14 Works in Suicidal John Watson

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    John is left with survivor's guilt, and is doing a damn fine job of drinking himself into death. His fury over Mary's death and his perceived personal failings have John convinced he is a waste of a man. He has yet to reconcile with Sherlock, despite the detective's bravery and selflessness. Placed time wise after Culverton Smith is caught, but before his conversation with Sherlock at the end of The Lying Detective. Sherlock reads John's letter, Mary makes a surprise visit, and everything else is fine. It's all fine, actually. And there will be smut. Alot, surprisingly (most of all to the author)

    PS - resubmitted due to some chapter revision - no new material added.

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    Every day, John Watson thought about killing himself. Most days, he got very very close to actually doing it.

    (Huge trigger warning here. Please seek help if you are thinking about suicide. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (in the US) can be reached at any time at 1-800-273-8255 or online at https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org)

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    1/1
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    It's the first Christmas after Reichenbach...

    December 17th: Christmas telly / scarf and coat

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    1/1
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    John had not slept since the Fall. Blue followed him everywhere. Four days, three hours and twenty-two minutes ago, melting into a horrifically short decade or a disturbingly long minute. He did not know which one he preferred. One thing was sure, he could not close his eyes without seeing a body laid out before him, peacefully sleeping on the pavement, in shades of passion red, pure white and impossible blue. (He should have brought a pillow for the sleeping man.)

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    What if John didn’t run into Mike Stamford? He would have never been introduced to Sherlock, and so how would their lives play out? Here they keep crossing paths… Season 1 events still happen, but play out differently as Sherlock and John are slowly brought together.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
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    7
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    67
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    Sherlock Holmes was taken to a rehab clinic to stop his drug addiction.

    John Watson is a suicidal army doctor that has been forced by his therapist to intern in a clinic to help him.

    Both are given a laptop with only one accessible page.

    Co-Text.com

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    8/?
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    48
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    4
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    He weighed it in his palms, running his knuckles along the chamber. Playing his fingertips across the trigger. John didn’t grimace, he didn’t smile. His face was concave, like the mind beyond its surface that had been run dry of emotions long ago. At first he had teetered between despondency and rage, until those vibrancies faded into the oily, bleak darkness.

    And he was so tired of feeling hollow.

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    1/1
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    8
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    80
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    8
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    John Watson is a Wayfinder, fresh off the War of the Skies. He leaves his home planet, hoping to find his death among the stars.
    Sherlock is a Siren, banished from his kingdom after a dreadful accident.
    A storm, a chase, a mystery, have these two unlikely companions found a reason to live?

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    Chapters:
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    1
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    38
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    11
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    Takes place immediately after the Fall. It's just a short little ficlet that I may or may not possibly add onto. This is also aggressively sad.

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    1/1
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    After the events of Part One, John decides to move back in. Sherlock decides to go to dinner at Angelo's. John is still angry, furious, even, but even he can see the changes in the Great Sherlock Holmes.

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    1/1
    Comments:
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    John doesn’t follow. Instead, he walks over to the window. He knows Sherlock often observes future clients from here, picking up on tells that are easy to spot before they’re aware he’s watching (oscillation on the pavement always means there’s a love affair).

    He doesn’t know what Sherlock has seen this time, though. John watches as he sees the front door open, Sherlock step out onto the pavement, and greet someone. His wave is tentative. John doesn’t see who it’s aimed towards, Sherlock must be too quick, because he suddenly hears the front door slam shut again. And then, two sets of footsteps and Sherlock talking in a low voice.

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    1/1
    Comments:
    8
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    157
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    18
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    El amor toma rehenes. Se cuela dentro de ti. Te come por dentro y te deja llorando en la oscuridad

    Language:
    Español
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    2,445
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    4
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    Sentiment is a chemical defect found in the losing side.

    After Sherlock fell, John was convinced it was all a trick, one of Sherlock's finest schemes. A year later, and the consulting detective had not returned. On the eve of the first anniversary of Sherlock's apparent suicide, John receives a mysterious text. But the John who responds is not the hopeful John of a year prior; he is the John who is losing. Losing his faith and his will to carry on.

     

    *This installment takes place before the events detailed in chapter two of "Crucial."

    Series
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    English
    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    2
    Hits:
    1206
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    Collected ficlets I've written for tumblr.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,536
    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    25
    Kudos:
    71
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    772

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