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    It's been a year and Dean prays every day. Not to Cas. The idea of praying to Cas when he knows there's no chance of Cas hearing a word down in the empty is unbearable. Instead he prays to the new God.

    On the day Jack answers his prayers and visits, Dean gets more than he'd even hoped to pray for.

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    Aziraphale and Crowley are having a lovely happily ever after when they receive a desperate plea for help

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    Nearly a year after Cas' death, Dean finds himself, of all places, at an AA meeting.

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    The title says it all.

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    Dean confesses first.

    I'm discussing the conflicts brought up by canon (especially the overlooked aspects of Sam and Jack's experiences), confronting what it could actually mean to be trapped in a story made by a cruel and angry God, making an admittedly strange string of Lord of the Rings references, and poking at the fourth wall.

    Join me.

     

    FYI, tags and things might change as I post, because this is the first fic I'm posting here and I'm still pretty confused by how Ao3 works?

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    After Castiel is dragged away to the empty, Dean flees the bunker and everything he knows. He takes a job as a live-in ranch worker. For a while, it seems like a peaceful place to be alone with his thoughts and battle his demons, but the horror that has plagued him all his life is never far behind. What seeds that are sown over a smoky summer will soon be reaped.
    "I love him" is obsession, a thought doing flips in his brain. It’s a gargoyle, spewing rainwater; ugly to deflect ugly. That, or maybe keep-your-angels-close-and-your-demons-closer; let’s keep the devils where we can see them. I love him is the curse he tries to keep at bay, shivering in the night, curled in a heap on a camping mattress, covered in army issue wool blankets in Jody’s spare bedroom.

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    The Yellow-Eyed Demon has vanished into the ether, along with the one weapon that could kill it for good. Dean miraculously recovers from the car crash that should have left him in a coma - or worse - and no one has heard from Cas in weeks. Reeling from the death of their father, Dean is caught between watching Sam develop his psychic powers and telling him terrible truth about them.

    When Cas reappears in their lives again, he comes with even stranger revelations no one can make heads or tails of. Between the mounting demonic omens and downright bizarre cases they find themselves on, Dean has the sinking feeling that things are going to get much, much worse.

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    Dean wondered whether he would get bored with heaven eventually. The endless cycle of family cookouts and roadhouse game nights was easy happiness he was more than willing to settle for. And it’s not that heaven is perfect or even that good, but there is peace and after all the apocalypses prevented, Dean is just tired.
    But then the real Jack returns and Dean's hard earned peace is swept away by the chaos of a new war against the false god. Midst the fighting across all planes of existence, from Heaven to Hell, all Winchesters need to learn hard lessons about the family they want, and the family they need.
    All the while Dean desperately tries to get his truth out, because the words stuck in him are choking and he is pretty sure the silence is killing him all over again.

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    That night, his dreams are fuzzy, half-formed sensations of rocking a baby back and forth, humming quietly, with a warm and familiar presence hovering over his shoulder.
    It feels like a happy dream, but he jerks awake in the early morning sun as if it were a nightmare.

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    dean moves to the pacific northwest to start over.

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    It’s nice not to feel sometimes. Maybe that’s why Cas doesn’t delve too deeply into figuring out what this absence of feeling must mean, because he secretly desires that cold, distant nothing feeling. The more likely reason is that Cas already knows what’s wrong with him. He’s not looking it in the face, not acknowledging the truth of it that sits heavily on his shoulders, pinning him to the earth with its undeniable presence.

    See, Jack brokered a deal wherein Cas gave the Empty his grace in exchange for a life back on earth and Cas was wiped clean of every angelic notion to the very dregs. And in its place, there is nothing.

    Cas is graceless. Cas is soulless.

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    A Poem from Dean's POV after Cas' Confession

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    11 years ago, Castiel reached for Dean and dragged him out of hell.
    Now it’s Dean’s chance to return the favor- and finally tell his angel… everything.

    (I’m shit at summaries, dean saves cas bc fuck you)

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    "Dean!"

    A brush of desperate fingers against sandpaper skin. It’s enough for the tears in his eyes to make a second appearance that night and, like before, he fights tooth and nail to keep them at bay. He won’t cry. He won’t break. He can’t. Not here. Not now. Not in front of him. How could he?

    Now that he knows, how could he?

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    dedicated to Misha Collins, who played Castiel beautifully for 12 years and ended up in one of the worst bury your gays stories of modern times
    love you buddy

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    Set after S15 E18: Despair
    Dean Winchester deals with the aftermath of Castiel's death and confession.
    Sam just wants his brother to be okay.

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    Coming back sometimes means coming undone. Cas has a body now, just the one, for the rest of his life. He must learn to live in it, to heal. Jack deserves that. Dean needs that. If the words must go unsaid, he’ll paint them into his skin.

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    After a rough hunt in the pouring rain, Cas goes looking for dry clothes in Dean's closet. What he's not expecting to find is a worn green jacket with a very familiar handprint stained on the shoulder.

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    Cas finds out Dean has saved the confession scene jacket.

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    EPISODE SUMMARY: Still reeling from the loss of their loved ones, Sam, Dean, and Jack try to regroup before the final battle. But Chuck is always five steps ahead -- and this time, he's brought an old friend with him.

    The real 15x19, featuring dog-snapping, man-objectifying torture, "Juice" by Lizzo, and meta-commentary from our best friend Becky.

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    This is from Dean's POV, his reaction to Cas's love confession.

    This is just a short poem that I wrote for a Creative Writing prompt. The prompt was simply to write a confession. So, obviously, I had to make it about Destiel.
    Posting it because I'm proud of it and because I need to add to our 100k+ fanfics. Destiel Supremacy what can I say.

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