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  1. Rec 49

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    They were just friends, nothing more. It wouldn’t work if they were anything more. So she kept him always at arms length. She stood beside him as he said ‘I do’ to a woman that wasn’t her.

    Rey told herself it was better this way. The longer she was around Ben, eventually she would hurt him. So, it was better to take herself out of the equation, even if the universe had other plans.

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    03 Jan 2022

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    When Lightning Strikes Thrice
    anopendoor

     

    Haunting, heartbreaking, so much pining

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    The first time Rey meets Ben, they're complete strangers at a fair who get high together and fall in love for a night.

    The second time is two days later, in her new therapy group— where the asshole pretends not to fucking know her.

     

    Modern AU / High school / Group therapy / Teen angst

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    21 Dec 2021

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    only child of the universe
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    Chapter 7 is nail-bitingly good.

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    This is the first of a series of essays I wish to write on the Gender Politics of Sherlock fandom. There are many things I wanted to say at the official panel but was unable to, since it was derailed by a group of individuals who showed up with the intention of intimidating and harassing the panel moderator. In future essays, I’d like to share my thoughts on femslash, Mary Sues and the fridging of female characters, on heteronormativity in slash, and on queer representation beyond slash (bisexual, pansexual, asexual and trans people in fanworks and fan spaces). I’d like to touch on race and being a queer Woman of Color in a fandom mostly interested in White male characters.

    Before I get to those subjects, however, I feel a need to return to the original intended topic: the essay I began writing on my phone on the plane.

    And that essay is on the subject of noncon fanworks.

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    17 Nov 2021

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    The consent that distinguishes it from real-world violation isn’t between the characters in the fantasy; it’s between author and reader. The back button is the safeword.

    When I use the word “kink,” I mean “non-conventional sexual practice,” like BDSM or other fetishes. But in fandom, I sometimes see the word “kink” being used to mean “something that turns me on.” People using different definitions of the word “kink” is, I believe, part of why one attendee at the panel dismissed rape fantasies as “thinking rape is sexy.”

  4. Rec 89

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    He used to pay with his credit card. But cash means change. Change means opening her wallet. Opening her wallet means a split-second glance at her cards, at her pictures.
    Another minute of her standing at his front door, the motorcycle between her legs, ready to leave but unable to as she fumbles for coins in her wallet.
    He never has the exact amount to pay. Never mind that he has a jar full of coins just sitting in the foyer behind him.

    In which cram school tutor!Rey hustles as a personal grocery shopper and architect!Ben is her regular customer.

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    02 Nov 2021

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    She weeps in the shower on nights when the illusion breaks.

    She doesn't delete a single message and lets all the "Make that 1kg"'s and "The other brand's fine"'s and "Okay"'s and "See you"'s pile up. A backlog of the cracks he's picking at around the stone organ nestled in her chest.

    He sees how she wants him. And how much. It emanates from her skin, even from under the jacket, even from under the helmet. Not just steam coming out of the ground, but a coal-seam fire raging underneath. It threatens to crack through the asphalt.

  5. Rec 98

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    Rey doesn't want to to go back to her home country. She comes up with a scheme to find someone in Paterson who can marry her and be okay with never having sex.

    That could work, right?

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    31 Oct 2021

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    Fatal Truth

    I want to learn your secrets
    Not to be intrusive.
    I want to know you.
    Be part of you.
    Share myself with you.
    Rip my chest open wide
    If it would help.
    So you could see inside
    And know the fatal truth.