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PRESENT

Don’t get him wrong, Taehyung liked parties, especially when they were celebrating successful wrap of a new movie but right now, he was kinda bored. He was chatting lightly with his colleagues that he was working with for the past few months and he made sure that there was always a glass of wine in his hand. They had a fancy party in a hotel in Tokyo because that is where Taehyung lived and filmed the movie for past six months or so.

He was in the middle of conversation with a make-up artist when a voice interrupted them: “If this is not Kim Taehyung.” Taehyung’s eyes widened in surprise and in excitement, he turned around and squealed when he saw a familiar face in front of him.

“Jiminie!” the actor exclaimed and threw himself at the idol. Behind Jimin’s back he saw other familiar faces that he missed so much.

“Hyungs!” Taehyung exclaimed again and hugged first Namjoon, then Seokjin and then Hoseok.

“What are you doing here?” the actor looked at his friends that he hasn’t seen for months with surprise.

“Well, we did a song on the soundtrack for your movie and we are currently touring Japan so we were invited to this party,” Namjoon was the one who replied. Taehyung’s eyes scanned their surroundings for one face in particular.

“Is…is he here?” Taehyung mumbled and looked at Jimin.

“Yah! You see us after half a year but of course the only one you are interested in seeing is him,” Jimin scolded him but he was smiling. He understood Taehyung, all of them did.

“He’s somewhere with Yoongi, they should join us soon,” Hoseok answered Taehyung’s question. The actor breathed out. He couldn’t believe it. He had no idea that Bangtan would be here tonight and he had no idea that he will see him. Suddenly the evening wasn’t that bad.

His breath caught in his throat and his heart started beating a bit faster when he finally spotted that familiar face. Their eyes met and Taehyung felt like floating away.

Jeongguk looked as good as ever, if not even better. He didn’t change much in the past six months but he still looked more mature, just like he always did when they saw each other. Taehyung’s legs started moving on their own accord towards the raven-haired man as they were holding an eye contact. Yoongi went towards him and gave him a short hug. Then he joined the other four members, giving the two their space. They all knew how special this was for them.

Taehyung approached Jeongguk and they were just standing there, staring at each other for a moment before the younger stretched out his hands and pulled Taehyung into a tight hug.

“Gukkie,” Taehyung mumbled against the idol’s neck when he buried his face there. He closed his eyes and took in the familiar scent of the cologne, relishing in the feeling of being in the younger’s arms again.

“I missed you so much,” Jeongguk whispered with emotional voice. Taehyung pulled himself from the younger so he could properly look at him.

“I had no idea you’d be here. It’s been so long,” Taehyung teared up.

“Too long,” Jeongguk nodded, looking at the older as if he was some creature out of this world. And he was, to Jeongguk at least, he was his angel.

“How long are you going to stay?” Taehyung got out a question that he didn’t want the answer to but he needed it. That question was always there between them.

“Couple of days, we have two shows here in Tokyo,”

“That’s good, that’s enough time for us to catch up,” the older smiled widely.

“Yeah, it is,” the younger nodded with the same bright smile and then he added with a suggestive voice: “We are actually accommodated in this hotel.”

“Good,” Taehyung’s face showed a hint of smirk: “We should go to the others, they would be bitching if I didn’t talk to them at least for a bit.”

“No problem, we have the whole night,” Jeongguk nodded and they went to join the rest of Jeongguk’s group. Taehyung missed them all so much, they became friends years ago and anytime Taehyung had a chance to see them, he was reminded why he liked them so much. Despite not spending so much time with them, he considered all of them his best friends.

“So, Taehyungie, where to now? Are you moving again?” Hoseok looked at the actor. Taehyung was moving for the work all around the world, that was the reason why he didn’t see them often, why he didn’t see Jeongguk often.

“Yeah, I am leaving in a week, Hong Kong this time,” Taehyung informed them. He noticed from the corner of his eye Jeongguk staring at him. He knew he was disappointed. He felt the same when he found out he wasn’t going back to Korea. But this was his life, this is what he chose and he didn’t have to take that part in a new movie in Hong Kong, he could take something back home but this is what he wanted.

They were chatting and drinking little bit, remembering old times and things they’ve been through together. At some point, Jeongguk’s arm curled around Taehyung’s waist and the older melted against him, just like he was did.

“Jesus christ, just go,” Jimin snorted at one point.

“What?” Taehyung looked at his fellow ’95 liner.

“We can all see that you are both dying to be finally alone and we get it, it’s been so long. Just go, we are going to be in Tokyo for couple of days, we can catch up later,” Jimin rolled his eyes but he was smiling.

“Thanks,” Taehyung looked down with sheepish smile. Jimin was right. He was happy to see all of them but right now he wanted to be with only one person.

Jeongguk grabbed his hand without any word and started pulling him away. Taehyung turned to the five guys one last time: “How about lunch tomorrow, here in the hotel restaurant?”

“Sounds great!” Hoseok gave him thumbs up.

“Have fun,” Seokjin smirked.

As soon as they were in a hallway and away from the people and music, Jeongguk turned to Taehyung. He cupped his cheeks softly and gave him the smile that was reserved only for the actor.

“Hi,” Jeongguk whispered.

“Hey,” Taehyung breathed out with shaky voice because he knew what was coming and he couldn’t wait for it. As soon as he saw Jeongguk’s face getting closer, he went forward, meeting him halfway. Their lips connected in a soft kiss, tasting each other after more than half a year.

The kiss lasted only few seconds and when they separated, they rested their foreheads together. Jeongguk’s thumbs were stroking Taehyung’s cheeks and the older held his wrists.

“Fuck, I missed you so much, you have no idea,” Jeongguk whispered.

“I think I do because I missed you too,” Taehyung whispered back and closed the gap between them again. This time they parted lips and their tongues met. The kiss turned deep and more urgent after couple of seconds.

“We have a lot of catching up to do,” Jeongguk mumbled into the kiss.

“We have couple of days for that,” Taehyung broke the kiss and leaned against Jeongguk’s ear to whisper: “Right now I want you to fuck me.” The younger groaned at the request but he didn’t need to be told twice.

They made it to the elevator and as soon as the door closed and they rode up, they jumped at each other again, kissing hungrily and grinding their crotches together. Yeah, it’s been too long.

They somehow made it to Jeongguk’s hotel room and as soon as the door shut close behind them, the idol slammed Taehyung’s back against it, trapping his lips in another desperate kiss. Then he glued his mouth to Taehyung’s neck, licking it and sucking in bruises.

“B-bed,” Taehyung breathed out shakily: “Come on, Gukkie.”

“Impatient, aren’t we, baby?” Jeongguk snickered and kept on biting and kissing his neck.

“It’s been six mont-ah..” Taehyung moaned:”…six months. Of course I’m fucking impatient.” Jeongguk only laughed at that but thankfully complied. He grabbed Taehyung’s hips, led him to the bed and lied him down. He climbed over him, settling between his legs.

Jeongguk’s fingers quickly unbuttoned Taehyung’s silky shirt and slipped it from him to toss it on the floor. He immediately glued his mouth to the older’s chest, sucking in bruises.

Taehyung was squirming and whimpering under him as Jeongguk’s mouth was working on his chest and his hips started grinding so their clothed erections were rubbing together.

“Please, Jeongguk, hurry up,” Taehyung whined desperately.

“You don’t wanna take it slow, angel?” Jeongguk looked up at him.

“We have the next days for that. I want you, now, I need you so fucking much,” Taehyung looked at him with desperate, lustful eyes.

“As you wish, baby,” Jeongguk nodded and pecked his lips: “How do you want it?”

“Fast and hard, fuck I need to feel you, god,” the older groaned helplessly, squirming under the younger’s body.

“Shit, baby,” Jeongguk groaned at his words but he was quick to comply, too turned on and desperate as well. He hasn’t felt Taehyung for half a year, he needed him right now. He quickly got rid of their pants and underwear so they were soon naked.

Jeongguk stretched out his hand to the night stand where he previously prepared lube and condoms. He knew that Taehyung would be at the party and he knew how the evening would end.

“No condom, I need to feel you.” Taehyung spoke up when he saw what the younger was taking out.

“Are you sure?”

“I don’t fuck with anyone without a condom, only you,” the older looked at him. Jeongguk’s chest tightened at the information. The thought of Taehyung with someone else was making his blood boil but that was their arrangement so he couldn’t really say anything. It was making him warm inside at the same time though, the confession that Taehyung went bareback only with him.

Soon Jeongguk’s fingers were coated in lube and he was circling Taehyung’s entrance. The older was whimpering impatiently and his whimpers turned into a long moan when the younger finally pushed the finger past the tight ring of muscles.

“Shit, baby, you are so tight, can’t wait to feel you around me,” the singer groaned once he started fucking the finger in and out.

“Fe-feels so good, Gukkie, so good, more,” Taehyung choked out. He was almost out of his mind already, he could always come apart from Jeongguk’s touches and he needed more, his whole body was burning for it.

Thankfully Jeongguk complied and pushed the second and soon also third finger inside. After few minutes of fucking Taehyung with his fingers and driving him to the edge, Jeongguk finally pulled out his fingers, lubed up his hard neglected cock and lied down between the older’s legs.

“Shit, baby, you have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for this,” Jeongguk whispered softly once he was facing the other, cupped his cheek with a hand and kissed him passionately. Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jeongguk’s neck and pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. He gasped into Jeongguk’s mouth and whined when he felt the head of Jeongguk’s erection enter him.

They both moaned in unison against each other’s mouth at the sensation of finally being connected again. Once Jeongguk bottomed, they were panting together.

“I missed this, I missed you so much,” Taehyung looked him straight in the eyes with emotional expression.

“I missed you too, angel,” Jeongguk smiled softly. He gripped Taehyung’s hips, making sure to leave bruises because he knew the older loved it and he withdrew his hips only to slam back inside.

Taehyung was letting out moans and whimpers as the younger was setting up a speed until he was pounding into him mercilessly after minute. The soft moment was gone just as fast as it came and it was replaced by lust and desire again.

“Oh g-ah, shit, Gukkie…so fucking good!” Taehyung cried out at one particularly deep thrust that went right to his prostate.

“Fuck, baby, I missed this, I missed feeling you around me,” Jeongguk choked out against Taehyung’s neck and bit on it harshly.

“Missed it too,” Taehyung whimpered: “No one can fuck me like you, Jeongguk, no one.”

That confession made Jeongguk groan and it snapped something in him. He grabbed Taehyung’s legs and threw them on his shoulders and bent down so the older was almost bent in half. Then he started snapping his hips with bigger energy than before, making the man under him scream in pleasure.

“Shit, baby, look at you. So fucking beautiful, so fucked out from my cock,” Jeongguk looked at the other with dark eyes and took in his appearance. His messy hair, glossy eyes, swollen lips and flushed cheeks. An image that he’s seen thousand times before but an image that he will never get tired of seeing.

“God, Gukkie, so close,” Taehyung whimpered with closed eyes, feeling the heat in his stomach.

“Me too, angel, fuck. Go on, come for me,” Jeongguk encouraged him and fucked into him as fast and as hard as he could. He sneaked his hand between Taehyung’s legs and grabbed his leaking cock. He didn’t even start stroking it and Taehyung was already screaming, chanting Jeongguk’s name. His eyes rolled back, his mouth opened in a silent scream and he shot his load all over his stomach and chest.

Jeongguk almost choked when he felt the older tighten around him and that was enough to drive him over the edge. He grunted under his breath, buried himself inside as deep as he could and came hard, filling the other to the brim. Taehyung whimpered brokenly at the feeling of being filled, something he hasn’t felt for six months and he pulled Jeongguk down for a kiss.

Half an hour later, after a quick shower, they were laying snuggled together in the bed. Taehyung was pressed to Jeongguk’s side as he was drawing lazy circles into his defined stomach. Jeongguk’s arm was resting on Taehyung’s hip, stroking the flesh softly.

“It’s good to see you and the boys again. I really missed you,” Taehyung broke the comfortable silence. He didn’t need to speak all the time when he was with Jeongguk, they had a long history together and he felt comfortable just by being with him.

“We missed you too, it’s been so damn long,” Jeongguk hummed in agreement. He felt nice and happy now when he had the older in his arms but his chest felt tight because he knew that they had only few days, just like always. They will say goodbye to each other in few days and won’t see each other for months again. That’s how it’s been for years.

“What are you going to work on in Hong Kong?” the younger spoke up after a while.

“Some TV show drama, the script looks really good,”

“Well I hope it does, otherwise you wouldn’t take it,” Jeongguk chuckled quietly. Taehyung heard unspoken words in Jeongguk’s voice, words that were always lingering there between them: If you didn’t like the job, you would come back to Korea. To me.

“And how is tour going for you?” Taehyung changed the topic.

