“You’re setting yourself up for failure. You do it every time.”
“I’m not.” Clarke stared at the board in front of her, concentrating, trying to come up with her next move.
“The last time you won was never.” Lexa shook her head. “And yet you try, every week, and you fail. Do you know what’s the definition of madness?”
“Shut up.” Clarke reached for her knight piece.
“Are you sure you want to do that?” Lexa smirked from across the table.
Clarke hesitated, changing her mind multiple times, before putting the piece back where it was.
“I hate you.” Lexa laughed. “And I won when we were in high school.”
“You mean I let you win because you were pretty and I thought I’d get lucky.”
“You just keep telling yourself that.” Clarke rolled her eyes.
“C’mon Clarke, make a move.”
After a couple more seconds Clarke made her move and took Lexa’s bishop in the process. “Happy now?” she looked up at her friend.
“Very. Check mate.” Lexa was trying to hide her smile.
“Better luck next week.” Lexa shrugged grinning.
“One of these days I’ll wipe off that smug look from your face.”
“You just keep telling yourself that.” Lexa smiled.
“Just wait.” Clarke took her phone and checked her messages. “What are you doing tonight?”
“I don’t know. Going out?” Lexa threw herself on the couch next to Clarke.
“Are you asking or saying?” Clarke glanced at her.
“Both.” Lexa pulled out her phone. “Raven wants to go.”
“In that case I think I’d do more harm than good.”
“What?” Lexa looked at her confused.
“Nothing.” Clarke chuckled.
“No, what?” Lexa asked again.
“If Raven asked you to go out then that means she wants to get laid and she needs your help. If I go then no one is getting laid.”
“That makes no sense.”
“When was the last time you picked someone up when I was there with you?”
“That has nothing to do with anything.” Lexa furrowed her brows.
“I’ll tell you when. Freshman year in college.”
“That’s… no. Your presence has nothing to do with that.”
“Sure.” Clarke smirked.
“Clarke, I’m serious.”
“Okay Lexa.” Clarke giggled. “But I won’t go out. Thanks for the invite.” she smiled. “And don’t worry. You got game regardless of my presence.” she kissed Lexa’s cheek and got up from the couch. “Text me when you get back home.”
Clarke picked up her bag and put on her jacket.
“Bye. Have fun.”, she winked before she left.
“What got you so gloomy? Snap out of it.” Raven snapped her fingers in front of Lexa’s face. They were on their way to the club. “I need you on your best behaviour tonight.”
“Geez relax, I’m just thinking.”
“Something Clarke said.”
“Oh please, no thinking about Clarke tonight, like i said I need you on your best behaviour.”
“You make it sound like I’m in love with her.” Lexa rolled her eyes.
“That’s what you said.”
“Raven.” Lexa warned.
“I’m kidding. Maybe you’re not in love but when she’s around you turn into a puppy and she’s the only woman you care about and that’s not acceptable tonight.”
“She said that today. I can’t believe you also think that.”
“Honey, we all know that.”
“You are all wrong.”
“If that’s what you need to think then I’ll let you think that.” Lexa shook her head. “But no more thinking about what Clarke said.”
was the night successful?
Raven is happy
why are you up?
I was watching one day at a time
without me? :(
you break my heart Clarke Griffin
that’s what happens when you make raven a priority
I watched the old episodes.
you are the only heartbreaker in this relationship :p
quit playing games with my heart
you should’ve known from the start…
I’m so tired i don’t know the rest of it
drink some water and go to bed
text me when you get up
8 years ago
“Lexa hurry up. You will be late for your first day of school. Is that the type of first impression you want to give to you teachers?” Anya yelled.
“In a minute.”
It was Anya’s first day of work and Lexa’s first day of school. They moved to Polis just a week before. Anya had just got her degree and then a job offer across the country. Lexa was against moving, she was reluctant to leave her friends and start over again. It would have been the second time in 4 years but they had no other choice.
“I’m ready.” Lexa jumped in front of Anya.
“Are you planning to impress someone?” Anya scanned her from head to toe. Lexa had on black jeans, red plaid button up and a snapback hanging off of her backpack.
“Always.” Lexa grinned.
“I can’t believe 17 year old high school student is dressed better than I am.”
“I can teach you my ways.”
“Sure you can, hot stuff. Get in the car.”
They always had a strong bond and great relationship. Anya would have done anything for Lexa and Anya was the most important person in Lexa’s life. They were alone for the bigger part of their lives. Their parents died in an accident when Lexa was 7 and they both had to grow up fast. They moved a lot, going from one aunt’s house to the other and the only constant they had was each other.
