Maya stared at the test, feeling numb to all emotion. It explained everything and yet it was the worst possible outcome that she could've hoped for. She felt another wave of nausea and she didn't fight it as another round of vomiting forced her over the toilet bowl again, the pregnancy test clattering to the floor.
It wasn't fair, to her or to Nick. They didn't want to talk about it, and if she were to be honest she had scattered memories of what had happened before they woke up, it was like trying to remember a dream.
She could feel his hands on her body, touching places that she had only dreamed of him touching. She gasped, and moaned out his name.
She pulled herself free from the toilet and the memories. Her body felt hot, but she knew she had to call him. Grabbing the towel, she wiped her mouth and motioned for Pearl, who was hovering at the bathroom door and fretting with worry. "Pearly, can you get my phone for me please?"
Kurian didn't have many places that had service, and it took a lot more effort than Maya was normally comfortable with to drag herself to the closest spot and dialed his number. "Nick? I-It's Maya. Listen. We need to talk, something serious."
She had to laugh as he thought it was another murder charge. "No, no. Nothing like that. But it's...it's about what happened in Labyrinthia." There was silence on the other end. "Please Nick, something came up and I need to tell you."
She was so nervous on her first day there. She and Nick were passionate but they didn't know the first thing about baking bread. Something in the back of her head nagged at her that she would be accepted, but she clasped Nick's hand for support as they stepped into the bakery
Maya blinked back tears, wiping her eyes and sniffling. "Yes, as soon as possible...tonight? A-Alright." She hiccuped a little. "I'll make us dinner! It's been a while since you've stayed over. A Maya Fey Special!" She had to force the cheer in her voice, and even to her it sounded strained and weak. She quickly hung up, and slumped where she sat.
Eventually she stood back up, catching her breath and placing a hand on her stomach. She wiped her eyes again and gave what she hoped was a defusing and warm smile to Pearl before hugging the little girl closer to her. "It'll be okay Pearly, I promise."
Pearl hugged her back, her eyes full of determination and fire. She promised Maya that they'd make it through and Maya had to fight back the tears of pride that threatened to fall down.
She's always wanted to be a mother. She confessed it to Nick just as things started heating up. He kissed her softly and whispered against her lips that she'd be a wonderful mother
The wait for him was agonizing. She had busied herself on making dinner and when he finally announced his presence, she lost her appetite. False memories (or were they real, she could never tell) and conflicting emotions swirled inside of her when he stepped into the kitchen.
She could see the conflict in his eyes, and she motioned for him to sit down. She gave Pearl her portion first and instructed her to leave them alone for a while, and she followed without hesitation. After Maya had served them both dinner, she sat down in front of him.
He looked so serious. Maya felt her heart race against her wishes, intrusive thoughts that she knew she didn't believe were invading her mind, how handsome he looked.
"God you're beautiful," He whispered hotly against her ear, their bodies pressed together and Maya could only gasp and whimper in response
"I'm...sorry, for calling you up about this. But..." She trailed off, terrified beyond belief.
He must've seen it on her face, and he reached over and grabbed her hand softly. Whether he meant it as a friend or something else, she couldn't tell anymore. It was so hard to know what they even were. "Hey, whatever it is, I'll be there for you, okay?"
They would stick by each other no matter what. That's what they promised each other even if they never understood what each other meant. She let out a quiet whimper and flung herself into his arms, crying against his shoulder. "Oh god Nick, I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant and I know why..."
Maya had thrown up everything the next day after the mind control broke. Nick rubbed her back soothingly, looking rather pale himself. "Nick...Nick oh god " She whimpered. Nick just nodded his head, understanding completely.
He inhaled softly, but hugged her fiercely and buried his face against her hair. "We knew that it was a risk." She nodded, hiccuping again. It was so alien being this close to him but it felt so right. He rubbed her back and his voice dropped to a whisper. "I won't leave you. I'll help in any way I can."
Maya knew she meant it and that meant the world to her. Her whole frame was wrought with tears, and she clung to him like a life-line, afraid that if she let go he'd be gone from her life forever. "I-I know...thank you...I just-after what happened..."
Maya shifted herself against Nick's naked form. They were out of breath and red in the face, but as she lay her head against his chest, she felt oddly at peace. "I love you." She mumbled out.
"I love you too." He said back.
"I know, I know." He soothed, rocking slightly. "I don't...I don't know either. It, I want to be with you but at the same time it feels, feels so..."
"Wrong?" She finished, and he nodded in agreement. They had a bond now, some deep understanding of one another. She didn't know what it meant, but she just knew it was there. "Yeah, I feel that way too."
"Do you want to keep it?" His thumb brushed over her knuckles, and she shrugged.
"I haven't decided yet."
"Just think Nick!" She chirped brightly, pulling her robes on and patting her apron down. "Soon bread isn't the only thing that's gonna be baking in my oven!" He squawked in indignation, and she threw her head back and laughed happily at her partner's reaction.
"That's understandable, wanna sit on it for a few days? I'll support you no matter what."
"Yeah...c'mon, let's eat."
Phoenix and Maya ate in relative silence, making small talk here and there but overall just enjoying each other's company.
It was all they had left anymore.