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  1. Public Bookmark 20

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    The pain doesn’t start until they’re inland.

    Dean ignores it as much as he can, even as the ache spreads its tendrils up his lower back and into his spine. The leather seats of the Impala offer little help, and nor does the pleading look Castiel gives him every few miles, like he wishes he could do something, anything to bridge the gap between them. A gap of Dean’s own creation—because if he lets Castiel any closer, then Castiel will want to talk, and the last thing Dean wants is to open his mouth and let the truth fall out.

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    08 Nov 2021

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    This thing has just heartbreak--heart-rending lines. The saddest Cas Dean feels imaginable but also just earth-shaking power and beauty. Very short--read it when you need to cry.

    A Dean confession to a sleeping Cas that is a brilliant as anything that aired and twice as sad:
    “But I just… I can’t.” Dean pinches his eyes closed. “And that’s what pisses me off, is that I trust you, and I… I care about you, and shit like this keeps happening. And Chuck’s been pulling the strings for so long that I… I don’t know if it’s real. If whatever we have, if it’s him or us.” He lets out a sigh, exhaling until his chest aches. “You gotta talk to me, man. About whatever’s going on in your head, ‘cause I… You gotta stay, man. Last thing I want is you gone.”

     

    Cas wants to be buried in RENO! ............................Boooooohooooooooo.

  2. Public Bookmark 72

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    “Thought it was me at first,” Dean said. “Just not in my nature to settle. But then I thought: there’s not supposed to be suffering here. So what’s with the heartache?” He sighed. “I know I can’t make Cas show up if he doesn’t want to. Maybe he doesn’t want to take a chance on me. Maybe he’s moved on. But then I gotta feel lonesome for eternity and call it Paradise?”

    “Dean,” said Mary. “Are you going on a hunt in Heaven?”

    “Yeah,” said Dean. “I reckon I am.”

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    23 Sep 2021

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    This is a perfect clever brilliant take on the "Chuck won" side....flat-out great writing (subtle, calm, settled) and the best fake heaven fix-it I have read.

    After Dean figures it out and summons Amara--they have a chat about learning to want things (and SAY what you want) that just lays me low every time I read it:

    “You’ve heard that before, from something that looked like me.” It was unholy, all she knew, but then omniscience likely ran in the family. “Here’s another one you might recollect,” she said. “That's one deep, dark nothing you got there, Dean.”

    Dean lifted his chin, still keeping his eyes away from her penetrating stare. “Awesome,” he said. “All the greatest hits. You know, I brought you here to help.”

    “Oh, I want to help,” said Amara. “But you’ve got to meet me halfway. You’re a man who’s not used to wanting anything. You’ve taught yourself not to. Even in this place where so many human wishes can be granted. Do you know why you figured it out so quickly? Because you didn’t want enough. A pair of cowboy boots, a horse to ride, some crumpled old bandanas. You wouldn’t ask for more than that.”

    “There was one thing,” Dean said. “One thing I was asking for.”

    “So let me try again,” said Amara. “Is there something you want, Dean?”

    He bowed his head, the brim of his cowboy hat briefly covering his face. He lifted his chin a shade to say, “I want Cas out of the Empty.”

    “Good,” said Amara.....

    He straightened his shoulders further. “I want to go back to Earth. I want to live again. I want that lifetime to be my last. No more of this.”

    “And?” said Amara.

    “I want Jack back there, too. If he’d like. And my Mom. You did it before.”

    “You’re getting the hang of this,” she said.

    “I want a ranch in Colorado, up in the mountains,” said Dean. “I want seven horses.”

    “Seven. Okay.”

    “I want Cas to know I’ll love him for the rest of my days.”

    “That one’s up to you,” said Amara. ............................................PERFECTION. Tragically the author has written only a few SPN stories, but the talent is staggering.

  3. Public Bookmark 12

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    I organized everything I wrote for season 12 by episode chronology. there's no established continuity between these works, they're all stand-alone.

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    30 Aug 2021

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    to read: sounds terrific

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    “Shut up and listen,” Bobby says. “I ain’t calling about some monster, I’m calling about Castiel.”

    Dean freezes in place. “He’s alive?”

    “More’n that, Dean. He’s human.”

    On instinct, every atom in Dean’s body is on high alert. He starts moving, fingers already reaching for the keys he hangs up on a loose nail next to the door. “Where is he?”

     

    or, in which after lucifer hitches a ride to hell on sam's back, dean makes good on his promise to settle down. so what if it's with cas instead of lisa?

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    16 Aug 2021

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    This is super fantastic! I came across and was like ...no this isn't for me because it starts way back like post-season 5 with Dean shattered at Lisa's. But it is a fantastic, original work and gets the earned peace retirement feels right, as Dean doesn't stay and packs himself to Bennett Colorado (a town practically a character by the end) and gets a job and buys a ugly falling-down house....and tries to live. The living doesn't really start until Dean finds out Cas survived, is human and is taking care of Claire--he brings them home. Just as the house progresses through careful renovations, all these broken people find their footing together. Sniff. Claire is also very fully formed teen and allowed to have a bit of her own grief.

    Wonderful character voices, lovely and sweet AND SLOW developing relationship between Dean and Cas, and a tone of peace and healing without glossing over grief and loss. Plus brilliantly fits in later series events (with a twist OFC) and characters like Kevin and Jack and of course, Sam too.

    The writing is smooth and pro-level. A clever and beautiful universe with part 4 still in progress.

  5. Public Bookmark 35

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    The dark forest edge blinks back at him and he knows it's not the eyes of monsters, but rather the twinkling of lightning bugs.

    It had been hard moving out here at first; God abandoned, Castiel with grace he no longer wanted, Jack free of his responsibilities and wriggling in a soft swaddle of blankets in Sam’s arms. Cas didn’t need to think of that now, he was just glad for the towering Black Walnut tree, glad that it might finally bear fruit this year and that they might roast them in the fire pit out back.

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    13 Jul 2021

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    Retired to the mountains with baby Jack 5 who talks to cows and learns about compost. Almost nothing happens but the liveliness and loveliness of the writing is making me weep and weep. Just outstanding writing quality. Spot-on character voices and tone of peace and …settled-ness. The fire fly chasing…and the dad-ness of Dean and Cas is beautiful. Check author for other works.

    Tragically as of yet, the author has only written 2 SPN stories. But man, sure does know the characters.