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it’s called umbaran syndrome, and most of torrent company doesn’t really know how to feel, when they hear that the phrase they muttered, gallows-humor style ( firing-squad-humor style ) over their sixth drinks at 79′s, has caught on. ‘ isn’t it just another word for friendly fire? ‘ topper, the new shiny of the 501st, asks, looking puzzled. 

rex sighs and turns to explain the difference. 

friendly fire’s when your brother behind you can’t aim for karking sithspit, like jesse, here, and it hits you in the shoulder by mistake. or when the general tosses something to the side using the force and it hits one of us by mistake. it’s an accident, and it happens. umbaran syndrome is - you’re tricked or manipulated into hurting your allies. like with those brain worms commander tano came across, or when that sith hut’uun harpy convinced two of the generals that we were working against them, and general skywalker came this close to snapping dogma’s neck. )

and … it’s rare, but not as much as it should be. the 53rd and the 62nd, trapped on an island shrouded in fog and nearly driving each other to extinction, only seeing the blaster bolts and firing back out of instinct alone. nahdar, thinking the clones were intentionally trying to slow him down. rex jokes that skywalker throwing him off that wall should, by all measures, count. 

and then the unthinkable happens. 

hundreds of times. execute order 66. 

umbaran syndrome, some isolated part of cody thinks, as he waves for the order to shoot general kenobi down, and he wants to laugh hysterically. but are we betraying them, or did they betray us?

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it’s a well-known “fact” ( in the quotation marks, it’s insisted, because there’s no way to get substantiative proof over things like personalities and a series of coincidences ) that commanding officers in the gar take after their generals. 

there are jokes made about it - the reckless way rex has taken to fighting and the way his voice has grown louder, brasher, cody’s wry smile and the hints of an accent tinging his voice, gree becoming more quiet and contemplative. bly picking up general aayla’s calm walk and the same look of distant trouble in her eyes. the way thire sometimes spoke in riddles, or smiled like he knew something you didn’t. 

but general yoda watches them, and frowns, slightly, only to himself, as he notices something they don’t seem to, in the way they’ve started to completely resonate, master and commander. 

obi-wan gets blasted in the shoulder, and immediately cody is there, knowing his weak spot almost as well as if he’d been the one shot, picking up the general’s lightsaber where he dropped it and slipping into - it’s more militant, certainly, cody’s body mass-produced and sturdy where obi-wan is almost lithe, but it looks damn well like the soresu. for a moment, until the shooting stops, cody acts almost like an extension of obi-wan’s body, his will, and neither of them questions it, obi-wan simply letting out a quip as he leans heavy on cody, taking back his lightsaber with a mild thanks. 

ponds is surrounded, with only his pistols and the hope that his general heard his call for back-up. but he fights, anyway, shooting until both of his guns run out of ammo. it’s what he does afterwards that almost freezes general windu in his path for a moment. ponds, spinning, kicking, punching his way through the droids, limbs a blur of umber-and-white armor and calmer than mace has ever felt him. his heel slams into the weak joint of a droid’s waist, he ducks into another’s blind spot, and cracks yet another’s neck off of its body where a wire is fraying. 

shatterpoints, general windu thinks to himself, after joining his commander in the fight and purposefully noting some of said points in their enemy, while holding his blade to another and watching ponds’ leg slam into that very spot. it must be coincidence, or good training and instinct. 

right? 

krell stares ct-7567 in the eyes, mouth pulling back into a growl, and the air tastes of electricity, like putting your tongue to a live wire. 

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‘ take these with you. ‘

cody blinks at the blue-and-white plastoid armor being handed to him. rex’s handguards, two flat plates, worn down - rex is far from being a shiny. he’s blinking back up at the captain. 

‘ why? ‘

rex looks a strange kind of sad, but he just claps cody on the shoulder. 

‘ because i’m going to expect you to return them. so you’ve got a reason to come back from this one in one piece, because i’ll be needing my armor back. ‘ 

cody suddenly understands, in some deep part of him, and he’s immediately unclipping his own handguards, pulling on the blue ones and flexing his hands - they have the same bone structure, but their fighting styles are different, and it shows in the wear and tear of their armor. 

he pauses for a moment and puts his handguards in rex’s hands, folding his brother’s fingers around them, and rex looks back at him, a silent question obvious in his eyes. 

‘ i’m going to need them back, aren’t i?’ cody asks quietly. ‘ guess i’ll just have to be here to get them back from you. ‘

it’s all that needs to be said, in the end. 

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‘ get some sleep, general. the clankers’ll still be here by daybreak, and you could use the rest. ‘

‘ what about you, cody? ‘

‘ i’m fine, sir. i had my sleep shift already. ‘

he can see the exhaustion almost like a physical cloud hanging over general kenobi, in the heavy way he carries himself and the dark circles under his eyes, and obi-wan sinks gracelessly besides cody. there’s nowhere good in this rocky terrain, all sharp and jagged, to set up a bedroll, so most of the vode have been sleeping leaning on each other for support and warmth. 

cody quietly unbuckles most of his armor, bar his gauntlets and boots, as obi-wan accepts a ration bar from waxer, eating it almost mechanically, eyes unfocused, and wonders how long it really has been since the general slept last. he’s seen obi-wan go almost weeks without sleep and not show signs of fatigue, but everyone has to give out some time. the jedi aren’t superhuman, after all. 

there’s a heavy weight leaning on his shoulder, and he smiles slightly, realizing general kenobi has fallen asleep on his shoulder, half-finished ration bar still loosely clutched in one hand. 

gently, cody eases the food out of his hand, handing it back to waxer, and shifts, so general kenobi is lying with his head across his thighs. he’s … cody would never vocalize it, for fear of sounding ridiculous, but he’s proud the general trusts him to almost sit vigil over him. there aren’t many people the general admits to weakness around. 

he’s startling slightly as obi-wan, in his sleep, holds cody’s forearm and hand close to his chest, almost like a cadet with a comfort object. 

a memory - obi-wan and general skywalker, on the field, obi-wan’s mouth in a thin line of warning as skywalker grows agitated, as he is wont to do.

attachment is not the jedi way, anakin, obi-wan says in his memories, resting a hand heavily on anakin’s shoulder, not flinching at the look full of anger-fear-burning anakin gives in return, that so often adorns his face. 

cody gently strokes through obi-wan’s hair with his free hand, brushing it off of his face, and blacks picking up some of the dust and shrapnel that has settled there. he’s smiling, so softly and absently enough that he doesn’t even realize it, watching obi-wan hold onto his arm as he sleeps, breath slowing. 

‘ are you sure, sir? ‘ he murmurs. it’s not something he’d ask were obi-wan awake to hear it, but he asks it fondly, and continues to keep watch until the sun rises. 

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‘ this weapon is your life, anakin. you must never lose it. ‘

cody waited until obi-wan had finished addressing general skywalker and had dismissed him before coming up to his side, quietly unclipping obi-wan’s lightsaber from his belt and handing it to him with a wry half-smile. 

‘ sir, are you really one to talk? ‘

obi-wan smiled, taking his lightsaber back from cody and flipping it once in his hand, holstering it. 

‘ my problem with anakin is not that he loses his weapon, it’s that he lets it go in situations he has no plan for, or no way to recover it. ‘

cody raises an eyebrow slightly. 

‘ and you, sir? ‘

obi-wan claps him on the shoulder once with a smile. 

‘ i can be safe in knowing that, as ever, my life is in your very capable hands, commander. ‘

he’s turning back to the strategy table, then, beginning to point out to general skywalker where his troops would be making a flanking attack around the droid army, and leaving cody, for a moment, speechless. 

 

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‘ cody. ‘

cody’s face looks deceptively innocent as he looks up from the strategy table, brows knit in a perfect imitation of confusion.

‘ sir? ‘

obi-wan jabs a finger at the holo-pad he’s carrying, voice frustrated. ‘ i’ve been put on medical leave for two weeks, cody, with strict orders to get at least eight hours of sleep or sedation. ‘

‘ … alright? ‘

‘ cody. ‘

‘ yes, sir? ‘

‘ it has your name as the authorization signature. ‘

rex has to commend cody’s acting as the commander manages to actually look surprised for a moment, frowning slightly and pulling out his holopad, scrolling through it and then pulling something up, one corner of his lip tugging upwards. 

‘ oh, did i do that? silly me. ‘

‘ cody. ‘

‘ i’m afraid there’s nothing you can do but follow the doctor’s orders, sir. ‘

‘ CODY. ‘

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‘ ––– sometimes, cody, i wonder if you’d make a good jedi yourself. ‘

it’s said as a joke, obi-wan clipping his lightsaber to his belt after ( in what was increasingly becoming a pattern ) cody had handed it back to him. given the sheer amount of time cody spent by his side, and the amount of time he spent with his weapon, obi-wan had begun giving him lessons in their few and far between moments of spare time on form III, the same one he used. 

( privately, cody preferred his blaster, uncivilized or no. )

in and of itself, the whole thing had become an ongoing joke in the 212th - every time one of them saw him working with the general, boil especially, they would bow and greet him with a grave ‘master cody.’ 

( cody knows obi-wan thinks he doesn’t see him trying to hide a laugh in the sleeve of his cloak, at that. )

the truth of the matter sounds crazy, even to himself, and he’s filed it quietly under ‘jedi’, with the mental equivalent of a roll of his eyes. 

he thinks obi-wan’s lightsaber likes him. 

well. maybe that’s the wrong word for it. 

more - an alliance. in the same way that he and rex would share a long-suffering look every time anakin did just about anything, he got a sense of exasperation from the weapon once, when he was holding it, watching obi-wan … “negotiate” with a nonplussed separatist leader, and he had snorted. 

there had been almost a note of surprise he felt, that hadn’t belonged to him. from then on, he always just seemed to instinctively know where obi-wan’s weapon was, even when that information escaped obi-wan himself. 

‘ i don’t think so, sir. besides. you seem to have that job managed well yourself. ‘

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they call it soldier sense, and it’s easy enough to rationalize; sharpened senses in the clones who have been on the front long enough to get used to it - good intuition and pattern recognition, and that’s all. ( rex learns to trust it, though: when cody says he has a bad feeling about something, he’s always been right, and fives can dodge shots from behind without knowing there’s an enemy there. ) 

found him trying to eat his own blaster, coric tells general kenobi, putting away the empty hypodermic he had used to deliver the sedative. i got there just in time. 

obi-wan strokes his beard in that contemplative way he has. how did you know he was there? coric’s back stiffens for only a fraction of a second. 

i had a hunch. he looks obi-wan in the eyes, expression clear that he wants that to be the end of it. that’s all.

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cody and satine meet each other and get absolutely blasted at one point and talk . so much shit about obi-wan. which, naturally makes its course around to ‘how can we work together to fuck with him’, because they’re both naturally petty people who come off as very professional

so naturally this turns into a long convoluted plan where they pretend to have become a Thing so they can mutually roast kenobi

there’s some droid nonsense and cody winds up holding satine. ‘don’t worry, sir, i’ve got you.’ ( the clones jsut, call Everyone sir ) and satine just. ‘ oh, thank you commander! i trust you not to drop me’ and they both just fucking side-eye obi-wan who is, trying to maintain his composure

‘ actually, duchess, i can appreciate the fact that you’re a pacifist. it means you’d have less of an inclination to, say, constantly lose your weapon while showing off. ‘

‘ it may be the same face as millions of others, commander, but at least you’re clean shaven. i can’t imagine what would possess some people to grow a beard. ‘

anakin is watching in the background with a martini and popcorn this is the best fucking day of his life

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okay but - the casualty rates among the gar are sky-high, yes, but they don’t talk about the deaths that happen off the battlefield; the times cody has found a shiny a few days after their first battle with their own gun in their mouth because no one ever taught them what loss would feel like; they were prepared to be shot at, and for the explosions and gunfire, but no one talked about nightmares and grief and suddenly being alone, or survivor’s guilt and how it eats you alive

( sometimes they’re found too late. coric will report an entire box of somaprin  missing, and at next morning call, there is one less trooper to make attendance, marked simply doa. )

this can’t keep happening, kix says, as he watches a seven-year-old cadet sitting up in his hospital cot suddenly, vomiting into the bucket given to him, teeth stained black with the activated charcoal and face wan and pale, hair clinging to his forehead. this has to be avoidable.  

if it wasn’t for the medics, nothing would’ve been done about it. but everyone in the gar would rather be facing down a line of battle droids than a medic on the warpath, and the senate learns that just as quickly. 

because they’re relentless. they argue the senate into the ground, talking over every argument. ( the expenses - would you rather keep buying new clones because the ones you have die avoidable deaths? / soldiers who have tried to end their lives are not fit to go back onto the field - maybe, sure, if they have no access to proper care, you hut’un bastard - )

finally, finally, there’s some grudging change. 

there’s the one official hospital ( inpatient ) on coruscant, but on the cruisers, there is space moved aside for soldiers who need it. the padawans regularly visit there - those who are learning how to heal, yes, but also those who are too reckless and headstrong. there is more to lose here than blood and sweat, young one. 

and it works - it’s not perfect, sure, and the cadet rumors of decommission on kamino if you had nightmares there linger over everyone’s head like the plague, but there’s an option. and less soldiers die on the field, as well - there are better decisions made, and less self-sacrificing. 

maybe the senate, maybe the jedi don’t care, but they’ll watch out for their own.

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‘ –– but isn’t kamino your home? ‘ anakin asks, confused, to rex as he takes apart his deecee with practiced hands, not stopping his work to look at him - muscle memory will get the job finished. 

rex gives him a tired smile. ‘ not really. not for any of us. ‘

‘ but … why? ‘

rex pauses, and anakin becomes suddenly aware that rex isn’t meeting his eyes. after a long pause, he speaks, slinging his reconstructed deecee over his shoulder. 

‘ do you still consider tatooine your home? ‘

anakin doesn’t answer. 

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kit fisto’s unit has something akin to a viking funeral where they take a vod’s helmet and plug up all the gaps, and fill the helmet with memories written down on flimsi, and then toss in a match and set it off to float away in the water, while they say the old expression.

there’s a rumor that that’s why their armor is colored the way it is; if you burn flimsi, the chemicals turn the fire green.

on days after a hard battle there are dozens of helmets floating away on the water, and green sparks in the night, and hundreds of memories.

they dont tell kit at first because they’re worried on some level that he’ll disapprove but one time he just … joins them, and silently, they let him

and he spends almost the longest out of any of them, writing memories down on the flimsi, about time spent with the troopers but also the unique ways they felt emotions, and the way that their souls felt in the force.

and sometimes, at this time of night, there is no death, there is only the force and not gone, merely marching far away sound very similar. 

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there’s something ironic, muses ponds, about standing here in front of the senator for the twi'leks, after giving up their own rations so his people could eat, and hearing him argue for cutting trooper rations by one meal

( the irony continues in seeing orn free taa, who has an appetite enough to grow four lekku reaching the small of his back, after being on ryloth, where his people starve. )

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wolffe’s first detached thought is that he’s never seen the general bleed or cry before, so the purple-ish substance leaking from goggles knocked askew could be either. 

his second thought was what have we done?

his third thought was not his own. 
KILL THE JEDI, CC-3636. GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS. ]

his fourth was in direct opposition to that. he’s already dying. after - it felt like he was drowning, struggling for air, to regain consciousness - a brief moment of concentrating, he was in control of his body again. no longer just a passenger. good soldiers follow orders.

and - looking at the wreckage of general plo’s ship, he supposed he was a good soldier. 

still. 

he’s climbing over to general plo’s side and pulling the kel dor out of the cockpit, letting him rest against the side of the speeder, and holding his mask back up to his face. 

somehow he knows general plo is looking at him, though he can’t see his eyes.

‘ i am so sorry. ‘

it’s in the same gravelly tone that he’s always had, but wolffe can hear something else behind it. mourning, genuine and overwhelming. but … what for? the fact that they had betrayed him? his own death?

there’s a rough hand resting on his own gloved one, and wolffe blinks.