“Good, it’s exhausting but good. I am really enjoying it, you know, even after all these years, it still makes me happy,”

“I’m glad to hear that,” Taehyung smiled lightly. He always admired Jeongguk’s passion, dedication and hard work he put into his job of an idol and he always loved seeing the younger’s enthusiasm for the job. He was happy that Jeongguk was happy.

“Last month, it was six years since we met. Did you remember?” Jeongguk spoke up quietly after few moments.

“Of course I remembered,” Taehyung whispered and suddenly felt his chest tighten. As if Jeongguk could feel the change in his mood, he pressed him closer to himself. They were both quiet for a while then Taehyung turned to his side and lifted his head to look at the younger properly.

“You know, despite things not working out as we might have wished, I never regretted meeting you,” the older said, looking the other straight in the eyes.

“I know, baby, me neither,” Jeongguk smiled sadly at him: “I could never regret meeting you and having you in my life, even if it’s always just for a while.”

Taehyung felt tears burning in his eyes at all the memories that started flooding his brain. A lot has happened in those years, good things and bad things but he wouldn’t change anything. And most importantly, he was here with Jeongguk now and that was all that mattered at the moment. He refused to think about how his heart breaks in few days when Jeongguk leaves Tokyo because it always broke when he watched him leaving.

“We still have few days, let’s make the best out of it,” Jeongguk smiled and cupped his cheek as if he could read his thoughts. Taehyung gave him a smile and leaned down to kiss him.

“Well then we better not waste our time,” Taehyung mumbled against the younger’s lips, got up and straddled his hips.

“We have a whole night and then couple of others,” Jeongguk smiled, grabbed Taehyung’s hips and brought him down for another kiss.

 

FLASHBACK

Taehyung and Jeongguk first met when they were only seventeen and sixteen. Jeongguk was a rookie of newly debuted idol group and Taehyung was a starting actor and model.

They met during filming of some talk show that BTS, Taehyung and few other young starting artists all attended. They chatted with MCs and they played some games.

Taehyung was already sitting in the studio, ready to start when the six member group came in. All of them were young handsome man and since they only started, Taehyung hasn’t heard about them yet but as soon as they entered, they brought energy to the room and he knew that this evening will be fun.

They started shooting and all of them introduced themselves. Taehyung was watching closely as all of them were speaking and his eyes lingered on a black-haired boy. He was surely younger than Taehyung and he was hella cute but also very handsome. He looked quite shy but Taehyung could understand that.

They were proceeding with the interview and then the MCs challenged the idols to show off some dance moves. They were shouting one over another and Taehyung was giggling at their silliness. He really liked them, they seemed like funny and nice guys.

It was decided that only the members of dance line will dance and first up was the leader of the line, Hoseok. Music started playing and everyone was cheering and Taehyung was watching the guy with dropped jaw. He was really damn good. Then next up was Jimin who was just as amazing as Hoseok. Taehyung was kinda envious. He himself wasn’t a very great dancer so seeing someone so talented was making him slightly jealous.

Then it was Jeongguk’s turn. Taehyung was watching him closely, excited to see what he will show and he sure wasn’t disappointed. His movements weren’t as precise and natural as Hoseok’s and Jimin’s but there was something so powerful and intriguing in his dancing that caught Taehyung’s attention. Strangely, he thought Jeongguk was the best, at least in his opinion.

Then they played some silly games, he was paired with couple of members of the group and one other young actor and they were playing against the other group. From the idols, he ended up with Yoongi, Jimin and Jeongguk.

Taehyung didn’t remember when was the last time he laughed this hard like that evening. He and Jimin seemed to click almost instantly, Yoongi was just blatantly savage and funny and Jeongguk, although shy at the beginning, turned out to be goofy and funny as well.

When the show was filmed, they went to changing rooms together.

“I had really fun tonight,” Taehyung smiled at the idols.

“It was nice meeting you, Taehyung,” Namjoon smiled warmly at him.

“I hope we will meet again,” someone behind Taehyung’s back spoke up and when he turned around, he was met with the maknae. He couldn’t really pinpoint what it was, but something in Jeongguk’s eyes made Taehyung’s insides squirm. Since he was young, he never felt something like this before and he had no idea back then that he will feel exactly the same thing every time he will see the idol.

“Yeah, I hope so too,” Taehyung lowered his head with a sheepish smile and flushed cheeks.

That was the evening when Taehyung met BTS and ever since then, they became friends. That was the evening when he met Jeongguk. Back then, he had no slightest idea how much one evening in a TV studio on a cold October night will change his life for another six years and possibly forever.

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FLASHBACK

In July, Taehyung’s manager announced him that he was going to do a commercial at the end of August. That wouldn’t be such a big deal, Taehyung was doing fine in the film industry and his face and name were becoming well known and wanted, but when his manager told him that he will be doing that commercial with BTS, Taehyung felt over the moon.

He hasn’t seen them for months, they met only once in October and then nothing. But still, Taehyung was really excited because he had so much fun with them the last time and the prospect of working with them for two days was definitely nice.

They would be filming the commercial for some soda or whatever in some location outside of Seoul. Taehyung found out that they will film a pool party in the evening when the sun sets, in some hotel complex and that was even better. He was kinda nervous too, he didn’t even know if the idols will remember him.

“Taehyung-ah!” Jimin ran to him when he arrived and all Taehyung’s worries were gone. The other members greeted him as well, as if they were good old friends. Taehyung’s gaze lingered on Jeongguk couple of seconds longer than on the others. The boy looked somehow more mature even though he was still so young and Taehyung had to admit that he was getting more handsome by day. The maknae gave him a small smile that made Taehyung’s cheeks burn red.

They had so much fun the first late afternoon slash evening. Taehyung didn’t even feel like he was working, he was having the time of his life with the six guys. Although most of them were older than Taehyung, they were all nice and also pretty goofy, he was surprised that they got some work done, honestly.

They were all staying in the hotel that the pool belonged to and Jimin invited Taehyung to join him and Hoseok in their room to eat some room service and play video games. To the actor’s pleasant surprise, the maknae was there as well and he soon found out that Jeongguk was very tough competitor. Taehyung always thought that he was great in video games but the maknae was skilled as well. They were bickering and playfully fighting half of the night. Taehyung kinda envied them. They had each other and they had so much fun all the time, he wished he had some great group of people around him as well.

The next day of filming was even better. Taehyung was messing around mostly with Jimin and Jeongguk. He got on really well with them, probably because they were so close with age to each other. They were filming also in the pool and he and Jeongguk got into a water fight, dragging everyone in it as well.

When they were done filming, BTS’s staff surprised them with surprise birthday party for Jeongguk since his birthday was only in few days. Taehyung might have or might have not look up some info about the members after he met them back in October so this was not new information to him. Their staff and managers prepared a surprise barbecue.

“Well, I’m gonna head inside,” Taehyung scratched the back of his head and smiled sheepishly at Jeongguk.

“What? No way, you have to stay here with us!” the maknae pouted.

“It’s your birthday, you should celebrate it with your members and staff,”

“You’re right, it is my birthday and I want you to stay so don’t you dare to turn me down,” Jeongguk raised his eyebrow cockily and well, Taehyung couldn’t really say no to that.

They ate and chatted and it was all amazing. At some point of the evening, Bangtan’s managers and staff left them so they could enjoy the party by themselves. The older members of the group were drinking bit of beer the whole evening and as soon as the staff left, Yoongi pulled out soju from somewhere.

“Here you go, have some fun and celebrate your birthday,” Seokjin handed a small bottle of flavoured soju to Jeongguk with a wink. The maknae looked at him incredulously.

“Really?” the maknae asked sceptically. Seokjin nodded and the birthday boy took the bottle excitedly.

“Share with Tae, I think one small bottle will be more than enough for you,” the oldest member laughed.

“You think this is a good idea?” Namjoon looked at Seokjin.

“Why not? It’s his birthday, Namjoon-ah, let him live a little,”

“Yeah, it’s his birthday but he’s only seventeen,” the leader insisted.

“Who cares? I think it’s better that he drinks here with us where we can keep an eye on him than doing it alone or with some friends of the same age,” Seokjin shrugged.

“He’s right, Namjoon-ah, it’s not a big deal. It’s not like any of us didn’t have a sip of booze until we were legal. The kid’s been working his ass off for the past three years, he deserves to experience some normal teen stuff,” Yoongi jumped into the conversation and the leader gave up.

Jeongguk and Taehyung shared the bottle and soon it was empty. It wasn’t the first time Taehyung drank alcohol but he still wasn’t used to it. He wasn’t drunk but his head was buzzing nicely and he felt really good.

He spotted a two seat bench swing in the corner of the backyard and went to sit there, watching the stars above him. Few minutes later, someone sat down next to him and when he raised his head, he was met with Jeongguk. The other members were few meters from them, chatting and drinking, not paying attention to them at all.

“Thank you for inviting me to your party,” Taehyung broke the silence.

“I am happy you accepted,” the maknae gave him a small smile.

“You know…” Taehyung spoke up after a while. He didn’t know where he got the courage, maybe it was the alcohol but he didn’t want to back down: “Birthday boys deserve a birthday kiss.”

“Yeah?” Jeongguk breathed out with wide eyes. Taehyung just smiled sheepishly and leaned in to plant a soft kiss on the younger’s cheek. He could feel Jeongguk’s breath catching in his throat.

When Taehyung leaned back with flushed cheeks, the maknae was staring at him with unreadable expression. Suddenly there was a hand on Taehyung’s cheek and now it was the older whose breath caught in his throat. Before he could process what was happening, there were soft lips again his. It was just a peck and it lasted few seconds but it still took Taehyung’s breath away.

He was surprised by the action, he didn’t take Jeongguk for the bold type but it was definitely a pleasant surprise because he wouldn’t dare to make the first step. He was glad that the maknae took the initiative and went for it.

“Is this alright?” Jeongguk whispered when they separated, his hand still on Taehyung’s cheek.

“Yeah,” Taehyung whispered back and looked up at the maknae through his eyelashes: “More.” he breathed out. Jeongguk only smiled at his demand but closed the gap between them again, kissing the older with bigger urgency now.

Their lips started slowly moving together, moulding perfectly. Suddenly Taehyung felt Jeongguk’s tongue licking on his bottom lip and he gasped in surprise. The younger used this opportunity to slip his tongue inside Taehyung’s mouth. The actor’s head was spinning as their tongues danced together.

They separated again after half a minute but only to take breaths before they were kissing again, more urgently and sloppily this time. It wasn’t Taehyung’s first kiss, he got his when he was fifteen but this felt so much better. It was sloppy and they were both clearly inexperienced but it was somehow perfect.

Neither of them seemed to get enough, it never went further than just kissing but it was desperate and right here, under the stars also pretty much perfect.

“Well, looks like Jeonggukie is enjoying his birthday to the fullest,” they were interrupted by Hoseok’s chuckle. They broke the kiss and looked briefly at the five members, who were watching them with smirks. Jimin wolf whistled at them.

“I said let him enjoy normal teen stuff,” Yoongi shrugged with a smirk and thankfully they turned their attention away from them.

Jeongguk rolled his eyes and his cheeks started burning with embarrassment. He completely forgot about his hyungs sitting only few meters away from them and now he felt awkward. He felt Taehyung’s hand squeezing his thigh and when he looked up, he was met with reassuring smile. The older leaned in, capturing his lips again and they both soon forgot about the embarrassment, completely lost in each other. That was the evening when they first made out and they had no idea that they will share thousand more kisses in the next years.

 

PRESENT

Jeongguk and Taehyung met with the other members in a hotel restaurant for a lunch just like they planned the previous night.

“Had fun catching up?” Jimin wiggled his eyebrows.

“You want details or what?” Jeongguk glared at him as he sat down next to Taehyung.

“Just let them be, you know how it always is when they see each other,” Hoseok rolled his eyes at Jimin.

They ordered drinks and meals and chatted lightly. It didn’t matter how long they haven’t seen each other, they could always meet, anywhere in the world and talk like no time passed. Taehyung took Bangtan as his family at this point, they’ve been together through a lot, even though he wasn’t a part of the group.

“Anyway, how are things going between you two?” Taehyung turned with a smile to Namjoon and Seokjin when they were done eating and ordered a coffee. The leader’s hand was resting comfortably on the vocalist’s thigh like it belonged there, completely comfortable after years of being together.

“Everything’s great, just like always,” Seokjin flashed him a bright smile and his boyfriend nodded in agreement. Taehyung was really happy for them, they have been dating for almost five years and they were always happy together. He was actually kinda jealous of the relationship they had, it always reminded him of his own life and the decisions that led him and Jeongguk to where they were now.

“You gonna come to the show tonight?” Jimin jumped into the conversation, looking at the actor.

