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    Clint Barton has been strung along from abusive relationship to abusive relationship all his life. Not that he would use the word “abusive”. He would argue that, as a sub, he was born to take whatever it is his dom feels like throwing at him.

    But even with that attitude, he’s nervous about his current situation. Trapped in a bureaucratically mandated relationship with not one but two doms is going to be difficult and dangerous. Especially since these two doms are both members of the Avengers themselves.

    He hopes that whenever he disappoints them, they’ll have at least a little pity on him, even though he knows he won’t deserve it.

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  2. 24 Jun 2018

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    “So. How are you feeling?” Bucky asks the question with a suddenly serious inflection, the casual grin gone as quickly as it had come. Clint hates how quickly Bucky flips from one emotion to the other. He’s had doms that were mercurial before, but Bucky is more like several different people all shoved into the same space and rolling the dice to see who’s in primary control at any given moment.

    Steve says, “I want to clarify something. About my being angry. I don’t want you to think that that means I’m not in control. That’s not the kind of angry I am.”
    “I understand,” Clint says, and it’s true.
    “Explain the difference to me,” Steve says.
    “There’s anger that makes the choices for you, and it’s violent and exhausting. Then there’s anger because something is wrong. Or somebody is wrong. Like when you see someone hurting an animal. It’s different. It makes you change things, instead of changing you. It’s not exhausting. It can stay for as long as it’s needed. That kind of anger only hurts the other things. The bad...things.” He stumbles at the end, because he’s a bad thing, and he bows his head lower.

    They start slow. First they decide on a ‘scale of one to ten’ version of a safeword. Then Bucky ties him to the bed, spread eagle, naked, and on his stomach. Bucky smooths his hands up and down Clint’s back for a long time, lulling him with the shushing noise of skin against skin. Clint would have thought he’d be over-eager to get to the main event, but there’s something nice about the gentle silent attention. Like a warm-up stretch, before a particularly imposing work out routine.
    At first, it’s practically painless. Like being flicked unexpectedly. Just a gentle tap of sensation. An attention-getter.
    “Scale of one to ten?” Bucky asks, and Clint answers, “One.”
    The next tap is a little hotter. Or, at least Clint assumes the change in feeling is a change in heat. Knows that Bucky must be bringing the candle lower, to allow less time for the wax to cool in the air. Honestly though, Clint doesn’t think he could identify the sensation as heat. Pain, probably. But he doesn’t think he could be more specific than that.
    “One,” he says again.
    Bucky experiments with height and numbers until he gets a three, and then he stays there. Clint is almost offended, because he can take more than that, for fuck’s sake. They’d agreed on a ten being safe-wording out, so there’s a lot of room to work with there still.
    It only takes a few minutes for him to change his mind. Bucky keeps changing nothing, and he just slowly covers Clint’s back in the tiny pinpricks of pain. Clint can identify the feeling as burns now. And it is so, inexorably, slow. It just keeps going, again, and again, and again, the same way, every time. The new locations blend into a thousand pinpricks and he starts whimpering into the bed at every drop.
    The weirdest part is that the pain itself doesn’t change from a three. Maybe it gets to a four, as his skin burns and sensitizes, but not much more than that. It’s Clint that changes, gasping, from a three to a four to a five.

    Steve clenches his hands into fists to try and stop the trembling. His hands are no longer used to trembling. His grip is no longer used to feeling weak.
    It was certainly strong enough to hold onto that train railing when he should have let go.

    “ ‘Sup?” Clint responds. “What are the chances of negotiating a glass of water?”
    “I don’t think so,” the man responds. “It would rather defeat the purpose of what we’re trying to do here.”
    “Torture, suffering, punishment,” Clint nods sagely, even though his heart is sinking into his stomach. It helps to get captors to do a small task for him, right at the start. Psychologically putting them in the place of his protector, even if it’s for the brief span of a few seconds. Makes it more difficult for them to hurt him, on a subconscious level.

    Natasha is pissy and prickly, but Clint knows it’s because he was in danger, and she’ll get over it once she’s reassured herself he’s safe. Which apparently requires an immense amount of physical contact. She keeps reaching out and touching his arm or his hair, and he catches her staring at his bandaged hand a couple of times, too.

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    This is so beautiful. It's complicated and hard and funny and the growth and development is amazing. It's so satisfying.

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    The one where Clint's initially assigned to Stucky as a mandatory sub that they don't really want, and then gradually makes his way towards becoming an Avenger. Lots of realistic trauma-recovery.

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