‘ what for? we shot you down. ‘

‘ yes. but i do not think that was by your own choice, commander. ‘ there’s still that current of sadness. ‘ i am sorry because you should never have been used in this way. not just by whoever ordered this, but by … us. ‘ together, they look at the battle, now thrown into chaos, surrounding them, vode still being shot down. ‘ you all deserved so much better. ‘

there’s a momentary lapse of hope bubbling in his chest. he might make it. and then he’s filled again with dread, because the second he thinks that, there is cold flooding his veins again, and he can’t move his own arms. he’s beating against the wall of his own mind desperately, feeling himself pull his gun from his holster. 

i am sorry. general plo’s voice, this time in his head somehow. he could feel his presence - like pressing their foreheads together, something the general had picked up from the wolfpack. 


the chip almost sings triumphantly in wolffe’s head as he walks away on legs that barely feel able to hold him, blaster still gripped in his hand, still smoking. 

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the siege is hitting the one-month mark in three days, and all obi-wan wants to do is get off this force-forsaken planet, where everything is damp and his head hurts from the sound of blaster bolts, grating and unrelenting. 

if nothing else, nights have become easier. the vode have taken to sleeping in the gunships, in the tanks, anywhere there’s dry space, and after about a week or so of fighting, obi-wan had joined them. ( well. one of them, at least. ) if nothing else, nights now are dry and warm. 

( things sometimes become hazy, underneath his cloak in the back chamber of the gunship, where he rests his head on his commander’s chest, cody’s chin tucked over his head and arms wrapped around him. for warmth, they’ll both claim, if asked. and it’s true, in a way, but it doesn’t explain the bubble of warmth rising in obi-wan’s chest when he wakes up one morning to see sunlight, for once, streaming through the slats of the gunship door, illuminating cody’s sharply-lined face, eyes still shut peacefully, the morning casting his scar into impressive contrast. )

as he always does, cody blinks awake a few moments after him, somehow always managing to sense that obi-wan is awake, no matter how still he tries to hold. 

cody groans and stretches, sighing as he rests his head against his general again - there’s still quite some time before the two of them need to be up, and this is a comfortable place to be. he can hear obi-wan’s heartbeat, quiet but steady, and smell him - the mud of the planet, yes, but also tea and the faint sense of ozone all the jedi had to them. like starlight and raw power, and cody nosed briefly against obi-wan’s skin, looking for that smell now and laughing once after a moment. 

obi-wan arches an auburn eyebrow at him, mouth curling wryly at one side in amusement. ‘ do feel free to share the joke, commander. ‘

cody strokes over obi-wan’s shoulder for a moment, voice still rough with disuse and the early time. ‘ i thought jedi weren’t meant to have possessions. ‘ something sad, unreadable, crosses his general’s face. 

‘ i don’t own you, cody. ‘

yes you do, in every way that matters, some bitter part of him that is cc-2224 whispers. my life, my vode, we are numbers under your command. you helped the republic buy my existence; in what sense do you not own me?

yes you do, in every way that matters, a deeper part of him says, quietly - all cody. no programming or kamino-built loyalty is behind the way that he is obi-wan’s, just as obi-wan is his general. cody would follow him into hell without question. 

but either answer would lack propriety, and shatter this moment, so cody just hums and lets his nose drift to obi-wan’s hair. battlefield dust, weariness, and ozone. his general. 

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‘ kish, no! ‘

the sound is made tinny, as it always is, by their buckets, but also by the fact that they’re underwater, the comm system that links them the only way for sound really to travel. 

kish’s helmet sinks, hole blasted through it and rendering it useless, and he’s clapping his hands over his mouth, eyes going wide with panic as he kicks towards the surface of the water, towards sweetheart - but. but. sweetheart looks up, frantically - they’re at the bottom of the ocean. it had taken them two days just to move down here. 

but they had to try. he had to try, and he’s swimming down to meet kish, dodging blaster bolts - and kish’s chest heaves, cloud of bubbles rising around his head as his body makes him gasp for air only to find none, choking on water with a panicked expression and sweetheart is still too far away - 

and then kish is in his arms and he’s pulling him off to the side and then … 

and then what? what is he supposed to do now? the surface is too far away, and he can’t just give kish cpr when they’re still underwater, and -

medic’s gloves are thin, hypersensitive - good to pick up a pulse even through the nanoprene, or feel for bumps and bruises. it means sweetheart, holding helplessly onto kish’s wrist, can feel as he stops moving, and shortly after, as his pulse shudders to a halt, his brother going limp in the water, and he presses his forehead to kish’s chestplate before letting him go. 

because what else can he do? there are brothers still alive that he has to help. 


it’s two days later into the campaign, and they’ve lost twelve men, now. two more, like kish, also drowned, and it makes sweetheart hyperaware of the water surrounding them. even with the internal heating in his armor, it feels cold. like it might crush him any moment. 

and then they’re fighting again. and everything is blaster bolts and the green afterimage of his general’s lightsaber behind his eyes and the white of his brother’s armor and the red eyes of the aqua droids and - and suddenly there’s a bolt of pain going through his head, sharp and sending stars through his eyes, and he hears his helmet crack. he feels the water starting to fill it, and part of the plastisteel jabbing into the back of his head. 

he pulls it off as best he can, shoving off the wall away from his attacker, and watches the now-useless bucket sink with a sense of finality, the world made blurry and him just remembering to keep his mouth shut. 

he sees his vision going red, and all he can feel is finality.  

well, this was going to happen at some point. we’re fighting the inevitable here. 

his chest burning, he gasps for air, tasting the salt water filling his mouth, and as darkness floods his vision, he closes his eyes, letting the water take him. 

but it doesn’t. 

but it doesn’t. 

because suddenly he’s gasping for air and getting it, spitting out seawater and looking around incredulously - the sea, his brothers, the last holdouts of droids, and then, right in front of him, the face of his jedi, smiling softly. 

kit’s fingers press through the bubble of air that now surrounds his head and rest on his cheek, a sudden wave of calm lowering over sweetheart’s chest, and his movements slow, becoming less frantic. ( he recognizes it as kit making him calm, in the same way he does some of the vode if they’re panicking and need to be brought back from the ledge, but he welcomes it. )

‘ i won’t let it happen again. not to you, and not to any one of your brothers. ‘ kit’s voice is warm and deep, as it always is, and sweetheart’s shoulders slump in relief. 

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things kix has had to deal with that are either ridiculous or sad: 

  • someone ( probably hardcase, but kix is sworn to confidentiality ) has, in all seriousness, sprained their wrist while jacking off. kix just isn’t surprised anymore
  • fives banged his knee onto the same table corner three times in a row and mostly just came into the medbay to bitch about it
  • echo was chewing on a pencil for so long he got a splinter on the inside of his cheek
  • he keeps some sleeping medication, aspirin, and bandages, in a small basket outside the medbay: they’re all prone to headaches and nightmares, and kix knows sometimes they don’t want to acknowledge it
    • ( dogma doesn’t want to acknowledge the bandages. kix leaves them in easy access so he doesn’t have to. )
  • general skywalker has been electrocuted about 27 times to date. that man is a walking lightning rod
  • someone tried to drink rubbing alcohol. this has happened at least three times. or they’ve tried to make moonshine with it.
  • there has been at least one incident where someone thought they could use something as lube that should definitely under no circumstances
  • those who have been court-martialed or otherwise slated for decommission have a choice of firing squad or lethal injection. kix has had to deliver the latter - twice, only, but he locked himself in the fresher and found himself shaking for hours both times. it shouldn’t be a medic’s job. 
  • so many shrapnel wounds. he’s got a jar that everyone jokingly calls the souvenir jar, filled with every bit of debris that seems to, without fail, find a place in one of his brothers

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trooper ct-5381, alias “dogma” 

status: alive [slated for decomission]
age: approx. 8-8.5 standard
rank: platoon sergeant
unit: 501st battalion, under gn. skywalker, temp. under gn. krell ( deceased ), torrent co., under clone captain ct-7567, alias “rex”, aurek squad ( orig. batch )
training: standard trooper flash training, basic medic training ( reservist ), non-commissioned officer training ( sergeant )
latest mission: battle of umbara
history:
- aurek squad on an accelerated course due to demonstrated proficiency.
- immediately after completed training, troopers from younger batches replaced troopers doing low-priority tasks, so older troopers could in turn be assigned back up to the front. 
- at approx. age 7 standard, received first task on collection and recall duty [return to downed republic ships, old battle locations to salvage if possible, especially plastisteel armor from fallen troopers, to be melted down/recycled.]
- several medical escort trips. in one, ran into seperatist confrontation; batchmate ct-674, alias “crease”, a casualty in the space battle when his fighter was shot down. 
- senator duty, providing an escort for senator bail organa on a diplomatic mission to vrs. neutral-aligned planets. 
- supply run to republic base 4823-leth, when gunship was shot down. 5381, 5385, ( alias “tup” ), and 9213, ( alias “pip” ) survived alongside trooper pilot 422, ( alias “webber” ) and sergeant 8910, ( alias “tripper” ). 
- accounts of events differ, but units 5381 and 5385 survived, found by the 501st’s captain, 7567, who asked to have said troopers moved to his battalion. 
- ct-5381, in the interim, began nco training. 
- [ see previous reports for missions run by the 501st that ct-5381 was participant in. prior to umbara, no more than 5, 2 of which were not official, but ascribed by gn. skywalker. ]
reason for report: senate request for trooper ct-5381′s decommission.
further information: ct-5381, on the campaign to take umbara, showed volatility, turning first against his brothers, and later, shooting gn. krell. questionable loyalty and temperament, and held currently on charges of treason. 

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 there are so many just entirely bizarre rumors going through the mill of the gar, at different levels of absurd: some of the more absurd ones are actually true, some are true-ish, and some of them are 100% fake but are funny anyway so they keep getting passed on:

  • general grevious is actually just yoda in a mech suit. has anyone actually seen yoda and general grevious in the same room??? suspicious,
  • ahsoka is general shaak ti’s secret daughter
  • cad bane is an exiled jedi and has had hatesex with general kenobi at least once
  • chancellor palpatine is a sith lord
  • rex is a natural blond. the curtains match the drapes. he actually just darkens his eyebrows regularly. 
  • commander cody got his scar in a crafting session with general windu
  • commander cody’s scar isn’t real and he re-applies it with makeup every day
  • commander cody is secretly a jedi and got his scar in a lightsaber fight with count dooku
  • commander cody just has a knifeplay kink and got his scar one night where things got a little bit out of hand
  • there’s a secret, second jedi temple hidden under the first jedi temple
  • fives is called fives because he has a mutation in a, uh, certain area, that means he’s only five inc
  • barriss offee is actually a clone of luminara. given the fact that the army is made of clones, and they have no idea what luminara looked like as a kid, it’s not too implausible. 
  • ventress is just a kaminoan with neck surgery and a passion for vengeance
  • there’s a deserter clone working for jabba the hutt
  • boba fett regularly swaps out with some of the younger cadets. you’ll never know for sure if one of the cadets you’re looking at is jango’s son or a normal cadet. 
  • mace windu grows a fresh head of hair every night, but stress makes it fall out again within minutes of waking up
  • ponds’ name is actually just pond, but at this point he’s in too deep to correct anyone
  • captain rex and commander cody swapped places two months back and are just in it for the very long haul
  • general kenobi intentionally puts salt in his tea
  • general mundi is just wearing a very large flesh-toned hat
  • yaddle is just yoda, but in a wig

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( but then there’s kix, waking up in a galaxy that’s almost forgotten the clone wars )

( and he makes sure they remember )

( he’s sure that that’s why he was frozen, why he’s still alive and ends up here; so his brothers won’t just go forgotten )

( it’s a fragmented wounded animal of a galaxy and too much passes through its fingers, but he refuses to let everything they did fade away - they earned their names, someone should remember them )

( kix knows where a group like the first order would keep hundreds of child soldiers with weapons in their hands that are still just a bit too small to hold them. he knows the too-young looks in the stormtroopers’ eyes, and the wary way they ask what’s that? as if they’re worried they’re going to be hurt for asking. )

( he goes to save them, at some point. and - he knows them and they know him, in a way. out of time and fighting the wrong war, but they stand up straight when he calls them shinies, cadets, and multiple kids walk up to him to tell him they think they’ve seen his face before. )

( somewhere in a dream or a painful time in practice where their lungs threatened to give out under their ribs, and there was a man in white armor but not the right white armor helping them to their feet and telling them not to give up yet )

( kix walks back to the resistance base with a bunch of ten year olds who by nature step in time, and he realizes at one point that he’s called some of them vod'e, but he can’t bring himself to stop )

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dogma’s friendships within torrent co. :

tup: his oldest friend; they’re from the same batch, and the two of them are the only two that’ve made it this far. tup is one of the few people who has constantly put up with him, and they click in a weird kind of way. he listens to tup, inherently. dogma - don’t do it. tup also knows the parts of dogma that aren’t totally molded into a strict soldier image.

rex: big brother/mentor figure: dogma looks up to him, and rex kind of … wants to see him do better, and have the chance to do better. probably calls dogma ‘son’ like we see the older clones do to “lucky”/boba on the cruiser. will hug dogma, which is indispensable at times.

kix: dogma’s the reserve medic, so when kix is overwhelmed by the sheer number of injuries, dogma kind of acts as nurse, helping where he needs to. as such, dogma is the ONLY PERSON kix will ever let complain about how stubborn or dumb the 501st can get. he knows about some of dogma’s secrets and bad coping strategies and so on, and the fact that he keeps that secret and helps dogma w that has dogma’s complete trust.

hardcase: adhd / asd solidarity between them? hardcase will listen to dogma ramble for hours excitedly about the jedi/generals and their achievements, and dogma will sit and listen to hardcase talk about the mechanics behind different big guns and explosives. neither one of them really gets the other person’s interest, but they get that level of hyperfocusing on something. 

jesse: surprisingly, they get along pretty well through humor? jesse kind of Unlocked™ dogma’s lowkey tendency to make dark jokes, and it’s something they both excel at. also they’re both staunch supporters of ‘get a GIANT tattoo on your FACE’, and will support the other’s choice in that ( but also, to the other’s face, always call it fucking ugly )

fives: a bit strained? dogma sometimes reminds fives of echo, just ever so faintly. which is both a deterrent and a motivator, and both can be a little unhealthy. still, even though they’re uneasy with each other they’re very… honest. and dogma has fives’ words tattooed on his wrist. 

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ok but…. what about when he’s in the desert, obi wan sees maybe not like just the ghost of qui-gon and so on, but he starts being able to talk to some of the clones men who died during the war

he spends some time with baby luke and gets back home and feels a little helpless because after all this time he’s still a little bit ???? on what to do with kids when not in an active war zone
and then waxer’s there: translucent, admittedly, and looking less war-torn and younger than he should be, and grinning like a loon

there are a good few times when he asks after rex and cody, and it usually just gets him a blank look or they look impossibly sad for a moment

he still has connections in the rebellion and he works with them to take out an empire base
and the next day, he finally sees cody

and that’s … not the whole reason he cuts contact with the rebellion, but it’s for damn sure a part of it
i was complicit in enough of your deaths, he whispers, looking at his hands - they were beaten and calloused before, and tatooine has been no kinder to them. i don’t want to know i caused any more.

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okay but like… in ‘innocents of ryloth’, we see waxer say ‘she probably thinks we’re droids’. so like… is there a genuine misconception among the people of the republic that the clones aren’t totally human, or that they are just droids? maybe not on coruscant, given like, 79s and so on, but like

especially given people seeing the jedi’s reaction to people and animals dying and then their lack of reaction to the clones dying. like the only reason you’d be able to give for that was that the clones aren’t human. 

do you think some of them are shocked, when they see the clones take off their helmets, or see them break down and cry for a brother, or help with the wounded and realize that these are men, who bleed and feel and die?