“Yeah, sure. I have no schedule anymore since I am leaving Tokyo in a week so I am completely free,” Taehyung smiled.

“Great, then you can come today and tomorrow, we’ll get you a VIP pass,” Jimin chirped happily.

And that is how Taehyung found himself in an arena full of screaming fans. He spent some time backstage with the group but when the show was about to start, he went to the VIP section so he could see them on stage properly.

He had his face mask on, he didn’t need any unwanted attention on him and he was smiling underneath it the whole show. He was humming all the songs, he knew every single one of them. He was always quick to purchase new BTS album, he’s always supported them in their careers just like they supported him. It was so nice watching them on stage in their professional mode while they were performing and in their goofy mode when they were talking together or interacting with their fans.

After the show ended, he and Jeongguk didn’t waste any time and went back to the hotel. They had only couple of days left and as they promised to each other, they wanted to get the best of them. They were rolling under the sheets the whole night, fucking or making out, sweaty and hot and they were taking breaks to just lie there and chat, catching up on everything they missed in the past six months. They fell asleep in each other’s arms only when the sun started already rising.

*

Taehyung went to the show the second night too but after the concert, he and Jeongguk didn’t go to the hotel. BTS had only two nights left in Tokyo and they agreed on going for drinks this night so Taehyung and Jeongguk could have the last night together. Everyone in the group got already used to this little tradition Taehyung and Jeongguk had whenever they saw each other so it was nothing new.

Around midnight, they were already settled in some nice bar under the dim lights in a VIP section so they wouldn’t be bothered by anyone. The waiters were bringing them drinks so they really didn’t have to go anywhere and raise some unwanted attention. They didn’t need people to ask for photos or autographs, they just wanted to enjoy a nice evening together.

Taehyung and Jeongguk were attached to each other’s hips the whole time, the maknae’s hand never left the actor’s waist or thigh as they sat pressed together. At some point of the evening, they just started lazily making out while the other five members were chatting around them. No one even batted an eye, again, it was nothing new and they were already used to it.

“I’m going to the restroom or else my bladder will burst any second,” Jimin chuckled and got up from a sofa.

“Wait, I’ll go with you,” Taehyung broke the kiss with Jeongguk when he heard the idol and got up as well.

“How are you doing?” Seokjin turned to Jeongguk once the two ’95 liners left the section.

“Great,” the maknae looked at the oldest with baffled expression because he didn’t understand why Seokjin was asking.

“I mean, I know this is yours and Tae’s little tradition but we all know it always leaves you broken for weeks after you leave him,” Seokjin looked at him sympathetically. It was not his place to judge, he didn’t care about what they were doing but it always hurt him to see their maknae wandering around like a ghost for weeks after couple of days spent with the actor.

“Couple of days with him is always all I’ve got and those weeks after are worth it,” Jeongguk looked at him with painful expression. Seokjin sighed. No matter what, those two couldn’t let each other go and it was hurting them both. They always came back to each other, after all these years and it left them broken to pieces. Seokjin loved Taehyung but sometimes he wished Jeongguk could just move on and find someone else, someone who could be with him more than just couple of days a year.

Taehyung grabbed Jimin’s hand when they were heading to the restrooms so he wouldn’t lose him. Even though this was mainly a bar, a lot of people were dancing and it was quite packed. They were keeping their heads down so no one would recognize them but the place was mostly dark so it wasn’t hard.

After they were done and were washing their hands, Taehyung looked at his friend through the mirror: “How is Jeonggukie doing?”

“Mm, good, I think?” Jimin gave him a raised eyebrow.

“I mean, I noticed he’s drinking again…” the actor added and Jimin didn’t need any further explanation.

“You talking about his not-so-little drinking problem from two years ago?” the older asked and Taehyung nodded, biting his lip nervously.

“He’s good, believe me. He drinks here and there but only to a certain amount, always just couple of drinks a night. We are keeping an eye on him after that period, don’t worry. We mostly drink together, he isn’t leaving the dorm in the middle of the night anymore,” Jimin reassured him with a small smile.

“Good, okay,” Taehyung breathed out. Those were some hard times two years ago, Taehyung will never forget it and he was still getting anxious when he saw the maknae with a drink in his hand but if Jimin says everything is alright, then he believes him. And Jeongguk promised him too.

“And how are you doing?” Jimin looked at the actor with serious expression.

“You talking about my drunken call from two months ago?” the younger chuckled bitterly.

“Yeah. I just want to make sure you’re okay and you’ve got this, Tae,” Jimin smiled at him: “I mean, you were calling me at three in the morning, completely shit-faced, sobbing for an hour about how much you miss him.”

“I am fine, it was just a small breakdown,” Taehyung waved his hand dismissively.

“Small breakdown that happened couple of times in the past few years,” Jimin sighed: “I just want to know that you’ll be alright when we leave in two days.”

“I won’t,” Taehyung shrugged matter-of-factly: “I never am, you know that but…I just can’t help it. Every time I see him, I don’t think about what will be in couple of days. I know we will say goodbye like always but…I can’t let him go, Jiminie, I just can’t.”

“I know,” Jimin nodded sadly with understanding. To say that things between Taehyung and Jeongguk were complicated was an understatement but nothing seemed to be able to break them apart.

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FLASHBACK

Taehyung met BTS again half a year after the filming of the commercial. He was presenting an award on some music award show and the group was nominated for some award and they were also performing. That was the first time Taehyung saw them on stage live and he was mesmerized. He didn’t understand how these guys still haven’t blown up, it was almost two years after their debut and they already had a solid fanbase but they deserved so much more. They were so talented and their stage presence and performance were flawless.

The actor was watching them from backstage because soon it was his turn to present the award for the best girl group and he felt like his heart was touched when Jeongguk started singing. He’s heard him on their records before (Taehyung got them all by now) but he’s never heard him live and to say that he was mesmerized by the younger was an understatement. He was convinced that this was the first thing you hear when you enter the heaven. He was standing there with mouth agape the whole time until the guys finished their performance and went backstage.

“You were absolutely fucking amazing!” Taehyung cheered loudly.

“Tae!” Jimin exclaimed when all the members looked around to see who complimented them. The idol ran to hug the actor and soon the other guys were on him as well.

“Hi,” Taehyung mumbled with sheepish smile when he stood in front of Jeongguk. They haven’t seen each other since that night by the pool. No one had to know that Taehyung was thinking about those kisses they shared for couple of weeks after that.

“Hey,” the younger gave him a crooked smile that made Taehyung blush even more and his knees nearly buckled. Just like before, also this time Jeongguk looked somehow more mature. He also seemed more confident, he wasn’t that young, shy rookie anymore and the actor had to admit that he really liked it. He felt somehow small under the maknae’s gaze and the fact that he was sweating after the performance and looked hotter than ever wasn’t helping.

“I have to go present an award in a minute,” Taehyung cleared his throat.

“I hope I’ll see you around after the show,” Jeongguk replied quietly and the actor swore he saw sparkles in his eyes. He gulped and nodded.

Two hours later, Taehyung was pressed between a wall and Jeongguk’s quite broad body. Even though he was younger, he was stronger and more muscular than Taehyung since the older had to maintain his body delicate and soft for his roles and occasional modelling.

They were making out feverishly, grabbing onto each other and licking into each other’s mouth. They both got bolder over the time they haven’t seen each other and they got also hornier, their hormones full on raging. They were still backstage where the award show was held, in some kind of small storage room but neither of them cared.

Jeongguk got bolder and pressed himself closer to the older. Taehyung let out surprised tiny moan when their erections rubbed together through their pants. Jeongguk broke the kiss and looked at the other with lust in his eyes, that little sound was enough to drive him crazy.

The maknae moved his lips to Taehyung’s jaw, planted few open mouthed kisses there and then moved to his neck, sucking and biting on it. The actor was getting needier and more aroused by second and when Jeongguk started grinding his hips against his, giving them both much needed friction, Taehyung nearly lost it and moaned shamelessly.

Neither of them was very experienced when it came to sex since they were working in showbusiness since very young age so they didn’t even know what they were doing but their instincts and lust were driving them forward.

“Jeongguk,” Taehyung whimpered helplessly. He was so damn hard at this point, he could feel the pre-come staining his underwear and judging by the big bulge in Jeongguk’s pants, the younger wasn’t doing much better.

Jeongguk separated his mouth from Taehyung’s neck and kissed him on the lips instead. It was rough and messy and their hips were moving rhythmically together.

“Jeongg-Jeongguk, please,” Taehyung whined against the other’s mouth.

“What do you want, baby?” the younger looked at him with dark eyes and Taehyung nearly melted, hearing the pet name. He’d never think that such simple word could make him so weak.

“Touch me,” the actor whispered with urgent eyes while he was blushing for asking something like this. Jeongguk didn’t say anything and kissed him again and Taehyung was confused for a second but then moaned brokenly into the other’s mouth when he felt a hand palming him through the slacks.

“Like this?” Jeongguk whispered against his ear raspily and that alone sent shivers down Taehyung’s spine.

“More,” Taehyung choked out. He needed more, he needed to feel Jeongguk properly. And thankfully the idol complied. He unzipped Taehyung’s pants and slipped his hand into his underwear, palming him, skin against skin this time. Jeongguk groaned quietly at how wet the actor was and got bolder, taking his erection out of the underwear and stroking it experimentally. Taehyung was helplessly moaning under him, enjoying every single touch of the idol’s hand.

They started kissing heatedly again while Jeongguk took his own hard cock out and lined them up together. Taehyung nearly choked when he felt the other’s erection against his and when Jeongguk wrapped his fingers around both of them, he nearly lost his mind.

They were kissing sloppily, all tongues and teeth, both gone with arousal as they both started thrusting into Jeongguk’s hand. They were swallowing each other’s moans and gasps, the feeling of their wet erections sliding together was driving them to the edge quickly. Since they weren’t very experienced, they knew they won’t last much longer and they were desperately chasing their relief.

Their lips never separated, even when they were moaning and panting, their mouth still stayed close. Their eyes were shut close, focusing solely on the pleasure building in their stomachs.

“Jeongguk-“ Taehyung moaned out but didn’t finish as an orgasm hit him hard and he came over Jeongguk’s hand with a high pitched moan. The idol cursed under his breath when the delicious sound hit his ears and that was enough to send him over the edge as well, adding his load to Taehyung’s. They stayed pressed together for couple of minutes, enjoying their heights and kissing lazily.

*

The same scenario repeated two other times in a span of six months when Taehyung and BTS met. Jeongguk and the actor always disappeared and found some place somewhere where they made out and got each other off.

They didn’t even exchange numbers, their schedules were busy anyway and they knew that everything would be too complicated with their jobs. Casual and unexpected hook-ups were much easier and also kinda hot.

Third time that happened was two years after they met for the first time. Taehyung was a host MC of some talk show BTS attended and as was already their small tradition, when the cameras stopped rolling and everyone went to the dressing room, they disappeared. This time they went only to the restroom because they couldn’t find anything else. They were making out heatedly for couple of minutes, until Taehyung got down on his knees, pulled Jeongguk’s erection out and sucked him off. The young singer came slowly apart thanks to those sinful lips and tongue and came down Taehyung’s throat. In exchange for that, Jeongguk jerked Taehyung off and when he pressed a finger of his other hand against Taehyung’s entrance, the actor came unexpectedly with a sob.

 

PRESENT

“I don’t want you to go,” Taehyung mumbled, looking at the younger with sad eyes. He was lying on top of Jeongguk between his legs, resting his head on his chest, looking up at him.

“I don’t wanna go either,” the idol confessed with equally sad expression. It was their last night in Tokyo together and BTS were leaving in only couple of hours. They spent the whole day together, meeting with the rest of the group only for a lunch but the rest of the day, they spent in Jeongguk’s hotel room, enjoying last hours.

The night was already getting lighter, the sun was about to rise soon but neither of them cared. Usually when one of them was leaving early in the morning, they didn’t even go to sleep, enjoying every remaining minute together.

“I hate seeing you leave. I thought it’d get easier after all these years but it doesn’t,” the actor confessed.

“Then decline the job in Hong Kong and come back to Korea,” Jeongguk whispered. They have been through this conversation hundred times before and he knew what the actor’s answer will be but he still always tried.

“I want that job, it is really interesting,” Taehyung replied, just what Jeongguk expected: “You are in the middle of tour anyway, you won’t be in Korea for months.”

“It’s over in only two months, then we have small break and prepare for another album and comeback, you know how it goes,”

“I know but still…I really want this job, Gukkie, don’t do this to me again. Don’t make me choose between you and my career,”

“It’s really not a competition, you always choose your career,” the singer replied bitterly.

“Are we gonna do this again? I don’t wanna fight with you only few hours before you leave,” Taehyung sighed and kissed the other’s chest softly.

