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    Dean wants Cas to stay with him. So he gives Cas what he wants. He doesn't stop to think that maybe he wants the same thing.

    Castiel is building a new life with Dean on Earth, and rebuilding Heaven with Jack, Anna, and the other angels. But he keeps being told that he'll have to choose between a love he never thought he could have, and brothers and sisters that are just starting, maybe, to have a chance at being a real family.

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    “Tell me how I can help,” he requests.

    “You can go and work with Sam,” Dean shakes his head. “You can let me wrap this up, man. I’m finished when I’m finished. That’s all there is to it.”

    “I did not ask how I could make you feel better,” Cas settles further into his chair. “What I asked was how I could help you."

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    15 Mar 2022

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    Really interesting. Good dynamic. The one where Dean has michael grace

  2. Public Bookmark 88

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    Dean saw his first real ghost at age seven and a half. There’s an entry in his dad’s journal about it. What John doesn’t know is that Dean’s known about ghosts since he was four. His mother was dead but she was also right there, following him around the house, smiling at him, watching over him. Dean knew if he opened his mouth she would disappear in a cloud of smoke, the shape of which he'd seen curl up and out of the window the night she died. So, for the three weeks and four days that they lived in that house in Lawrence again, he didn’t say a word.
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    Or, Dean tries to move on. Things get worse before they get better.

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    13 Mar 2022

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    Salmondean divorce. good angst.

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    He feels Dean’s eyes on him when he thinks he won’t notice, and Castiel, feeling inexplicably tired, ignores it.

    "There's no safer place for you than here," Dean assures him, as the impala climbs upwards, the road turning narrower and bendier. "It's a hunter's guesthouse, kind of. Really quiet area. No one will ask questions."

    "I see," Castiel says, hands tightly folded in his lap.

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    As Cas is ordered to leave the bunker, he doesn’t end up at the Gas n’ Sip. Instead, he becomes a worker at a hunter’s guesthouse, situated in the middle of nowhere - where time appears to stand still, and he is left with an aching human body, relentless human chores, and recurring nightmares that feel distinctly like memories. So, he copes with his new form of existence the obvious way: by learning to shoot guns, ride a motorcycle, and by entertaining the flirtations from the other resident James - and inadvertently driving Dean crazy, as a result.

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    18 Feb 2022

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    Excellent Cas POV

  4. Public Bookmark 33

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    In a moment of danger in Apocalypse World, Dean lets Castiel possess him. When they get home, they don't expect anything to be different.

    Or: How to break the bonds of your narrative by stepping out of the frame. Season 13 rewrite featuring Divorce Arc 2.0, Widower Arc fallout, Cas and Jack father-son time, Mary and Dean mother-daughter time, man vs narrative minus Chuck plus Billie, and lots of casefic.

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    09 Feb 2022

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    VERY cool.

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    What good is a soldier without a war to fight?

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    Dean, adrift without Cas in a world that doesn't remember ending and desperately refusing to believe in the hope Jack offers, stumbles out of hunting and into a life he's absolutely not equipped for -- except for how it might just be the one thing that can keep him together.

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    02 Feb 2022

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ch 5 and 6 especially

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