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obi-wan is coincidentally married to like, 12 different people, and just hasn’t gotten any of them annulled 

at one point cody was carrying him off of a battlefield because he was Severely Wounded, As He Is Wont To Be, and obi-wan, on like 34 painkillers, looks up at him with a dopey grin and just ‘did i miss the wedding?’ and cody, a little shit, pulls a wounded look and says ‘you don’t remember it?’ and obi-wan DEMANDS to re-do the paperwork when he’s sober because dammit if he’s going to be married he’s going to do it PROPERLY, ahhhnakin, you can’t just half-ass these things

ventress and he fought once on a mandalore-type planet, where it turns out that fighting in This Specific Area/Grounds is actually like a marriage ceremony so they just kind of run with it to avoid provoking the locals 
every Single Time they fight, one of them ends up threatening a divorce, but they have yet to actually annul the marriage 

satine and he got married on the run as part of one of their alibis so they could actually hunker down in one place for like,,, more than a month, and satine never annulled it so she wouldn’t have to deal with the suitor game bc she legally already has a husband, and no one’s going to argue with a jedi master

plo koon was trying to legally adopt the wolffepack but there’s a law on coruscant that says if you’re adopting over x number of children you have to have a spouse or co-guardian, so obi-wan, master of dramatic and unnecessarily complicated solutions, suggested he just add one to his increasing list of spouses

quinlan and he got married once in space vegas and quinlan has never and will never let it go

hondo listed obi-wan as his spouse on an arrest report once or some such to get out of a penalty / to charge his bail to the jedi council instead and it turns out due to some red tape that that’s actually legally binding: hondo is hugely amused by this

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do you ever think about how in their own way, each of the clones might blame themselves a little bit for umbara

  • cody gave the orders for ghost battalion to deal with what he thought were umbaran rebels. 
  • rex did the same thing, pushing his own men forward and to attack relentlessly, like the 501st always did. 
  • kix couldn’t save them. and he was the first one to spot them, the one to call out they’re disguised as clones, alright
  • fives thought something was up from the very beginning. he should’ve done something sooner. he should’ve been able to stop all of this before it began. 
  • jesse was in the cells when they went to confront ghost company. maybe if he hadn’t been, he thinks, he might’ve been able to stop it. 
  • tup could’ve stopped dogma. and if he had, maybe everyone else would’ve realized sooner. and less brothers might’ve died. 
  • appo kept his mouth shut and his head down the whole time, and all he got for it was the sudden news when torrent co marched back.
  • and dogma, well. dogma was the biggest fool of them all. and the short time he has left is full of thoughts of every single thing he did, and where they were wrong.  

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‘ lie down. this won’t hurt. ‘ his vod speaks in a reassuring voice, and if dogma is honest, he’s too tired to argue. it’s what he was always good at, anyway; compliance without question. dogma. unwavering faith. he felt the familiar sting of a hypo in his neck, and his vision started to swim. he let out what he thought would be his last conscious breath. it could have been worse. 

except it didn’t end there. his body feels heavy, and his eyes are bleary, and he can’t move. one of the kaminoans is standing over him, and dogma can barely tell them apart from the rest of the white. ‘ we should be able to gather another pint of blood from him within the hour. are you ready to extract the spinal fluid, tsz-43? ‘ there’s a low beeping of assent from behind his head, and dogma is flooded with white-hot pain before his vision drifts again. 

he has no sense of what time it is - in hours or days or months since he’s been here. he’s awake sometimes and not, other times, and sometimes he’s suspended in between. here’s what he knows: 

he’s been a donor. even if he’s defective, his body still belongs to the republic, so the kaminoans are collecting everything from it they can. 

he’s had two hearts in his chest, and half a lung, and three livers at one point - they’re using him to clone cells, growing new organs in his chest, fueled by his faster growth and healing. 

he’s not alone in here. but for the most part, the other clones here are - they were bred for this specifically. they’ve never known anything outside of this, and dogma wonders if they’re even aware of what’s happening. 

‘ - the same batch as ct-5385. the other one to kill a jedi. lord tyranus wants us to dispose of the evidence, so we might as well be thorough. with any luck, general ti will stop her crusade and let us autopsy trooper tup. ‘ everything left in dogma is suddenly jumpstarting to an alert at the mention of tup. is he - autopsy? other one to kill a jedi? what’s happening?

there’s a face swimming over him, and blearily, he recognizes it as the same trooper who sedated him the day he came in. they’ve got a sad look on their face. ‘ it’s over, ct-5381. you can rest now. ‘ nala se - he was pretty sure it was nala se - snapped something out, and the trooper sighed, pressing a needle to the side of dogma’s neck. ‘ vor entye, vod. udesiir. ‘

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in order to assuage the republic’s fears about a) dogma (a clone capable of killing a jedi) and b) torrent company (a group of clones REBELLING against their leaders; sure in this case it was called for, but what if they start taking all matters into their own hands?) there’s a scheduled… trial? planned

except it’s not a trial it’s more a sort of… already scripted court-martial; the ending is written down before any of the clones even take the stand

and ct-5381, alias ‘dogma’ is sentenced to decommission by firing squad; maybe he was justified in shooting krell, maybe he wasn’t, but the fact that he turned a gun first on his brothers and then shot the jedi proves he is unstable and cannot be trusted back on the field

and the firing squad they get to do it? torrent company

to show to the senators that the clones are still with them; that they still side with the republic and will follow orders - so torrent co can’t do what they did with fives and jesse and miss, they’re being watched by the world 

fives thinks it’s like some kind of weird nightmare as he walks down the line, calling out ready! aim… with dogma standing against the opposite wall, chin raised… not defiantly, dogma would never be defiant, but… accepting. 

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‘ two platoons have reported in, captain. the third is with general kenobi, establishing the perimeter. ‘

‘ good man, dogma, ‘ rex said, nodding once distractedly, using his periscopes to locate - sure enough, there was the glow of general kenobi’s lightsaber, and he could count out the lines of the troops following. satisfied, he set down his scopes, clipping them back into place, before looking at dogma, eyes narrowing ever so slightly. 

‘ where’s your sunbonnet, dogma? ‘

dogma glanced to the side, almost as if he expected tup to be there. ( he was, most of the time, but right now, he was a part of the perimeter. )

‘ it, ah - i just … don’t - have it on me, right now, sir? ‘

rex was glad he still had his helmet on so dogma wouldn’t be able to see him roll his eyes. he wasn’t sure whether it was a good or a bad thing that he didn’t have a single good liar in the 501st. dogma was at least better than fives, but that was a bar set at floor height. 

‘ your helmet, trooper. did you lose it? ‘

‘ oh! no - no, sir. i - no, i haven’t lost it. i just, at the moment, i currently don’t have it with me. it - is that a problem, sir? ‘

rex pulled off his helmet with one hand so dogma could see the long, steady look he was fixing him with, one eyebrow raising slightly, and dogma’s shoulder’s shook, he was trying to set them so hard. ‘ dogma. ‘

dogma sighed, the air letting out of him, and he stepped a few paces to the side, turning the bend in the impromptu trench the troopers had hollowed out, picking up his helmet and holding it out to the captain with stiff arms. inside of it was a … some kind of life-form, so young its eyes weren’t even old enough to open, yet, and rex sighed. 

‘ dogma, we can’t … ‘

‘ i know, sir. but i thought - it was nearly trampled by one of our tanks, sir. i thought i could keep a hold of it until we were out of the area. ‘

rex crossed his arms, and … felt a sense of preliminary regret. ( i have a bad feeling about this. ) nonetheless, he… understood.

‘ fine, but it’s not coming onto the cruiser with us. understand? ‘

‘ sir! of course, sir! ‘

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‘ what’s your name, commander? ‘

 

the man standing before him, in armor just newly painted orange, is one of the clones born and bred for command, trained by alpha-17 and occasionally by jango himself. it’s easier to jot down those facts than to look at another replica of jango fett’s face, younger and leaner and rationed, and try and overcome his unease about the implications of the clone army.

 

there’s a brief look of confusion flashing across the trooper’s face. ‘ cc-2224, sir. ‘

 

( he doesn’t understand the brief pained look that crosses general kenobi’s face, troubled and running his hand once over his beard in what cc-2224 will later see become a habit. ) ‘ no, that - do you have a name, trooper? ‘

 

cc-2224 is confused by the question, but if his new general ( kenobi’s previous clone commander, ly, had died in a space battle, overwhelmed by the sheer numbers the seperatists had on them ) wants a name out of him, he supposes it’s his duty to have one. he’s thinking for a moment. ‘ cody, sir, ‘ he replies duly after a moment. ‘ you can call me cody. ‘

 

( technically, it wasn’t cody. cuir diryc, pronounced coo-eer deer-eesh, the name one of the cuy’val dar had given him as a cadet. low four, a joke about his number, and how the last four broke the seeming pattern of his number being all twos. it’d been shortened to something that sounded like cody by some of the cadets a little bit older than him, and he supposed that was close enough to a name. he’d heard from his brothers about how some of the natural-borns or the generals would stumble over the mando’a of what a lot of them had considered names before. )

 

there’s a brief look of relief crossing general kenobi’s face, and he claps a hand on cody’s shoulder. ‘ commander cody, then. it’s a pleasure to meet you. ‘

 

‘ yes, sir, ‘ cody responds, shoulders kamino-bred and soldier-stiff underneath the jedi’s hand.

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the problem with krell -

well. there were many problems with krell. he’s a ghost story here, y’know. you can tell who’s been here for longer just by saying umbara; half the troopers will freeze dead for a second. be glad you missed it, shiny. 

but the problem with krell is it’s not just krell. 

sure, he was the worst of them all. but … i had two friends i lost on the citadel raid - longshot and charger. charger, he - he fell to his death, onto an electromine, and three jedi just watched him fall. longshot just couldn’t run fast enough and got fried. 

but even more, too. i’d die for general skywalker, cross my heart, but the problem is - i’m sure he expects me to. his plans - we went to rescue his astromech at one point, and only four or five men made it back of the twenty who went out. for one droid. or the time commander offee ran trap through because he was infected, rather than try and get rid of the parasite. 

they like to say they think of us as people, but … you have to remember, kid, when it comes down to it, if someone buys you, they don’t consider you a person. not really. we’re soldiers, but sometimes that’s not the same thing as saying we’re men. 

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‘ we thank you for your valiant efforts, and we honor your comrades’ sacrifice. ‘

torrent company is standing to attention as best they can - there’s still a handful of injuries among them, and they’re all exhausted. it’s been two days since they took umbara, but even with their ability to bounce back and resolve, it’ll take more than that to recover from the things they saw there. 

vode killing vode. krell cutting through torrent and ghost cos. like butter. vixui, eating the wounded alive. the feeling of being surrounded, and just the sheer amount of brothers who had died. the fact that they’d just won umbara by the skin of their teeth. )

fives can’t meet general kenobi in the eyes. all he can think of is his name in krell’s mouth ( general kenobi and the other battalions are counting on us - ) or the times he would contact them, tell them they needed to fight harder, or remind krell of how important it was that they get to the capital as soon as possible. 

‘ … dismissed, troopers. ‘

the generals don’t know what to say. none of them do. 


‘ sir? what’s that for? ‘

rex is huffing softly, looking at the second medal in his hands. it’s … it might have been reminiscent of a laugh, once, but now it’s just tired. 

‘ dogma. he’s still an official member of torrent, after all. ‘

‘ mind if i come with you? ‘

rex shakes his head, and they make their way down to the prison cells in relative silence - neither of them feels much like talking, even their usual back-and-forth that comes easily from experience together. the door hisses open, and they’re walking into the small cell, dogma rising to his feet as they do. 

they don’t have any time to even greet him before a natural-born rank and file is saying something quietly to rex, handing him a file, and rex’s face twists in a bitter smile. 

rex steps forwards and pins the medal to dogma’s blacks. 

‘ the republic would like to honor your loyalty, trooper. ‘

he’s then handing dogma the file, giving him a moment to look through it, leafing through the different papers. 

‘ you’re coming back to torrent, but you’re on probation for the time being. the senate felt the need to keep an eye on you. said your loyalty showed concerning extremes at times, and therefore couldn’t be relied on. ‘

dogma’s looking down steadily, at the medal pinned to his chest and the folder in his hands. when he speaks, it’s almost a minute later - rex worried he wasn’t going to speak at all. 

‘ you know, i’m getting some mixed signals here. ‘

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there’s a trial, at least, though everyone guesses it might be a farce of one. three-fourths of the senators don’t even show up - they have more to do with their time, rex thinks bitterly, than state just how to dispose of a broken weapon. 

he finds that he’s not the only one in 501st blue headed towards the senate building. there are jesse, fives, appo, and tup, of course, also witnesses, but soldiers from carnivore and execute battalions, not just torrent company, getting in pairs or in groups off of sub-trains and speeders. 

he’s stopping a nearby brother with his helmet off, his armor still relatively shiny, who startles when rex grabs his shoulder. ‘ - sir? ‘

‘ what’re you doing here, trooper? ‘

he snaps to attention. ‘ i’m vixus, sir. ‘ ( got his name on umbara, then. ) ‘ and -’ he’s pausing, looking at the ground. ‘ … my squad died on umbara, sir. i’m the last one left. ‘ rex stands patiently, waiting for more. it’s … half an explanation, but not really a full one. 

‘ they were killed in the face-off, sir. ‘ ( the name the 212th and the 501st had given for krell’s deception - it made it easier to talk about, rather than saying we killed our vode. ) ‘ there’s … they were killed by the 212th. there’s no one i can be angry at for them, now that krell is dead. they were tricked just as much as we were. ‘ vixus pauses. ‘ i don’t know him, sir. but - if sergeant dogma did shoot the general, i just want to stand there in solidarity. it’s the right thing to do. ‘

he’s looking around the square in front of the senate building. ‘ and … apparently i’m not the only one who had that idea. ‘ vode in orange and blue, filing into the senate. rex nods once, not knowing what to say, and lets vixus go. 

‘ order! the senate gathers here today to decide the fate of trooper ct-5381 - ‘

‘ dogma. ‘

rex resists the urge to grimace. it’s fives. ( of course it’s fives. ) he’s in the witness booth next to rex, pushing their booth out onto the floor, and looking stubbornly mutinous. 

‘ his name is dogma. ‘

the murmur of conversation starts up again, and the chancellor’s smile is starting to look decidedly forced. ( mas amedda doesn’t even bother, fixing fives with a stony glare. ) dogma, where he’s sitting, between two vode of the coruscant guard, doesn’t even look up, hunched over.

‘ members of the senate, please - ‘ the chancellor begins again, but he needn’t bother; a hush falls over everyone present. rex, looking up, holds back a smile as he sees why. 

in every one of the visitor booths, and in each booth left empty by the senators who hadn’t bothered showing up to the trial, there were suddenly brothers, in orange and blue mixing together. as one, almost as if rehearsed, they’re pulling off their helmets. forcing the senate not to see us as faceless, rex realizes, tucking his own bucket under his arm. ( he sees jesse and tup and fives do the same thing, and one of the coruscant guards helps pull dogma’s helmet off, revealing his face - tattooed and wide-eyed and confused. )

there’s a sharp moment of silence, ringing through the air almost tangibly. 

chancellor palpatine hides a scowl behind a practiced smile, his arms folding behind his back. ‘ we welcome our brave troops to today’s trial. ‘

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they all have nightmares, after umbara. 


it starts with krell’s first failed orders, with him accusing rex of being the reason they’re failing to take the capital. fives remembers the breath still ragged in his throat from the past - what, fourteen? fifteen? hours now that they’ve been marching along or fighting for their lives. in the dreams, the umbaran air is stifling, and he fights for every breath. 

‘ surely you won’t fail to recognize that, ‘ he spits out through the block in his throat, fists clenched at his sides as he approaches krell. krell’s reaction is the same as it was back then, and there’s suddenly a plasma sword levelled at fives’ throat; but then everything freezes. 

‘ you knew from here. ‘ it’s hardcase, helmetless and looking right at him. ‘ you could have stopped it all, right here, fives. but you didn’t. ‘ and he smiles at fives, bittersweet and sad, and flames consume him. fives looks around with his skin crawling under the nanoprene, and all around him are the bodies of the 501st and the 212th, and krell’s lightsaber is still leveled at his throat. 

