Chapter 1: Things You Said at 1AM
The best (and worst) ideas usually strike us in the wee hours of the morning.
Sal looked up from the video game he was playing. "Hmm?" He and Larry had rented something new from Blickbluster when school had ended that Friday night, and they'd been in Larry's room ever since.
How many hours had it been? Sal had lost track. Time always felt different when he and Larry were together in his room; it seemed to go by slower, when it didn't stand still. It hung low and heavy in the air around the two of them; it was only affected by the sounds of Sanity's Fall, which Larry played on his stereo. Softly, so as not to wake his mother up. It made for an interesting soundtrack for the game Sal was playing on mute, at any rate.
"How good would you say you are with your guitar?"
Sal shrugged. "Okay, I guess. I need to practice more, if I want to be considered 'good.'" He loved his electric guitar; his father had scrimped and saved for years in order to get it for Christmas.
"I know you, Dude; pretty sure you're sellin' yourself short. I've heard you play."
"Aw, Larry Face, my ears are burning." Not really; the early hours of the morning had pulled at Sal's eyelids. His eyes ached, and everything had settled into a calm, comforting, dull weight around him. His emotions were at a low as his head swam.
"I'm serious, Sal. I was thinking; you and me? We should start a band."
"Yeah?" Sal clearly needed to sleep, because that actually sounded like a decent idea. "Like, a cover band?"
"We could start off with that, yeah, but maybe we could move onto writing our own shit."
"I'm not very good at writing, though." It had been Maple's idea for their friend group to try to get into Nockfell High's creative writing class. Sal had been maintaining a B-, up to this point. He considered himself fairly good with grammar and spelling; it was the creative part of creative writing that stumped him. At least he wasn't having as much trouble with it as Todd.
He definitely wasn't as good as Maple, who seemed to flourish in the class, even coming out of her shell a little. Chug seemed to enjoy it a lot, too; he was actually getting better grades than Sal was.
And then there was Ashley. She'd taken to poetry like a swan took to both the water and air.
"Ash is, though. Maybe she could be a part of it?" Sal suggested
"Hey, yeah! And Todd's got all that technology and crap; he could probably, like...synthesize drum beats and stuff like that."
"And you've got a decent singing voice!" This was sounding better and better by the minute.
"Fuck yeah! We should talk about it with them ASAP!"
Sal smiled behind his prosthetic, only feeling a part of it, as he went back to his game.
The band only lasted for six months. Only a handful of people came to their final show, and the only people who bought their demo tapes were Larry’s mom and Todd’s dad.
None of them regretted it one bit.
Chapter 2: Things You Said through your Teeth
Things said under the influence don't count.
Warning for underage pot-smoking down below. Really; if Larry was a stoner, would any of us be surprised?
The smell that surrounded Sal when he entered Larry's room was instantly recognizable.
He coughed as he closed the door behind him. "Larry Face?" he called. "You said you wanted to hang out?"
He saw Larry tap something into something else before he got up from his beanbag chair. A lazy grin was on his face, and the sclera around his black irises had a distinct pinkish color to them. "Heeeyyy, Man," he said.
Sal blinked in mild amusement. "I thought you sounded weird on the walkie talkie," he said. He'd gotten Larry new walkie-talkies, to replace the ones he'd destroyed. He'd caused quite a bit of damage since he'd moved into these apartments, he absently realized. "Are you high right now?"
Larry draped himself over Sal, loosely wrapping his arms around him. "Naw, Dude," he giggled. "Course not!"
Sal chuckled and returned the embrace. It felt nice, he thought; he hadn't realized just how touch-starved he was until he'd met Larry. "Uh-huh, sure," he said, patting Larry's back. Lisa was going to be disappointed; Sal knew she worried about her son, particularly when he did things like this. It wasn't that she judged him for doing things like smoking weed, she just wanted him to have the best life he could. The best future he could.
