1 - 20 of 1049 Works in Philip Shea/Lukas Waldenbeck

Pages Navigation

Listing Works

  1. Tags
    Summary

    It's just a stupid dance. That's what Philip keeps telling himself.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,792
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    41
    Bookmarks:
    3
  2. Tags
    Summary

    AU in which Philip was getting sexually abused by his mother's boyfriend and when the police found out the court ruled Anne an unfit mother and Philip was sent into foster care.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    101,703
    Chapters:
    31/?
    Comments:
    109
    Kudos:
    292
    Bookmarks:
    33
    Hits:
    9178
  3. Tags
    Summary

    Philip rubs his hand back and forth over Lukas’s chest and looks into the brightness of his eyes. They’re still learning each other, but each little piece of information adds to the rainbow mosaic of things he loves about Lukas. How much he likes chocolate milk. How he gets kinda pissy in movie theaters without recliners. The way he effortlessly takes off his clothes. How he doesn’t really like touching public phones, even though he gets dirty and muddy on the regular when he rides his bike. How he’s been tending to waking up early the nights they spend together, so he can watch Philip sleep.

    He takes his time to find things out about Philip too, needling him and questioning and asking for stories. In the beginning Philip might have mistaken some of these methods as ways to get into his pants, but now Lukas looks at him, really looks at him—all open honesty—he follows up, and he remembers.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,361
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    45
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    374
  4. Tags
    Summary

    Philip isn’t into girls, but he likes Ricki Anderton.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,374
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    12
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    309
  5. Tags
    Summary

    Some years have passed since the Tivoli events. Lukas and Philip are going through a painful break up. It seems like nothing can fix the situation, although they are both trying.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    7,961
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Kudos:
    10
    Hits:
    306
  6. Tags
    Summary

    "Grief is like an earthquake. The first one hits you and the world falls apart. Even after you put the world together again there are aftershocks, and you never really know when those will come." - unknown

    Or, a story following episode 1x10 of Eyewitness, detailing the repercussions of Lukas and Philip's trauma.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    34,177
    Chapters:
    15/?
    Comments:
    96
    Kudos:
    372
    Bookmarks:
    57
    Hits:
    7046
  7. Tags
    Summary

    Philip is nervous about the date Lukas has planned. Lukas is terrified about Lukas not liking where they're going. They both want to make this work, but will 'Bowling' be the right place to go?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,415
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    21
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    201
  8. Tags
    Summary

    “I hope they put our luggage on this plane,” Lukas says.

    “They did.”

    “Oh, did they tell you that?”

    “I’m gonna kill you,” Philip laughs.

    “Not before we see the Grand Canyon together,” Lukas says.

    “Okay deal,” Philip says. “Right after.” He kisses Lukas’s forehead. “You want me to drive when we get there? It should only be about an hour, a little over if our map is right.”

    “Oh, you’re wanting to drive now?” Lukas asks. “We gonna pull over again?”

    Philip raises his eyebrows. “That was a very special post-wedding mood.”

    “You need to get into the honeymoon mood,” Lukas says. “Because this is our literal honeymoon. This is why I wanted to go to the Keys or something more…romantic.”

    “This is gonna be really romantic,” Philip says. “Those sunset pictures—God, I’m gonna die.”

    (Final installment in Philkas college verse)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    26,223
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    22
    Kudos:
    57
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    639
  9. Tags
    Summary

    He has so many imaginary lists now, so many things he needs to keep track of. They only just went back to school three weeks ago, which doesn’t seem to be doing wonders for Philip’s mood, but Lukas’s surprise is finally ready. Completely ready, not painted and close, not a few boards from done, not lacking a ladder but complete other than that.

    No, it’s done, and he hasn’t been so proud of something in a while. He’s even happier because his dad helped him finish it. He knew he had an advantage, since he wasn’t supposed to exert himself, but he was so dead-set on making this happen that Dad saw the determination in his eyes and wasn’t going to let this father-son bonding opportunity slide into the ether. They were mostly silent as they built, but they worked as a unit, knowing what the other needed and how they could help, and Dad didn’t balk when Lukas revealed that this was for Philip. For the two of them, together.

    “Well,” Dad had said. “Let’s make sure we keep the splinters at bay.”

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,321
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    47
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    342
  10. Tags
    Summary

    Lukas nodded. "Yeah... being out is nice. I don't have to take you on dates in the city or at my house. I can take you out like a gentleman." Lukas pulled away to fix his tie, a tie that didn't exist.

    "You?" Philip laughed. "A gentleman? That's hard to believe." He winced when Lukas punched his arm. "Kidding."

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    831
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    325
  11. Tags
    Summary

    "You've never been normal. This-" Lukas pointed all around them. "You hate this! You hate normal people who like sports and running around and going to dances! You hate it! You say it's boring!"

    "Lukas..." Philip only sounded more tired. "This isn't about being normal or not. People who read books and like rock over boy bands aren't murdered. On the news.. I saw a gay man and his partner got beaten and killed in their own home. They called it a hate crime." Philip was crying. "I don't want that happening to me. That's why I didn't tell."

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,273
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    304
  12. Tags
    Summary

    Lukas tilted his head to the side and drug his finger in a circle, sighing. "I'm sorry..." He leaned down and kissed a mole that was on Philips shoulder. "I really am... I wish I could give you more... gave you more... but I was confused and afraid and I just..." Lukas closed his eyes. "Just be patient. I can make this worth it. I primise I will.." Lukas whispered. "I lo-" Lukas shook his head again. "I'm sorry... I just can't... not yet."

