Thoughts about Spn 14x10
SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand we are back with an episode that, as usual, gave me a lot of feelings. I admit that after a strong first half of the season I wasn’t the biggest fan of the midseason-finale, because the twist didn’t work for me. Mostly because we had all saw it coming and because it felt as we just went back to the status quo of this season’s beginning. And I was really curious as to how they would defeat Michael this time, because the spoilers for the upcoming episodes already told us that Dean would be back, and I admit I really liked how Yockey tied the story up momentarily, and the direction the story went, giving us something new to feel anxious about. Yeah.
But, as always, let’s have a closer look.
Obviously we have to talk about Rocky’s bar, about Dean’s dream (the dream), and what it tells us about Dean. I’m not sure how much of it is actually made up by Dean, and what is made up by Michael. Sam reminded us of the time Gadreel had trapped him inside in his mind, distracting him with a case. Which makes it sound like the angel chooses the fantasy. And in a way this makes sense. We see Dean owning a bar, working together with Pamela, and at the end of the day we still saves the day and kills vampires. Michael gives him something that is his (and it’s a bar of all things, for someone who once described himself as a “functional alcoholic”), there is a beautiful woman, and Dean can still be the hero, even though we don’t see him actually hunting. And yet this fantasy feels wrong. It feels like someone took a very superficial look at Dean’s life, especially say season 4 and 5, and created something out of it. Does Dean really wants to own a bar? Where is his family in this fantasy? Why are Sam and Cas mentioned but never show up? Where is Jack? Or Mary? And if Pamela can return from the dead, where is Bobby or Ellen or Jo or Charlie?
And speaking about Pamela. It is interesting that of all the people he lost it is her who returns. And Dean is completely unaware that she died in reality. This isn’t about her loss. It is what she represents. She is hot, she can defend herself, appreciates the finer things in life (sex, alcohol, probably good music and fast cars). And yet… nothing happens between the two. And this is where we are reminded that even if it is Michael who choose this distraction it is still Dean’s mind and Dean’s rules. It is Dean who chooses to give her a boyfriend, to make her unavailable. And this isn’t about her being hard to get (besides Dean always accepted it when a woman said “no”). Because she even tells him that he doesn’t really want her, that he only wants to flirt. While asking him why he only wants what he can’t have. And “Searchin’ For a Rainbow” plays in the back. Ahem. And on top of that Pamela of course is a psychic, somebody Dean can’t lie to.
So Dean is all alone with a beautiful woman and… nothing happens. And this isn’t about Pamela having a boyfriend. It is about Dean, who doesn’t really want her. He wants something or rather someone, he can’t have. And the episode asks loudly who that could be.
Gnats & Gods
So, let’s talk about Michael. First of all, Jensen played him so so well. I think the longer the character stays around the more comfortable Jensen gets playing him and it really shows. Second, did Michael really use his powers to change his outfit? Is he that extra? Yes, of course he is.
So, as it turns out this Michael has as much daddy issues as the Michael of our world had. But unlike our Michael this Michael was able to play his part, to bring down the apocalypse and kill Lucifer and… nothing happened. God didn’t show up. He didn’t care. Just as he didn’t care in our world when the apocalypse almost happened. And yet it must have hurt Michael to find out through Dean’s memories that Chuck did show up in our world. But it gives Michael at least some satisfaction that he at least saw his old man and that he realized that Chuck is a writer, and all the worlds he creates are just failed drafts he abandons once he realizes they don’t work out. I wonder if there is some truth to it, if Chuck indeed keeps on creating, world after world, draft after draft, never satisfied with his work. It also confirms that there is only one God (and probably only one Amara), but they are multiple versions of the archangels (and everyone else).
Michael plans to burn down every world his father has created, to catch up on him, and to ultimately kill God. I’m not sure if the CW goes as far as to kill God, or if it is even possible. I’m more interested in what that means for Dean, as Michael is his Dark Mirror and we know John will temporarily return. Does Dean have to kill his own father? Or rather the toxic parts of their relationship in order to find closure?
My Body is a Cage (but my mind holds the key)
Michael tries to create a rift between Dean and his family by confronting everyone with their greatest fear. He tells Jack that he is unwanted, just another burden for Dean, nothing more than a responsibility, and that Dean never truly loved or cared about him.
He tells Cas that Dean only tolerates him, because he thinks he owes him for rescuing him from hell. (Dean of course remembers the exact words Cas used – “gripped you tight and raised you from perdition” – though I’m pretty sure that Cas-voice was just Jensen making fun of Misha). But since then Cas has made one mistake after another.
And finally Sam is confronted with the fear that he will always let down Dean, that he will always leave, and that perhaps his brother was happier without him, when he was hunting alone with his father. Which I think will be important again, once John returns.
Even though we know Michael is lying, I think what he said to each member of Dean’s family will have an effect on them. They will question themselves and their relationship to Dean. But I also think it will help each of them on their road to self-discovery, to realize that Michael was wrong and that they have value.
I want to talk about Cas especially, because of reasons. Because there is of course some truth to Michael’s words, otherwise it wouldn’t hurt as much. Cas has made a lot of mistakes in the past, and he still feels guilty because of it. The question is however why he is still a part of Dean’s life, of Dean’s family then? Only because Dean tolerates him, because he thinks he owes Cas? Or could it be because his feelings for Cas run a bit deeper. First the episode tells us that Pamela (and women like her) is not what Dean wants. Now it asks why Cas is still around. And the lines “We need you ” and “I remember. I remember everything” are callbacks to two heavy Destiel episodes, 8x17 and 7x17 respectively.
Like I mentioned before I like how the episode tied up the Michael storyline for now. Dean finds a loophole – in his mind Michael has no powers and he can trap him. Dean’s body literally becomes the cage. He has trapped his own Dark Mirror inside himself. Which of course isn’t healthy and only a temporarily solution, because after all doors are made to be opened. But it is also interesting because even before Michael Dean’s body has been a cage (it’s no wonder I immediately associated this song with Dean). Dean is used to bury down traumatic events, and this episode alone reminded us how much trauma he had to endure. Could it be that if one door is opened others are opened as well? That when (not if) Michael escapes the cage Dean not only has to face his Dark Mirror but all the traumas of his life as well?
Which of course brings us to Death. Or Billie. First of all I wonder why only Sam and Michael were able to see the reaper. Reapers are angels (according to Bucklemming mythology), so Cas should have seen her. I’m not sure about Jack though, because he is half-human. There might be some significance in the fact that not everyone could see the reaper.
Then we learned that will there is only one God, there is more than one Death. Michael mentions that he locked away the Death of his world and enslaved the reapers, which of course made him the Master of Death in his world. It is possible he has the same plan for our world and why Billie intervenes.
Billie of course warned Dean about walking between worlds and we learn that such a huge event like AU!Michael entering our world can result in destinies being rewritten, in this case Dean’s. We are confronted with a case of Supernatural: Infinity War, where only one outcome doesn’t result in the destruction of… well everything. The big question of course is what is written in the notebook Billie gave Dean? What does he has to do to stop Michael? My first thought was that perhaps he has to sacrifice himself, destroy the vessel, while Michael is still locked inside himself. Which is an idea I don’t really like because I prefer my Dean happy and alive.
So now I am worried about Dean, worried about Cas and his deal with the Empty, and worried about Jack, because of course he used his powers and therefore burned off a bit of his soul.
One short mention of the AU hunters: really liked the representation of community, how they without questioning helped the Winchesters. They might not be family, but they can rely on each other.
And that’s it. Until next week <3