Moms were incredible that way, Sal thought wistfully.
"And y'know what else I'm not?" The hairs on the back of Sal's neck rose; Larry's breath was hot against his ear. "I'm not in love with youuu." Larry started laughing again as he let himself fall further onto Sal, leaning more of his weight on him.
Sal gulped. "Right, okay," he said, leading Larry to his bed. "You're definitely high right now. You stay put; I'm gonna go get you some water."
It wasn't too much of a hassle, getting Larry to lay down. He closed his eyes immediately, sleepy smile still on his face.
Unsurprisingly, Larry didn't remember a thing when he came down from his high.
Sal warred with himself, trying to decide whether or not to bring it up with him. By the time he came to a decision, weeks had passed, and the incident had been long forgotten.
Chapter 3: Things You Said Too Quietly
In prison, Sal dreams.
MEANWHILE, IN THE PRESENT...
Some of these are going to be canon compliant. Others, however, will not be. I just loves me my AUs where everyone lives and is happy, after all.
All of these have been canon-compliant so far; I'll say which ones aren't in the notes.
In prison, Sal dreams. There's very little else to do, after all.
It starts off in a park. It's a mix of the one his family had picnicked in once, decades ago, and the one near Addison Apartments, where the grass had turned brown and dead.
He and Larry had loved it there. It had been their stomping grounds whenever either of their bedrooms or Larry's treehouse had become too stifling and full of ghosts. Metaphorically, and literally.
Larry is there, sitting on the picnic blanket, which Sal has long forgotten the color of. He looks just like when Sal first met him, and he's smiling in that way that crinkles his eyes.
They're talking. Not about anything important; the color orange, Sal's cat Gizmo, aliens...
It doesn't matter. It's just nice to see him again.
Sal looks down at the sandwich in his hands--it's wriggling and black, with strange green goo dribbling from the slices of bread--then back up. Larry looks different, now; just like when Sal would come home to visit from college. Taller, distinct layer of fuzz on his chin, but still skinny, still angular, and still long-haired.
What's really different are his eyes. They're more serious, and there's a gleam of desperation in them.
"Sal," he's saying. “Sal, listen! It’s important!” Sal strains his ears, trying to listen, but now Larry is being drowned out.
"I'm sorry; what?" he asks. Sirens are bombarding his ear drums; they're drowning out his childhood friend and high school sweetheart.
Larry tries again, but disappears.
Sal is awakened by the prison alarms. It's time for breakfast.
He's been having a lot of dreams like this, lately. He knows he's missing something; knows Larry, or something or someone else, is trying to tell him something important.
He just wishes he had more time to dream.
Chapter 4: Things You Said Over the Phone
Larry's going to community college in Nockfell; Sal got several scholarships to a university states away. They're determined to make this work, though.
Larry grinned. “Sally Face! Big Man on Campus! How ya doin’?”
“Pretty good. College is way different from high school. It’s a lot easier. Relaxed, too. None of the professors seem to care what we do.”
Larry nodded, “Sounds cool. Definitely different from high school.” Larry kind of wished his high school teachers hadn’t given a shit about him. Maybe then he wouldn’t have wound up in detention so often. “How’s living in a dorm?” He wasn’t sure he liked the idea of his boyfriend living with another guy, but there wasn’t really anything he could do about it now.
“Honestly? Pretty cool. I like my roommate.”
Larry shoved down the bit of jealousy. “Cool, cool.”
“How’s your mom?” asked Sal.
“Getting better. Which means she went right back to work.”
He heard Sal laugh on the other end. It made Larry smile. He’d missed hearing his laugh. He’d missed hearing his voice. “That sounds just like her!”
Larry sighed contentedly. The day had been a rough one; working in retail had showed Larry a new depth of human stupidity and cruelty he hadn’t known existed. This one phone call had completely turned his day around. “Dude, it’s so good to hear your voice,” he couldn’t help but say.