“Sorry, you know how I get when I know we’re saying goodbye soon,” Jeongguk smiled at him sadly.

“I know, I get it,” Taehyung reassured him, then looked at him through eyelashes: “Can I feel you one last time?”

“Whatever you want, angel,” Jeongguk caressed his cheek softly and pulled him up for a deep, sensual kiss.

“I want you to mark me, cover me in bruises so I can feel and see you for couple more days,” Taehyung whispered against his lips and that pulled a groan from Jeongguk. The thought of Taehyung covered from head to toe in his hickeys as a proof of what they were doing was driving him crazy. He was already covered in red and purple bruises from their previous nights but he won’t mind adding few more to them.

They started kissing more urgently and Jeongguk flipped them over so he was now lying between Taehyung’s legs. He got to work, fulfilling Taehyung’s wish, sucking on his neck, chest, shoulders, tummy and thighs, leaving marks everywhere. The older was lying pliant under him with shut eyes, letting out sounds of pleasure, enjoying every touch of Jeongguk’s lips on his skin. He wanted to remember that feeling for as long as he could. He had no idea when they’ll see each other again.

Soon, Jeongguk lubed up his erection and slipped into Taehyung. He didn’t need any preparation since their previous round was only two hours ago. When the younger was fully in, he leaned down and kissed the other deeply, circling his hips sensually.

“How do you want it, angel?” Jeongguk looked at Taehyung and brushed his hair from his forehead.

“Nice and slow, I wanna feel you,” Taehyung breathed out and wrapped his legs around Jeongguk’s waist, bringing him as close as possible. The idol pecked his lips and wrapped his arms around his shoulders, Taehyung did the same so they were completely pressed together.

Just like Taehyung asked, Jeongguk set up slow and deep pace, rocking into the older and kissing him softly in between moans, groans and whimpers.

Soon Jeongguk lifted them both up and sat on the bed so the older was on top of his lap. He wrapped his hands around Taehyung’s waist tightly, holding him impossibly close. The older’s hands were buried in the younger’s hair, holding his face close while he was slowly bouncing up and down on him. They were panting against each other’s mouth, holding eye contact the whole time.

Taehyung didn’t even realize that a tear rolled down his cheek until Jeongguk’s thumb brushed it away.

“It’s okay, baby,” Jeongguk whispered. He knew Taehyung was emotional, just like he was. They had no idea when they’ll see each other again and he just wished their bodies would grow into each other so they’d never have to let go.

“I’m so close,” Taehyung whimpered breathlessly. All the emotions were mixing in his head right now, he felt like crying but he felt also overwhelmed with pleasure. No one could ever bring up so many emotions in him like Jeongguk did.

“Me too, baby,” Jeongguk confessed with a grunt as his hips were meeting Taehyung’s ass, thrusting into him sloppily. The actor tripped over the edge first since his cock was rubbing between their stomachs and he painted them white. Jeongguk’s hips stuttered and he came deep inside the older. They stayed pressed together for god knows how long, kissing and caressing every inch of each other’s skin.

As expected, they didn’t go to sleep, they took a shower together and then Taehyung was watching Jeongguk pack the remaining stuff. His stomach was already tighter when he was watching the filling suitcase.

They went down to the back door of the hotel where they were supposed to meet the others and where the car was waiting for them. It was only six a.m. and they were both sleepy and exhausted but the prospect of what was coming in only few minutes was keeping them awake.

The other members were already there while the managers were taking their suitcases to the car. The members had to go all together and quickly to the car so they were waiting.

Taehyung came to them to say proper goodbye. He hugged Namjoon and Seokjin first, looking at them with a smile: “Take care of each other, okay?”

“Always,” Namjoon nodded with a smile.

“You two don’t cause too much trouble,” the actor grinned at Hoseok and Yoongi.

“We? Never!” Hoseok grinned back innocently.

“Right, I know you two crazies together,” Taehyung laughed and gave them both a big hug. Then he went to Jimin and hugged him tightly.

“See you soon, Jiminie, hopefully. I am gonna miss you,” Taehyung whispered.

“I’m gonna miss you too but I hope we are keeping our tradition with late night FaceTimes at least once a week,” Jimin frowned at him.

“Of course we are, what I’d do without them?” Taehyung grinned back at him and brought him for another tight hug.

“Take care of him, okay?” the actor whispered only for Jimin to hear.

“Of course,” Jimin whispered back, giving Taehyung’s back a reassuring pat. Then it was Taehyung’s turn to say goodbye to Jeongguk. He hated this more than anything, no matter how many times they’ve been through it before.

The other members stepped aside, giving them space and privacy. They’d go to the car but they had to go all together so they had to wait for the maknae.

Jeongguk took Taehyung’s hands in his and brought them to his lips, kissing his knuckles. The actor was staring at him emotionally.

“I wish you’d go home with us,” Jeongguk said quietly.

“Me too,” Taehyung nodded. It was kinda hypocritical of him to say that because he was the one to accept the offer to film in Hong Kong. But it wasn’t a lie, he wished he’d go to Korea, for one (not so little) reason.

“Have fun filming. You know I hate saying goodbye but it’s worth it when I know you’re happy,” the younger smiled sadly. The other members were watching their interactions emotionally, it always hurt them seeing the two like this.

“You have fun touring, try to enjoy it as much as possible and take care of yourself. Eat properly and be careful not to get hurt,” the actor put his hands on Jeongguk’s chest and played with laces of his hoodie. He could feel the tears burning in his eyes, he was hoping he would hold himself back and cry only when they leave but he never did.

“I’ll miss you so much,” Jeongguk took his cheeks into his palms and made him look at him.

“I’ll miss you too,” Taehyung peeped with choked up voice as the tears started rolling down his cheeks. Jeongguk tried to brush them away with his thumbs but to no use, there were too many. So instead he brought their lips together and kissed the actor deeply.

“I hate this,” Jimin mumbled to Hoseok standing next to him.

“Me too,” Hoseok sighed, watching the heart wrenching scene in front of them. They saw this scene so many times and he wondered how many more there will be. No drama could compete with this.

Taehyung and Jeongguk separated from the kiss after a minute and rested their foreheads together, holding onto each other till the last minute.

“See you again soon, angel, okay?” Jeongguk whispered. Taehyung nodded because he didn’t trust his voice right now. The maknae kissed his forehead and let go of him.

Taehyung turned around to watch the group leave. He had to clasp a hand over his mouth to prevent sobs coming out as he was watching the maknae’s back. This is what he chose, he chose his career over Jeongguk a long time ago so why did it always hurt so much? He thought that seeing the other leave will get easier with time but the truth was that every time he was watching Jeongguk walking away from him, he felt like another piece of his heart was leaving with the idol.

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PRESENT

Taehyung returned to his apartment that he was living in while in Tokyo. He was leaving in three days and he had to pack everything but right now he couldn’t bring himself to it. He was exhausted, but not even physically because of the sleepless night, but mostly mentally because of the stress and pain that were always coming with Jeongguk’s departure.

Every time they saw each other after months and then said goodbye, Taehyung was questioning all his life decisions. He was questioning his decision to put his career first and take jobs outside of Korea and he was questioning his whole relationship with Jeongguk. He couldn’t take it back, what happened, happened and he never regretted meeting the singer but things would be so much easier if they never got involved together. They were young and reckless, making way freely for their lust and desires without thinking about the future and consequences.

Two years ago, when they parted their ways for good, Taehyung was determined to put everything with Jeongguk behind, start a new life and forget about the singer but he just couldn’t. It worked for a while but anytime he saw him, everything they’ve been through together and all the emotions just came rushing back to him and he couldn’t stay away from the younger.

It became their tradition. Anytime they were reunited, they put everything aside. It didn’t matter where they were, what they were doing or who they were with. When they saw each other, it was just the two of them and they always tried to make the best out of the time they had together, even though it left them both little bit broken afterwards. Taehyung knew deep in his heart that Jeongguk was the love of his life but he didn’t want to give up on his dreams and he didn’t want the younger to do it either because of him.

Now Taehyung was moving to Hong Kong to work on a new TV show and he was wondering what life had in store for him now. He was also wondering when he will see Jeongguk again and when that happens, if they will continue where they left of today or if they will be different people with different lives. That was the question that was always there.

Taehyung went to take a shower and decided to take at least a short nap to be fresh and pack in the afternoon. When he got out of the shower and brushed his hair and watched himself in the mirror, he remembered how and when it all truly started.

 

FLASHBACK

Taehyung had no damn idea where he was. Minjae, one of his colleagues who he was currently filming with, brought him to some party in an apartment that he’s never been in before. He didn’t even know who was throwing this party and who was gonna be there.

As soon as they entered, they were met with overcrowded place with people chatting, drinking, dancing and laughing. Taehyung was very sociable but he still didn’t feel very comfortable because he knew that Minjae will leave him at some point of the evening, so he just hoped to either run into some familiar face or to make new friends really quickly.

He had no idea how quickly his prayers would be heard when he saw a mop of mint hair.

“Yoongi-hyung!” Taehyung exclaimed loud enough to over-scream the music. The rapper turned to look at him and his eyes widened in surprise when he spotted him.

“Tae! Damn, what are you doing here?” Yoongi greeted the actor with a warm hug. Taehyung had no idea why people though Yoongi was cold when he’s always been so nice to him.

“Well, a friend dragged me here, I don’t even know who is throwing this party,” Taehyung laughed.

“Well, surprise, this is actually our party, our dorm. Welcome!” the rapper chuckled.

“Wait, what? This is really your dorm? Damn!” the actor gasped: “Wait so the other boys are here?”

“Sure, they are here somewhere,” Yoongi nodded and then added with a smirk: “The last time I saw Jeongguk, he was dancing in the living room.” Taehyung blushed at the remark. He knew that the members knew about his and Jeongguk’s occasional hook-ups. They never went all the way and it happened only four times or so but still. It’s been actually maybe half a year since he saw the singer for the last time.

“Here, have some drink and enjoy!” Yoongi pushed a glass of whatever into his hand. It was colourful and it looked nice so Taehyung shrugged and decided to trust the older.

Only a minute later, Namjoon and Seokjin walked into the kitchen, attached to each other’s hip. Taehyung noticed that they were holding hands before they separated them.

“Tae!” Seokjin exclaimed happily and rushed to hug him. The leader hugged him too.

“What a pleasant surprise,” Namjoon smiled warmly. Taehyung really missed them all, he always felt so nice with them.

“Did I miss something?” Taehyung looked between the two with a raised eyebrow and cheeky smirk.

“Well…” Namjoon scratched the back of his head.

“We kinda got together,” Seokjin replied nonchalantly.

“Oh my god, that’s amazing! I always shipped you guys,” the actor grinned happily.

“We need to catch up, I’ll call the others here in the kitchen since the rest of the apartment is packed,” Namjoon offered.

“No, let me find them, I wanna surprise them,” Taehyung stopped him and took a big gulp of his drink: “You just wait here, I’ll get them here.”

He went to the living room where the rest most probably was and he was right. Jimin and Hoseok were playing some game with some people that Taehyung didn’t know. He stood there for a minute with crossed arms, waiting for one of them to notice him.

“Fuck, I am either drunker than I thought or this is the best surprise of the evening,” Hoseok gasped when he finally noticed the actor.

“TaeTae!” Jimin shrieked when he noticed who his fellow member was looking at. He jumped on his feet from the couch, almost flipping a table in the process and rushed to hug him. Taehyung stumbled under the force that Jimin’s body crashed to his but he hugged him back happily. They actually exchanged numbers and texted quite often. The more he knew Jimin, the more he liked him and they were quite good friends at this point.

“Let’s go to the kitchen, Joon-hyung, Jin-hyung and Yoongi-hyung are already there. We need to catch up,” Taehyung informed them after he hugged also Hoseok.

“Where’s Gukkie?” the oldest of the three looked around.

“I’ll go find him. Wanna surprise him,” Taehyung smiled.

“Don’t surprise him too much or you won’t ever make it to the kitchen. Leave that for later, okay?” Jimin poked his ribs with a smirk and Taehyung gave him a glare.

Taehyung watched the two disappearing in the kitchen and then turned his eyes to bunch of people dancing in the corner. His smile grew big when he saw the familiar face. Jeongguk looked pretty much the same like the last time he saw him, but again, he looked more mature and more handsome. Taehyung briefly wondered when the singer will stop getting so hot because it was already quite too much.

“I always loved that waist of yours,” Taehyung sneaked behind Jeongguk, put his hands on his waist and whispered to his ear. Jeongguk turned around with wide eyes and gasped when he recognized the actor.

“Tae!” Jeongguk brought him into a bone crushing hug, smiling widely: “What the hell are you doing here?”

“A friend of mine dragged me here, I didn’t know this was your party until I met Yoongi-hyung,” Taehyung grinned happily.

