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    Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.

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    "You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"

    Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.

    Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.

    "What?" Dean grits out.

    "I love you, too."

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    Cas comes back. It's not exactly the reunion that Dean is expecting.

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    Dean stares at him, flummoxed. Cas quite literally poured his heart out to Dean, gave a truly sappy and distressingly romantic speech and everything, then proceeded to give his life so that Dean could live his. And he wants to act like he doesn't want to see Dean, be around him, touch him?

    Actually, Dean's ninety-nine percent sure that Cas probably wants to fuck him, and while he has no clue how he feels about that, he's pretty goddamn sure that means Cas doesn't get to act like this and make it authentic.

    It feels strangely real, though, as if Cas wants nothing more than to get as far away from him as possible. This is a blatant contradiction. Even someone as weird as Cas doesn't want to get away from the person they have the desire to fuck five ways to Sunday, that they're in love with. That's not how these things work, so Dean isn't buying it.

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    “Are you asking to motorboat me?” Amy says without thinking. Thankfully, Jonah laughs.

    “No. Well, I mean...” He trails off, then lets a hand drift down, plucking at one of her belt loops. “That's not what I would call it,” he says almost shyly, and Amy's whole body ignites with understanding.

    In which Jonah owes Amy one. Set immediately post-"Town Hall".

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    31 Mar 2021

  4. Public Bookmark 53

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    "Something had had to give between them-- and so he did. He gave. For her.

    It was an unrivaled moment of beauty.

    And now it was her turn."

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    The tornado does change everything, but in truth, neither Amy nor Jonah has been the same since he wandered into her life two years ago. In the wake of her divorce, she keeps him at a distance; he learns how to stay. It takes awhile, but they figure it out.

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    30 Mar 2021

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    Amy is stuck in her own version of Groundhog Day. Luckily Jonah owns it on DVD.

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