“Yours too. I’m having a good time, but…I miss you so much.”
Larry’s heart ached. “I miss you too, Babe.”
“I’m sorry for interrupting anything…I just wanted to talk.”
“You’re not interrupting anything, Sal. I’m glad you called.”
“Okay. That’s good. I’ll let you go. Love you!”
Larry smiled. “Bye, Sal. Love you, too.”
He hung up, planning a surprise road trip to Sal’s college.
Chapter 5: Things you Didn't Say at All
It finally hits Larry. Luckily, he has Sal there to help him through it.
“I guess, since there’s no curse, this all means that my dad…He just…just…”
Larry gazed helplessly at Sal as his face crumpled.
His mom had been right all along. His dad had left them. No letter, no phone calls…nothing.
His tears finally fell as he felt a pair of arms wrap around him. Sal was considerably shorter than him; the top of his head just barely reached Larry’s shoulders, and that was when his hair was up in pigtails. Which meant that his arms were awkwardly wrapped around Larry’s upper arms.
It didn’t matter. Larry let himself break down, burying his face in Sal’s hair, hoping his best friend didn’t mind tears and snot getting into it.
If he did, he didn’t say anything about it. He didn’t say anything at all; Sal just held him until he’d finished crying.
Chapter 6: Things You Said Under the Stars and In the Grass
The residents of Addison Apartments celebrate the Fourth of July in the year 1995.
It was weird, celebrating the fourth of July without Larry’s dad around. Ordinarily he’d be outside with his family and several other tenants of Addison Apartments, grilling burgers and hot dogs for them all.
“Whoa! Look at that one!”
Sal was here for this one, though, and that made things better.
“Dude, how do you think they make fireworks?” asked Larry. How had they gotten red, gold, and green sparks into that one firework? It was giving Larry some serious inspiration for an upcoming painting.
“I don’t know,” admitted Sal. “Maybe we should look it up, some time.” He lifted his prosthetic just enough so that he could take a sip from his hot cocoa. Larry’s mother had made it; Sal had fallen in love with the cayenne and nutmeg that made it so unique, so Larry and Lisa made sure to make it any time they were with Sal.
“Guess that’d be interesting.”
“Cool! It’s a date!”
Larry chuckled, trying to ignore the flutter he felt in his heart. Another burst of colors, pink and purple and blue, exploded against the night sky. He watched the reflection in Sal’s glass eye; even with the prosthetic on, Larry could see the wonder and delight his friend was experiencing.
Without thinking, he scooted closer to Sal and wrapped an arm around his shoulders. His friend smelled like the fresh cut grass and the chilly autumn air, and Larry realized he hadn’t been quite this happy in a long time.
Chapter 7: Things You Said while We were Driving
One light night drive to a gas station; one late night conversation. Maybe it's nothing; maybe it means a lot more.
Anybody remember when boy bands like Backstreet Boys and N'Sync were everywhere during the 90s and early 2000s?
Yeah, me neither. :B
(For the record, I LIKE the boy bands from that era. I was particularly fond of Backstreet Boys. I just figure that it might not be too OOC for Larry to be one of those teenagers from that time to vehemently hate them.)
“Ugh,” spat Larry. He took his eyes off the road just long enough to glare at the car’s radio. “I don’t get why this shit is popular. It’s so…fake.”
Sal shrugged. “That’s corporate America for you; make a group of non-threatening guys harmonize, and you make money.” Truth be told, he didn’t think the boy band sounded too bad, though he wasn’t sure he would necessarily call them a band. Did any of them actually play instruments?
Larry laughed. “That’s beautiful, Dude. Maybe they should hire you to write their songs.”
Sal laughed. “Right, yeah. No thanks; if I wanted something I wrote to go uncredited, I’d be taking classes in Nockfell Community College.” It didn’t matter how many times he’d gone to the police or the press with any proof of gruesome crimes that happened in this tiny town; it’d get censored, if it got mentioned at all. His name hadn’t come up once.
