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  1. Public Bookmark 52

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    James hardly knows Steve, but the man he used to be adored him with single-minded ferocity. Worshiped him with the purity of purpose that zealots reserve for their gods. It isn’t really surprising that devotion like this could persevere, adapting through death and rebirth.

    Maybe this is what fools experience when they claim love at first sight. A passion too profound to ignore, despite the fact that it’s groundless. Loyalty, fondness, and intimacy that spring into being without reason. Love built on quicksand.

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    21 Apr 2018

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    Ive readghis but its not bookmarked o.o
    Post ws
    Steve sees Bucky eating ice cream and his first thought is that bucky hates strawberry icecream lol
    Steve follows bucky to the apt where he's squatting at
    Bucky doesn't want to be called bucky
    He prefers James
    Bucky wants steve to stop staring :(
    Steve just misses bucky :(((((
    Bucky feels like he doesn't deserve Steve's love
    Steve stays with bucky
    He tells bucky abt how they met
    Bucky wants to touch steve but he does t
    He reads while steve dozes off
    Bucky confronts steve
    He knows he and steve were intimate before
    Bucky tests steve
    Steve wants bucky to stop
    They lie on the floor and talk about the 40s
    Bucky feels like he's wearing someone else's skin
    Steve asks if hell leave when steve sleeps
    Bucky lies and says no
    Bucky gets up to sleep but steve stops him
    Bucky agrees to go back to Steve's apt
    He strips in front of steve lrob because hydra took his sense of privacy
    Steve orders pizza
    After they lie on Steve's bed
    Steve holds Bucky's hand :)
    They talk about getting drunk and bucky getting better
    Bucky doesn't believe hell get better
    Bucky wakes up in the middle of the night
    He wants steve to touch him
    Steve goes down on bucky then he touches bucky all over
    Steve doesn't want bucky to reciprocate
    Bucky gets food in morning
    Steve thinks he left lol
    They talk abt Peggy
    Nat calls
    Steves gonna go on the run with bucky

  2. Public Bookmark 28

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    Someone knocks on New Year’s Eve, and when Steve opens the door the sight of Bucky nearly takes his breath away. He’s dressed in a blue shirt and trousers with suspenders, clean-shaven and short-haired, with his left hand tucked in his pocket, the image of his old self.

    He says, “Hey, punk,” voice shaking just a little.

    Steve pulls Bucky into a hug that’s maybe too hard, too needy, but Bucky only throws his arms around his back and buries his face in his shoulder.

    “You jerk,” he says. “Welcome home.”

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    21 Apr 2018

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    Continuation fic
    1
    Bucky asks if he loved steve
    LE GASP
    Steve lies and says that bucky did
    2
    Post cw
    Bucky gets frozen
    Steve buys a house in the country
    A dog adopts him lol
    Steve grows his hair out
    Steve draws bucky
    Bucky shows up on new years eve
    3
    They reminisce together
    They're taking the relationship slow
    Steve wakes up from a nightmare
    He feels guilty about lying to Bucky that bucky loved him
    Bucky tells steve about wakanda
    It didn't work but bucky knows steve can help him
    Steve wants to the bucky the lie but he cant
    The dog likes bucky
    Bucky wakes up regretting going to steve
    Bucky thinks he's still Hydra's
    Steve assures him he's not
    They're snowed in
    4
    Bycky writes again
    5
    They try to have sex but Steve's too much in his own head
    6
    Bucky's journal
    He remembers that he doesn't love steve like steve loves him
    7
    Bucky still stays even though he knows steve lied
    He loves steve regardles
    bottom steve
    8
    Journal
    Steve is sorry for lying
    Bucky has good days now

  3. Public Bookmark 43

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    Steve looks like a stranger these days, but at least the way he smiles at Bucky is the same: soft, fond, and a little bit smitten. It used to bother him, that the friend he considered a brother didn’t see him the same way. He’s never thought any less of Steve for it, but he also wasn’t quite comfortable with being the object of his affection. Now Bucky couldn’t care less how Steve loves him, as long as it means that Steve loves him most.