“Wow, it’s been so long,” the maknae shook his head in disbelieve.

“Too long,” the actor nodded and tugged on Jeongguk’s hand: “The others are waiting in the kitchen, we wanna catch up little bit.” Jeongguk didn’t have to be told twice and followed the older to the kitchen.

“So Tae, what are you up to now?” Hoseok asked when they were all sitting on top of kitchen counters with drinks in their hands. They talked about how they’ve been and casual stuff. The party was still going on but no one seemed to care that the hosts of it were nowhere to be found.

“Well, I am finishing a movie in a month and then I am moving. I got a job in the US,” Taehyung announced.

“Wow, really? That’s amazing, what kind of job?” Jimin exclaimed and looked little bit offended that Taehyung didn’t text him this news.

“It’s not actually acting, it’s modelling. It’s like kind of a tour around the states doing fashion shows and stuff,”

“Well, I am not surprised, you are more gorgeous by day,” Jeongguk muttered with a smirk into his bottle of beer. The other members laughed while the actor blushed like crazy. Compliments from Jeongguk always left him flustered, especially when they came right in front of everybody. Taehyung was always surprised by Jeongguk’s nonchalance when on the outside he looked like quiet and shy guy. But well, he knew better by now. Jeongguk was anything but shy.

“Yeah, it’s actually for several months so I’ll be mostly out of Korea, only visiting occasionally. I am kinda nervous because I’ve never been abroad for so long but I am also really excited,” Taehyung quickly picked up the conversation.

“It’s good to hear that you are doing so well, you deserve it,” Namjoon smiled with a raised beer.

“Thanks, hyung,” the actor smiled gratefully: “You are not doing bad either. I am watching everything about you, congrats for the recent wins and album sales, that’s so amazing!”

“Thanks, it is exhausting sometimes, but it’s so worth it,” Seokjin chuckled.

“You deserve every piece of it, you’ve worked so hard and your music is amazing. And I gotta say, you have amazing fans, some of them tweet me sometimes and they are great and hilarious,” Taehyung laughed and then he remembered his previous surprise and looked over at two members: “Anyway, Jin-hyung and Joon-hyung, wow!”

 “Oh, so you heard already?” Hoseok snickered.

“I didn’t hear anything, I saw it. I doubt they would tell me anything,” Taehyung pouted.

“Sorry, Tae, it’s nothing personal, we need to be careful, you know how these things are,” Namjoon looked at him apologetically.

“I know, hyung, but I am from the business, you can trust me,” the actor protested.

“We know, Tae, don’t take it personally,” Seokjin hugged him.

“Namjin ship is sailing, if only the fans knew,” Hoseok laughed teasingly.

“Everyone would go crazy,” Taehyung nodded in agreement.

“Anyway, who wants some shots?” Hoseok exclaimed and without waiting for an answer, he opened a bottle of soju.

Half an hour and few shots of soju later, they were all dancing in the living room, enjoying themselves. Seokjin was whining about how it was not fair that Taehyung could dance better than him when he was not even an idol.

It was after midnight and some people already left so the dorm wasn’t that packed but there were still a lot of people, most of them completely smashed.

Sometime later, Taehyung and Jeongguk started dancing together, shamelessly grinding on each other, not paying attention to anyone around them. Another ten minutes later, they were full on making out in the middle of the room, surrounded by people. The other members left a while ago, it was just them.

Jeongguk dragged Taehyung into a hallway where they were making out against the wall for a while before he dragged him into the bathroom, locking the door behind them. He’d take him into his and Namjoon’s room but he saw like twenty minutes ago the leader and Seokjin going there and he didn’t want to risk walking in on them. Again.

Jeongguk lifted Taehyung up so the actor was sitting on the sink counter. The maknae stood between his legs as they were kissing hungrily, grinding their erections together.

“Fuck, I missed this,” Jeongguk confessed breathlessly.

“Me too,” Taehyung whimpered, his mind was already hazy. It didn’t take long for Jeongguk to pull Taehyung’s cock from his pants and jerk him off.

“Wait, wait…” Taehyung stopped the younger with hand on his wrist and pulled away from the kiss. Jeongguk looked at him questioningly, he didn’t understand why the older wanted to stop now.

“I want you, all the way,” Taehyung breathed out, looking Jeongguk straight in the eyes.

“Are you sure?”

“Fuck, yeah, I’ve wanted this for so long,” Taehyung nodded. He nibbled at Jeongguk’s earlobe and whispered: “I don’t want any quick, sloppy hand job. I want you to fuck me.” The maknae groaned at the bold confession.

“Have you been thinking about me fucking you a lot, baby?” Jeongguk looked at the other with dark, lustful eyes and glued his mouth to Taehyung’s neck, leaving open-mouthed kisses.

“God, yes,” Taehyung confessed with a moan, enjoying the attention his neck was receiving. Jeongguk then opened the drawer and pulled out a lube and condoms. Taehyung didn’t even ask why they had those items just lying in a bathroom because right now he was very thankful for that.

They undressed each other quickly, not wasting any time, too far gone with arousal. They’ve came very far from sloppy kisses by the pool, almost two years ago. Neither of them was a virgin anymore, they were seeing other people in between their hook-ups and they weren’t that inexperienced anymore.

Jeongguk pressed his finger, coated in lube, to Taehyung’s entrance. The older whined at the contact. He only felt Jeongguk there once before and ever since he couldn’t stop thinking about how it’d feel to feel the younger inside.

Jeongguk teased his entrance for a while until Taehyung was squirming with impatience and his mouth opened in silent moan when the finger was finally pushed slowly in. Taehyung was almost gone already when he felt Jeongguk’s perfect long finger circling his walls and his legs started shaking when he fucked the finger in and out slowly.

Soon the younger added second finger, stretching Taehyung open nicely by scissoring the fingers and thrusting them in and out. Taehyung was a whimpering mess by the time Jeongguk pushed in the third finger and his eyes were rolling back at the sensation. He almost screamed when the fingers brushed his prostate and his mind went hazy when the younger kept fucking his fingers into the same spot over and over again.

“Shit, please, Gukkie,” Taehyung  moaned impatiently. The younger didn’t hear his plea so Taehyung warned him: “I’m gon-gonna come if you w-will continue.”

As much as Jeongguk would want to see the other come undone by only his fingers, he decided to leave this for some other time. Right now, they both needed to move on. He was incredibly hard from the sight in front of him. Taehyung was so fucked out already, his perfect lips swollen, eyes glossy and cheeks flushed.

Jeongguk pulled out his fingers and rolled a condom on himself with trembling fingers. He pulled Taehyung down little bit so he was on the edge of the counter and lined himself up with his entrance. They shared a glance, making sure that they both wanted this. There was nothing but lust in their eyes so it was decided, there was no coming back.

“Oh my- fuck!” Taehyung cried out brokenly when Jeongguk pushed inside slowly, stretching him perfectly. They were both panting against each other’s mouth as Jeongguk bottomed and they kissed heatedly before the maknae started slowly rocking his hips.

“Shit, so tight, so perfect,” Jeongguk mumbled against Taehyung’s shoulder and bit on his collarbone. The actor was holding the maknae’s shoulders for dear life, clinging to him and enjoying every slow and deep thrust.

“Gukkie, fuck, harder,” Taehyung choked out. The slow and deep pace was nice but it was not enough. He needed Jeongguk to give it to him fast and hard, just like he imagined probably more times than is healthy.

“Fuck, Tae, I wanna destroy you so badly,” Jeongguk groaned and Taehyung nearly passed out at how damn hot that was.

“Then do it,” the actor looked him in the eyes with a smirk and yelped when Jeongguk snapped his hips sharply. He picked up the speed quickly, gripping his thighs, digging his fingers in and soon he was pounding into Taehyung with all he’s got.

“Just like that, yes, oh god,” Taehyung chanted with blissful expression, moaning and groaning at each perfect thrust that went directly to his magic spot. The sounds of skin slapping against skin were bouncing around the bathroom walls and it was so damn filthy but so, so perfect.

“So close,” Taehyung whimpered and brought Jeongguk in for a kiss, gripping the hair on his nape tightly as the younger was fucking him thoroughly.

“Me too,” Jeongguk panted against Taehyung’s mouth as they were swallowing each other’s moans and breaths.

“Touch me,” the actor pleaded, feeling the familiar heat in his stomach. Jeongguk complied and sneaked one of his hands between their bodies, wrapping his fingers around Taehyung and jerking him off in a rhythm with his fast, powerful thrusts.

Taehyung threw his head back with a lewd moan and shot his release over Jeongguk’s hand. The maknae bent down to kiss and suck on Taehyung’s perfectly exposed Adam’s apple as he was still hammering into him, milking the actor’s orgasm and chasing his own. Taehyung was whimpering in pleasure and oversensitivity and Jeongguk finally felt the explosion in his stomach. He groaned and shot into the condom, rutting his hips sloppily, riding his orgasm.

“Fuck,” Taehyung breathed out when they both came down from their heights.

“Yeah,” Jeongguk nodded with breathless chuckle. They both leaned in at the same time and kissed messily. Yeah, they’ve really came a long way from small, innocent making out session by the hotel pool.

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PRESENT

Jeongguk’s body was aching after the show. They were currently in Europe as the tour went by and after taking a long shower, he settled down on his bed with a beer.

It’s been almost three weeks since he saw Taehyung in Japan and his finger was lingering over the actor’s name in his phone, just like couple of times before in those past weeks. It was another of their silent agreements – no texting or calling, at least not often. It would make everything even harder but sometimes Jeongguk wished it wasn’t like that. Sometimes he wanted to see Taehyung’s face or at least hear his voice because that alone could make everything better. But from their previous experience, he knew that it usually made everything worse.

There was a knock on the door and Jeongguk invited the person in. Only few seconds later, he saw a blond mop of hair.

“Hey, tired after the show?” Jimin smiled lightly at him and sat down on the bed next to the maknae. Jeongguk knew that Jimin was looking after him. He was thankful for that but it was also annoying. He didn’t need some babying, he was a grown-ass man now. On the other hand he couldn’t be really mad at his members for keeping an eye on him, considering some events in the past.

“Not really, it’s fine,” Jeongguk shrugged and put down his phone. Jimin eyed the device, he knew what Jeongguk was thinking about.

“You drinking, huh?” the blonde asked carefully.

“It’s just one beer, chill out,” the maknae rolled his eyes. He understood why the others were concerned when they saw him with a drink in his hand but he was over that stage.

“You know I am just worried about you,” Jimin smiled apologetically.

“I know, hyung, thanks,” Jeongguk smiled lightly at him.

“I talked to him yesterday,” Jimin broke the silence.

“How is he doing?”

“Fine, yeah. He’s still getting used to Hong Kong but he started filming and it seems like he’s having a good time. He looks good,”

“Good,” Jeongguk mumbled. He was genuinely happy that Taehyung was fine and happy but he felt a bit of bitterness because the actor was happy without him.

“He misses you too, you know,” Jimin broke the silence after a while as if he could read Jeongguk’s mind.

“Yeah, I know,” Jeongguk sighed. He knew he was not alone in this. He just really wanted to pick up the phone and text him right now.

“You know I hate that it’s like this between you two. I wish you could just be together,” the older confessed with a sad smile.

“I do to. But this is what he chose. I don’t blame him, he wants to follow his dreams and I can understand that since I am doing the same. I just wish it was easier,” the maknae mumbled and fidgeted with the bottle.

“I know,” Jimin nodded.

“I know I should just let him go, it’d be better for both of us but every time I know I am gonna see him, I can’t think straight. Everything just flies out of window and nothing matters anymore when we are together. I don’t regret meeting him, I just wish we were more careful and less reckless back then before the things got too far,”

“I think that it was always meant to happen. I think you’d always end up together,”

“But that’s the thing, we weren’t even together,” Jeongguk chuckled bitterly.

“You were even though you didn’t put a label on it, you were together,” Jimin protested.

“That doesn’t matter, here we are again. Just like always. And everything will go back to normal in couple of weeks, just like it always does,” the maknae shrugged. They both went back to their lives eventually.

“Do you wanna come over? Hobi-hyung and Yoongi-hyung are in one room, we are gonna eat some midnight snack and maybe watch a movie,” Jimin offered with hopeful smile.

“Yeah, why not,” Jeongguk nodded with a smile and put down the beer.

*

Taehyung was getting used to the new place. It was always nerve wrenching to move somewhere but it was also exciting and that was what he loved about it. It was great that he had the opportunity to film in different countries, even though there were obvious downsides.

They already started filming and he soon found out that the cast and the crew were great. He became friends with pretty much everyone pretty fast and it was easier for him not to think about other stuff, or other people for that matter.

