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    456 players compete in 6 games in order to win a cash prize.

     

    (A Squid Game AU)

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    Things Abram had understood so far:

    1. He was dead, perhaps along with his mother.

    2. He had awakened in someone else's body

    3. He was probably in another world

    4. He was a goddamn prince

    5. It appeared that his cousin had usurped the throne and perhaps the previous owner of the body had tried to kill himself.

     

    He didn’t know how was possible.

    [...]

    He was dead, and barely remembered it, but his subconscious did.

    And dying sucked. He didn't want to repeat the experience, thank you very much. He had had a new chance and he had to use it well.

    How hard could it be to pretend to be Prince Neil? It was just another identity changing.

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    When Riko goes to far, it's up to Jean to make sure Neil makes it out alive.

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    “Hey, um, Josten?” Aaron’s voice is gruff but his face is pinched in that way that Katelyn knows means he’s worried as fuck. “I don’t know if you’re even lucid at this point, but. This is gonna suck.”

    whumptober day 13: cauterization

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    The Fox Intelligence Agency’s latest recruit, Neil Josten, is showing great promise. The only problem’s that he can’t stand one of the agency’s best agents — Andrew Minyard. And apparently, the feeling’s mutual.

    When the feud between them almost costs the team a mission, Director Wymack decides that the best course of action would be to send the two on a bonding trip.

    That is, he assigns them a top-secret infiltration mission, where the only way for them to survive would be to learn to cooperate.

     

    A spy AU.

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    After their latest Exy game, Neil gets kidnapped alongside Aaron while trying to protect him. The two suffer from hell and back together, and an unlikely bond forms as a result.

    Andrew Minyard has never been good with feelings or with wanting, but he wouldn't be lying if he said he was scared to lose his family and that he wanted them back.

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    At Thanksgiving dinner, Neil gets to Andrew faster. The result isn’t any better. Neil is still a martyr and Andrew is not happy.

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    After a horrible turn of events at a college party, Neil is left with even more emotional trauma to to work through. With fresh trauma piled on top of the leftovers from the previous year, and his attacker refusing to leave him alone after that fateful night, Neil starts to wonder if even his newfound family will be enough to help him keep his head above the water, or if he will drown under the crashing waves before the year ends.
    **
    Set in Neil’s sophomore year.

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    Andrew is satisfied by the sight of the dead body, though he can’t bring himself to remember this man’s face or why he even killed him. Because it has to be Andrew.

    Or, Andrew wakes up with sickening sobriety and blood on his hands from a murder he doesn't remember committing. To make things worse he ends up saddled with a voiceless stranger who refuses to give up details to fill the gaps in Andrew's memory.

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    –Você se sente culpado?
    É a primeira coisa que Bee pergunta.
    –O que?
    –É bem comum as pessoas se sentirem... culpadas nessa situação.
    Do que ela estava falando?
    –Que situação?
    Perguntei sentindo o ambiente a minha volta parecer mudar, as cores saturadas e os sons como se eu estivesse submerso, a última coisa que escuto claramente é Bee.
    –O acidente.

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    Neil notices something wrong the minute Andrew and Kevin are acting shady. They sneak around, they talk in whispered tones. But Neil can’t find any evidence of what it could be.

    They wouldn’t keep anything from him, right? Or are they sick of him now?

    Neil, Kevin and Andrew have been in a relationship for a couple years now, they’re in the last years of college and life just seems to get more and more scary.

    Andrew told Neil never to let anyone into their tiny apartment, or to never go out without a bracelet (Neil knows it’s a tracking device), and also not to go out at night.

    It’s not controlling, it’s protection. Neil knows this - but he doesn’t know what the protection is from.

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    Neil was seven the first time he felt it. He was used to pain, accustomed to it by this stage, the feeling of a weight pushing him down and down, suffocating him, his arms and chest and head too heavy, his flesh and bones burning and ripping and scarring. Pain was something he knew all too well. But the pressure he felt deep in his gut and down in between his legs was something that he was too young to even understand, let alone comprehend feeling. And it hurt and ached in a way that he never did before, in a way that left him sobbing quietly into his pillow as his body shook from the pain, his heart aching in his chest equally as bad.