They continued listening to the pop music in silence for a moment before Larry starting talking. “You lookin’ forward to your full ride to university?” he asked.
Sal didn’t miss the wistfulness in his boyfriend’s voice. “Yeah. I mean…I’m nervous. But excited, too.” This was the next step for the rest of his life, after all.
“You’ll call me, right? At least once a week? Keep me up to date and shit?”
There it was. Larry was finally addressing the elephant in the room. How they’d keep their relationship going when they had states separating them.
“Yeah; of course.” If Sal had his way, he’d call Larry every day with updates and a steady supply of ‘I love yous.’
“Okay. Good. Awesome!” It was at that moment that they came across a red light. After the car came to a stop, Larry took one hand off the wheel and held it out to Sal. He took it gladly. “Don’t mean to be a pain in the ass, Dude. I’m happy for ya; really. I’m just gonna miss you.”
Sal gave his hand a squeeze. “I know, Larry Face. I’ll miss you, too.” It was going to be something hard to get used to, not being able to pop into Larry’s apartment whenever he wanted.
There would be a lot of things to get used to, from here on out. But Sal was determined not to let this one thing change.
Chapter 8: Things You Said when You were Crying
Larry knows about Sal's nightmares, but actually witnessing him having one is another matter altogether.
I write about Sal crying a lot. I swear, I didn't mean for that to happen. Though in my defense, he DOES have a lot to cry about. Before Sal Fisher, the video game character I felt the sorriest for of all time was Lucas from Mother 3.
I like Sal x Larry, Sal x Ash, and even Sal x Travis under certain circumstances, but truth be told, more than anything, I ship Sal x Happiness.
Larry awoke to the sound of whimpering. Blinking the sleep from his eyes, he sat up and looked over the edge of his bed, where Sal lay in his sleeping bag.
Larry’s heart ached. Sal was having one of his nightmares.
He sat there for a moment, unsure of what to do, until the next words out of Sal’s mouth.
“Mom,” he sobbed. “M-Mom!”
That did it. Larry got down from his bed, maneuvering his long legs rather clumsily so as not to accidentally step on his friend. He gripped one of Sal’s shoulders and gave it a shake. “Sal,” he said. “Sal, wake up!”
Sal woke up with a sharp gasp. He wasn’t wearing either of his prosthetics; leaning over his friend, Larry could just make Sal's real eye looking about wildly.
“It’s okay, Dude,” Larry murmured. “You’re okay; you’re safe.” Sal was always going to be safe with Larry; he’d decided that just days into their relationship. He’d do anything for Sal.
“Right,” panted Sal. “Safe…I-I’m…safe…”
“Sounds like a Hell of a nightmare, Dude.” Larry had known about them, but this was the first time he’d actually seen one. “You wanna talk about it?”
Sal sat up. Larry couldn’t help but stare; this wasn’t the first time he’d seen Sal without his prosthetic, but now that his eyes were adjusted to the darkness, he found the skin grafts and scar tissue mesmerizing. Sal’s face was a fucking masterpiece; if he didn’t know how Sal, himself, felt about it, Larry would have loved to draw it.
Sal gulped. “It…it was a bunch of shit, really. The dog attack…” One of Sal’s hands went to his face. "Charley, Mrs. Sanderson..." Sal gulped. “M-my mom…”
Larry nodded. “Her death, right?” Sal didn’t talk about that very often. He didn’t blame him.
Sal shook his head in an almost violent way, making his wild blue hair that much wilder. “She didn’t just die; she didn’t get sick, she…” Larry’s heart clenched as Sal let out another sob. “She was murdered. She was murdered, and I saw wh-what was left of her, and I—” Sal was now holding himself, as though trying to keep himself together. “I didn’t do anything. I didn’t do a goddamn thing, I just stood there staring—”
Larry gathered Sal up in his arms, practically forcing his friend’s head against his shoulder. “Shhhh,” he soothed. “It wasn’t your fault, Dude…you have nothing to feel guilty about.” Sal had been young. Was still young; what was he supposed to do after witnessing something like that?