“You don’t have to pick me up later. I’ll walk back.”
“Are you sure?” Anya glanced at her.
“Yeah, it’s not far.”
“Okay.” Anya stopped the car in front of the school. “Don’t get into too much trouble.”
“I can’t promise much.” Lexa smiled.
“See you tonight.”
“Have fun at work.” Lexa got out of the car and took a deep breath. It was her fourth school in ten years. Last one was the best of three, that’s why she had such a hard time leaving. It wasn’t because of her friends like she told Anya, or because she hated moving like she told everyone else. It was the first time she felt at home since her parents died. It was the closest she got to calling a place a home. And now she had to do it all over again. Anya said it would be a fresh start and last time they had to move. But there was nothing fresh in building your life from scratch.
“Here goes nothing.”
Lexa walked inside and started her search for principal’s office. The halls were full with people and no one seemed to care about her walking among them. No one looked at her or talked to her, or pointed fingers at her. She walked and walked but had trouble finding the offices. The bell rang and the halls started to get empty, students going into classrooms.
“You look lost.” Lexa heard a voice. She turned around and saw a blonde girl standing a couple of feet behind her.
“I can’t find principal's office.”
“Are you in trouble?” girl started to walk towards her.
“No. It’s my first day.
“Oh. You’re new.” the girl smiled.
“My name is Clarke.”
“Lexa.” she shook the girl’s hand.
“Nice to meet you Lexa. Come, I’ll show you where the offices are.”
“Thank you.” Lexa smiled.
“No problem.” They started to walk and soon after Clarke stopped by some door. “Here.” she said.
“Seriously?” Lexa asked. “I walked past these doors like thousand times.”
“Yeah, they forgot to put a tag on it. It’s temporary so I guess they didn’t think about it.”
“Thanks Clarke. You saved my life. I would have wandered around here for God knows how long.”
“My pleasure.” Clarke grinned. “I hope to see you around?”
“I hope so too.”
“Okay. I gotta run now. I’m late for class. Bye Lexa.”
“My head hurts.”
“It’s called hangover.”
“I don’t get those.” Lexa massaged her temples.
“Yeah, you just get a headache after night of drinking, right?”
“Raven tells me she met the love of her life.”
“For at least a couple of days”, Lexa took a sip of her coffee.
“She says that about every girl she meets.”
“This one is really pretty.”
“Wow if she meets your standards then Raven hit a jackpot.”
“Very funny. It’s better to have standards than to like men.”
“I can’t tell you how much joy you being petty over that brings to me.”
“Anything for your happiness.”
“Speaking of my happiness, when is Anya coming back?”
“Why don’t you ask her yourself?”
“Because then I wouldn’t be able to see the look on your face everytime I ask.”
“What is it with your obsession with Anya?”
“She’s a really nice looking woman.”
“Clarke.” Lexa warned.
“I thought we were on the same page about that.” Clarke tried to hide her smile.
“You know you are my favorite Woods sibling. And the best looking one.” Clarke grinned.
“I better be.”
“I am in love.” Raven breathed out as she sat next to Lexa with a cup of coffee in her hand. “I am so in love.”
Clarke laughed. “For how long?”
“Forever.” Raven put the cup on the table and leaned back in the chair. “Lexa you are the best thing to happen to me ever.”
“What did exactly happen last night?” Clarke furrowed her brows.
“Relax blondie.” Raven smirked. “Your platonic girlfriend is still only yours.”
“Raven.” Clarke and Lexa said at the same time.
“So in sync.” Raven grinned. “But not the point. Lexa you are the second best thing to happen to me ever and you made the first best thing happen. She’s amazing. I’m in love.”
“So sex is that good?”
“Beyond good. But that’s also not the point. She’s just amazing.”
“You met her yesterday.” Clarke said.
“So maybe wait a bit before you propose?”
“Life is too short for waiting.” Raven smirked. “Lexa you saw her, she’s amazing right?”
“The only thing I can say is that she’s very pretty.”
“So pretty right?” Raven beamed.
Lexa nodded. “It’s nice to see you this excited about someone. I hope it lasts more than a day.” Clarke poked.
“Griffin you better don’t.”
“I’m kidding. I’m happy you’re happy.”
“Thank you babes.” Raven took a sip of her coffee and then turned to Lexa. “Wait I never asked, what happened between you and that blonde?”
