Chapter 1: Nienna
Name: Nienna (nee-EHN-ah, like Vienna with an N instead of a V)
Nickname: Little Bear (Loki and Iorek) Little Mischief (Odin)
Title: Ward of Asgard. Ward of Frigga. Bear Cub of Asgard.
Age: 900 + years
Species: Celestial/Asgardian hybrid
Eyes: Light Brown
Portrayed by: Madelaine Petsch
Jemiah the Analyzer - Father
Unknown Asgardian Mother - Deceased
Lorelei – Older Half Sister
Ego – Paternal Uncle
Peter Quill – Paternal Cousin
Iorek – 'Brother'
Frigga - Guardian
Loki - Childhood best friend, crush and future lover
Nienna is hungry for experience. She is rebellious and wilful and obeys no one unless she thinks she has good reason to do so.
Nienna loves architecture and spends her free time designing new buildings. Her fatal flaw is hubris, otherwise known as excessive pride: she thinks she can do anything and do it well, even better than the gods.
Nienna can be very caring but possessive of the people she loves. For example, she is very anxious about losing Loki to another. She hardly ever shows her true feelings, when worried or upset she often disguises it with anger. She is also not quick to give up on those she cares about.
Though she is very caring she can be harsh and judgemental during first meetings, but after winning her approval she is very loyal. She is very strong-minded and equally stubborn, she is also incredibly brave and daring. Nienna shows many signs of dauntlessness, courage, and determination.
She has a lot of nerve. Nienna is also an intellectual genius, as well as clever and witty. She's also analytical, strategic, and is very wise. However, she is also very arrogant and proud. Which can get her in trouble sometimes.
Nienna has immense arachnophobia after being tricked by Loki when she was younger, he dropped a load of spiders in her bed. She freezes up just when she sees a spider or anything bearing a close resemblance to one.
Powers and Abilities:
Celestial/Asgardian Hybrid Physiology:
Hybrid Physiology: Due to her heritage, Nienna is part Celestial and part Asgardian, giving her superhuman abilities.
Superhuman Durability: Due to her paternal heritage from Jemiah, Nienna holds considerable amounts of supernatural durability and endurance to the point that she is able to physically withstand the exposure to the energy from an Infinity Stone.
Superhuman Strength: As a Hybrid, Nienna's physical strength is at immense superhuman levels.
Superhuman Speed: Nienna can move at great superhuman speeds.
Superhuman Reflexes: Nienna can react and dodge objects traveling at high speeds.
Superhuman Stamina: Nienna's advanced musculature is considerably more efficient than that of a human and other Asgardians because of her hybrid nature. As a result, her muscles produce practically no fatigue toxins during physical activity compared to those of humans.
Superhuman Agility: Nienna has incredible agility, grace, and speed.
Energy Manipulation: Nienna essentially describes her powers as "light." In particular, this is a blue, fiery light that she can shape and transform into physical constructs, she usually creates twin daggers in combat. She once projected radiant beams from her fingers that are able to unlock handcuffs. She is able to create massive light tentacles to combat and restrain her opponents. They can also phase through people to cause them pain and incapacitate them without inflicting damage.
- Light Beams: She can project blasts of 'light' powerful enough to destroy spaceships.
Hypnosis Inducement: Nienna has the ability to make people docile and susceptible to suggestion with a touch to the victim's forehead, sending a surge of energy into their minds
- This is a variation on the power her sister has, only she doesn't use her voice.
Regenerative Healing Factor: Despite her body's resistance, Nienna can be injured like any other Asgardian. However, her metabolism enables her to rapidly regenerate damaged bodily tissue with greater speed and efficiency than a human being is capable of.
Longevity: Nienna ages at a rate that is much slower than that of a human being and Asgardians.
Genius-Level Intellect: Nienna is a highly intelligent being
Expert Combatant: Nienna is considerably skilled in close-quarters combat, both in armed and hand-to-hand combat. She is able to stand her ground against Loki.
Acrobat: Nienna is highly athletic and has high-level dexterity, reflexes, and coordination, which notably allows her to do parkour and free running.
Multilingualism: Nienna is well-versed in the native languages of several alien species, including Groot's.
Alethiometer: The alethiometer is a compass-like device that Nienna uses to find truthful answers to questions. It is made of an alloy of two particular rare metals that were used to create a needle that pointed towards the truth. Reading an alethiometer required particular skill and training. Although Nienna is able to do so intuitively. To read the alethiometer, the user first directed three needles to lie over certain symbols on the face of the device to create a question. Then, the user holds this question in their mind, without grasping at the answer, but being content not to know. At this point, the fourth needle swings into action, moving from one symbol to another to create the answer.