    Philip stirred in his sleep, moving a bit closer to Lukas. His eyes stayed closed and his mouth hung slightly open, soft breaths escaping his lips. His hair was fanned out against the pillows. If Lukas knew the flash wouldn't wake Philip up he would take a photo. That's what Philip told him to do when he saw pretty things. And to Lukas, Philip will always be the prettiest thing.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,412
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    31
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    347
  13. Tags
    Summary

    Lukas stared at him with wide eyes before looking away once more. He dropped Philips wrist, stuffing his hands in his pockets. "You... don't like girls? How can you do that?"

    "I just don't." Philip dug the toe of his shoe into the cracks of the sidewalk. "You don't have to like girls. Or kiss them or date them. That's just what... most people do. But not everyone is the same. That's what my mom said."

    Lukas knit his eyebrows together, contemplating. "So... you're mad that you don't like girls the same way everyone else does?"

    "Thats part of it." Philip backed away, chewing at his lip. "The other part is is that... I like you. And you like girls and you talk about kissing girls and dating girls and it sucks. You don't have to like me but it just..." Philip rubbed his face. "It's like... if I won a race and rubbed it in your face forever or something."

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,626
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    30
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    302
  14. Tags
    Summary

    Lukas pulls Philip into a hug. They don’t say anything either—Philip just closes his eyes and holds on to Lukas, the two of them swaying back and forth.

    You’re amazing. I mean, you’re awesome. The words echo in his ears. Times past, love growing in the midst of fear and uncertainty. All that horror giving way to softness, dedication, the kind of relationship he could only dream about. He realizes he doesn’t need to focus hard on all this to keep it in place. He’s found something special, and it’s simply part of his life now.

    “Let’s go get married, babe,” Philip says, kissing Lukas’s neck.

    “Yeah,” Lukas says, when they break apart. “Yeah, that sounds fun.”

    (Philip and Lukas's Wedding)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    21,150
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    20
    Kudos:
    62
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    768
  15. Tags
    Summary

    Central Park always feels like a different city in and of itself, and they set up the art exhibit in the middle of Sheep Meadow. Only four other kids got picked for this—Philip said that ten kids aced it but Mr. Wood’s park permit wouldn’t allow that many, but he still got picked to go. Mr. Woods is here and he seems like an exciting sort of guy, really amped to be doing something like this, and he’s exactly the kind of artsy teacher Lukas always pictured when he thought about college.

    Mr. Woods blew up Philip’s five main photos and a few of the smaller ones are on their own canvas, and they set them up on easels with little descriptions on the corners. Lukas steps back and admires the set-up, how nice it all looks.

    “People are already watching,” Philip says, once everybody is ready and standing by their work. He grabs Lukas’s elbow and seems nervous, twisting in on himself, trying to make himself smaller.

    “Good,” Lukas says, kissing Philip’s temple. “Your photos deserve to be seen. Even though they’re all me looking like an idiot.”

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,455
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    20
    Kudos:
    59
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    612
  16. Tags
    Summary

    "I want to have sex with Philip." Lukas' tray clattered against the wooden lunch table.

    Rose choked on her milk, covering her mouth. She set it down, picking up a napkin and wiping her mouth. "Isn't that what you're supposed to tell...him?" She asked, finally looking up at him. "Because.. I have no idea where I can even be involved in that situation, and honestly, I don't want to be involved."

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    927
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    41
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    946
  17. Tags
    Summary

    “I’m really proud of you,” Helen says, running her hand through his hair. “You two, well—you’ve—you’ve accomplished a lot. You didn’t let anything stop you, and I’m really, really proud of everything you’ve done. The man you grew to be.”

    Philip dips his head down and smiles softly, shaking his head. “We didn’t—” He knows he’s about to insult himself, and he’s so used to saying we, but doesn’t want to insult Lukas too. “I didn’t do anything,” he says. “Just, you know—normal shit.”

    Helen shakes her head at him. “You’re anything but normal, kid. You’re incredibly special and I just…don’t want you to forget it. She’d be so, so proud of everything you are.”

    He’s been thinking about his mom a lot lately. He wishes she was here so, so badly. He feels emotion welling up in his throat and he laughs to quell it, looking up at Helen. “Getting sentimental with me, huh?”

    “Of course,” she says, pulling him in and kissing the top of his head. “It’s graduation day!”

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,444
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    21
    Kudos:
    50
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    719
  18. Tags
    Summary

    Philip's thoughts during the dinner in Episode 6 (The Yellow Couch)

    Inspired by the absolutely heartbreaking looks Philip gave everyone after what Lukas says. I still have no idea how Philip forgave him for that one.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    768
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    48
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    687
  19. Tags
    Summary

    “I was lucky I got the tickets,” Lukas says. He’d booked their Statue of Liberty Crown experience like nine months ago, before he went off on the circuit. They’d been tossing around the idea of doing this for years, but it was so damn hard to get the crown tickets that Lukas gave up at least ten times before remembering to try again. Lucky was definitely the word for getting a booking on his birthday—more so that he actually remembered with enough time to get tickets for the right date.

    “It’s probably better we’re doing this when it’s cold,” Philip says, looking over his shoulder as the boat makes a slight jump. “Uh, because—in the summer it’ll be grossly hot and we’d probably die on those stairs.”

    “If you lose me on the stairs just keep going,” Lukas says. “Hopefully someone will drag my body the rest of the way and they can just leave it up there.”

    “Shut up,” Philip says, smacking him on the leg.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    6,411
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    46
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    485
  20. Tags
    Summary

    After one month later they're back in school, back to reality, back to just trying to figure it all out.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,046
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    10
    Kudos:
    44
    Bookmarks:
    4

Filters

Filter results:

Pages Navigation