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  1. Rec 89

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    He didn’t know what he expected to see when he barged into the room, but Eddie hooked up to a thousand beeping machines and smiling brightly at him wasn’t it. Richie skidded to a stop in the doorway, nearly causing a pile up behind him. His breath caught inside his chest at the sight of Eddie, his hair a riotous mess and his doe eyes wide and glassy. 

    “Hey, guys,” Eddie said when he saw them. There was a nurse tinkering with one of the machines beside him.

    They ignored her and huddled around Eddie’s bed. Richie stood near the back corner and drank in the sight of him. He squeezed his hands together and bit the inside of his cheek to keep himself from crying. Again. Jesus.

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    30 Sep 2022

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    Richie got tall. And broad. He had these wide shoulders and big hands that he’d gesture with emphatically when making some dumb joke about fucking Eddie’s dead mother. At one point, he poured Eddie a finger of Jameson and when Eddie tried to wave it off, Richie took hold of his wrist with one hand and pressed the glass into Eddie’s open palm with the other.

    Eddie took a long sip as he had two equally shocking and mortifying thoughts in quick succession. The first was I want his hand around my dick, followed by holy fuck, I’m in love with this dirty asshole.

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    30 Sep 2022

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    Nearly two months to the day after Richie came out to the world via Vulture article, Eddie Kaspbrak stepped off a plane in central Nebraska.

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    The Losers host a reunion at Ben's Nebraska farm, nineteen months after they left Derry. Eddie tries to figure out how to tell Richie how he feels.

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    23 Jun 2022

  4. Rec 67

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    “You’ve been through a lot,” Mike says quietly, comforting. “You have to give yourself a break. That’s what the doctor said, didn’t she?”

    “Yeah,” Eddie involuntarily agrees. “She also said my life would be irreparably different and that I’d been through a huge fucking trauma.”

    “Don’t think she used—”

    “And what the fuck am I supposed to do, Mike? Go to some shitty support group for divorced men, or disabled men or- or what? Men who’ve been victimized by a weird fucking space clown? Cause I don’t think those exist.”

    “No one is suggesting that, I’m actually suggesting—”

    “I know what you’re suggesting, Mike. And it’s a huge fucking decision.”

    Mike clears his throat. “It is.” He pauses. “And I gotta say, Eddie, I think the fact that you’re fighting me so hard on it is because you think it might be the right one.”

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    Or; Eddie buys a farm, comes out, makes a lot of stupid mistakes, and learns what it's like to finally have a life of his own, but definitely not in that order.

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    22 Jun 2022

  5. Rec 55

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    "He was all too aware of the baggage he carried from his past relationships. David had always been open about his damage to anyone who would listen; why bother hiding it, when the evidence was so damning? He wasn’t blind to the weight that came from the briefest of one-night stands or the boulders attached to his ankles by his break-ups, let alone the all-encompassing anchor that was strapped to him shibari-style by one Sebastien Raine."

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    Five times Patrick made sex okay, and one time David did.

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