When he was home alone, those thoughts were coming back to him, they always did. He was missing the singer so much and when he did, he decided to call Jimin before he could call Jeongguk. Talking to Jimin was helping him, not only he got some information about the maknae and knew that he was alright but he also distracted him, they were usually just chatting about some small unimportant stuff and that was exactly what Taehyung needed.

A month into the filming, the producers of the show decided to throw a little party so the actors and crew could get to know each other outside of the set. Taehyung was really excited about the idea, they were going to film together for months so they should get closer, he loved when the atmosphere on set was friendly.

“Why so alone?” Taehyung looked up at the voice behind him. He was sitting at the bar, tracing his finger around a glass with a drink.

“Well, keep me a company then,” Taehyung smiled and pointed at the stool beside him. Bogum sat down. They were working together a lot, they had a lot of scenes together and Taehyung already knew that the older actor was nice and friendly.

“You look great tonight, but that small frown doesn’t suit you,” Bogum spoke up after he ordered one drink for himself and one for Taehyung because his glass was almost empty.

“Thanks, I’ll try to smile more then,” the younger actor blushed at the compliment.

 

FLASHBACK

Taehyung started his modelling tour around the States but whenever he came to Korea, he and Jeongguk would hook up. It wasn’t occasional anymore, the actor usually texted the idol that he was going to be home for couple of days and if Jeongguk’s schedule allowed it, they met and fucked. Sometimes his schedule was too tight so Taehyung came to the company building, Jeongguk sneaked out during dance rehearsals and fucked him in the bathroom.

Over the months, they developed quite strong friends with benefits relationship. Sometimes they’d text little bit even when they were apart, it wasn’t all just about sex but they were friends as well. They had a lot in common and ever since the beginning, they were getting on really well so they occasionally talked to know how the other is doing.

Jeongguk went to a club with Yugyeom and Bambam to blow off some steam. As idols, they didn’t get to enjoying much normal stuff like high school or college kids so when the opportunity came, they took it.

Jeongguk had a good time, chatting with his friends that he hasn’t seen for a long time and drinking little bit when his eyes fell on a dance floor. He thought he was tripping and alcohol was messing with his head because he saw the familiar face. There was Taehyung, looking as gorgeous as ever, swaying his gorgeous hips to the music. The idol had no idea that the actor was in Seoul, last time they texted, Taehyung was moving from States to Australia for couple of months.

But what caught Jeongguk’s attention was a guy, dancing with the actor. Taehyung’s back was pressed to the stranger’s chest and they looked like they were having a really good time together. Jeongguk gritted his teeth and downed a shot of vodka. Yugyeom and Bambam were nowhere to be found at the moment anyway so the maknae made his way to the dance floor.

“Fun’s over, dude,” Jeongguk growled lowly and yanked the stranger from Taehyung.

“What the fuck?” the guy blinked. Taehyung turned around to protest but he gasped in shock when he saw the maknae.

“J-Jeonggukie?” the actor stuttered and before he could do anything, Jeongguk was pressed against his back, running his hands over his sides. The guy was long gone.

“I didn’t know you were in Seoul,” the singer muttered against the actor’s ear as they were dancing to some r’n’b music. Jeongguk sucked on Taehyung’s neck, leaving small marks.

“I-I wanted to text you,” Taehyung moaned quietly at the sensation. Jeongguk could always take him apart in only matter of minutes, no matter how. Right now, all Taehyung could focus were the singer’s hands, roaming over his hips and stomach and Jeongguk’s crotch pressed right against his ass.

“Oh did you? Doesn’t look like it,” Jeongguk growled deeply against his ear and nibbled at the earlobe: “It looks to me like you came here to get some dick, baby.”

“Jeongguk-“ Taehyung wanted to say something but a moan ripped from his lips when the maknae grinded against his ass hard. He felt his erection right between his cheeks and it was too much. He started grinding his ass back, seeking some contact.

“You’re breaking my heart, baby. You know that all you have to do is ask because you know that you won’t find better dick than mine in whole Seoul,” the maknae continued in a deep voice and Taehyung’s head was spinning.

“Jeongguk, please,” the actor whimpered, not sure if the singer even heard him.

“Why are you even here, trying to get some random dick when we both know than no one can fuck you better than I do,” Jeongguk whispered with dark voice and that sent shivers down Taehyung’s spine. The actor turned in his arms so they were facing each other.

“Then do it,” Taehyung whispered breathlessly and that was enough for Jeongguk to crush their lips together in a hungry kiss.

Fifteen minutes later, Jeongguk was pounding into Taehyung in one of the stalls in the restroom. The actor’s chest and face were pressed against the stall while Jeongguk’s fingers were digging into his soft hips, fucking him from behind.

The stretch was dry because they didn’t have a lube but thankfully Jeongguk had a condom in his wallet. On the other hand, Taehyung really didn’t mind, his insides were burning but it was so damn good, he could feel every powerful thrust even more like this and he was helplessly whimpering against the shaking stall.

“Is this good enough for you, huh?” Jeongguk got out through gritted teeth and yanked Taehyung’s head back by his hair, not slowing down his thrusts.

“Harder, fuck, Jeongguk ngh,” Taehyung choked out with closed eyes. He was impossibly turned on and almost out of his mind.

“As you wish, baby. This will remind you that no one in the whole fucking Korea can give it to you like I do,” the singer growled and pressed Taehyung’s face into the stall, still holding his hair tightly. He put his second hand on the small of the actor’s back and pressed his stomach against the stall so his ass was nicely sticking out. Taehyung felt pain in his lower back but that was only intensifying the pleasure and his hands were helplessly sliding over the stall, trying to find something to ground himself.

Taehyung nearly screamed when Jeongguk changed the angle and delivered sharp thrust right to his prostate. He was completely in the younger’s mercy, held down so he couldn’t even move and just take whatever Jeongguk was willing to give him and he fucking loved it. His whole body was shaking from the pleasure as the maknae hammered into him in quick and sharp thrusts. The whole stall was shaking, the sound of skin slapping against skin was filling the whole restroom just like their breaths and moans and they were lucky that no one came in yet. Fucking like this in public was extremely risky, they were up for a huge scandal if someone caught them but neither of them cared right now.

“More, Jeongguk, fuck, give it to me,” Taehyung groaned.

“So fucking hungry for my cock, can’t get enough, can you?” Jeongguk groaned and bit the back of his neck.

“Shit, yes, Gukkie, so hungry for your cock, so good,” the actor nodded feverishly and that snapped something in Jeongguk. He grabbed one of Taehyung’s hips and his other hand gripped his throat, squeezing it, not enough to completely cut off his airways but enough to make the actor gasp for air. Jeongguk gave it all he got, snapping his hips in a punishing speed.

“Oh my g-“ Taehyung choked out and Jeongguk’s hand on his throat tightened. The actor’s head was spinning due to the lack of oxygen and the thrusts that the singer was delivering and his mind went hazy.

An orgasm hit him like a train, his body convulsed and then froze. His mouth fell open in silent scream as everything in his stomach exploded and he came hard all over the stall without his cock being touched once.

“Jesus christ,” Jeongguk groaned when Taehyung clenched around him so tight that he couldn’t almost move. He snapped his hips sloppily couple more times before he came into the condom, biting on Taehyung’s shoulder to muffle his moans.

They stayed pressed together, panting, for couple of minutes, both sweaty and out of their minds.

They left the club together and went to the Bangtan’s dorm where they went for round two. Jeongguk fucked Taehyung into the sheets until the actor was a sobbing mess.

*

Taehyung woke up and looked at unfamiliar surroundings. Then he looked at the bed beside him and all the memories of last night came back to him. Not that he was drunk but his mind was so hazy after the two powerful orgasms that it took him a while to remember.

He’s never been to Jeongguk’s room and they never slept together in a bed. His whole body was sore after the last night’s events but it was the nice and relaxing kind of sore. It was probably the best sex of his life and that was saying something since he’s had his fair share of sexual partners. He and Jeongguk were both seeing other people when they were apart, they were only fuckbuddies after all. He noticed that he had unfamiliar boxers and t-shirt on and he figured that the maknae must have cleaned him up and dress him after he fell asleep. He was passed out only couple of minutes after his second orgasm, not knowing about the world at all.

A shuffling beside him brought him back from his thoughts and he was met with Jeongguk’s sleepy face.

“Hey,” the singer rasped out with a small smile. Taehyung felt shivers running down his spine at the sound of Jeongguk’s morning voice. To say that it was probably the hottest thing he’s ever heard was an understatement.

“Hi,” Taehyung replied with a grin.

“Are you good?”

“More than that,” the actor assured him.

“You wanna go take a shower? I’ll give you some fresh clothes,” the maknae offered.

“Yes, please, I am gross,” Taehyung groaned. He was sticky with sweat and come even though Jeongguk cleaned him up little bit last night.

“Ok, be my guest, I showered last night so I’ll go make us some breakfast,” the younger nodded and got up to take out some fresh clothes for the older. Taehyung let himself admire Jeongguk’s body because he was only wearing underwear. He never had a chance to take a proper look at him, mostly when they fucked, it was quick so they didn’t even bother with getting undressed and now Taehyung thought that it was a damn shame because the singer’s body was mouth-watering.

“The others are here?” Taehyung asked when he got up from the bed and stretched his sore body.

“Yeah, they are. We don’t have schedule today so they are probably still sleeping,” the maknae confirmed and then added with a smirk: “Be prepared, they will be bitching about last night. You were pretty loud.”

“Sorry for enjoying the rimming of my life,” Taehyung exclaimed. Jeongguk laughed.

“Not only the rimming. You were literally screaming for me to fuck you into the mattress if I recall correctly,” the maknae winked smugly.

“Don’t be so full of yourself, any dick could do the same job,” the actor stuck out the tongue.

“Maybe but you went home with me and it was my dick that you were begging for,” Jeongguk shrugged nonchalantly, the smug grin never leaving his face.

“Whatever, just give me the clothes,” Taehyung muttered and grabbed the items from Jeongguk.

Jeongguk was in the kitchen making breakfast not only for himself and Taehyung but for the others as well as a small apology. He was humming a song so he didn’t notice someone coming into the kitchen.

“You motherfucker, I told you several times before to keep it down when you bring somebody home,” Jimin growled behind him with bags under his eyes. Jeongguk was occasionally bringing one-night stands to the dorm, just like the rest of them, and sometimes the things got wilder and the members weren’t happy about it because it was taking the precious sleep from them.

“Sorry,” Jeongguk grinned but the tone of his voice was saying that he was not sorry at all.

“Don’t blame him, Jiminie, it’s my fault,” a voice from behind Jimin said and the vocalist yelled in surprise.

“What the f-“ Jimin grumbled but his eyes grew big when he turned around and saw his friend: “Tae!” He exclaimed and crushed the actor in a hug.

“What the hell? I didn’t know you were here?” Jimin started at his friend in shock.

“I didn’t either, we bumped into each other in a club,” Jeongguk jumped in so Jimin wouldn’t accuse them of getting together behind the other members’ backs.

“Seriously, Guk, what the fuck,” they heard low grumbling from the hallway and few seconds later Yoongi walked in. He had the same surprised reacting when he saw the young actor and didn’t manage to say anything before Taehyung threw himself at him for a hug.

The remaining three members were just as surprised with Taehyung’s presence as Yoongi and Jimin and everyone forgot about the sleepless night. They ate breakfast together and since they had no schedule that day, Taehyung stayed in their dorm till the evening. They were just chatting, playing some games and eating the whole day, catching up after months of not seeing the actor. Taehyung felt so nice and warm, being surrounded by the people that he got to know quite well in the past three years. Despite not seeing each other very often, they were always able to start where they left off the last time and Taehyung felt strangely at home with them by his side.

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PRESENT

Taehyung was at a dinner in a nice restaurant with Bogum. This was their fifth date. At the party, they started talking more and Taehyung realized that they had a lot in common and that he really liked the older actor’s company. It was a bit risky to date a person he was working with but he believed that even if things didn’t work out between them, they could act like two adults and keep it professional.

The dinner was really nice and Taehyung had a great time, laughing most of the evening. Suddenly his phone started ringing and he took it out with slight annoyance. As soon as he saw the caller ID, his heart dropped little bit. He was tempted to just ignore the call, but he was worried that it was something important or serious since Jeongguk hardly ever called him when they were apart.

“Will you give me a minute? I gotta answer this,” Taehyung looked apologetically at his company.

“Of course, no rush,” Bogum smiled at him encouragingly and watched the younger rush out to the corridor of the restaurant.

“Hello?” Taehyung answered with trembling voice.

“Tae,” Jeongguk on the other line breathed out.

“Is everything okay? Did something happen?” the actor asked with worry.

“Um, no, I just…I wanted to hear your voice,” the maknae admitted and Taehyung felt a pang in his chest at his words.

