you will be too,” Alex replied, ending the conversation with a chaste kiss.