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    "Why do I want to die so much when nothing gives me the right to be anything but happy and content?"

    Todoroki is unable to tell truth from lie as he enters a state of depression, soon going mute after the death of his wife Momo. During this time, he meets Bakugou at a bar, leading to a friendship that grows into a mutual romantic interest between the two.

    But when Todoroki convinces himself that his wife is still alive, can Bakugou pull Todoroki free from his sea of lies, or will Bakugou's aid not be enough to save Todoroki?

     

    Disclaimer:
    - I do not own BNHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.

    Note:
    - No Quirks AU.

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    One mistake is all it takes for it all to come crashing down. Aizawa experiences this first-hand when he attempts to have Todoroki and Bakugou work on their mental health issues together after noticing the glaring break in their relationship. Will Todoroki and Bakugou save each other and rebuild their friendship, or will they break each other and fall apart?

     

    Disclaimer:
    - I do not own BNHA/MHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.

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    His birth caused the destruction of his family. Or if he could even call it that. It was him. He destroyed his mom and his siblings. He destroyed their peace and their lives. It was all his fault.
    And suddenly, the most obvious solution seemed so perfect again.
    If it was his birth that caused all this mess, then maybe his death would fix it.

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    Todoroki Shouto died.

    Rumors float around the school about how he died and how he lived, some defamatory. The Todoroki family, the good and bad members, mourn the loss, some for different reasons than others. Class 1-A feels empty with the loss of a member of their previously big, happy family.

    Bakugou Katsuki is grieving hard, grappling with the loss of his friend and the trauma that comes with watching the life drain from his eyes. What he could have done, could have said, should have done- those memories haunt him, sending him into a spiral and deep depression. If only he said something sooner. If only he had done something sooner. Maybe Todoroki Shouto would still be alive.

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    "I don't see a point in living. Living like this is just too tiresome... When will the shadow of yesterday disappear?"

    "Oi, I know it's beyond just draining to keep living, but there will never be a point to life until you find that point. Do you wanna die before you find it?"

    "I...don't know. Is it worth it to keep fighting through life just to find a reason to live?"

     

    Disclaimer:
    - I do not own BNHA/MHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.

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    Why? Why? Why? -- Todoroki thought... I should give up...I will never be fixed...This pain will last forever...I just want to be happy...Why did I have to be born? ...My family won't notice if I'm gone... No one will...

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    "𝘐'𝘮 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘐𝘻𝘶...𝘐'𝘮 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦"

    For as long as he can remember, Shōto has never known happiness and love.
    An abusive father, a mother gone insane and a missing brother were the things that left the boy physically and emotionally scarred to the point of being unable to have any feeling if not rage and hatred.
    Hiding his insecurity under make up and a stoic expression he walks the hallways of UA alone, with an empty heart till Izuku tries to make his way into his wrecked heart.

    𝘿𝙄𝙎𝘾𝙇𝘼𝙄𝙈𝙀𝙍:
    The story will stretch through the 3 years of UA.
    I left some things as they're in the anime/manga (the events from the sport festival to the provisional hero license will take place but won't be narrated) but I changed few others for the sake of the plot.
    Shōto was homeschooled before UA.
    He doesn't visit his mother right after the sport festival, but later on. He covers his scar until the second half of 1st year. He doesn't get the provisional hero license at all.
    Katsuki and Izuku are actually good friends.

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    Shoto Todoroki had reached his limit. He had penned a letter announcing his departure. He knew that his father would send a team of heroes to find him.

    However, that was not what he truly desired. To his surprise, it was the Villains who showed up instead. Despite the danger they posed, Shoto felt a sense of relief wash over him.

     

    Or. I stumbled upon a fascinating fanfiction about Izuku being saved from gangs and thought of recreating it with Shoto Todoroki. Unfortunately, I cannot recall the author's name, but I will give them proper credit if I come across their work again.

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    After a brutal suicide attempt, Shoto is at death's door, and Aizawa is out of options. He enlists Eri's help to rewind his condition by a few hours, but high emotions lead her to rewind him all the way back to five years old. Because of the recovery time that Eri needs before she can reverse her rewind, Shoto has to spend the foreseeable future as his five-year-old self, with no memory of the bizarre, clingy people that call themselves his classmates.

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    Izuku was normal.

    Finally, after months of sitting around and watching the verbal and physical abuse of a classmate for his own self esteem, it finally clicked to him. Izuku was normal, and Shoto was not. But if he’d already realized this, why did he run away? The guilt he felt over the years never faded, even though he tried so hard to forget.

    So after running into the person he thought was dead for months, his first reaction was avoidance. After everything he’s done, he deserved to be hated. But how can you avoid someone who doesn’t get the hint? Izuku never gave up on being Shoto’s friend, and Shoto didn’t get why.