“Gukkie…”Taehyung sighed.

“I hope I am not interrupting anything, I just wanted to hear you, that’s all,” Jeongguk got out quietly. Taehyung closed his eyes with a sigh. It was almost three months since their last reunion in Tokyo and Taehyung was finally able to get the idol out of his head. Not completely of course, he never could, but he was fine again. Until now. No matter what, whenever he heard Jeongguk’s voice, everything stopped existing around him.

“I am…I am actually on a date, so…” Taehyung admitted. They were allowed to see other people, that was their agreement but saying it out loud was making it awkward and painful. It was their silent agreement not to talk about their other partners or hook-ups.

“Oh, okay, I’m sorry,” the younger stuttered, obviously surprised and emotional.

“It’s okay, Gukkie. I am sorry for telling you like this,”

“No, it’s okay, you didn’t do anything wrong. Sorry for calling unexpectedly, I should’ve texted or something,” Jeongguk quickly said and then added: “I just wanted to tell you that we are gonna be in Hong Kong in two weeks for MAMAs and I was hoping to see you.”

Taehyung bit his lip and held back a sigh. Of course they are gonna be there, they were probably nominated for shit tons of awards as always for the past few years, probably even for daesang that Taehyung was presenting.

“Yeah, well I’ll be there, presenting the daesang,” the actor confessed. They’d find out eventually so there was no point in keeping it from Jeongguk or the other members. He completely forgot about it and about the possibility of presenting the award to them.

“Well, then hopefully we’ll meet on the stage,” Jeongguk laughed.

“I hope so, I hope you win,” Taehyung smiled warmly. He will always support Bangtan, no matter what and he really wished for them to win the award.

“Anyway, I won’t keep you from your date. See you in two weeks, angel,” Jeongguk spoke up softly after a minute of silence. Taehyung closed his eyes when he heard the pet name that only Jeongguk called him.

“See you, Gukkie,” Taehyung replied in choked up voice and hung up. He didn’t immediately return to Bogum, he had to calm down his breathing and emotions. Every time he thought that he could move on and live somewhat normal life, Jeongguk always came back and flipped Taehyung’s world upside down. He had no idea what he was going to do when he sees the singer in two weeks. But he knew what he will feel, just like he always did.

*

The two weeks went by much faster than Taehyung expected and the evening of MAMAs was here. He was nervous but not because of the presenting, he’s had enough experience with this kind of stuff over the years. He was excited of course to see his friends and Jeongguk but he was also flustered. He didn’t know how to face Jeongguk this time and he didn’t know how he will be able to hold back once he sees him. He never could.

He hasn’t met BTS the whole ceremony, not on the red carpet, not even backstage despite the group performing there. He only saw them in the audience and his heart started beating fast. Jeongguk was there, looking like the god he was in a neat black suit and black dress shirt, with his black hair parted on forehead. He didn’t stop getting hotter over the years and that wasn’t making anything easier for Taehyung. Despite growing up into a young man, Taehyung still saw that little kid in him that he met more than six years ago. He was pretty sure that Jeongguk will be his doom one day.

He watched them perform couple of songs on the stage, as always mesmerized by their professionalism and precision. He couldn’t tear his eyes from Jeongguk, he had such a strong stage presence and he remembered how those six years ago his dancing caught his eye. Nothing changed since then, if anything, Jeongguk got even better and hotter.

BTS won several smaller awards to Taehyung’s delight and finally the event was almost over. It was his turn to present the daesang, he really hoped to hand it to BTS, they deserved it.

Jeongguk was giddily watching the stage when the time for daesang came. It’s been more than three months since he saw Taehyung and that wasn’t that long ago but his heart still nearly stopped when the actor came on stage and walked to the microphone. He looked as gorgeous as ever. His hair was brown and little bit longer on his nape, his make-up was emphasizing his already beautiful features and he was rocking a simple Gucci suit with a silky blue shirt and Jeongguk couldn’t tear his eyes from him.

The video, presenting the nominees came on, presenting the groups. Yoongi pinched Jeongguk in the thigh: “Try to be more subtle and stare less, we are gonna be on camera.” the oldest rapper whispered. Jeongguk tore his eyes from the actor and smiled to the camera when the video announced them.

Taehyung started talking about the award to make suspense. All the members were silently praying for the win but Jeongguk couldn’t focus on that. He was completely immersed in the deep soothing voice. Not that he wouldn’t care about winning but right now he wanted to win especially because that meant they will go on stage to Taehyung. He wanted to kiss him really badly, right in front of everyone, for everyone to see but that was of course impossible.

“And the winner is…” Taehyung spoke up and made a dramatic pause, taking out a card from envelope. He checked it out and his smile grew wide: “Bangtan Sonyeondan.”

The six members jumped to their feet happily and went into a group hug. Taehyung was watching them with a huge smile on his face and watched as they were making their way towards him. He was still nervous but at the moment just really excited. As soon as they approached him, he handed the award to Namjoon and a bouquet to Seokjin and hugged each member, murmuring his congratulations. Fans were screaming like crazy, not only because of the win but because of the interaction. By now, everyone knew that Taehyung and BTS were good friends and people loved seeing them interact together.

“I missed you,” Jeongguk mumbled against Taehyung’s ear when they hugged but they had to break it quickly. Jimin started the speech with Namjoon following and saying also couple of words in English. After that, they all went backstage together.

“I am so happy for you, I didn’t doubt you’d win,” Taehyung babbled happily, hugging the members once again.

“It’s so good to see you again, kiddo,” Hoseok chuckled when the actor hugged him for like third time.

“I hope you are going to the after party. We usually don’t attend these events but we will make an exception. There are a lot of people that we’d like to see,” Seokjin patted Taehyung’s back.

“I couldn’t miss that,” the actor smiled. His gaze fell to Jeongguk for a second, noticing that the maknae was watching him intently. Taehyung gulped, he had no idea how he will get through the night.

The after party was good, Taehyung was catching up with BTS members and chatted with other idols as well. He’s always been very sociable and friendly so he knew a lot of people from the music industry even though he wasn’t even part of it.

He was trying to avoid Jeongguk. He could feel his body and mind aching for him, it was like a need planted deep inside him. He couldn’t help it but watch him the whole night. No matter who he was talking to, his gaze was always slipping to the maknae who was never far away. He knew Jeongguk was watching him too.

He was completely torn, his whole being just wanted to jump at Jeongguk, to kiss him, to feel him but it was different this time. He was with Bogum now and even though they were together for only couple of weeks, he was actually happy with him and he didn’t want to cheat on him. But that was what always happened. Taehyung wasn’t proud of it but Jeongguk was his weakness. Whenever he saw him, it didn’t matter if he was with someone else, at that moment it was always only Jeongguk. But he didn’t want it this time, he really liked Bogum, he was there in Taehyung’s life now, he knew that he won’t leave him in few days.

All his plans flew out of the window when he went to the restroom and on his way back, Jeongguk surprised him in a corridor. The younger caged him between his body and a wall and as soon as their lips met in a deep kiss, Taehyung stopped thinking about anything. His mind was occupied by Jeongguk only and all he could focus on were his lips against his own and his hands roaming over his body.

They were kissing desperately, drinking each other in like it was more than three months. Taehyung will never fully understand the effect Jeongguk has on him. His mind was getting hazier with each kiss and each touch, it was just him and the singer, the rest of the world stopped existing.

“I missed you so much, angel,” Jeongguk mumbled breathlessly against Taehyung’s lips and glued their mouths together again. Taehyung couldn’t even think coherently at the moment, especially hearing the pet name that could always make his knees weak.

But then, after few more minutes, something finally snapped him back.

“Wait, Gukkie, wait…” Taehyung pushed the younger away from him.

“What is it?” Jeongguk looked at him with confusion.

“I can’t do this. I am actually seeing someone…” Taehyung confessed.

“Well, that never stopped you before,” the singer shrugged and went in for another kiss. Their lips barely brushed before Taehyung pushed him away again.

“It’s different this time. I really like him and I don’t wanna cheat on him,” the actor looked at the other apologetically. He didn’t want to hurt Jeongguk but he didn’t want to hurt Bogum either.

“Is that the guy you were on a date with when I called you two weeks ago?”

“Yeah…” Taehyung trailed off. He didn’t want to tell Jeongguk the details, talking about it was painful enough but he needed him to understand that it is different this time: “We’ve been going out for over a month and I really like him.”

“Oh, I see,” Jeongguk nodded slowly and let go of Taehyung’s hips. The older immediately missed his touch.

“Gukkie, don’t be mad,” Taehyung pouted.

“Mad about what? That only two months after Tokyo you go on and start dating some dude while all I can think about is you?” Jeongguk chuckled joylessly.

“Don’t do this to me again, Gukkie,” the actor pleaded.

“Do what? I am not doing anything. Are you dating some dude? Okay, fine. You know how I feel about this. Two years ago you left and made me promise you to see other people, to forget you. I never agreed to it, I never wanted it but I tried my best to keep that promise. I’ve been seeing other people but only for sex, I could never be with someone. But obviously you don’t feel the same…”

“What do you want me to do?” Taehyung exclaimed with frustration.

“You know what I want! I want you to come back to Korea and be with me!” Jeongguk shot back, making the actor flinch.

“This is not fair, Gukkie! We’ve been through this conversation before. You know how I feel about you but don’t make me choose between you and my career,” Taehyung mumbled. He was tired of this conversation.

“You know what? Fine. I don’t care. Have fun and date him because we both know how this ends anyway,” Jeongguk shrugged: “You will be with him but when the filming is over and you move to some other goddamn country, you will break up with him because that is what you always do. And then you will come back to me because that is how it is.”

Taehyung didn’t say anything. Deep down he knew Jeongguk was right. He knew that once his and Bogum’s paths separate, he will end it with him because it wasn’t hard for him to let people go. The only person he couldn’t let go of was Jeongguk.

“Anyway, see you in few months or so,” the singer turned on his heel and started walking away.

“Gukkie, don’t walk away from me like this. You know I hate it when we fight right before you leave!” Taehyung exclaimed desperately.

“We are not fighting, I am just leaving,” Jeongguk shrugged and added: “I know you will come back to me because you can’t let go of me just like I can’t let go of you.”

Taehyung was watching Jeongguk’s back as he was walking away. He stood there, with tears burning in his eyes. He hated when Jeongguk left like this. It hurt anytime he watched Jeongguk walk away but after a fight, it was always the hardest. As much as Taehyung wanted to let go of Jeongguk, because it was just too complicated, he knew the singer was right. They just couldn’t let go of each other and he knew that it was just matter of time before they get together, because they always do.

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FLASHBACK

Jimin unlocked the door to the dorm and entered. He could smell some meal and he immediately knew that Seokjin was cooking a dinner. They didn’t have much free time but when they did, he liked cooking and today their schedule was more free so all the members were already home.

“Look who is coming with me!” Jimin shouted loudly and held the door for Taehyung to enter.

“Tae!” Hoseok, who was the first one to run into the hallway, exclaimed happily and hugged the actor.

“What a nice surprise!” Seokjin came rushing in, hugging the actor as well and added: “You’re coming right on time, I am finishing the dinner, you have to eat with us.”

“I don’t wanna bother you, hyung,” Taehyung waved his hand dismissively.

“Bullshit! I cooked more than just for six so there is enough for you, don’t worry about it,” the oldest member protested.

“Wow, look at you, blonde looks great on you!” Hoseok complimented him. His hair was freshly dyed only few days ago.

Taehyung greeted also Namjoon and Yoongi when they came in the small hallway. He was stretching his neck to see behind their heads, looking for the last member.

“He’s in a shower,” Hoseok informed him with a wink, knowing who Taehyung was looking for. They led him to the apartment, he was here only twice, on the party and then when Jeongguk took him there after they met in the club but it already felt like a familiar place. He helped the others make the table while Seokjin and Jimin were in the kitchen, finishing the dinner.

“Tae?” Jeongguk’s voice came from behind Taehyung’s back. The actor turned around and smiled widely when he saw the very familiar face that he was actually missing. They haven’t seen each other for couple of months and Jeongguk looked as great as ever. Right now, his hair was damp from the shower and that only made him look extra good.

The singer felt his heart clench at the sight of Taehyung. The blonde looked amazing on him, his hair was little bit longer at the back of his head and Jeongguk swore that he looked even more beautiful than the last time he saw him. He was wondering when will Taehyung stop getting more handsome but he had a feeling that the answer was never.

“You not gonna give me a hug?” Taehyung pouted but bit his lip to prevent himself from smiling and that snapped Jeongguk from his thoughts. He smiled at him and closed the gap between them, hugging the actor closely. Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jeongguk’s neck, holding him close, burying his face in the crook of Jeongguk’s neck, smelling the familiar scent.

