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    9. drunken thoughts learning

     

    Dean's drunken thoughts and feelings after Cas is taken by the Empty.

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    Cas is stuck in The Empty, Chuck has Thanos-snapped everyone they’ve ever known to fuck knows where, and now Jack’s going through some kind of cosmic puberty Dean’s eighth grade health class definitely did not prepare him for. They’ve got two hunters at the end of their rope, a recently-exploded half-angel kid, a witch who just came back from the dead (again), and Billie Mark II, who’s only redeeming quality is that she hasn’t actually killed Dean...yet. Team Free Will 3.0. Here we go.

    **This fic is completely written and updates weekly on Tuesdays.**

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    With an ear-shattering crash, more ground broke away from the edges of the chasm where the crack-lines had grown outwards. Where Dean was. Jack found himself screaming—not words, but a burst of pure terror manifesting as sound. He no longer struggled against Sam's grip, watched numbly as Dean crouched down and then leaped right as the ground crumbled away beneath his feet. Thick lumps of soil and uprooted plants plunged into the abyss below.

    Post-Episode 15x18 "Despair"

    After Castiel's confession, Dean carries a spark of hope that tells him this can't be the end. This spark is Dean, Sam and Jack's strongest weapon in the final war. The enemy is God. The battlefield is an Earth devoid of humans, a Hell in rebellion, and a Heaven betrayed by its creator. And the stakes are everything and everyone they have ever cared about.

    I've created a text "trailer" as a new kind of summary experience:
    Empty Earth (Trailer)

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    Told in alternating third person POV of Dean, Cas, & Charlie.

    It's been a few weeks since Cas got out of the Empty, and Dean can't accept that there's finally peace in the world. Watching the camera footage of the dungeon scene on repeat probably isn't helping. Cas is content to give Dean space to heal, even if the loneliness at the end of the journey is settling in.
    On the request of Sam, not that she needed an excuse, Charlie spends the night in the Bunker trying to figure out what's going on with these idiots, and getting more answers than she bargained for. With the help of Stevie, she comes up with a plan that might finally bring Dean and Cas together.

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    As Dean grieves, Jack tells them of an old story, one that has been told and sung over and over again anyway. Two lovers challenge the universe to escape death. They walk the long way home, but the one in front is not allowed to turn around for the whole way. Every entity of grand power knows this, for the pact has to be respected were it ever to be attempted again.

    Of course, Dean goes to find Castiel, because if anyone can do this, it's them.

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    The confession scene, from Castiel’s point of view.

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    Dean figures that if Bert and Ernie can be... "Bert and Ernie" and not share a bed, then he and Cas should be able to figure this out.

    When Cas is brought back from the Empty, Dean and Cas think that, with a little understanding, maybe the confession doesn't have to change much.

    Much changes anyways.

    Or: Dean and Cas try for a queerplatonic relationship but, somewhere along the way, they forget the platonic part.

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    The world is empty. Castiel’s sacrifice has left them reeling. The aftermath of Jack’s detonation creates something in him that he doesn’t understand. Dean cedes all leadership to Sam, lost in the numb haze of guilt and grief. Sam’s renewed determination carries them all, and he refuses to accept any outcome that isn’t the world put to rights and his family, all of them, together again.

    The three of them aren’t all that’s left, however; Michael finds that his personal freedom and refusal to fight come at too high a cost. Suppressed voices fight to be heard, and Death’s absence creates a unique if morbid opportunity.

    Earth is a necropolis, Heaven is collapsing in on itself, and victory over Chuck won’t be enough to repair a crumbling universe, nor will returning to old regimes be enough to prevent a free world from repeating its mistakes. The actions and decisions determining the shape of reality can no longer be restricted to a road that always leads to the Winchesters.

    Updates Thursdays, starting April 1st, 2021

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    Out of millions of chances that life had given them time after time this was it. He still couldn't believe it, it still felt like a dream, strange realization as it hit him. If it was indeed a dream, he preferred to stay in it and never wake up but it wasn't. He was finally having his happy ending and it was cheesy. He hope life got more for him, he hope in reality it was just the start of a new adventure. The adventure of a new opportunity, an adventure of second chances.

