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    To heal is to touch with love that which was previously touched by fear.
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    Outtakes from the main body of the Bound to You series which can be found here

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    [This fic takes place after Leviathan!Cas when tensions are high and Cas's guilt is thick. Cas appears in Dean's motel room, injured after an altercation with the angels. Dean plays nursemaid.]

    “Uh, Cas,” Dean cleared his throat. "How come I can still see your wings? I usually never see them for more than a couple’a seconds at a time.” Dean peered over Cas’s shoulder, letting the washcloth lag over his collarbone as curiosity got the better of him.

    Cas took in a sharp breath and retreated just slightly from Dean’s proximity. “I seem to be having trouble stowing them away entirely. My apologies, they became slightly damaged in the altercation.”

    Dean furrowed his brow. “What do you mean, ‘entirely?’

    “What you see is only their shadow; not their physical form. I keep them in a different plane of existence, but when they need tending to it becomes… more difficult to keep them hidden.” Cas’s body language was steely, as usual, and hard to read.

    “You mean what I’ve been seeing is just some heavenly jacked-up angel-juice projection? You have actual, physical wings, like with feathers and crap?” Dean raised his eyebrows in amazement, but Cas seemed tense.

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    26 Sep 2022

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    Dean did a lot of thinking about when and how he would get Cas back. Months of it, actually, stretching into a year, because while Sam and Eileen were settling into their new lives, Dean was stuck. He was stuck in a faraway corner of the bunker, dark and empty and hollow, ringing with the sound of a vibrating phone.

    So when he falls to his knees in that same room, exhausted, hurting, breathless, and he feels a hand on his shoulder and looks up to see Cas, he realizes that he doesn't have a single clue about what to do now. Getting Cas out had been easy--actually, it'd been the opposite of that--but the planning of it, the methodical desperation of one attempt after the other had been a familiar rhythm. It'd been soothing almost, solid, something to focus on that wasn't Cas's eyes, watery and jubilant in a way Dean hadn't ever seen that up close on anyone, let alone Cas.

    And now Cas is pulling him to his feet, and Dean's stumbling, and he instinctually grabs Cas's arm, and his hand lights up with a fire that he isn't prepared for.

    "Hello, Dean."

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    26 Sep 2022

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    Admitting it won’t make Dean any more inconsolable than he already is, and he’ll never feel Cas’ absence any more or any less acutely than he does in this exact moment. “He’s gone,” Dean finally admits, because it seems like the only thing left to say.

    When the terrible, swollen vacancy of the room offers no recourse, Sam says, “I know.”

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    After Metatron steals Castiel's grace, and Cas comes to live in the bunker, Dean spends a lot of time with him, sharing all of his favourite things. Dean can't help it if sharing things with Cas just makes everything better. Besides, it's Dean's job as Cas' friend to introduce him to the joys of human life. To teach him how to be human.

    And if one of the experiences they end up sharing is sex with women, well... that's just part of Dean's job as Cas' friend too, right?

    The desire is triangulated, the rituals are intricate.
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    “You know you can’t turn Cas into a mini-Dean,” Sam said

    “First, if I did, Cas'd be all set, 'cause I'm awesome,” Dean said. “Second, that’s not what this is about. Cas needs to know how to get by in the world. He needs someone to teach him how to just be a guy.”

    Sam’s face scrunched up. “He already is just a guy.”

    “But he doesn’t know how to be one,” Dean insisted, like it was an obvious fact, and Sam was a little dim for not getting it.

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    Dean wakes up the morning of his 26th birthday in an abandoned warehouse with no idea how he got there- or why it is that his estranged brother is there with him, and telling him that it’s the year 2015, not 2005.

    It’s not hard to figure out that the de-aging spell that hit Dean affected his memory as well. But things get a little more complicated when he finds that Sam is hiding things from him, like what exactly has happened in the years since Dean was 26, or who the man is who calls himself Dean’s best friend. Maybe it would all be easier to deal with if someone wasn’t still waiting to finish the job they started when they cursed him. And maybe it would be easier if this damn buzzing under his skin- and the nightmares of blood and fire- would just leave him alone long enough to let him think…

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