They were texting quite a lot in the past months that they haven’t seen each other and despite the distance between them – since Taehyung was in Australia this whole time – he felt like they were closer than before. They got to know each other much better than in the past few years and Taehyung was really excited to see the singer.

They all sat down and ate the delicious dinner. Then they went to the living room, opening some beers so they could catch up.

“And how is my favourite couple doing?” Taehyung wiggled his eyebrows at Namjoon and Seokjin. From Jimin and Jeongguk, he knew that the two members were still together and going strong but he wanted some confirmation from them. The confirmation alone was that they were currently sitting curled up together, Namjoon’s hand was resting on the headrest of the couch behind Seokjin’s shoulders while one of Seokjin’s hands was resting on the leader’s thigh comfortably.

“Good,” Seokjin smiled.

“Well, thanks for the spicy details,” the actor rolled his eyes with a laugh.

“Believe me, you don’t want the spicy details,” Yoongi made a face.

“Oh, some gossip?” Taehyung wiggled his eyebrows.

“Nah, Yoongi-hyung just walked in on them the other day so he’s still traumatized,” Hoseok laughed and then laughed harder when he saw Yoongi’s glare.

“It’s been like three weeks, get over it already!” Seokjin deadpanned, looking at the oldest rapper.

“I don’t think I ever will,” Yoongi muttered.

“Your problem that you come to my studio without knocking,” Namjoon shrugged.

“Well, I thought that when you are in the studio then you are, I don’t know, working?!” Yoongi exclaimed. Jimin and Hoseok were laughing and Taehyung watched the exchange with a grin. He missed them so much, he missed their bickering and the good feeling he had anytime he was with them.

“I actually have news,” Taehyung spoke up when the members calmed down. Everyone’s attention was turned to him.

“I actually didn’t get any interesting offer so I decided that I could use a little break for couple of months. I’ve been working my ass off for years, doing nothing for a while would be nice, I could just take some MCing or something here and there. Well, the point is that I am moving back to Korea, at least for some time, to catch up with my family, friends and so on,” the actor announced.

“Oh my god, that’s amazing!” Jimin jumped at Taehyung excitedly: “Are you gonna stay in Seoul or Daegu?”

“Definitely here, I mean, I will go home for some time, yeah but I won’t be staying there. I already rented an apartment, actually not very far from here,”

“That’s great, you can come visit us often then!” Seokjin smiled happily. They were in the middle of album recording so they weren’t that busy. They’ll have to start rehearsing new choreography for a comeback in few weeks but at least they weren’t going to travel.

“Yeah, that was my thought as well,” Taehyung nodded and his gaze slipped to Jeongguk for a second, seeing the maknae looking at him with small sparkles in his eyes. Taehyung believed that he will be pretty busy even without working. He and Jeongguk never broke their unspoken friends with benefits agreement and Taehyung was actually looking forward to spending some quality sexy times with the singer.

His thoughts were confirmed to be right when he went to the bathroom. On his way back he bumped into Jeongguk in the hallway. They never made it back to the others, instead they ended up in Jeongguk’s room where the younger fucked Taehyung into the mattress, just like they both loved it.

*

Right after Taehyung moved back to Korea, he went to Daegu for two weeks to spend some time with his family. He moved to Seoul from them when he was only sixteen and ever since his career blew up, he usually saw them only couple of weeks per year.

Half of the time in Daegu, he spent on his phone texting with Jeongguk. They were usually talking about everyday stuff (even though couple of times they sexted and Taehyung had few great orgasms).

When he returned to Seoul and moved in to his newly rented apartment, he started spending a lot of time with BTS members. He was catching up with his other friends as well, but he was mostly with them, not only in their dorm but he was also coming to visit them in the company building, watching them record the album or dancing. He could never get enough of watching Jeongguk dance and when he watched him sing in the recording booth, he was always mesmerized by his beautiful soft voice.

The two of them were of course occasionally meeting for a fuck. Right now, they were lying snuggled together in the bed in Taehyung’s apartment. Only half an hour ago, Jeongguk ate Taehyung out thoughtfully, reducing him into a sobbing mess.

“We are planning with the guys on going out of the city for a weekend. We thought we could rent some house or cabin somewhere in the countryside and just have nice couple of days. They told me to invite you as well, if you are not busy,” Jeongguk broke the silence between them.

“I’d love to go. It’s not a bad idea to spend some time in nature,” Taehyung smiled at him.

And so the seven of them left the city. It was the middle of July so they rented a small house with a pool since the weather was going to be warm.

Seokjin and Namjoon took one room together while Jimin, Hoseok and Yoongi took the other. That left the third room for Jeongguk and Taehyung since everyone knew what activities they will be definitely doing at night. No one was questioning their “relationship” anymore, they all got used to it throughout the years. It’s been more than three and half years since they met Taehyung and what he and Jeongguk were doing was just part of their everyday lives.

The first evening was calm, they just barbecued and drank little bit because they arrived late. They had to get up early that day because Bangtan had some schedule in the morning and afternoon so they were tired and knew that they will go to sleep early. They decided to spend three nights there so they had two more when they could get little bit wilder.

All the members went inside, one by one, saying good night to those who stayed. Hoseok and Jimin left a bit after midnight, leaving Jeongguk and Taehyung alone.

“Thank you for inviting me here. Sometimes I feel like the seventh members of the group, you are so nice to me,” Taehyung laughed quietly and sat down on a double chair next to Jeongguk.

“You are like the seventh member to us, believe me,” Jeongguk laughed light-heartedly, showing of his teeth and crinkles by his eyes. Taehyung stared at him with a small smile on his lips. He was always thinking about how hot Jeongguk was but he was also incredibly cute. Sometimes he still saw that shy little kid in him, even though he was going to be twenty next month and he was a grown ass man now.

Jeongguk caught Taehyung’s gaze a looked back at him, smiling slightly. Then he broke the silence quietly: “I am happy you went with us.”

“I am too,” Taehyung nodded. The singer brought his hand to cup the actor’s cheek, brushing it lightly with a thumb. Taehyung’s eyes fluttered shut at the feeling and pressed his cheek instinctively into the touch.

When he opened his eyes, Jeongguk’s face was closer. He could feel his heart thumping in his chest. They were sitting close to the pool and Taehyung remembered the time almost three years ago, on Jeongguk’s birthday when they kissed for the first time. How hesitant, inexperienced and nervous they were. A lot has changed since then but right now, he felt like that eighteen years old kid again.

Taehyung’s breath hitched in his throat when Jeongguk closed the gap between them and kissed him softly, almost hesitantly which was kinda ironic, considering everything that has happened between them over the years but right now, when they were illuminated by the moon and the water in the pool was sending flickering lights everywhere, it was kinda perfect.

Their kiss deepened and soon they were making out lazily, pressed closely together. It never got heated and rough like the kisses they’ve shared usually before the sex but Taehyung somehow loved it more.

*

They all got up only before noon and spent the whole afternoon by the pool. Taehyung was laughing his ass off as he was watching Jeongguk and Hoseok annoying Yoongi. The oldest rapper was grumbling, he wanted to just lay in the shadow and rest but the maknae and the youngest rapper didn’t give him his peace and they were all laughing so hard when the two, with the help of Jimin, threw Yoongi into the pool and the rapper showered them with curses.

Taehyung was watching Jeongguk this whole time. There were so many sides of the maknae, right now the playful one was coming out in its full glory and it was endearing. Taehyung was slowly uncovering all the sides of Jeongguk over the years, from the shy and cute one, the sexy, confident and professional one while he was performing, the hot and dominant one when they were fucking, the nice and considerate one, to the playful and goofy one that he was showing right now. And Taehyung loved all those sides equally.

In the evening, they were barbecuing again, this time with more alcohol. Taehyung didn’t remember when was the last time he had this much fun in a single day but that was nothing unusual with the six members. He was kinda envious of them really – they had each other, they were almost never alone, they had so much fun whether they were working or had free time. They were really like a family and he was glad that they took him in. Sometimes he wished he’d see them more, he was wondering what it’d be like if he was taking jobs only in Korea. He was sometimes even wondering if his relationship with Jeongguk would grow into something more if they were spending more time together because he felt that the longer he was with the maknae, the more he liked him and it sometimes scared him. It was crazy how connected to Jeongguk he felt despite not seeing each other most of the year.

Just like the previous evening, also this one the other members left until it was just Taehyung and Jeongguk.

“Wanna go for a night skinny dipping?” Jeongguk suggested with a playful smirk.

“Why not?” Taehyung chuckled. It was just the moonlight and the pool light again, no other lights around. The house was quiet and dark and the surroundings as well since they picked a house without any neighbours.

They both stripped down until they were naked. Taehyung let himself admire Jeongguk in his naked glory for couple of seconds, his body was getting broader and tonner the older he got and to say that he was visually pleasing was an understatement.

Soon they were both in the pool, swimming around each other lazily. Taehyung shrieked quietly when Jeongguk grabbed his hand and brought them together. The actor felt his heart beating hard in his chest when Jeongguk’s chest pressed against his and their faces were only inches apart. The maknae looked gorgeous in the moonlight.

Jeongguk closed the gap between them and they started kissing. It was slow and deep at first but it was becoming more urgent and heated with each passing second. Taehyung wrapped his hands around Jeongguk’s waist as the maknae was holding him close with his strong arms wrapped tightly around him.

Taehyung felt hot after each kiss and when the singer started kissing his throat, he started letting out tiny moans, rubbing his hands all around Jeongguk’s back, feeling his damp skin under his fingers.

“Jeongguk,” Taehyung whimpered with pleasure. The maknae looked at him with intensive look and unreadable expression. They were staring at each other for a while.

“Let’s go to the bedroom,” Jeongguk broke the silence with a whisper. Taehyung nodded. As much as he’d enjoy a pool sex, it’d be embarrassing if one of the members accidently walked in on them. So they got out, dried themselves in the towels and disappeared in their shared room.

Fifteen minutes later, Jeongguk was lying between Taehyung’s legs, thrusting three fingers in him slowly. Taehyung was writhing in the sheets. Usually when they fucked, it was heated and fast and rough but it was different this time. Jeongguk was taking his time with pleasuring Taehyung, pushing all the right buttons in him and kissing every inch of his body. It was oddly intimate and Taehyung thought that it was the best thing he’s ever experienced.

“No condom,” Taehyung stopped Jeongguk’s hand when the younger withdrew his fingers and grabbed the package with the protection.

“Are you sure?” Jeongguk looked at his surprised.

“I am clean, are you?” Taehyung breathed out. Jeongguk nodded and Taehyung added: “I wanna feel you, only you.” Jeongguk was looking at him with puzzled expression, the actor’s request took him totally off guard but before he could think about it, his head was nodding. He lubed up his erection with trembling fingers and positioned himself between Taehyung’s legs.

Their faces were only inches apart and they were holding an eye contact. Taehyung’s mouth fell open when Jeongguk pressed slowly inside him. When the maknae bottomed, they kissed, panting into each other’s mouth.

Jeongguk started slowly rocking his hips, moving in and out in a slow pace. Taehyung was squirming with pleasure, he could feel Jeongguk so deep and he felt every drag of his cock inside him and it felt incredible. Their gazes never broke, only when they connected their lips in a kiss.

Jeongguk grabbed Taehyung’s hands and brought them up on each side of his head, intertwining their fingers and holding onto him tightly. Taehyung was moaning softly at the intensity of the act and at Jeongguk’s eyes boring into his.

“Kiss me, Gukkie,” Taehyung whimpered desperately. It was like his body was aching for any contact with the singer, it was overwhelming. The moment and the way their bodies were moving together was so intensive.

Jeongguk complied and leaned down to kiss the actor deeply. Their tongues were moving together lazily as their hands were still intertwined and as Jeongguk was moving slowly in and out. Taehyung was whimpering into the kiss as his erection was rubbing between their stomachs.

“Come for me, angel,” Jeongguk whispered when he broke the kiss but their faces were still close that their noses were rubbing together. That was the first time Jeongguk used that pet name with Taehyung and it didn’t leave them ever since.

Taehyung came with a moan between their stomachs. Jeongguk followed him soon, spilling his load deep inside Taehyung for the first time. The actor trembled with pleasure at the intensity and the feeling of Jeongguk coming inside him. They stayed pressed together for god knows how long, their bodies sweaty and intertwined as they were kissing lazily.

Jeongguk was cupping Taehyung’s cheek, softly rubbing his thumb over it, looking down at him with emotional eyes. Taehyung’s eyes were showing the same emotions. That moment should’ve been their wake up call. If they realized what just happened that night, maybe they would be spared of some pain in the future. In future years, Taehyung was thinking about that moment many times and he came to conclusion that it was inevitable; falling for Jeon Jeongguk was his destiny.