Lloyd hadn’t worn this much black since he was little, but now the only green he wore was the shirt under the black suit jacket. There was a knock at his door as he sat on his bed.
“Hey green bean, it’s time,” said Kai gently
“I-I can’t go,” said Lloyd quietly
“Why not?” asked Kai
“Because I’m the one who did it, his death is literally my fault, I don’t think he’d want me there,” said Lloyd, his voice barely above a whisper.
Kai walked over and put his arm around the boy.
“Lloyd, all of us are at fault for what happened, but I know Zane would want us there and this is our last chance to say goodbye and apologize,” said Kai
“Ok, just please tell me that the spot where I-, just tell me he doesn’t look hurt,” said Lloyd
“Don’t worry Nya and Pixal handled that,” said Kai
Lloyd shakily got up from the bed and followed Kai to the cemetery. It was in the middle of the Birchwood forest and was private, only members of the Julien family were allowed to be buried there. It was quiet and serene, all gravestones being white marble angel statues. Zane and Harumi’s was no different except the angels were them and had dragon wings instead of feathered ones and they were embracing each other. Lloyd felt tears rolling down his face, he had flat out refused to do the eulogy because he felt that it was not his place. Jay had stepped up to do it.
Lloyd tried to pay attention to Jay’s speech, tried to drown out the whispered snipes between Garmadon and Misako. He saw Pixal’s face contort into a snarl at the two.
“Mom, shut up,” growled Lloyd lowly
“Well it’s not exactly my fault, you were never around,” hissed Misako at Garmado, pretending not to hear Lloyd
“We’ll sorry for getting bitten by a demon snake long before I met you,” hissed Garmadon
“OH LIKE THAT’S AN EXCUSE TO LEAVE YOUR WIFE ALL ALONE WITH NO EXPLANATION!” screeched Misako causing all eyes to turn to them in a glare.
“Get.Out. Both. Of. You,” Lloyd growled lowly
“Now” hissed Lloyd
“You are not my mother, you were never there for me, you dumped me at darkelys and have kept leaving me every time I have needed you after, now you cause a scene at a funeral. LEAVE NOW!” said Lloyd, green energy surrounding his hands, and his eyes were glowing gold.
“I’m sorry son,” said Garmadon as he got up and left.
Misako still stood there, terrified that her own child might use his powers against her.
“NOW!” shouted Lloyd
She ran from the graveyard.
The rest of the funeral passed in a blur for Lloyd as he reflected on what he had just done. He watched in stark silence as Harumi and Zane’s caskets were lowered into the ground, tears falling silently as they were covered with dirt.
Windigo, the icy demon beast that had brought Ninjago to its knees, was gone, the continent finally free of his grasp. When Lloyd sent that sword through his heart, the citizens celebrated his death. But Lloyd and the others knew something that they didn’t: that under all those twisted layers of darkness and hatred, was a selfless nindroid that just wanted to be loved.
“The AUDACITY of you! At Zane’s funeral?! How selfish do you have to be?!”
“You were the one that started it!”
“Me?! It was YOU! YOU ALWAYS MAKE THINGS ABOUT YOU! NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION IS, YOU ALWAYS PLAY THE VICTIM! YOU’RE SELFISH!”
After the funeral, they had all gone back to the monastery, which had thankfully been untouched during Windigo’s reign. Misako and Garmadon were still hashing it out. Tired of hearing them but not wanting to pour gasoline on an already raging fire, the others had left.
Well, almost everyone. Unbeknownst to Garmadon and Misako, Lloyd was in the next room, sitting on the floor with his back against the wall and his knees drawn up to his chest, trying to still the tears flowing down his face, flinching as they yelled.
It was all his fault. Everything was his fault. He was the reason they were fighting. He was the reason Zane and Harumi were dead. He was the reason half of Ninjago was buried under feet of dark ice. He was the reason all the Resistance members and those innocent citizens had died. Now what was left of his family, the only thing keeping him from drowning throughout this whole ordeal was crumbling right before his eyes.
“I CAN’T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!” Garmadon bellowed. “YOU ARE SUCH A SICK, TWISTED HUMAN BEING! YOU’RE ALMOST JUST AS BAD AS WINDIGO! YOU WANT MY “BROTHER” SO BAD?! YOU CAN HAVE HIM THEN! I AM GOING TO MARCH INTO NINJAGO CITY RIGHT NOW AND FIND THE BEST DIVORCE LAWYER THERE IS! WE’RE DONE MISAKO! IT’S OVER!”
“Garmadon PLEASE-” Misako said but was cut off as the door slammed. Footsteps faded away and Lloyd heard his mother sob softly in the other room. He gave up trying to hold the tears back and let them fall, softly pattering as they hit the wood floor. He needed someone right now, but not just anyone. He needed Zane. He needed him in this moment now more than ever. His soft, soothing voice, his gentle hand, his thoughtful and rational insight in complex situations like this. He tried to think, what would Zane do? He remembered the old Zane so well, he tried to imagine him being there, but all it did was rip a hole in his heart.
“I’m so sorry Zane,” Lloyd wept silently. He buried his face in his hands. “I need you…”