    It was a strange feeling for him, pain being unusual, something he couldn’t understand. For Neil had known pain his whole life. But this, this was something else, something too harsh and deep and heavy, something he wished he would never feel again.

     

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    Neil and Andrew are soulmates, who can feel each others pain and reside in the back of each others minds, no matter how hard they wish that they didn't.

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    Andrew knew Neil was trouble. He did not anticipate how much of a problem he would be though.

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    Even now, lying in the cold concrete floor of wherever he is, surrounded by armed men and women, drowsy from a concussion and drugs, and body pulsating in pain from several places, he still doesn’t believe in regret. Even at the face of the bastard in front of him, the cruel smile and the hungry glint of his eyes, he’d always choose to stay.

    Even if the FBI may have been right to say the Witness Protection Program was the only logical path to choose with so many of his father’s men and allies still out there.

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    Drabble I posted on Tumblr a while ago, but edited and better formated based on the idea of Neil finding out that the feds were on to something when they talked about witness protection.
    I have no inspiration for the title so have that from The Hurt, The Hope by As It Is

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    Andrew and Neil have been fuckbuddies since who knows when. Neil is tired of that, he wants something real with Andrew.

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    Wanting, wanting, wanting.

    Andrew had let go of the longing to want years and years ago. He had died to start over without the need to want. He was living two lives only to protect what was his, but he was ready to let go and spend the rest of his days on the shore of Burlesca, drowning his memories in the waves crashing against the cliffs.

    Wanting. Wanting. Wanting.

    Strands of dark hair peeking out from a couch swept the ground underneath him. Clear blue eyes sparkling with the joy of having healthy legs pierced him. He wasn’t allowed to want. Not even an illusion. The coniglio would disappear as fast as he crashed into his world, and Andrew didn’t have any reason to learn to live without him if he hadn’t even learned to live with him.

    Wanting. Wanting. Wanting.

    Wanting was more dangerous than any other thing that Andrew had known.

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    An AU where Mary never got Nathaniel out. Instead, he became too invaluable of an asset to be killed off or 'gifted' to Tetsuji. Instead, he's raised with Ichirou and Jean as a part of Ichirou's inner circle.

    He'd always had a knack for languages and lying and all the 'messy stuff' came easily enough when your father is called the Butcher of Baltimore. So Nathaniel became the Wraith. He was untraceable, unknowable, infalliable; a criminal fairytale.

    When Kevin Day leaves the Nest, there's no better person to send.

    ~

    "Who the hell are you?" Andrew demanded.

    He wasn't anyone, not really; not anymore. He hadn't really been anyone in years now. There'd been a time. Once. But there were entire lifetimes between who he could have been and what he'd become. He could taste it sometimes; blackberries and sand stinging his tongue like the iron branded on his shoulder.

    It was easier to pretend he'd never been anyone at all.

    "I'm nothing," he answered. the ghost of a smile pulled at his lips; sharp and cruel. "A wraith." The Wraith, he didn't say, but the shadows ran through Adnrew's eyes and he wondered if Andrew had heard it anyways.

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    There was little they could do, let alone see Neil's condition. He was desperate, lost and they could only tell he was alive by his breathing and his eyes.
    Because, as much as the life had gone out of his body, anger still gleamed in his eyes. It burned like the flames of hell itself.
    Andrew could be called a monster all they wanted, but right now…
    ...was Neil the one everyone trembled with with dread.

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    A hurricane traveling up the coast from Florida is set to touch down in Palmetto, a problem no one predicted would incur anything other than storm damages. But hurricanes fuck with barometric pressure, which fucks with scar tissue. And Neil has a lot of that, so when he wakes up in excruciating pain convinced that the past seven months after Baltimore weren’t real, he does the one thing he’d promised not to do anymore.

    He runs.

    Andrew isn’t far behind of course, but Neil is firm in his belief that he never left the car with Lola. There’s also a flash flood advisory to worry about, and he very much tore out of Fox Tower in nothing but a t-shirt and boxer shorts during a literal tropical storm.

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    Neil has a dissociative episode that sends him running and Andrew does a lot of feeling over it.

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    Neil is reminded on his mother's death during a movie night with Andrew and has a panic attack. Andrew supports Neil through it.

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