Shane is unsure if he can continue blaming grief at this point. Sure grief can make you do crazy things. Quit your job, cut your hair, get a tattoo impulsively, pay too much money for mediums to pretend to tell you what your lost one has to say to you.
It didn't usually entail the use of a "magic book" in the hopes of seeing the dearly departed one more time.
You love his ducks.
((A drabble on Voidfish & Magnus feelings))