‘ arc-5555, ‘ krell says, and suddenly slashes out, and fives feels it cutting across his chest, as he crumples to the highway beneath them. ‘ stand down. ‘


jesse is in the umbaran starfighter, and it won’t move. neither can he - his hands are forced behind his back like they were for the aborted execution, and the rest of his body is paralyzed. somehow, he’s also with hardcase, running through the passages of the droid ship, watching the bomb crash into the reactor core. 

the fire overtakes hardcase, and then him, and he wakes with a start. 


kix can’t save them. even in his dreams, he can’t save them. 


rex is everywhere. 

he’s in the cell blocks, and he musters the courage this time to pull the trigger, through his shaking fingers, the bolt going right through krell’s chest - but it isn’t krell. when the body hits the floor, it’s fives’, or cody’s, or waxerdogmahardcaseozringo ––

krell gets off the ship and tells skywalker he’s requested, and rex’s mouth is sewn shut. he can’t say anything. he can’t shout and demand that his general stay behind, or that krell is a lying demagolka who takes so many of his brothers with him - instead he hears his own voice, tinny and hollow, saying that it’s an honor. 

he’s running across the field, and he knows its his own brothers he’s shooting at, but he keeps shooting, and he feels his hands clenched around his pistols and sees the 212th and the 501st mowing each other down and he tries to tell them, tries to snap them out of it, but they keep shooting. 

he’s in the cells again, but this time, it’s him on his knees, and krell is standing behind him, and he sneers. 

‘ you’re shaking, captain. ‘


there’s a firing squad. 

there’s a firing squad, and dogma is staring at them facing him. jesse and fives and tup and kix with stony expressions and their hands on their guns, and rex standing impassively to the side. 

‘ ready weapons! ‘

it’s him. the same tattoo, the same pattern of armor, and the same look of self-righteousness he’d had then. kriffing hell, how could i have been so stupid? his hands are cuffed behind his back, and his hands are folded behind his back, walking in front of the firing squad to stand by rex. 

‘ i’m sorry, ‘ he whispers, voice cracking, but they don’t hear him. 

‘ aim! ‘

the weapons level at him, and fives gives him that look full of contempt. ‘ i hope you can live with yourself, dogma.   the spectre of him marching down the line ignores him. he wants to plead i’m sorry to fives, but he can’t. 

‘ fire! ‘

the blue of blaster bolts lights up the airbase for a fraction of a second, just like they did in life. but this time - they don’t miss. 


tup’s dreams don’t make sense - he had nightmares already, but this just seems to take bits and pieces and weld them together. marching-in-time/dogma, looking afraid and pointing his gun at him/the-mission-the-mission-execute-order-[REDACTED]/standing in the firing squad, trying to breathe evenly with his gun leveled at the others/good-soldiers-follow-orders-good-/general krell, running right at him and getting so close that when the plant lifts him off the ground, his lightsaber skins over the neck of tup’s blacks/soldiers-follow-orders-good-soldiers-follow-orders-GOOD-SOLDIERS-FOLLOW-ORDERS

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good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers foll -

fives is there. general skywalker is there. they’re looking at him like - tup shudders. the only thing he can think of is umbara, walking through what seconds ago had been no-mans-land and looking one of the 212th in the eye as they’re surrounded by their dead brothers. ( dead, killed by the dead. a pointless fight. vode should never hurt vode, but here they were. ) it’s that same look - wounded, and betrayed, and suspicious, but above all confused. and … hurt, that this happened.

what had he done?

he didn’t remember what he had done. he didn’t remember how he got here, and panic rose in his throat, choked down only just. and … he didn’t want to ask. ( he knows too well the sudden rushing feeling of looking at your hands and wanting to scrape the skin clean off; and the deeds done with them . )

good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders. good soldiers follow orders.

what’s happening? he can’t - his body is writhing and that is all he can think. there’s bloodlust pounding in his ears, and his teeth are bared, and he’s pinned to the ground, and he doesn’t know why. he just knows there’s a mission he has to complete; he has to kill gen[THE TRAITOR] he has to get free from whatever’s holding him down [TRAITORS; DANGEROUS] because [GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS]

those aren’t his thoughts.

those aren’t his th[GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS. COMPLY, CT-5385.]

the last thing he’s aware of is fives promising he’s going to be okay, and wanting to scream; i don’t know what’s happening. fives, you have to - i can’t - [GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS. GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS. GOOD SOLDIERS FOLLOW ORDERS.]

his body belongs to the republic. his body belongs to kamino. his body belongs to the jedi counc[TRAITORS]. his body belongs to the chanc[MY LORD].

he hears the argument carried out above him as if from miles away, and it reminds him of one very clear fact:

his body does not belong to him.

 

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the day that order 66 comes, there’s a notable shift in the … wherever this place is. hundreds of their brothers come in every day, but this swell is different: most of those who come in have haunted eyes, and the visible glowing scars that some have, that show the wound that killed them, are the unmistakeable gashes of lightsabers. 

when tup had arrived, and fives following him, dogma hadn’t wanted to believe it. ( he had, some part of him had - it just seemed so … kaminoan, to have them chipped and programmed like droids. but he wanted to hold on to one last shred of faith that this couldn’t be real. )

ironic, tup whispers, breath hitching in his throat, and dogma immediately knows what he means, even if he just wants to sink to the floor with his head in his arms and let his breath turn ragged. 

fives, on the other hand, looks confused.

dogma doesn’t meet the eyes of any of their newly-killed brothers as they appear, instead looking down at his hands, eyes stinging. we were killed for killing jedi. but - all along, that’s what we were built to do. someone made us for that reason. 

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i saw someone’s post on here about like - tup and fives become friends and the possibility that fives subconsciously tries to turn tup into echo but honestly? i think they get along at first because fives has been there - dogma might be a pain in the ass, sure, but he was clearly close to tup.

they’re the same, even if tup’s a bit shinier; less experience on the field and less with grief. 

( they stick together because they can’t really afford not to, what with the amount of casualties in the gar, but it starts being a sort of empathetic brotherhood when they both get absolutely trashed at 79s at one point and fives ends up talking about echo and how he’d changed from being chastized about never adapting to the situation to becoming an arc trooper, and dying at the citadel )

( and after a long moment, tup quietly talks about some of what dogma was like as a cadet and he’s genuinely so sad and a little pissed that just when he was able to start to grow and change, and not be so blind in his faith, the story ends; it’s not fair, at least echo got something - )

fives just understands, all too well, and so it’s - both to echo and to dogma, even though he never really got the chance to know or get along with the latter, that he makes a silent promise just to keep an eye on tup, try and keep him safe

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there’s a thing in the gar called the jump stakes. 

( everyone knows the original joke, though it’s slipped people’s minds as to who was the first one to make it; the stakes are as high as you are. )

walk along a cliffside, the top of a wall. stand at a gunship’s edge. free-climb up the edge of a fortress. jump away from an explosion. shoot your grappling hook and hope for the best. 

and think what are my chances of getting back up, if i fall?

it’s a complicated game, in its own way; you have to factor in things like if there are any jedi with you, and if they’re the sort of jedi to actually try and catch you or if they’d just watch you fall, and whether or not there are people shooting at you, and the height, and how many pointy things lie at the bottom. 

it makes telling a story better, if you make it back home alive. we scaled this wall, fog and i, and the jump stakes were at LEAST 25, 35 to 1, but we both dusted ourselves off and got right back up again. though fog broke his wrist, the clumsy di’kut. 

it makes not blaming yourself for a brother’s death - not easy, but easier. there’s nothing i could’ve done. the stakes were 400 to 1 on asti. and he had no choice but to try them. it’s not my fault. 

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take what you can get.

it’s what was tattooed on the back of mixer’s neck, before he was killed by assassin probes. ever since his name was added to the roster that rex lists out every night, he thinks of that saying. they only had the opportunity to live so much; they were born to die, plain and simple. there was only so much of life they were ever going to experience. wasn’t it for the best that they fought hard for those few good moments, for those minutes of extra time?

it’s what he’d done for dogma. bought just a little more time. 

( no one on the council or on kamino cared enough to argue as vehemently as he did for dogma; in that regard, they had always been doomed to lose. they thought of dogma as a flawed asset, where rex thought of him as a brother. the entire 501st, in turns, took the stand, from kix’s calm narration to fives, heated and raising his voice at the impassive long-necks. )

( it felt a bit like selling your soul, sometimes. the kaminoans agreed to keep ct-5385 in torrent company, under probation: if dogma slipped up again, there wouldn’t be a trial of any sort. and under the agreement that when ( rex had flinched at that, the reality of not if but when ) dogma died, his body would be sent back to kamino for a complete autopsy, to see if they could find the deficiency. )

he looked so small, in his blacks, with the defeated slump of his shoulders and head hanging, even when they took off his binders and told him he was to rejoin torrent company. he looked like a deer caught in headlights when rex met his eyes, handing him his armor back - rex knew, with a settling heaviness on his chest, that dogma hadn’t expected to see another daylight, much less be back in the barracks, strapping on his armor again. 

he doesn’t talk for the first three, four days he’s back, and barely eats, looking at the rest of the group in the same way shinies do commanders, like there’s a possibility they could swallow him whole. 

you shouldn’t have, he tells rex, on the fourth night, his voice dull. if they wanted to decommission me, i should have - i was a traitor, sir, i shouldn’t be - i shouldn’t still be here -

rex rests a firm hand on his shoulder, feels him shiver. as your commanding officer, i have a duty to you and to the rest of my men, as much as i do the republic. i have a duty to keep you alive, dogma. and i’m not going to abandon that job. 

it’s in terms of duty and honor that dogma can understand, and finally, he nods - he doesn’t look convinced, but if rex can’t keep dogma alive for his own sake, he’s not above talking his brother into staying alive for him. maybe it’s selfish. but they’ve lost enough vode already. 

take what you can get. 

dogma will live for rex’s duty, and not because he should by all rights get the chance to. and there’s something inherently wrong about that that curls in rex’s chest, as if someone were compressing his armor to shatter his ribcage. but he will live. 

( he talks to five and comes back with a new tattoo around his wrist and relief evident on his face, something like a smile there for the first time in days. he talks to jesse, and there’s no relief there, but there is acceptance. forgiveness will not come easily from everyone, but they open up to having him back. )

he’s a reckless fighter, now. rex wouldn’t have expected it from dogma, of all people, but he can’t say he’s surprised. if you’re living on borrowed time, anyway, what’s the point in trying to prolong it? dogma says as much to rex, once, in the medbay for an arm broken in three places. i should have died weeks ago. it doesn’t really matter too much to me if i do, now. 

rex shakes his head, and feels despair well in his throat, but anger, too. not at dogma, but the system that had let him down. you have to move on, vod’ika. you didn’t die then; you weren’t meant to. live now. 

it’s easier said than done. 

take what you can get. 

maybe he shouldn’t have been surprised when it happened, a few weeks later; they were infiltrating some base on another one of general skywalker’s half-mad plans, splitting up with each of them heading in different directions. it sounded all well and good, until they started hitting the traps. 

( he’d heard over the comms that three of the new members of torrent were already dead, as well as nex and lunn, who had been with them since the second battle on geonosis. general skywalker didn’t say anything for them except to change the plan slightly to deal with the missing troopers. )

it was dogma who heard it first, the telltale beep - beep - beep of charges about to go off, and it was dogma who managed to act on it, jumping on rex and jesse to get them out of the blast zone and cover them. 

it’s always a bad moment, in the field, when you shake off the confusion of an explosion and your head cracking the plastisteel of your helmet, to realize that there’s blood soaking through the cracks in your armor, and it’s always made even worse when you have to find out if it’s your own, or your brothers’. rex moved his legs, sat up, experimentally - it wasn’t his. he might be concussed, and his ears were ringing like hell, but he’d missed the worst of it. 

the worst moment is the second you register that one of your brothers is going to die, and there’s nothing you can do about it. ( hevy, calling over the comms before the base blew. echo, in the second before the blasts hit the fuel tanks of the shuttle. charger, falling, his arms reaching upwards. ridge, his fingers slipping and his desperate scream as he was sucked out into the vacuum of space. )

( dogma, lying on his front and gasping for each shallow breath, explosion and shrapnel tearing through most of his side, white-and-blue armor stained red. )

he knows what’s going to happen. what always happens, but he still hurries to turn dogma onto his back, jesse helping him pull off dogma’s helmet. 

dogma is laughing. 

painfully so, by the looks of it ( rex is no medic, but by dogma’s wheezing, he’d guess a punctured lung ), but he’s still grinning like a child on their name day, shoulders shaking, and his hand reaches out for rex, who takes it. you’re shaking, captain. he thanks whatever force there may be: his hands aren’t trembling now. 

i did it, he says, and rex - wants to shake him and ask what that means, and at the same time, he has the terrible feeling that he knows. sir, i - i did something right, this - this time. rex realizes that he doesn’t think he’s seen dogma smile before, not like this: genuinely happy in himself for once. i was - good. 

rex wants to shake him back into a standing position, wants to tell him he was always good, and get him back on the field, but he knows, for all his damned experience, that dogma won’t walk away from this. so he just squeezes his hand. you did good, dogma. i’m proud of you. 

tell them - i’m sorry. it’s quiet, but insistent, and rex sighs. even jesse had forgiven dogma for umbara, long ago, but dogma’s eyes are golden and pleading, and - i will. don’t worry about it, dogma. 

he swears he’s not crazy; he’s almost certain he sees dogma try to snap a salute, and that almost pulls a burst of confused laughter from his chest. leave it to dogma to do that even now. thank you. rex knows what he means. for the promise to pass on his words, but - mostly, for the extra time, however short it was. 

general skywalker’s voice comes through the comms, loud and clear, and in a few seconds, jesse and rex go to meet him. 

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somehow, he knows it’s ct-3298, even though ct-3298 had never lived long enough to make it to the same age he had. he’s got the same calm eyes, one dark brown and the other a pale gold, and that scar on his chin from the time pip had shoved him out of their sleeping compartments and he had crashed to the ground. 

which - didn’t make sense. ct-3298 was dead. 

ah. 

dogma swallowed and looked down at his chest. he remembered sitting alone for hours, and the sterile white of kamino; hell, he remembered the smell of flesh singed by blaster-bolts in the seconds before he crumpled to the ground like a puppet with its strings cut. sure enough, if he focuses, he can see them almost through the blue tunic he’s wearing ( 501st blue, some stubborn part of his mind whispers ): six neat circular marks that had torn neatly through his chest. 

well. that was … certainly one explanation for it. 

‘ where are we? ‘ his voice sounds unfamiliar to him, echoing in a way that it shouldn’t, and he pushes himself to his feet, looking around. the way he’d heard birth-borns describe the afterlife in holonovels and so on, they always imagined it to be pure white. dogma remembered kamino, and shuddered, secretly glad that wherever this was, it wasn’t like that. 

ct-3298 gives him a sad smile. ‘where do you think, vod’ika?’

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and then there’s tamn, of the coruscant guard - hand-picked by the chancellor, just as the rest of the guard are, though no one is quite sure how palpatine chooses, or what he’s looking for in them. 

( he’s looking for interesting pawns, and finds them, in the way that the force winds around rax and tamn, in the way that, in the future he has seen, fox is there, a bright red incidental barricade to a path of action that might have stopped him, the way adder looks at him and for a moment seems to know. )

its not like they’ve got potential or anything, but they’re an interesting side effect of the game he’s playing. so for now he pulls them close, to keep them under glass and just to watch.  

tamn is force sensitive, not that he knows it, or that he’d call it that. 

he’s hypersensitive to death specifically, especially among his vode - it’s become a bad omen, bc every time he gets sick, the guard knows one of them is going to end up not seeing the next sunrise

on the day order 66 is going to be carried out the cg goes to wake tamn and he’s just fucking burning to the touch, and muttering incoherently - about betrayal, and game pieces, and sudden silence covering the city, and no one really knows what to do with that, so they leave tamn to his bed and carry on, albeit grimly, knowing that at least one of them is going to die

the next twelve hours roll by and fox has a sudden, bone-deep moment where realization hits him like a blaster bolt to the chest. 