"It is very much like a clock, or a compass, for there are hands pointing to places around the dial, but instead of the hours or the points of the compass there are several little pictures, each of them painted with the finest and slenderest sable brush."
- This was left for Nienna by her father.
Chapter 2: Iorek
The panserbjørn are similar to the Midgardian polar bears in appearance. However, the panserbjørn have opposable thumbs and are very dexterous, capable of skilled metalworking. Their paws are covered in horny skin an inch or more thick, each claw is as long as a child's hand, and as sharp as a knife.
- Panserbjørn are slightly taller then the average polar bear, they stand between 10-15 ft tall (Iorek stands at 15ft on his hind legs) and 5-8 feet wide. Their coat of fur is transparent over their black skin. It appears white, yellowing slightly with age. They like to keep their fur as clean as possible when able. For all intents and purposes, they resemble polar bears. The only difference being that they normally move in a bipedal and have 5 fingers resembling human hands.
- Odin rescued Iorek from Jotunheim, last of his kind, when he was just a cub, returning home with him he gave the cub to the child his wife had taken under her wing. Nienna and Iorek grew up together, side by side, Iorek considers Nienna his 'sister' and she is the only one allowed to ride him. Their bond is unbreakable.
Iorek and the Panserbjørn: Personality and traits:
Like all Panserbjørne, Iorek follows a very strict code of contract, and will in no situation betray a promise he has made. Iorek is extremely proud and formidably selfless but can be strongly sentimental and piteous.
Panserbjørne Physiology: Iorek is a Panserbjørne and as such has all the attributes associated with the species.
Superhuman Durability: Iorek has considerable amounts of supernatural durability and endurance.
Superhuman Strength: Iorek's physical strength is at immense superhuman levels.
Superhuman Speed: Iorek can move at great superhuman speeds, he is faster then Asgardians when running flat out on all fours.
Superhuman Reflexes: Iorek can react and dodge objects traveling at high speeds.
Regenerative Healing Factor: Despite his body's resistance, Iorek can be injured like any other of his kind. However, his metabolism enables him to rapidly regenerate damaged bodily tissue with great speed and efficiency.
Longevity: Panserbjørne age at a reduced rate, meaning they have the possibility to live for thousands of years, it's why they were once used in battle between the Asgardians and the Jotun. It is possible this is where Iorek's parents died.
Panserbjørne fashion their own armor from sky-iron. As they mature, they forge the pieces one by one. By the time they are adults, they have a complete suit. Panserbjørne considered their armor to be their soul. Odin gifted Iorek some Sky-iron so he could forge his own armor.
Panserbjørne were generally solitary creatures, but they had a loose society on the Realm of Jotuneheim. They were governed by a king who was usually determined by bloodline, but could be elected by combat.
Chapter 3: Other Character(s): Prince Neremy
Titles: Prince of Alfheim
Species: Ljós-Alfar (Light Elf)
Face Claim: Orlando Bloom
King Vesstan – Father
Queen Thaola – Mother (Deceased)
Princess Ara – Younger Sister
Neremy is a gentle caretaker who lives in the present moment and enjoys his surroundings with cheerful, low-key enthusiasm. He is flexible and spontaneous and likes to go with the flow to enjoy what life has to offer. He can be quiet and unassuming and is hard to get to know. However, to those who know them well, Neremy is warm and friendly, eager to share in life's many experiences.
Neremy has a strong aesthetic sense and seeks out beauty in his surroundings.
Like all elves, Neremy has a great respect and appreciation for the nature of his realm. He is kind and cares greatly for his friends and family.
Powers and Abilities:
As an Elf, Neremy has the abilities typical of his race. He can walk silently grass and snow leaving minimal footprints, allowing him to advance unhindered. His eyes were sharper than that of most other races, seeing through great distances and in the dark. He can even sleep while walking.
He can tame unruly horses with only a few words, without needing reins or saddles. His vision contributed to making him an immensely skilled archer.
Neremy also possesses superhuman strength, speed, stamina, durability, agility, and reflexes.
Abilities: Additionally, he has a penchant for archery.
Weapon: Bow and "long white knife"
Nienna (Arranged Marriage)
Chapter 4: Playlist
This is a Two World - Prelude specific playlist using songs from The Infinite Defenders Series playlist:
Some songs will end up on more than one playlist, as they fit with various movie/books/heroes.