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    Castiel wakes up next to the ocean with his pick-up truck, three PB&J's, and a colorful letter from Jack. Apparently, he's been saved from the Empty. He doesn't know how or why, but all he knows is that Dean and Sam are completing a job in Malibu five hours away, and he has to see them immediately. And most importantly, he has to talk to Dean.

    Dean is completing a hunt in California when he receives a call from Cas, of all people. Castiel, who he hasn't seen in six months ever since the Empty took him away. Cas, his best friend (maybe more) who he's been grieving and is now suddenly on the phone with him, talking casually as if that huge love confession didn't happen. Apparently, he's been saved from the Empty. He doesn't know how or why, but all he knows is that Castiel is three hours away and he's going to see him soon. In the flesh. And he's pretty sure he's about to pass out.

    This is a story spanning 1674 miles and five states. Along the way, there are some much needed conversations.

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    Going home. Home. The word bounces around his skull, warm and welcoming. He looks back up at Dean, at that face he’d memorized long ago.

    “Yeah, home,” Dean says. “Let’s go.” He tugs on Cas’ hand, and Cas steps forward –

    Into empty space.

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    Dean struggles after Cas is taken by the Empty and Dean wonders how long he can hold out. Cas comes back right before things take a turn for the worse.

    Sneaky peak:

    Cas pulled Dean up to a stand and wrapped his arms around his shoulders, bringing him into a tight embrace. Cas was still unsure what he was allowed to do with Dean, since that  conversation had not been brought up yet, but he thought he was very entitled to a hug right now. Dean hugged him back and Cas couldn't stop the smile from spreading across his face. Though as if reading his mind, Dean spoke softly.

    "You can have me. You have me. Thank you for coming back to me Cas." 

    "Ill always come back to you, Dean" 

     

    (15x20 fix-it essentially because what the hell was that)

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    “Actually,” he says. “Let’s buy a house.”

    “What?” Jack asks, eyes wide.

    “Let’s get a house,” Dean says. “Let’s find somewhere and--and live there. Somewhere with windows.”

    “Windows?” Jack says, like he’s never heard of such a thing.

    “Yeah,” Dean says. “How does that sound?” Jack drops his animal crackers and throws himself at Dean, wrapping his tiny arms around Dean’s waist.

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    This has some MAJOR spoilers for 15x18 read with cation
    this happens right after 15x18
    sad dean goes to a bar after Cas died and uses bad coping mechanisms to help with the death. while at the bar he makes a drunken realization that may change his life forever

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    “You dumb son of a bitch,” he mumbles, and Cas tightens his fingers around the seal, the light hitting him with cruelty, but it doesn’t hurt as much as the look on Dean’s face.

    [OR time travel episode but it's glitchy and cas gets transported to every time dean lost him]

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    Cas is taken by the Empty. Chuck has dusted everyone. Sam, Jack, and Dean are alone, and must once again find a way to save the world and bring back those they love. Other than that, I don't know. As a great angel once said, "We're making it up as we go." (will update summary when fic is finished, whenever that is).

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    After the dust settles, and Chuck is finally defeated, and Jack just leaves them after getting the job done, Dean is stuck with the revelation that he's all alone and that he was a massive asshole to everyone in his life who was just doing their best to help him.

    Cue Dean aggressively trying to make up for his actions and doing whatever he can to try to be the selfless person Cas thought he was, even though he knows that he wasn't. These attempts at becoming the kind of person Cas would be proud of include becoming a mechanic, quitting hunting, taking good care of his dog, volunteering at the homeless shelter, and even, god forbid, quitting alcohol. The one thing Dean just can't seem to quit is his weird inability to move on from Cas, even though Cas probably would've wanted him to do that too.

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    It starts with anger, of course; most of the ideas Castiel has have been met with that. This time, though, instead of the anger coming solely from the elder Winchester, it is a united chorus from all of them. The choir flows into bargaining, eventually being backed by a full orchestra of third day denial. The percussion of depression comes soon after the fourth day. By the time they reach acceptance on Saturday, the conductor has already put down his bow.

    They end up agreeing to Castiel’s plan without actually saying those words. They just stop.

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    “How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses.

    The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard.

    The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver.

    “I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.”

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    Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.

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    Dean's fine.

    Then he gets a piece of metal stuck through his ribs and he doesn’t die, even though he’s pretty sure he should’ve.

    He’s still— fine. No matter what Sam thinks.

    (And Cas is still gone.)

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