18 Works in Self-Loathing Caleb Widogast

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    In which Caleb is the Archmage General of the Zemnian Royal Army and he ends up joining the Mighty Nein anyway, even if he has to hide his powers.

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    “It was only supposed to be the one time. Just the one time. A mistake he made at the bottom of a glass. And it should have stayed buried in Trostenwald-- it should have-- but it didn't.

    It never does.”

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    Caleb fucked Molly within 24 hours of meeting him; the AU.

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    Caleb and Mollymauk are the only ones of the Mighty Nein at the Leaky Tap one night, when Caleb notices that a stranger seems to have designs on sleeping with Molly whether Molly wants it or not. Caleb must swallow down his fears of drawing attention in order to save his teammate from harm, but that still leaves as him the only one available to look after Molly as he sweats and suffers through the poison that was put in his drink for the sake of making him an easier target.

    In the depths of his fevered delirium, Molly admits some things - about his life, about his past - that Caleb knows he would never truly want to say or want anyone else to hear. But all Caleb can do is listen, try to ease the sickness, and reflect on what a burden understanding can sometimes be.

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    “Will you tell me another story?” she asks, head falling onto your shoulder.

    It’s a light burn, but a burn all the same. You always did like the feeling of fire.

    “I think I have used up my best ones,” you reply because your mind is fogged by the touch. “Will you tell me one of yours?”

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    [ SPOILERS FOR C2E49 ]

    “Again.”

    Bren obeys, as he always does. He mutters a cantation under his breath, one that he has no problem remembering, and lets his palms darken. Fire evolves — a flicker first, then a ball and then a ray that extends and slams against the wall of the basement that he’s spent countless hours in, the same bricks that have been darkened by fire over the years.

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    [ SPOILERS FOR C2E14 ]

    On moonless nights, Molly doesn’t sleep. It doesn’t feel right, not when there’s so much darkness. It makes his skin crawl in a strange way, a way that feels foreign and familiar at the same time. He can’t explain it, and neither can he understand it.

    So in the absence of the moon, he finds himself led to the only other source of light.

    The campfire has long since burned out, hiding away their little alcove in the shadows of trees, bushes and grass. Still, a little piece of light emits from the circle of carts - three dancing balls of light in the hands of a familiar wizard.

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    With only a handful of beds at the inn, Caleb and Jester are forced to share, but Caleb's mind won't allow him to rest easy. Rated for angst and the implications of torture and other criminal activities. Critical Role Campaign 2. Caleb and Jester. Widojest.

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    After a false start that was very nearly also the end, Caleb and Molly are starting to figure out the shape of their new relationship, both in bed and out. But one night, the gulf of sexual inexperience that lies between them gets to Molly just a little, and he asks for Caleb to teach him more.

    Caleb is happy to oblige. Even if he doesn't always understand why Molly enjoys what he does, the fact that he enjoys it is what matters. The fact that Caleb can give them both what they want in a way that's safe and loving means the world.

    He's only known sex as something painful before but now, together with Molly, maybe they can both make something better.

    (Written as a followup to "Ask Me No Questions, I'll Tell You No Lies", but can be read independently.)

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    Sequel to "More Than This".

    Though the Mighty Nein were able to restore Caleb's mind, the brand on his forehead betrays the other scars he still carries from his ordeal. As the Empire's policy of punishing "unauthorized mages" by branding their flesh and breaking their minds becomes more widespread, Caleb finds himself struggling beneath the feelings of fear and violation that he was never truly able to address before.

    He turned aside from retribution once already in the hopes of keeping his friends safe from the falling hammer, but the Mighty Nein have grown stronger since the tower fell. Mollymauk seeks to encourage him towards the idea that the time to strike back might be fast approaching. And perhaps, in the light of a corrupt institution burning down, Molly and Caleb might finally find their way together.

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    [ SPOILERS FOR CR C2E24 ]

    “You were always a better dancer than me, Astrid…"

    One, two, three. Caleb’s feet are bare against the dewy grass as he follows the rhythm of the music playing, his skin warm as the summer sun shines on him and the girl he’s holding onto. He squints as the light catches in his eyes, leaving him just able to make out a head of short brown hair and dimples that are caused by a soft smile.

    He smiles back, closing his eyes against the bright light.

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    [ SPOILERS FOR CR C2E18 ]

    There’s no sound, not yet. Just silence.

    And then it hits.

    It always does, the memories always come back to haunt him, and there’s no way to resist it or forget it. All he can do is ride it out, let it wash over him again and again.

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    All things considered, robbing a dragon was a foolish, reckless idea. But foolish, reckless things appeal to people down on their luck...

    In a world with dragons of all shapes, colors and sizes, Caleb and Nott get a bit more than they had bargained for when they find their way into a rumored hoard of treasures.

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    Mollymauk looses one of his Tarot cards and Caleb nearly looses his friend. Edit: write up changed so that it’s maybe a little less misleading.

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    Fjord reaches down to pick up a piece of cloth and a small jar of some kind of ointment. He moves with the deliberate care of someone familiar with patching up small wounds, working in silence as he applies ointment to the cut, and dresses it in a clean bandage. When he’s finished he tucks the end of the fabric in with gentle, precise movements, and rests back on his haunches, still holding Caleb’s hand in his own. The ritual of it is soothing. And for a moment it stills the churn of Caleb’s mind.

    After leaving Dashilla's lair, Fjord patches Caleb up. Caleb ruminates on his choices.

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    Caleb manages to keep it together after the confrontation with the fire giants.

    For awhile, at least.

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    Fjord has nicknames for everyone, except for Caleb.

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    Caleb held the pieces of the broken wagon wheel together as Jester muttered the spell of mending under her breath. Off to the side, he could hear the low murmur of Caduceus trying to calm the horses, who had gotten spooked and bolted when Nugget had suddenly blinked nearly under their hooves. Thankfully there had been no one else on the road to worry about, and no one had gotten seriously injured when one of the wheels had struck a rather large rock and the cart had nearly tipped over.

    “Just how attached are we to this dog?” Fjord asked the group as he sat on the side of the road. “Because if things like this keep happening I think we might have to find another home for him.”

    Someone has to train Nugget, if only to keep things peaceful in their group, and Caleb knows a little about fey creatures, after all.....

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    Caleb looked at his reflection in the small mirror that hung at his room at the inn for five whole seconds before looking away, looking back down at the basin of water and the dagger he had borrowed from Kiri laying beside it. Making eye contact with other people was hard. Making eye contact with himself was even worse. Still, if he wanted to make shaving a regular habit, he would have to learn to focus and endure it, at least for a short while.

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