Raf walked into the hospital, looking at the text Liv sent
-Something happened, meet me at Mercy room 211.
That text sent fifteen minutes before left him in a panic.
Raf ran down the hall, trying to find the room. Finding the room number he texted her,
-I’m outside okay if I come in?-R
-Don’t. I’ll come out- L
Raf shook his head walking over to the wall, leaning against it his fists coming to rest beside his head. Liv stepped out of the room.
“Liv, what the hell is going on?”
“Y/N was assaulted while she and Sonny were uncover.”
“What!? I thought she had Carisi there as backup?”
“He was, they got separated.” Liv sighed.
Raf let out a breath.
“How’s sonny?” He asked, knowing you would worry about him since you two were partners.
“He’s good. Y/N needs more support now.”
“You don’t think I know that?” Raf snapped.
Liv just looked at him.
“I’m sorry, Liv,” Raf whispered shaking his head.
He looked at the door, walked toward it.
“The doctor is looking after her, you have to wait.”
Raf walked over and sat down with his head in his hands. The doctor came out a few minutes later.
“Y/N would like to see you.”
Raf looked at Olivia.
“I told her, you were on your way.”
Raf stood and walked over to the door, took a deep breath, grabbed the door handle and pushed it forward. He looked around the room eyes landing on you, you were curled up on your side facing away from him. Raf stood there not knowing what to do, he decided to walk to the side of your bed. When he got to the side of the bed, he went to touch your shoulder, then remembered that might not be a good idea.
“Y/N.” he whispered softly.
You heard his voice, turning toward the door you saw him standing there.
“Rafi.” You sobbed.
Raf stopped himself from climbing into bed with you. He looked at you silently asking for permission, you shook your head no but held out your hand out. Raf sat in the chair beside your bed, taking your hand, squeezing it. He said nothing.
Raf smiled, shaking his head, you were always thinking of others.
“He’s okay according to Olivia.”
You and he sat there, in silence. Raf squeezed your hand gently, you looked at him. He smiled at you. You looked like hell, but he looked at you like you were the most beautiful woman he ever has seen.
“I want to go home, Rafi,” you whispered.
“Not right now Y/N, but soon.”
You frowned at his answer, all you wanted was to go home, curl up with him and forget everything. You saw something in his eyes,
“What?” You asked.
“I love you,” he whispered.
“I love you, too.”
Raf smiled. You leaned up knowing what he wanted to ask for,
Raf leaned in carefully brushing your lips together. After you broke the kiss, you were quiet. After a couple of hours, Liv and the doctor came in. The doctor cleared you to go home, you looked at Liv.
Liv nodded and told you what Sonny said.
“Is there anything else that Sonny didn’t hear or see?”
“No, that’s it. He watched them as they did it, every time he tried to look away, they punched him." Raf was gritting his teeth and giving your hand a reassuring squeeze.
Later that day
Raf brought you home and you watched him after he got you settled on the couch. He was just like a zombie walking around the house.
“Rafi, come sit down please?”
“How can I sit?” he snapped.
You winced. Raf noticed sighing, coming over to sit down next to you.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
You nodded and leant against him.
“I feel dirty.”
“You want me to draw you a bath?” He whispered.
Raf got up going into the bathroom and fixing you a bath, with your favorite bubbles. After making sure the temperature was warm he came out to get you.
“Y/N, your bath is ready.”
Raf held out his hand, you grabbed it and followed him. After you were in the bathroom, he left so you could undress and get in, only coming in after you were settled in the tub. He picked up your clothes,
“Throw them away, please?”
“If that’s what you want,” Raf said bending down beside the tub.
Raf gently kissed your hair and left you alone while you bathed. You got out, slipping into one of his Harvard sweatshirts, sweatpants, and fuzzy socks. You made your way out to the living room, Raf was laying on the couch. He saw you and smiled softly at you, you both met the other's eyes, he opened his arms for you. You climbed on top of him, your face hiding in his chest. You wrapped your arms around him, as he carefully did the same.
“This okay?” He whispered.
You nodded your head, you looked at him and smiled as your eyes met. You nodded, leaning down you kissed his lips. After you broke the kiss and rubbed your nose against his, you lay your head on his chest and fell asleep.
He watched you sleep for a few hours, gently getting up.
“Rafi.” You whimpered.
“I’m here, I’m just going to carry you to bed if that’s okay?”
He picked you up carrying you to bed. After he placed you on your side, he went back to the door.
"Where are you going?” You asked.
“I was going to go back to the couch.”
“No, this is our bed, come here.”
Rafael came over and got on his side of the bed, staying on his side not crowding you. You smiled at him as he smiled back, he held out his hand out, you grabbed it and moved his body and arms so he was wrapped around you tightly.
Rafa smiled a sad smile at how tightly you had him wrapped around you, you always said he always made you feel safe.
“You good?” he whispered.
You nodded against his chest. You fell asleep thinking how lucky you were to have him and how so many others had had him and then just thrown him away like he wasn’t worth anything.