~~ Into Heaven Alone by RAIGN ~~
"How can I make you stay forever? Cause I'm too ashamed to ride alone. Only the lonely stay together. But I'm too afraid, too afraid to come"
~~ Woman by HONNE ~~
"Oh, never did a woman do so much to me. Oh, you've got some kind of hold on me. All the things that you do. You do it all so gracefully. Oh, never did a woman do so much to me"
~~ Where's My Love by SYML ~~
"Cold sheets. But where's my love. I am searching high. I'm searching low in the night"
~~ Die Slow by Venus and the Moon ~~
"I can't watch you die slow"
~~ Moondust by Jaymes Young ~~
"The brightness of the sun, will give me just enough. To bury my love, in the Moondust. I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice. To bury my love, in the moondust"
~~ Odyssey by Talos ~~
"I wake to your likeness. but how come you're here. I wasn't found in delight. It's the call before it's far from over"
~~ Homegrown by Haux ~~
"We were so close. I couldn't bare to wait. 'Cause you were a shadow. And I left you in the shade. I was still running from all of my mistakes"
~~ You by Keaton Henson ~~
"If you must wait, Wait for them here in my arms as I shake. If you must weep, Do it right here in my bed as I sleep. If you must mourn, my love. Mourn with the moon and the stars up above. If you must mourn, Don't do it alone"
Chapter 5: Chapter One
Loki remembers, barely remembers, the first time he met Nienna. He wasn't very old, barely walking, but he remembers her. Bright red hair sitting atop a baby girl's head. He'd been smitten and he knew instantly that she would be his. Even if he would never, ever admit it to anyone ever. But he knew. He's pretty sure Frigga knew too. The way she would watch them together as they grew up. The way Nienna followed Loki around, the way he'd pretend to be annoyed by her but seek her out when she wasn't behind him. She's grown into a beautiful woman. Long red hair. Great big brown eyes. He's been in love with her since he understood what love was. Her spirit. He intelligence. Her thirst for adventure and knowledge. He sees a lot of himself in her, just without the jealousy of Thor. She doesn't hate anyone, doesn't have that bone in her body.
“Loki” she whispers fondly behind him, he turns and smiles seeing her, standing there in a floor-length blue dress, her fashion sense has always been so different from every other Asgardian women, a little more seductive and flattering. She always looks magnificent though. Like a true goddess. And he loves her in blue. He steps closer to her as she adjusts the bottom of her dress.
“You look beautiful” he assures her, sensing her nerves. They've been to these events before but always as children, sneaking in to watch the adults drinking and dancing. Now they're officially old enough to be invited. He reaches down and takes her hand at her side, threading his fingers with hers. He's never been brave enough to tell her how he feels, scared of the rejection. She takes a deep breath, Loki glances down at her. “Why are you nervous, Little Bear?” he asks her. “We've sneaked into these things a million times”
“But this is different” she whispers, she turns to look up at him. “I like sneaking in” she admits. “Because there were no eyes on us, no judgemental gazes, this will be different” He lets her slide her arm in his, curling her fingers into his arm. This is her first official ball and Loki offered to accompany her. He knew his mother had other people in place to do it, already thinking about marrying her off to some high born family but that list mysteriously disappeared. Loki took it. Destroyed it. He can't watch other men with her. And it might be irrational and unfair because he has no idea if she feels the same way as he does. She probably doesn't. She could have her pick of any man in the Nine Realms, why would she choose him? Loki glances behind him hearing heavy footsteps, Nienna's Panserbjørn brother walks towards them, his fur having been washed and brushed through by servants for this event.
“Why are you nervous?” Iorek asks Nienna joining them, seemingly able to sense his 'sister's' mood no matter how well she thinks she is hiding it.
“I just am” she answers with a sigh. “I am not one for crowds of people”
“You will be fine” Iorek assures her walking at her side, each of his steps echoing along the corridor. Nienna threads her fingers through the fur of his shoulder. “You can create almost anything you desire with your mind, you can manage a single party.....” Loki smiles in agreement. “A party with your friends and family”
“Bear speaks sense” Loki agrees.
“Call me bear one more time and I will chase you down” Iorek threatens, Loki laughs pulling Nienna closer to him.
“You would never risk harming the Little Bear” Loki points out, Nienna chuckles, Loki's arm tightens around her as she leans into him. Iorek gives them both a look before pushing himself up onto his back legs, towering his full 15 feet over them. Nienna wiggles free of Loki and moves to hug Iorek, his paw coming around to rest on her back.
“Thank you, Iroek” she whispers warmly before pulling back and moving to Loki who takes her hand.
“You take his advice but mine is not good enough?” Loki teases, she shrugs.
“He's my brother” She points out.
“Oh, I see how it is” Loki mumbles, she leans into his side.
“Your council will always be welcome” she assures him, he looks down at her as she smiles, Iorek watches them both knowingly. Loki and Iorek might not always agree or get along with one another, but Nienna means everything to the two of them, that is enough in common for them to be frenemies and battle brothers. Iorek is also very good at reading people, he reads these two better because he has grown up around them, he knows how they both feel for each other and he knows they are both terrified of those feelings and of telling one another. He knows neither will ever tell the other how they feel, that fear too strong, to consuming.
