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The Hunters Moon was packed on the night of Simon’s first solo gig. Jace was exhausted by the time he found his friends. All he wanted to do after work was go home and sleep the entire weekend away.

He loved his job as a baker, but the past two weeks had been demanding and he had been working round the clock with no breaks. After making his last delivery of the day, he decided to take the weekend off. Perks of being your own boss and all of that.

But his sister and bane of his existence practically bullied him to come to the Hunters Moon and support Simon, or else? Saying no to Isabelle Lightwood wasn’t a good idea, so he had agreed to come and support Simon’s stupid gig. Even though he was dead on his feet.

Izzy waved when she saw him and he made his way to the table where she sat with her girlfriend, Maia and his brother’s boyfriend Magnus. “Where’s Alec? How come I was bullied into showing up? Hey Magnus. Maia.”

“Blondie.” Maia said, smiling at him. Magnus rolled his eyes.

“Oh, Alec is here.” Izzy said, smiling. “Simon got him to be part of his performance.”

Jace grinned, “Really? Now this I have to see.” He leaned in his seat and watched the stage being set up. “Where’s Clary? You’d think she’ll be here to support her best friend.”

“She’s on a date?” Magnus said. “Remember Lydia?”

“Sorry, I have been super busy in the past couple of weeks and nobody kept me in the loop.” He said, dryly. “Except to threaten me to show up for the nerd’s gig, or else.”

“Simon is our friend.” Maia said, frowning. “I don’t know why you hate him.”

“I don’t hate him. He hates me.” Jace protested. “Why don’t you ask him?”

He and Simon were best friends a lifetime ago, until something incredibly stupid happened and they just stopped.

“Simon doesn’t hate you.” Magnus said, “He thinks you are an asshole, but then we all do.” He flinched when Izzy kicked him, “Well, I do.”

“Magnus, be nice.” Maia said, laughing. To Jace, she said. “Simon doesn’t hate you. He doesn’t hate anybody. He and Raphael are best friends and nobody likes Raphael. Anybody who is friends with Raphael Santiago is an angel. Or Jesus.”

Jace didn’t say anything. He knew for a fact that Simon didn’t like him. Not that he was obvious about it, but he knew he did. And it was Jace’s fault. Not that he’d tell anybody. It was his shame that he’d take to his grave.

Ten years ago, back in high school, Jace had…well, he had sex with Simon and then gave him the cold shoulder for the rest of the school year. He could still remember the wounded look on Simon’s face. But Simon had said nothing, not even to Clary. He had acted like everything was fine. For a while, he had avoided their group of friends and hung out with Raphael, and that was that.

The truth was he had no idea how to fix what had messed them up and after a while he didn’t even try anymore. He missed him, but it was too late.

If he could get another chance to apologize to Simon or…something, he’d take it but that was never going to happen. Simon looked at him like he wasn’t there. He just tolerated him due to their mutual friends.

Simon stayed away from them when they went to college. Although he hung out with Alec, Izzy and Clary once in a while. In fact, he had introduced Magnus and Maia to his siblings. If Jace was being honest, he supposed he had Simon to thank for his siblings happiness. Especially Alec. There was a period he thought Simon and Alec were a thing, but Izzy just told him that they were just good friends.

In the past ten years, Simon was in his life one way or the other, even though they never spoke, except for the occasional greetings and inquires. Simon didn’t seem to want to be in Jace’s company for too long. It was just as well. Jace never apologized for being an asshole and Simon didn’t care.

Yeah, Simon hated him.

He was shaken out of his thoughts by Simon speaking on the stage. Alec was sitting behind him behind the drums and there was a dark-skinned girl at the keyboard. Simon held his guitar, and he was smiling.

“Hey guys. I’m Simon and these are Alec and Gretel. It has been ages since I performed for a crowd like this, so…well get ready to have your socks knocked off.”

Simon started to sing, and Jace stared, his earlier exhaustion forgotten.

Simon was…hot.

