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    "I’m the safe one here when everything else feels like it did in Hell. When things feel different, and gross, and untrustworthy, and some twisted parody of what’s supposed to be safe. It’s me, Sam. I’m here to keep you safe. Exactly the way you do for me.”

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    After the fight with Michael, Gabriel wakes up in a strange place. The being that lies in wait for him doesn't take kindly to new company.

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    “All he ever did to you was make you feel like you deserved what you got. And taunting you by pretending like affection was some kind of privilege - I hate that he did that to you, Gabriel. I hate that he made you believe in him like that.”

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    King Dean is a cruel man who views his subjects as playthings and makes them as such through lotteries. They vie for his affection only to be rewarded with a lifetime of private servitude. To resist the king is to be killed or much worse. There are far many worse things than death running around the mad king's mind. Gabriel Novak went along with the police when his name was drawn only to keep his family from fighting on his behalf. He might have saved his family, but he sacrificed himself, losing all that he was to the fine training program that all future members of the harem must go through. As a harem whore, he meets the king's brother, a reclusive man named Sam, one of the few knights left in the realm. Gabriel has to pleasure him for the whole week. Sam likes Gabriel, but Gabriel only belongs to Dean.

    After a brutal attack and railing accusations, Gabriel is thrown into the streets. When Sam learns about this much later, he deserts his post and goes looking for the golden-eyed man who had started to steal his heart. Dean is furious, but there isn't much he can do, collared and leashed in his own room by a vengeful stranger. What kind of happiness can come from such ruin and torment? Yet still there is hope.

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    “I know you would never take my grace. You’ve driven that home for me. It’s just that … the nightmare … it reminded me that there’s something worse.”

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    "If someone was going to take advantage of Gabriel’s grace, it would be Sam. And imagining Sam in the role of Asmodeus, as Sam Winchester, was uniquely sickening."

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    Liv hasn’t seen Gabriel since he died nine years ago, then a phone call changes everything.

    ‘He figured at some point when Dad was pulling everything together, turning atoms into molecules and molecules into trees, platypus’, angels and humans, a piece of her must have been thrown into him by mistake. One little molecule meant for her was whirring around wreaking chaos, rewiring his electrical currents. How could something so small and insignificant be so profound that it changed fate itself?’

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    “What does Sam do to keep you trusting him?”

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    "One thing, at least, had become clear: pushing Sam away was dragging Gabriel backward. Guilt, fear, revulsion - all of these had lately become just a little less familiar to him, or at least less habitual. Now they were regaining momentum."

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    It's been a few months after Gabriel was rescued from Asmodeus and he believed the nightmares had stopped. He thought he was finally comfortable with being touched again. But never could be so wrong.
    One night he had a dream about a repressed memory that something had triggered. How could he ever allow someone to touch him again?

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    “Castiel squeezed Gabriel's fingers. 'I think this was inevitably going to come up for you - although I certainly wish it hadn’t - and of course it’s nothing short of traumatic. But please, don’t think of it as a barrier to what you have with Sam. This is only a moment’s interruption. The fallout isn’t going to take him away from you.'”

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    “I was just low enough on grace that I needed to breathe, but not so low that I’d be a goner if I didn’t. Which meant that Asmodeus could keep me in there as long as he wanted and he wouldn’t lose me. So I couldn’t breathe, but I couldn’t die either, and … Sam, being trapped in a coffin while you’re still in a cage is, like, meta-captivity. And there’s no captivity like the halfway point between breathing and dying.”

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    “Gabe, whether I’m okay doesn’t really phase me since I’ve never been anywhere near what most people would consider ‘okay.’ But so long as I’m bad enough to forget how to function, I can’t be any use to you.”

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    “I could feel it coming on all night, but I was hoping it’d wear off once I got used to being here. I really thought I was on my way out of this. And my grace … sometimes it fluctuates by the hour.”

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    “Grace. I’m good for my grace. So long as I’m here, just waking up to throw a fit, I don’t matter, okay? And when I was with him, I was nothing. But I mattered. Because I could supply something that mattered. And now I can’t even do that.”

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    “It’s a gross feeling, I know. The whole nightmare game. Truth is I’d rather face down an entire army of Michaels than go through that every night like I used to. Listen - I'm not Sam, but I know how to do this."

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    "It isn’t that this is more than I can handle. It’s that he tried to shatter you into as many pieces as Asmodeus did to me. I’m trying to imagine anybody doing that to you. I know my brother is capable of anything; I wish I didn’t know, but I do. And even him … I get that the universe doesn’t play fair but trying to wrap my head around anyone wanting to destroy you like that … it isn’t coming easy.”

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    “The mirror ... it didn’t show me. It showed - I mean, yes, it was me, but - when he told me I was greedy, that he’d always be inside of me and it was my fault - when he made me look at myself, he changed me."

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    “I’ll lie down on the floor right now and let you do whatever you want to me. I’ll freakin’ HAND you that archangel blade. I’ll brew whatever poison you want, however many times you want. But I’m done with having you treat me like I’m worth anything to you. Like I’m worth anything at all.”

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    “He was right! He was right to do what he did! I know that now; I - I was only good for my grace and when I couldn’t give it - I was nothing. I’m still nothing. I can’t give you anything. I tried and I can’t. I’m nothing.”

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