Loki, Nienna and Iorek stand in front of a huge set of double doors waiting on their last companion, they'd all agreed to do this together, as they have done everything else in their lives. Thor is far more excited than both Loki and Nienna put together, he always in when the words party and food are ever used in a sentence. He smiles seeing his brother and his friends waiting to enter the ballroom.
“Loki” he cheers, Loki sighs and turns to him. “Are you both excited?” Thor asks placing a hand on both their shoulders. “I am excited” He adds with a huge smile.
“Nienna is a little nervous” Iorek offers, Thor looks to him and then to Nienna.
“I am sure you will be fine” Thor assures her. “You are the bravest person I know” Nienna looks up at him surprised. “Why do you look so surprised?” he asks her.
“I am not that brave” she answers.
“Says the girl that once climbed to the top of a spire to inspect the intricate metalwork” Loki points out, she shrugs. “You could have fallen, and even you would have died”
“It was not that far” she argues, Loki and Thor stare at her.
“It was the tallest spire in all of Asgard” Iorek reminds her with a smile. Thor nods in agreement. The doors in front of them open and Nienna takes a deep breath clutching to Loki's arm. He places his hand over hers and brushes his thumb over her skin to try and comfort her. All eyes are on the four of them. Iorek takes the attention better, someone somewhere is always staring at him, he is the last of his kind and the only Panserbjørn on Asgard. He leads the way, moving forward first. Thor moves to her other side and lets her take his arm too. The three of them have been friends and companions since she arrived in Asgard and they will see this event through together. Thor stands up taller and nods.
“You can do this” Loki whispers to Nienna, she squeezes his arm and nods. “Just follow Iorek's lead” she turns her head to look at him, eyes meeting, his softening to reassure her.
“I can do this” she agrees with him. Loki presses his forehead to hers and then pulls back, the four of them walking together, side by side by side into the ballroom.
Chapter 6: Chapter Two
Loki watches as Thor dances with Nienna, he knows it's just something they do, she can't show favourites between them even when he knows she prefers his company when there are strangers around. She's not comfortable around people she doesn't know. He knows how uncomfortable they make her. It's why she had attached herself to Loki and Thor. But he gets to watch her, so he really cannot complain all that much. The way her dress moves with her, like waves. The way she smiles listening to Thor. She looks really beautiful and Loki's heart aches. He lifts his drink to his lips and smiles watching Thor spin out Nienna before pulling her closer. He would be jealous but he knows that Nienna and Thor's relationship is different to the one she and Loki share. They're friends but that's it. Thor doesn't feel the way Loki does about Nienna and that makes things different between them. Loki takes a deep breath as Thor's place is taken by another, a young light elf man slips closer to Nienna, dancing with her closer than Thor did, more personal. Loki hates it. He clenches his fingers around his glass. His mind screaming at him: not fair, not fair, not fair. But he knows that if he just told her how he felt none of this would be happening, she'd be here at his side. But he's a coward. And he won't. He turns away, unable to watch her dance with other men.
Nienna slips away from the gentleman she was dancing with and makes her way back to Loki, making sure he doesn't follow her. Loki's back is to her when she reaches him, her fingers dancing along his spine before she leans around him to look at his face.
"Save me" she whispers in his ear, Loki chuckles. "He smells really terrible" she complains taking his drink from him and takes a generous sip from it. "I only wish Iorek would maul on command" she teases, Loki turns to her surprised.
"That's so cruel" he points out and smirks. "I'm rather impressed"
"Well he smells that bad" she argues and looks up at him, her lips spreading into a grin. "Do you think we've been here long enough?" she asks as he takes his drink back, he smirks and shakes his head.
"No" he answers. "We've only be here long enough for Thor to flirt with seven different women" she smirks and leans into his arm. "He has to get to fifteen before we can leave" she sighs a little, he brushes his fingers against her wrist.
"Nienna" Frigga states moving towards her. "Come, there is someone from Vanaheim I want you to meet" Frigga takes Nienna's hand and pulls her along. Nienna shoots Loki a pleading look, he shrugs back unable to save her from his own mother. Loki now has to watch suitors, because he knows that who these people are, the ones that his mother are introducing Nienna to. He holds it in, that jealousy, that pain at seeing other men interested in her.
Loki stands on a balcony overlooking Asgard the sounds of the party flittering through the open doors behind him. He takes a deep breath and then smiles hearing Nienna joining him. She pushes herself up onto his back, his hands instantly finding her legs. He smiles as she rests her chin on his shoulder, her arms around his neck.