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‘ you know what’s going to happen. ‘

it’s more of an amused observation than anything else, as palpatine watched tamn, in only his blacks, stand looking at the jedi temple from the balcony.

tamn nodded. 

‘ i know that many of my brothers will not make it through the night. and … somehow, i can feel the same for the jedi. but it won’t be an attack, will it, my lord? ‘

palpatine cannot hide a pleased smile, coming up to rest a hand on tamn’s shoulder as he did months ago when he pulled him away from the fate of decommission, sensing the warps of the force around him. an amusing pawn, and one to keep nearby. 

tamn’s grey eyes stay focused on the horizon. 

‘ it’s not hard to see what might happen. ‘ he turns to the chancellor, face still calm. ‘ this has been a long time coming, hasn’t it? ‘

‘ you’ve always been a remarkably perceptive soldier. ‘

tamn doesn’t seem to acknowledge it, eyes drifting back to the direction of the jedi temple on the horizon, before his face, the same sharp frames as millions of his brothers, sets. 

‘ i’m not going to make it past this conversation, am i. ‘

‘ don’t worry, my dear. your body will just be one of hundreds of troopers killed by lightsaber. ‘

he’s nodding, not even flinching at that, and palpatine’s lip curls up for a moment. brave soldiers, every one of the men he had created. a good and honorable army. and the fact that he had the power to take that away was almost enthralling. 

tamn doesn’t even turn when he hears the weapon ignite. 

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something is coming, says chirrut imwê, twenty years old and alert, head turned towards where he feels a vague pull. several parsecs away, a cell of jango fett’s dna undergoes mitosis, the slow process towards becoming boba beginning.

( maybe in another life, he’s born closer to coruscant, and grows up as a youngling-to-padawan-to-jedi, but here and now, he is born on jedha and it’s here he’ll stay, with the brisk air against his skin and the smell of dust - baze described it as red once and chirrut laughs, saying that means nothing to him - and the faint song of the kyber crystals ever-present in the background. )

do you think war is going to break out? it’s another civilian confusing them for jedi. baze just grunts and says he thinks it’s always been inevitable - too many empires declaring themselves, too many armies with no cause to march for, too many power-hungry politicians. chirrut smiles. if we are in a situation where the question is always whether there will be war, it has already started. the next day, the first battle for geonosis begins. 

baze begins to describe him as an old man right after he hits 30, and chirrut laughs, saying that even if he can’t see his own face, he’s pretty sure he doesn’t look that old. ( but this war is hardening the both of them. jedha is no longer strange and peaceful like it should be - there are clone troops in the streets and jedi coming by regularly, their weapons lost or ruined and needing new ones. )

( he likes the clones. they’re good men, and easy to beat in sabaac, and are just the right level of bemused when he talks earnestly about the force. they like him too - a strange man with a stranger sense of humor for whom it will never mean anything that they all look the same. )

there’s a storm coming, he says to master windu when he visits, chirrut resting comfortably on the worn steps of the temple, staff loosely in his hands, his chin propped on the end. he can almost feel the troubled look on mace’s face. he knows the steps of the temple well enough, knows how they shift when someone carries a heavy burden.

mace brings nothing with him but his robes and the parts of his lightsaber, but is weighed down nonetheless. 

he pauses on the steps, seemingly considering chirrut’s words. i am the storm, he replies gravely - not with any pretentiousness, not shouted out or as a declaration, but something said wearily, as if it’s a statement of something he’s known as true for too long. 

( and come it does - even from jedha, chirrut can sense when windu and sidious fight, like the taste of ozone filling the air. )

( and the storm ends, like they so often do. )

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war leaves many things unsaid. 

true, death is the easiest explanation for this, separating lovers before a confession has time to bloom naturally, assassinating leaders before they can give a speech they were planning, a soldier being shot down before he can thank his brother-in-arms for saving his life minutes ago. 

but there’s other ways it tears out a bloody silence. schisms and political opinion dividing a family. forced exile or emigration cutting bonds. time being eaten up by the war, people’s lives being taken both literally and figuratively. 

in commander cody’s case, there is no time. 

he’s a soldier, born and bred. there’s no way to wonder well if things were different - because there’s no possible other for him. if there had been no war, there wouldn’t have been a cody - and no general kenobi, either. sure, there would be an obi-wan, but how different would he be?

he considers saying it on ryloth, watching obi-wan sway the gutkurr to his will, sheer force of concentration turning the beasts eerily silent. but they’re in the middle of a battle and it would lack propriety, so he just hands back the lightsaber and stands by his general’s side. 

he almost says it before they land on saleucami, when they chase grievous and his general is nearly knocked out into space, cody letting go of the wall with one hand and grabbing his, obi-wan’s hand tight around his hand and wrist, his life quite literally in cody’s hands. but there’s no time then, either. ( the vacuum of space absorbs sound. maybe he did say it, then, but only the force and cody would know. )

time won’t let me show what i want to show, he tells boil, voice dry and tight as they ride the gunship behind general kenobi’s, cody’s eyes tracing the noseart. it always feels like just - one second too late. 

he almost says it on geonosis. he almost says it on umbara. he almost says it every time he stands by obi-wan’s side on the bridge, every time they’re in the same gunship together, every time he supports his general’s weight, arm under his shoulder, or listens to him complain about general skywalker. 

he almost says it on utapau. 

too late, too late, too late, too late, too late, too late. 

too late. 

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ct-2830 doesn’t yet have a name. 

he’s the last one of his squad not to. tangle just recently got his, which makes him the last man standing, and they’re already headed off to their first mission, acting as reinforcements to a moon with a long and complicated name that the locals and the troopers shorten to rax three. 

‘ come on, eight-oh, you’ll probably get one here. a lot of vod’e get theirs on a mission or something. ‘ it’s east, trying to reassure him, and ct-2830 rolls his eyes as the gunship lands. easy for east to say. he’d gotten his name back when they were four. 

‘ yeah, we’ll get a drink to celebrate the battle and your new name once we get back, huh? quit worrying, eight-oh. ‘

they don’t. 

because when the jedi come, responding to the distress call just a day or so too late, there’s only ct-2830, sitting on top of a wrecked gunship with a haunted look in his eye, four vanbraces collected in his lap, and his deecee by his side. 

what’s your name, trooper? the medic asks him, gently, helping him stand, and all he can do is shake his head, clutching his squad’s handplates to his chest like any second now, they’ll come out of the forest rolling their eyes and asking eight-oh for them back. 

there’s quiet mumuring about shock and possible head injury around him, but he just walks the way he’s pointed as if in a daze, somehow ending back up on a cruiser without remembering how he got there or any part of the journey. 

the medic asks him a few days later what’s your name?, testing to see if his condition, mentally, has gotten better or worse. 

once we get back. 

‘ rax, ‘ he says, quietly, a cold anger rising in his chest. the moon took everything from him but his life; he’d take something back from it, even if it was just a name. 

there aren’t funerals for clones, but he tosses their handguards into the water of kamino. some part of them, at least, would return home. 

‘ i watched you disappear. ‘ it’s said into the rain and the waves, that will not and cannot give him any answer, cold and unyielding. ‘ all of you. you’re all gone. and i’m what’s left. i promise i’ll keep you alive. ni partayli, gar darasuum. ‘

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entry 1.0, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: FULL ]
[ CASUALTIES: NONE ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 1.5 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: NONE ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: FULL ]
[ NOTES: 
first day here. set up base camp. dryer planet than what we usually go to, but it’s still swampy in places - have a tough time getting walkers through this crap. gen. fisto is away for the time being. under monnk. w. all luck, should be a short campaign. ]

entry 1.3, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: FULL ]
[ CASUALTIES: NONE ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 5.25 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 2 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: SUFFICIENT ]
[ NOTES: 
knock on wood. bruiser and tinny were on a walker that got shot down. minor concussion in the case of the former, sprained wrist and lacerations in case of the latter. treated properly. ]

entry 2.2, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: SUFFICIENT ]
[ CASUALTIES: 1 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 14 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 4 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: SUFFICIENT ]
[ NOTES: 
we’ve lost kipper. clean headshot - retrieved his weapons, rations, before beating a retreat. com. monnk suffered bad bite to the shoulder - unclear if venemous or not. ty broke his ankle in a patch of particularly bad swamp muck. 

speaking of which: have lost a boot somewhere in that bog. hate this planet. ]

entry 3, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: SUFFICIENT ]
[ CASUALTIES: 4 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 24 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 15 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: SUFFICIENT ]
[ NOTES: 
walked right into an ambush. booby trap took out ty and flix, and rasmus died from bloodloss. injuries recorded in statements from troopers. too many to include in brief report. wish we had our jedi here. ]

entry 6, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: LOWER THAN SUFFICIENT ]
[ CASUALTIES: 11 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 74 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 38 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: SUFFICIENT ]
[ NOTES: 
unit’s been scattered. they’re chasing us out. i’m on my own - stats are just what i was able to record before they hit us. there’s some fucking hunting creatures with them. ]

entry 9, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: LOW ]
[ CASUALTIES: 14 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: 111 HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 77 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: LOWER THAN SUFFICIENT ]
[ NOTES: 
unit’s back together, but we’ve lost a lot - blood, men, supplies, etc. we’re on the move, as fast as we can be. ]

entry 12, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: LOW ]
[ CASUALTIES: 14 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: ?? HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 83 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: LOW ]
[ NOTES: 
i run, i run, i run, but it never seems fast enough to treat them all. ]

entry 12, medrec: unit ct-1113 [sweetheart]:

[ SUPPLY STATUS: LOW ]
[ CASUALTIES: 14 ]
[ CAMPAIGN DURATION: ?? HOURS CRSC. ]
[ NOTED INJURIES: 104 ( see notes ) ]
[ RATIONS, TRANSPORTS, ETC: LOW ]
[ NOTES: 
i’ve never been so glad to see that shirtless fishy bastard in my life - we’ve loaded the wounded back onto tanks, and gen. fisto is reorganizing the group. we’ve actually worn through most of the local defenses. lucky us, i suppose. ]

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‘ no disintegrations. ‘

‘ as you wish. ‘

it’s strange enough to see someone in mandalorian armor these days; the stormtrooper outfits had strayed far from that design, bleak and void of color and personality that he’d had when he was counted as a clone trooper, rather than a pawn of the empire. 

but that voice sounds familiar. 

thire shakes his head underneath his helmet, muttering to himself as he follows lord vader through the hallways, marching in time with the rest of the regiment. he was … what, thirty-two, now? he was getting too old for this shit. 

( all or most of his vod’e were dead. fox’s neck had been snapped by not-anakin while thire watched, forced to remain resolute and not react. cody had died on that moon-sized weapon, after sending thire a mangled report that read that he’d seen general kenobi, alive, for a few minutes, and then watched him die all over again. kamino had been shut down. )

( thire tried not to think things like what if i’m the last one left? he couldn’t be. )

still. that voice. 

he’d had that voice, when he was younger. 

carefully, he whistles the first few notes of the vode an. it’s been awhile since he’s heard it, sung it, chanted it, but he doesn’t think he could forget it if he tried his hardest. 

sure enough, the bounty hunter’s spine stiffens, and thire hides a grim smile underneath his helmet. the man in green manda armor storms down one of the side hallways, and after a moment, thire follows. 

‘ what do you want. ‘

thire ignores the cold aggression in the bounty hunter’s tone, and he pulls off his helmet, his own voice taking a softer note. 

‘ you’re his son, aren’t you. fett’s. the one he chose. boba, right? ‘

boba fett stiffens even more, turning to look at thire and seeing the shape of his face; the same dark golden eyes that he had, that his father had had, the same sharp cheekbones and dark hair, though thire’s was streaked now with white. 

‘ you’re a clone. ‘

‘ so are you, ‘ thire replies mildly, helmet under his arm. boba doesn’t seem to have a snappy reply to that, still standing stiffly as though he’d rather be somewhere else. thire sighs. 

‘ take off your helmet, vod’ika? ‘

‘ i’m not your - ‘ it’s growled through what sounds like gritted teeth, but after a terse moment, he’s doing it anyway, and something hits thire like a blow to the stomach, and he swallows. 

boba looks like his brothers - the age they’d looked when they still fought for the republic, when he was proud to be in armor, when he was a member of the coruscant guard still. his face is a little leaner, and his eyes carry an intense suspicion that most troopers wouldn’t have, but it’s still … their face. 

‘ vor entye. ‘ thire says quietly, after a moment. boba looks … confused, and wary, but he sees something in his brother-not-brother’s eyes. for a moment, acknowledging and mourning a possible life never lived. they look at each other for a long moment still, before thire pulls his helmet back on. 

‘ ret’urcye mhi. ‘ the mando’a for goodbye, literally maybe we’ll meet again. 

he leaves the bounty hunter standing in the hallway as he walks off to rejoin the regiment, feeling more invisible there than he ever did in an army all with the same face as him. 

but he can swear he hears boba reply ret. 

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 with your casualty numbers and propensity for danger, we tend to send some of those with natural talent but some … deficiencies into your squads. that way, when they’re killed, it’s no great loss to us, and those clones who are older and have better training will be commissioned to units whose strategies are based less on chance, ‘ nala se told anakin calmly, thin fingers folding over each other. ‘ we see no point in having some of our better-trained units or those with leadership skills dying underneath the command of someone whose failure to follow orders is a constant. ‘

anakin’s fists clenched by his side, and the power in the room wavered for a moment, white light flickering so minutely it would pass unnoticed, for the most part. ( not by nala se. kamino never wavered, and she was not unfamiliar to jedi and the raw energy radiating off of them. ) ‘ so they’re just - sent out there to die? ‘

nala se’s chin tipped a little to the side, face a fey kind of curious. ‘ of course, master skywalker. all of the clones are sent to die. ‘

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you always were reckless with your men, anakin, obi-wan projects out into the stars somewhere ( the empire is large and breathing and pervasive, and what-once-was-anakin is somewhere in the festered heart of it. if obi-wan looks up to the stars in the clear desert sky, he can almost imagine it as a physical presence; a gnarled, wrinkled hand. )

it’s the thought he has when another man in 501st blue shows up in the privacy of his small home - it takes him a moment, but a weary smile breaks through a beard now a dusty grey. ‘ fives, if i remember correctly? ‘ the arc trooper smiles and gives general kenobi old ben a half-salute, perched on his table. ‘ what brings you here? ‘

( it’s not the first time the dead have come. sometimes he can help them. most of the time, they come to help him, with some lesson to learn. )

not much, says fives. ‘ve been picking up what happened since i died. did you hear about it? i got shot down for treason; i was babbling something about chips in our brains and i tried to attack the chancellor. said that there was some conspiracy and that he was at the head of it. his laugh is as bitter as tusken tea; drinking it in is so dry it closes the throat. thank the stars that turned out to be fake, huh?

obi-wan sighs. ‘ i’m sorry. ‘ ( it feels like he’ll never be done saying that; to the dead, to the dying, and to the few still stubborn or young enough to cling to their life. ) ‘ that - doesn’t answer the question, though. ‘ he’s no longer the negotiator; whatever tact he might have had in the war is gone, now. 

fives looks up, and he does as well, and for a long moment while their gazes hold, it’s as if he can see through the roof of his hut, to the sprawling galaxy beyond, and that hand curled through it. 

to remind you nothing lasts. not the republic, or the jedi - and obi-wan winces at that, the wound of years still fresh - but not the empire, either. and not the sith, those hut’uun bastards. fives’ smile is - sometimes, obi-wan is viscerally reminded of the man that the clones all stem from. there is that same amount of predator in fives’ smile, sharp and deadly. 

and for a moment, looking up, he can see those gnarled fingers tremble. 

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a food vendor notices a shiny trooper just kind of staring hungrily at their cart at one point and just. ‘want something?’ the kid startles, looks guilty. ‘oh - sorry, sir. i don’t have any - i mean, i can’t pay for - no thank you.’

clones or not, it’s a damn shame that these boys are dying for the republic and not getting any money or anything back out of it, so the vendor waves him over. ‘it’s on me. pick whatever you want.’ and, aw, hell, the kid’s eyes turned wide when he said that, staring at the different choices, so the vendor, making a decision, just gives him one of everything.