Somebody make a move
Somebody make a move
Somebody

Test my reality
Check if there's a weak spot
Clingin' to insanity
Hopes the world will ease up

Try to make it look like it's all somehow getting better
'Cause I know how to play it pretty good against the measure
Everyone started out a little insane
But we learn pretty quick how to fake it for the game
But some of you never learned to drop the act
So under that skin of yours: a heart attack

'Cause everybody's so scared
We don't wanna go there
We don't wanna make a move
We got got all our lives to lose
Screaming in the dark while we just play our part
I'll play right along
Like I don't know what's going on

Somebody make a move
Somebody make a move
Please somebody make a move
We all know
We all know what's going on

And if I had the answers I'd have written them out
So I could tell you what to do and what this thing is about
But all I've ever learned comes second-hand
And I dare not preach what I don't understand

You and I; we share the same disease
Cover up; compromise what we grieve
I've let more than my share of revivals die
This isn't pretty but it's who I am tonight

'Cause everybody's so scared
We don't wanna go there
We don't wanna make a move
We got got all our lives to lose
Screaming in the dark while we just play our part
I'll play right along
Like I don't know what's going on

Somebody make a move
Somebody make a move
Please somebody make a move
We all know
We all know what's going on

Pointing my fingers the problems still linger
They keep getting bigger and I hold the trigger
Playing with fire I live like a liar
Please somebody make a move

Somebody make a move (I'm pointing my fingers)
Somebody make a move (The problems still linger)
Somebody make a move (I'm pointing my fingers)
Somebody
Somebody make a move

'Cause everybody's so scared
We don't wanna go there
We don't wanna make a move
Screaming in the dark while we just play our part
I'll play right along

'Cause everybody's so scared
We don't wanna go there
We don't wanna make a move
We got got all our lives to lose
Screaming in the dark while we just play our part
I'll play right along
Like I don't know what's going on

Somebody make a move
Somebody make a move
Please somebody make a move
We all know
We all know what's going on
Somebody make a move
Somebody make a move
Please somebody make a move
We all know
We all know what's going on

 

He knew he was staring like an idiot. When did this happen?

 “Wow.” Izzy breathed next to him. “Simon is hot.”

“Of course he is, you dated him.” Maia said, but she was in awe too.

“So did you.” Izzy giggled. “Was he this hot when we dated him?”

“I can’t believe Sarah dated you guys.” Magnus murmured. He was also looking impressed. “But I’ll have to agree, Solomon is…edgier. He has that rockstar appeal. Who would have thought?”

“Jace?” Izzy asked. “Are you OK? You look like you swallowed something awful.”

“I’m fine.” He snapped. “I’m just surprised. I didn’t know he was…he’s good.”

He ignored his friends as he watched Simon. He was smiling as he sang, even winked at someone in the front row. What the…? Where was the awkward Simon he knew?

Alec looked like he was having fun up there too. Suddenly, Jace felt bad, he didn’t know his brother/best friend was good at drums. Or that he’d want to be on stage at all. The Alec he knew and was used to was shy and reserved. Although he was less so since he met Magnus.

The bar erupted in cheers and applause when they were done. Magnus stood up and blew a kiss at Alec who blushed. At least that hasn’t changed.

“Oh my God, Simon.” Izzy gushed, hugging him. “You were amazing. Very sexy. Why weren’t you like this when we were dating?”

“Izzy?!” Maia scolded. “But, yeah, Simon, why not?”

“Not bad, Lewis.” Jace said, a little awkwardly,

“Oh.” Simon blinked. “You’re here. Thanks.” Then he turned to Magnus. “What did I tell you? Alec did great up there. Drumming lessons are paying off, no?”

Izzy said something to Simon is Spanish and Simon looked at Jace before responding. Maia rolled her eyes, “I hate it when they do that.”

Jace blinked. Again, Simon Lewis had managed to stun him tonight. He wasn’t sure he liked it.

Alec joined them, with Magnus’s arm around his waist. “Wow, is this what you feel when you go on stage, Simon? It’s weird. I’m shaking.”

Simon laughed. “Not only you, man. Speaking of which, I’ll be right back.” He left them and walked up to Gretel who he picked up in a hug. She grinned and kissed his cheek.

She said something to him and pointed at their group. He frowned and looked at Jace. He shrugged and said something to her. Then he turned and walked out the back of the bar.

What was that?

Simon was outside for almost an hour. Jace wondered what he was up to when the girl, Gretel, came up to him and smiled. “Hi. You’re Simon’s friend, right?”