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    21 Apr 2018

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    Super short chapters
    1
    Coulson, fury, nat
    Post ws
    Nat gives steve a letter that bucky wrote in 7th grade
    2
    Buckys thoughts at stark expo
    3
    Post azanno
    Peggy at the bar
    Peggy talks to bucky abt him going home
    Bucky doesn't want to go home
    Bucky sneaks into Steve's tent
    Steve still insecure abt his body
    The angst
    Bucky feels guilty for wanting steve
    He knows how steve feels about him
    Bucky feels the formula in him. Hes always hungry, never misses
    4
    The Howlies rescue prisoners
    They sing and celebrate
    Bucky asks Steve if he's still a virgin lol
    Byckys kinda selfish in this fic
    Steve yes bucky abt the girl in atlanta (picture girl from tfa)
    Steve doesn't like it when Bucky makes him fell small
    Implied that they had sex after hearing any Pearl harbor?
    Byckys at the bar and sees Natalie dormer s character
    She's only interested in steve
    Bucky goes to steves tent
    Oohhh Bucky
    Bottom Steeb
    Spit as lube >:(
    Steve tells bucky he loves him
    After, bucky tells steve he's not the same anymore
    5
    Bucky thinks about his dad's PTSD
    Steve and bucky find moments to themselves
    They switch
    Its quick and quiet
    Hnnggg the angst
    They're in a barn
    Bottom bucky
    Bucky hates the love in Steve's eyes
    He feels guilty bc he and steve have been friends forever
    Bucky hates the silence that follows but he doesn't leave because steve asks him not to
    The Howlies interrogate a nazi
    Bucky does the interrogating
    Steve pulls bucky aside because Bucky's being too rough
    He asks steve if Zola cared if he was too rough
    Bucky hates Steve's pity
    They stop sneaking off together
    Bucky gets shot and keeps the bullet for good lucm
    He tells steve that maybe the next bullet will hit where its supposed to
    6
    Pre war
    Bucky thinks of how two guys living together looks to others
    Bucky always says to others that they're like brothers
    He can see it hurts steve
    Bucky sees steve drawing him being intimate with a girl
    Bucky realizes steve loves him
    One night, a girl uses bucky then leaves
    Bucky hears steve in the next room
    He ..... Copies steve lol
    The next morning, byckys sick at himself
    He tells steve he doesn't love him like that
    Bucmy moves out
    Pearl harbor happens
    7
    Paris
    Bucky's gunshot wound is nearly healed
    Steve goes to kiss bucky but bucky tells him not to
    Steeb looks lime he's been waiting g for Bucky to wake up
    Paris celebrates its freedom
    Bucky wants be alone with steve
    They find a bombed out building
    Bottom bucky
    Steve goes as close to he can kissing but not kissing bucky lol
    Bucky's too loud so steve puts his hand over his mouth
    It triggers bucky
    Bucky kisses steve
    They free more people
    Bucky starts writing in a journal
    A film team for war bonds comes
    Tws museum footgge :)
    Zola's gonna be in the alps
    Bucky writes letters to steve and his loved ones
    They talk after sex abt what they're gonna do when they get home
    Bucky knows he's gonna die but answers steve anyways
    Steve asks if their relationship will change once they get home
    Bucky doesn't answer
    FUCK
    My heeaarrtty
    Bucky realizes he doesn't want to dir as he tries to reach for Steve's hand
    8
    Buckys journal.entries
    Buckys remembering

    Continuation fic

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    The Army owed him leave and 5 million dollars, so Steve Rogers takes the time to get therapy for PTSD and study law at Georgetown University. When a Supreme Court Justice is assassinated on the street in late January of 2014, Steve follows a hunch that the Justice was killed not for the sake of politics but for greed. Following a a trail of near-extinct butterflies and corrupt real-estate developers, Steve arrives at the Justice’s holiday cabin in Lake Tahoe, Nevada.

    While he’s searching the Justice’s papers, his best friend Bucky Barnes breaks into his kitchen, still alive and on the run from his handlers. His memories are dim, but he never forgot Steve…and when he was ordered to quietly snuff his friend’s life, he broke away, ready to come in from the cold.

    But Bucky comes back into Steve’s life with HYDRA on his his heels. They want their asset back, and Steve’s not going to give him up without a fight…

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    19 Apr 2018

    Bookmarker's Notes

    1
    TWS museum scene but Sam's there
    (No bridge fight)
    Steeb feels someone watching him
    Its bucky
    Steeb panics and runs out
    There's a shooting
    A justice has been assassinated (prob by Bucky
    Steve's investigating
    He needs to go to lake Tahoe
    Its a nice cabin
    Bycmys there in the night
    He surrenders to steve
    2
    Bucky doesn't remember steve
    Steve tried to get Bucky to stay
    Bucky does bc he's hungry
    Steve doesn't know about hydra
    Bucky slowly remembers steve. Steves his mission
    Byckys gotta go
    3
    Bucky's back
    He surprises steve in his living room
    Bucky tells steve about hydra
    Steve let's bucky shower
    Bucky asks how Steve's here in the future too
    Bycky asks if steve was brainwashed too
    They hold each other
    Bucky remembers that they were last lovers
    They kiss
    :)

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    The day he goes under is the kind of day that reminds him of the lip of a breaking wave.

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    17 Apr 2018

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    This author owns my ass
    God the angst