Sal seemed to be fighting internally for a full minute before something broke. Larry’s shoulder did a pretty good job of muffling his sobs, though the tight hold Larry had around him still wasn’t enough to stop the hard shaking of his shoulders.
He decided, right then and there, that Sal crying was officially the worst thing ever. Worse than puppies getting kicked; worse than kittens drowning. Even worse than learning that his dad had abandoned him and his mom; even worse than walking in on his mom crying when she'd thought he wouldn't be home for hours.
Larry suspected Sal had to; everyone needed to cry every once in a while. But once this was over, he would do whatever it took to make Sal smile again.
Chapter 9: Things You Said when I was Crying
The time Larry got visual proof of Sal's struggle with his inner demons.
Trigger warning for self-harm. It's talked about in past tense, and I'm hoping I didn't make what KIND of self-harm it was too graphic, but even so, if you have any triggers regarding this, please proceed with caution, if you don't avoid this altogether.
Larry stared at the pink and white scars that littered Sal’s arms. Sal stood there, sleeves rolled up, hands wet, looking like a deer in the headlights. Neither of them said anything for the longest time.
He should have suspected sooner, Larry thought. Sal always wore long sleeves, even during the summer, and he’d never once thought about why.
Larry completely forgot why he opened the bathroom door, completely forgot what it was he’d wanted to ask Sal. He stepped up to his friend and gingerly took one of his hands, turning it over to get a better look. The scars were all old, all healed. But there were so many of them; Larry couldn’t even count them all.
“I…” The word broke through the tense atmosphere. “I’m sorry.”
Larry hadn’t even been aware of the tears welling up in his eyes until Sal brushed one away with his other hand. He was well aware that this wasn’t the right way to handle this; this reaction was probably the sort of thing Sal tried to avoid getting out of people. Still, once the tears came, they refused to stop falling.
“Things were rough,” Sal was saying. “Really, really rough. The bullying was bad…so were the Depression and Anxiety. It…it would make me feel a little better. For a while.” Sal wiped more of Larry’s tears away. “I haven’t done it in two years.”
Larry nodded. “That’s good. That…that’s great.” Without thinking about it, Larry lifted Sal’s arm to his lips. Sal looked as surprised by the kiss as Larry felt. “Those feelings come back, you…you know you can talk to me, right?”
Sal nodded. “Yeah. Of course. I’ll do that.”
Larry looked him in the eye. The guilt and shame in Sal’s good eye was enough to make him cry even harder. “You promise?”
Sal nodded. “I promise.”
Chapter 10: Things You Said that Made Me Feel like Shit
Larry means well. Really.
It's been over a decade since I've written a tiny fic that was dialogue-only. I figure I'm past due for one.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
“Aw, Dude, I love when you take your prosthetic off. Your face is so cool!”
“You don’t have to do that. I mean…I know what I look like.”
“No, yeah; I know. I mean it!”
“What’s wrong, Sal? Talk to me.”
“It’s just…hard for me to believe that. Larry…maybe you don’t realize this, but I wear this prosthetic for a reason, you know?”
“I try to believe you. Really. But sometimes, it feels like you’re making fun of me.”
“Shit…I swear, I didn’t…I’m sorry…”
“I don’t want you to feel bad. I’m just trying to be honest.”
“Thanks for telling me.”
“Sure. Any time.”
Everyone likes to think that Sal's SO would constantly compliment his face. I've written fic/drawn art like that before, too; still do.
But I put myself in Sal's shoes, and really, really thought about what I would think and feel and do, if someone did that to me.
And I realized...that COULD potentially come off as condescending.
