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    20 Feb 2022

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    “On a scale of one to America, how free are you tonight?”

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    Or, Eddie blushes when Buck flirts with him. Buck's noticed.

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    11 Feb 2022

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    He just looks so delicate, is the thing.

    Joe doesn’t wear this look very often; Nicky loves and aches and desires for him in all forms, in all ways, but he would be lying if he said he doesn’t have a soft spot for the way Joe’s hair curls at his ears, and the feel of his beard under Nicky’s hands or between his thighs.

    Still, sometimes it’s different. Usually longer, or beard more closely trimmed – but occasionally, rarely, Joe does this.

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    25 Jan 2022

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    Buck probably thinks Eddie’s freezing up because he’s remembering the time before Buck, except he isn’t, because he can’t. Buck came along and redefined what it means to touch, to be touched.

    And Eddie doesn’t know to explain that. He doesn’t know how to split the whole thing into parts.

    How to say: I want you more than I have ever wanted anything. I want you close, and here, and always.

    I don’t know how to let you take what I want you to have.

    in which eddie can almost, almost let himself have everything with buck. it takes one google invite, one therapist, and a never-ending series of stops and starts to figure out why the almosts keep happening.

    (a coda to tell me about despair.)

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    19 Jan 2022

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    “Why?” Buck somehow chokes out. There are concrete blocks on his chest. They’re crushing him. They’ve been crushing him. But this one might actually break him.

    Eddie looks at him. Finally more than a stolen glance or a brief check. “Because. Christopher. He needs me. I can’t—”

    “You don’t have to leave. You don’t have to quit. Just. Just take a break. Take some time. Then. Then come back. Take as much as you need. As he needs. Take care of him. And you. Just. Don’t… You don’t have to leave.” Please. Please don’t leave. Please don’t leave me. Please.

    Eddie opens his mouth, but nothing comes out, and then he says in that soft, too soft, pleading tone that stacks more concrete on the pile, “Buck.”

    Buck turns and storms off. Before everything breaks apart and there are pieces of him scattered all over everyone’s Christmas.

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    Eddie is leaving the 118, and Buck is devastated. Since they’re no longer work partners, they have to figure out new ways to hold onto each other and heal from their shared trauma.

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    18 Jan 2022