‘for your service, ‘n all.’ they say, with a half-smile and a salute, and they get. the experience of someone who’s never tried anything but ration packs before in their life getting to try something new and just. the shiny stares at the food after cautiously taking a few bites.

‘ this is literally the best thing i’ve tasted in my entire life what the kriff - ‘

from then on it becomes a point of competition between the vendors and restaurants of coruscant; they give the troopers free meals or snacks and see which becomes the most popular

it’s also a little bit of a shiny hazing ritual to take them to get ice cream because without fail, they’ll either: a) just take a big fucking bite and suddenly make that pained ‘my TEETH’ expression or b) hoover it down like anything else and get the worst fucking ice cream headache

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it had been a little under two hours, and ponds was already sick and tired of having the civvy reporter team around, talking cheerfully with clipboards underneath their arms and their faces so carefully earnest and measured, drinking weak caf and asking ponds questions either like he was one of the little gods or skywalker’s protocol droid. 

still, if things were bad for him, they were doubly bad for his general. 

currently, mace was surrounded by a hyperactive five-foot-something blonde human male that seemed to have swapped his blood out for caf, a nautolan who kept asking him questions that were absolutely double entendres, if not just flat-out obscene, and a rodian desperately trying to take pictures of him. 

ponds’ face sets into a line of sympathy, and he’s reaching out briefly. 

holding up alright there, general? >

he can feel windu’s exasperation, like someone spiritually rolling their eyes, even as he does his best to be polite and answer the barrage of questions as they come at him. ( he can also feel the hints of mace’s migraine as it batters the walls of mace’s shields, which means it’s probably actually ten times worse, and ponds makes a note to shoo all the reporters if they don’t leave themselves in the next fifteen minutes. )

they’ve been asking me about my expression for five minutes, commander. >

< ah. and what’s the verdict so far, sir? >

my neutral expression makes me look like i’m always in a bad mood. > ponds can feel a tired twitch of amusement bubbling in his jedi, fleeting and then gone. < which is convenient, because it’s usually true. >

ponds snorted under his breath, before taking some pity on his general and deciding fuck fifteen minutes. he knew the pained look in windu’s eyes when lights were starting to hurt his head, and the reporters weren’t helping matters. 

oh, and stand by, sir, in about two minutes we’re going to be unexpectedly attacked by seperatist ships; not that they’re going to leave any damage, but the alarms might go off for a bit and there might be some turbulence. might have to put some emergency protocol in place. >

the feeling he got from windu was something desperately trying to conceal itself as mild disapproval for the deception, but he’d known his general long enough to feel the quiet relief underneath it. 

including evacuation of civilians from any military ship? >

of course, sir. wouldn’t want them in danger, after all. >

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‘ ––– and if we can pull that off, it won’t be that hard to continue along the cliffside and take back the capital. ‘

kix’s holo is vibrating once, and he’s opening it up underneath the command table they’re all gathered around, snorting when he reads the message from captain rex, seemingly intently focused on general skywalker’s … well, strategy was a bit generous, as it so often was with their general. 

[ txt from blondie: prediction 4 death count on this nuna chase ]

[ txt from blondie: ? ]

he’s shaking his head as he types a reply. 

[ txt from kix: i’m betting like three people make it back roll the fucking dice alor’ad ]

[ txt from kix: remind me what we’re after again ]

[ txt from blondie: artoo again ]

[ txt from kix: o of course ]

[ txt from kix: kark trooper lives being put in danger, 9 hells forbid skw. lose his astromech ]

[ txt from blondie: if you listen carefully ]

[ txt from blondie: you can hear me whisper ‘shut the fuck up’ at least once every five minutes ]

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faal finds the kid in a wrecked ship, unconscious and lips chapped and dry. they’re no good with kids, but the choices are between them taking the kid and the buzzards, so they dig him out from the rubble and carry him home, walk slow and steady, as it always is. 

it takes two days for the kid to wake up, two days of him tossing and turning in his sleep, calling out for … someone? something? upper, wrench, sod, tucker - whether they’re names or items, faal doesn’t know. two days of them rubbing bacta into the kid’s wounds, re-breaking the bone in his arm and setting it again. two days of them wringing out a cool wet cloth into the kid’s lips, so he can drink something. 

they know, somehow, when the kid is awake. 

( they’re no good with kids, but their species is a hunting one by nature - they could sniff it out beforehand, the three times someone has considered robbing them, and after the third attempt, no one’s been foolish enough to try again. )

‘ what’s your name, kid? ‘

the kid looks almost like he’s trying to salute faal, and winces when he pulls up his arm, wrapped in a sling, uncertainty suddenly crashing over his face. ( faal had changed him out of the clothes he was in when he wet them, something that looked like a charred and torn uniform, tattered by the crash. ) 

‘ clone cadet 83-1173, sir. ‘

‘ i’m no sir, ‘ faal says, amused, handing clone-cadet-83-1173 a mug of tea, which he accepts duly after a second, drinking cautiously. ‘ and that’s no name. what’s your name, boy? ‘

the cadet takes another sip, hesitating and looking down and away. ‘ don’t have one, sir. ‘ ( he’d never had something defining enough about him, hadn’t done anything worth commemorating or teasing about, so he was just clone-cadet-83-1173 as they left kamino, as their pods were ejected for what was meant to be a drill, as his had crashed into the planet’s surface. )

‘ well, we can’t have that, ‘ faal says, tapping their finger on their mug. they’re no good with kids, but they know at least that this one deserves a name. they’re considering it for a moment. ( their name means humble in duty but dangerous, in the naming system of this planet, where the name becomes an amalgamate of the syllables of the word. )

‘ joori. i’ll call you joori. ‘ the newly-named joori looks puzzled. 

‘ … sir? what does that mean? ‘

faal sets down their mug, and offers what joori thinks is a smile, though it’s hard to tell with the mouth style. ‘ reborn from ruin. ‘

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‘ i’m a combat medic, rex, not a psychologist. i wasn’t even meant to be that, too. i was an engineer first. ‘

it’s some time between ass-crack-of-dawn and too-late o’clock. kix is perched on the end of a cot, his hands shaking, and rex sits across from him, slumped in a visitor’s seat, the lights of the coruscant buildings the only thing to illuminate his tired face, making him look washed out and so much older than his twelve years. 

he doesn’t look angry at kix’s argument. he doesn’t even look disappointed. he just looks tired, and that somehow makes it all the more worse. 

kix looks away, to the sterile white floor of medbay, and there’s a desperate sort of shame clutching to his chest, digging its nails into his throat. if he can’t save them - is he a failure as a medic or as a brother?

there’s a long silence between them. 

‘ we weren’t trained for this. ‘ kix’s voice rasps when it breaks the silence, like it hasn’t been used in awhile - or like his throat is rubbed raw from trying to hold back tears. ‘ i can fix broken bones or a blaster bolt hole or do a field patch-up of someone about to go into sepsis from a stomach wound, rex. but what the hell am i supposed to do if - ‘ he’s swallowing, nausea rising. ‘ if a vod wants to swallow his own blaster, rex, there’s not much i can do. ‘

rex is resting forwards now, head in his hands. ‘ i don’t blame you, kix. ‘

( and kix knows, viscerally, the end to that sentence, the unsaid i blame myself, because it’s a staple in clones, almost as much as jango fett’s dna. a brother dead on the field. a general injured. a strategy failed. my fault. if i was just faster. it should’ve been me. )

the coruscant dawn begins to break over the horizon, and for a moment, kix doesn’t feel like a combat medic, or a clone trooper of the republic. he just feels lost, and very, very young. 

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kenobi smells different than he used to. 

cody is sitting in his quarters, face buried in the old jedi cloak he’d been ordered by lord vader to throw into the garbage disposal along with the lightsaber. the alarms blare through the death star, frantic motion through the hallways around cody’s tiny room, but he ignores it all, not moving. 

it’s been years since he’s been cody. the empire knows him as cc-2224, and he’s never bothered correcting them. 

but he’s holding a familiar lightsaber and a jedi cloak, and it doesn’t feel like he could be anyone but. 

obi-wan’s cloak is rougher than it ever was, and smells like the desert sun, but if cody closes his eyes, he can still faintly smell ozone underneath it, like the area around a fallen wire. he pauses and pulls his vibroblade from its spot in his armor, slicing into the thin imperial-issued mattress and shoving aside some of the bare foam mat, to pull out a thin piece of plastoid. 

white, with worn orange paint over it, molded to the back of his hand. 

he’s running his hand over the orange line and taking a deep breath, eyes closing as he presses it to his forehead, sharp klaxon of the alarms still ringing outside. he can guess what might happen, soon. it’s why he doesn’t bother moving, and why he’s comfortable keeping the relics of a dead republic on him. there won’t be consequences from the empire. he won’t be around to receive them.  

the dark hair on the back of his neck prickles up, and he knows, somehow, without raising his eyes, who, impossibly, is watching him, and his shoulders curl inwards in shame in their stormtrooper armor. 

‘ please look away, don’t look at me, sir. i don’t deserve it. ‘

there’s a warm laugh in an all-too-familiar accent that makes cody’s chest ache, and suddenly, he gets the feeling of being enveloped, like someone is wrapping their arms around him or bearing his weight over their shoulder like had happened so many times. 

‘ why shouldn’t you deserve it, commander? ‘

somehow, cody isn’t surprised when he lifts his eyes and sees general kenobi, the same age he’d left him, smiling at him and glowing … blue? 

‘ i betrayed you. ‘ it’s said in a flat tone, cody looking back down, unable to meet his general’s eyes. 

there’s a spectral hand touching his face, somehow lifting his chin, and obi-wan looks at him almost fondly. ‘ through no fault of your own, cody. i don’t blame you for that any more than i could blame you for having jango fett’s face. ‘

cody shuts his eyes again as they sting. 

obi-wan’s voice sounds weary and regretful. ‘ you should get off this battle station, commander. ‘ in his resigned voice, the same one he used when cody and he both knew what the outcome of a battle was likely to be, and when cody opens his eyes and shakes his head with a huff of a laugh, he only looks sad, but like he was expecting that answer. 

‘ i know what’s going to happen. there’s nothing left for me, anyway. nu kyr'adyc, shi taab'echaaj'la. my brothers are all marching far away, obi-wan. i’ve been ready to join them for awhile now. ‘

( there are only a handful of times general kenobi can remember where cody has called him obi-wan. it makes the splitting of his attention, one part of him telling luke to use the force, essentially telling him how to kill cody all that more difficult. )


in the remnants of a destroyed battle station, one of the rebels swears she saw a glimmer of something blue, and another one bets their life day money that they saw two men there for a second, one in battered manda-style armor, the other in jedi robes, holding tight to each other. 

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‘ i challenge you to combat, jedi. ‘

this isn’t an unfamiliar situation for him, unfortunately. being captured, or “captured”, while anakin and his padawan ran off on some escapade and he stalled for time, waiting for them to save the day at the last minute. a familiar situation, being that it’s the … what, fourth time these two months? fifth? unfortunate, because stepping into the opponent’s office, there had been a rock about the size of his chest lobbed at his head, the force giving him just enough warning to avoid it. 

he didn’t trust that offer, not in the slightest. 

right. stalling for time. 

he took one half-step closer to the - what, general? admiral?’s desk, and then two more, circling around slightly like a bird of prey calculating the angle of a dive to scoop up unsuspecting prey, his lightsaber still humming in his hand, and he strokes his beard with his free hand, frowning slightly as if considering it. 

‘ you mean, you’ll put down your rock - ‘ there was another rock in the general’s hand, this time about one and a half times the size of obi-wan’s chest ‘ - and i’ll put down my sword, and we’ll try and kill each other like civilized people? ‘

there wasn’t a word response, just a furious growl, and inside, obi-wan sighed. civilized indeed. do hurry things up, anakin, i haven’t got forever. however, the seperatist did drop the rock, heavy enough to shake the floor they were standing on, and pounded his fist against the palm of his hand. 

obi-wan supposed he ought to return the favor, and he’s bowing deeply, before extinguishing his lightsaber and clipping it to his belt, holding his hands up in a defensive position and internally bemoaning the beating he was about to get. 

the things he does for the order. 

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you are commander fox, to-be-of the coruscant guard. you’ve never seen coruscant, but you sing for it every two day-cycles when you and your brothers chant the vode an, and the clocks on kamino are kept on coruscant time, so you and the other clone commanders all have your own visions of what it looks like. 

( gree says he thinks like it looks like kamino would, in a drought, thousands of thin and narrow buildings growing gracefully like lilypads from what used to be a sea floor. cody is more practical, and says he’s seen holos, that it looks like a city - larger than tipoca, and different. rex knows that coruscant is the center of the republic, and the republic ordered a special-built army; he imagines hundreds of war buildings, about as old as they are. )

( you keep your thoughts to yourself, and not even that - you snap shut the pandora’s box of your imagination and decide to let coruscant speak for itself when you are stationed there. )

you’re named after an animal you’ve never seen, and probably never will, permanently stationed on a planet made from city on top of city on top of city - there’s a rumor told that if you jump down one of the travel shafts at just the right angle, there’s a hole that just goes through the entire planet. 

you’re named fox, and you don’t understand until two things happen. 

one: you meet a fox, in the lap of a senator with strange customs and tastes. 

two: you go to your room after killing a brother. you are a fox. you scream, you scratch, you bite - but it won’t bring him back. 

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kix has had to do this job twice, and each time before, he has silently begged and pleaded to the force or to manda or just whatever good there is out there; never again, please, don’t make me do this again. 

he’s a medic. even as a combat medic, he’s meant to save the lives of his men, not end them. 

( last time was dogma, offering kix his arm for the injection with a look that just looked tired and faintly relieved. )

he knows it the second he sees it, a semi-transparent hypo filled with a calm blue liquid, and there’s a part of him that wants to just take it and throw it across the room so it shattered; but he knew the medical droid would either just replace it or do it itself, so with shaking hands, he picks it up. 

the trooper’s name is maru, and he had had two limbs crushed by a rockfall, kix taking skywalker’s lightsaber from him, deaf to his protests, and amputating them to pull maru free, pressing a hypo to his neck to ease the pain and placing him with the other wounded. 

for nothing. kix might as well have left him to die. 

( he couldn’t, he could never, he had to do everything he could to save them - )

maru doesn’t know, and kix isn’t going to tell him. he can’t. he’s checking maru’s vitals as if it matters, frowning at his blood pressure and gently feeling the stumps where his legs used to be, seeing if the skin is inflamed to the touch, gauging his reactions and seeing if he winces. 

maru pulls a tired grin. 

‘ they’ve not got me down yet, kix. gimme a couple of days and i’ll be back on my feet. ‘ he pauses for a beat, looking down at his stumps that ended around the knee. ‘ well. figuratively speaking. ‘

‘ that’s a terrible joke, ‘ kix says, a low note of despair in his voice, and maru just grins up at him. 

‘ so what’s next? ‘ 

kix holds up the hypo. ‘ quick sedative, put you right under. ‘m sure you don’t want to feel it when they hook you up to a bunch of things to karking get back on your feet. ‘ maru laughs, and the lie feels bitter in kix’s throat, bile and his conscience rising. 

he swallows them both down. 

maru turns his arm towards kix for the hypo, and kix refuses to let his hands shake as he presses the plunger, eyes shutting for a moment, heart turning over. he’s nudging maru with his shoulder, giving him an exasperated smile. 