This was really as far as I wanted to go with this prompt. The thought of these two seriously being angry at each other and seriously hurting each other hurt ME way too much. I'm a wimp; I'll gladly admit it. :B
Chapter 11: Things You Said when You were Drunk
Larry and Sal have some fun in the summer following their Senior year of high school.
Underage drinking down below!
"Dude, you’re a lightweight!"
Sal is slumped against Larry, giggling uncontrollably. The red flush has reached his ears, and his pigtails wiggle with each laugh that shakes his body.
It's just about the cutest fucking thing Larry's ever seen.
"Nahhh, Larry Face! I'm heavy! Suuuuper heavy!" Admittedly, Larry can feel his weight a bit more than past times they've cuddled. Probably because Sal isn't paying attention and is leaning into him more than usual.
Larry can't complain. "Right. That's why me and everyone else in the gang can pick you up with, like...one hand." He takes a swig of his beer. It tastes lousy, but he kind of likes how it's making him feel right now.
His mom is gonna be pissed if she finds out that her boys were smoking and drinking on their camping trip. Right now, though, Larry can't bring himself to care.
"Mmmm," says Sal as he nuzzles against Larry's neck. The edge of his prosthetic scrapes it a little bit, but Larry kind of likes it; it's making him tingle in a strange way, there. "I kinda like when you pick me up," Sal is saying. "I like when you hold me; makes me feel, like...safe, or whatever. 'M' not really used to that, you know?"
"Guess that just means I gotta hold you more, huh?" says Larry. He'll hold Sal as much as he wants. Even more.
Sal's only response is a contented sigh.
Chapter 12: Things You Said when you Thought I Was Asleep
Larry overhears a conversation between Sal and his dad.
Larry had been laying on the floor of Sal's room, eyes closed and relaxing, when he heard fabric rustling from above him.
Sal was getting up. Probably for a drink of water or something like that.
Larry left it alone and curled up even more in his sleeping bag.
He heard noises outside of Sal's door. "Sal?"
Mr. Fisher. Larry had never made quite the same connection with him that Sal had made with his mother. Sal was free to call her 'Lisa,' but Larry suspected that he'd never see Sal's dad as anything other than Mr. Fisher.
Fuck, Larry could feel the awkwardness from here. The thick tension around those two had just now crept into Sal's room; Larry pulled the sleeping bag cover over his head. It didn't do much to help.
"You having a good time with your sleepover?" Mr. Fisher was still talking.
"Yeah. I think Larry's asleep right now."
"All right." Larry heard sounds from the kitchen. One of them seemed to be making something.
"You two have been spending a lot of time together lately. You seem...close."
"Yeah, Dad; he's my best friend. The best one I've ever had."
Larry couldn't stop himself from smiling.
"Your best friend is a young man with a criminal record?"
Ouch. Mr. Fisher was technically right, but still. Ouch.
"He's made mistakes in the past, Dad; ones he's more than made up for. He's a good guy; the best I've ever known."
Larry's heart swelled at that.
"If you're sure, Sal. You've always been a pretty good judge of character; something you got from your mother. If you trust him, then I trust you."
It wasn't that Larry had ever thought Sal's dad was a bad guy, but with those words, he gained new respect for him.
Another silence passed through the air. Larry figured that Mr. Fisher had left for bed, leaving Sal to whatever it was he'd gotten up for.
Then Sal's dad spoke again. "You know that I love you, right Sal?"
"Yeah, I know. I love you too, Dad."
Maybe Larry's heart ached a bit. He had no right to feel jealous; Sal flat-out didn't have a mom anymore. He was allowed to be close to his dad. Even so, it was hard not to think of the last time Larry's dad had told him he loved him.
"And you know that I'll always love you, no matter what, right?"
"You can always talk to me about anything."
Larry frowned. The way Mr. Fisher was going on, it sounded like he was trying to get at something. There was no way that he knew.
"Okay. Thanks, Dad."
Sal wound up falling asleep faster than Larry did that night.