“I, uh…” Jace started. “I guess…”

She handed him a piece of paper. “Why don’t we go for a drink sometime? Call me.”

Jace stared at the piece of paper in his hand. It was her phone number. “Um, OK. I guess.”

Simon came in, looking a lot looser and relaxed, he gave Jace a vague grin before strolling to the bar. Raphael was there. He said something with a fake smirk on his face. Simon patted his shoulder and laughed.

It was getting late and jace was tired. He stood up “I’m going home guys. I have an appointment with my bed. Nobody call me till Monday.”

“You wish.” Maia said.

He waved to his friends and walked out of the bar. He turned at the last minute to see Simon looking at him before the door closed.

******

“You can forgive him, you know?” Raphael said. “He was a stupid kid. People make mistakes.”

“Huh.” Simon was high. He wasn’t so high that he didn’t know what Raphael was talking about. But… “What are you talking about?”

Raphael rolled his eyes and said something under his breath about pigheaded idiots. “You have been punishing yourself and him for something that happened ten years ago. How much longer are you going to go on for?”

“He is still the same asshole he was ten years ago.” Simon said. “Besides, I’m not upset anymore. I’m over it.” He huffed at Raphael’s “Liar” and continued. “But, it’s better this way. Everything is easy and calm and chill. Why do I have to rock the boat and be nicer to him?”

“You aren’t nice to him.” Raphael said, dryly. “You are civil. Polite. Borderline icy. Everyone knows you two hate each other.”

“I don’t hate him.” Simon said, “He’s Alec and Izzy’s brother. They are my favorite people. He and I are just not close.”

They once were, though. Until that night. The night that changed everything. It was the best and the worst night of his life. He remembered everything about it. The way Jace had whispered that it was OK. That he had wanted this for so damn long. He called him beautiful and he had literally rocked Simon’s world.

The shock and revulsion in Jace’s face afterwards broke Simon. Jace kept whispering No, No, No. Then he looked at Simon with a look of disgust and Simon had told him to leave. He didn’t scream. He just told him to leave.

He never spoke of it to anyone. Except Raphael. He just found excuses not to be in the same room with Jace or the same area. And it was good.

“If you say so.” Raphael said. “I just want you to stop acting like a victim. So what if he was disgusted? It happens. You disgust me everyday but here we are.”

“You love me, Rapha.” Simon grinned. “I’m over it. Like you said, it’s been ten years.”

Simon talked with Raphael for a bit before going to join his friends at their table. “Hey guys, what’s the plan?”

“We could go to the club.” Maia suggested. Magnus perked up.

“Why did you wait till Jace left?” Alec asked, suddenly. “You always do that.”

Simon flinched, “Jace left?” He pretended to look around. “Didn’t notice. I always do what?”

“Conveniently leave when Jace is around and then come back when he leaves.” Alec said. “It’s getting old.”

“You’re drunk, Alec.” Simon laughed, a little strained. “I do not…”

“Yeah…you guys used to be best buds.” Izzy said. “What happened?”

“We were kids.” Simon said simply. “I guess we outgrew eachother.”

“That’s bullshit.” Magnus said. “Even I know there’s a story there.”

Simon laughed. “I kissed someone he liked, OK.” He lied. “I guess some best friends don’t come back from that.”

Suddenly, Simon just wanted to go home. He was exhausted mentally. “You know what guys? I think I’ll head out now. I’m going home.”

“Is it because of what I said?” Alec said, sitting up. “I’m sorry, Simon. I…”

“Oh no no.” Simon smiled reassuringly. “It’s just that I’m super high right now and I’m tired. I’ll text you a couple of songs tomorrow and we’ll see on Sunday to plan practice? Yeah, OK”

He left before anyone asked if he was running away from Jace. Or worse, if he was in love with the guy.

If he was being honest with himself, the answers to those questions would be a loud YES.

But he wasn’t.

Of course he wasn’t running away from Jace. And he was not in love with him either.

Nope.

******

Jace grumbled to himself as he dragged his sleepy body to the door. It was 10AM on a Saturday, who would be banging on his door this early?