"That's fifteen" she comments. "Save me from all those eligible bachelors" he smiles and turns his head to face her.
"I know just where to go" he offers warmly.
Loki glances over the top of his book to look at Nienna, her legs tangled with his as she sit opposite him, she draws in her large sketchbook, her fingers all black with the charcoal she uses. It's even smeared on her cheek. Her hair is no longer neat and precise. She allows herself to be like this only with him, she is comfortable enough with him to be herself. This is their 'special' place. A hidden alcove in the library, high above the books, away from prying eyes, comfortable and close together. It's so quiet in here this time of night. Just the two of them together. Just how he likes it. Loki closes his book and she glances up at him as he moves closer to her, turning he sets his head in her lap laying out with his legs stretched out, feet pressed against the wall. She threads her fingers through his hair, he smiles closing his eyes leaning into her touch. She won't ever admit how she feels for him. Loki is a prince, and she is just a ward of Frigga's. She's basically the family pet. The family pet doesn't end up with the prince. She'll be married off to broker some form of alliance for the family. She knows that. She knows that's what Frigga has been doing. She will have to say goodbye to her friends one day, and probably one day soon considering how much harder she's been working to introduce different men to Nienna. She doesn't want to leave. She doesn't want to leave Loki or Iorek or Asgard. This is her home. She closes her eyes and pushes all that back, she can't ruin her mood with Loki, he'll read it on her and he'll want to know what's wrong and they'll argue, he always seems to get upset when she mentions leaving Asgard. He gets upset and he lashes out at her and they end up ignoring each other for days. So she stopped talking about it. It's better for their friendship.
Chapter 7: Chapter Three
Nienna knows what this meeting is about. She knows Frigga well enough by now. Plus when a King arrives with his son to talk diplomatic agreements, she knows that they are not here for Thor or Loki. And the prince of Alfheim is truly a sight. He's beautiful. Long white hair, bright blue eyes that seem to sparkle like starlight. She's...taken back by his beauty. He smiles at her. Nienna finds herself smiling back at him. Frigga touches her arm and smiles.
"Nienna, you remember King Vesstan and his son, Prince Neremy of Alfheim"
"Of course" Nienna agrees. "Your grace" Nienna greets falling into a bow.
"Please" Vesstan stops her gently. "We are here on even ground today, young bear" she smiles and nods.
"Why don't you show Prince Neremy the gardens, the bloom this time of year is always so beautiful," Frigga tells Nienna who glances to her and then to Neremy who smiles at her.
"Very well" Nienna agrees. "Your highness" she offers, he smiles and moves with her as they walk away from Frigga and Vesstan who both share a look behind their backs.
"You know this is their attempt at a set up" Neremy whispers to Nienna as they enter the garden, she smiles and nods.
"Yes," she agrees. "Yea, Frigga has been...rather persistent as of late"
"I was surprised when my father told me that you were unmarried" He admits, she frowns at him. "Or at least engaged to be" he looks at her. "You've always been so beautiful and kind, I thought that some noble lord would have agreed as soon as Frigga started looking"
"I have a very protective friend" she offers, he hums a little.
"Loki" he agrees. "So I've seen" she glances at him. "Everyone sees" he adds. "They are all rather protective of you"
"I have known them my whole life" she admits. "Lived with them my entire life" she adds.
"Not to mention the...Panserbjørne following us" he whispers, Nienna smirks and looks back at Iorek who does tail them, she knows it's because he cares about her, because he worries about her. "You do keep some interesting company" Neremy offers warmly. "It is part of what makes you special" he adds, she blushes slightly and looks down. "Nienna" he states and she looks back up at him. "I knew there was no question as to the outcome of this meeting, Nienna," Neremy tells her as he turns to face her. "The stories that even we on Alfheim hear of your beauty and intelligence...." he smiles at her and takes her hand. "This meeting was merely a formality, but I had already decided on what I wanted...I agreed to an engagement, if that was something that you wanted....if not, then I will be very happy to count you among my friends" he raises her hand to his lips to kiss the back of it. "And your Panserbjørne....."
"Iorek" she offers, he nods.
"Iorek" he corrects himself. "Will be welcome to join you in Alfheim" He assures her. "I do not wish to separate you from those closest to you" he nods to Iorek who narrows his eyes at the elf. Neremy looks back at Nienna. "You will love Alfeim" he offers. "The trees, the...stars...Buildings that spiral into the clouds" he tells her, his eyes lighting up as he talks about his home. "You will be happy there" she searches his eyes. "With me" he whispers with a smile. "You do not have to decide now" he adds. "You can take as long as you want, I believe you are worth waiting for...." she is utterly touched by him, by the sentiment in his words. It makes her realize just how little....romance she's had in her life. Her love for Loki is strong and sure but...when has he said anything like that to her. Loki is her friend, and he always will be, but...is that all he's going to be? Can she see a future with him? She looks down a little and frowns. No. she doesn't think he will. She takes a deep breath and looks back at Neremy. And...Frigga is so excited about this, about Neremy and Nienna's union, how can she let her down?
