PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT ENGLISH ISN'T MY NATIVE LANGUAGE SO I MIGHT HAVE A HORROS OF GRAMMATICAL MISTAKES...
The speeches had long gone, the dinner was served and the cheers for the just married couple had passed a few minutes ago; family and friends came and went by the pass of the music in the background. Jeremy saw his now husband's face, he was delighted with the most beautiful man in this world; Michael had been laughing in a dorky way for five minutes straight thanks to a joke Rich just told and still he manage to look perfect.
Suddenly the light started to drown out and the dance floor was the only lighted; it was they're time to dance the waltz.
Michael's eyes searched his and locked their hands together under the table, they just shared a small excited smile and so they went to the dance floor. The music started to sound, a cover version of "For The Dancing And The Dreaming" was playing in the background.
They started to slow dance almost unconscious, they knew how this worked. How couldn't they know? They have been dancing to this song for years, even before dating.
"You look gorgeous" Michael told him while moving some locks from Jeremy's eyes "How I'm this lucky to marry such a beautiful man like you?" He told him while humming the background song.
"Oh really lover boy? I wonder too" He said with teasing voice while just letting himself swung with the tune, it was a simple joke buy his anxiety just raised itself really fast "Imeanjustlookatyou,youaresuperperfectformeandomgijustloveyousomuch.Youaresuchawonderfullboyfriendandyouwouldbeawonderfullhusbndtoo-"
Michael looked at him with shock and then chuckled, he really was used to Jeremy's fast way to talk when he was embarrassed.
"I ain't the only perfect boyfriend too, don't ya' wonder why I proposed?" Soft kiss pressing in his lips. The audience shower them with a chorus of "Awww", no-one could ignore Cloe and Brooke's high pitched voices shouting 'GET HIM SLUSHY BOY' in the back.
There were small giggles, but the flashbacks that came to Jeremy were more important and he receive them with a gentle smile.
I'll swim and sail on savage seas
With never a fear of drowning
And gladly ride the waves of life
If you would marry me
No scorching sun nor freezing cold
Will stop me on my journey
If you will promise me your heart
It was they're last year of High School, they were spending the evening in their normal way; video games, snacks and movies, some cuddles with a little to much 'I like you' indirects.
"Dude, I... I have something to tell you." Michael said while moving his hands from his best friend's hair and screeching his way to his backpack.
"Sure, go on. I'm all ears." Heere pauses the game, softly getting more comfortable in Michael's laps and concentrating on his friend. He literally bite his tongue to no shout in excitement when he saw what was in the other boy hand's.
There was he with a medium size Toothless plushy in hands. The Filipino boy was hiding his face in the dragon's back and starting to move it's paws.
"For a long time we have being friends and with the pass of the time... I started to fall in love with you. From the way you laugh to the way you get frustrated; all seems so cute and so perfect that it. The first time I felt like this was in 8° grade; at first I didn't knew what were this feeling, I was so scared so I kept buried them down but they kept growing back, and you just started to became my favowite person...." Michael looked over, blush all ove his face and finishes "Do you wanna go out with me?"
The excitement on Jeremy's face couldn't be more obvious, he always thought it was one sided love but he tried when to left hints whwn he was younger.
"Of course I will! You big goof, it was a heck of a time waiting for you to do something." He kissed his boyfriends nose and smiled stupidly.
Both of they're hearts were a rushing mess.
And love me for eternity
My dearest one, my darling dear
Your mighty words astound me
But I've no need for mighty deeds
When I feel your arms around me
The start of collage was full of chaos; projects, exams, anniversary surprise and relationship advices; which means Chris started to like Jenna and search of ideas of 'how to confess', Jake sending hints to Rich that he liked him but all flirtation ending with a "no homo", and everything me being a pain in the ass of how obvious they were and not noticing it.
This wasn't helping Jeremy; he always tried his best but sometimes he couldn't take it and sometimes he got tired of everything, of not being enough, of trying to be perfect, of trying to understand why he deserved all that love, of getting looks full of stress when he couldn't get the perfect idea for dates, of living but what he was grateful is that Mica was always there no matter what.
The day of their anniversary, it was supposed to be a romantic dinner in their dorm; sharing kisses and gifts, spending time in silence with each other, Jeremy giving all of his love and showing to his boyfriend that he is the most perfect man he ever met, showing him the thanks to him he didn't kill himself after the squip accident.
Not Michael helping Jer in his panic attack in the bathroom.
Not Michael carry him to the bed just to help him feel more safe.
Not Michael sharing his body heat to making stop shaking.
And especially not Michael leaving everything aside just for him.