“I said I’m coming!” he shouted. He opened the door and blinked at his sister standing at the door with a sheepish grin. “This had better be good.” He growled, not making a move to get away from the door. “Start talking.”

“Can I at least come in?” She asked, “I brought coffee. And muffins.”

“All I wanted was a weekend to myself.” He whined as he turned and walked back into his apartment. “Was that too much to ask for?”

“It was either me or Alec.” Izzy said, shutting the door and going to place the coffee and muffins on the coffee table. “Alec is hungover, so here am I.”

“Hungover?”  Jace rubbed his eyes. “Alec? Well, he is settling into the rockstar lifestyle perfectly, isn’t he?”

Izzy hummed and looked at him like she was searching for something. He refused to squirm. “What?” he asked. “What did I do?”

“You and Simon?” she said and Jace froze. “What happened to you guys? Alec said something and Simon acted weird. He gave some bullshit story about a girl coming between both of you.”

Jace couldn’t hide his surprise. Izzy laughed, “I knew that was a lie. You just proved it. So what’s going on with you guys?”

“Nothing.” Jace said. “People have falling outs all the time. It’s normal.”

“But you guys were best buds.”

“I wouldn’t go that far.” Jace said, uncomfortable with the conversation. It had been ten years. He should have gone away when he got the opportunity, but no, he had to stay. For some silly family sentimental bullshit.

No. He couldn’t leave the only real family he ever knew to live with a grandmother he never met. No, he didn’t regret staying, but this Simon thing was a hassle he didn’t need.

“Jace?” Izzy called him and he blinked. “What?”

“You know I’m not letting this go.” She said. “Magnus is going to talk to Simon.”

“What is this?” Jace asked, sharply. “An intervention? Jesus, it’s been ten years, you guys should let it go.”

“What?” Ten…?” Izzy blinked. “I didn’t know it was that long. Come to think of it…Oh Jace…”

Jace knew he was sunk. He tried to salvage…something. “Did I say ten years? I meant…” he stopped at his sister’s wry look. “Damn it! All I wanted was a quiet weekend.”

“Start talking.” She said, tapping the toes of her boots. Jace sighed, now was not the time to tell her she looked like their mother when she did that.

“I-I can’t.” he said, tiredly. “I’ll need to talk to Simon first.”

“I’m not going anywhere.” She leaned back into the couch.

“Why did your girlfriend let you out this early?” he asked, going for his phone in his bedroom.

“She has an early class.” Izzy called out. “It’s Saturday, I have a lot of free time.”

He checked his phone and realized he didn’t have Simon’s number. Well, it had been ten years since they talked properly. He went back to the living room. “Can you give me Simon’s number?”

Izzy’s eyebrows went up. “Wow. This is worse than I thought.”

She called out Simon’s number and he dialed it. He heard a groggy voice pick up.

“What? It’s Saturday.”

“That’s what I told Izzy.” Jace said. “Apparently, nobody cares about that anymore.”

“Jace?” Simon asked, a lot more alert. “What…Jace?”

“Heads up. Magnus is on his way to your place.” Jace said. Izzy glared at him.

“What? Why?” Simon asked. “What did I do? What did you do? I swear to God, Jace, if this is your fault…”

“What? You’ll never speak to me again?” Jace couldn’t help asking. “You are already doing that, so you can’t do anything to me, that you haven’t been doing for the past ten years.”

Simon sucked in a breath. “It’s too early for this shit.” He grumbled. “OK, Jace.” Jace winced at the tone, “What seems to be the problem that you had to call me, for the first time in ten years? Wait, how did you get my number?”

“Izzy. She’s here. She wants to know why you are treating me like I have the plague.” Jace said, not caring if he sounded bitter. He was tired. “So…?”

“I’m not-“ Simon cut himself and swore. “I guess you could tell her the truth, but then that wouldn’t paint you in the best light, would it?”

“Simon…” Jace said.

“You could tell her that after you slept with me on my birthday, you looked at me like I was the worst thing mistake you ever made.” Simon went on. “Or, you know, you could just tell her you were so ashamed of sleeping with me that you shut me out completely. For ten years.”

“Simon…” Jace pinched the bridge of his nose and closed his eyes. “You told me to leave.”