"I do not need to think about it" she admits and nods before she smiles at him. "I accept" he smiles brightly at her and steps closer to her.
"Are you sure?" he asks her, she nods.
"Yes," she answers. He leans closer to her, his eyes searching hers before he kisses her. Her breath catches and her heart skips a little. But she does think of Loki a little. She has loved him for so long that it does feel a little strange. She's kissed boys before, girls too, just to see what it was like. She's been around 900 plus years, she wasn't going to sit around on the off chance that Loki would ever...do something. Neremy pulls back and smiles.
"Wow" he whispers, she chuckles a little and looks down embarrassed. He strokes her cheek. "I suppose I better go and tell my father the news" he admits rubbing his thumb into the pack of her hand. "I am sure Frigga already has....plans ready"
"She does seem the type" she agrees, he nods and lifts her chin. He kisses her again, softly this time, before he releases her hand and walks away. Nienna touches her lips and then sobers. She needs to be the one to tell Loki about this. He cannot hear it from someone else. She takes a breath and looks to Iorek as he reaches her side. He nudges her hand and she scratches at his fur.
Chapter 8: Chapter Four
"Loki?" Nienna asks as she lets herself into Loki's chambers, he stands in front of his fire, staring at the flames, his body tense, shoulders rigid. Something about his mood is off. "I..I've been looking everywhere for you" she offers as she closes the door behind her.
"Here I am" he states flatly.
"I have some news" she swishes her dress slightly, smiling away to herself. "I..well...Prince Neremy of Alfheim has asked me to marry him...and...I said yes"
"I heard" Loki admits, still not turning to her. She watches him a moment.
"You did?" she asks him, he nods. Truthfully, he was passing the gardens and saw them together, spied a little, listened to them talking. He wishes he hadn't been witness to their moment. Part of him blames himself that she agreed to that. Because he couldn't pull his head out of his own ass to tell her how he feels. "Who told you?"
"It doesn't matter" he answers.
"Well...What do you think?"
"What do I think?" he asks her, this time turning to her, trying to hide the pain in his eyes from her, knowing that she is to marry another man, to live and love and be with another man. "Why does it matter what I think?"
"Because you are my friend, my closest friend, and your opinion means a lot to me" She answers with a frown. "What's is the matter with you?"
"Nothing" he answers, she raises an eyebrow at him.
"Loki..." she pushes slightly.
"I don't like him" Loki admits quickly, she raises an eyebrow at him.
"Neremy?" she asks. "Why?" he stares at her, he has no good reason, no explanation that he can give that won't give him and his feelings away. He takes a breath and looks away from her.
"Is that what you want?" he asks her, steering the conversation away from him. "To marry him? To...move to Alfheim? To....have his children?"
"I want to be happy" she answers quietly.
"And you're not here?" he counters. "You're not happy in a palace, with everything given to you on a silver platter" he motions to her. "Latest fashion, best tutors...jewels and gifts" he steps closer to her. "You...that's not even royal blood, not....of nobility.....You're just some baby that they felt sorry for..." she takes a breath, surprised by this outburst.
"Loki" she whispers.
"Go right ahead, marry the elf" Loki snaps at her. "See if I care" she stares at him a moment before clenching her jaw.
"Very well" she whispers as she hangs her head, refusing to cry in front of him, she takes a breath and then holds her head up high, her eyes still threatening but she controls it. "Goodbye, your highness" She states and then walks away, Loki's eyes widen with the realization of what he's just done. He's just dismissed his best friend from his life. The woman he loves. He's sent her off to be with another man instead of fighting for her to stay here with him.
"Nienna" he pleads as he grabs her arm to stop her. "I..." he struggles, she takes a breath and turns to him, shaking his hand from her arm.
"I understand," she tells him, he frowns at her. "Pets are always cuter when they're younger, right?" she offers sadly, he stares at her.
"You can not...you can not think that I think of you like that...That is not..." She shakes her head and takes a step away from him as he reaches for her.
"It seems we have outgrown one another" She states clutching her hands to her stomach, trying to remain poised. "And it's time for me to move on" She shakes her head and then leaves him alone, Loki runs his fingers through his hair and lets out a shaky breath, tears gathering in his eyes.