He didn't deserve this much, not after all he have done to Mica.
"Come on Jer, breath with me." He instructed to help his boyfriend to get more oxygen, making circles in the back of Jeremy "Seven in" he did as instructed "Seven out, you are doing it great baby. Keep it going, just focus in my voice, okay?"
After some minutes Jeremy finally calmed down thanks to the exercise his boyfriend told him and the strong arms that were hugging him.
"I'm so sorry... It was supposed to be a romantic dinner. Not... Not this." He felt his heart sink, he fucked it up.
"Don't be, things happen." He kissed him in the forehead.
But I would bring you rings of gold
I'd even sing you poetry
And I would keep you from all harm
If you would stay beside me
Jeremy just came back from work and was waiting for Michael, while he was cleaning the bathroom he accidentally looked to the mirror.... Wrong move.
Again, the voice started to attack again. Bitter words echoed in his head and all he could do was remember; seeing their shadow, hearing their voice, and feeling the electroshock trough his spine.
Everything about you is so terrible!
Everything about you makes me wanna die!
Everything about you sucks!
You're a slob!
Such a slob!
It's false, the squid had long gone, they weren't here anymore. It was only his head playing tricks, nothing of that is real.
"Jeremy are you okay?"
A soothing hand placed in his back.
"Do... Do you think I'm terrible too?"
His voice broke.
"Wha-? No, baby of course no! Why are you saying this, no-one thinks that!"
Body heat coming and arms to help him calm.
"I think they are back, and as always they are telling the truth."
"They are not real, they stopped and won't bother you anymore, please remember you are just enough and you deserve all this happiness, okay? Everything is okay."
"But what have I done to deserve this if all I'm doing is hurting g you? How can I feel that I'm enough when I lost myself? How can I know that you are saying the truth?"
Michael felt his blood boil but at the same time his heart sink, it was always the same, it was always the same fight for the same thing.
"Jer... This is stupid! Don't you think I'm also suffering while I see you like this!? Dont you know that I'm hurt that you can't trust me?! Because oh shit! I didn't suffer the same as you so I don't understand you! Just stop this, just surpass it, you are drowning us both!" And with that he left abruptly closing the door.
I have no use for rings of gold
I care not for your poetry
I only want your hand to hold
I just want you near me
" I'm so sorry for what I said, shouldn't have treated you like that." Michael said while back hugging his man.
"No, don't be. I also shouldn't have said that, I know you love me and that you want me to love myself, I will learn." He said while giving a kiss Micha's cheek.
"We are damage, but we can help to fix each other we won't be perfect as we used to be but we are together which is the important. Also I bought you some ice cream as a apologize."
"Thank you Michael, for being here when I don't deserve you, for showing me the light and for being my partner and never tying me down."
To love and kiss to sweetly hold
For the dancing and the dreaming
Through all life's sorrows
I'll keep your laugh inside me
I'll swim and sail a savage seas
With never a fear of drowning
I'd gladly ride the waves so white
And you will marry me!
Years of relationship and still figuring out how each other worked; from time to time they ended up fighting, arguing or disagreeing but the manage to talk it out and fix it. Everything was perfect, no-one has ever been this gentle and sweet to Jeremy, no-one had helped him to grow as a person, to know himself and surpass his fears, to get out of his comfort zone and involve himself in adventures.
He didn't what that this dream to finished.
While they were walking next to each other, holding their hands and talking of work, Michael got a great idea.
"Head on, I just need to adjust my shoe." As he said Jeremy advance, he got in his knee and prepared the little box he secretly had been carried for the past 5 months.
"Micha it's taking you a long time, what are you doing?" He turned around and saw Michael in his knee, oh how this boy liked to surprise him.
"Jeremy Heere" smooth voice started.
"OMG" he wanted to scream.
"I can't imagine a world without you, we have been best friends for years and now partners, I wish we can be more than this and so I promise you my heart, I will hold you in the hardest time and through all life's sorrows and delights i'll keep your laugh inside me. With you by my side I will never have any fear and so I will ask you, will you marry me?" His voice sounded like a mix of hope with fear.
"OF COURSE I WILL YOU BIG GOOF!!" he shouted while hugging his beautiful boyfriend.
And like teenagers again, their hearts were a rushing mess
He was a crying mess, Michael was laughing of pure happiness, Rich and Jenna were shouting of how lovely the married couple was. Jeremy's dad was proudly taking a video of the waltz and Michael's mothers were crying for how proud they were of their baby. Jake and Christine were happily hugging they're partners, while Chole and Brooke were swinging a little to the time if the ballad
It was a pretty dam beautiful wedding.