    Or was Izuku not everything Shoto put him out to be? Izuku had secrets, just like everyone else, but how deadly were those secrets, exactly?

    Without others knowing, how harmful could they prove to be? For his health?

    For his life?

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    When they kidnapped the teen. They expected fire to be coursing through his left side. What they didn't expect was a tired teen with crushing expectations luming over his shoulder. And what they certainly didn't expect was for this boy to fit into the League Of Villain's family dynamic perfectly

    Or. Tea in a bar by Ayita_blackcharm but different and Shoto Todoroki.

    Or or. We casually throw canon Dabi out of the window.

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    Shoto Todoroki had always thought he was prepared for anything. After all, he had been through so much already: the abuse at the hands of his father, the rigorous training, the battles against powerful villains. But nothing could have prepared him for the quirk that hit him during his latest battle. It was a strange, insidious thing that seemed to burrow into his mind and dredge up memories he had long tried to forget. Memories of his mother's screams, of his father's icy glare, of his own weakness and fear.

    Now Shoto was a mess. He couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't focus on anything but the memories that haunted him day and night. His classmates were worried, but they didn't know what to do. They had never seen Todoroki like this before, and they were afraid he might never recover. But they refused to give up on him. They were determined to find a way to help him, no matter what it took.

    But were his classmates too late? Or were their efforts not enough to help Shoto in the end?

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    A small red label on his file
    Quirkless
    Pretty much a death sentence for a life of mediocrity.

    Midoriya Izuku had always wanted to be a hero, but everything seemed to be working against him. Born Quirkless, his mom killed by a hero, his former best friend betraying him, even his idol had left him to rot.

    "Midoryia" was no longer his true surname- just one he kept in memory and for appearances.
    He was a Shigiraki.
    About time he started acting like one.
    If the world was truly as broken as it seemed, the only thing that could truly fix it was to break it.

    Maybe in a different universe he was a hero- but the hands wiped away his tears were made of mist, and he wouldn't have it any other way.
    He was the co leader of the LOV alongside his brother- and together they would change the world, for better or worse could only be determined with time.

    One thing was for sure.
    He would be anything but "Mediocre"

    (Check author notes for bonus- Series now on Stain Arc- happy end, take inspo from comments, enjoy :3)
    Part 1- New beginnings and The Sports Festival.

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    Shouto Todoroki's life revolves around one little thing, the only thing that keeps him from seeing those horrible memories and images, keeping him from staying up all night with panic attacks and nightmares and haunted by those images that flash through his mind, controlling his life- a little white pill.

    Shouto Todoroki is addicted to drugs, much to his dismissal. He is addicted to that buzz he gets, that constant gratification that keeps him from feeling those horrible things and feeling anything at all. Slowly, he declined without realizing it, and the only people who did were his friends and coworkers.

    After an altercation at a bar, Bakugou picks him up and manages to get the truth out of him- Shouto is an addict, and he needs help.

    Expansion of Chapter 22 of Whumptober

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    Midoriya Izuku has had a hard life. The world seems against him at every turn, but he always picks himself up and keeps going.

    Because he is GOING to be a hero.

    Until he can't seem to pick himself up again.

    But when he hits the bottom, someone is there to throw down a rope and help him up. The only question is if he'll accept that help.

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    It was all for his pleasure. She knew it.

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    (Contains spoilers for recent manga chapters ‼️)

    Shoto Todoroki has thoughts.. about life or something along those lines, but it all is just so hard for him to comprehend, after all he never really understood anything, in fact, he doesn't even know how he has made it this far. Everything was always his fault, he never really understood that until now. He realized how much of a failure he was, he's no perfect masterpiece, Touya always was. So does he actually have a purpose? I mean, everything would be just fine without him, no abuse, no family issues, just a normal, happy family, right?

    Also this contains Todobaku, romantic or platonic, it's not a big plot point in the story anyway.

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    Suicide is the reason why Todoroki is gone...

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    How to put it? If he admitted to them that anything was going on at all, he’d have to admit it to himself. He’d have to address that there is a problem there which he needs space and time to deal with. But it was easier to just go about thinking that there wasn’t an issue. Because if there was, then Shouto might lose control of his mind and emotions, which are kept well-checked. He doesn’t want to dig up anything from where it’s so neatly buried.

    ...

    UA holds a class teaching the heroes how to recognize the signs of child abuse. Todoroki is less than pleased with this; now that the whole class knows what to look out for, they’re starting to notice some things Todoroki would rather keep buried.

    **CHECK TAGS AND AUTHOR'S NOTES FOR TRIGGER WARNINGS**

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    "I've thrown it all away. There's nothing left. My personality, my ideals, me… It's all gone. I did this all to myself, and I know how it happened, but at the same time, I don't know why it happened."

     

    Note:
    - Slight TodoIida.
    Disclaimer:
    - I do not own BNHA/MHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.

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