It's weeks later when Loki sees Nienna next, he regretted his conversation with her immediately after she walked away, he's tried to find her since, but it's like she is actively avoiding him. He doesn't blame her. He will never forgive himself for pushing her away like that. He finds her in the gardens, her favorite place to draw, Iorek at her side. She looks exhausted. Her eyes all red and distant. And he did that to her. He hurt her. Loki clenches his fist at his side as he hides himself to listen to them talking.
"Are you sure this is what you want?" Iorek asks of Nienna as she stares at the dying floral bush at her side, he is aware she's been withdrawn the last few weeks. He's actually seen more of Loki than he has of Nienna. The boy is obviously missing her like crazy. He goes to her favorite spots to wait for her to visit, but she never does. She hadn't left her chambers unless it is to talk with Frigga about wedding plans, or spending time with Neremy, until this moment and she is only here with him because he actually dragged her out of her room. She looks exhausted. Emotionally drained. Pained. She is missing Loki just as much as he is missing her.
"It is what is best" She answers flatly as she sets her hands in her lap, clutching them together.
"That is not what I asked you" he whispers, she glances at him.
"Pets don't get a say in their fate, Iorek" she argues.
"Do not lessen their part in your life, or yours in theirs because you are angry and upset with Loki" he scolds her. "Frigga raised you, trained you, Thor is your friend, always has been, and Loki....." Nienna looks away from him and takes a breath. He stops, knowing she is too upset at Loki for him to finish that sentence.
"I cannot stay here" she admits leaning against his side.
"Then....I will go with you" he tells her, she looks at him surprised. "I would follow you anywhere" Iorek assures her. "I am with you, no matter where you go" she gives him a sad smile and nods before she starts crying.
"I never thought I'd leave Asgard" she admits. "But I never thought it would no longer feel like home" She blinks sending tears down her cheek. "Like I have no one left" she whispers sadly.
"You have me" Iorek assures her. "Always" she nods and leans against his shoulder, her fingers clutching to his fur. Iorek meets Loki's eyes across the garden. Loki looks down and away from them. He's really hurt her. He needs to fix this. Fix them. He takes a deep breath and steps into the garden, just as Neremy walks into the garden at the other side, Loki's heart pounds in his chest, he can't talk to her with him there. He needs to be alone with her to explain.
"Nienna" Loki states, calling for her before Neremy can. She appears startled by Loki's appearance as he moves closer to her. "I must talk with you.....Please, I need to talk to you" he whispers, his eyes pleading with her, his eyes begging her to choose him, to stay here with him. Because he needs her to. He just needs her to stay here. With him. He raises an eyebrow in question. Her eyes shining with her tears. Neremy reaches Nienna's side but her eyes remain on Loki.
"Nienna?" Neremy asks her, she takes a breath. Neremy takes her hand and she turns to him, turning her back on Loki. Loki hangs his head, his heartbreaking in his chest. Because he knows she will choose Neremy. Loki can't even tell her how he feels. Even after all these hundreds of years, he still can't admit that he is in love with his best friend. He doesn't deserve her. He walks away from her. Leaves her to her new relationship. To her future as Princess.....as Queen at the side of Neremy. Iorek watches Loki slink off.
Chapter 9: Chapter Five
Loki paces his chambers, Frigga watching him with concern, he's been spiraling the last few weeks. Angry and hurt in equal measure. Angry at the elves. Angry at Odin. Angry at Neremy. Angry at Nienna. Angry at Frigga. Well.....angry with everyone. He takes a harsh breath and closes his eyes before spinning on his mother.
“Why did you do this to me?” Loki asks Frigga, she frowns at him. “Sending her away.....to live with the....elves”
“Loki” She starts sitting next to him.
“She is my friend, and you are sending her away” His voice breaks at the accusation.
“Nienna made the choice to accept Neremy's proposal” Frigga argues. “It was not forced upon her” Loki looks away from her. “I know you care for her, Loki, but this is her choice, and you have to let her make it”
“I do not want her to leave” Loki whispers as he sits on the edge of his bed, Frigga moves to join him, sitting at his side. “I...” he takes a deep breath and then looks at his mother. “I love her” This is not news to Frigga, she knows he loves Nienna, she's always known, but neither he nor Nienna ever acted on those feelings, and Frigga was hoping that a nudge in the right direction would help them, if she pushed Nienna to wed another that Loki would put a stop to it, and it started well, he'd destroyed all the lists Frigga made of the eligible bachelors in Asgard and beyond, she thought that was heading the right way. But this....with Neremy, it wasn't supposed to get this far. Loki was supposed to profess his feelings before it got this far. And he didn't. Now Frigga has to send away her ward, a young woman she has always thought of as family. The only woman that will ever be right for Loki. Frigga takes Loki's hand in hers.
“Have you ever told her?” Frigga asks, Loki shakes his head. “Well, do you think that if she knew how you felt about her, that she might....stay?”