“Oh yeah, I almost forgot. Nothing.” Lexa shrugged. “I wasn’t in the mood so I went back to my place shortly after you left.”
“Lexa Woods said no to sex. What a time to be alive.”
“What’s the name of your new girlfriend?”
“Deflecting. I like this side of you.” Raven winked. “I’m kidding. Her name is Luna and I’m gonna leave you girls now and go meet with her.”
“I’m in love Griffin. In love.” Raven got up. “What are you two gonna do?”
“I don’t know.” Clarke looked at Lexa. “Movie? TV?” the other girl nodded. “Yeah, we are probably gonna watch something.”
“Don’t do anything I would do. I’ll call you tomorrow.” Raven waved to them and left.
“So.” Clarke leaned on her elbows over the table. “One day at a time?”
“Yes please.” Lexa smiled.
8 years ago
“Hey. Lexa, right?” a blonde appeared in front of Lexa and sat across her at lunch.
“That’s me.” the girl smiled. “Can I eat with you? Or are you waiting someone?”
“You’re the only person I know.”
“Good. I mean not good good, because that sucks, but good because… sorry, let’s start again.” Clarke sighed and started to unwrap her sandwich. “Where did you come from?”
There was something about this girl that made Lexa smile every time she opened her mouth.
“Last place I lived was Arcadia. Across the country.”
“I’ve heard of it. My dad’s friend works there. Your family moves a lot?”
“This is my fourth school in 10 years.”
“Are your parents in military? The only people I’ve heard that have to move a lot are those whose parents are in the military.”
“Oh. No. It’s just me and my sister. We moved when she started university and now when she got a job.”
Lexa could see Clarke was curious and wanted to know more about it. She just couldn’t place the curiosity into general interest or prying interest.
“Oh. I see. That must be hard. I mean without parents. I…”
“They died. In a car accident 10 years ago.”
“I’m sorry.” Lexa usually saw pity in other people’s eyes when she told them about her parents. But Clarke’s eyes were soft and full of something else.
“It’s fine. We’ve learned to live with it.” Lexa smiled. “What about you?”
“Me? I’ve been here my whole life. My mum works in the hospital and my dad died a couple of years back.”
“Like you said, I’ve learned to live with it.”
“The worst part is when you can see people starting to treat you differently once they know.”
“I hate it. That’s why I say it right away. To test them.”
“Did I pass?”
“Yes.” Clarke smiled. “What are you doing after school?”
“Umm, nothing. Why?”
“There’s this film festival at the outdoor movie theater next to the river. Me and a couple of my friends are going. Do you wanna come with us?”
“I don’t know. They don’t know me and…”
“Don’t worry about that. If you want, you should come. It will be fun and you’ll meet new people so I won’t be the only person you know.”
“Great. We can meet in front of the school around 7?”
“I’m fine with that.”
“Good. I’ll see you then.” Clarke smiled at her and walked back inside.
Lexa had nothing to lose. Clarke seemed like a nice person, and Lexa could use a friend.
“One more?” Clarke asked as the credits started to roll on the screen.
“I don’t think I’d manage to stay awake.” Lexa yawned. They watched a couple of episodes of their favorite show and then two more movies. It was after midnight and Lexa barely stayed awake for the last 30 minutes of the movie they were watching.
“Okay sleepy head.” Lexa laid her head in Clarke’s lap and closed her eyes. “And you’re staying here. There’s no way I’m letting you go walk around half asleep in the middle of the night.”
“Mmmm.” Clarke gently pulled her fingers through Lexa’s hair. “I love when you do that.” Lexa whispered.
“I know.” she scratched softly behind Lexa’s ear, dragging her fingers up and down her neck. “Let’s go to bed.”
“I’m good here.”
“Bed is better.”
“Here is good.”
After a couple more minutes Clarke somehow got Lexa to go to bed.
“Bed is better.” Lexa said as she lied down.
“I know. Good night Lexa.”
“Night Clarke.” Clarke turned off the lights.
“Clarke?” Lexa whispered.
“Yes?” Clarke turned around on the other side and faced Lexa. She couldn’t see her but she could feel her eyes.
“Cuddles.” Clarke chuckled. She turned around again and pressed her back into Lexa’s front. She took Lexa’s hand and pulled it over her body and below her chin. “Good?” she asked.
“Perfect.” Lexa murmured into the back of her neck.
She kissed the top of Lexa’s hand and fell asleep.