‘ go on, get some sleep. ‘

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there are always nightmares. 

this time, he’s hanging by puppet strings, tied around his arms, his legs, his torso, and a thick one around his neck, cold and metal and biting into his skin. 

and he’s in the courthouse again, in the seat he was put in days after umbara, helpless as they judge him for his crimes. 

treason. and one of the threads holding up his arms splits. 
you betrayed your brothers. twang! another string breaks, this time one around his thigh. 

they grow in tenor and in sound, listing off dogma’s crimes one after each other, a string breaking with each. until finally, there are only two holding dogma up - the one around his waist and the thick wire about his neck. 

the jury fades to silent, and the witness booth is illuminated. 

fives steps forwards with that look of righteous fury on his face. 

i hope you can live with yourself, dogma, he sneers, and the cord around dogma’s waist snaps, and dogma is falling, with nothing but the rope around his neck to catch him and -

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her padawan reminds her sometimes of eopie eggshells. if you applied constant pressure all around, it was nigh-impossible to break her, but if one specific thing went wrong, if you cracked at a certain spot, it was fragile as - well, eggshells. 

‘ you want me to be dead, ‘ barriss says, eyes darker, inflamed black from crying. ‘ you have since geonosis. you’ve already moved on and mourned me, and now you’re just waiting for me to catch up. ‘

luminara sits cautiously in the bench across from barriss’, in the small cell, grief curling in her heart for a moment, and she breathes, shutting her eyes and driving the feeling past. there is no grief, no misfortune. there is only the force. she reached out to barriss, her padawan jerking away as if the idea of her master touching her is repugnant. 

‘ that’s not what i want. not at all. ‘

she wonders what sort of conversations the coruscant guard must have heard, standing sentinel in front of hundreds of cells and hundreds of communications like this one. some of them had been cut down by her padawan. luminara had their deaths on her, for not noticing. 

no death, only the force. but that would be no consolation to them. they were not jedi. 

‘ you have a funny way of showing it, ‘ barriss spits, and curls away from luminara, refusing to talk again. 

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the kaminoans are tired of this. 

there is no practical purpose, they tell alpha-36, as he stands with a steady face and a hand on the deecee at his hip, between them and the door that used to be fett’s quarters. he just looks right back at them and refuses to move. 

indomitable, just like they made him to be. 

( they eventually give up. it’s not worth the effort or drop in morale that it would take to dispense of or repurpose fett’s room; there are usually a few troopers in or around it for different reasons. )


why? asks boba, with his typical scowl, to thire, when he overhears them talking about it with another trooper. thire looks with an unreadable look down at the - prisoner? vod’ika? 12 year old? bounty hunter? - contemplating the question for a moment. 

he’s saved from really answering the question when the harsh ring of the bell rings to return prisoners to their cells. he gives the only one of them who will ever be truly considered a person a short reply: in case you ever came back. 


it’s not left untouched, per se, but it mostly is. the pantry is where cadets all hide their contraband, and boba’s toys make their way through dozens of different hands, or the same hands over and over, until the paint is worn off and the plastoid is covered in hundreds of iterations of jango fett’s fingerprints. 

there are sheets of flimsi folded and left neatly in two mesh bags of refitted mandalorian beskar - one for jango, one for boba. 

not gone, merely marching far away, is written somewhere on most of jango’s. as well as some of the same questions, over and over. did you care about us? if you were still here, would the bounty hunters and jedi who train us be more careful, less harsh? 

wherever you are now. are you ashamed of the men with your face? are we using your genes, your body, well? are you proud of us?

occasionally, there’s a scribbled over buir. 

( boba’s mostly come from the cadets, especially after the incident with windu’s ship, and come with questions harder to answer and bitter in tone. why do you get to be a person? why did he choose you? )

they collect there for years. in case you ever came back. 


tipoca city is empty now; the kaminoans have moved on from the crime scene of their greatest success or worst failure, depending on your views. the last of the clones were shipped off to the emperor recently, and everything is a cool white, the power off in most of it. 

most of it. 

in one room, a light flickers back in, and a young man sets down a green helmet in the manda style, and sits on the bed, rubbing his dark golden eyes tiredly. 

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‘ i’m no jedi. ‘

he doesn’t even realize, really, how hard he throws the spear until he sees the effects of it - it’s not even a sharp weapon, but it splinters right through the slaver’s ribs and the rotten hole where his heart would be, and goes out the other side of the chair, and when rex looks down later, he sees that his knuckles were so tightly clenched that he dug little crescent-moon shaped cuts into the meat of his palm. 

general kenobi doesn’t comment on it. 

( neither he nor tano nor skywalker comments on anything about him being there; he sees skywalker and kenobi talking softly off to the side, skywalker supporting kenobi, who walks with a slight limp, and sparring with tano to help her get out her anger and fury, and some of his own, kenobi being a comfort for skywalker, talking him through all the bad that surfaced. )

but rex is given a pat on the back and a well, we all lived to fight another day, and it’s left at that. the scars from the lashes on his back don’t go away. neither do the comments from the zygerrian queen, brief and in passing. this isn’t new to you, is it? 

her claws grabbing his wrist and turning it over, revealing just where the kaminoans marked their product with ultraviolet tattoos, as if she knew, her mouth curved in a smile. i thought not, ct-7567. 

ct-7567. 

another voice, bellowing that, and a finger the size of his wrist, prodding him so hard in the chest he nearly stumbles backwards. 

in a lot of ways, there’s some sort of parallel, here. 

you’re shaking. aren’t you? / it’s not the jedi way to kill an unarmed man. 

then, his hands had shaken, and so had his resolve. then, someone else had paid the price for it, dogma’s eyes wide with fear and fingers curled around the stolen gun, his name marked with a cold decommissioned on the roster three days later. 

the victor spoils, the loser learns. 

rex had learned. 

there was no shaking in his hand this time, as he tosses the spear forward.

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the kid’s eyes look too old. 

he stands out in the rank of touring cadets - in two straight lines of wide golden eyes and grins of awe at their older brothers in white armor, all of them marching in time, there’s one cadet walking like he needs to watch over his shoulder, his steps slightly out of sync with jax and hotshot and the others, and his eyes dark and purposeful. 

he only stands out a little bit more as the tour goes on, excelling in the questions routinely asked to keep the cadets on their feet, and being by far the best shot of the group - his precision would rival that of some veterans rex knew. 

so he pulls the cadet to the side. possible commander material, to be noted, and the cadet looks almost panicked at that. 

what’s your name, son?

something about that stabs through the kid, rex can see, his eyes widening minutely and flinching, refusing to make eye contact with rex. lucky. they call me lucky, sir. 

rex sits down beside him heavily, ignoring the suspicious look the kid gives him, tensed up as though he’s about to run. in my experience, you’re only as lucky as your expectations are low. 

lucky’s hands curl into small fists. does it seem like my expectations are low, sir? 

rex sighs, pulling his helmet onto his lap and tracing over the jaig eyes, holding it out to lucky, who looked at it, brow furrowing. i got given these by the original himself, when i was just a little older than you are now, lucky. he thought i’d been mandokarla enough to earn them. 

sir? lucky asks, wary - but rex notices that his golden eyes are looking at him now, almost pleading.

i met his son about then. boba. cute kid - he looked like one of the younger cadets, but … like he’d been cared for. he wanted to wear my helmet when he saw that his father’d drawn these on, and i let him. always wondered where that kid ended up.  

lucky looks tense again, and rex sighs. 

what about you, lucky? where do you think you’re going to end up when you become a trooper, eh? 

there’s a bomb in general windu’s room, lucky blurts out, hunched over and not looking rex in the eyes, cheeks flushed red with shame, and it looks like he could panic at any moment. rex remains calm, and rests a hand on his shoulder. 

i see. thank you for telling me. come on, lucky. let’s go tell general windu what you found, huh? 

lucky’s, boba’s, eyes widen, but he nods silently. 

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‘ i lost a lot of good men, cody. ‘

they’re sitting around a mess table in the gar official base on coruscant, both of them with their hands wrapped around mugs of caf dark as engine oil, and just about as appetizing. but it’s warm, and it keeps you going, so they’re grateful enough for it. 

fox takes a sip of it blankly, and he looks at something past cody, his eyes haunted. 

( they’re both just in their blacks. if it weren’t for the experience heavy in their eyes and the way no one else sits at their table, it would be hard to guess that they were commanders at all. though, cody muses, maybe no one sits at their table because there really isn’t anyone left. thorn’s men, the temple bombing, offee breaking into the prison … there are too many empty tables. )

‘ how are they doing? ‘ 

it’s cody speaking, softly, reaching across the table to rest a hand on fox’s wrist, squeezing gently, fox doesn’t flinch away, but he doesn’t look up, either - cody thinks he might just be too burnt out to respond. he wraps fox’s caf mug with the back of his knuckles, and it’s like fox takes to the prompting blindly, lifting it to his mouth and swallowing without seeing it or tasting it. 

‘ your men, fox. how are they doing? ‘

fox shrugs with one shoulder, taking another gulp of caf before setting the mug down, resting his forehead on his crossed arms on the table, and a low, ragged breath comes out of him, before talking softly. 

‘ you’d know. a jedi killed our own. it’s … hard to cope with. they’ve lost so many at once. ‘ he’s lifting his head slightly, just to shake it. ‘ most of them are dealing, though. not the first time they’ve lost vod’e. the two shinies in our unit, though … it hit them hard. ‘

cody exhales hard, like he’d been hit in the chest. 

‘ how old? ‘

‘ beetle’s just about nine. been here for - a month and a half? tamn’s been here longer, but the kid’s not even eight, yet. they shouldn’t be off kamino, even, let alone dealing with all of this fierfeking - ‘ he’s resting his head in his hands, scrubbing violently at his eyes with the butt of his palms as if he can wash this all away like the fleeting memories of a bad dream. 

cody sips at his caf for something to do. 

‘ where are they? ‘

fox sighs, and his hands drop back to the table, and he spreads them slightly, before picking up the bitter dregs of his caf and swilling them. cody passes his half-full mug over to the other commander without comment, and fox takes it with something like gratitude. 

‘ tamn’s in the hospital. ‘ he holds up a hand when cody starts to ask, jolting forwards with a look of concern. ‘ not wounded. he’ll be fine. just … a shock to his system, i’d say. beetle is - ‘ he gestures with his mug. ‘ she’s been taking overtime shifts. you know how shinies get. ‘ the next word is said ruefully over the rim of the mug. ‘ bora’echoyli. ‘ 

mourning job. grief-inspired, often after the first death shinies would see that would really hit them. it should have been me. working and working and working to the bone, so you could make sure that next time you could help, or that at the very least, next time it would be you, and not your brother or sister. )

cody nodded.

he’s rubbing his own eyes and getting up, taking fox’s empty mug to clear it away for his friend. fox looks up at him, wariness in his eyes. 

‘ where are you going? ‘

cody tries to smile, but his stomach is turning over, and he just feels …tired. tired and sick and sad. eight years old. she should still be on kamino, not taking a third or fourth shift because she feels guilty about some ex-jedi killing her vod’e. ‘ fox, i’ve … had experience in consoling shinies after some hut’uun with a lightsaber and a false sense of justice wiped through their brothers. i’m one of the few commanders who has. ‘ 

( neither of them voices it, but they’re both acknowledging, silently, that there’s that and - anything from the 501st might not be welcome, right now. )

he finds beetle three guard posts later, in full-red shiny armor, with a small beetle painted in white on one of her shoulder pauldrons, and tells her quietly that her shift is over. 

( she looks like she wants to argue - cody knows the look, even if a vod’s face is underneath their armor - but cody is a commander, and so she complies, pulling off her helmet and following him. ) 

they take three turns, and both sink to the floor, backs resting on the hallway walls, as if in sync. 

she barely hits the ground before she starts sobbing, graceless and ugly and dry, knees pulled to her chest and wailing, sobs overlapping and catching in her chest, and cody switches sides of the hall to sit next to her, back of his hand bumping hers, and once her crying has eased up, he presses their forehead together. 

mourning, solidarity. a keldabe kiss. 

( it doesn’t matter if this is the first time he’s met this younger vod. they’re vod’e, and this is a burden she shares with him, now. he will help, if he can. )

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protect this information. 

it’s flashed across the screens of the room they’re currently in, and after, a series of numbers pops up - coordinates, maybe? the four of them all scan the information, and the screens go blank, and two minutes later, a keypad pops out for each of them, to ensure they remember the numbers they’re meant to.

each of them gets them down perfectly. they’ve been trained to remember important information, after all. 

there’s a brief ding! to show that they’ve gotten it all right, the keypads retract into the wall, and they shift back instinctively, standing back to back to back to back as a calm robotic female voice fills the room. 

‘ deliver this information to base c, which will be located on the maps on your holos. once the information is delivered correctly, the simulation will end. if captured and interrogated about the information, do not divulge it, or you will fail automatically, and have to repeat this process from the beginning. ‘ 

the cadets look between themselves nervously - one of the trainers had looked almost regretful, sending them into this, and the talk of interrogation didn’t make it any easier. 

there’s another soft ding! and four square tiles light up in separate parts of the room, each one labeled with one of their designations. this was a common enough part of testing that they didn’t even need the prompter telling them what to do, though the calm voice rings out anyway. 

the room shifts, and the door opens out into one of the sim rooms, eerily still for the time being. the voice sounds out again. 

‘ ct-5381, step forwards. ‘ 

dogma looks anxiously at his batchers - tup, pip, crease, who look right back at him with similar expressions. they’ve done everything as a group, thus far. but they have their orders, so after another second, dogma steps forwards to the line illuminated on the floor. 

tup gasps a second later, because two commando droids rise up out of the floor, turned towards dogma, guns leveled at him, and pip starts forwards, only to be zapped back into place by inplacements on the floor. to the other sides and in front, there are also suddenly droids, and dogma, ever the good soldier, immediately moves to shoot at them, but he’s completely surrounded. 

he manages to take out two of them before he’s shot in the back, slumping forwards, and the commando droids disarm him, two of them taking him by the elbows and walking back off towards the citadel building while the rest of his squad watches in horror. 

the droids ( and dogma ) disappear from view, before the voice sounds again with a small chime, the illuminated squares fading from view. 

‘ deliver the information. ‘ 

dogma wakes up with his hands in binders, in a sterile-grey room that could be in any part of kamino, and the trainer program voice sounds out again, a little less broadly this time. 

‘ if captured and interrogated about the information, do not divulge it, or you will fail automatically, and have to repeat this process from the beginning. you have your orders, ct-5381. protect the information. ‘

almost the moment the voice’s message finishes, a medical droid steps into the room, in the seperatist design. 

‘ give us the information we need, clone, and you will not come to harm. ‘

saying no is easy for dogma, almost laughably so, and he very nearly does laugh in the droid’s face. there’s a mechanical laugh coming from it, low and eerie. ‘ i was hoping you’d say that. ‘

and that’s where things stop taking a path dogma can predict. another droid enters the room with a tray holding two large canisters of a luminescent yellow liquid and an empty syringe. titroxinate, a part of his brain supplies helpfully. used by the seppies as a torture drug - doesn’t leave permanent physical effects. 

his eyes widen as a second later, it hits him. wait, the kaminoans wouldn’t really - they’re just bluffing, right? they wouldn’t actually - 

they would. 

he screams so loudly the first three times that his squadmates almost hear it, even out in the sim chamber as they are, and they pause for a moment, looking between each other with worry-lined faces, before continuing to push forwards. 


‘ you decide when this ends, ‘ the droid tells him coldly, filling up the needle again. dogma’s head is slumped against his chest, and he can’t stop shaking, hair matted against his forehead with sweat and his jaw aching from how hard he’s clenched his teeth together. ‘ give us the information. ‘

dogma looks up, golden eyes wavering. ‘ i’ll tell you something. ‘ 

the droid inches closer, setting the needle down on the tray. if it had a proper face, dogma could swear he was able to read amusement on it. ‘ go on. ‘

he grins, broad and wide and sharp and completely devoid of humor, face still pallid, but eyes that were clearly jango fett’s at this moment shining out of it, set in determination. ‘ go kark yourself. i’m not giving you shit. ‘

the droid stares at him for a long, silent moment. ‘ i see. ‘ he turns to the other droid, the one holding the tray. ‘ a double dose this time, 371bai-c. ‘

to dogma’s credit, it takes another two injections before his eyes well over. 


pip is holding his arm to his chest, unlucky enough to have gotten a shot to it, but he’s not out of the test yet - the base is just within sight. he and crease cover tup, the fastest runner of the three of them, as tup breaks for the base, and, diving-skidding to a stop, dodging a few errant blaster bolts, types in the numbers they’d been told to remember when the keypad comes up, and for a heart-stopping second, nothing happens. 

but then, there’s a click! and the droids all power down, the keypad folding back into the wall. 