“What was I supposed to do?” Simon snapped. “Give you a hug? You looked…you have no idea how you looked at me.” He heard Simon swear again. “I guess Magnus is here. I don’t know what I’m going to say. But, you say what you want to, Jace. I don’t care.”

Then he hung up.

Jace sighed. He didn’t need this.

He knew he fucked up, but Simon didn’t understand. But he didn’t give him a chance to explain. Although, he was partly to blame. He never attempted to fix anything. He just let it fester for ten years. And it wasn’t like they went their separate ways, they saw each other all the time.

“Jace?” Izzy called him. “Are you OK?”

“No.” Jace sighed. “Remember Simon’s 18th birthday?”

“Vaguely.” Izzy frowned. “We were wasted.”

“You see, I slept with him.” Izzy’s eyes widened. “I didn’t handle it well.”

******

“So, now that you guys know, I guess we don’t have to pretend anymore.” Simon said. He avoided looking at everyone. The only consolation was that Jace also looked uncomfortable. “I mean, now you guys know that we can’t stand each other and you know why. So I don’t have to act like he’s my friend.”

They were in Magnus’s loft after Magnus had practically dragged Simon out of his house and into his car because he didn’t want to stay away from Alec for too long.

“Don’t you want to know why?” Alec asked. “I mean, it’s Jace. You guys were friends…”

“I was a stupid kid.” Simon said, shortly. He didn’t want to know. He didn’t want to have to be friends with Jace and he’s sure Jace felt the same. “Do you know how humiliating it was for me?”

“You were not the only one who was humiliated.” Jace murmured. Simon whipped his head to look at Jace. “Oh? I’m sorry that was such a horrible experience for you, Lightwood-Herondale, whatever the hell your name is.”

“Simon!” Clary and Izzy gasped. Simon stood up.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” Simon paced, “I didn’t think I’d be spending my weekend rehashing the worst day of my life. Well, second worst day. The worst being when my dad died. But I’m sure you know that.” He felt a giggle bubble up from his throat. “So is there a point to this meeting, intervention or what is it?”

“In my opinion,” Magnus said, “I think it’s a pretty stupid reason for you guys to stop being friends for ten years.”

“Of course.” Simon said. “It is a stupid reason. But it happened to me. Not you. And he didn’t even try to talk to me. Yes, I could have tried to talk to him but I was scared and he was the one who looked at me as if I was…anyway, ten years have gone by now and it’s too late to fix anything.”

“We could try?” Jace said, hesitantly.

“Oh, now you want to fix it?” Simon said, dramatically. He knew he was being unreasonable but he was embarrassed and angry. Dealing with this after so many years was…shit.

“Better late than never, I guess.” Jace said.

“OK, OK.” Simon stood up. “I’ll have my people call your people.” Then he practically ran out of the loft. He was sure they could hear his hysterical giggling as he sprinted down the stairs.

He needed to move.

Probably to Australia. They’ll never find him there.

It was after he had gotten to the street that he remembered he didn’t come out with his wallet, just his keys and phone. The walk would clear his head anyway. He started walking .

He was probably being a baby, but damn it, he didn’t want to deal with this. Not now. Not ever. Now thanks to, well, Jace (he was going to pin this on him) he was going to have to.

“Fuck!”

“Would it be so bad if we tried to fix it?” he heard Jace behind him. He was startled but he didn’t turn. He ignored him and walked on. Why did the jerk have to be so mature about it? It was all his fault.

“Simon?” Jace said. “I miss you. I’m sorry.”

Simon stopped. “They are all going to think I’m crazy.” He sighed. Then turned to look at Jace. “I guess I’m sorry too. I should have done something. Kicked your ass, or attempted to, at least. I mean, I can probably do it now but it’s been ten years.”

“Simon, they already think you are crazy.” Jace said, “And there’s no way you could take me in a fight.”

And just like that, the animosity was gone, although. “I’m still really mad at you. It was my first time and you almost ruined it for me.”

“I-What?” Jace frowned. “What?”

Simon smiled, “You didn’t. You were good, but not that good.” He winked. “I’ll see you around Lightwood…Herondale. What the hell do I call you?”

Jace stared at him, “What? You know my name.”

“Whatever, bro.” Simon started walking again. “I’m going home.”