Chapter One: Can't Get My Mind Off Of You
It was late at night. Many hours after his big performance at the school.
Andre Harris was having trouble going back to sleep. The topic that was on his mind at the time continued to bother him.
"Jade who?" he jokingly said to Tori, as he walked off to hang out with the girl he met earlier that night.
Andre found it frightening that his mind once again found itself focused on the dark-haired girl.
"What the hell is wrong with me?" he asked himself while staring at his room ceiling.
He remembered back to the other night when he recognized his feelings for Jade.
The late night recording session.
The surprisingly sweet side of Jade that he once thought didn't exist.
The angelic voice that she had as she sang that night.
That cute little smile on her face that made him feel as if reality was a dream.
All of this rushed through his mind as if it was a swirling whirlpool of confusing thoughts.
You see, Andre has never felt like this about any girl. Well, there was one other.
"Tori!" he said, sitting up in his bed and picking up his phone.
There were four missed calls and two voicemails left from Tori.
Even though his mind was now focused on Tori, a recent memory caused him to go back to Jade.
Andre was sitting on the couch at Tori's house and staring at a Jade-like Tori.
"…I'll be way meaner to you." said the Jade-like Tori.
She was acting too much like Jade. As much as he like the sweet side that Jade had hid, Andre found something attractive about her mean side.
His mind became blank at that moment, the only thing he could think of was Jade, nothing but Jade.
Tori began to look more and more like Jade. It even got to the point where he felt as if he was back in the recording studio with her.
Everyone became second to him, even his best friend Beck.
Beck who? he thought, as he began to lean closer and closer towards Jade.
All he wanted was just one kiss. One kiss to build a dream on. One kiss for everything to be perfect.
As he moved closer, Jade moved even closer until their lips almost touched.
"Oh, Jade…" he moaned as his perfect dream was almost a reality.
Strangely, at that moment, Jade suddenly yelled.
But something was wrong with her voice, it sounded… like Tori's.
What the hell! he thought, as he soon felt a pillow hit him in the face.
Andre woke up.
He found himself laying on the floor and realized he was sleeping sitting against the headboard and accidentally fell over.
His head was hurting but not only because he fell on the floor, but because his thoughts were ricocheting against his skull.
One of these thoughts frightened him.
"I can't possibly betray my best friend like that." Andre said, sitting on the floor and rubbing his forehead. "But… I almost did… in my mind at least and I didn't even care about how Beck would feel at all."
Still sitting on the floor, Andre fell into a deep thought.
He remembered being on stage, singing with Tori and constantly focused on Jade.
How come Jade all of a sudden looked so beautiful to him?
It was like for years being in the presence of a disguised angel and you've just discovered the part of them that is angelic.
Don't get him wrong, Andre didn't forget about the other side of Jade. He knew that she wasn't all nice and sweet.
But he didn't care about her nasty side.
He does remember the look on Beck's face that night.
It was like he was completely oblivious to what was going on.
At that point, that's where Andre wanted it to be.
He knew it was wrong, but what could he possibly do about it.
In his mind, Jade was… something special to look at.
To think about.
To talk about.
To hear about.
It was like there was no end to the insanity he was feeling.
He had to go somewhere.
It was almost 9:30 in the morning and the sun was out.
After getting himself together, Andre walked around the neighborhood and found himself confronted by Cat.
Cat was standing on the corner of the street and was apparently trying to sell toothpaste flavored cupcakes.
Andre found it strange… wait… he'd been around Cat long enough not to find this weird.
As soon as Cat saw Andre, she ran up to him waving two cupcakes at him.
"Toothpaste Cupcakes!" she yelled, "The minty flavor of toothpaste inside a tasty cupcake! Want one?"
Not wanting to hurt her feelings, he decided to just tell her that he had a very large breakfast.
"You look like you haven't been sleeping well." she said, as the both of them walked towards her Toothpaste Cupcake stand, "Still thinking about Jade?"
It felt as if his heart stopped beating and his lungs were being squeezed.
How did she… When did she… Gotta play this off and act calmly.
Cat continued to look at him as if she was waiting for him to react with a quick lie.
"Are you kidding me? Why would I be thinking about Jade?" he said quickly, "I mean, she's a friend, but c'mon. I don't think about her like that."
Cat began to giggle, "You are such a bad liar. I saw the way you looked at Jade after the two of you hugged last night."
He remembered it too well.
As Jade and he saw each other, she began to walk towards him and they hugged.
There were other times when they hugged, but something was different about this time.
He could feel how warm she was.
How soft she was.
The noticeable fragrance that she was wearing.
Whatever the factor was, it made him want to hold her close to him and never let her go.
But eventually he knew that he had to. Especially to not draw any attention from those standing near them.
As he pulled away from Jade, he could see that she was smiling at him.
He felt the need to tell her something.
But no word could describe how he was feeling at that moment.
So he remained silent.
"Yoo-hoo! Andre, are you still there?" asked Cat, waving her hands in his face.
"Oh uh, yeah, it's just something came to my mind." he said, "I have to go. Good luck selling those cupcakes."
As he began to walk off from Cat's cupcake stand, he could hear Cat calling to him.
"Don't worry, I won't tell her a thing."
Andre didn't exactly know how to feel about that. But at that moment all he could to do was trust that Cat wouldn't tell Jade a thing.
He had to play it off, of course.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever you say, Cat."
Continuing to walk around the neighborhood, he knew there was one person that he needed to talk to.