‘ congratulations, aurek squad. on both fronts, you have passed this simulation. ‘ 

a door opens to the side of the base, and dogma steps out, pale and still shivering, his eyes unfocused, and his squad runs to him, concerned. ‘ you alright, vod? what happened to you? ‘ it’s all he can do to nod, before he sinks to the ground, arms wrapping around his knees. 

later that night, when he tells them, the four squadmates all climb to his bed-pod and sit next to him, wrapping close to him in reassurance that it wasn’t real. in real life, he’d never be left alone. 

not a one of them voices the thought that it must be a possibility, else they wouldn’t’ve been trained for it. 

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bodhi is pulled out of the orphanages of jedha; imperial propaganda will say, of course, that he is one of the many who chose to give his service to a noble cause, but the truth of the matter is; he is ten years old and skinny and wide-eyed, and the stormtroopers are faceless and so much taller than he, and one of them crouches down by him when they see him staring and tells him that there will be food and pilot training if he comes with them. 

he is ten years old and skinny and hungry and doesn’t know, then, that he is signing away his life when he signs bodhi on the line on the holopad the stormtrooper with the orange pauldron offers him impersonally. 

some of the men who teach him have the same face. 

( they’re not meant to see the stormtroopers with their helmets off. they are all cogs of a whole; officers and cargo pilots and armored troopers and maintenance workers, but there is little to no interaction between the castes allowed by the empire. camaraderie leads to hope leads to rebellion; everything remains faceless and impersonal. )

( except it doesn’t, not totally. )

some of the men who teach him have the same face and the same wiry white hair and the same tired looking golden eyes and bodhi thinks they get older too fast and tells them that, and they laugh, patting him on the shoulder and calling him shiny. 

they teach him how to fly and how to play sabacc and adjust his flight goggles and how the blaster weight is slightly unbalanced and how to handle the recoil. he overhears stories from them, too; stories from the war-before-this. he saw a jedi once, when he was almost too small to remember, but they say they fought alongside them. 

cc-2224 calls himself cody, and calls cc-4477 thire, and gives bodhi the name rook, affectionately, has called him rookie for fifteen years now, and when bodhi officially becomes an adult and a pilot for the empire, it’s what is written on his identification. bodhi rook. 

it’s thire who asks him for his clearance codes, when galen sends him off, and thire who sees the panicked look in his eyes; bodhi has never been a good liar, and thire knows it. 

bodhi doesn’t have a clearance code, but thire types one in anyway, and says in the same bored voice used for any other dismissal that his identification has gone through, that his code is operable, and bodhi’s heart is in his throat as he takes the message and flies. 

may the force be with him now, cody whispers, when thire tells him, later. 

 

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wolffe has the reassurance of a world outside of kamino; knows jango well enough that tired, once, he slipped up and called him buir, saw the bounty hunter stiffen, but he didn’t deny the title, just rested a hand over wolffe’s where they clutched onto the gun and lowered them, stating that that was enough training for the day - you boys had best be getting some sleep, good shooting today.

he knows jango, and jango isn’t kaminoan, he is mando’ade just like they learn to be, and he sometimes lets them see bits and pieces of that, wherever he can.

( ponds caught him once in the kaminoan library, humming a tune over and over again and scribbling out some words on flimsi, and ponds was the first one to hear the vode an as a song, and with the written in strength-of-coruscant, rather than of-mandalore. )  

it’s jango who teaches them the word echoy’aim, when kote - later, he will be called cody, obi-wan’s smooth accent fumbling with the harshness of mando’a - says quietly that he feels homesick, almost, for a place he’s never been. 

jango calls it echoy’aim and calls it diaspora and tells them that it’s just something all old mandalorians have to bear one day, forced to be as much a part of their culture now as is fighting, as is teaching, as is mando’a.

the guardians of the whills say that the strongest stars have hearts of kyber, and perhaps that is true. 

but they are mando’ade and they are resilient, and their hearts are forged from beskar, even if their bodies were built on kamino. 

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‘ are they out there? ‘

ponds turns, looks, a little surprised, at the cadet up way past sleep-hours, sitting cross-legged before one of the transparisteel windows, looking out into the pouring rain solemnly. 

( ponds is - 9? 10? he’ll have to ask jango tomorrow - and ready to head out from kamino - jango trained the alphas who helped jango train him and his batchmates, and ponds has a commander title to his name and armor still-shiny from never being off kamino. )

ponds knows there is a world out there, because there is a ache in his heart for a home lost to him, and he reaches absently for the beskar dog tags that jango made with the help of the alphas for ponds and his batchers, all the command stock. 

this cadet, about four years old, doesn’t have that, and ponds sits next to him heavily, crossing his legs and looking out into the rain along with him. ‘ are who out there? ‘

the cadet, with golden eyes almost vibrant enough they glow in the darkened hallway and slicked-back hair, presses a small hand to the window, looking up and out. ‘ the republic. are they really out there? ‘ 

ponds huffs out a sigh and lifts up an arm, and the cadet scoots in against his side, leaning on him and still looking out. ‘ of course they are, vod’ika. remember? you’ve been taught in your classes about coruscant and naboo and the jedi. they’re out there. ‘ 

the cadet’s eyes fall from the window, look down at the floor, and their small shoulders hunch. his voice is small when he speaks next, almost drowned out by the kaminoan rain. ‘ then why haven’t they come for us? did we do something wrong? ‘

ponds aches for the look in those eyes, and runs a hand over the cadet’s hair, soothing. ‘ easy, vod’ika. you haven’t done anything wrong. it’s just not time yet. they’ll be here for us. i promise. ‘ 

the two of them watch the rain pour down, and the next day, there’s a red ship landing, with a man with a strange accent, the first jedi to see them in years. 

 

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‘ minimal casualties on our end, ‘ cody says over the comms to shaak ti, the words bitter in his throat. ‘ we lost two men. ‘

it’s kamino. it’s their home - they shouldn’t die here, not fighting the seperatists, it should be safe here. but among the droid parts and bits of charges that scatter the floors of the barracks, there are two crumpled bodies, with - not with jango fett’s face, cody thinks, however the holos may describe the vod’e. with their own faces, dying in their own fight. 

‘ thank you, commander cody. ‘ shaak ti’s calm voice comes through the comms, sonorous as ever, ringing even through the static of their basic gauntlet comms. 

we lost two men. 

such an emotionless way of saying it. 

fives and echo and rex are clustered around one body, and the cadets they had picked up on the way encircling another. 

well. 

most of the cadets. 

five cadets had walked into the barracks with fives, echo, and 99. fives and echo take four cadets back to rejoin their group later. 

he never got a name, hotshot whispers, shaking his brother’s shoulder as if that could wake him up, young voice cracking. bile had risen in cody’s throat for a moment - the body was too small. it shouldn’t be pierced through with a blaster bolt. but this is the truth of it, isn’t it? for them, nowhere is safe. for them - no age is safe. )

( even when they come up to waist height, they must be soldiers. )

there’s a mass pyre, later - it takes them three containers of fuel and kamino’s driest docking station to get the fire started, pulling the plastoid armor carefully off of their brothers before placing them onto the pyre - someone is playing a bes’bev, and there’s a low murmur of not gone, just marching far away echoing, bouncing off the support beams. 

‘ he should have a name, ‘ jax says, setting his jaw, as cody carries the unnamed cadet’s body out to the pyre, and cody’s eyes soften slightly, looking at the small form in his arms. 

he looks out over the pyre, at the brothers finding each other alive and holding onto each other, to the cadets with their solemn eyes and soft faces looking up at the ash floating into the sky. 

‘ we’ll call him parjai, ‘ cody says to jax, softly, the cadets helping him set their dead batcher onto the pyre. 

victory. 

but at what price?

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‘ all we have is yours, ‘ dogma says quietly to him, jango’s face remaining impassive. ‘ everything that makes us us. our genes, our armor, our language, our values, our skills, our stories, our accents. it’s all yours. ‘

dogma is eight years old. ( dogma, by republic standards, is a clone trooper, and therefore, even if he was still four or thirteen or six, he would be tried as a clone, and often killed like one. )

‘ would you be proud of me? ‘ he asks jango, and there’s no response, dogma blinking quickly to prevent his eyes from stinging. he’s … too young, really, to have ever met their original. all he has is a fleeting memory once, of legs too short to walk without falling, and running straight into a massive leg, and a man who picked him up - at the time, he’d thought it was one of his brothers. 

the man had run a hand over his curly hair and called him verd’ika, little soldier, and told him to always keep his eyes forwards. 

that’s all dogma has. they don’t have fathers or mothers or homes; dogma has a growth tube now being used to grow a new embryonic clone, and a fleeting baby-memory of a man he never saw again, and his battered armor, in 501st blue. and even that belongs to jango in some extent - the 501st was the initial clone company, first led by alpha-17. their armor color is based off of jango’s beskar’gem. 

dogma hopes he would be proud of him. 

( sometimes, on worse days, where he hasn’t left the corner of his cell or he’s clawed at the skin of his arms to the point of bleeding again, he thinks he’d just settle for anyone being proud of him, these days. )

‘ do you think, ‘ he starts, and hesitates, his voice shaking. ‘ do you think i’m a failure, or that just my actions are? ‘ he’s looking down, avoiding meeting jango’s eyes. ‘ do you think i even deserve a second chance? ‘ 

jango doesn’t answer. 

dogma wasn’t really expecting him to. 

he sighs and blinks, and jango is gone. dogma presses his fingertips to the surface of the mirror softly, exhaling. he might have jango’s face, but he doesn’t have any of the answers his progenitor might be able to give. 

he’s looking away from the glass, turning on the water and beginning to wash his face. 

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‘ sir? you’ll want to come see this. ‘ 

windu is up and out of his tent in a fraction of a second; he’s been with the clones for all of a few weeks now, and they’re men of business, efficient and line-form and kamino-made, and they wouldn’t wake him up ( well. wake him up would imply he was doing more in the means of sleep than staring up at the roof of his tent ) without a reason for it. 

his lightsaber’s a fraction of a second from activated when he realizes there’s no … urgency in his men, none of that tug-to-danger he’s noted they feel when they reach for their guns and walkers with a lethal efficiency that sometimes leaves a chill down his spine. 

have we made men or weapons? he asked yoda once, watching them drill, and his old master just shook his head, mood unreadable to windu. )

but … there’s no urgency, no adrenaline-rush fear, not even the sharp to-attention mood they have when there’s a commanding officer at deck or they’re receiving orders. instead, there’s just … awe. 

for one of the first times, he’s seeing them without their helmets, all of them discarded by feet or tucked safely under arms or cradled against chests like a child’s comfort animal, and it takes him a second to realize that the odd thing about that isn’t seeing them without their helmets, it’s that he can see them at all. 

it should be the dead of night, after all, so why does it seem like the sun is out?

the light wavers and fluctuates and flickers, and windu follows his commander’s eyes and his raised hand up to the sky duly, and even his eyes widen imperceptibly for what he sees. 

maybe he should’ve checked the star charts, seen that given this planet’s location, there would be several supernovae visible tonight, but there’s something very different about seeing that in mathematical equation and seeing it happen. 

‘ the stars are going out, ‘ whispers the trooper by his shoulder - no, whispers ponds, his name is ponds, and mace realizes, with a startle, that none of them have jango fett’s face, anymore. ponds and stak and razor and punchline - illuminated by the light of dying stars, they’re all so clearly their own. 

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ponds wakes up with his head on fire.

not literally, of course, though it wouldn’t be the weirdest thing that’s happened today, and he had been on fire when all this started - his kama is still singed, in places, last time he’d seen it. no, his head just - burns, like a sunny day on mustafar, and he barely manages to creak open his eyes before his stomach heaves in protest and he’s forced to close them again. 

if this is the manda, it’s kind of shit. 

( what happened last? boba, there had been boba, all child’s grief and anger and pain, and then seeing the holo of his general, the barrel of a blaster poking him in the back of the head, and a terrible pause, and then everything had gone black, and then cold, cold, and silent - )

where was he now, then? was he dead? he had to be dead. 

it takes him a good few more minutes to groan and open his eyes even up to slits, and he sees someone almost familiar sitting next to him, at the controls of whatever ship he’s in - he’s in a ship? - now, purposefully not looking at him. 

for a moment, ponds thinks it’s cody. 

but - the armor is blue, and the man doesn’t have rex’s blonde hair. and come to think of it, he looks too old to be cody. and there’s no scar. he’s a bit more filled-out, a bit more suspicious or paranoid in his gestures, and his skin is - oh. 

ponds doesn’t know how he manages it, but he pushes himself to sit upright, staring at the dead man in front of him. 

jango doesn’t acknowledge him for a good few beats, punching something into the computer, and when he eventually speaks, it still doesn’t quite feel like it’s to ponds, jango not looking up at him. 

‘ thought you boys promised me you were never going to die on your knees. ‘ 

 

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he’s still not going to get over the beard being gone. 

it’s been a good few weeks since the rako hardeen thing, and general kenobi looks like… well, anyone but general kenobi, missing the swooping ginger hair and distinctive beard, hair currently short to his head and closer to a light brown. 

it means he and cody ( or some of the other 212th ) ends up running recon or spy missions a lot of the time, taking advantage of general kenobi looking like a complete stranger. cody isn’t specially trained in undercover missions, and he doesn’t actually think he’s any good at them, but that’s not stopped his general from taking him on - this is the fourth, so far, where it’s just been the two of them. 

they’re sitting on opposite sides of a table in an outdoor cafe, kenobi lounging in a way that made him appear almost feline in nature, all easy grace and eyes that wandered but with confidence and a sort of regality. which is also sort of feline - it’s a look like he is ruler of all he surveys, and he knows this, but at the moment, it’s too much of an inconvenience to act on it. 

‘ you’re staring, cody. ‘ 

‘ hm? simply playing the part, ben. ‘

( it’s the name they’ve gone with for several of these, which has led to two separate occasions of a very tired cody calling kenobi ‘beneral’, which has sent commander tano into fits of glee both times. cody doesn’t get paid enough for this damn job. )

there’s a smile rolling across kenobi’s face in the same lazy way that storm clouds breach the horizon; at once a subtle progression and just suddenly there. 

( and, like an oncoming storm, it usually meant some kind of trouble was coming with it, the pessimistic side of cody tacked on. a deeper part of cody, one he was currently vehemently trying to ignore, tacked on that also like an oncoming storm, cody found it beautiful. )

kenobi leans forwards, acting as if he were about to stroke his beard and then frowning, resting his chin on his hand and propping his elbow on the table. as always, he’s magnetizing to cody, who leans back in a little bit without even really noticing it. 

‘ remember, we’re madly in love, so it’s all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it . ‘ 

he’s saying it with that sophisticated accent; a little bit of a drawl and rounded-out vowels, and he’s saying it with an uplift to his mouth; he’s teasing. cody thinks it’s secondhand nature for the man to flirt; he does it without noticing he’s doing it, easy as talking. 

for once, though, it’s his turn to surprise his general. 

( he can tell it’s a surprise because he’s suddenly so very close to kenobi’s eyes, and sees every minute detail of them widening, the dark flecks that seemed to fade in and out with the light and the steel in them. )

( he can tell it’s a surprise because he feels the sharp intake of kenobi’s breath as their mouths press together, and for a moment he feels like laughing, because it seems almost like obi-wan is taking the air from his lungs. there’s irony in there, somewhere. )

it was a surprise; teasing and cody’s push back, their back-and-forth dynamic. 

it should end with cody pulling back and the both of them laughing, resuming the conversation about the plans they’re here to find.

it should end with some propriety; he is a general and he is a commander and they are halves of a whole but not so like this; he is a jedi and he is a clone and they are different levels, he is not allowed attachments and he is not a person, and - 

it should end there. 

( it doesn’t. )