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  1. Public Bookmark 30

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    He used to feel a sense of loyalty and obligation towards this vessel, a desire to do better that flared up each time he saw the mirrored reflection of Jimmy Novak’s face. But now, he thinks with a stab of clarity, those feelings are unnecessary. There’s nothing to be loyal to anymore; there’s just him.

    “This is good,” Cas whispers to his hands, testing the words against the cold ache in his chest. “This is good."

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    Cas tries using positive affirmations to trick himself into feeling happy and comfortable as a human. And, well—maybe he throws a little bit of praise Dean’s way, too.

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    20 Oct 2021

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    Dean falls in love on a Thursday.

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    19 Oct 2021

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    Castiel slips from his chair to kneel at Dean’s feet. He takes Dean’s hands in his, and there on the floor holding something with devotion, he understands Communion. He understands Eucharist. He understands believing in someone so deeply that to shelter a piece of them within yourself is an act of untempered faith, love and prayer and deep-wide trust.

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    Cas comes back. Dean can’t stop touching him.

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    18 Oct 2021

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    Castiel doesn’t know how he got from the Empty to the floor of a barn. The last thing he remembers is saying his confession before falling with Dean onto the hay. And Dean has been different since his rescue, has thrown out all boundaries he’d ever said were customary. Humans always manage to surprise Castiel. Dean surprises him most of all.

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    11 Oct 2021

  5. Public Bookmark 33

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    This happiness is so vast he can’t contain it, but it’s also tainted with desperation. Is this what people feel like when angels take ahold of them and turn them into vessels? Small? Filled with light? Filled with fear? 

     

    Cas is back. He’s back. He’s fine. So why can’t Dean calm the fuck down?

     

    a widower arc fix-it fic where Dean gets to cry about losing the love of his life and tell Cas how he fucking feels.

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    10 Oct 2021