“No” Loki answers sadly, he knows that it wouldn't matter now, if he had told her before their argument, maybe she would have stayed, but not now. “No, I don't think she would, not now”
“Why?” she whispers. “Loki” she pushes when he doesn't answer her. “What did you do?”
“I said some things.....” He admits, Frigga sighs and he brushes his hand over his cheek to remove his tears. “I was upset and angry and I took it out on her”
“Loki” she scolds.
“I've lost her” he admits as he looks at his mother. “And I don't know what I am supposed to do without her” Frigga touches his cheek, curling her hand around it. He falls into her arms to cry, letting her wrap him up tightly.
Thor sits on Nienna's bed as she opens another congratulations letter from some lord of Asgard, she has received a few of them over the last few weeks, each means as much as the last.....they mean nothing to her. But she knows why there are doing it. To show her their allegiance. Thor's eyes follow her as she paces the floor, her eyes scanning over the letter. Her dress skirt dragging slowly along the floor with her movements. He's barely seen her too, he misses his friend, but he knows Loki is feeling it worse, and Thor wants to try and fix it.
“Loki loves you” Thor admits, she nods and takes a deep breath before she sets the letter onto a pile of others. She turns to face Thor.
“I know he does” She assures him, softly. Loki would not have reacted the way he did if he didn't feel something for her, it has taken her the last few weeks to realize just what he feels for her, and she hates him for it, that now is the moment he chooses to show her his feelings, they have been in each others' lives for more than 900 years, but now, now she is engaged to be married, he does this to her. “But he will never admit it” she points out. “And I cannot stay here and hope that one day....he will tell me” Thor nods a little. “I cannot live my life waiting for him to....to give me something. I can have a life with Neremy, a future....”
“He seems to care for you, very much” Thor whispers in agreement, Neremy is very attentive, very kind, very loving towards Nienna, and they have all come to see the elf fall further in love with her the more time he spends with her. “But not as much as Loki does”
“Thor” she warns sadly as she turns away from him, Thor stands from the bed and moves closer to her.
“And you love him” Thor adds. “If you just told him....”
“Loki is not very good at dealing with feelings, any feelings” She reminds him. “As he has proven these last few weeks....” she whispers. “He has to be the one to make the first move, he has to be the one to....admit his feelings.....and he will not...I have waited long enough, Thor” Thor nods a little and touches her arm before he pulls her into a hug.
“I am going to miss you” he whispers, already getting upset at the thought of her not being right down the hall from him. She's been a part of his life since he was a child, and saying goodbye to her is going to be hard on all of them. She pulls back from him and clears her throat.
“How is he?” she asks quietly, Thor shrugs.
“Not dealing” he answers brushing her hair back. “He is taking this hard...”
“I miss him” she admits, he nods, he knows this. “There's not been a part of my life that Loki hasn't been involved in....and he is missing helping me with this, and I am terrified he will not attend my wedding” Thor brushes tears from her cheek. “And I need him to be there...because he is my best friend and I cannot do this without him” she cries because this is the longest she and Loki have ever gone without talking, and she hates it. “This is all my fault, this is a mistake...I should just tell Ner that I can not do this”
“No” he stops her, Thor shakes his head taking her face in his hands. “No, it is not your fault” he assures her. “You can do whatever you want with your life and your love, Nienna, if this is what you want, then it is not a mistake” he gives her a smile, trying to reassure her. “Loki will come around” he tries to promise. But they both know that Loki is stubborn, and he may never accept that she's chosen to do this. “And Neremy loves you, deeply...he will look after you” Thor kisses her forehead and then pulls back. “Are you going to be alright if I go and scold some sense into my brother?”
“Please, do not force him to be okay with this” She pleads with him. “Let him work through it at his own speed” Thor sighs and gives her a smile before nodding. “But if you do have to go...”
“Thank you” he plants a wet kiss on her cheek and then leaves her alone, closing her chamber door behind him, she sighs and closes her eyes before turning to the pile of unopened letters she still has to go through. The door opens again, this time, softer footsteps enter her room. Neremy looks at her as he turns to face her.
“Nienna?” Neremy asks. “My love?” she hums and turns to him as he closes the door. “What is wrong?” Neremy asks noting her eyes and the tear stains on her cheeks, she gives him a small smile and shakes her head. “Loki?” Neremy asks her, she nods. “He still hasn't....come around?” she shakes her head, he brushes his fingers over her cheek and then kisses the opposite one. “If he cares about you” he pulls back. “The way I know he does...then he will” he takes a breath. “If you need us to...we can postpone the wedding...” she shakes her head.
“No” she assures him. “No, I want to marry you....you are my future, and if he cannot see that....” she shakes her head and stops before she upsets herself again.